#please think about your life choices
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the way to the moon is about holding on (to the promise you don't even remember making, to the person you loved, to the life you never got to live but refuse to give up). it's johnny choosing to be with river time and time again, it's johnny holding on to all the paper rabbits river made even if he didn't know their significance, it's river keep trying to remind johnny of their shared past, it's river giving up her treatment so a place that means the world to her is protected, it's eva and neil trying their hardest to send johnny to the moon, it's eva taking the risk in hopes of making it
the way finding paradise is about letting go (of your mistakes, of the unrealistically perfect life you never lived, of the person who helped you through your darkest times but who now keeps you stuck in the past). it's colin letting go of faye despite being afraid, it's colin keep replacing pages in his book with new ones, it's faye knowing that colin never needed sigmund's help, it's faye telling colin he has to let go of her if he wants to live fully, it's neil and eva trusting faye despite what it means for them, it's neil taking the risk in hopes of making it
#IM SO NORMAL ABOUT THEMMMMMMM#god#please#sobbing#THEM#what is impostor factory about?? great question#i need to play it at least 5 more times before i figure thag out#but i think#it's about choices in a way#i think it's in between letting go and holding on#it's all the different lives you could have lived if you chose something else#about the realities elsewhere#and how despite everything. all of them are still you#it's how different choices affect everything. from yourself to others#how ultimately you made a decision. this is your reality#but maybe somewhere else there was a chance for a different life#idk man im rambling#I LOVE THEM TO DEATH U DONT UNDEDSTAND#to the moon#finding paradise#freebird games#eva rosalene#neil watts#colin reeds#river wyles#faye#sigmund corp#i keep writing johnnys fucking name wrong save md#gamer hours#johnny wyles
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My name is [BRUTUS] and my name means [HEAVY] so with a [HEAVY] heart I'll guide this dagger Into the heart of my enemy
Something about having absolutely no choice in who you marry. About being literally forced by the law to spill blood - to accept this stranger as your husband over a man you truly care for or accept the fact that the man you love might die because you put him in danger. Something about risking becoming the wife of a man you've never even seen before a few minutes prior because you know anything would be better than putting your beloved in harm's way. Something about the trust inherent in that decision and in the way she speaks of it after. Truthfully, T'Pring doesn't know the captain and she doesn't know Spock. Either one of them could have taken her as their wife but she does know Stonn. She knows that Stonn will remain by her side no matter what. They made a plan together. They have an agreement which T'Pring believes will be upheld even though the plan changed with the arrival of Kirk. Stonn will always be there, always, and Stonn will be hers. Something about the language used around T'Pring: Ownership, subservience, non-personhood. T'Pring is an object that Spock can win. She cannot reject him, she has no say in the matter other than having Stonn 'claim' her instead. Even when Spock leaves after being very clearly rejected by T'Pring he says "Stonn, she is yours." as if despite her clear rejection he still owns her and is must formally 'give' her to Stonn. But the language T'Pring uses around Stonn is a break from that: "There was Stonn who wanted very much to be my consort, and I wanted him." Stonn who wanted very much to be HER consort and she WANTED him. The language here is very particular - It's not, for example: "Stonn wanted me to be his wife" - he is HERS. And she WANTS him. There's a mutual affection there and a strong trust - a trust which seems to be well founded since Stonn (though silent) stands by her side at the end of the episode. <- That might seem small but if Spock would reject her for 'daring to challenge' (again, the language is not 'because I don't want you' but more of an implied disgust at her having the AUDACITY to reject him) then it's not a stretch to assume that it'd be considered an insult in the TOS Vulcan society to NOT choose Stonn as her champion after a prior agreement. Anyway T'Pring was a woman in an impossible situation within a society which saw her as more of an object than a person and she wanted Stonn and Stonn wanted to be hers and she trusted that he would understand if she had to publicly pick someone else to ensure his life would be spared and he did understand.
