#pseudo memories

[dev-elop]

Some things I remember abt handbag under the cut

- doodles on the cuff of her jeans (I remember figuring this out during lunch one time)

- during a sleepover us and her other friends binge watched the Prime Meridian anime

- made bismuth to the Prime Meridian intro song once

- has a MASSIVE box of sensory toys (I refuse to call them fidgets bc of stupid people)

- likes to romance Abigail in sdv (she found it funny when she ate the Amethyst)

- he says “clint dosent deserve my geodes” before breaking them open

- during a sdv co-op he would spend so much time in the mines while I took care of the crops and animals

- most of her cloths are thrifted or hand me downs, not bc he can’t afford it but bc he prefers it that way

- his special interest in rocks is so big he sat me down to watch this power point presentation she made just about rocks and geology

+ symbol are autism & adhd, flags are Genderfluid aroace & pan

[cricket-sanctuary]

Posted these on tiktok and thought I’d post them here too

So here’s Yaelokre headcannons but they’re actually my pseudo memories 

Clem has called Cole the stupidest nicknames you've ever heard, Cole doesn't know how to respond to them

Cole named his baritone guitalele (I think that's what it's called)

People who don't realize that clemmies a goat call them sheepie sometimes

Cole + Clem: Old married couple, Perrine: Older sibling, Me/Kingsley: younger sibling

Perry liked to hum to themself

Cole had some social anxiety and selective mutism but Clem helped them

Kingsley (who is I) loves spicy foods

Cole can twitch his nose like a rabbit

Perrine would play with Kingsleys (my) hair and cuddles them under trees

Clem had the best hygiene out of all of us

The croon likes to leave us (Perrine especially) dead critters, little sticks rocks bugs and such

The enkindler caught Kingsley (me) doing the totoro tree dance thing

Clem has bell decorations from the bell ringer

I’m the #1 tree climber I can also can take a nap anywhere

Cole poems in their free time

Perrine loves to draw

[ask-rw-monk]

hi moink! how do you feel about vultures? (because i frankly find them terrifying)

EEK. VULTURES.

I always find myself sprinting to the nearest pipe whenever I see one in the distance. I AVOID CONFRONTATION WITH THEM AT ALL COSTS.

-Monk

[magnetic-menu]

Source memories (or sometimes the lack thereof) and the struggle to source separate because of them

I'm well aware that I have family -- let's start with that -- but I simply do not remember them as well as the rest of you might. I know their names, but I do not remember them well.

As far as source went, my children are dead (I think), and X-Man took/messed with my memory of them. X-Man altered everyone's memory of their families. Familial relationships were not allowed in his world. Nor was love or lust. X-Man, Nate, was not Scott and Jean's son, but rather, to the world he made, he was but a mutant created using their DNA and nothing more. That was how every mutant believed they came to exist. There is no procreation. My source, in a way, is like the world of The Giver, I suppose? Yes, that's a good way to describe it.

And now some others in the system are attempting to teach me about different familial relations. A son, a daughter, a wife, a husband, a father, a mother. I'm not upset by it -- not at all. I simply find it hard to believe such things are appropriate because of my source, of which -- if I have failed to make it apparent -- I am struggling to separate from.

Now, if any alters of Peter, Pietro, Wanda, Lorna, Nina, Magda -- any of them -- wish to interact with me, they absolutely may. I will not push them away simply because I do not remember them. The others in the system are actively encouraging me to interact with our own two Quicksilver alters in an attempt to get me to warm up to them. I think I'm doing nicely.

It feels rather odd, having to be taught about different familial titles and their roles. It's a shame I did not form with this knowledge. I formed with the knowledge of source, and in source, "family" is a dead idea, as is romance.

I don't have any special memories that 'didn't actually happen in source or in reality'. I hardly remember source, really. But what I do remember, I find it hard to separate from. I find it hard to separate from the belief that family and romance are things that should be avoided. I hear so much about how important it is to separate from source to some healthy extent, but I've yet to see anything that details how hard actually doing that is, especially when you don't form with the knowledge of the body, only the knowledge of what you knew in source.

Honestly, what does source separating entail? Changing your name? Anyone can do that. I did that. My name is now Eyal, a very different title from Erik Lehnsherr. Does it entail accepting that you are not your source? I understand that. I accept that I am different from Erik for a multitude of reason. For one, I can't go back to Utopia; it's fictional, I'm a fictive. So what then? Does source separation entail no longer being attached to your source? How can I not love and miss the world I once knew so well? If source separation means leaving behind what I once knew and believed in source, then boy, I must be struggling.

[syscultureis]

Plural culture is wondering if your brother from your pseudomemories is taking care of your cat while you're gone despite knowing everything from those pseudomemories was never real

It can be so hard to actually accept that it was never real, I miss it sometimes even if it never really happened :(

[ashleyleygraves]

Slowly working on writing parts of my pseudo memories, in the style of fanfiction

[sky-forest-inn]

[bufferinggimmeasec]

If someone you loved had a nightmare and was traumatized because of it, would you tell them to get over it? Do you tell people about your dreams or does it not matter because you were asleep?

Pseudo memories are as real as they feel, regardless of whether the body was there or not. It doesn't matter if they were happy or sad or traumatic, what matters is that it's real emotions that you're feeling now. Feeling emotions is your body acknowledging those memories, responding with you and releasing the chemicals it needs. The body wasn't with you then, but it's here with you now

[thecelestialsystem333]

one thing about our system is that we have a hard time telling between dreams and memories (whether from a source or while fronting)

we had one memory that’s stuck with me for years that might be a dream, I believe it may be pseudo memory of some sort since I have realized that it had never happened irl.

for context the memory was of a flood reaching the middle of the backyard, but that hasn’t happened since before the body was born.

honestly idk what’s going on

-auggie

[starryemberskinposting]

there's something so intimate about writing letters to your friends, sending them flying and then waiting weeks for a return letter. bounding down through the clouds with your joy and impatience as you leap into the air and catch the letter, opening it for bright, curled ink to meet your eyes.

[joker-system]

Okay serious question people. Can I adopt pseudo memories from my source-self after I formed? Let's say I'm around since last autumn, could I still develop pseudo memories of trauma my source-self had, when I learn more about my source now? Is that a thing?

- Percy (he/they)

[what-a-pleasuretounwrap]

remembering when i made out with my partner in the kitchen one time

he kissed me against the fridge while we were both getting breakfast and it just spiraled from there

[ask-rw-monk]

how do you feel about murder

I try to avoid it at all costs. This world is cruel, I don't ever want to add onto that suffering to another creature. - Monk

[sillylittlereptileguy]

i miss luis GODDD like not to get too gay on main that’s what my writing blog is for BUT oh my god he was so sweet guys and he had the goofiest expressions and and argagraggra he was SO proud to show me off and like always had his arm or hands on me in some way like not because he wanted people to know i was taken but because he wanted people to know HE was taken and oh my god i love him i miss him

[our-inspire-verse]

Recovering memories of Zim and Dib when they were teens at Alder's house early on in their rekindling, and i can vividly (more vivid than a majority of other memories) see and hear them screaming at the top of their lungs and jumping around singing karaoke together. Alder watching from the kitchen. Somehow Dib was here without Cadance this time.

[ashleyleygraves]

Pseudo memories go brrrrrrr