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Iâve been left alone again so itâs time for ârandom thoughts that seem to have taken over my brainâ TM:
Why is there two Collector Mirrors? There is the one Belos had, but there is also the Trappersâ mirror, which by the time we see it is already broken. What was the point of there being two mirrors? Who made the mirrors? And why was one broken but the Collector still trapped?
Ok, so we know that the Trappersâ mirror is broken by the time we see it. We also know that the Collectorâs mirror that Belos had breaks when King frees them. When King, I guess, astral projects himself into the In Between we see what looks like shards, of which look similar to the mirrors, floating around the Collectorâs prison.
I kinda have to ideas of what this could mean. I think no matter what, the mirrors we see are meant to be a communication device. Either between Archivists, or whatever you wanna call the Collectorâs species, themselves or between them and the Trappers.
If itâs between the Archivists and the Trappers then theyâd only need two mirrors. This would allow the Trappers to contact the Archivists when they found another Titan, and allow the Archivists to give the Trappers orders. Of course this is under the assumption that the Archivists formed the Trappers, not the Collector, which I think makes more sense anyways when it comes to the Collector as a character. Sure, you could say they made the Trappers and somewhere along the line there was a disconnect in communication which lead them to hunting Titans but there is still that picture in the Archive House.
So the disconnect could get you the âeven when those trapper jerks started acting weirdâ but it doesnât explain this photo which implies the Archivists themselves started the Trappers. So with the assumption that the Archivists created the Trappers, the mirror could have been used to give/receive orders.
However this doesnât really explain how there are shards around the Collectorâs prison. So, if the mirrors are used to talk between Archivists, well there are at least four older Archivists.
Maybe they each had their own mirror to talk to one another. If thatâs the case, then the Collector is probably too young to have one himself. That means there could be upwards to four mirrors and maybe if one of them breaks itâs no longer able to communicate but is still somehow connected to the other mirrors. This could explain why we hear the Collectorâs laugh in Edge of the World when the Trappers are about to sacrifice King. Then the main question would be how did the Collector bring them into the In Between when he was trapped and how did the mirror shatter?
Iâm less confident in the four mirrors honestly but oh well. It still gets me to how the Trappersâ mirror broke. Maybe their mirror was used to trap the Collector and thatâs how it broke. We already know they break when set free, whatâs to say the same canât happen when reversed? Not to mention we arenât really given a clear answer on how the Collector was trapped anyways. I donât think one of their siblings could have been trapped as well because both the Collector and Papa Titan make it seem like they were the only ones left at that point.
Idk. This is all just speculation that I felt should be typed down somewhere. I donât even know if this is coherent anymore. Or if it ever was.
#rant post#the owl house#toh#for the future#edge of the world#watching and dreaming#the archivists#the collector#king clawthorne#papa titan#why two mirrors?#people should stop leaving me alone#the thoughts be wild
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imagine viktor didn't mean to start the cult but the people he healed just keep coming back and building homes, starting farms and other shit. like he wants to heal people but they wont fucking leave and he's too awkward to tell them to leave because they're so happy and grateful.
like this was supposed to be his solo healing trip with astral vision sky and instead these people wont leave him tf alone and no one's called him by his actual name in weeks. all he wants to do is heal some shimmer addicts then send them on their way so he can explore the arcane but now hes being roped into meetings about dome structures and irrigation methods.
jayce comes into kill him and hes like thank goddddd jayce please tell them to leave i cant. they call me the herald and for a few weeks i though they were calling me harold and i was too tired to correct them now its gone too far. they keep asking me if we should add livestock to the farm. jayce i know nothing about farming please help me. jayce they're too nice tell them to leave.
#arcane#viktor arcane#arcane spoilers#hes like fuck this is the most social ive been in a decade#hes so used to talking to like 6 people maybe and only half of that he enjoys speaking to#now hes a cult leader and still figuring out his new body#like man doesnt know if he still does things like pee or ear or sleep and people wont stop bothering him#theyre like should we paint murals and build a park and hes like i dgaf leave me ALONE to the arcane exploration#this is why viktor didnt go into politics
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you know. white liberals would be far less annoying (still deeply annoying) and far less difficult to take seriously (still deeply difficult) if they stopped lying to themselves and everyone else about what they were doing. âcause yâall either sound completely stupid and removed from reality at best or violently callous at worst.
(and before anyone fails their reading comprehension here, i am not telling anyone to vote or not vote or who to vote or not vote for. get off my dick.)
but no, youâre not doing âreal leftismâ by voting for kamala (something i have actually seen countless people say. âreal leftistsâ would vote for kamala!!1!!1!! if you donât vote for her ur not a âreal leftist!!!!â). thatâs not what that is. words mean things. youâre actually engaging in pretty textbook liberalism. itâs not âreal leftismâ to vote for a genocidal fascist who is actively employing genocidal fascistic policies both overseas and domestically, and who has pledged gladly to continue doing so. (again, bc this is the bad reading comprehension website, iâm not telling you if you vote for kkkamala ur not a âreal leftistâ (mostly because thatâs meaningless); iâm saying that that act itself is not a """leftist""" action). if you feel the need to justify what youâre doing to yourself by pretending youâre doing ~real leftism~, stop.
you're not âstopping fascismâ or âsaving democracyâ or whatever else. youâre not âstopping fascismâ by voting for a fascist. youâre not âsaving democracyâ by voting for a fascist. if you genuinely canât see in this current moment that kamala harris & the democrats are fascists, you are deliberately ignoring and excusing fascism as long as itâs happening to nonwhite people. it is willful, deliberate ignorance at this point and it is violent. you genuinely do not see victims of fascism unless it happens to white people.
youâre not âprotecting palestiniansâ by voting for kamala. youâre not making their chances better or being better for them or improving their conditions. youâre not âmore likelyâ to sway kamala on palestine; you canât even threaten to withhold your support for her because of her wanton slaughtering of palestinians. 13 months of ongoing genocide and ongoing mass protest movements and multiple polls showing that she would literally guarantee the win in key swing states if she would just call for an arms embargo / ceasefire as part of her platform have not swayed her. she constantly, constantly reaffirms her willful, enthusiastic support of this genocide. she has said over and over again that she will not end her support for israel, that she would not have done anything differently than biden, that she has no intentions to stop sending israel arms and money so they can keep slaughtering palestinians and now lebanese. you are not âprotectingâ or helping palestinians by voting for her. keep their names out of your mouths.