#amok time#T'Pring i s....T'Pring she....-puts my head through a wall-#PLEASE read under the cut for my rambling about T'Pring in amok time pleasepleaseplease#tired of 'T'Pring is evil/a bitch' and VERY uninterested in 'T'Pring is a girlboss'#T'Pring is a person in a society which doesn't think she has the right to make her own choices who's in [love] with a man who [loves] her#back in what I'd like to think is implied to be a slightly subversive way in its mutual and fervent nature (whether the writers thought#this was a good or bad thing - who knows. We know better RIGHT??)#and yes I will stylize T'Pring's hair differently every single time I draw it HEHEHE#star trek tos#Spock#T'Pring#also of COURSE something something spock/kirk & stonn/t'pring parallels: To keep your beloved safe you have to force someone else to kill#theirs - not BC you hate him (you don't) but you don't love him either and why does HE get to have you even if you don't want him?? Why doe#he get to 'give' you to the person YOU chose?? It's not a hatred on a person level (which I wanted to portray with the 'brothers') portion#but a sort of societal embodying.#I will think about T'Pring not wanting to be 'the consort of a legend' every damn day !!!#They really could have laid it on thick in making her evil guys...T'Pau even makes a comment about Spock's 'vulcan blood is thin'#but all T'Pring says is that Spock is a legend and she doesn't want that for her life. She wants Stonn.#And you're gonna sit there and you're gonna tell her that she's wrong!??? Spock doesn't even want to be with her!! Why is she so hated!?#CAN WE FREE MY GIRL??? She did all that but it's being read in the worst faith possible!!#comix page#bea art tag#star trek art#She literally says the word 'FREE'...she's TRAPPED!!!
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It's my birthday tomorrow so I'm indulging with more OCs as a treat to me personally.
Halibut the wonderful mute (by choice) siren thinking about how in another universe, she can marry Tolliver. The other universe is Tomodachi Life. She married Tolliver in Tomodachi Life and I'm so normal about them being married and happy since they do not in fact get married and happy in canon. (thank you 3ds crack fodder game i love you and think about you often)
#my characters#im gonna be a mess tomorrow (emotionally) so the indulging comes today while i can function#when you grow up indifferent to your bday and then have a pet die on your bday it doesnt help much#so heres my baby girl halibut thinking about how shes happy in life#like she is canonically a happy bean and doesnt let kronos being a dick get her down#shes just happy to be alive and in other peoples lives and i love her so much and the fact she gets married in a 3ds game#and its such a cute lil marriage too im so happy its her and tolliver#it woulda been funny if she married kronos cause she does actually really like both of the guys in canon just#not romantically really so.... she coulda married either and i woulda been pleased for her choice#heck she coulda married another oc from another plot that i had in tomodachi life and i woulda been happy for her#she just deserves happiness and to say i do..........#one day when i have energy ill draw the five fanart ideas i have in my head#and ill draw the silly oc comic scenarios even lazily but not rn
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kuroba toichi you need to stay dead or im going to fucking kill you myself
#you sick son of a bitch#if you truly love your son you wouldnt be alive#it's bad enough that you basically left the mantle for your teenage son to take up but you actually being alive????????#you just out there living your life while your son is destroying his relationships chasing after something that you started????????#his very motivation is your death and it's not even real??? the utter fucking betrayal???#and maybe being kid has kade him a better magician and has helped him find out more about himself#but he shouldve been able to have a choice if he even wanted to be kid at all it shouldnt have been a responsibility pushed upon him#AND IF YOU ARE FUCKING ALIVE AND YOU'RE JUST WATCHING YOUR SON RUNNING AWAY FROM THE POLICE WITH PRIDE INSTEAD OF GUILT YHEN YOU CAN#GO FUCK YOURSELF#Honestly the worst#also that theory that maybe chikage is travelling the world because she KNOWS toichi is alive and she's with her elevates this fuckery into#a whole different level#anyway go read cuethesun's tomorrow and the next day#good fucking food and bad parent chikage and toichi enjoyers will be pleased ;>#lol#dc prattles#as much as i want happy everybody is alive kuroba family#i need touichi and chikage if she knows too to feel the repercussions of their horrible parenting and i need kaito to be able to let himself#feel the hurt and betrayal that he is justified to feel even if he is happy that his dad is alive#but i dont trust gosho to handle that nicely if anything i think hes gonna just handwave it and wont address it properly#anyway my point is i just need more hurt and angry kaito also if shinichi is there im happy#sorry i sneaked in a kaishin i cant stop the brainrot unfortunately theres no cure 🤚😔#ALSO DONT GET ME STARTED WITH BAD PARENT KUDOS OOOOOHHHH
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Lightning, water, and fire! Like forever before the plot starts. By the time the plot starts, the lightning and fire deities have been subjected to punishment by the two gods that picked them.
