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I like to think in all the history of fallen angels, the case of Azazel is the unique one. Probably cause when angels fell, it's not a process going on for days. If god dictate they're no longer an angel, they lose that immediately. Azazel body rots cause the action of falling wasn't immediate, it wasn't known by anyone and it was slow. So I suppose, Azazel power sorta took matters into its own hand and self destruct.
#z rambles#self punishment i suppose?#azazel entire wardrobe is made by adithya to lessen their pain. jupiter and illzephine both helped to make their territory less....bad#cuz during the rot. azazel stop taking care of it completely#its sooo bittersweet cuz even as a demon. azazel still loves human that their title is called the demon of human's sacrifice#not human sacrifices. human's sacrfice. from the angel of human's grace to sacrfices. kinda mirrors their own circumstance#also to be like. this angel who lives in the human world and doesnt need permission to socialize with human#u can see why azazel fall was such a big deal cuz azazel was THE angel ya know. prim and proper and so trust worthy#tbh the reason fhey didnt cast azazel out early on was due to the fact zel was there when the war happened too#so to them it was like. ofc our azazel wont do the same shit 🙏 until years and years zel just never came to visit#z oc file#all in all adithya really is That bitch cuz azazel fall wouldve been disastrous if adithya wasnt nosy 💀💀💀💀#i love my one nosy seamstress 🙏
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Chilchuck analysis speedrun: As a hardworking half-foot who grew up poor and discriminated against and had his gullibility taken advantage of multiple times in his early adventuring days, Chilchuck thinks optimism is a dangerous flaw. He’s stressed and strict all the time because his job is noticing details like traps that could get everyone killed before anyone knows it, he takes the lives of everyone to be on his shoulders, and with the way he speaks about it that probably partly reflects how he felt about taking it upon himself to provide for his family too. His life’s always been pretty centered around work and has become even moreso now that his wife left and everyone is independent, and due to past events he’s very iffy with bonding with coworkers. He thinks feelings and job are a disaster mix. Like with his wife or with parties hiring him as sacrifice, being open or having good faith is vulnerability which can get you hurt, so he processes and shows all his stress as anger instead of worry. Doing strict dieting probably isn’t helping the irritability what with hunger, and on top of being a hunger suppressant alcohol might be the main stress reliever he has.
His grey hairs are so earned
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#Chilchuck tims#dungeon meshi#analysis#HAPPY CHILCHUCK DAY#You know what yeah understandable have a good day#Alcohol be a ticket straight to chilling out town I suppose#Spoilers#dungeon meshi manga spoilers#Thinking on if I should split my family masterpost into diff posts for max reach hmm#I’m def editing in the second page into that post that “I’ve got three people to think of here” sounds sooo much like that’s#how he’d think about it in a family setting as well. He works so hard for them 🥺#I could have put 100 pics on this post to justify everything I mentioned but this is a speedrun for a reason. I’m planning so many#compilations rn i need a break from rereading lol#He’s just here to do his work!! He just wanna do his work!!!#I’m always rotating him in my brain like rotisserie chicken :( Hopefully this doesn’t sound disjointed or insane to average readers#He’s always on his guard so he has a short fuse and his type of humor & liking for snarky remarks doesn’t help#Also bc he knows nothing lasts he has a very work hard play hard mentality where ‘dying doing something you love. Like drinking’#is nice in his opinion#This post makes it all sound so dry. Chilchuck is so messy thinking about him is thrilling I swear. This is concise but at what cost…#OH ALSO he has weird self-hate issues where he really values his skills but devalues himself on a personal level.#‘I am a coward. I only care about myself. I cheated on my wife (lying for no reason)’ etc etc#Can’t disappoint people and make them leave you if they already have no expectations and esteem of you 😏💡#Laws are important to him bc he knows how bad punishment is if you break them and how they’re the key to getting better rights
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every day i think about the fact that early season garmadon found out lloyd was the green ninja and in reaction to lloyd rejecting that fact bc he didn't wanna fight his dad he was just like "no son, this is the right path for you, and I'm really proud of you. From this point on I'll fight you with all my will out of respect, but I fully expect that in the end you'll destroy me, and I will have deserved it because I'm irredeemably evil and incapable of controlling my actions" and then a little later Lloyd just blasts him with the anti evil juice proving that he was completely wrong.
And then two more seasons later he chooses to trade his own life and go to hell to atone for some different irredeemable sin he perceives himself to have committed anyways. Like none of that even mattered.
