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As someone who sucked at languages at school and comes from a country known to be bad at foreign languages, being able to actually hold conversations in another language is such a rewarding experience I never knew I needed. It's a testament to my progress, my ability to stick to something even if it takes years and an irregular schedule, and shows I can always still learn, grow, and improve. It's also weird to live somewhere that I'm functionally illiterate lol but I'm getting to experience learning to read and use new words and terms all over again, just like when I was a kid.
#i think the issue at school werr that we didnt start young enough#only did 2 hours a week AND#choosing which language to studg is deeply personal - you have to be interested to stick to it#but its hard to do that in schools with 1500 kids and classes of 30#plus french and german are too similar to english so i struggled to distinguish the rules#AND GENDERED LANGUAGE URGH#also irregular conjugation. good lord.#japanaese group 3 verbs got my back i love you kuru and suru#iku can join in as a treat
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Anyone got any recs for actual play dnd (or other ttrpg) podcast thats actually intended to be audio based and not "Visual but we turned the audio into a podcast"??
#ive got over an hour commute EACH WAY 5 days a week now and theres only so many educational podcasts you can listen to before realising that#youve essentially extended your workday another 2-3 hours each day. oh and i also have trainings which are another 40 minute commute IN THE#OPPOSITE DIRECTION#:'(#but yeah i digress. i need podcasts where i get to turn my mind off#ive been through taz and ive tried cr and dimention20 but its too visually based and i feel like im missing out or have to focus way toomuch#also did listen to dungeons and daddies but parents loosing their kids is a trigger for me so yeah...#so preferably tips where child endangerment / looking for lost kids / losing parents isnt a big plot point#not space
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WAOT WERE U THE ONE TSUKASA COSPLAYER AT MIKUEXPO GIVING OUT MIKU STICKERS TO THE PJSK FANS
THATS ME!!!!! i didn't mean to just give them to pjsk fans help but i severely underestimated how many i should've made and cut out .. so i just ended up giving them to cosplayers or people who said hi to me .... T_T
THERE'S ALSO THIS SUPER CUTE BRACELET SOMEBODY RAN UP TO ME AND GAVE ME AND I TREASURE IT SO I NEED TO ADD IT TO THE POST AND SHOW IT OFF .. WAH!!!! ITS SO CUTE LOOK!!!!!!
#again WAS NOT MY BIRTHDAY. MIKUEXPO TORONTO FELL ON TSUKASAS BIRTHDAY IN JAPAN TIME. SORRY TO EVERYONE WHO SAID HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME.#i love your icon cause i saw a garf miku cosplayer at mikuexpo toronto too IT WAS SO AWESOME#i saw snother tsukasa cosplayer in hid school outfit and they had cute star glasses i Need some.#in the future n for cons i think i'll just order stickers to hand out .. cutting them out by hand was so much .....#especially when i did the whole pjsk cast. 10 or so of each of them. my best friend helped and it still took like 2 hours#<- I DID THAT FOR ANIME NORTH I MEAN i think i forgot to post about it here. anyways#i dont plan on tabling at cons or snything cause i just like attending them so much. but#In the future i think i'll just pay to get Nice little prints or stickers made and shipped to me to hand out ...#Sorry they arent actual stickers they're just laminated with tape i did them the night before while crunching for the con the week after.#alliellama#ask#sorry to go on but mikuexpo really was such a good time#when we first got there i was in the merch line w my friends and skmeone came up and said can you do the tsukasa laugh right here right now#but everything we said echo and i was like T_T no im shy ...#and then 2 hours later i heard there was a saki cosplayer there and started running around the venue shouting SAKI. SAKIII. SAKI.#WE FOUND HER IT TOOK ME LIKE 20 MINS which is impressive because there were a lot of people. by god.#it was so fun. we had such a good time i could go on. everyone was so FREAKING NICE. AND GAVE SO MANY FREEBIES. AND COMPLIMENTS.#but i literally only had like ..30 mikus. to hand out. i felt SO BAD. CONSERVING THEM.
