#oh i’m really sick.
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okay so like Endo, you, and one of those 'love is art' kits
thank you, that's all
???!?!!?!!?!? FINNIE???!?!!!?
I DIDNT KNOW WHAT THIS WAS AND HAD TO LOOK IT UP AND I WISH U COULDVE HEARD THE SCREAM WHEN I REALIZED.
#ur telling me we could coat our bodies in paint n go round for round on top of a canvas? 🤕#oh i’m really sick.#you know i read a fic about this once. with kokonoi.#it was really hot.#ENDOOOO THOUGHHHH#ohhhh he’d be such a menace about it bringing attention to it when ppl come over#meanwhile there’s poorly concealed handprints all over the damn thing 😮💨#ohhhhh you wounded me.#msg: finn <3#venya <3
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a VERY happy new year’s eve from you to me :] here’s to doing more
#tmnt#rottmnt#ronin#new years#blues notespad#rottmnt oc#real talk i have been doing things like school and it’s really killed my motivation to work on golden boy and other things#this is my first full art piece in forever#i am doing OTHER other things i’ll be happy to share soon#but for now i hope this is good#i’m very grateful for all the people i’ve met this year and how much FUN i’ve had#uhh my resolution is probably just gonna be to doodle once a day and post more non turtle related things#i hope yall like rainworld deltarune and stickman because oh boy i will become insufferable abt them#oh and sonic#the movie was good. shadow is sick as hell yadda yadda#for this year ronins taking a bit of a backseat because i need a break from turtles#not because i’m dropping him#okay? okay#next person to ask me when i’m updating gb is getting stomped#that’s all lmao#happy new year! see you. tomorrow. because i have more art for tomorrow
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my personal hc for why Felix is Like That
Image id by @anistarrose below the cut! Thank you!
[Image description: a digitally drawn, gray-shaded comic of Eugene Finch and Anna Log from Drawtectives. The first panel shows them conversing by phone, and Anna begins: "Hi, I'm done with the animatronic you commissioned."
Smiling brightly, Eugene replies: "Alright! Thank you so much! Seriously, I can't thank you enough. I know it's pretty weird to ask for an animatronic vessel for the spirit of a dead cat."
The next panel cuts to Anna alone, where in the background, a humanoid animatronic with a mustache is sitting limply on a bench. Anna's eyes become tiny dots, indicating shock, and she echoes: "C-cat?"
The last panel shows Anna and Eugene together in person, together with Felix, who is an animatronic with a cartoonish cat head and otherwise very humanoid body. Anna gestures to Felix, smiling sheepishly and saying:
"So you see, I gave him an anthropomorphic body to, uh, maximize helpfulness. Because of, y'know, the opposable thumbs and stuff." A small arrow labels Anna as "completely BSing."
Eugene replies: "Oh yeah, that makes sense." A small arrow labels him as "Not very bright," followed by a heart. End description.]
#drawtectives#eugene finch#anna log#anna log drawtectives#drawfee#drawtectives spoilers#anna clearly has a type of animatronic she prefers to make#I mean. The Animatronic. Felix. Conrad double. they’re all weird tall men#before you come at me I KNOW Felix has a lil tuft of hair. he put that on himself anna didn’t do it.#this really is a completely incomprehensible comic if you don’t have the context#oh well. I’m sick and I needed to draw something. enjoy.