#I'll be honest if I was Lloyd I would have had stronger words for Garmadon in s5#but I suppose he got it out later when his dad was resurrected#though ironically resurrected garmadon has more care for himself in one pinky finger than his predecessor had in his entire body#TO BE CLEAR im not shitting on garmadon for having some major issues in terms of self worth#but I am criticizing him for just not thinking at all about how putting the onus on his son to be responsible for his punishment#and then after his son says ''uhhh. no'' just going ahead and doing it anyways elswhere#might effect his son negatively. yknow. in the long run
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The fans: Ugh Sonic was just so preachy. I mean obviously he's supposed to be the good guy, so any uncomfortableness I feel here and any way I feel like Sonic's choices are framed as being why some other people have shitty lives is just bad writing because he is obviously supposed to be right always, but this characterization makes no sense. Isn't he right for the things he did?
Ian Flynn, using Kitsunami to say the (barely even at this point) quiet part even louder: Hey it's almost like ever since the Mr. Tinker event we've been purposely running with the critique of Sonic as being more selfish than he appears. Sonic is upholding a system of Eggman v Sonic that currently benefits him and shuts down talk of how to improve the current system because he likes his own personal enjoyment and he's attached enough to Eggman that he'd rather Eggman pretend to be a good person than be stuck in prison for life. He doesn't even quite practice what he preaches. We are trying to show that the current hero v villain system and Sonic's recklessness currently affects some people poorly and that Sonic isn't a perfect hero.
#fandom wank#sonic the hedgehog#idw sonic comics#idw sonic 2024 annual#2024 sonic annual spoilers#idw somic comic spoilers#idw sonic spoilers#idw 2024 sonic annual spoilers#i just be ramblin#god one of these days I need to commit to the sonic character essay#because you HAVE to be able to see Sonic as a multifaceted character that is surprisingly selfish and a bit self centered despite his image#as a good hero who is always right to understand what the writers for Sonic Prime and Idw Sonic are trying to do#The point is not that Sonic is secretly a bad guy or anything#the point is that we're already primed to assume that anything Sonic does is a good thing because he's a hero and protagonist of what is#considered a 'children's media'#And people who can see those moments in different games or properties times where Sonic isn't being so good as him actually not being so#good of a person are primed to explain it away as flaws of the writing or the genre at that time *because* Sonic's behavior is not said to#be bad or punished in those games#And become we're already primed to assume that Sonic is already the good guy who's making the best choices no matter what‚ it's supposed to#be shocking when the narrative takes a step back and gives a critique of this status quo by showing us the effects of it#But instead of having some sort of eye opening event or being willing to meet the narrative where it's at#99% of the people who post here got uncomfortable and just doubled down‚ saying that because these things are being pointed out and some of#Sonic's actions (that aren't even alien to the games)#are being framed in a not so good light‚ then it must not be purposeful. That it must be bad writing through and through and just bad#Sonic characterization#because for people who claim they want Sonic as a series to be deeper and more thought out they sure start to pearl clutch when they feel#like a property isn't being as shallow as the very same games they think kinda suck#anyways anyways sorry about the rant I'll get back to regularly scheduled posting after this#vent post
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Red has a higher rank than Chloe😭 Her villainy was less than a minute. I'm crying??
#girl did one thing and decided to go back in time#like i get 'omg she's so bad she steals and vandalizes' but they made her mom be a tyrant that abuses her#her entire character is trying to be her unapologetic self without the authority of her abuser😭#honestly if they gave chloe the 'the villain' role it would make more sense to me#considering how she believes black and white thinking#with red she knows it's more complicated than that#i dont even think she can be classified as a villain???#Glassheart#princess red#choe charming#ella accidentally threw red under the bus with her mother right there#she was already supposed to be punished but was interrupted by mads and honestly do you think Bridget would let it happen a second time?