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#kirby#daily kirby#my art#digital#hal laboratory#nintendo#it snowed again and I got to see it this time :>#(in a little over 2 weeks we will find out if we're moving somewhere with winter this time)#also I've been archiving my drawings properly again cuz I stopped saving them offline for a while#and I might be off on my twitter numbering!#I did make one mistake with my files which took like half an hour to fix#but even after fixing that the most recent one I've saved is actually one further than I said on twitter!#being only one off after all that time is really not that bad tho!#(so far anyway)#besides it's not like anyone expects twitter to be a functional archive in any way lol
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Person A: Do you want a beer? I’m paying.
Person B, going through the restaurant’s menu: No. Ugh, where’s the good stuff?
Person A, half jokingly: I thought you were an alcoholic.
Person B: Exactly. I’d need at least, like, four beers — without food — to get slightly buzzed, and my stomach can’t fit over 2 beers in it. I’m small. I’ll have a rum, neat.
#source: me#incorrect quotes#incorrect quotes ideas#incorrect quotes prompts#tw: drug mention#tw: drugs#i used to be so small when all i did was heroin and ketamine. since i started drinking (i only started drinking every night because the-#-opiate withdrawal was so fucking bad alcohol was the only thing that kept my legs from kicking all night long and my skin from feeling-#-like it was on cold wet fire somehow)#anyway. when all i did was opiates ™ i was like 45 kg and i’m 165 aka 5’5 like i looked like a sickly model#now it’s only been a month drinking and not doing morphine or some shit and i already gained 12 kg it’s insane i’m like almost 60 kg now#i’m queueing this for a month from now so hopefully it’ll have been 2 months when this gets posted#and like i say i’m an alcoholic cause i don’t think it’s normal to drink like 5 nights a week but i’m not chemically dependent on it like i-#-was with opiates like i’m sober half the time. ive never done surgery while drunk for instance. there was this one time i had just had 4-#-shots in the bathroom in secret cause i was having a panic attack and didn’t know what else to do but anyway.#and they asked me if i wanted to close up on a tubal ligation and i passed on the opportunity even though i was Fine bc idk i just didn’t-#-feel good ab it. which is more than i can say for my professor tbh#like some other medical intern said ‘wow it must be so hard having to be On Call 24/7. like i bet u can’t even drink’#and he said ‘oh come on surgeons have lives too. in fact i drank more than a few beers just a few hours ago lol’ and proceeded to cut-#-someone open#anyway. yeah. i don’t get drunk at work yk#felt like i had to make that clear
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My bitchass cat- 80 ft up in a goddamn tree
It has been a day
#i dont want to make a long post so im ranting in the tags#this is now day 2 of her being up there#we only just found where she was in the tree thanks to binoculars#there are lots of emotions rn#ive already had a shitty few days and now this#on top of all that#this guy that came to “help” was constantly making remarks about ways to get her down that would definitely kill her#“oh I'm just not a cat person”#ok???#and???#shut the fuck up#i lost my cool on his ass so fucking fast#i like to consider myself a generally nice person when it comes to social interactions#but within the hour i was done with this asshole#i will not mention the ways he talked about getting her down#but i will mention that i definitely threatened him#lucky i did not tell him what i was really thinking#which was that i wanted to cave his skull in#but still#i dont give a fuck that you are here to help#the past few days have been shit and now this????#why are you such an ass???#fuck that guy#thanks for reading my rant#i hope your week was good#ill update on how getting her down goes#rant post#personal rant#rant
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Bruh people aren't fucking lying about COVID fatigue goddamn
#covid#life of sponty#ive been sick since i got back home on 12th#infected probably 1 to 3 days before that#so im coming up on 2 weeks of covid#and right now the worst symptom remaining is the fatigue and exhaustion#i got up and showered and sat at my desk for 30mins and now I'm so exhausted i have to go back to bed#it's effort to stroke the cat#the other day i did a small physical exertion and afterwards was so intensely tired it tooo about 6 hours of recovery#just to be able to lift small objects without dropping them#shits fucked bruh#also I'm getting the classic taste fuckery and bitter and alkaline flavours are literally making me choke#it's wild#desperately hoping it doesn't last because i really dont want to lose onions forever#i love onions#i was scared for a second that I'd lost mango too but it turns out it's just the mango skin flavour. the flesh is fine#cough was only monstrous for like a day#rest of the time it's not been any worse than ive had from normal nasty coughs. pretty manageable#the fatigue is wack though#I've never been this weak before#it's kind of fascinating from an authorial perspective#this is going to be useful experience for the writing banks
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hey, I'm setting this as the cutoff for this OC Sunday (it's been like a week or something now but tbf I haven't had all that much time to answer things or draw recently FKJHDSJKF) so any new posts/submissions/asks after this post will be saved for next time!!
