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Maybe I’ve been going about this the wrong way
#to achieve real peace I have to let go so if you like me or not it’s fine#if no one likes me it’s fine#I’ve actually been trying to force this mindset onto myself for so long and it works for a while but#I unfortunately do care#I’m trying to deal with the cards I’m given to adapt to them even though this reaction isn’t natural but#it’s really hard to live with the reality that I have no stability#or a stable person#everything is so out of my control I don’t like these external variables#it messes up my plans it messes up the dialogue and the sequence of events#in short it doesn’t follow my script and it makes me anxious when it doesn’t#I don’t know how to ***accept*** this reality of not having that stability when it’s practically the only thing I’ve asked for in years#arguably the only thing I’ve ever asked for in my whole life#dora daily#I feel like it’s partially my fault for letting my delusions get the best of me and imagining an alternate reality maladaptively in which my#dream is a reality but then I remember that that was the only way I could live because if I didn’t do that then idk what would’ve happened#to me like istg I might’ve been put in a ward if I didn’t use that method to cope#lots of people laugh and mock lonely people but I kid you not this stuff is so serious it’s giving me sm health issues even
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Ghost Kitchen (brought to you by criminal entrepreneur, Red Hood)
Danny’s got the easiest job in Gotham.
He works as a fry cook at a shoddily-run, independent burger joint. Hardly anyone comes in, despite prices being criminally low, and portions insanely large, and while the manager looks like the average tough-as-nails ex-con, he lets Danny mess around in the kitchen whenever the place is empty. (Which is often. This place has to be the city’s hidden gem or something!)
Mr. Manager’s the only one ever there with Danny, except for sometimes when his buddies come over to smoke and play cards. Danny would find it shady, except part of his job is not to ask questions. Literally, he was told during the interview.
(It was a weird interview. Why would they need to hire someone who’s been in a gunfight before? Like, he has, but Gotham’s idea of “hirable qualities” is so bizarre.)
So instead he whips up some killer burgers with the frozen ingredients, and basks in the praise as the guys tell him he shouldn’t have, he does too much for this joint, ain’t that friendly!
Now, Danny’s a chef on the newer side. As a teen he’d preferred the look of Nasty Burger over anything with Michelin stars, and he only really took up cooking after Jazz moved out for college. But just like ecto-exposure used to turn the groceries sentient, Danny’s low-level ecto signature imbues all his food with something historically haunted Gothamites just love! And Danny’s never been one to half-ass a job when it makes people happy.
With fresher produce, real meat, Danny’s sure he can take his dishes to the next level. It takes a couple months of badgering, but his manager finally agrees to contact the mysterious store owner, who keeps the place going, despite profits Danny knows have to be in the red.
Danny spends the morning prepping. He pours his heart into his food, eager to impress. The big boss will be here soon, and he wants to prove that despite the dangerous location, this place has real potential!
It isn’t until the Red Hood shows up that Danny realizes he’s been working for a money laundering scheme.
#ecto has a weird effect on them actually. a lot like how danielle drinks ecto to keep her stable#ecto has positive health benefits for gothamites! it boosts their immune system gives them a little more energy makes them less irritable#silly hc but i think its fun#also danny just. thought it was a normal ass interview. the person who hired him was heavily hinting at the criminal element of his job the#whole time. danny just kept thinking man i cant believe all interviews are like this in gotham. every one of the#m asks if im okay lying to cops. i am but its weird i never got asked this in amity#dpxdc#dcxdp#dc x dp#dp x dc#dead on main#ghost kitchen au#danny fenton#jason todd#kipwrite
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liking dnd is so funny because yeah you play the actual game sometimes but mostly you just think about the game and watch other people play the game and slowly go insane thinking about how much you wish you could play the game and hoping that buying more shiny rocks will fix everything
#dnd#dungeons and dragons#not going through something rn wdym haha...#i am FINE i have DEFINITELY played at least once in the last seven weeks#i am also definitely not the scheduling person in my group i am not stressed that no one has time for dnd apparently#i'm fine i just started another critical role campaign im fine im so stable#*screaming*#it provides seratonin but WHEN IS IT MY TURN TO BE HAPPY TO ROLL MY LITTLE DICE FUCK#it's okay i just need to buy more dice#that will fix me
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DcxDp prompts
Dan/Danny/Dani additions 1/5
Danny is adoption bait to the Gotham rogues.