Oh (the fire deity) is first to be punished. They basically decide that since they're going to live for a long time, gotta set some long time goals! And they opt to be the wrath of the gods since most of the other deities are too 'soft' in their opinion. So Oh just. Smites humans. This isn't really a /good/ thing and in their defense mentally, they do it to help Ymber since he's the softest of them all. So their punishment by the gods is to be split in two, effectively halving the power of one into two. (Now they are in a male and a female body and use both male and female pronouns apart since they together make they but apart it feels weird to be they. But prior to the split they use they/them. Also the split bodies go by the names Ohiwe and Ohime.)
Fulj is the second to be punished. She falls in love with a mortal woman and that is a crime according to the gods. Mortals and immortals are not to be together and it will only bring suffering to both sides. So her punishment is her memories of the woman are stripped and her body basically broken to the point she can't remain physical all the time.
Ymber, unfortunately, is the one who blames himself for the discoveries and punishments. If he had only tried to restrain Oh more then maybe they would have chilled out and stopped before being punished. If he had only tried to persuade Fulj to not continue seeing the mortal woman so often perhaps she wouldn't have been punished. So he's just increasing the guilt on his shoulders every day that he remains unpunished since the elder gods have both laid down to rest. They can't enforce their laws anymore and none of the deities are keen on harming one another at this point. They just want to continue existing in peace.
#the daily life of a deity sucks#and then ymber falls in love with a human and is like welp this sucks and i understand fulj now#i also would have accepted the punishment for this#and fulj doesnt even remember the woman she was punished for and doesnt remember how she was before#so she is like hey ymber please just go and kiss the weird human i dont even like him but youre being mean by not kissing him#and ymber is just having the worst time of his life being encouraged by someone who used to be so happy#who he also encouraged to be happy once upon a time#also ohiwe and ohime pop up in the water city to bully ymber sometimes but its still in the way of#dude we like you please grow a spine its been a thousand years please grow a backbone and tell us to piss off#and he never tells them to piss off#also fulj has a long braid here but you cant really see it#and she loves to braid ymbers hair and he gets to braid hers when shes giggling and chatting about love#and a short while after the punishment fulj chops the braid off and ymber is like welp my friend is officially gone#and then he cuts his own hair and leaves to go develop his city alone in seclusion#and he sometimes just cuts it really short because hes still sad and soggy and thinks of fulj braiding his hair#and then she shows up one day when hes debating how long its getting and she smiles#and tells him he looks good with longer hair#so he kinda keeps it a messy short then it gets to be medium and he decides he can survive with medium but he couldnt do long again#but once again fulj is the reason for his life choices (and guilt)#also before anyone asks yes all the deities have a collar#its very important actually that they are collared its lore information thanks#and for what it matters - after oh is split both forms are just as tall#theres just two of them at half power but they are both tall
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I'm gonna have to wait out a few weeks to be able to complain about jjk's ending bc rn half the ppl are bashing everyone who expected more as ppl who just wanted gojo back
#jjk 271#like no I can read I understood that gojo was gone for good from 236 bUT we can still talk about#how a grown ass man and his grown ass friends deciding how they were at 16 was their perfect forms.#before they made all the important life changing decisions. is a regression right#like can we talk about how the narrative just glosses over geto's whole entire life after hs WHERE HE WAS A GENOCIDAL MANIAC#and pretends like no one would even side eye him about that???#that's fucking regression#you're scaling his character back bc you don't want to address the root reasonwhy he went that route#and it's perfectly fine when an author doesn't want to get too political in their work it's their right I get it#but it does make me upset where the whole entire story up until here the author has been beating us over the head with leftist messaging-#- only to throw it away and settle for a 'oh I didn't mean ACTUAL revolution or changes that would rock the boat for REAL'#bc let's face it. the conditions that made people like geto and sukuna happen are still fucking there they just skipped this generation#these kids are still going to be sent out when a special grade curse shows up and some of them are still gonna die tragically early#to put yuuji as the leader of gojo's dream is isolating and a burden on JUST YUUJI (WHY WERE THE OTHER STUDENTS NOT THERE)#to make yuuji the sole messenger of gojo's will is frankly WEIRD gojo wanted these kids to look out for one another#he had nothing to say to anyone else???