#oceandi speaks#others' ocs#ouh I am so tiredddd I have another 10/12-ish-hour shift tomorrow that 6 hours of are just paid driving time and then like 2 hours are lunc#it's not a lot of physical work but it's a lot of mental work to be in a car for that long FKJSHDKJF#anyways I still have Many posts to post so I'll keep queueing them up and then like. well the semester starts next week so we'll see how#things go then. maybe I'll die maybe I won't I'll never know :'D#uhhhhhhhhhhhh again all posts are tagged with 'others' ocs' + the oc's tag if you want to see more + 'oceandi arts' if I did a doodle#if you followed for only gene you can block the tag though it Is all pokemon OCs so more content is better right?
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imagine: professor utonium mentoring dexter vs professor membrane mentoring mandark
#dexter & mandark are the only two kids in their district to qualify for some young scholar program & arr bussed off to take classes from#their assigned mentor once or twice a week.#dexter is at odds with himself about it at first. on one hand he's glad that his intelligence is finally being appreciated & nurtured in#some official capacity. let alone by a mind as lauded as the creator of the powerpuff girls. but on the other hand he would prefer to just#move on up to taking college courses entirely rather than have to go through this half measure. & he also gets a little disillusioned with#utonium when he realizes 1) that pretty much everything utonium is famous for was invented by accident including the ppg#& 2) outside of the ppg utonium hasn't achieved much more than dexter himself already has#meanwhile mandark practically kisses the ground that membrane walks on because he's so glad someone in his life recognize's his potential#& membrane sort of sees mandark as the son he wishes dib could be. he's never very open or affectionate about it though because y'know.#it's membrane#he never talks about his kids & sees them so rarely that mandark didn't even realize he had children of his own until like 3½ months into it#whereas utonium cannot shut up about his girls. nor would dexter want him to since they seem to be the most interesting thing about the man#utonium realizes pretty quickly that dexter doesn't need academic guidance so much as he needs social interaction with 1) people who won't#bully or belittle him for being who he is & 2) children his own age. so he starts subtlety encouraging his daughters to meet & befriend him.#I imagine that they come to visit him during his office hours regularly anyways so this happens pretty naturally.#also I think that even though utonium & membrane would definitely respect one another & collaborate well in a professional sense they don't#really mesh personality wise. utonium finds membrane to be far too cold & callous.#membrane thinks that utonium is basically a baby man who doesn't hold himself the way an accomplished man of science should.#ppg#powerpuff girls#the powerpuff girls#dexter's laboratory#dexter's lab#invader zim#headcanon#au#professor utonium#professor membrane#dexter mcpherson#(why is that his fanon last name again? where did that come from)
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Took twice the max dose of melatonin before the final revision for tomorrow’s exam, I’m shitting my pants and I genuinely don’t know anything as thoroughly as I should but if I sleep less than 4 hrs before it I just know I’m gonna do even worse somehow
#don’t take twice the max dose of anything btw#genuinely don’t do the shit that I do#i only did it bc I know my limits and haven’t had any other substances in over 24 hrs but don’t ever try it#always talk to your gp before taking any meds and supplements at all#anyway psa aside#I want to revise for two hrs so until 1.30am circa but I genuinely hope I pass out sometime in the next hours and a half#godspeed ig#uni#melatonin#I have super high expectations but I genuinely prepared this exam in like 4 days and my brain has been all over the place#haven’t had the chance (economic too so please please consider sparing a couple of bucks for my ko-fi?) to meet my therapist in 2 weeks#been super suicidal super busy dealing with stuff and people and my family and uni and ah oh how I wish I had a brain able