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I really do have love to give. I just don't know where to put it. - Magnolia (1999)
#ted lasso#tedlassoedit#tedlassosource#ted lasso spoilers#rebecca welton#m*ne#mine: lasso#i just think it's so important that we're getting to see how she's grown into her ultimate unfettered bestie and beloved leader self#that her big heart that had been locked up for years can finally spill out over everyone around her#she's not caught up in rupert or dating apps or her brand or how she's *supposed* to be#she's FREE and LIGHT and honest and so wholly present and supportive and generous with her heart#SHE HAS SO MUCH LOVE TO GIVE AND SHE HAS PLACES TO PUT IT#the wise up of it all i SWEAR#and with roy that she's like it's time for rebecca to be rebecca#she knows who she is and she's choosing it#not holding her tongue or staying out of things because of fear about how people might react to her honesty and how she presents herself#trusting that people she loves like roy and ted aren't going to punish her for telling them the truth#oh i am soooo emo about it i love her so much
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love thinking kipperlilly spends her afterlife looking for lucy in a familiar forest
#not art#fhjy#fhjy spoilers#like. does she have a mean of knowing lucy and yolanda got sent to cassandra's domain to hang out for a bit#kipperlilly's isolation means so much to me. she is punished for everything she's done she just doesn't pick up on it#until the moment she dies! one more funky thing that mirrors riz in which he's actively tried to cultivate a community and denied it#until the bad kids. while kipperlilly does not want or care about a community she just wants someone who validates her#but she does Need a community so she latches onto the person she lets closer to her to fulfill her emotional needs#she took the ritual willingly so this might genuinely be her first death. probably terrifying#probably not even enough bandwidth to feel mortified. maybe immediately seeking something comforting out of instinct alone#lmao honestly thinking too much abt fantasy high afterlifes gives me a headache And a visceral fear#Im not religious but I grew up in a culture with a dominantly buddhist/taoist cosmology its Scary that u just go to A Place after u die!!#and then ur still urself!!! thats scary to me what do u mean u stay like that forever. thats fucked#but yeah I think this influences how I see kipperlilly turn out a little bit. in a sense I think of her as being a ghost now#yknow. trying to solve something from life so she can move on and. stop living this life etc#man the reveal that lucy took being killed pretty seriously and is like yeah the others are decent and even sweet#and probably was just trying to hold her party together and do what she thinks is moral by hearing kipperlilly out#lol lmao etc. gods I gotta wonder how kipperlilly's mindset handled jawbones' help#it really is damn tragic tho. I stand by what I said folks like this will complain and be nasty to be around#but they dont have enough desire to inconvenience themselves to off the bat do something abt what they find unfair or whatever#its when theyre handed the seemingly very easy means to be right that they'll start being dangerous#its horribly tragic that the supposed metaplayer and the self-perceived mastermind turned out to ultimately be just an useful idiot#yknow what. I think personally in my heart kipperlilly moves on from her afterlife the moment she says sorry#doesnt even have to be to lucy but that's probably gonna be who received it#ah.... teenage rebellion. teenage gamejacking
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I didn't think the Bible and The Pilot would make Sense and Insensitivity even more suspicious than it was... but it did...
The Lunter kiss really is going to haunt me forever...
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#lunter#they literally made Luz's self insert kiss Hunter's beta design...#the ears are different but the hair is the same length and his profile is the same#how am I supposed to sleep at night knowing what I know...#they made a point abt how people shouldn't be punished for shipping what they want... in the first episode... and then they made#that whole ass kiss a thing in SAI... um... I need answers tbh
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the artbook saying they planned on having Cole in da4 to give a compassionate voice wanting to help Solas navigate through his pain and supporting him in front of Rook and the companions, only for the final product to literally just be "bashing Solas hours because he's such a loser for always being alone and he's to blame for literally everything (rightfully so or not)" just fills me with an intense sorrow i will never recover from.
#specifically relating a lot to Solas' loneliness and the despair that comes with it and the guilt and all#only to hear literally every characters in da4 calling him a loser for it#& for the ending being to punish him because how dare you try to fix your mistakes. just go into prison alone (unless romanced) and repent.#'you're free from Mythal' they say by forcing him to give up on something he did rebelling against her bc Mythal tells him to stop#and im supposed to be satisfied with that#genuinely this deep sorrow in my heart will never truly heal#it's one thing that they framed Solas as a villain who had to be stopped#it's another how they are utterly always ruthlessly mocking his vulnerable side to show he's inherently a failure of a man#da4 needed Compassion more than anything else and they scrapped him in the development phase#instead the spirits representing da4 are Spite and Curiosity#for a game and protagonist who's insultingly uncurious for the game that reveals so many mysteries hinted at in the three previous games#but sure seems spiteful about the messy legacy the saga has left them with and just decided to just erase everything controversial instead#head in hands#i wanted to have fun reading Solas' lines but i'm just filled with sorrow again#what was Cole's quote about it again#'Solas-- bright and sad-- observes and accepts. Spirit self-- seeing the soul. Solas-- but somehow sorrows'#ichasalty#ichablogging davg#ichatalks about da
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If it's okay with you, could you write a drabble about the hypothetical aftermath of Amane getting attacked by Kotoko?
