#self harm blog

[xmel-bones]

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Chudej nocy ୨ৎ Życze wszystkim szybkiego ugw

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Post wstawiony: 01:46 18/08/2024r.

[6wiros]

[magg0t1nfested]

“where do you see yourself in 10 years?”

dead.

[morbid-lycoris]

Does anyone else who cuts just look at their cuts and think about how pretty they are and admires them?

[a-hospital--for-souls]

[sad-leon]

what if i gave rise leo BPD...

his anger manifests in the form of self-sabotage and self harm. he asks donnie to sound proof his room when they get to the new lair so he can wreck it without concerning everyone else. before that he'd sneak to the surface and wreck an already messy alleyway

his self harm is recklessness. he gets hurt in fights as much as he can and still get away with just a "please be more careful" lecture from raph

speaking of raph, his oldest brother is his favorite person. so when raph starts to brush him to the side and distrust him, he doesnt take it well. when he does something to impress raph and all he gets is "finally..." thats when he disappears for hours and comes back home with sore arms and usually some scrapes and many bruises

he becomes a medic because they can't ignore him if he helps them. plus he can get better at hiding his breakdowns if he can take care of his own injuries

he wants to be in the spotlight so bad until the spotlight shines on him and suddenly his skin fits wrong

splinter and raph brush it off as teenage hormones. donnie shuts it out. mikey is the first person to realize leo's moods aren't normal, but he doesnt want to confront the fact the bpd comes from trauma, so he tries to support leo as best he can

april doesnt realize how much leo's mood shifts until she spends a night in the lair and realizes that leo isn't as hyper as he presents himself. he tries to mask, but he's too tired and the sudden silence from leo throws april off. it creates a rift between them. even when leo is happier around april, she knows somethings wrong- knows its not quite as genuine as she thought.

she spends more time around donnie than leo and leo thinks its for the best. eventually all his brothers- all his family prefer spending time with someone thats not him. he tells himself its for the better- the less time they spend around him, the less likely he'll be upset around them and end up making them upset

leo convinces himself he's meant to be alone and puts his all into being the team medic and spends the rest of his time alone and dissociating. he hates being the leader- having everyones eyes on him all the time. watching him. waiting for him to mess up- to act out- to prove they were right not to trust him

.... idk.. just a thought

[placetovent306]

I realized that the reason I can't get better is because I feel the best when I'm at my sickest

[fragileinthemaking]

Anyone just wanna become friends / partners but really toxic friends were we bully each other into loosing w3ight and make it a competition at who can reach their ug fastest. We can send each other th1nspo pics and m3ansp0 and brag about how much you've lost and try making the other binge just so that you can get there faster and try convincing the other to r3lapse?? Idk I think that sounds cool and something I would like.

[youraverageventblog]

In a sick way, I like being this way. I take pride in how fucked up my mind is and how much I hurt myself, whether it be from a blade or indirect self-sabotage.

[nobodybutnova]

having mutuals you can relate too: :D

realizing they’re also suffering and you can’t help them: :(

i love all my mutuals so much and I wish the best for all of you 🖤

[xmel-bones]

˚₊‧꒰ა Body check ໒꒱ ‧₊˚ 20.08.2024r.

Hejka!! Oto obiecany body check z okazji 100 obserwacji ୭˚. ᵎᵎ Nie spodziewałam się że dobijecie to w jeden dzień ale bardzo wam za to dziękuje ₊˚⊹♡ ｡☆✼★━━━━━━૮︵⭒‿᧔☪︎᧓‿⋆︵౨━━━━━━★✼☆｡ Wiem że dalej wyglądam jak tłusta świnka ale staram się to zmienić!! Moim zdaniem i tak jest lepiej niż było na początku i szkoda że nie mam zdjęć do porównania ୭˚. ᵎᵎ Zdjęcia mają zmieniony kolor pod estetykę bloga ˗ˏˋ ꒰ ♡ ꒱ ˎˊ˗ ｡☆✼★━━━━━━૮︵⭒‿᧔☪︎᧓‿⋆︵౨━━━━━━★✼☆｡ Moja aktualna waga to 48.7 kg a moim ugw jest 30 kg Mam nadzieje że szybko mi pójdzie bo chce wyglądać jak najlepiej ♡ I chce się podobać mojemu chłopakowi bo przecież nikt nie leci na tłuszcz prawda motylki ʚɞ ⁺˖ ⸝⸝ ｡☆✼★━━━━━━૮︵⭒‿᧔☪︎᧓‿⋆︵౨━━━━━━★✼☆｡ Post wstawiony: 9:00 20/08/2024r.