to focus#also the ‘visions of horror’ as I call them have lowkey turned into auditory hallucinations that never stop and it’s… tough#genuinely so tired of everything in general#I’d promised to hang with my uni friends after the exam bc I should be done my midday tops but I know im gonna be super sad and underwhelme#so I hope I can be at home by 4 pm tops with one excuse or the other#I love them all so much but I need a break. also bc I got another exam in less than a fucking week and I still haven’t started studying for#it because it’s objectively easier than tomorrow’s and because when was I supposed to study for it#I spent 3 good days working on a paper that isn’t even mine for a subject I don’t even take#a favor for a friend which turned into 3 more friends asking me if I could help them with theirs#and you know me#I never say no. unfortunately. but also I’m super glad they want my help bc they know I can write at least (one good thing)#but. that’s still -3 days available#then. the demons#wasted so many hours just pacing and biting my nails raw and being pathetic#so yeah. in a little under 15 hrs I want to be in bed again. resting until the 19th when the cycle will begin anew#also math ain’t mathing. my exam is in 12 hrs only now 13.
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More misc moments from in game :')
#BasDraws#Nosran Vizsla#Rinsla Vizsla#oc#the spooky one was from a force vision everyone chill#Rin only found out her brother was alive like 5 sessions ago and they still havent reunited but she did do a funny force quest last session#and she saw him!!! and when she stuck her funnt ghost hand through him and spooked him a little their bond reforged!!!#she is very happy#but then also found out like 3 hours later that the usurper mand'alor whose a secondary antagonist to us (who caused a lot of Rins problems)#is actually her long thought deceases much older brother from her mothers past family#that she onlt found out about like 2 weeks ago in game#she is not happy#art#star wars#mandalorian#mandalorian oc#tognath#sw5e#oh yeah and we found this out mid starting a revolt so we can overthrow said older brother Mand'alor whose working with the (bad) sith#and the real kicker is that Nosran is slated to take the throne as the new Mand'alor#went from one brother to the other lmao
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The whiplash online and offline right now is like nothing i've ever experienced. like with ukraine i saw consistent support and lack of both online and offline, but with palestine its like. online there's energy and emotion at the same levels as during the BLM protests but away from the computer it's like it doesn't even exist. I live in a smallish college town but we have more arab immigrants here than anywhere else in 300 miles and there's still just nothing, not a word spoken. in my choir we learned a Ukranian piece last minute to support our ukranian accompanist but this year our choir director like fucking implied that we don't have to worry that we're making a political statement by singing our syrian piece. I just do not understand the disconnect in compassion right now
#the performative american support of isreal is soul rotting beyond belief#the nearest protest was an hour away and 2 weeks ago in another city#its just baffling i haven't heard a whisper of any public support for palestine on campus#I've thought about reaching out to the local mosque but i don't even know if there are any palestinian atendees?#and like we don't have any palestinian campus orgs#we have like an arab one but i don't know if it would be appropriate for me to reach out to them#or god forbid if i did and it turned out we had some canary mission type org in town#this is the most helpless i've ever felt politically#donations do nothing because isreal wont let anything in#biden doubles down with every protest#isreal is set on annihilating gaza#and the only action palestinians say is doing something is fucking tweeting#but everything just keeps getting worse#so many people are trying so hard to help but the only people who can actually put a stop to anything don't care#and so all everyone else has is sentiment
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Chat how soon is too soon to return to a job after being thrown a goodbye celebration under the pretense of you moving across the country 🫣