youâre not protecting """minorities""" or """poc""" either. not when the candidate is a cop whose administration has already funneled billions of dollars into the police and the military, who is priding herself on wanting to create the most lethal military, on being tougher on the border&immigration than trump, who is happily continuing to perpetuate racist atrocity propaganda to justify the mass slaughter of palestinians, who continues to reaffirm and support the escalation of imperialism and war even elsewhere in the so-called middle east, who is gladly seeking (and securing) endorsements by racist white supremacist republicans (like dick fucking cheney. come on), whose administration has been for four years enthusiastically accelerating the climate crisis, whose campaign has been littered with examples of both their supporters and the politicians themselves being virulently racist. youâre not protecting us. youâre not helping us.
your candidate wants us dead. your candidate wants me dead. your candidate wants my people in iran dead. your candidate wants my sister peoples in palestine and in lebanon dead. your candidate is actively orchestrating their slaughter.
kamala might be better for you, white liberal american. fine. vote for her if you wish. no one is stopping you. but stop white knighting about it. stop pretending youâre doing this for anyone but yourself. stop lying to yourself and everyone else about what youâre doing. stop speaking over us the with fucking audacity that youâre somehow doing us a favor, and stop talking down to us, palestinians especially, like they are children who need to be ~explained~ the right way to save them. stick your white savior complex up your ass.
vote however you want, but stop lying about what youâre doing and who youâre protecting.
and if you want my vote too? fucking earn it.
#us politics#politics#genocide#kamala harris#liberal#joe biden#palestine#israel#racism#quasartalks#if dems wanted me to vote for them theyâd stop being so fucking racist to me & people like me. theyâd do the literal one (1) thing that the#statistic vast majority of usamericans want. but they wonât. they care less about winning the election â and less about /doing their job/#(you know - responding to the wishes of their constituents they represent) â than they do about being able to continue bombing hospitals#and burning children alive in tents. they would rather blow babiesâ brains apart than win the election. they KNOW. that they would GUARANTE#A WIN. if they would STOP SLAUGHTERING PEOPLE. and they DO NOT CARE ABOUT WINNING ENOUGH TO DO IT. they dont care abt winning the election#enough to stop slaughtering civilians.#why should i care then? if they donât? if they clearly donât care enough to do the single thing that would guarantee the win?#youâre asking me to care about people who care more about killing me than they do winning the election. be so for fucking real.#and leave me alone. leave us alone.#vote for whatever you want. but keep our names out of ur mouths.#iâm going to try to have this b the only actual post abt this i make#but goddamn. dems are so disgustingly violently racist and you get madder at the ppl they deliberately denigrate than u do them for-#-alienating swaths of their voter base. yâall are a little too excited abt these racist maniacal genociders.#we see the way you celebrate racists. if kamala wins and youâre doing anything but breathing relief that trump is gone and strapping in to#actually 'pressure' kamala like u said u would? if i see any of you freaks Celebrating?? celebrating these racist wastes of space?#itâs on sight lmao
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it is still so baffling for me for widespread fandom opinions to have gone from "these two men grew up together and were basically brothers before their tragic separation/betrayal, omg OTP (Steve/Bucky)" to "these two men grew up together and were basically brothers before their tragic separation/betrayal, so shipping them is incest (Diluc/Kaeya)" in about eight years
#and before that was OURAN HIGH SCHOOL HOST CLUB#everyone has a right to be grossed out by stuff but like. I wish I wasn't literally worried about being doxxed for LucKae#antishipper and proshipper should never have become a fandom split#stop harming real people in the name of 'defending' fictional ones#and leave me alone with my 'friends to enemies to lovers' dynamics
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ima tell u this now : if u hate on x reader fics, block me cus by doing that you r doing us both a great favour đ€đœ ion need any of ur negativity on my blog because this is a safe space for people who do enjoy x reader fics goodbye
#đđđđđđđđ.#im gonna vent a bit in tags so ignore#bcs ive seen like two hate posts on x reader w a lot of interaction#and ima say this#leave ppl alone ⊠maybe.. idk? like to each their own#its not that hard to block people if you donât like their content#i swear we x reader writers wont even mind or notice if u do#weâd be so glad if u just block us completely#like god bless u for taking out the negativity (you) from our blog#i might not like oc fics but do u see me hating on them?? no bcs i just scroll past them#sometimes i even read them bcs thers no harm in trying out different things#and some of them are rlly good !!!#but ay just leave ppl be and stop acting stupid n pathetic đâŠ#ofc everyone should tag their posts accordingly#i do too#but can u blame ppl for enjoying what they read?#ik some of u dislike it bcs reader is most likely written as a petite white female#but the x reader fics im reading dont have such descriptions added at all#yall just looking at the wrong stuff#but maybe its bcs i follow mainly poc / black writers đ€·đœââïž#anyway i love when i can insert myself in fics and feel appreciated idk abt yall#but hating on ppls enjoyments is a bit.. childish#i thought we left that behind#and grew up#but okk!! do what u gotta do ig#main point: block x reader tags + the writers you come across#u r doing both of us a HUGE favour đ !#tw discourse#tw vent#cw vent
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#corpse husband#amongus#I guess#help me pls#I've forgotten how to draw people that aren't fnf shaped#iiidk brainron not wanting to leave me alone#I know it's just 2 unfinished things plus a weird bean thingamajig but eh#maybe I'm worried if I don't upload I'll procastinate and won't end up producing anything cause I know I won't finish these doodles#and I started to not like the previous corpse attempt much I guess bc the teeth were so lame#so more teeth for better or worse yeehaw#idk if there'll be more corpse art or not tbh maybe I should just doodle more beans cause then I can draw his cute lil friends aswell#like a green sykkuno bean and a red rae bean and the rest aswell maybe ahh the possibilities lol#cause I probably won't draw anyone else otherwise bc learning how to draw more actual people is too much dang effort tbh ha ah well#k will stop rambling about nothing now ok cool#so enjoy more amongus ish corpse attempts or do not it's whatever#among us#I draw what I want#feel free to ignore nws ha#more bombeep and regular stuff soon hopefully fingers crossed#stream 'Never Satisfied' on spotify bc idk good music and also yelling ha#anyways laters k bye