[faeriekit]

Writing the Occult: quick notes for non-practicing hobby authors and other nerds🕯️

Hey. Real talk. If you're writing about occult rituals, magic, the works, whatever, there are some great ways to clean up your act and get some better, more aware accuracy in there. A lot of stuff in the wider consciousness of pop culture is kind of...not correct, or, uh. Should be something you're aware of. For instance:

G*psy is still a slur! No, Romani people aren't more likely to be fortune tellers than anyone else. Quit it with the weird stereotypes. The "g*psy fortune teller" thing hasnt even been on trend since the early 1900s. Move on.

"Voodoo" dolls are a racist perspective of an African-derived traditional religious practice. Vodun is a religion. It's not even a gone or far away religion either; Vodun and Santería have followers and priests all over the US, as do other ATRs. Since. You know. Slavery. The word you're probably looking for is "poppet", which is the term for the tool itself (tiny cloth doll for magical use) as opposed to, like, a whole religion.

A wendigo isn't a catch-all cannibalistic creature; it's part of a wider religious worldview of the Algonquian peoples. Native people have requested that you Stop Talking Abou That— yes, even asking that one YouTuber to Stop That, not that he seems to care. White people seem to cannibalize other people all the time anyway, so I don't see why there's a huge need for a Native scapegoat... There are other supernatural creatures and shapeshifters that eat humans. Pick anything else.

A lot of higher-level occult rituals as writ are just. Straight up antisemitic! If you're writing rituals and your magical language of choice is in Hebrew...hey. Stop that. Same thing goes for "elites who eat babies/drink blood." A some of it is a clumsily handled metaphor for the cannibalistic nature of having an upper class in a society, but a lot of it really is just dressed-up antisemitism in a trench coat. If you're looking up real rituals for worldbuilding...FYI, you may want to glance again before adding it to your work.

Just because ten dudes are standing next to each other in order to do a weird ritual doesn't make them a cult. That's just a ritual. Cults have more specific requirements; ie, whether or not there's religious abuse going on. You can make your weird spooky org have religious abuse, but if they're just, like, high schoolers, they're probably just novice occultists who occasionally hang out together.

I haven't seen anyone use "spirit animal" in a couple years, so that's great! Native people have also requested that we Stop That. Spirit Animal is a specific religious concept we don't have to tread on. Think of a synonym for the concept you're trying to convey; don't steal a word that's already in use for a religious practice. (Same thing goes for totem FYI.)

Hallucinogens often make you throw up. Like. A lot. People do certainly attribute religious visions to them, but also like drink a lot of water and keep a bucket nearby, because the whole scenario is just super disorienting. Most spiritual circles who utilize similar substances will have a trip sitter (someone sober to call 911 if there's an emergency) if they've got the resources.

Making up rituals for your story is totally cool. People invent new rituals all the time. There isn't a standard to be held to on that front unless you outright name a real life religious or occult group they're meant to be part of; THEN people will want standards. Until then, though, you're probably good.

Most TYPES of rituals have, like, a label, though. A ward prevents something from entering a protected space, an invocation brings something forth from within you, a banishment pushes something away from you, a consecration makes something sacred...A lot of these may be obvious to you from pop culture, but if you're going to try and make a character an expert on magic, adding the vocabulary to their lexicon makes their expertise more believable.

There are a ton of ways to exorcise ghosts! Basically every religion has, like, ten of them. If you want to add a little extra flavor on banishing/preventing evil spirits, google [character's religion/culture] [ghosts/spirits] to see what sort of flavor you can add to their specific person.

