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hello. have you heard about Tomb Raider: The Angel of Darkness Restoration Project? what do you think of it? i get the feeling that it isn't something you would enjoy but i am curious about your thoughts on it. thank you.
Hi! Due to big changes in my personal life, I'm now disconnected from TR fandom and unaware of the last ongoing news unless someone like you come and tell me. Also because most of the active fandom has moved from this website to Twitter and I have not an account there (and I refuse to have one). So I wasn't aware of this restoration project.
For what I've seen is a fanmade project of patches and mods to get the game to be more operational and playable for the fandom. I can't see why I would not enjoy something like this, encouraging fandom to try, replay and keep enjoying this game. I think, from my outter ignorance of the events, that anything made by fandom to bring TRAOD back to the board is a good initiative and, in the fact, the only and last hope for TR classic fans in this franchise.
Unfortunately nothing makes me think I'll have time anytime soon to try this project or simply replay the old version of the game, which, admittedly, was never a big problem for me. (Well, maybe Boaz's fight...)
Thanks anyway for making me know. It's good to see someone still wants to come and talk to the old witch in her hut xD
#traod#restoration project#fanmade projects#tomb raider#lara croft#my answers#yes basically i'm here reblogging stuff when i can#lartis momma is retired#on her own will despite everything
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the fact that the intention was for Sevika to actually get to unwrap her new arm..
#arcane#arcane season 2#sevika#jinx#arcane spoilers#im actually LOVING the dynamic between jinx and sevika#even last season!! before the bridge the last time Sevika had anything to say about Jinx it was#her guving Silco advice as if it were her and her own father. like she GETS Jinx#Sevika automatically refusing to turn Jinx in and framing it as solidarity with the people of Zaun#Sevika being prepared to defend herself against Jinx but relaxing completely when she didnt attack#and then not taking the opportunity to attack Jinx -she doesnt want Jinx DEAD despite everything thats happened#meanwhile literally everyone else does.#Sevika trusting Jinx when she told her to pull the lever on her arm not knowing what it would do#protecting Jinx and the kid in the sanctuary#ik ik Sevika’s the king maker and theyre setting Jinx up to be the revolutionary but it goes deeper than that#Sevika was lying when she said she has about as much in common with Jinx as cave lice and she knows it
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but my heart is like a claw machine
#undescribed#bonk.png#great god grove#ggg#great god grove spoilers#ggg spoilers#isttvg spoilers#she/her for hector on this post please n thank you#i had a bunch of tags attempting to explain this whole thing n post game transfem hector hc but the og post didnt show up in the tags#n its like 5:30 something n i was already having trouble explaining it bc ive had like four hours of sleep so i sadly cant talk about gender#stuff like i wanted to in full detail so something something sanding self down to be nonthreatening n palatable#something something the way players (myself included) falsely believed king was a man despite many of us being trans or otherwise queer#n pre endgame king only being referred to with they/them something something men as the default as problem solvers as leaders the heroes of#the story something something hector's envy of the way king is loved n admired n able to be heard as herself#hector's fear of death n irrelevance driving her to do the shit she did n the main theme of isttvg (aside from transgenderism) being fear of#death n how denying yourself will cause you to become irrelevant in ur own life disconnected from everything as the years fly by#theres still time.#enjoy the bullet points its almost six am im gonna pass out#wiat also fixation on youth in both how we view n associate feminity n what is normally explored n portrayed with transgendering
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almost forgot how healing it is to just sketch ur ocs after shit work until youre too tired
#work was the worst i almost had a breakdown bc its too overwhelming new and foreign n everything. i just wanna go back to my regular place#but not gonna start ranting again i complained enough ig and gotta enjoy my last days off before it starts again hh...#anw whenever i draw him and her its funny what a change in vibe it is despite them being twins#wip#tbd#own art#own ocs
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they…
#my ramblings#okay first. baby kdj is adorable#thank you sleepy-c for blessing my eyes#second. lsk smiling for him despite all the painful bruises on her body#lsk did everything she could to protect her son but it still wasn’t enough#in the end he grew up without her and became a person on his own#yet they’re still so similar. they both love too much. they both make the same mistakes that negatively affect those around them#augh…#orv#omniscient reader’s viewpoint#lee sookyung#kim dokja
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i knew Soft Launch reached the right audience when the comments about the wlw dating being deeply relatable piled up lmao
