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karna is the epitome of tragic teenage girlism and i have so many thoughts about her
(from my tiktok!!)
#kings and lords don't care about orphans in a time of war#she has been hungry her entire life#she made herself matter#and in her quest for power#she is destroying herself#(incomprehensible screaming)#karna solara#dimension 20#the ravening war#aabria iyengar
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Empress and her Bodyguard.
(OCs, grey haired lady Zaphira she/her, demon Shargon he/they)
(also some details up close)
and this guy bc i find him funny
#ganondoodles#art#digital art#painting#artists on tumblr#ocs#original character#look i had to call it quits at some point#so if i waited anylonger to post it in whatever form of finished it was i would have lost interest and would never have posted it so#here it is#also you guys get more info#zaphira is the empress of the largest land in this world and conquered most of it in her youth#she used to be obsessed with war bc she wanted to prove herself to be the strongest ruler there was after the violent death of her-#adopted parents#she grew to see that that isnt the way in part bc of her lover at that time who was a general in her army#but she died in that battle and since then zaphira has been trying to rebuild whatever she destroyed and give back what she can#but she is still very hated and couldnt leave her palace for the longest time bc of assassins until she heard of a demon lurking around#and sought him out to be her bodyguard bc who would dare attack her when shes got a demon at her side#this is her arriving at the palace of another country whos leader challegned her to a fist fight bc he thought shes frail and old#(its an assassination attempt- she knows that)
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sin eater
#sorry its been a minute!!! the horrors. you understand.#anyways yall ready for another gloom tag essay because here we go!!!#im constantly thinking about the ramifications of uzi literally eating cyn and her now being apart of her.#specifically how it impacts uzi mentally. like dgmw i LOVE the silly cyntail shenanigans in fanart (ive also contributed to this) however#when i really think about it in relation to uzi's arc i go crazy insane#uzi is a character who is grasping for control after a lifetime of not having it.#she has no control over how her peers treat her. she has no control over khan neglecting her for reasons that arent her fault.#she quite literally has no control over the solver taking her over and making her do monstrous things against her will#which solidifies her feelings of being a freak monster who everyone was right to outcast and mistreat.#because im Unwell i interpret her calling herself god as a way to convince herself of having control- and to lock away feelings of impurity#if anyone is in control- if anyone is loved and cherished despite any and all wrong doings- its a god.#and that all comes to a head when she eats the heart of cyn thereby destroying the AS- a literal manifestation of a corrupted god- for good#finally taking back control from the entity that had been terrorizing and traumatizing both her and her loved ones. but did she really?#cyn is apart of her now. powerless sure- but that doesnt take away the horrors she wrought previously#and even so- has uzi ever stopped being just a host? do you think shes terrified of cyn regaining power out of the blue?#do you think uzi ever stops feeling like a monster?#“sin eating” was a thing that happened where someone would consume ritual foods to take on the sins of a recently deceased person#thus absolving said deceased person of any sins and putting them onto the sin eater. being a sin eater ensured eternal damnation.#and i just think about that a lot. when applying that (symbolically ofc(somewhat literally. she very much is a cyn eater)) to what uzi did.#“gloom you're reading way too much into this” THE LITTLE GOTH ROBOT. MAKES ME INSANE IN THE HEAD. OK!!!!!#gloom.art#murder drones#murder drones fanart#murder drones uzi#uzi murder drones#uzi doorman#uzi md#md uzi#uzi fanart
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#tsou#the secret of us#the secret of us the series#earn sanitada#orm kornnaphat#oh she's unhinged UNHINGED#perhaps I love... fictional unhinged women...#hope this doesn't awaken something in me#anyway I always thought that Earn is the scary one instead of Lada#she's just so expressive with everything#and her impulsive ass would make her explosive when she's angry angry#exhibit A#combined with her cute puppy eyes and it's LETHAL#also I love how she softens at the end like 'what have I done?'#like she's actually disappointed with herself by being angry#and she just wants to leave and sulks somewhere#Orm is also so expressive with her eyes tbh#I'm thinking of Earn realizing that she could be so destructive toward herself and people around her#would that destroy her? How would she redeem herself? That would be incheresting to watch#titfairygifs
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Powder is a character that from the very start deserved to live. she deserved to get what she needed to not just survive, just as Ekko said btw. She was always called a Jinx, got everything taken from her, lost at any given turn
she was a character who, despite her own suicidal tendencies, NEEDED to live and to win for the audience. for her character. people like us deserve to see someone living despite this.
they killed her and for what? she needed to live.