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bye i relate to penelope featherington in an awful way bc i also am the unnoticed hopeless romantic chubby girl and episode four of season three has me crying
#where is my colin bridgerton#polin#penelope featherington#colin bridgerton#bridgerton#where is my ROMANCE#god#wtf happened to men and their willingness to be open and emotional and sensitive#do you know how surprised i was (am) when i got my first boyfriend#and every boyfriend after that#i’ve only ever been overlooked and teased and bullied by men#i cling to romance like it’s my saving grace#it’s all i want in life#i could be broke and homeless and sick and despondent#but love#love would make me so happy#i’ve never been in love#never really#had any of that#and i feel like a spinster#i’m 24 and#yeah#oh would you look at that#i’m sad again#lmfao#anyway
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you start calling suguru ”king” as a bit and he absolutely hates it so you just keep cycling through titles (my liege, my lord, your highness etcetc) until you get to ”my emperor” and he gets a sudden shiver down his spine
#IS THIS ANYTHING#i’m just brainrotting all over the place </3#to be clear this isnt rlly meant to be suggestive or anything i just think he gets a kick out of being called that . sick sick man#makes him feel like a feudal warhungry lord#(he also really likes it when You In Particular call him that but . we dont need to discuss it ok!!)#might sneak this into a fic bc i think it’s funny :3#”how about… my *emperor*?”#”…..…”#”… oh. did you actually like that one?”#(his ears go red btw)#ari noises ✩
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Reconciliation
Old dome squadmates Trito and Kinoga get together at Trito’s place to catch up after years apart and a meeting by chance on the surface.
⚠️Warning for suggestive content below + implied chest trauma
After several weeks of chipping away at this, the comic is finally done! Very happy to have rendered a full 7 pages of oc stuff. Please give it a read!!
read the full 7 page comic on twitter! <-please do not click if you are a minor and view at your own discretion, this link contains explicit 18+ content. Thank you!
For the lore, includes stuff from splatoon Octo Expansion: Trito and Kinoga were a part of an octarian military squad living in the domes, Kinoga being their squad leader that many looked up to and admired. There were 6 of them who considered each other to be their closest friends. Upon hearing about the tests from Kamabo Co. and the allure of the Promised Land, Kinoga wished to seek it out in order to find a better life for their squadmates. A difficult decision, since it meant leaving them all behind, promising to come back and take them there.
Kinoga enters the metro trials and soon realizes that the Promised Land isn’t what they expected, their hope crumbling when they encounter one of their sanitized squadmates Agara, who followed suit to the metros soon after. Kinoga narrowly escapes, eventually making a break for the surface, carrying the shame of unwilling to return for their squadmates with them (it’s justified, of course, there might not be an easy way in, they might get caught again, Agara is gone)
Trito enters the Metro not too long after Kinoga does, wanting to catch up to them, and an accident that occurs in a test early on results in Trito’s near sanitization, giving him his scar. Terrified, and realizing what happens to his fellow octolings, Trito is unable to return to his squadmates, not wanting to break the news of their loved ones’ untimely fates. He hides away on the Metro until the events of OE happen and Agent 8 dismantles Kamabo, opening an opportunity to escape to the surface. Unwilling to face the possibilities of going back, Trito takes his chance to leave, starting a new life and feeling that it’s for the best if he doesn’t acknowledge it, though he missed his friends dearly.
Years later, Trito and Kinoga run into each other on the streets of Splatsville by chance, and the implications of them both being on the surface and alive hit them, having to carry the burden of leaving their loved ones behind and finding out the truth, knowing the other felt exactly the same, not knowing the fate of their squadmates and not wanting to think about the possibility of them being gone. They have a tearful reunion about it, and set up a meet later, to sit down and really talk, and get into a brief argument when the topic of returning to the domes comes up. Trito’s in disbelief that Kinoga never went back down to check on the rest of their squad, wanting them to have been a better person than him, who was too cowardly to do so. Eventually they do reconcile, and end up at Trito’s place to hook up, where the above comic takes place :]
#my art#my ocs#splatoon#suggestive#trito#kinoga#aaahhhhhh this is finally done!!!!#a small drabble turned into a sketch turned into a full fledged rendered comic. blowing up#in any case I hope people enjoy this as much as I do…they are so everything to me#splatoon ocs#I have so many thoughts about these two that I could not articulate in a tumblr post. they miss each other so so much#its about the. I’ve known your body. and coming back after years and going oh…this is new…#there’s no context where trito would be able to reveal this to kinoga except for boning#only kinoga could look at it and immediately understand. sparing him the pain of explaining what happened and reliving it#if it had been anyone else he probably would have stopped them the moment the hand went under the sweater#but he’s just so so caught in the moment of the reunion. and the everything . Auughhhh#stealing this from a friend but theyve changed and they haven’t changed at all. I’m going to be ill#chest trauma#‘what if they explored each others bodies’ or whatever. okay#if it wasnt clear enough or implied trito and kimoga are octolings from the underground domes#nsft#oh and the. really long lore explanation <33 teehee#they are so so much#not partners but more than friends. secret third thing. guh#its about holding each other so tightly and physically for confirmation that they weren’t seeing things and that the other was Really There#like the fate of their friends not on their mind constantly and then it all comes flooding back and all of a sudden it opens the door#for finding the others and now they won’t have to go back and face the possibility alone#IM GOING TO BE SICK!!!!!!!!!!!!#this has got to be the most ive rambled in the tags I’ve just been rotatinf them with fado for the past barely a month and they are#tritonoga
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Hobie sketch!