#yuuji's been accidentally burdened with the weight of gojo's dream now ON HIS OWN#HE IS A KID#literally nothing's changed at the end#also see how I didn't talk about gojo on his own here bc the problems are so glaring that they shine through even side characters#WHY IS NANAMI A KID IN THE AIRPORT IS THAT THE VERSION OF HIMSELF HE WAS CONTENT WITH???#or did they all have to be aged down to match haibara even though making the choice to show the ones that lived as grown would've made it-#-more impactful#A twenty seven yr old nanami sitting next to the fifteen yr old haibara would've been soul crushing right?#also why have nanami be the only one that talks like he remembers his adulthood BUT NOT GETO#WHY TAKE AWAY SUCH A HUGE PART OF GETO#YOU COULD'VE HAD THAT BE A CONVERSATION AND HAVE PEOPLE FORGIVE HIM#the more I think about the ending the more things I find to nitpick further back too#gege I love you but please I hope you negotiate a more flexible time in your next contract I hope they don't burn you out again#bc jjk is going to be an ending which I will frankly ignore and just go with 'sukuna won and it was terrible' in my head instead
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when a character says 'I can't live without you' I often think it would be more powerful to say, 'I don't want to live without you'. Life will go on, the world will turn, but a light has gone out of it that cannot be replaced even if new ones are lit. I want to be with you, I'm choosing to be with you, I could live without you but I would be losing something incredibly precious that brings a certain richness that nothing else ever will.
'I can't live without you' sounds kind of coercive to me. I can't live without you I don't have a choice so you don't have a choice unless you want to destroy me, do you want to destroy me? Without each other we have nothing, are nothing.
#a butterfly scribbles#ideas#prompt#prompts#someone else please say this better#I mean if you want to write about characters that can't live without each other that's your prerogative#I get tired of how it's supposed to be the ultimate romance or even normal and healthy and just thrown into stories willy-nilly#like in pride and prejudice darcy is all 'I'm in love with you against my will and better judgement' like there's no choice involved#elizabeth is unimpressed 'too bad so sad'#and guess what? his life goes on. in some ways it gets better as he improves himself#it wasn't a plan to win her back. whether or not they ended up together I think he would have ultimately been okay#I think that's great#my life is good but you would make it so much better please be a part of it#I shouldn't write when it's past my bed time
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had the idea to make this
#srsly idk what people’s deal is#personally i think its cool that some ppl have big noses and some ppl have small ones and there are different shapes#but yeah no everyone always tells me shit like ‘dude ur nose is huge’ like. do you think i dont know that??#u think im gonna go look at myself in the mirror and get jumpscared like OH MY GOD WHAT THE FUCK HOW DID THAT GET THERE#and be like JESUS CHRIST I NEED TO FIX THIS IMMEDIATELY#because no the fuck i wont!!! was never raised to ever think it was a bad thing#because it really isnt#i wish all people that judge people based on their nose (or really any part of anyones appearance) a very please rethink your life choices#and besides#one of the main ways i make my faces look different from each other when i design characters is i just give them different shaped noses#sorry for the rant. was just thinking about it today
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finally went and got my GED diploma a year after i graduated :)))))
#the check in woman was like 'come on you cant leave without saying bye first!' and iwas like nonononono please no#she made me go talk to the woman who single handedly delayed my graduated by 6 months.#who is annoying as fuck and super classist and pro college.#when she asked what i do for work i was like 'an educator' and she was like 'oh so you've used the free college credits to get your early#childhood education?' and i was like 'uhhh no. still just as against college as i was last year. i don't plan to be an educator for long.'#and she goes well what do you want to do (not your fucking business lady. at all.) and then when i said 'anything' bc real people don't hav#the choice of their dream job or nothing. real people have to just take whatever is available to them--esp in our dead town.#and she was like 'oh come on in during the summer! I'm here for summer school! can take a bunch of tests to find out what your dream job is#can figure out what colleges youd like!'#i was just like ''yeahhhhhh. anyway have a good day' and fucking left.#i was actually debating going to college just a month ago. for the first time in my life i was seriously debating college bc it was my#choice and n oone had been pushing college to me for years. and then she starts this bullshit and im even more anti college than i was in#highschool#anti college#college is a scam#not to mention 'come in during the summer to take completely unnecessary summer school after youve graduated with almost a perfect score'#???? seriously how entitled do you think you are to my time?#i have work this summer. i have plans this summer. and even if i didnt i sure as fuck wouldnt spend my time being preached at about how#im wasting my life and dooming myself to poverty bc i dont want to go 6 figures in debt#and lost 4+ years of time i could be earning wages.