#i think if you go there you either had or inevitably will have one very disastrous wlw date#the kind of date that seems so fake when you tell others about it but you’ve lived through the horrors 😀#and they always last at least 24h with staying the night#like you go there with a spare undie and a toothbrush in your tote bag#knowing it will NOT end well but the lengths you go to kiss a girl who lives 500km away and matched with you on a dating app#in a pool of like seven other lesbians if you live in a rural area#or even in a big city it’s always the same faces eventually and you get tired of dating your exes ex and her other ex#anyway. soft launch is for the queers i feel like i need to say that loud and clear#it’s also for the yearners and those who haven’t given up on love yet. despite everything.#it’s for the invisible children who want to be seen but also are incredible afraid of being seen#it’s for those from broken homes who need proof that found family exists and can heal many things. not everything. but a whole lot of it.#crying in the clerb about my own fic okay!!!!#i‘m not in the club i have anxiety but my point stands#soft launch is for you if it speaks to you <3#-`♡´- tulip mail
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OC again gomen ... (her name is Yuma)
#my characters#she was (shocking to no one) a side character in a plot from forever ago and while i fleshed out her bg a LOT#she never got her own actual story ? the plot she was in had a lot of characters so her and her best friend myo were like... cameos#in other character arcs rip to she having her own#basically she had light powers and had a kind of whispy clear happy look (top)#and then the big bad guy corrupted her and she got dark powers#so myo and her start to think she is sick and then big bad shows up and tells myo that if he wants to help yuma - hed help#so he manipulates the two into working for the bad guys who id like to point out! think they're the good guys#so yuma keeps having cloudy and foggy memories and nightmares and she doesnt understand whats going on with her#and she tells myo who hasnt clued in yet and he tells her shes fine and shes too nice to do what she feels guilty for#and then after its all kinda said and done and the big bad dies the corruption disappears bc he was the one causing it#and at that point myo knows the horrible things hes kind of helped yuma do and the actual things yuma has done#and he goes to rem who a lot of people avoid since rem has mind reading and memory manipulation powers#and he asks if rem can help yuma forget everything bad#and rem - who is the unfortunate right hand of the big bad who feels so much guilt for everything he has done -#asks him if its what yuma wants cause it isnt his place to change it without her consent as well#bc rem was actually the one that yuma interacted with most outside of myo#but as far as actual plots and arcs rem was more important ? common? idk ? as a focus#so despite yuma having a lot of established background and drama she never had her own ... thing#but as the dark corruption gets to her she loses the clear stream vibes and is like an oozing oil spill#and it kinda festers into her becoming like an eldritch monster type being from the grief and guilt her conscious has#while polluted by darkness sooooo#she just kinda becomes a monster in the background of the plot its fine she gets better#and that was storytime in the tags bye
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Theon + Survival Horror (2/?)
#valyrianscrolls#theon greyjoy#asoiaf#a song of ice and fire#twoweeksoftheon#*asoiaf#two of my favourite things!#re reading clash and dance back to back i was struck by the gentleness of theon's attitude w jeyne p that's almost motherly to me#and then i thought about the fact that despite everything he was once a scared child missing his mother#and that the person he seems to relate to the most *is* a scared child who is a prisoner#and that he refers to her as a child the very first time he sees her again in dance#a child the adults in power are using to their own ends#it makes me iiiiiiiiiiih#the cycle is cycling you know#the games are haunting ground SH2 and rule of rose btw#*ths
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#yes those are uyai’s tags in the color theory post like. YESSSS#because at the end of the day.. they are still the same person they used to be before they decided to change for the better.#the past doesn’t define u but. its still part of u. u did it regardless. the person of the past is still u.#LORE SPEAKING: they may have created their own color wheel and decided to do and say their own thing that has nothing to do with i#but they were still the naive and brainwashed angels they most likely pretend they dont exist bc they are not them anymore. but they are☝️#at the end of the day it all goes back to the beginning#IRL SPEAKING: they went thru a looooot predebut so they just dont rlly acklowedge (idk how to write that) their past#or their traumas. or their sins. because its fine they are not the same anymore. BUT THEY ARE! they still are#for example kaia thinks shes ok bc her past actions dont define her anymore. mf killed someone ofc her past will weight her down#despite howww bad she pretends that shes not that person anymore bc she is better now#but well! she still is the same person who killed nari! and thats something she has to accept#amaybe she continues having trouble accepting it bc “current me could never do that”. and well she did anyway!#blahblahblah#whatever that means dulce!#anyway. thats why in their color wheel they aren’t really that different fron their initial color#yeah they changed but they are still the same shade because their principal color is still part of them#this is why i really love the whole nostalgia essence in hiraeth bc it goes well with their lore / irl#ur past will always be part of u even if u forget it. even if u barely remember. even if u think that it didnt happen. thats still UR past#and thats why i luv the time loop concept too bc every new era is a new life but everything is still connected to the past eras#because they are still the same silly little angels 🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧 even if they remember or not!#q.