Welp thank you pal for making me absolutely insane with this request 👍 I ran through a few hypotheticals and realized I had to shift some things around since there were so many absolutely tragic outcomes. I worked something out but damn if it didn’t make me emotional to think about how uniquely rough Amane has it. Even making sure she's in a good place at the end, this got pretty serious, so warnings for child abuse and cult references.
(So in canon, Kotoko goes in order and attacks Fuuta, but Kazui steps in. Then she attacks Mahiru while he’s distracted with his injuries. She’s about to attack Amane, but Mikoto gets in the way (my hc that he did it on purpose survives!). By the time they reach a draw, Kazui is back, and the two of them can prevent Kotoko from any further action against Amane. Sticking to this apparent system of three attacks and one rescue, I’m just shuffling around the injuries for this story. Fuuta’s attack went unnoticed, and he’s in the same state as canon Mahiru. Mikoto steps in before Kotoko can fight Mahiru, so Mappi’s the one who get out physically unscathed. While Mikoto checks on Mahiru, recovers himself, or discovers Fuuta, Kotoko is able to attack Amane next. Kazui comes to help, but not before she leaves Amane looking like canon Fuuta.)
Mahiru could practically feel her heart shatter into a million pieces when Amane finally cried in front of her. She hadn’t shed a single tear yesterday – it was the shock, Shidou said. Mahiru was skeptical. After all, she had been shocked, too, and cried plenty.
Amane woke as she came in with breakfast. She took a moment to survey herself, bandages peeking out from beneath her pajamas and an eyepatch securely over her right eye. As calmly as one might say “good morning,” she started to cry. Mahiru might have missed it, if Amane hadn’t wiped at her good eye with her sleeve.
“Oh, sweetheart…!” Mahiru rushed over to her. “It’s okay, I’m here.” She wanted nothing more than to wrap the girl in a secure embrace, but she remembered the mass of bandages that were around her chest. Shidou had mentioned broken ribs and bruises. It took everything in her not to cry along with Amane, at the thought.
“I can get you another ice pack, if you need. Or more medicine.” Her mind spun with ways to help with pain. Many of the first aid supplies had been used to keep Fuuta from the brink of death, but surely there were extras to spare for Amane.
The girl just shook her head.
She muttered, “I can’t… I…I’m going to be punished, I’m going to be punished…”
“No! You’re safe now.” Mahiru placed her hands gently on Amane’s arms. “Kotoko’s not coming back. We’re all watching over you. You’re safe. She’s not going to hurt you anymore.”
“That’s not…” Amane pulled away. Her voice stayed level, despite hiccups interrupting her. A hand reached up to her eyepatch. “It’s this. It’s all of this. It’s sinful. I took it off last night, but he must have…” She started unwrapping it. “They’re going to punish me...”
With a careful motion, Mahiru held it in place and took Amane’s hands into her own. She’d been picking up on the signs ever since they arrived here together, and a final wave of understanding washed over her.
“I can’t let you do that.”
Amane’s expression twisted, though words came out far more frantic than fiery. “Let me go.”
Mahiru didn’t. “I’m sorry. Amane, you need this treatment.”
“That is not your decision to make. That is not any human’s decision to make.”
Mahiru pressed her lips together. “I know. But I can’t watch as you… I can’t sit by again while someone…” She was careful not to apply any pressure, but she could no longer fight the urge to gather Amane up in her arms. “You don’t need to be afraid of those people, anymore.”
“I’m not afraid.” Amane hiccuped. “They love me, and I love them. I need to be good for them.”
“I love you, and I don’t want to see you in pain.”
“You just pity me because I’m young.”
“Why does your age matter? You are a lovely young woman – you are my friend – and I can’t bear to see you in pain.”
The two sat in silence for a moment. Mahiru doubted she would take that as an answer; Amane had refused to call any of the others her friend. At least she didn’t argue. In fact, it seemed she was leaning into the embrace a bit more. She sighed a shaky breath into Mahiru’s uniform.
“Listen, Amane. Can you do me a favor? I’m trying to be a good girl, too. To make up for something awful, I need to make sure you’re alright. Can you help me? Can we be good together?”
A long pause followed. Amane’s voice spoke up, ever so gently.
“I suppose I can consider it.” She added quickly, “for the sake of your redemption. Of course.”