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One of the struggles I have with Vhae is that I vm get more genderfluid vibes from him much like you do from Corellon; happily one or the other. But also?? I think Vhae almost exclusively lives in male alignment for the benefit of the people who need him most. So you will almost NEVER see him portrayed as female, bc v little else would be so immediately alienating to those he's trying to help.
#all the world will be your enemy and if they catch you they will kill you -- but first they must catch you // Vhaeraun headcanon.#will Vhae ever get to live his own fucking life as he pleases instead of as a trauma / Lolth response??#check in next week to hell tf no apparently >:|#and like..........#listen I might be a little ( read: a lot ) biased against her bc of my own experiences#but every single thing about her gives me massive ick even outside of that ngl#fuck her. fuck Shar. DOUBLE fuck Bhaal#not necessarily in that order tho bc tbqh I think I like Shar more than Lolth#Shar may be a bitch but at least she's not Gross(tm)#but bhaalding is uber mega gross and deserves to be put in the cosmic trash#ANYWAY point being is Vhae might be genderfluid by nature#but by choice He's smiting you if you call Him She#( need to work on remembering to capitalize pronouns for my deity characters )
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hate it when I say I'm allergic to a certain food and people go "so you've never had ___? I feel sooo sorry for you" thanks literally did not ask 👍
#people get. so weird about food. so weird.#i do understand where people are coming from when they say this i think??? but after hearing this my whole life.#it gets old guys. can we change the script.#i think this is a big reason why i almost never judge people's food choices. do you have access to good food? are you getting nutrients?#then i literally do not care if you have the blandest or weirdest preferences or that your presentation is shit or whatever. bon appetit#eat well please that's all i want for you. literally could not care less otherwise#now leave me alone too#storyrambles#random thoughts
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my most extremely petty beef is that i absolutely cannot stand the term 'situationship'
#gav gab#nine times out of ten it seems to just be like#'you're acting to weird to be Juuuuust Frieeeeeeends'#it's amatonormativity the term lmao. i hate it. words mean things. please use them.#and it's often used i've observed to like completely avoid agency in one's own life#like 'oh haha it just ~happened'#no people made choices. people are always making choices. whatever relationship you have with a person#you are making choices about it#your life is not happening TO you#if you use this term a lot gd bless good for you i'm not the boss of you#nor do i think less of you for it#i just. hate that it exists and if i could press a button and erase it i would lmao#bc it seems to exist solely to abdicate responsibility for one's own life and make things as vague as possible#i cannot emphasize enough this is the pettest of pet peeves#it literally does not matter at all#i just have a very specific aggravation nerve for it lmao#it's like how some people dislike the word moist or whatever
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Hello, Dean 🫵
#i’m pointing at sam haters#you’ve become your father#and by father i mean john#and by you i mean dean#p.s. i’m not saying the real dean hates sam because he doesn’t#but the audience has been conditioned to#can we dissect that as a society please and thank you#let’s think about why it’s so easy to judge sam#but not dean#could it be because the show is presented through deans pov#and criticizing dean means criticizing ourselves#or because he’s sexy and we want to please him#and we all hate to be wrong#so sam is either a burden or compensation for our job of taking care of him#or he’s a roadblock for you know what#you are now John#the very man you never wanted to be#Sam wanted to be trusted and respected and understood#he wanted control of his life and to be his own person#the worst sins of all#supernatural#sam Winchester#dean critical#i like dean as a character he’s very interesting#but not the morally righteous or woobified version of him#break Sam down into a shell of his former self#then he’ll never leave you or he’ll fade away so you can be gay and be fetishized#he’s kind but evil smart but an idiot a hunter but a freak a boy king but boring#this isn’t about the choices they’ve made it’s about how those choices are framed#also he left you for college what a selfish bastard