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Finally glad the mouthwashing fandom-at least on here- is finally coming around to see the idea that neither curly or jimmy are completely innocent nor should be babied or completely villainized because to do that you'd need to *checks notes*
Completely ignore how mouthwashing is a story of how systems of abuse are kept in power. Particularly rape culture and the patriarchy that encourages these actions while also encouraging bystander effect from other men close to predators...which is all encouraged under a system like capitalism.
Idk read more of tha rant in tags I got carried away I fear.
#its all interchanging systems babe#if i see another post babying curly#or removing any amount of humanity from jimmy#im going to assume you simply dont want to interact with the meat of the game#you just looked at overall plot points and story beats with a glance and refused to give this wonderful game its flowers#stop turning these complex character into one dimensional things you can comodify like prepackaged food#this also heavily includes anya and the weird way you guys also baby her#shes a grown woman...a tramatized one yeah? but a grown woman who should be treated decently#not just spme one note preformative doll you wave around in order to comfort and baby curly or to shit on jimmy in the most ooc way possible#same with swansea#my goodness#mouthwashing#seriously ik fandom always does this but mouthwashing tumblr somehow impressed me?#with how much they could miss themes and intricacies for their preformative turn to the camera so they can say#“grrr this character bad and is monster lets throw a bunch of cluster b disorders at them and remove any character to prove a point ”#“wow this character is completely absolved from his actions and is too innocent to be deeply analyzed...#lets give him a playtoy supporting female character to dote on him and loft him up despite her own trauma!“#rant#im sorry its just soo annoying#usually im a “do everything you want forever” type girl#but its seeing the fandoms hypocrisy in jow they treat charscters like jimmy and curly and swansea that makes me realize#media literacy is soooo down hill.#quick give me a 500 word essay on why you think *shittiest take ever* is acceptable!
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taylor like: i know you know, you know i know you know, so i might as well play the songs about that fateful night, you know?
#got online just to see if she did the thing and SHE DID!!!!#and honestly i'm not surprised at all#she is in the era of owning her art her life and her truths and experiences as fully as she can#even sometimes despite everything else and i love that for her#thrown out speeches#do you really wanna know where i was april 29th#you're so gorgeous i can't say anything to your face#she has been through so much since that night seven years ago and she deserves to own it#eras tour#literally cannot use my sprained right hand for more than five minutes at a time again 😭
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what are your thoughts on Madoka and Sayaka's relationship? I always thought it was underrated for how complex and tragic it is.
Madoka and Sayaka's relationship function similarly to that of a knight and a princess, so both their friendship or couple pairing are interesting to me. It seems to be intentional that Sayaka was crafted with a knight motif in mind to click with Madoka's vulnerability. The tragedy is that Sayaka was way too young and inexperienced to be shouldering such expectations in a friendship. Taking up the role of a protector at every turn because she wanted to protect everyone has always been a contributing factor to how fast Sayaka burned out.