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just randomly remembered that during my like 10+ attempts at the shadow yukiko fight i more or less consistently ran out of revival beads so yosuke was just dead (well unconscious but whatever) on the ground for like half the fight gfhfjvhfhfhd-
#puppy rambles#persona 4#p4#as much as i love him he's not always the most useful. that fight is one of those times-#still always keep him in the party though. perfect p4 team to me is yosuke teddie and naoto#i haven't gotten to naoto joining the party yet but i love her. trans icon. vibing naoto is the best thing to happen to the persona 4 fandom#and yosuke and teddie are my favorites of the investigation team thus far. the others are all very close but they're above the others#dunno why i like yosuke so much. souyo is def part of it#and teddie is very very silly. idk why people hate him so much like yea he can be kinda annoying but he's only existed for a few months#he doesn't understand social cues yet. he's just autistic leave him alone vhgbhmfhdf- /hj#i feel like a lot of persona characters have autism vibes but that's probably at least partially just me projecting#at the very least i'm sure we can all agree that aigis and marie do. autism arcana#that's. probably why they're my favorite girls ggyfubhngd-#aigis is easily my favorite persona character. she's cute and also silly :3 and bisexual i love the bisexual toaster and her doors <3#(aikoto + hamugis polycule for the win. makoto and kotone aren't dating obv. ryoji's also dating both of them separately#)#and marie is cute and also silly i'm totally dating her. love how persona technically lets you polyamory so long as you don't date everyone#i have to max her social link for the golden-exclusive content anyway so might as well#âââ this post got derailed. i like the part where i talked about my beloved persona 3 bisexual polycule#p4's def the best persona game i think but i love p3 very much too. makoto kotone aigis and ryoji are unsurprisingly my faves#really love yukari too. i spent several hours trying to figure out how to add mods to p3p so i could date her as kotone#it was not successful. i'll probably get it on steam when i inevitably play it gghdhchvhv-#and i'll get reload at somepoint too. probably on steam at least first so i can use the kotone mod i need my girlie#makoto is also great i love him. emo non-binary icon. but also silly girlboss. they're both so mentally unwell#that reminds me of a drawing i have in my drafts i should post that#oh also it's aikoto week apparently??? which is very poggers. idk the prompts but i need to draw my sillies regardless#i do slightly prefer hamugis but they're both very very cute to me. the toaster has two hands she can kiss both the doors-#idk why that joke's so funny to me. i should stop now-
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this appeared on the side while watching a video and holy SHIT yall need to leave ppl alone and get a fucking LIFE holy shit what
#not a fan of chrischan either but srsly just leave people alone#honestly one of the saddest stories to me on the internet#this is how it is to be autistic and in general just mentally ill and neurodivergent online#as someone who had a short past with these 'lolcow' people. its nothing but disgusting people who will harass and bully#for no reason other than hate#did this person do bad things? absolutely#should people just... leave this shit be?#yes...? none of this wouldve been a big deal. this is not in defense of any confirmed or accused actions. i dont know whats happening or#going on and i dont care and im not defending that.#but seriously people need to stop. what the fuck. episode SIXTY SIX??? ITS 44 MINUTES LONG????? OHMY GOD GET A HOBBY???#GO OUTSIDE AND LOOK AT BIRDS DRAW A PICTURE TELL A FRIEND YOU LOVE THEM GO BUY A SNACK I DONT KNOW#WHY ARE YOU SO INVESTED IN A STRANGERS LIFE
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man i thought i moved out to escape my family but it turns out i've jumped from the pan into the fire because holy shit my guys what the fuck??
#at least at home we have people competent enough to not flush wet wipes and tampons down the toilet#let alone FOOD???#and we don't leave our dishes out for so long by the sink that they start to RUST#like ok my lil brothers make a mess sometimes and accidentally shat on the floor a few times but at least they're fucking children why tf#should i deal with shit water because of your incompetence#and yknow i can deal with noise. im the noisiest at night at home b/c i always go shower late but im not fucking SCREECHING and chatting#so loudly you'd think i was at a concert or some shit#and this bitch?? can't comprehend i just want to not have crumbs all over the couch???#like girl. how did this become a slight against you. why would i ask you to keep the couch clean b/c you slept there once or twice#BITCH I CLEANED THE COUCH COVER ON MY OWN DIME *BECAUSE* I KNEW YOU MIGHT SLEEP THERE AGAIN & WANTED IT TO BE CLEAN FOR YOU#YOU NOT ONLY INSULT ME BUT ENTIRELY MISCONSTRUE MY KINDNESS TOWARDS YOU??? WHY WOULD IT BE DIRTY B/C YOU SLEPT THERE???#you can't make this shit up i hate having roommates holy hell#only slightly made up for by the fact i get a room to myself these days#the other one smells like weed all the time and the other other one doesnt wash her hands properly after using the toilet + keeps her dishe#out by the sink + doesn't pick her hair up#also i'm the youngest so that's just even sadder#i was also the youngest last year and bitch. you have no idea#this is what being the eldest sibling does to a mf#not really related but they made the ugliest doormat ever i wish i had been there to stop them from that atrocity#and why do they not take their shoes off. girl i mop the floors like every 2 weeks#it's fucking clean trust me just take them off bitch#am i being holier than thou? probably but fucking DESERVED#i can't be taking care of people two years older than me like this. yall have too much fucking drama
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Smoke In The Breeze, You In My Lungs.