“Of course.”
#milgram#amane momose#mahiru shiina#thank you so much! i dont want to be bubbly on such a serious drabble but i want to give an enthusiastic thanks because this one really got#the gears turning!!#i started making plans as soon as i saw the ask and it took so long finding something that wouldnt result in straight up tragedy :(#if i kept to the initial timeline and said kazui didnt step in until amanes attack then both fuuta and mahiru would be close to death#and given there seems to limited supplies i think one of them would have died if shidou needed to treat three critical patients#so i moved people around to make sure everyone survived#which brought me to the main problem of amane self sabotaging her medical care#even minor injuries could have resulted in death if she got her way and removed bandages/refused treatment#but the mental strain of keeping the treatment would be just as bad as the physical pain -- shed be paranoid 24/7 of#divine punishment and repeating the mistakes that led her here.... it would hurt more to be forced like that#so i needed someone to be able to get through to her gently#but the only one who shes been able to trust just got the shit beat out of him and is in no position to talk!!!!#everyone else would just make her more upset or not know how to convince her the right way :(#still - i think mahiru could do it the best! with her own trauma from allowing loved ones to die in front of her i think shed be motivated#so. yeah.#i know amane is supposed to be talking in the plural pronoun now but i couldnt get it to work - lets just say that kicks in soon after this#tw cults#tw child abuse#drabbles
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Me when I accidentally took a depression nap for too long and now I'm running late to the murder (that I planned) A.K.A. I tought it would be funny for Rodya to to the anime girl late to school run
#digital art#fanart#coloured doodle#crime and punishment#crime e castigo#raskolnikov#I'm not 100% happy with it rn so I might do some hard lineart#even tho it was supposed to be just a doodle lol#also I used this to practice russian cursive#and then I did the English in cursive as well for aesthetic coesion / self indulgence#that's actually my standard caligraphy but I don't know if a lot of people can't read it so I usually do block letters for my drawings#also because I usually have brush stabilization set up pretty high and it's harder to do cursive like that
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Mirror, mirror, on the wall...
Who's the fairest of them all?
#lowkey cringy caption but I thought it was fitting given the context#my art#artists on tumblr#the legend of korra#original character#who I still haven't figured out a tag system for lmao#Kat and Nia and their multiverse of madness#alternative title: what a difference half a lifetime can make#summiya at 18/19 vs summiya at 34/35 is like night and day. she barely even looks like herself anymore#or maybe.. she looks more like herself than she ever did? what came before wasn't her. it was an empty porcelain doll devoid of personality#hiding the rotten nature underneath that's been steadily seeping through#and now that she has been thoroughly destroyed her outward appearance finally reflects what she was like inside all along#but just as she manages to convince herself of it. she looks in the mirror and refuses to accept that this is who she really is#where did that gorgeous girl who was so excited for her wedding day go? or the one who lit up upon being showered with compliments?#what happened to them? to her? how did she sink so low?#she was supposed to be better than this... better than her siblings. she was always better than Zaheer and Aiza#but now she's easily the worst of the free. their betrayal doesn't even compare#she deserves death for what she did. she looks at the bruising on her throat and wonders why it wasn't enough#why he didn't press just a little harder. then at least she wouldn't have to live with the shame#how awful of her to wish for that. she is getting what was coming to her. she did all of that for the shame. it is her punishment#she doesn't get the mercy of dying and escaping the consequences of her actions#she is by no means innocent. what's happening now is simply justice being enacted. she's sure of it#she's alone and ruined and miserable. having driven away everyone who could have possibly cared for her. not that anyone did#perhaps it's better that way. maybe then no one else will look at her and realise just how different she looks from her younger self#she wasn't happy back then either but she was content. she was taking the first step towarcs the perfect life she was promised#now that very save perfect life is crashing and burning all around her. perhaps it was inevitable. it was always going to end this way#(sleepy tags so I apologise if they make no sense whatsoever or are just rehashes of stuff I've said before. I'm tired. gonna go to bed now)#oh. before I forget though:#injury tw#bruises tw
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Without me, who am I (Patreon)
