#vulnerable and always uphold my side of the responsibilities and arrangements just to get fucking spit on like man if this is what being a
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Currently trying not to vomit over the fact that I essentially just lost almost a thousand dollars brb
#why me. why is it always fucking me am I just not allowed to have good things WHAT have I done to earn this kinda karma#my stupid fucking idiot roommate decided to resign the lease at the complex so I naturally contacted the landlords like hey. how does that#work with the security deposit cuz I paid that years before she even moved in do you guys need to come inspect the place after I leave#and they were like oh no āŗļø it just carries over to her. and Iām like. so. so even though I am not living here nor am on the lease#whether or not I get NINE HUNDRED FUCKING DOLLARS BACK hinges on this JACKASS not wrecking the place???? actually not even then because say#she DOESNT wreck the place when she moves out TURNS OUT the deposit goes to her cuz itās her name and account attached to the fucking#apartment and Iām just left sitting here like how. how is that fucking fair how does that make fucking sense I have to trust that she doesnt#ruin the place OR GET FUCKING EVICTED BECAUSE SHE HAS NO JOB AND NO WAY TO PAY RENT and then also trust her to just give it to me when she#moves out. Iām actually sick Iām actually gonna fucking throw up and the landlords were like yes exactly āŗļø perhaps you could work something#out with her and she could buy you out of it and Iām just like. she doesnāt have a job she still hasnāt paid me for LAST months utilities#let alone this months do you HONESTLY THINK she is EVER going to pay me the 900 dollars Iām fucking owed#and itās like does this actually affect anything? no. I didnāt budget with that money cuz I didnāt actively have it and thatās not smart but#likeā¦. 900 dollarsā¦.. I could have paid off the rest of my credit card with that and also itās just infuriating that that money is basically#just being GIVEN to this fucking bitch who I KNOW is not gonna keep that apartment in good shape and thatās again if she somehow doesnāt get#her ass evicted cuz sheās not paying bills why they even LET her sign her own lease there I do not understand she literally has no proof of#income but ig they probably didnāt check that cuz she technically already lived there Iām just so. Iām so tired and Iām so done can I PLEASE#stop being the one who constantly gets screwed fucking over in EVERY situation no matter fucking what#while all these fucking idiots and shitty fucking ppl get whatever they want and actively BENEFIT from me getting fucked over???? Iām done.#Iām so fucking done I am never living with someone ever again never being finanacially tied to anyone fucking again and you know what. thats#great goes well with me basically being convinced atp to never be vulnerable with anyone ever again and never trust anyone ever again and#never dedicate ANY part of my life in a genuine sense to anyone ever again I will be fucking alone in every sense for THE REST of my fucking#life and thatās that. itāll be better. this kinda shit will stop happening. financially emotionally psychologically I will stop suffering#because holy fucking shit I canāt do it anymore man Iām sick of it Iām sick of trying to be a good person and depend on people and be#vulnerable and always uphold my side of the responsibilities and arrangements just to get fucking spit on like man if this is what being a#shit person gets ppl maybe I should try because they sure seem to get all the benefits and whatever the hell they want consistently and#always while I try and be considerate of others and devote myselves to them and this is all I fucking get for it#and ik I KNOW this is just the straw on the camels back and this is a lot of issues compounding and itās not even about the money atp#but Iām just. Iām so fucking sick and tired and beaten down and Iām tired of trying I just want to be completely on my own#so at least if bad things happen or I feel like shit I only have myself to blame and itās safer that way and Iāll have to stop feeling like#this and dealing with these types of things UGH
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TW: DRUGS, ADDICTION, DEATH.
- ĶĢā° ā¢ć CHRIS WOOD / CISMALE / 29 ćannouncing the arrival of his royal highness, ( EMILIO DE COIMBRA ), the ( PRINCE ) of ( PORTUGAL ). Iāve heard that he is ( STUBBORN ) & ( FACETIOUS ) but can also be ( PASSIONATE ) & ( LOYAL ). ( EMILIO ) is arranged to marry ( TATIANA ROMANOV ). Rumor has it ( HE IS ADDICTED TO COCAINE ). We hope you enjoy your stay at London!
sup bbys itās riley again ( i also play christian and tomĆ”s ) and we r back w yet ANOTHER sad boyĀ ā¢ , emilio AKA MILO, however this one is on a REDEMPTION ARC. MARK MY WORDS. we r in for a wild ride. as always. a pretty damn lengthy intro post underneath the cut. and as always, GIVE THIS POST A LIKE or slide into my tumblr ims / discord dms for some plot hoā¢ action thnx
BACKSTORY !Ā tw: drugs, addiction, death.
( read moreĀ about the de coimbras here !! elle did such a fanfabtastic job )
long story short, milo was close with his family, but not super close. he loved his parents and his siblings a lot, but never really showed it; would protect his siblings at all costs but never told them everything. sort of like a semi-close but not too-close kind of vibe there.Ā
he was very close with his father, though -- despite their arguments about staying out late or getting in with the wrong people sometimes, he really looked up to his father. he respected the shit out of him for marrying out of love and not for political reasons, and always thought that just maybe he could do the same. but ofc, that future was not for him (OR WAS IT ....... stay tuned).
being the second oldest, he was expected to have responsibilities, but he never had the burden of knowing that he would have to lead a country ( that is, until nowĀ ). he had a weird relationship with his duties before pedro fell into his coma; knowing his status as a member of the royal family, he had things he had to do, but sort of skirted by and did the bare minimum. heād attend galas, meet other royals, uphold a certain standard of himself, but other than that, he felt as though he had free reigns over what else he wanted to do with his life. that typically meant going out with his friends, traveling to the south of france for a weekend with his friends, etc. he wasnāt too rowdy as a teenager, but he dabbled in some drugs here and there. nothing too serious.