The one where V/ash gives W/olfwood a gift, and W/olfwood gives V/ash a show. Feat. sneezy W/olfwood, and smitten V/ash. (Shipped, though not entirely âdatingâ, just more like âwill be dating.â Pre-dating. Also known as head over heels for each other, secretly). Also thereâs totally a few not so secret moments about it~Â
First time attempting T/rigun S/tampede, so the characters voices are still new to me, hopefully this will be an acceptable addition to the AMAZING collection of V/ashwood fics already on here! For anyone bothering to read this, thank you~ Hope you enjoy~~
(References to smoking and swearing, incase you donât like those)Â
Characters: V/ash, W/olfwood, and a surprisingly cool desert night. Word Count: 3.5k ~~~~~~~
The first time Vash remembered seeing Wolfwood smoke was almost immediately after meeting him. Since then, he seemed to always be either stuffing a cigarette between his teeth, crushing one on the ground, or somewhere in between. Despite this, cigarettes remain just as expensive as always, and Wolfwood remains the same short on cash grifter. Turns out addiction doesnât pay for itself. Thatâs why when Vash saw the pack of cigarettes sitting on the counter of a bar they had passed through on their last round of plant repairs, he had asked the man they were attached to where heâd found them. Turns out, there was a peddler in this town that sold rare and exotic types. Vash had gotten his money together and managed to afford a single pack. Tonight was the first time since then that the opportunity had presented itself to offer the gift without too much explanation needed as to its meanings. âHey, Nicho-â Vash starts, a light shove in response nearly sending him over the edge of the rock they find themselves balanced on. âWatch it Blondie, I told you, unless weâre alone, itâs Wolfwood.â Vash lets their eyes meet, before gesturing to the desert around them, barren aside from the car theyâd âborrowedâ for this little trip. âOh, yes, of course, I must have forgotten about the invisible forces watching us from- ouch! Okay, okay, sorry.â The laughter in his voice doesnât go unnoticed, a sharp smile in response forming on Wolfwoodâs face. His smiles always had this edge to them, as if simply a touch from his lips would be enough to slice you open. Staring at him in the moonlight, Vash nearly thought about testing the theory. âHey, blondie?â âHmm?â âI assumed you had an end to that sentence you started before? Unless it was just a veiled attempt at getting yourself sent careening off a real high rock for the fun of it?â âRight, sorry. Yeah, I just⊠here.â Vash reached into his pocket, pulling out the pack of cigarettes and sticking them in Wolfwoodâs hands, not missing the baffled look that slipped across the normally fixed features. âAs payment, for that bread you spotted me the other day.â âYou mean⊠the piece of bread that we got as payment for the jobâŠ?â Vash feels his hand graze the back of his neck before he even registers that heâs moved it. âW-well⊠I mean I guess⊠just consider it a gift then!â Wolfwood looks like heâs planning to say more, but once his eyes have finished tracing Vashâs face, heâs decided against it. Settling instead for flashing him a smirk, and pulling out the first one. Sticking it between his teeth, Wolfwood leans towards him. âLight me up, blondie.â A blush spreads like wildfire against Vashâs cheeks, and he pulls out the lighter Wolfwood had tossed him a few towns back, bringing it carefully to the cigarette. The glow of the flame lights up the mischief in Wolfwoodâs eyes as he inhales, then gently blows the smoke right at Vashâs face. âHey-!â Coughing, Vash waves his hand in the air, giving Wolfwood a playful punch in return, laughing a bit at the grimace he receives. âBit rough there, Blondie. Hm.. these taste a bit different than normal, are they the regular packs I get?â âYouâre the one who blew smoke in my face! Youâre lucky Iâm wearing my sunglasses, or that would have gone right in my eyes! And um⊠I think theyâre a different brand maybe?â Wolfwood hums lightly, choosing to focus his attention on the first part of what Vash said. âWhy are you wearing them at night? Are even the moons too bright for you?â âWha- no! I just got so used to the feeling of them on my face thatâŠâ Vash rubs his neck, offering a sheepish smile, âIt starts to feel weird without them. Not quite like being naked, more like walking around without a shirt on. Technically acceptable, but still quite weird. Feels vulnerable almost. Though sometimes if I- hey, you alright?â Wolfwoodâs eyes have been captured by a far off look, his head slightly tilting back until- âhIHâktsSHHâyue-! hAHâZSHHâoo-!â âOh, bless you!â With a rough sniff, Wolfwood brings his wrist back down from where it had assumed position under his nose. He gives Vash a sharp grin, taking another drag from the cigarette in lieu of a thank you. âWhat were you on about then?â âHm? Oh, it was nothing really. Honestly I donât even remember where I was going with that.â âAlright.â And with that, theyâre back to staring out at the desert sky. Not a cloud in sight, but somehow, it was darker than usual. âThat wouldnât normally be a bad thing, but⊠it makes it harder to see himâ Vash thinks, allowing his eyes to trace over to Wolfwood. The light of the cigarette glows faintly against the darkness of his clothes. His eyes though⊠they shine without any light at all. Somehow, despite being dark, Vash has always noticed the glow they seem to give off. âHehh- hHâkttZSHHâyuee-!â âBle-â âNohhht- not done Blondieehhhh-! hEHâZZSCHHâOO-! hahhâASHHâyuee-!â âTriple bless you!â âCute, needle-noggin.â Vash smiles, the laughter dancing in Wolfwoodâs eyes filling him with warmth, despite the cold air. âYou alright though? Something setting you off?â Wolfwood gives a deep sniff before answering, apparently trying to see if he can smell anything unusual. Unfortunately, heâs already way too stuffed up to let anything pass, including air. âCanât tell. Doubt it though, likely just something irritating my allergies.â âIn the middle of a desertâŠ?â âYouâd be surprised at the kind of flowering plants you can still find âround here. One time I walked into a town that had a full blooming cactus- flower- thing. Still donât know exactly what it was, but damn it was potent. Was sneezing nearly the whole night, but it was too late to go find another place to stay.â Wolfwood seems to shudder a little at the memory, his hand coming up to rub at his nose as if even the thought of it was starting to irritate him. âPretty sure I woke everyone in that motel, got some real dirty looks the next morning.â Vash laughs, dodging a punch thrown at his good arm. Wolfwood gives him a glare, but thereâs no fire in his eyes. Only warmth. The cigarette heâs been smoking has reached its last legs, and Wolfwood crushes it, before pulling out another, leaning in once again for Vash to light it. âMight as well treat myself to a few tonight, itâs a gift after all, right Blondie?