#dont come at me with your “but she did live”#i really do not give a shit#even IF she survived they still had her sacrifice herself that alone destroyed it all#fuck#arcane#arcane season 2#spoilers#jinx#powder#vi
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Okay but I'm going a bit insane about the growing disconnect of "maybe we're meant to harness it"/"maybe we're meant to fight it". They both thought they were on the same page when they said it, when actually they were on polar opposite ends of the same spectrum. Imogen meant "I never plan to give in to this power even if part of me wants to, I will continue fighting it, but it’s a comfort knowing there’s someone who understands the temptation and who I know won't judge and will still love me and understand if I ultimately fail and give in". Meanwhile to Laudna it meant "I've been in this struggle for longer than I can remember and I don’t know if I can do it much longer. I don’t know if I want to. I don’t know if I even should, or if giving in would be better for all of us because I'm a lost cause. You understand this about me and won't judge as I inevitably am doomed by the narrative, and you won't demand of me that I fight an inherent part of myself, even if it’s destroying me". And Imogen is finally catching on to this disconnect, is realizing that to Laudna their connection isn’t just understanding but an excuse, not too different from Lilliana. And, desperate of losing Laudna to power just like she did her mother, she says, 'if you let me go, I'm gone', meanwhile Laudna is going 'all I can do for you is die and let you go to lift you up' and both of them are going 'why are you so upset about this. i love you'.
#laudna#imogen temult#critical role#cr3#laudna truly is a FASCINATING character#she's happy and living every moment bc she's already accepted she's a lost cause#she's been neither fighting it nor embracing it for 30 years and now she has an excuse to embrace it#bc embracing it means protecting imogen. even if it also means giving in to temptation and letting imogen ultimately lose her#which is okay to laudna bc LOST CAUSE. She’s happy and living every moment with imogen now but can’t imagine a future for them together#she thinks imogen will go in to greatness after laudna has given up everything to help get her there#bc if laudna doesn’t give up everything and tries to fight imogen will help her#and imogen helping her will mean laudna holding imogen back#she doesnt see that in destroying herself shes destroying part of imogen bc she sees no value in her own life bc of living on borrowed time#I'm going insane about them!!#southern gothic#imodna#nella talks cr
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popping in randomly after almost an entire month just to talk non stop about the tsaritsa again everyone sit down.
specifically just thinking about the implications of tsaritsa's ideals originally being about love + the abandonment of those ideals to complete her goal of, presumably, destroying Celestia or whatever she's cooking up. to the point even her people don't love her and I probably don't even remember a time her ideals were of love. now it's all just ice and snow and cold.
which makes romantic fics w her even funnier because she's purposely removed this part of herself and suddenly reader walks into teyvat like they own the place (they do) and I can only imagine her reaction. angry, probably. because why you? what are you doing to her that's caused her hundreds of years of strict adherence to rejecting "love" both from others and to others to just. collapse. absolute shattering of her world and you probably don't even know it bc if nothing else she's good at hiding it. a lot of denial. tries to pick you apart and see what's makes you so different.
and oh she just hates it. she loathes it.
basically one sided enemies to lover trope because she can't stand you for a while but if you stick around she starts warming up to you and it makes it WORSE. so much worse. tries to distance herself but your just everywhere and it gets on her nerves because why does she love you? she isn't capable of love, not anymore. she thought she was.
g-d forbid one of the harbingers or PIERRO notices she'd never live it down. might even consider the implications of just killing you (she doesnt). worse if you know about it and act like a brat she will lose her damn mind
just the tsaritsa being an absolutely horrible mess internally.
#sagau#genshin sagau#self aware genshin#genshin impact sagau#self aware genshin impact#genshin cult au#genshin impact cult au#tsaritsa#i could also talk sbt furi here and how similar they r + how writing one of them influences my writing of the other#but anyway#ive been busy moving i havent had time to write unfortunately#but i do have time for tsaritsa! and furi. mwah#i just think its funny imagining tsaritsa trying to be polite snd cordial but ohh shes SEETHING. she hates you. she loves you.#she wants to kiss you snd kill you and devour you. a horrible mess of a woman who closed herself off snd suddenly she feels exposed#she hates it. wants to hate you but oh g-d you make her soft in the worst of ways. she'd destroy teyvat itself if you asked her to#shes like a cat you gotta work to earn her trust but oh lord when you do. velcroed to your side#she will say she despises you before kissing you so tenderly it makes you dizzy. between vitriol she brushes her knuckles against your cheek#longing and yearning so violently you will tear each other apart just to be closer.#is there anything so undoing as loving another so wholly it consumes you?#she swears she's indifferent but she pampers you and sends you extravagant gifts with no name attached yet it smells like her. you know.#oh to be in a horribly complicated relationship thats almost one sided enemies to lovers w the tsaritsa that consumes you both#like two stars wanting to be closer and yet..in doing so you undo each other when you inevitably collide. caught in an orbit that dooms both#this has been ur monthly tsaritsa ranting ur welcome and goodnight 🫡#when i say im crazy sbt the tsaritsa i am so serious. i AM her number 1 fan source me
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my fav with every power imaginable whos defeated instantly every time
#neopets#neoart#my art#the darkest faerie#i know within fandom shes cool girlboss but really she fails so quickly and so often but oh boy does she keep trying#Tor and Roberta stopped her over like a long weekend#tries to take Altador: banished. Tries to destroy Altador: turned to stone. Tries to destroy Faerieland and Meridell: turned to stone#Tries to destroy Faerieland again: almost accidentally kills herself#hope to see her in the plot soon to mess up more of her plans and lose her damn mind about it
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ALICENT'S REBELLION
#house of the dragon#alicent hightower#alicenthightoweredit#hotd#hotdedit#houseofthedragonedit#welighttheway#gameofthronesdaily#dailyhotdgifs#mariana does things#*hotd#photoset#must a gif have purpose? is it not enough to see a beautiful face¸ huge?#was rewatching this episode on the weekend and gosh this moment is so good#emily carey is such a star. she acts best when she's paired against rhys ifans#i think this is the first time alicent consciously decides to separate herself from otto's wishes. this and in ep 9 when she finally#tell him their hearts were never one. this one is about her body (he's asking her if she will see the king that night!!) and in ep 9#about her mind. she has aegon now she will make all decisions now#the bloody fingers is so visceral to me lol 'how it feels to be represented on screen?' fucking awful thanks. why do you destroy yourself?