Contrarily, Madoka's struggle with her own helplessness throughout the show was also part of the reason why Sayaka said a lot of terrible thing to her, but deeply regretted her actions to the point where she succumbed to Witching out away from Madoka. Madoka, at least in this "final" timeline, was not there to see her own childhood best friend change into something else. To, in a way, "die", and be reborn as the same monster that all magical girls were hunting after in a frenzy. Homura was right that Sayaka brings Madoka grief — it seems that in almost timeline, since Sayaka becomes a Witch as long as she becomes a magical girl unlike Mami or Kyoko, Sayaka is a consistent source of Madoka's grief. Whenever Madoka becomes a magical girl, then, her aspirations are based on Sayaka's sacrifice and ideals, except Madoka actually has the power to "save everyone". I believe Madoka loved Sayaka as Sayaka may not have been an "effective" magical girl, but she was the one who was willing to sacrifice her soul for her ideals, regardless of how naïve they were. To Madoka, who was so ensnared by her sense of uselessness, Sayaka was the closest thing to an idol or a star for the courage required to be a magical girl. Sayaka's desire to make the world a safer and justified place for people was so inspiring to Madoka that even when Madoka becomes Kriemhild Gretchen, the Witch's whole gimmick is "creating heaven on earth, a Witch content only if there is no more grief in existence". A prospect deeply held onto by Madoka that even Gretchen embodies it.
It's probably why Madoka's wish to save all magical girls would definitely sound equally impossible to he audience and the incubators, but Madoka herself says, "If someone says it's wrong to hope, I will tell them that they're wrong every time." Sayaka was often called foolish for her ideals and hopes, and Madoka was the only other person aside from Kyoko who understands Sayaka's struggles so much that she outright tells people that Sayaka was never wrong — this is how Madoka protects Sayaka. Madoka would never want anyone to say any of the magical girls' wishes were wrong or foolish. It was how Sayaka also found her peace at the end of the show: to be understood and not viewed as an object that would eventually be replaced in the cycle of magical girls and Witches.
Madoka and Sayaka eventually learned how to protect each other. Sayaka doesn't need to suffer from her own overbearing expectations anymore, and Madoka can finally be something even more to protect her angel: A God.
#they are so tragic#madoka makes me cry thinking about how she was so compassionate that she never actually hated any of the witches#only ever looking upon them with sadness for what they were even before she knew how Witches were made#it's why i don't like people who claim they love madoka but despise sayaka#like you do understand that Madoka loved sayaka so much she made sayaka her own angel and tells you straight up that it's not wrong to hope#madoka not being unkind to sayaka despite everything is so...makes my heart hurt#Sayaka wasn't evil or selfish she just really wanted to mean a whole lot to someone that mattered#inevitably she was emotionally charged and in that moment she forgot madoka was always there for her and vice versa#which drove her to try and quietly witch out alone in a train station with kyoko#you can say what you wish but Sayaka's ideals were so tragic that both kyoko and madoka were affected by them#and that's the biggest tragedy of it all honestly#madoka scenes make me cry and I'm not kidding she wanted to help so bad#Sayaka Archives#ASKS 💌
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For the based people who want to see Amanda handled as a complex character capable of change and with her own potential insecurities and fears explored, may I recommend The Feeling of Home by CoffeeJay? It's a few chapters before the Amanda train really kicks off but I was so pleasantly surprised by it.
I think it's worth exploring yourself but if you want potentially spoilery specifics:
We get to see Amanda experience actual character growth and her distrust of Connor is now rooted in personal fear rather than him not meeting the mission parameters set by Cyberlife.
Hank and Amanda interactions.
Amanda craving a physical form and feeling genuine dysmorphia over just being an AI in a garden.
Amanda isn't perfect or entirely rational all the time! She's allowed to have doubts and feelings!
Connor and Amanda toxic codependency. They're both hypocrites calling each other out going "no u"
Hank isn't entirely nice at first. Like not outright on purpose he just sucks and is immature and a little clueless. Like he does. (this is a plus to me)
RK900 is there and he's like, his own fascinating character with his own troubles without being thrust into a ship.
Good study of Connor. He is feeling things and isn't very good at dealing with it, but it's like not infantalizing. He's just stubborn and a bitch. Even to himself.