â Vash obliges, lighting it up and letting his head tilt with a nod, partially to agree, mostly to hide the flush starting to fill his cheeks at the mention of the gift. Thankfully, heâs soon distracted, as Wolfwood lets out another itchy gasp, this time barely managing to turn away from Vash before the sneezes break free. âhihhâZZSHâyuee-! heHH- hAHâktSHHHâooo-! hhâRRUSHHâueee-! Fuck- hahâASHHâooo-! Hehh⊠ihhhâhEHâZSHHâOOO-!â âJeez, Nico. Bless you, are you alright?â A shiver runs through Wolfwood, his cheeks slightly pink as he turns back to face Vash. ââScuse me. Iâm alright. Just somethinâ tick-hhHâZSHHHâOO-! Oh god, not doohhhne!â Vash wants to turn away, give him some privacy, but something about the vulnerability of the display has him captivated. Wolfwoodâs eyes are fighting to stay open, fluttering against the depth of the tickle. His mouth hangs open, breath hitching wildly as his nose practically trembles. âhHHâKSHHâyuee-! Huhhh- hEHâRSHHH-ISHHH-ZSCHHHâooo-! Wheww~ Ohgod- iHhâNGXtttâshiew-!â Desperate to stop the onslaught, he attempts to stifle the last one, Vash not missing the shivers it sends down his spine. Both of them know what a stupid choice that was, as Wolfwood can do nothing but gasp against the cold air, before ducking into his arm with another rapid, yet softer, fit. âhhHâishhâiew-! tiSHHâiew-! hehhâASHHâiew-! Hehh- hHâDTshhhâiew-!â âBless you. You really shouldnât hold them in like that, you know it just makes you sneeze more afterwards.â A blush spreads across Wolfwoodâs face, Vash not missing the way the dark eyes refuse to meet his own. âYeah, yeah. Thank you Dr. Blondie, Iâll keep that in mind.â The tone is light and teasing, but thereâs a deeper mood to it that Vash canât quite put his finger on. This isnât new to him, Wolfwood quite often uses humour or charm to mask deeper, actual emotions. Deciding to let him keep what dignity he has left after the fits, Vash just offers a sweet smile, and a tissue from his pocket. Wolfwood greedily reaches for it before pausing, and gently handing Vash the cigarette to hold before grabbing the tissue. Offering a âthanksâ over his shoulder as he turns away, he roughly blows his nose, Vash wincing at the congested sounds. Turning back with his mouth still slightly hanging open, âlikely to breatheâ Wolfwood gives Vash a tight smile, before taking the cigarette back. âAre you sure you donât know whatâs causing this? Youâre not getting sick, are you? You could tell me if you were, ya know. Itâs not a bad thing to admit-â âIâm not sick. Just itchy.â âAnd stuffed up.â Thereâs a pause, Wolfwood seemingly taking stock of his symptoms. Vash attempts to do the same. âYeah. Still, it feels like allergies. If I was getting sick Iâd be feeling it in my throat by now.â âHm⊠normally youâd be coughing by now too.â Wolfwood shoots him a look, and Vash blushes a bit, rushing through an explanation before he can stop himself. âWe just spend a lot of time together, and I noticed that usually when you get sick you get a cough pretty quickly- not first though, first comes a sore throat- usually I can tell because you donât talk as much- not that you talk too much! You just talk more than I do sometimes, and well, when youâre sick you donât, and thatâs how I can tell itâs starting- but yeah usually the coughing starts before the sne-â âBlondie, take a breath.â Vash chuckles nervously, aiming his gaze at the ground where the crushed cigarette lays, still slightly smouldering, so he grinds it a bit further into the rock. âhHâZSCHHâooo-! hehhâktCHHâiew-! haHHâDNNGTâshhh-!â âDidnât we just go over th-â âhIHâISHHâiew-! Tishhâiew-! hHâZSHHâiew-! heHâashhâiew-! HHâzshhâIEW-!â â-this. Bless you.â His tone is teasing, and Wolfwood shoots him an exasperated look, rolling his eyes dramatically, though Vash canât quite tell if that was meant for him, or the sneezes that seemed to still be dancing through his sinuses. âHehhh- hHâHDT- guhhhâŠâ âStill need to sneeze?â âWhaahhhht do you hehhhâŠ. hHâIHH-uhhhhh what do you think?â Vash blushes, the desperation in Wolfwoodâs words simmering in his stomach in ways heâd rather not dwell on. Instead, he reaches over and runs a single finger down the bridge of Wolfwoodâs pronounced nose, smirking at the way his eyes tear up immediately. He manages to keep enough wits about him to aim away from Vashâs hand, but doesnât even attempt to cover as the sneezes blast out of him. âHHâZSCHHHâOO-! hahâASHHâooo-! RRUSHHHâUEE-! HAHHâZSHHHâYUEE-! Hehh⊠hehHâKTSHHâooo-! hhâzzUSHHâooo-! Jeez, âscuse me. Thanks for that, Blondie. They were really tormenting me there.â âBless you. Seemed like you needed a little help, is all.â âYeah. Damn, still itches something fierce. Really donât know whatâs got me so irritated.â Vash glances around the desert once more. Nothing catches his eye, the vast open space still empty of anything more than sand and their car. âWe seem to be the only things around. Unless youâve suddenly developed an allergy to sand. Oh god, that would be- âhEHâKISHHâooo-!â âExactly! Took the words right out of my mo- ouch! Okay, okay, jeez. No need to beat me up! Iâm not the one causing this.â They pause for a minute, Wolfwoodâs eyes watery and glossed over, but Vashâs suddenly wide and frantic. âWait, you donât think youâre allergic to me, do you?! I mean, Iâm the only thing around, and youâre having an allergy attack, so it figures that you have to be allergic to something nearby, and since Iâm the only thin-â âBlondie, youâre giving me a headache.â âSorryâŠâ âDonât worry so much. Iâm not allergic to you. Iâd be long dead by now if I was, what with how much you cling to my side.â âIâm pretty sure youâre the one who just decided to invite yourself along on everything I do.â âRegardless of the details, my point stands. I canât possibly be allergic to you. Besides, it only started recen- hehH- hold on-â Wolfwood pauses, voice entirely air. His breath catches, then releases once more, stuck right on the edge of sneezing and hitching. Vash feels a pang of sympathy at the desperate look in his eyes as they flutter between closed and open. Wolfwood is stuck, mouth ajar, head slightly tilted. One hand is hovering in front of his face, lightly fanning, the other holding his cigarette as it burns closer and closer to his fingers. Noticing the pain thatâs sure to occur soon, Vash knocks it down, crushing it beneath his boot, not missing the growl of protest Wolfwood manages to slip out between gasps. âYouâre a bit too preoccupied to be smoking that right now, and I donât think either of us want you getting burned by it.â All he gets are hitches in return, the groaning starting to air on the side of moans as Wolfwood tries frantically to get the sneezes to come out. Finally he reaches over, grabbing Vashâs hand, sending chills down his spine. Heâs too far gone to speak, but he doesnât need words. Vash knows what to do. Gently taking his finger, and running it down the bridge of his nose like he did before, Vash nearly faints at the deep and airy moan that escapes Wolfwoodâs throat, before he lunges forward with a harsh fit, lightly misting Vashâs hand as he attempts to move out of the way. âhEHâISHHâYIUU-! ASHHHâYUUE-! ZSSHHH-DTSHH-KTSHHHâOOO-! hehh- heHâkNXGTâSHOO-! heHâISHHâiew-! hhâzzSHHâooo-! What the fuck- RSHHHâooo-! hhâktSHHâooo-! heHâRSHHHHâyuue-! Oh thank god.