#TO BE FAIR I DID THINK I WAS MOVING AT THE TIME#I hate hate my new job#and I only got it for the pay#but my check after working 2 4.5 hr shifts was $50#which does NOT meet the $300 a week I told them I wanted to make in my application#nor the $15 an hour I asked for and was told I would make an avg of 13-18#in theory I’ll make more after I’m done training#but even then it’s only $8 plus a percentage of sales#and so far it has been dead all the days I’ve worked#in theory I could work up to being a server#but that would still be more training less money#and I don’t even think I would like being a server#raises the question of should you keep a job you don’t like for the moeny#I can’t stay a host though I don’t know if it’s worth staying#I spend all day thinking abt my old job and how much better it was in every way#and I want to go back but they made a big deal abt me leaving#and it would feel really awkward to go back would it be too awkward#honestly I should just bite the bullet#I could get past the awkwardness and return to a job I like and am comfortable at#and know id make enough money at :|#like gen how weird would it be to go back after they wrote me a farewell card and bought me cookies —#kestrel calls#chitter chatter#text post#PLUS#new job scheduled me one shift next week ???#what the helllllllll#I’m not staying there I’m not I’m looking elsewhere
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OH RIGHT RW ART MONTH IS TOMORROW
#basil speaks#gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh#ive done thumbnails for mostly everything. so i do have clear ideas for what i'm doing for like uhh 85% of the prompts#but ive been soooo busy with my classes. 18 credit hours kicking my ass rn#confession i am working ahead (did that last year too cause i was unsure how much free time the classes i was taking would leave me with)#but even then i only have 2 things done. sweats#and on top of that i never even finished coding that gallery page for last year's art month#but better news! today i scrapped it and started fresh. code and layout is way cleaner and i'm way happier with it.#i promise it'll see the light of day eventually. though “eventually” may be several more weeks or months hehehehahaheh
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Considering my finals month is literally 2 days away and it will be infact spanning an entire month, I'm contemplating on whether I should do like a daily post on here just documenting the work I'm doing each day. Almost to keep me accountable.
#imma start from tomorrow#im so scared for these exams#written this week#and then anatomy in 2 weeks time#and then osces#ahshsa#im so scared#i kinda wish i thought of the whole accountable diary post earlier#would have probs forced me to do a lot more#its weird#in many ways ive been more productive this time round compared to previous exams seasons#but at the same time i feel like havent#like today i only did 3 hours of work when i had the whole day to do work#and considering my exams are mere 2 days away and i have not even looked at 50% of the material#i feel like wth 3 hours is way too little#but i just dont have yhe discipline to sit down and study for hourss#but i need to do it#forgot to mention this is 2 years worth of content being examined in these exams#actually pray for me
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Poll adventure (paventure? lol) Day 10: read the small story tidbit below the poll for more details, OR just vote based on initial impression
(✦ see past poll results + further information HERE (link) ✦)
Yesterday's poll decided that The Adventurer should join the travelers on the larger river boat for a short lunch ...
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"Before he even fully musters the courage to shout a 'hello', the large group on the boat initiates contact first, gleefully waving at him, whooping and shouting as they near his tiny raft in the water. Apparently, some of them were betting over whether they'd actually find any other travelers out on the river today.. He fumbles over his words a bit, as always, but somehow manages to successfully get himself invited onto their boat for a quick lunch..