Danny only went to Gotham university because it had a lot of ambient ectoplasm and he could fast track to the arrow space department in Wayne enterprises if he worked hard enough. He didn’t need adopting, he was already 19 years old and had a (strained, very distant) relationship with his parents. When he moved to Gotham, he expected to have to deal with people wanting to make him a new Wayne, not with all of the Gotham rogues immediately trying to adopt him.
So what if he defended Killer Croc from some asshole cops, accidentally exposing his fangs and had a conversation about being dehumanized with him that led to them having dinner on Wednesdays?
So what if he got into a serious conversation about the green gas effect and pollution (Sam had taught him well) with Poison Ivy that result in him coming over for dinner and Harley Quinn declaring him a ‘sweetheart’?
So what if he directed Frostbitw to help Mr. Freeze and now Nora invited him over for brunch on Sundays?
So what if he had a wonderful conversation with the Riddler in which they traded space themed riddles which lead to Riddler seeking him out sometimes for a game?
So what if he helped Mr. cobble pot by making him intangible when some people were driving by in about splash mud on him and he now had a part time job there as a bouncer?
So what if Grundy played tag with him every other Thursday and called him Little Death and offered to eat his chemical engineering teacher who gave him a low grade because he didn’t follow safety precautions?
This didn’t mean he was adoption bait. Shut up Sam.
#funny#dc x dp#dcxdp#Danny didn’t want to be adopted#he’s just a good person#meanwhile the rogues are just falling more in love with this feral gremlin of a barely adult#Nora is trying to fatten him up#Harley has already picked out a costume for him if he joins them#Waylon is trying to get a two bedroom apartment and stable job#Oswald just wants this talented meta to work for him shut up#Edward is getting good stimulation and is considering ask Harvey for help with paperwork#Grundy has decided Little death is his brothers#Selina shows up to the manor and asks if the need to adopt is contagious#which is how the Batfam finds out
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taking a nap with suguru. soft blankets and softer words, sweet nothings mumbled into his ear after he’s had a hard day. his silky black hair brushed from his face by your gentle, loving hands, tossed over his shoulder lightly so it doesn’t catch on any of his earrings while he snoozes. “i’m so proud of you” while he rests, his thick lashes closed against his cheeks, and a smile curled into his lips. he covers the expanse of your neck with soft, deliberately-placed kisses, mumbling a “thank you” or a “love you” in between each press of his lips, and you can feel the cold metal of the rings with each warm kiss. his large hands which massage your back whilst his head lays on your chest — he wanted to be held today, be a little selfish with you. the light of the evening sun, setting just outside the window, washing across the two of you, turning suguru’s skin akin to something of melted caramel, and his hair, silken dark chocolate. kissing his forehead and talking about nothing and everything all at once. reassurance. vulnerability. comfort. safety. love. and contentment on his behalf, as he trusted you with everything he was and everything he felt underneath a single fur blanket. watching him fight sleep, yawning over and over again, his nose crinkling and his eyes pricking with tears at the intensity of his tiredness, until the sandman takes hold of him, and with one final kiss to his forehead — so graciously granted by his lover after moving his bangs out of the way— suguru can doze off happy, knowing he will always wake up to you.
#ᴊᴇʟʟʏ'ꜱ ɴᴏᴛᴇʙᴏᴏᴋ .ᐟೀ#geto x reader#jjk x reader#jjk fluff#jujutsu kaisen fluff#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#suguru geto#suguru geto x reader#stables#jjk drabbles#for the anon that asked me if i’d ever write a suguru drabble ♡#i just wanna kiss his cheeks so bad#HE NEEDS ME TO HOLD HIM ?!!?!!???!!#i love my sleepy princess#we are the same person
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#girl interrupted#bpd#femcel#borderline personality disorder#bpd girl#coquette#female manipulator#manic pixie dream girl#lana del rey#female rage#im slowly going insane#female insanity#im going insane#girl hysteria#female hysteria#feminine hysteria#borderline personality problems#bpd blog#mental health relapse#im not mentally stable#mentally unhinged#mental ill health
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its so humiliating having to admit to people that sometimes my only motivation for doing something is for validation or attention
#actually bpd#im not mentally stable#bpd#actually mentally ill#bpd stuff#bpd struggles#borderline#borderline personality disorder#mental illness#histrionic#histrionic personality disorder#hpd#actually histrionic#cluster b#cluster b culture
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sometimes being aroacespec is confusing. what do you mean, most people can tell the difference between platonic and romantic and sexual attraction? what do you mean people don't "choose" crushes? what do you mean that people can imagine themselves in a physical situation with someone else?? isn't dating just Friendship Plus??? hell, isn't marriage just Friendship Plus?????????
what do they mean??????????? what are feelings???? why am i so confused????????