Occultists and witches and wizards and priests who do magic argue all the time. ALL the time. Interpersonal drama is real and it can Get You.

It's traditional to do certain specific rituals naked. Just FYI. It's not required. Just traditional. Utilize this knowledge for narrative potential... or don't. I'm not your boss.

Yeah, sometimes there's blood; your mileage may vary narratively. Most people don't go for the whole knife thing —you can get lancets at any drug store—but maybe your character is especially dumb or otherwise desperate. Palms and fingers hurt the most knife-wise; if your character knows what they're doing, it won't be their hands.

The keeping skulls around thing is real too, if legally and financially difficult to arrange in many cases. It's usually animal though. Human remains have a lot of laws in the states and, obviously, relatives want to keep their family close to their family — still, narratively, your mileage may vary.

The "White magic" and "Black magic" dichotomy is racialized. No, seriously. The things people demonize about dark magic— soul magic, necromancy, zombies, love/control spells, etc— are all really warped versions of Ancestor worship and other spiritual practices from African Traditional Religious beliefs. Well, the whole Zombie thing is actually a holdover from slavery and it's more about forcing ex-slaved peoples into performing more labor even after their death while White people are afraid of traditional Black spiritual resistance against colonial religious oppression— I'm going too deep into this, just trust me that if a dichotomy says that White is good and Black is bad, there's probably something hinky going on.

And, finally:

Ouija boards are sold at Barnes and Noble by Hasbro for $25, and a tarot deck can retail for as little as $20 from Spirit Halloween or Spencer's. No, they can't summon demons from the astral into your house. Can they talk to ghosts? Up to you; it's your story. Are cheap paper board and plastic planchette powerful enough to murder people, though...? ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ My magic 8 ball says that the odds are unlikely.

Obviously, you can do whatever you want with your work— I'm not your dad and I can't stop you, but if you're the kind of person who's like, hey, maybe I do want to prune out accidental racial slurs from my vocabulary...hey! This list is for you! Halloween is a time to get spooky! Get scary! Get booped, even; still, if you want to have an underlying thread of what the occult looks like in practice, you might want to dust off a couple of mid Magic/Witchcraft/Spiritual/Occult books from your local library and flip through 'em for ideas. There's some fun stuff in there.

Like the sacred blowtorch ;)

Happy Halloween, everyone! 👻

[caitbuggy]

Big old PSA, if you are in the Ask Blog Community

IK ITS LONG PLEASE READ ANYWAY!

As of late our little stardew community has become not so little, which is so wonderful! We appreciate every single one of you! We enjoy talking to you guys and interacting in character, so when I say this please don't take it as me saying stop sending us asks or stop interacting with us.

Recently there has been an uptick in the amount of inappropriate asks. I don't mean the outright sexual kind, although that is its own can of worms. I am talking about people coming into our DMS and saying that they want to hurt themselves, that they have already hurt themselves, and or that they are going to hurt themselves. When I say think know I am NOT mad at you. That is totally inappropriate and you need to stop.

We know you just want help, but that is not our job. We are strangers on the internet. We don't know you nor do you know us. I'm sure I speak for all of us when I say we are happy that we have fostered an environment where you feel like you can be open. But, again, You don't know us. We are not trained to help you. We are NOT who you should talk about your issues with. and again it is not our job.

We are people too. We have our own lives and our own issues. Forcing us to take on yours is not ok. I understand where you are coming from, wanting to be heard. I know in your mind that you have this close relationship with the characters we portray so its ok that you vent, but that's not the case. There is a person behind those pixels. And we are uncomfortable. We are just people on the internet not trained professionals.

We see you, we hear you, and we are so sorry that you feel this way. Im going to link a list of hotline numbers from around the world. We care that you are struggling, but we are not equipped to handle that. Please go to someone who can.

Thank you for reading this, and if it applies to you we hope you get better. We are just not the place to talk about it. Stay safe everyone.

[vixensofdeath]

I need to destroy myself to feel satisfied

[a-hospital--for-souls]

[tired-and-sickk]

“I’m fine! don’t worry. I’m recovering.” I say as I get worse