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is it too early to say that the narrative of Jinx being Vander's daughter was an OOC characterisation used to overwrite her being Silco's daughter because they needed to speedrun her redemption without being controversial
#her trauma regarding Silco's whole thing AND the murder is glaringly underwritten in s2#Powder's BPD abandonment issues were so hardcore she threw herself onto the first man who came her way after Violet's abandonment#and she had psychotic hallucinations about Vi even seven years after the incident#killing Silco should have destroyed her#but instead she is randomly readopted by Vander#like what happened to Vander favouring Vi and spending the most time with her bc they understood each other the best#Silco and Jinx were a direct parallel to THAT#and Jinx being a Jinx led to her murdering not only Vi's father figure but her own as well#so why can Vander remember Powder vividly enough to stop attacking a very visibly changed Jinx#but beats the shit out of Vi who looks much more like her younger self#unpopular opinion but Jinx would never call Vander papa/dad/whatever#but even if they did randomly add the layer of Jinx being Vander's daddy's girl#it's them throwing her guilt about his and Silco's deaths out of window that renders the whole dynamic ooc for me#ok bye#arcane critical#jinx
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Have you guys ever thought that Nicky will never know who Agatha has become after his death? That she's no longer the sweet, caring mother he knew, but rather a bitter, insensitive woman, trapped in mourning for him for all those centuries.
And that Rio will never be able to take care of Agatha like she promised Nicky she would?
#just thinking about the fact that nicky must think everything is fine with his moms and in fact they're destroying themselves over time#but honestly rio's right not to say anything to him because he would be so sad if he knew that agatha blames herself so much#rio must visit micky and when he asks about agatha she must lie#because she will never be able to tell how grieving and angry the mother he loves so much has become#nicky scratch#nicholas scratch#agatha all along#agathario#agatha harkness#rio vidal#agatha x rio#rio x agatha#agatha harkness x rio vidal#rio agatha all along#rio vidal x agatha harkness#vidarkness
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I would bet money she unbuckled herself and then did this. Anyways she’s not going anywhere until I get a crate. Looking at the ruffland ones, clearing seatbelt+harness isn’t working
#juniper#it’s not about the money - it’s about sending a message#she once chewed herself free of a leash that she wasn’t even tied up with#she just chewed it off herself in 3 pieces#she can’t have anything in a crate with her either because she destroys it#(I left her in the car because there were a lot of dogs at the second park we went to..)
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Actually thinking more about Reiju's only sin being a woman and... Going into more depth, I know that logically/canonically she's smart and empathetic enough to not want to be in her brothers' place. She doesn't want to be an heir/ successor or follow the family's footsteps at all. She knows they're bad. She sees herself as such, too, unable to change/be different like Sanji was. She doesn't think she can bring her mother's kindness to this world the way Sanji does, so she sticks to what she knows, whether it is to protect Sanji too or to accept her fate.
BUT (and bear with me for a second here, I know I have been watching too much Succession lately) we also do know that during her childhood she didn't do anything to help Sanji from the abuse. She watched it happen because that was the way things went there and because she knew what would happen to her if she did. Of course, she ends up helping him escape and taking care of him but-- I'm just thinking, for a tiny little moment, about how she's actually the oldest.
She should be the heir. She should be the person everybody views Ichiji as. She should be considered the most responsible. The smartest. The strongest one. The one who should take the throne. And she doesn't even want it now, but what about back then? What about when she did have some little, tiny faith/hopes for her family and what they did? She sought approval and naively thought "my father is going to offer me the place I rightfully deserve, right?" blindly seeking acceptance like all of them did.