*edit: changed "aroace" to "aroacespec", since several aromantic people felt that this was not an Aromantic Feeling. i see you, i hear you, and so i changed it to be more accurate to me personally, since i am Confused About Feelings Always
#void keith talks#aroace#aromantic#asexual#aro#ace#aromantic asexual#i'm so confused as an autistic aroace person#about every emotion i have about another person ever#and i also read a lot of romance so like. i know what romance is *supposed* to look like#i know the ideal and the not ideal#but i have no idea about any sort of romantic social cues irl#because i'm bad with social cues. i miss them a lot or i misinterpret them#i'm good with body language because i was taught a lot of it early#but social cues are different and some change over time which is INCREDIBLY confusing#and also like? i don't feel stable enough or mentally healthy enough to be in a relationship#i feel like it would be unfair for a potential partner(s) for them to be in a relationship with me#because i just Don't Have My Shit Together. like at all#i Only Like Fictional People That Way#fictoromantic#lgbt#lgbtq#lgbt+#lgbtq+#lgbtqia#lgbtqia+#arospec#aromantic spectrum#aroacespec
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it's just the two of us, or that's what we swore
anyone else feeling a little crazy abt them? no? just me? alright
#messy wip i will not finish most likely#dimension 20#d20#mine#fanart#evan kelmp#k tanaka#dream tanaka#tanakelmp#misfits and magic#mismag#mismag 2#misfits and magic 2#i actually havent watched s2e1 but i dont know that i could emotionally handle it after finding out they broke up . lol thats insane isnt i#im not personally mad about it im not the type who will talk shit on the cast's decisions when its their story after all but if i had a#nickel for every time a fan favorite ship that was perfectly stable and wasnt interrupting the story at all got unceremoniously broken up i#between seasons for absolutely no reason i would have three nickels. im looking at donospring trackerbees and tanakelmp of course . shame#but its ok i can just pretend theyre still together as long as i procrastinate on watching mismag 2#im watching the ravening war rn anyway . i just wanted to do this for fun and spite#i love them a normal amount :3#will someone pls notice that evan doesnt have a shadow . hehe
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god, armand as a character is giving me serious brainrot. he's such a control freak because he desperately needs to derive meaning from something—anything. whether it's god, rituals, or coven life, he needs to give a purpose to his existence. this is why he upholds these stringent laws and regulations in both of his covens, which are ultimately destroyed by someone he loves who stands outside it all. and he kind of just allows that destruction, despite all of his power, because he is also... bored? it's like he's on autopilot, going through life in this meticulously constructed routine until he meets lestat and later louis, who both refuse to adhere to his carefully crafted structures and disrupt the status quo. this is attractive to armand because deep down, underneath his all masked emotions, he is very lonely and desperate for connection! which is just awfully human for such an ancient powerful being
imagine being this old and alone, how do you endure? armand tries to find value in these rigid structures because otherwise, his life feels empty. "he needs rules to give him purpose" but in the end, this doesn't fulfill him completely because, despite his feigned confidence and stoicism, he is insecure, needy, and traumatized. this is why he seeks out chaos despite having spent all this time trying to control everything and everyone around him. he lets it happen—for love, but also, i think, because unconsciously he desires that total loss of control, which allows him to actually feel something real. every few decades, he almost intentionally lets his entire world, the world he worked so hard to manipulate into his will, be ruined. yet, when he tells daniel he "let it happen," he is lying, too (at least about lestat) because he presents himself as more passive, composed, and reasonable than he really was when his way of life was threatened. he just tells himself that he wanted it that way all along so he remains the one in control. i need to see him crack
#it's just such a fun contrast with the relationship louis has with lestat#armand seems detached but he also shows just enough vulnerability to make him seem like a more stable tender option for louis#like he almost seems more “open” than lestat who masks his insecurity with bravado and acts on emotion and impulse and pushes people away#but armand is just as much hiding his real self from louis because he is always trying to manipulate#because he has carefully constructed his entire personality around protecting louis and serving him#he just fascinates me so much and i love assad's subtle performance#interview with the vampire#iwtv#armand#assad zaman#loumand
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I dont have a clever and witty sarcastic comment tonight, I just think she's cute
