#if I was all these things. allo cis neurotypical. I would be easy
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It just sucks it just really fucking does and I never want to admit this because it’s “wrong” to want to “be normal” because these things shouldn’t be considered abnormal but fuck. Fuck man. I wish I was allo I wish I was cis I wish I was neurotypical I wish I was fucking normal and didn’t have all these little fucking things that clump up into a giant mound of ridiculous weight that is just too much for another person to deal with
#if I was all these things. allo cis neurotypical. I would be easy#I would be easy and fine and people wouldn’t give up on me and leave me#because I’m too much to deal with and too difficult and have too many extra little things#that a normal person wouldn’t and thus the normal person requires less energy to love#I feel like a fucking soul sucking creature that just exhausts everyone around me by virtue of existence#and yeah like I’m sorry I know this isn’t the right conclusion to come to#but I think I’m gonna give up and stop trying or even hoping it will happen#I will never be the most important to someone. I will never be a priority#I will be stuck living and knowing I love someone more than they love me#and it’s so obvious through actions and words but also it’s the best I can hope for#because I’m too much of a burden so of course they can’t spare that much time and effort and energy on me#so. accept it. accept I will be alone and will always be alone and should be alone and that’s just how it will be til the day I die#never let anyone try again because even if they say they want to they’re either lying or will quit the second they realize everything#and I just can’t do it anymore I can’t I can’t I can’t#casual friends is the best I could ever hope for that’s all the human connection I get#hide all this awful fucking miserable shit and extra steps and extra care I require#because no one will ever EVER care enough about me to deal with it all#and it will be better for me if I just come to terms with that and approach my life that way#time to revert to the stone cold emotionless fucking bitch I was for years#that’s all anyone will see while inside I feel like I’m just gaping wounds and ugly rotting flesh#and I deal with that pain myself and hide it from everyone else and that’s it#I do that. accept I will be alone. and that’s that. only way to fucking get through life
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Yall I came up with a REALLY GOOD MOVIE IDEA and I cant stop thinking about it....
Picture a person waking up at an 'odd' hour and getting ready for the day. They may greet their partner, take smol child to school, and whatnot. The whole movie is just... introducing the viewers to a world where society is built in favor of all brain types. Not just the neurotypical christian white male straight cis allo.
You've got stores and schools open and running 24/7. You've got children learning in school enough about psychology for them to discover what kind of life schedule will work best for them in their adult life. Learning real sex education. About gender identity and sexualities. When and how much do they sleep? How many spoons do they have, what can give them more, and what things take up x amount of spoons to do? No capitalism. No 1% rich fuckers having more influence than literally the entire rest of the world combined.
It's a fucking good life. It's a fucking good society. But.... after seeing this great world. This great reality. That caters to everyone with ease and without trouble. That shows how simple and easy it is. That it's possible. That proves how ableist society is. The movie ends with an alarm clock going off at a 'normal' hour and that same person has to pull themselves out of bed to a cruel and unforgiving world. A world that caters to only one, that says 'oh it's such a shame minority groups would rather alivnt themselves than live in this cruel world that makes their life a complete and difficult nightmare, if only there was something we could do!'
It's a slap in the face. Because there is something you can do, you just wont let it happen
#avellanahablando#disability#movie idea#nerotypical#theres a lot more ofc that would make society overal just better but thats what i got off the top of my head
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this is such a scattered thought but
People saying ‘I hate men’ do bother me because a) trans men ARE kind of oppressed due to being men (like you can say it’s solely because they’re trans but it’s not that easy to separate out?) and a lot of feminists really are bad at not being shitty to trans men b) there are a lot of things neurodivergent men and disabled men and so on go through which also are very rarely acknowledged by feminists
There are also atheists who have been treated awfully for not being Christian who say ‘I hate religious people’ who would get MURDERED on this site for being racist... and I don’t think that’s unfair, because there are many atheists who are racist, even if it’s usually not meant in that way. (OTOH any atheist has a right to say ‘I hate Christians’ imo.)
similar situation with an aspec saying ‘I hate allos’ in terms of response on tumblr, tho that actually doesn’t rly bother me because I’ve very very rarely seen an aspec person actually being homophobic? and any time aspec activism has come at the expense of gay activism, that’s pointed out VERY quickly, yet usually not at all the other way around, so it feels different to me. (And this is despite the fact that this is a lateral oppression type situation but I already wrote a lotta thinky thoughts about that a while ago so im not going into it again.)
And when neurodivergent people say ‘I hate neurotypicals’ it doesn’t bother me at all unless I think because of the context they’re making assumptions about who’s neurotypical (e.g. a person at work was using a fidget even though they didn’t ‘’’seem to need it’’’). And if an autistic person said ‘I hate allistics’ I would be just like ‘yep’ even though technically that bundles together people with bpd/bd/adhd etc. with their oppressors? Because since I don’t feel much/any anti-bpd etc. stuff from autistic people I trust they’re not implying they’re the same in every way, just in terms of not experiencing many autistic things
And when someone says ‘I hate cis people’ I tend to mostly just be like ‘same’ even though I am probably also a cis??? (Tho I think that’s mainly because of my irritation with gatekeeping in the LGBT community)
IDK what to make of it all but there are such complicated reactions in all of this even though the statements themselves aren’t that different...
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