TW: DEATH.Ā BUT THEN his father died when he was 23 and out of college, working as a manager for some international nonprofit, he spiraled out of control for a while.
and by that i meant he would go out and go like sicko mode version of his old life, like full send on drugs and partying and completely neglecting his duties as a royal. he got shit from his family and his siblings but he found even more that there was no reason to worry that much about his duties n shit.
the one bright spot in his life from age 23-present day was tatiana. o boy did he fall hard when he met her at age 26, almost got control of his life again with her in it. he was seriously in love w her but of course, his whole mindset of not giving a shit wasnāt really cutting it and he was probably not the best boyfriend LET ALONE someone that another royal should be betrothed to / associated with, so they broke it off after about two years.
TW: DRUGS, ADDICTION.Ā the six months between his break-up with tatiana and pedroās accident that put him in a coma was probably miloās all time low. he went through a phase where heād sleep around trying to get over her, this was also the time when he really got hooked on cocaine. heād do it to try and feel something, and really spiraled to his absolute lowest. royal family negligence was at an all time high. real low point for my dude right here.
flash-forward to pedroās accident, about six months ago -- it turned miloās entire life upside-down. he was now the crowned prince, the one who would have to rule a country. he realized how much responsibility he would have to carry, without either of his parents or his older brother to help him. he started to turn things around -- cut out the partying, the sleeping around, the excessive drinking. he started to realize how vulnerable a human life was, realizing that his fatherās passing and his brotherās accident were real, not just flukes, and his entire outlook on life changed.
he wanted to be good. he wanted to be good enough to be a role model for his younger siblings just like pedro had been for him; he wanted to be a leader that the portuguese people would stand behind and support, but he knew he had a long way to go.Ā
TW: ADDICTION. he continues to put in a lot of good work to improve his character, his habits, his relationship with his family, and his royal duties. however, there still exist a few flaws: the fact that milo never wanted to be king or ever rule a country still weighs down in his heart, and he still harbors a bit of resentment toward carlotta for indirectly pushing this life on him, but also, deep down, he knows that without this push, he would still be in a very dark hole. second, due to the immense amount of sudden pressure pushed onto him, milo still frequently uses cocaine and needs it to relieve himself of pressures.
PERSONALITY !
milo is definitely outgoing and has a witty sense of humor. the fact that he was sort of a black sheep made him have a bit of a self-deprecating of humor at times in his life, but it shows that he is actually pretty self-awareĀ as well.Ā
milo is friendly; despite not really wanting to have a royal title, especially not that ofĀ ācrown princeā, he does like getting to know people, and in a lot of cases, that means other royals. however, get on his bad side or annoy him, and heāll be cold or aggressive.
milo is emotional, but doesnāt really show it. he bottles up a lot of his emotions and lets them out by himself, but weāll all be damned if he ever cried in front of maybe more than like 1 person. while he is self-aware about a lot of things, he doesnāt know how to deal with his emotions sometimes.
milo was a bit cynical,Ā but has been wanting to change. he used to think that every man was out for himself, but having come into a leadership role, he sees different perspectives better now.
milo is a little impatient, but heās working on it. heās really working on it 1!!!!!!!!!
TIDBITS !
milo is called milo only by his close friends and family; he still goes by emilio regularly.
milo is really into astronomy; often times while drunk / high / neglecting responsibilities, heād find himself staring at the stars in the garden. he likes studying constellations. itās cool and itās his little nerdy thing.
milo is pansexual; doesnāt really care for gender or sex and probably discovered this during college or something.
milo really is into action movies. like fast and the furious or something. i donāt really know other action movies.
milo learned how to play guitar, probably when he was really high or something. heās actually pretty good. probably used it to woo women at some point, but deep down itās one of very few things that can calm him down.
AESTHETIC !Ā tw: alcohol.
well-fitted sweaters, headphones around his neck, expensive watches, pen ink stains, a neat desk, rock music, star maps, spearmint gum, speaking three languages in the same sentence, old cartoons, faded tanlines, smokey cologne, dark chocolate.
POTENTIAL PLOTS !Ā tw: drugs, alcohol, addiction.
previous friends / party buddies, people who milo used to hang around in some of his more crazy points of his life -- people who could do lines with him, who would travel recklessly around the world with him, who probably fed into hisĀ āfuck royal dutiesā kind of thing. he probably cut ties eventually when he realized how stupid it was to be doing all these things ( about six months ago ); things could be tense now.
childhood friends, people who maybe were of similar age and who attended different royal gatherings together. preferably friends who grew up together and sort of got up to shenanigans.
former friends, probably someone of similar age and take their royal duties more seriously. when milo began to fall into a more carefree lifestyle, perhaps they didnāt agree with his life choices and their friendship fell through.Ā
exes / flings, probably a handful of them. given that heās charismatic and outgoing, heās likely to charm his way to a personās heart if he takes interest in them / they take interest in him. him being facetious and not taking things as seriously as he should, things probably ended if / when it was expected for the relationship to be long-term or serious.
good influence, someone who sees the potential in miloās turn in perspective and may tutor him in royal tricks, or is trying to help him get off the rails finally ( bonus: theyāve seen him do coke and are subtley trying to him him get his shit together there )
literally ? anything ? hit me the fuck up once again LIKE THIS or dm me on tumblr/discord and lets get some P L O T S goin my dudes
#buckingham:intro#intro post.#tw drugs#tw addiction#tw death#tw alcohol#anyhow this took way longer than i thought#y? bc i always write intro posts that are way too long#anyhow I'LL BE on in the morning 2 do more replies and write starters
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