After safely securing his raft to the side of the boat with some spare rope, he climbs aboard, stumbling into the excitement of some sort of celebration. A few of them explain that they're traveling for 'kahesallei', an old elven holiday recently re-popularized in some of the larger cities nearby. Whatever it's true meaning and origins used to be, the current significance (at least to those within the city walls) seems to just be mindless feasting, drinking, and gaudy decor. Most of the traveling group are strangers to each other, only brought together by catching a ride on the same tour/party boat, but the mood is light, quite friendly between them, and perhaps a bit drunk.
While the boat itself is relatively plain wood, it's been strewn with gold and orange banners, flags, shimmery tassels, beads, and bushels of dark green ivy braided with fresh herbs and wildflowers. There are flat round tables of food and drink, plenty of cushions to lounge on, and one random guy perched precariously on the edge railing of the boat, gently strumming a lute for background music..
The elderly ship captain hobbles over to The Adventurer, sternly explaining that, no matter what the 'silly' passengers say, he's only allowed to stay for an hour because he didn't pay for a boat ride ticket, and thus really shouldn't even be allowed on board. By the time The Adventurer has mentally processed this information, the captain has already returned to his little steering room, slamming the door shut with a displeased grunt.. It probably wouldn't be a good idea to confront him or question the rules...... But! Hey, at least he has one hour at the party.. How should he spend his time? "
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Additional Information
the adventurer's current main goal: follow his map to reach the abandoned castle ruins and see the rare animal specialist about the mysterious egg he has
#paventure posting#polls#poll#choose your own adventure#LATE AGAIn I know.. I'm still in my weird unproductive spell. literally I've had the same 5 to do list items on my list#for 2 weeks now. I can't even do five simple things in 2 weeks lol. I did start some new supplements and change my diet since#my doctors are still trying to sort out what health issues are going on or etc. so maybe it's something with that#like accidentally on the new diet I'm not getting enough calories or not getting enough of some vitamin or something so it's made me oddly#brain foggy and just really tired and unable to focus well for the past few weeks or something..? ANYWYA. not really sure what#it is specifically but my functioning in terms of actually focusing on and completing tasks has been a lot worse . thus#chronically behind on things. which I am always chronically behind on things in some sense since I always have like 7000 projects#I'm working on at the same exact time and etc. lol. but like.. even more chronically behind than usual .. ToT#ANYWAY.. I'm suprised that the 'try to get a ride on the boat' option didn't get that many votes actually lol#Like.. treveling down a river in a tiny handmade raft is probably.. not extremely safe or efficient lol#But at least he gets to have lunch there. Just the hour that he's on the boat doing whatever will get him a lot further because the boat#is moving faster than his raft would be. It should still get him out of the river and back on track sooner. Because he still has a long way#to go to get to the abandoned castle. I know it's been a lot of days since I'm not keeping up well with actually doing these#daily or every other day - but technically in the story it's only been a little over a day since he left the Inn#The first day he just walked. the second day he saw there was a barrier in his path. then spent half the day building a boat. and now he'e#*he's where he is now. The trip is roughly 4 days and he's like.. a little over halfway through his second. Not counting any detours or#distractions he might run into. But at least at this pace he should be off the river before it starts to get dark#Thate the main thing. you want to get a good rest on solid ground. ideally. So long as nothing strange happens on the boat#but yeah! day 10.. of little elf man adventure... ALSO he is like early 20s I imagine. so he can drink hbhjbjh#I know the 'very quick simple ms paint style' is kind of chibi-ish so it makes people look young but he's not a boy#don't worry. I didnt want it to seem weird like some 10 year old kid walking into a party of drunk 30 year olds#like a toddler hanging out in a night club or whatever. It's safe and okay for him to be there. just for the record. lol#I mean maybe not SAFE safe. it's still a boat of like.. rowdy party goers who could easily fall over the edge into the water or whatever bu#but like.. safe in the sense that he's not a 6 year old being offered vodka by strangers at a party. etc.#despite his goofy nervous demeanor and chronic baby face syndrome he is indeed an actual adult somehow ghbj
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