#possibly plural

[i-love-dopamine]

I've decided to blame my likely plurality, therianthropy, ADHD, autism, and general mental broken-ness on the fact I've known about me being transgender since I was like 9

[bardkin]

been doing some internal questioning that boils down to “is it the auADHD or i am plural in some way???”

and i’m. not sure if i want to know the answer. at least not yet.

[jumpdriveproject]

My biggest hurdle is that tumblr absolutely sensationalizes and idealizes (and weaponizes for some reason) plurality and only talks about fronting, switching, headspaces, etc.

We've attempted "switching" but it was a struggle and awkward for both of us and she didnt really know what to do when we finally managed something.

We've also not been able to manifest any sort of consistent headspace, though when we really talk we kinda just slip into imagination, but idk if that's like, the same thing?*

I wish I could see more posts that are more consistent with my experiences of there just kinda being something there, but that's not what people like posting about I guess.

Maybe if I compare her to a Stand that would be something.

*Edit: now I've said it out loud I can consider the fact that The Me That Is Me is just as much of an "alter" as She is, so interacting with her in this way, despite not being in a specific "place" should be just as valid, right? Even if my/our body is static?

[cutepastelstarsalior]

I have a question for systems. If you have an alter that assigns to a task (cooking a meal for example) after they complete the tasks do they just hang around your head or do they go back into your head/not front.

Because, that kind of thing is currently happening to me? Like I took a shower, panic a tiny moment, then the next moment my body automatically started the shower routine but in my head I felt like a different person. But as soon as the task was done, then voice/thoughts went away.

But I can’t tell if it’s actually alter/voices, hallucinations or if it’s something else..Acting? Playing pretend?

[the-heart-point-collective]

Welcome

Hello, I (and whoever else is in here) am the Heart Point Collective. I am questioning if I'm truly a system or not. This sideblog is me exploring whatever is going on in my mind.

Current Members (Fronters):

Michael, he/they - ❣️

Other Members:

Elias Scott, he/it - @ask-elias-scott

King, blue/blueself - @king-the-ghostie

Jett, pronouns unknown

Molly, she/they

Chalk, he/mey

Cricket, he/him

Nikola, she/it/figure

Agnes, she/her

Jane, she/her @worm-lady

Noticeable Things:

Different people in my brain (they're fully conscious)

Others unable to front currently

Absolutely shit sense of time

Sometimes feels like one of the others is trying to pilot the body, but never succeeds

[skullcrusher-mountainn]

okay this isnt about jonathan coulton, but today sasha fronted. and after a while, she knew i needed to come into front. and west had made this fuckin playlist of songs that get me back into front. BUT. the thing about these songs? they are meant to remind me of being abandoned. so of course you have the words of jonathan coulton, kate bush, erasure, and such.

but sasha did not want to go all the way to spotify, she was in too much of a rush. so she looked up oh lamour by erasure on youtube. but then she saw a video to the side. and then i was pulled to front watching fucking yuri erasure nightcore anime girl remix. LOOK AT THIS. WHAT IS THIS IM CRYING.

[angels-wantme-dead]

Coining nunyagenic.

"what's your origin?" Oh I'm nunyagenic "what's nunyagenic" nunya business.

I'm getting sick of origin discourse

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[the-heart-point-collective]

Hello, this is the anon. I would really appreciate it if you could add more (/nf) as I would like to understand more about how my brain works.

Possible system culture (doing this on anon because I'm not comfortable yet with others knowing this about me): I don't think I'm a system, but I don't think I'm a single being either. There's all these past lives with their own experiences jumbled up with mine. They're not exactly separate beings, but they're not me either. I'm a non-human who has lived multiple lives, and each one of them has left an impression, but they don't have their own minds, as they're technically me. But the experiences each life had lived is still there, and those experiences are only partially mine. Is there anything similar to this? I'd appreciate any advice or to hear if anyone has a similar experience to this.

ill link some terms here that might be useful to you, but you do not have to use any of them! it is helpful to use terms to help better understand yourself, but its also important to know that you do not need to know everything about yourself, and its okay to just be you! we hope that you are able to figure it out nonetheless, if that is what you are looking for! we welcome you to the community if you eventually find you are in some way plural/multiple/a system!

Plurallet (link)

Plural Non-System (link)

Oneplural (link)

Fenigenic (link)

Pregenic (link)

Phoenixal (link)

Fenitive (link)

if anyother(s) has similar experience(s), feel free to reblog with your own input!

[skullrift]

when u wanna revisit an old interest/hyperfix of urs but also like,,, what if that’s secretly a front trigger for a long forgotten dormant alter. do i rly wanna deal w that rn???

- 🖤

[hisdyingwish]

Random as hell, but it's so funny how people still think non-traumagenic systems are really a thing Like dude, the DSM-5 has dissociative disorders very clearly labeled as TRAUMA disorders.

& People still think it's possible w/o trauma, like HOW?? Where are your SOURCES, the years of RESEARCH done by professionals, where is it??? That is a genuine question

(For the love of God, PLEASE fucking read my reblog(s) under this post before replying in any way to the post, thank you.)

[i-love-dopamine]

well hasn't THIS been a fun week.

[bardkin]

holy shit the metaphor for the kind of plurality i'm possibly experiencing has been staring me Right in the face.

SU Perma-fusions. Fusion-that-didn't-know-he-was-a-fusion till his body was literally split into its core halves.

[jumpdriveproject]

I was almost gonna post a like "sorry for being weird on main again" type thing but I dont think I am lol

I feel good

We feel good

Getting this stuff out there helps a lot. I just hope yall dont think negatively of me because of it.

[elliott-the-creature]

am I a system?? idk man, but sometimes it really feels like it. like, I’ll be thinking of a question, and a bunch of little voices will give out random imputs or a hesitant answer, and I’ll be like “wait is that right?” and hey, it is! or I’ll be questioning pronouns, and some part of me will really like it, while another part of me feels super weird being referred to by that pronoun.

if I am, I’m most likely monoconscience or some kind of median system? idk, still need to do research. I’m definitely not traumagenic (at least I’m pretty sure I’m not). I also don’t really experience switches either (if that’s what they’re called), and I’m happy with being the only host (that is, if I am a system).

to me, it’s more like being a streamer and having a bunch of people watching you play a game or go about your life or something; they can give imput and ask questions/give answers and have conversations, but you as the streamer don’t know everything about the people in your stream, and the people watching can’t take control of the streamer’s gameplay or their actions irl. (I even call the voices in my head “chat” to be silly lol)

any systems feel free to leave your imput or advice about more research or ways to confirm/deny possible plurality! I’d really appreciate it :)

[the-heart-point-collective]

King, no we are not adopting a shark. End of discussion. - ❣️