â âBless you Nicholas. Better?â He receives a desperate sniff in response, wet and heady, and Vash searches through his pockets for another tissue, handing over a pack he forgot he was carrying. âYou been holdinâ out on me.â Wolfwood mutters, crushing his nose into them and letting out a harsh blow. âForgot I had them, sorry âbout that, I woulda handed âem over sooner if I remembered.â Wolfwood comes up for air, his nose twitching in the cold night air, before pressing it back into the tissues for another blow. Finally, seeming to get enough relief to satisfy him, his watery glance meets Vashâs, an itchy sigh releasing from his chest. âAll is forgiven, feels much better now. Except that you crushed my smoke before I was finished with it!â âAh, sorry âbout that too, but it was for the best.â Already pulling another out, Wolfwood gives him another sharp smile, this time laced with something that makes Vashâs heart flutter before he has a chance to stop it. âAt this rate Iâm gonna finish the pack before morning.â As he reaches over to get it lit, Vash gently pulls it out from between his lips. Wolfwood raises an eyebrow, but doesnât say a word, and doesnât move back either, their faces close enough to feel the otherâs breath. Vash places the smoke in his mouth, lights it, and takes a drag, âHm, it does taste a bit different⊠what is this, I wonder.â before letting Wolfwood remove it, and place it between his own lips. Neither moves, Wolfwood breathing in too, Vash still holding his breath, though not by choice anymore. They stay like this for a beat, before Wolfwood turns to the side, blowing out, before turning back, eyes aglow. Vash finally realizes heâs still holding the smoke in his lungs, and goes to exhale, before pausing. âTime for a little revenge for the earlier smoke blowingâ. He lets his breath go, smoke drifting right into Wolfwoodâs face. The reaction is instantaneous, Wolfwood using every fiber of his being to aim for Vashâs shoulder instead of his face as the sneezes burst out of him, forcing the cigarette to drop onto the ground where Vash crushes it. âhhHâzzSHHâooo-! hhâASHHHâooo-! heHâihhDSHHâieew-! hUHâRUSHHHâyuee-! B- Blond- hAHâKTSHHHâooo-! hihhâZZCHHâOOO-! hHâEDDshhâyue-! RSHHHâooo-!â âOh god, bless you Nico!â Vash pauses for a second, before realization sets across his face, immediately replaced by panic as he turns over the pack in his hand, reading the label. âShit- Nicholas, oh damn it-â Through congested sniffles, Wolfwood manages to shoot him a questioning gaze, before another desperate sneezes rips through him, this time giving him enough time to aim for the ground. âhEHHâKTSHHâshiew-!â âBless you. Iâm so sorry!â âWhat are you sorry for, Iâm the one who just⊠juuhhhst⊠hhhâISHHâyue-! ktSHHâooo-! Scuse me- just sneezed against your shoulder.â âBless yo- huh? Oh, thatâs nothing, donât worry about it. Itâs my fault anyways, I really should have seen it sooner, I was just⊠kinda distracted⊠Iâm so sorry!â âSeen whatâŠ? What am I missing here Blondie?â Vash blushes, this time deep enough that Wolfwood canât help but raise an eyebrow at the colour shift. âT- the⊠the pack of smokes I gave you⊠you said they tasted different, and I thought it was just the brand, but when I had one I couldnât quite put my finger on what it was- it tasted like more than just a different brand- I mean I should have smelled it in the smoke but I wasnât paying attention- and you were too stuffed up to smell or taste it anymore- Iâd heard of flavoured cigarettes before but Iâve never seen them around here so I didnât even think to-â âBlondie, rambling again. Is there a point youâre gettinâ to?â â.....Theyâre cinnamon flavoured. Which means the smoke is cinnamon scented too.â Wolfwood stares for a moment, before letting out a laugh that nearly startles Vash off the rock. âThatâs all? Blondie, with the way you were goinâ on, I thought they were poisoned or something!â âB- but⊠youâre allergic to cinnamon..? Thatâs why youâre sneezing so much, and⊠and itâs all my faultâŠâ Vash feels his face flushing again, tears starting to form in his eyes before he can fight them off. âWhy are you crying, youâre the one who caused this, you donât get to cry-â. His thoughts are cut off by the feeling of soft hands against his cheeks. One hand wipes away the tears, lingering just a moment on his cheek, while the other runs up into his hair, eliciting a soft sigh that he canât stop. âIâm not angry at you, Vash.â Vash manages to clear his head enough to recognize the hands belong to Nicholas. The voice that spoke up belongs to him too, and thereâs a gentle tone in it heâs never heard before. The eyes staring back at him belong to the man as well, and the kindness seeping through them nearly starts Vash crying again. âY⊠youâre notâŠ?â A light chuckle breaks through, and Vash feels his heart drowning in longing. âItâs just some sneezing, Blondie. We both know Iâve had worse. Plus, I was still enjoying the smoke, even with the unfortunate byproduct.â Vash stares, head filling with thoughts he canât ignore. âWhy isnât he angry?â âHe was still enjoying them?â âIs he okay with this?â and front and center, âHis hands are still touching me, does he know that?â One hand still cups his face, thumb running along his chin, while the other seems content to pet through his hair. Vash canât help but gasp as Nicholas suddenly pulls back, both hands leaving his skin, prompting his own to reach out for them. âhihhâKTshhhâiew-!â âOh.â With that, Nicholas lets Vashâs hands grab his own, returning the grasp. Neither of them pulls closer, but neither pulls away. They just sit there for a minute letting the contact send burning chills through their bodies, almost as if they were being electrocuted. And yet⊠it was the most soothing feeling either had ever had. After a few minutes of this, Vash broke off first, barely catching the airy sigh that escaped between Nicholasâs teeth. Vash could see his nose was still twitching, a red sheen on it glowing in the moonlight. âWhen did it get so much brighter out here?â âWe should get you some allergy meds, or youâre gonna be sneezing the rest of the night. Neither of us will get any sleep if that happens.â âRight, Blondie. Lead the way.â Neither of them says a word about the contact, the electricity, or the burning urge to do it again that bangs against each of their chests. Somehow, an unspoken agreement has been made, one that both of them seem desperate to keep. âThat didnât happen, I didnât love it, and it will never happen again.â Of course, both of them also know itâs a lie, and are eagerly awaiting the next excuse to feel that softness again. Somewhere, in the middle of a surprisingly cool desert night, under a dark sky, one touch lights a spark, and two cold hearts start to thaw in the heat.Â