#my brain isnt working rn its 3am ive been reading fanfics while hyperventilating over the irreparable damage i managed with my limited life#tee hee im just kinda feeling moody tonight 🤪#somebody please ban me from tumblr between 1am to 11am i do not function as a stable person between those times#i schedule my mental breakdowns they work really well with my schedule#its multitasking cause I'll already be up from insomnia its really efficient in the grand scheme of things#ah i love the fact that nobody can stop me from writing the most deranged shit in the tags of a cute cat pic <3#animals#petblr#cat#cat life#cat lovers#catblr#my cat#cat photos#cat pictures#cats of tumblr#calico#calico cat#OH UH THATS WHAT I WAS SUPPOSED TO SAY FOR AMERICANS THE REASON IM SAYING ITS NIGHT WHEN THIS IS POSTED DURING THE DAY IS BECAUSE ITS QUEUED#i queue most stuff because i dont usually have the energy or time to be active at good times#i get little bursts of post motivation and dont wanna flood my 9 followers (at least 6 are dirty bots) with my bs#im just a dumbass that never tags shit
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feeling mentally ill about dick grayson's concept of home.... like he literally can never go home
#obviously in my head of course like#wow he is soooo no place like home but what even is home coded#or like he knows what home is but it has so fundamentally changed from what he first recognized as home that its not the same thing#and like hes a home is the people you fill it with type person but also he loses people constantly so like does he have a home#does he even have a stable concept of it#like is home just a place he eats sleeps and lives in or does it carry any meaning beyond that at this point#anyway the wip writing is going sooooo well#dick grayson
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will theo ever be happy
Maybe in another life.
#theo#jack#confusing and alienating everyone who only followed me after i started drawing furries by referencing my old nonfurry character dynamics#but this got me thinking about theo's only happy endings and how they all involve jack...#who i'm not drawing right now. oops. sorry fella#oh theo... see what happens when you're separated from your emotional support tramp#you start committing crimes against nature and people get worried about you#real answer: probably not in amaranthine but who knows WE'RE NO WHERE NEAR FIGURING OUT AN ENDING HAHA#i could ramble for another thousand paragraphs about why he probably won't be happy in amaranthine but to summarize:#1. trying to do crimes against nature for insane reasons#2. only “positive” relationship is an evil parasite who is using and manipulating him#3. only person he talks to about his problems is a dead body#4. no jack to keep him stable... so far. i want to add him to the story but that's a long way off#but if you want to make A version of theo happy you can play our game Wishbone (once it's done...). he's in it because of course he is.#my draws#asks
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honestly I'm deeply fond of the Winter King. he really went "I'm going to transfer my insanity to the most powerful person in the entire world. what could possibly go wrong?"
#tbf to him it's possible he didn't. realize. that Bonnie is the most powerful person in the world. but still!#....... actually I wonder what went down with his Betty. did he fail to complete the stable time loop or did she die of different causes#Fionna and Cake#Fionna and Cake spoilers#Winter King#Candy Queen#original#text#gen
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hypothetically speaking how powerful would Machete be if he got competent therapy and came out 100% problem-free?
Hard to say. He might be less ambitious actually. He's extremely driven and hardworking in both iterations and it's mostly thanks to his low self-esteem. He's a compensating and overachieving perfectionist and feels like if he's not giving it 110% at all times he's doing an unsatisfactory job .
#part of being a healthy and stable person is recognizing that doing your best isn't synonymous with wearing yourself to the bone#he'd be more powerful in a sense that his self-worth wouldn't be coming from external sources anymore I guess#that can have a significant impact on your worldview and wellbeing in various ways#answered#nick-nonya
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Messy comic about his Intrusive thoughts
#one piece#portgas d ace#monkey d luffy#moonel.mspaint#tw intrusive thoughts#cw intrusive thoughts#Ace isn’t really the best and stable person#so I do think he used to have intrusive thoughts and it was especially directed to Luffy because Luffy would always let his guard down when#with Ace because he trusts him like an older brother#but Ace on the other hand still struggles with his issues of being the son of the late pirate king#he thinks he doesn’t deserve someone as special as Luffy so it all gushes up into a bunch of intrusive thoughts that#want to get rid of Luffy and push him away#to try and test Luffy if he really does mean what he said when they swore to be brothers#because if it weren’t for Luffy and Sabo. Ace didn’t really have much to live for and keep himself stable because he was just a child during#those times#.#sorry if I rambled there#i have a lot of feelings about this messy comic
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