#also yaaay platoniconk#i rarely do fic recs but here#fic rec#dbh#dbh amanda#i have adhd and cannot organize my thoughts today so this is.#uh maybe not the most well worded but my amanda post is going around again and i love her#hank and connor interactions are good in this one but to me were eclipsed by how much i loved nearly everything about amanda#so i genuinely can't remember much beyond they have a good sassing and bitching dynamic#and the relationship is rocky at times (yay)#hank tries but he's hank#i should reread this when i get the chance#bc despite remembering i love it i know im forgetting a lot of things to highlight#adhd ammirite#also feel free to rec your own amanda-sympathetic fics#i crave them
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this is exactly how equinox ended
#idk sometimes i feel like they have done chakotay so dirty with this ending and the fact they reconciled so quickly#like it felt like his agency was being taken away?? i always imagined that he was so quick to respect her as a captain and then *cough* fall#in love with her bc he saw that she chose to save innocent lives against starfleet regulations. and starfleet's inability to do so was the#reason he resigned despite the fact that it cost him so much to get there in the first place. and i feel that janeway must have completely#broken his illusion of her ergo him asking something along the lines of kathryn what happened to you#it would have been so delicious if she had to earn his trust again you know... but everything that happens in the episode of voyager stays#in that episode#on the other hand it was so funny how quick they were to talk again like um i restricted you to your quarters... uh..... will i see you at#the party tonight... they are so fucking STUPID she didnt even outright invited him#chakotay please bestie respect yourself more#also the way that she didnt even make a proper dish for that potluck but brought croutons for chakotays salad...#girl after all that happened you could have at least made your own dish#the image of this is so funny to me. imagine you see your commanding officers fighting each other which leads to one being restricted to his#quarters and then the next day they bring a dish together to the potluck. amazing stuff#hope they invited that guy whom janeway tortured. since he ended up serving on voyager#mr lessing pass me the cassarole will you.... sorry for torturing you for information btw <3 i have my moments#my post#star trek voyager
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2-S is so important to the overall theme of love in ultrakill andnobody.even talks about it
#the machines nor angels have no greater purpose now. did they ever? heavens fragile society and the fueling processes of machines#leaves them all doomed.#And yet. they continue to seek purpose. they give themselves purpose. even as the world is coming to an end there is still love no matter#how broken it may be#Gabriel is doomed. v1 is doomed. yet he finds love in that machine and that machine finds its purpose in him#and all of this is said just abt directly in all imperfect lovesong.#Mirage is so afraid of the end. so afraid of everything shes done and ever will do amounting to nothing.#but we help her find joy in that meaninglessness...Perhaps joy in a struggle. her own struggle for happiness despite that fear#Just as gabriel has done. Perhaps just as the player has done#This is probably word sludge but ughhhhhhh. Thinkin about it#gooptalks
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The fact that Mami is only 15 screws me up a little. She's barely older than Madoka and the rest of the girls and yet she forces herself into the "mature responsible caretaker" role. I get that magical girls don't live long, but I expected the 16-18 age range for her.
#puella magi madoka magica#mahou shoujo madoka magica#madoka magica#pmmm#wyfy's meltdowns#magical girl#mami tomoe#pmmm mami#mami madoka magica#if Mami didn't cut herself off from the world she probably would've ended up in Madoka's class#Madoka is 14 turning 15 in a few months during the main series timeframe#theoretically if Mami were born a year earlier and/or had her 16th birthday before Madoka's 15th she'd still be older but not by much#she puts so much on her shoulders#I think “Mami Tomoe” did die during the accident despite the wish#she's isolated herself and forced herself to become mature#even if she's still technically alive “Mami Tomoe” is a completely different person untill the holy quintet comes along and reteaches her-#-how to be a teenager; laughing and having fun with friends#even then Mami still forces herself into the roles of “leader” “caretaker” and in rebellion “mother”#she's a lonely kid who's lost everything and didn't die when she was supposed to; which only causes more heartache in the end#instead of dying in a tragic accident to be mourned by family she dies in a witch's labyrinth and is forgotten by the world#the concept of outliving your own story is one that never fails to get under my skin#people tend to overlook Mami's tragedy in favour of the more bombastic ones (Madoka Homura Sayaka) but I think her's is pretty compelling
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