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Listened to 600 minutes of that shit in the past couple of weeks, God help me. Crazy how I still manage to find new Beatles songs to obsess over Idk how I do it
#i think my favorite is going to stay your mother should know forever#i love paul's granny songs#maxwell's silver hammer is very good too#the beatles#need to find a tag for my text posts but i'm pretty uninventive#no one cares but i do!#it's gonna be some shit like grady verbal diarrhea#grady gators#maybe i should change my username to match my other socials smh#greta is grady's sister btw. they're irrelevant scooby doo characters who appear in 2 episodes. please don't ask#and i kind of started going by grady because i like it so my namesake is that ugly ass scooby doo character#thinking about my life choices
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episode 14 just gave me the hugest and weirdest adrenaline rush and headache in the history of me binge-watching tv shows
#4771#glee#season 4#istg who wrote this season 😭#were they on crack the whole time?!?!#personally i loved seeing kurt and blaine enjoying some more time together#i'm their n.1 supporter#but kurt not wanting to acknowledge his feelings for blaine never went away is somehow making me uncomfortable#like they said I LOVE YOU to each other three episodes ago? hello??#also apparently blaine doesn't have a crusb for sam anymore ???#an another note i am definitely curious about a quintana storyline#i couldn't care any less about any of the new characters#sorry not sorry#ALSO i missed sue being so iconic#please come to my wedding wesring a replica of my dress too#please sue i'm begging you#shoutout to emma for being real !!!#like real good at giving advice and panicking and rapping and singing and over thinking every life choice ever#please let's not talk about rachel and finn#just get married and have a family of your own#we're (i'm) getying tired of this whole chasing-each-other-while-cheating-and-freaking-out thing#k i'm done#i'll go to sleep and hopefully dream blaine and kurt's beautiful faces#just kidding#good night
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#finally ended the relationship that took all my health and happiness from me :)#many lessons learned#unfortunate that I am so nosey as to know about the constant lies but I would probably still be trapped otherwise#like actually insane that the person i trusted most in the world can speak about me like that#but i know it’s really nothing to do with me it just sucks#couldnt lie FOR me so outed me as a sex worker but 100% fine with lying ABOUT me behind my back#if you are reading this and are confused thats even worse btw#i thought it would be difficult but you have made it very very easy#i am thankful for that much#x#8 years of my life wasted i wish we never met#all the signs were there the first time and i still came back and hung around like an idiot#i feel a need to try to warn ykw but i dont think he will listen / i will just make him paranoid. so#i still wanted to cohabit but obviously this is impossible if you cannot be honest with yourself#but sure leave me with nothing except resentment and resign yourself to misery. cool dude#i stood by your side when it got hard for you & when it got hard for me you abandoned me. fuck you forever never speak to me again#i’m ngl this relationship has made me so averse to labelling myself as a femme because this butch acts like a man#it was so hard to keep that to myself for the entire relationship but i can say it now#(breathes a giant sigh of relief)#there’s just soooo much…#always an excuse#its so tiring its so old. my main feeling around all of this is just a bottomless fucking pit of disappointment#like how is ur response to me saying its over that you have shitty partner disorder lmfao#ughhh sorry i treated you like absolute shit for 6+ years i had no choice because i suck#please be serious. actually dont its easier to leave when you live in genuine fucking delusion#BYEEEEE
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