But no, because she might be the oldest but Ichiji is a man. She might be the strongest, the smartest, the most reliable... But she is not a man. And I believe there must have been a time when she expected her destiny to be something more, and once she realized she was just a woman in their eyes... Well, we know what happened.
I just keep finding similarities between The Vinsmokes (OP) and The Roys (Succession) and perhaps my headcanon of Reiju being similar to Shiv has gone a bit too far. But the scene where Shiv is like "This is real?" when Logan promises she'll be the CEO and he goes "This is real. Remember this. The slant of light" for it to be a lie later is something I fear could have happened with Reiju and Judge if Oda had given us more content,,,,
#guys i might be mentally ill when it comes to the vinsmokes i keep making up content and background that does not exist#ik reiju's character doesn't focus on this/the whole point is her being treated as just a woman bc of having feelings & yet being reliable#but let me dream of a more complex story behind all of this okay#she ends up helping sanji bc she refuses to keep seeing him suffer but what if something else had also happened back thennn#what if judge had destroyed her hopes of something more??? and with that she realizes first-hand how shitty everything is#and she also hates herself for not having helped sanji sooner#and she does believe it IS a bit sanji's fault for being weak but she's also aware that that weakness is kindness#i am very sad this is so shiv and roman coded i am jumping off a bridge#roman and sanji being similar is also on my list btw#not fully sanji bc i also think roman applies to niji but there's some stuff there okay#“what have you got on your fucking hand?” “idk fucking love?” is something so sanji to me okay okay#but at the end of the day isn't sanji just tom wambsgans in this essay i will-#one piece#vinsmoke reiju#vinsmoke judge#vinsmoke family#succession#shiv roy#robin stop mentioning succession this is an anime blog
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Tuvok and Kathryn and the time Kathryn destroyed the timeline get Tuvok back.
/I Swear Somewhere This Works - Trista Mateer/
#voy#yeah..#i have so many thoughts#about tuvok and janeway and their friendship#a lot of focus is put on how janeway destroyed the endgame timeline to get /seven/ back and I think it's forgotten a lot of the time that#she destroyed the timeline for tuvok too#it was tuvok AND seven AND chakotay#she had lost them all#i have more of these web weaving type things coming for tuvok and janeway btw#cause i have so many thoughts#and feelings#trek thoughts#janeway's tunnel vision devotion to those she loves is wild#she was willing to destroy YEARS of lives that people had built just to get tuvok + seven + chakotay back#not even mentioning that her other crewmates had built lives too#but she told herself she was doing what was best for all of them#when really it was what was best for her probably#i support her though :)#i love her and tuvok's absolutely batshit ride or die attitudes towards each other#anwyays#i lvoe them#and they make me cry#kathryn janeway#tuvok#kathryn janeway x tuvok#janeway/tuvok#janeway x tuvok#oh also you can read this as platonic or romantic or queer platonic or a secret fourth thing that they seem to be#i believe in pretty much all interpretations tho i am a queer platonic/secret fourth thing truther at my heart#voyager
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These lyrics are not being talked about enough, I LOVE how they are about Caitlyn’s current mental state!!
#I LOVE how Caitlyn is losing herself in the song#if perfectly mirrors her mental state right now#she would easily destroy all of her relationships and hurt whoever if she has a chance to catch jinx#which she ends up doing to vi and the people of the undercity#also I love how Caitlyn is red in the first photo emphasizing her rage#god I love every lyric of this song and animation sequence#also I love how it foreshadows all the actions she’s going to do#seeing her slowly lose herself#every frame in arcane is a work of art#I didn’t think it could get better but it did#arcane season 2 spoilers#arcane#league of lesbians#arcane league of legends#league of legends arcane#league of legends caitlyn#arcane season two#season 2 arcane#arcane 2#arcane caitlyn#caitlyn kiramman#caitlyn arcane#lol caitlyn#hellfire arcane song
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Has Saint ever met any other slugcats?
I imagine they have become quite rare, especially around iterator complexes!
Saint doesn't have any complicated feelings regarded slug cats, just because he has the body of one. He wasn't raised by them or anything of the sort. He's closer to a zombie honestly than a slug cat that grew up..
Which is why he's so weak and frail.
#rainworld#rain world#rw saint#ask#lynxmisnomer#he ascends them just like any other creature he sees around#the idea of sliver's consciousness or whats left of it being shoved into a dead slug cat is pretty fun#she destroyed herself but becoming a big ol octopus would not be useful for travel#and her echo-ness isnt related to a specific place its towards wanting to see her family.#so shes stuck saving them and the world forever#more or less#hehe got rambly excuse me!
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