#waterfallwrites#oh god guys another one this week??? ive lost my mind i apologize#it just wouldnt leave me alone so i wrote it#and then bc i have a problem i decided i should post it too#i like other people seeing what ive wrote okay??? is that so wrong????#well it certainly FEELS wrong#but im gonna try to get past it and just put this here#hey maybe only i will like it but thats okay#gotta be able to enjoy your own stuff sometimes right#okay okay okay ill stop rambling to stall like i do every time and just post it#if anyone reads these tags- hello- thank you for reading- i hope you enjoy this!!#snz#snzkink#snzfic#t/rigun s/tampede#v/ash and w/olfwood#my beloveds
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#having a time again#I fucking hate rsd#I hate just feeling the overwhelming urge to go scorched earth and abandon everyone and everything Iâve ever known#I thought I had it under control and it got triggered again recently#and it leaves me fucking exhausted and regretting all my life decisions in the end#hate fucking relapsing#hate being unable to read peopleâs minds#being built fucking Wrong#and having people hate me for reasons Iâm not even Aware of because I canât pick up on it and no one just fucking Talks#no one just Says when theyâre bothered they let it fester and then itâs My fault#I didnât Completely burn this bridge yet but god I am staring at it with a lighter and gasoline in hand#all thatâs stopping me is that what Iâm about to burn meant and still does mean a lot to me but#I canât keep fucking doing this#it always ends like this#it never fucking changes and I donât know why I bother I should stay in my little hole Alone where no one can hurt me#and I canât accidentally hurt anyone else#idk man#having a fucking time#and maybe I shouldnât even be Talking about it here#becuase who cares itâs social media#but if I donât spill my guts Somewhere then Iâll fucking explode and cut ties with Everyone in my life at a triggerâs notice#and I need to pour this out somewhere Else#so I Donât do something I know is Bad#in a moment of fucking rsd anxiety panic attack#lays down under my rock and dies#becomes a mushroom#if Iâm a mushroom Iâll have no more problems#the mushroom hive mind will understand me and I will understand the mushroom hive mind
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on the leftist commune of my creation you WILL need to have a job and mandatory alone time it cannot be 3 faggots with full time jobs paying for acquaintances random stuff and then being made to listen to said acquaintance vent after the fact
#personal#if you donât know my dad died last year iâm gonna wager you cannot ask me for money#told this dude iâm sorry but no i canât pay for you to wash ur clothes and im TIRED#and yes xyz why someone canât work i do get that#but i am working and am struggling with that#i donât have a choice. i was going to a job where i fell asleep in my car while driving routinely and gave me extreme chest pains#just to pay what i owe my mom for rent#if SHE could afford it sheâd let me live rent free but she canât!#and i need to pay my bills! i NEED a job! thereâs not someone waiting in the wings to fund my life#and iâm sick of it!!!!!! iâm sick of aquntinces using me as a vent thing and then as an atm!#yes i said no!!!!!!!!!! unless you are actively dying iâm probably gonna say no!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#iâm genuinely really upset by people needing things of me and i donât want this relationship in the first place#you came to me youre talking to me im not hitting you up im not reaching out to you#iâm being polite but not outright ignoring you talking to me#that does not equal friendship!!!!!!!#i think i have to stop talking to people i must get meaner#i need to stop having the general vibe you as a stranger should feel comfortable talking to me at length#iâm tired!!!! i donât want new friends or to make new plans or do that!!!!! leave me alone!!!!!!!!!!!!#and this is the second time this WEEK. some random aquantinxe has asked for money#brother i went over budget for donations in one day. i dont give a fuck unless ur actively in dire situations!!!!! i dont care!!!!!! there#there are bigger issues!!!#stop asking people ur NOT close with for this!!!! make actual friends !!!!!
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honestly my biggest wonder about yesterdays drama was like... who even was that? not the person being called out, but the one calling them out. like, its one thing to make a throwaway to make a callout post, but to go on anon and try to pull unrelated people into it? this was clearly someone still in the taleblr server since they had screenshots from literally the same day in their callout
this isnt me taking sides because genuinely i have more important things to worry about than all that, but its different when it comes to this person because like... i just thought yall were different than that? maybe we all dont totally consider eachother friends entirely but i liked to think we were all somewhere around there for the most part
theres only so many of us and we all try to stay chill (to more or less success) because like... theres probably less than 100 of us left, and we're all adults by now as far as i know, and i know age doesnt really equal maturity, but its just so immature to try and stir drama by messaging unrelated parties.
honestly even if the person told me in private who they were its not like id make shit worse by posting about them or something because, again, i have bigger things to worry about, im just curious at this point. its not even an obligation for them to come forward, im just admitting that im curious.
if anything all i have to say is be the bigger person and block and move on when you dont like someone or something someone did. i get that you saw stuff that you found gross and you wanted everyone to feel the same way you did, but the rest of us just want to live our lives. plus i think the people that were messaged arent even in the discord so it was honestly even weirder to do that
ive had my fair share of seeing things that made me feel gross to see or read or know about, like, seriously i found out one of my friends was a pedo last year (and i promptly blocked the cunt). but it doesnt do anything to pull other people into the mess and try to start shit.
basically, just be more mature, cause i know yall are better than that. you dont have to read fics that you dont like, and you dont have to interact with people you dont like. your online experience is yours and the best option is always to block and move on. ive had my fair share of drama, and all it does is ruin peoples days, and not much else.
my biggest point, honestly, is that this is such a small fandom and i dont want whats left to come crashing down because some drama makes everyone left hate it here. i dont care whos right or wrong because literally whatever its internet drama, i just dont want this community to die out.