#Doodles#Helix#Max Vyer#Dexter Favin#Vent#More of this#What can we do but pick up the pieces#With a habit that long-running and ingrained it'd be hard to just Stop even if the backlog was destroyed#Not really a choice to Do or Not Do - it's just What One Does whether there's a scaffold to build from or not#The worst part(s) for me really is the memory of people - bringing my ADHD!Max headcanon to the very forefront here haha#To be fair even if he doesn't have That Particular reason to have a shaky hold on his working and/or longterm memory - his drug problem#The idea of not having access to my memories of the people I love/my history/ideas/events or stories that have moved and shaped me#It's probably the scariest thing I can think of#Coupled with the lack of guarantee of tomorrow - that anything that Has existed until now will Continue to exist#And now I don't even have a way to look back to when it did. Total oblivion#Obviously not All of it but I don't even know what I don't know anymore it's just fully gone#So - some more comfort doodles of the boy <3 Shared grief half a grief and all that#He's always lovely and I love him ♥ Important-to-me lad#I'm not sure the last three-set translates exactly - losing your own diary/history/memories can be very self-alienating#No pun intended haha#Max's dream journal was always to do with ZEX and DAX and the Captain once he showed up - a life different from his own#I suppose if you wanted to go really meta with it - since Max is /a/ ZEX and his concept as a character is to be a version of him#Who is he without ZEX? Who are we without our trajectories?#I drew him with his eye there so it's assumed he'd be Max but a Defeated ZEX posing that question to Dex would be interesting too#Changes the ''me'' in question from Max to ZEX - either way their source is the same!#Being actively discouraged from and punished for his creative outlet - different circumstances but a similar sadness I suppose#The Loss and Aimlessness for sure
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i dont know how to deal with my feelings without sh
#i am Alone n i am Lost#i just sleep#i ache n ache n ache n sleep#but they always come back#im nauseous my whole body violently Aches from the inside out n there Nothing i can do about it#i want to play silly game but its too strong i cant focus i cant breathe#my throat feels like its ripping itself apart n snapping shut w the pieces#ill just try n get as high as i can so i can sleep again i suppose#i dont know what else to do#nothing online helps i dont need to express my feelings i need to be Punished i need to Hurt#i wanted 2 finish my drawing but i cant#i just have to sleep again n again#there has to to something but i dont know What#hopping on kijiji 2 find someone to beat me up everyday#its not self harm if someone else does it............Loophole........
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No knives for the weekend! Or however long it takes my piercing to not hurt.
#I figure Im getting in enough pain and agony to balance it out#hopefully i can get the angel bites because apparently if your lips are a certain way you can’t and it looks like shit#fingers crossed#tw self harm#<- Closest term I can find I don’t think it counts tho because it’s not supposed to be a punishment for self hatred
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Constantly thinking abour karen wheeler btw but in a way that makes everyone here super madsies
#my problem is that when ppl say they like their female characters problematic they mean#'i want them to have flaws that i can blame on the nearest male character' and tbh thatd so boring and also. pretty infantilizing?#tbh to the point where its like do you guys even get karens character or. anyways.#like So Many Thoughts#like shes either the narc emotionally abusive mother or a victimized angel 🥺🥺🥺 neither of which is true btw#im so pretentious i like to think that i get where karen fits in the fabric of st's themes#i think positioning her as a 'freak' kind of defeats that? bc karen to me always seemed like the opposite#shes attrative skinny formerly a cheerleader charismatic white and suburban. shes literally a white boomer named karen.#all of that is complicated by the fact that shes also a woman who was raised in the veryyy conservativ era of the 50s#shes very much someone who is smart but also follows the tides and only really rebels when its the popular counter culture to do#like her at the pool in s3 with all her other housewife friends#and its like so easy to get what ppl say about her mothering skills but it often gets pushed into very black and white discourse#like karen obviously cares about her kids but its a case of actions mattering more than words and performance#like karen will TELL mike that she wants him to talk to her and shell hug him when shes supposed to (performance) but when mike had symptoms#of ptsd? karen punishes him. but also ptsd was not super well known back then#but what im saying is that karen PERFORMS but is she actually a safe person to go to? i think thats what her arc is about#like thats why the mikekaren hug at the end of s4 was important bc not only does she hug him hut she also makes it clear she doesnt want to#lose him#its that reassurance after a traumatizing event from a parent that kids and teens need!#i think karen does what she thinks she is supposed to do but also i think shes the typical white boomer who lacks a lot of self awareness#in how she treats ppl#doesnt make her a bad person. honestly i think shes a good person#i think when all characters are humanized and flawed what separates a good person from a bad person in st#is whether they like to inflict pain (like brenner) or if theyre just a flawed human beings (good but nuanced)#girl whos been thinking abt karen all day <- me
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