#recovery and discovery

[mpc-unofficial]

Ok, ok… so me and Irene are deciding to explore Ordell again soon. I… don’t quite know if I’m ready to return there with Irene, but I think I’ll have to soon, before the higher ups do something drastic out of fear.

You know, I could always go there alone to do some self-training…

That’s not happening. You have a singular attack move on your persona and it’s a physical attack of all things.

[thequotegarden]

[mpc-unofficial]

Oh! Cool! Yet another interesting sandwich.

beautiful

[positivelyadhd]

you don't always need to be working towards big goals or trying to radically change your life.

you're allowed to just take time to exist, learn about yourself, what makes you happy, and enjoy being here.

taking time to rest and recover does not make you any less then people that doing different things.

[loveyourlovelysoul]

Growing up with emotionally immature parents brings you to self sacrifice. You start hiding your true feelings, dreams and even parts of who you really are in order to not disappoint them and how they see the world and what's better for you, but also to save yourself from possible negative/harsh feedback and abuse in general.

You grow emotionally distant from yourself, and you keep this distance out of habit also in your adulthood, where you carry shame and self hatred for these parts of you, unable to see their beauty and uniqueness.

Try to come back to those parts of you, to stop banishing them: they aren't wrong or scary. They are also a side of you that need love and appreciation, no matter what you were made to believe or if you had to keep a distance from them to save yourself. You can come back, you can change. And you can ask for help too.

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[cupcakeslushie]

OMG I DIDNT KNOW U READ THE NEON VOID

Yes!! This last chapter has ended on such a huge cliffhanger, I’m dying to know what’s gonna happen next!!!!!!!

[mpc-unofficial]

NO, NO, DON’T SEND IT OVER.

I would except it, but our pelipper mail is still closed due to the… incident, and I’m still upgrading the security on that thing so what happened wouldn’t happen again the next we turn it on.

Oh. Oh thank god…

BUT! I’ll have it fixed by the end of today so if you don’t mind holding onto it for a while longer, please send it over in a bit :)

IRENE NO.

Pelipper mail!

It is a sandwich. It is missing its top bun and loaded with noodles, a meat patty, ice cream, pickles, avocado, two grey sausages, one cob of corn, lettuce, hot sauce, and sour cream.

sigh

@mpc-unofficial Irene, you want the crime sandwich? I have the crime sandwich

[serenityquest]

[femmefatalevibe]

Any advice on sex after trauma?

Hi love! Firstly, I'm so sorry you experienced this. You never deserved it under any circumstances and are most certainly not alone <3

I believe sex after trauma and your relationship to sex––generally and especially after a jarring event/time like this––are incredibly unique and personal, so I'll share my two cents and hope something mentioned resonates with you.

Most importantly: Remember you're worthy of love, connection, and pleasure, and your relationship to what sex actually is for you remains autonomous. Coercion is rape, consent can be revoked at any time, sex is not something being done to you but something shared with another person (or yourself). It is a connection that can be physical, emotional, or a mix of both. To each their own.

Decide your personal boundaries regarding who, when, and what you want to engage with sexually. Take it slow. Communicate beforehand and during what does/doesn't feel good.

Please remind yourself that the purpose of these acts is to enjoy yourself, not perform for someone else or appease someone else's desires.

Practice self-care in sexual/non-sexual ways to feel comfortable in your own body again (some great examples of non-sexual ways to connect with your body include a massage with a licensed massage therapist, a hot shower, long hugs, getting your nails/hair done, exercise/walks/yoga).

Remember it's a journey, not a destination. In every sense. Take your time to discover your boundaries, preferences, non-negotiables, etc. for yourself again. Allow yourself to change your mind with new information and experiences. It's okay to be a little "selfish." Bodily autonomy is a human right.

Hope this helps xx

[thepeacefulgarden]

[mpc-unofficial]

clearly you and ren are playing linked ocarina of time randomiser files right. the words mean ren finally got something you can use to progress :v

…What’s Ocarina of time?

@chaos-cousins do you know about this?

[brain--rott]

a never ending cycle of self discovery

[mpc-unofficial]

IRENE, IRENE WHY THE FRICK WOULD YOU EAT THAT

For science!

... I'll be going to the kitchen to make peanut butter sandwiches right now. Your share will be on the cafeteria table.

Im a genius

[holistichealingg]

[loveyourlovelysoul]

Maybe you had to grow up learning, even from small things and acts of carelessness, that others were more important than you, that it was never your turn to be prioritized or provided for unconditionally: it felt like you always had to prove you were worthy of such attention, and that you were too needy. I want to remind you once again that that's not true: you were only asking for what you deserved, and was due to you, but for reasons that weren't (and aren't) under your control (very likely your caregivers unhealed and uncovered traumas), you couldn't receive.

If now you really want to be loved and chosen, to be put first, but at the same time you're scared to let people in and end up in the same old situation, it's okay. It's normal to be willing to experience a certain type of love we missed and at the same time be scared of not being worthy or it not being real or for us. Remind yourself this fear is only cause by this terrible, heart shattering habit you were put under your whole life (or most of it), and it's were your unconscious mind wants to keep you cause it feels safe and known (despite it being so painful). You're deserving of love, of being chosen, of receiving all you missed. It's time to let this happen for you, let this in your life. To give yourself a chance. Maybe you won't succeed at the first try, maybe a bunch of people will still be leaving you, but please, at least choose yourself. Do everything you can to be in love with yourself and aware of your worth and lovability. Someone willing to give you the moon and all the stars, will arrive. Be faithful. It wasn't you, and it's still not you the problem.

[pjunicornart]

Old vs. New Cigarettes

(New on left, old on right) I was moving some stuff around my room when I came across a sketchbook I had two years ago. Lo and behold, I found an image of the what I'll call the "beta" version of Discovery-Recovery Lewis! I saw this drawing and I wanted to remake it, so I did.

I changed a lot from the OG image, such as the playlist and the items around him. I think the new image is one of my favorite pieces to date!

Inspo (for OG and new) -> Cigarette Ahegao by Penelope Scott - So like... I guess I call it "The Sophomore Slump".