#taleblr#my post#plus about my ex-friend... im just satisfied in knowing theyre gross and insufferable enough that theyre not gonna have much luck#with relationships of any kind unless they make drastic drastic changes to themselves and their life.#and no i havent read the fic in question here because it just didnt sound like my kind of thing#and im definitely not proship but i seriously think its better to just move on#my thing is like... i dont want people writing about certain topics but i also know that i cant stop people#i dont like things that have been done on either side here which is why im not taking sides#you could argue im an unrelated party but i at least talked to the person a little bit yesterday in the server#i checked up on them after cause i was like 'oh this person i was talking to got banned i wonder what the deal was and if theyre ok'#because from our convo in the server they seemed nice even if they were a bit unknowing of the rules it seemed#and they basically just told me they wanted everyone to leave them alone. so yeah#ill leave them alone and everyone else should too and its just better for everyone to move on#im not going to make any more posts about this after mind you. i dont have asks or submissions on so the only way to contact me#is through my messages if anyone feels like it#or i guess if youre in the discord you could DM me on there too#but otherwise im not going to make any more posts because i just wanted to get this out of the way and move on with my day#i have a huge thing happening later and i dont need this weighing on my mind for it#just be more mature. just block and move on. dont be that guy that tries to bring other people into it that had nothing to do with it#and dont try to make this everyone elses problem#youre allowed to feel disgusted and angry or whatever you might be feeling. but dont make it everyone elses problem#also no i couldnt report my ex-friend because i didnt have the info and also i didnt have evidence more than them admitting to thoughts#and people cant be arrested for thoughts alone as much as you might wish they could#and also they werent ashamed of these thoughts which is why they were disgusting. they only hid them because they knew we would be#disgusted because were normal people. so anyway.#long post
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#i am in fact a grown adult who is still incapable of talking about their feelings and thoughts to people so I'll just rant here#my relationship with my mother is. so weird. it's not always bad but it always ends up bad for one reason or another#she can be perfectly civil and i'll still be irritated. other times i do try to tolerate it and engage and she ends up saying something#upsetting to me either way.#i don't want to keep being rude to her i don't want to get mad and annoyed all the time but i just can't stop. it's always like this#and i hate myself for it and i hate her and i hate everything about it#today i was leaving for work and she was like. i'll take the trash out of your room and i told her not to do it. she kept insisting and i#had to raise my voice at her to maybe get the point across to get her not to touch anything#and yes my room is a fucking mess and it is something to be embarrassed of. i just feel so fucking tired all time time and i keep tellin#myself that i will clean it this time for sure and then i don't. most of the time it's my mother taking care of it without my permission#and i am grateful for it bc nobody likes living in a mess... but i also fucking hate it because it makes me feel even more worthless#i just can't get rid of the feeling of shame. no matter what i do.#and back to the mother thing. i told her that if she touches anything i will go to her room and throw out anything that isn't nailed down#even though objectively i have no reason to oppose her helping me#but i also fucking hate it#maybe being rude is the only way to get it across. but also i get irritated about anything so easily#i feel shittier and shittier every day. had there been an easy and painless way of killing myself i would have done it already#and despite how much i want to blame this on a disorder or lack of access to medication. there is no magic pill that would fix me is there#i'm just a shitty person who cannot get it together despite everything being handed to me#i'm literally bad at anything and everything. i'm not even a good blogger lmao#people have it much worse in life and still do better. me? i'm useless. there's no helping it. i should have died from covid or something#nobody will save me. nobody cares enough. besides one person whom i push away because i can't stand her and i don't even know why đ#if i stop messaging people first most of them would forget about me#i am alone. a lonely person in a messy room desperately trying to be entertaining so someone will pay a little bit of attention to me.#not to mention the geopolitics#i won't even go there. i hate the possibility that people might see it mentioned and give me shit for it#one more thing that is apparently my fault. directly or indirectly#all i want is to leave this country. spend the day with someone who cares for me like an actual friend. and then shoot myself so i don't#have to go back#sealene.txt
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also of course my coworkers in the wage cage are, insane. and somehow each have very lengthy incomprehensible custody battle stories they simply MUST share with every new person they meet
#panopticon but if the room was so small you didnt need the tower you can just see everything#the worst part about working inan grocery store is all of your coworkers are way too involved in your food situation leave me alone#stop asking questions i should've lied and said yes when people kept asking me if i was a vegetarian or vegan now i dont have a good#excuse for my odd eating patterns maybe i should start saying I can't have gluten.....#piling comments abt my weight and exercise and food did you know you only have thirty minutessssss thirty minutessssssss
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is there a way to like block/quit 99% of tumblr but stay very active on the 1% because i cant take it any more people are so fucking stupid
or do i practice internet abstinence where i avoid looking at my dash and use tumblr solely for one or two tags (geometry dash + other fandoms i post about such as unaliver drones and gravity farts + aspec stuff because im not touching the trans tags!!! i am not!! people are so extremely weird about it even if it's the supporting side)
#zeektalk#rant#to elaborate on the trans tag thing#im transmasc and i hate the ways people try to show support#ofc im against the bigots too dw about that#but like do people need to post aesthetic art/photos specificaly about tiddie scars and be all đ„șđđđș about it#and do people need to be like âeven though you menstruate and have so much estrogen and have soft skin and 0 muscles you are a valid manâ#like holy shit leave me alone? stop emphasizing on those body features in the âyass king slayâ way?? it's disgusting#same may apply for transfem people but i cant say much bc i have less understanding#because isnt the whole point of this to *become* the gender you are#not separate an entire other identity out of it like âim proud of being a fake man and you should too!!â because#that misses the point harder than the bullet missed trump#trans men ARE men. no other strings attached see them as men and nothing else#i wanted to be free from the social stigma and yet these âsupportersâ reinforce it in a weird other direction#oh and also before anyone comes at me for âbbut what if men are all assholes and youre saying we should group the valid ones with them đ„șđ„șâ#sexism swings both ways. period
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