#im late on the spiderverse train ik ik i saw it quite late and ive had sm to do i haven’t really had the time to make any fanart#hobies design is sick as fuck so i was really glad i sat down and took the time to tey to draw him#will definetly draw him again#as well as I want to learn how to do draw the other spiders as well#oh well I’m rambling now#spiderverse#hobie brown#spiderpunk#spiderverse fanart#across the spiderverse#spiderpunk fanart
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yes this au is stabbing me in the heart again, why do you ask?
#sanders sides#patton sanders#roman sanders#remus sanders#janus sanders#janus!patton#unsympathetic janus#Canterlot wedding au#royality#platonic intruality#oh no someone help Roman D:#I wanna write this fanfic but I’m not a writer#meanwhile Logan and Virgil are probably kissing just off screen#I would’ve rendered this but I’m really tired and still kinda sick so nevermind I guess
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*he spilled my cup of paint water all over everything idk why I said he spilled watercolors I just woke up girls
I literally walked away for two minutes tops to make coffee and came back to his ass sitting on this water color palette and my painting open after spilling my watercolor water all over it
Look at that face. He knows he did something wrong hahahha
#I really wish I had a pic of him just sitting on the watercolors bc it was hilarious#like he looked so innocent and cute and I just knew his was was covered in various colors hashahwhwha#but i was more concerned with the toxicity so my immediate reaction was to try to clean his paws the best I could#and research#it won’t cause any skin or gastrointestinal issues so we’re good thankfully#he will be fine don’t worry lmao it’s water based watercolors#gonna watch him close just in case#grabbed him asap and a wash cloth and took him to the sink#but yes to reiterate it’s NOT TOXIC AND HE IS FINE I PROMISE#also thank goodness I grabbed him immediately before he started prancing around on the white carpet bc I would be yelled at for weeks#u have four bloody scratches on my face but there are not rainbow foot prints all over the house and he is safe so I am fine with that#i**#they’re ^#the way cats attack you and think they’re being punished when you’re literally potentially trying to just save their life#or help them#like unhooking their claw from somethin their stuck too#and like I give a fuck about clothes as much as my cat but there’s paint all over my favorite robe too now hahah#legit thiught the red streaks on my face were watercolor hahahaha so I was like oh shit that blood#I’m not mad#after I found out it wasn’t toxic and that he didn’t step all over the wet carpets and that he was okay i laughed for like 15 minutes#I’m still laughing like… y’all ☠️#please excuse my voice I’m a little sick and I sound like a southerner ew#like why do i sound like someone’s Christian Baptist mother offering someone cookies#Queso#my cats#lmao
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anon because im on the wrong blog rn but i wanted to say i really enjoyed your witness analysis post. i havent really seen many comparisons about the colonisation aspect of what the witness does (though to be fair, im not really in touch with fandom). so it was nice to these themes touched on especially so eloquently !
Greetings anon!!!
Thank you so much for the kind message!! I deeply appreciate your words as the Witness is a character that is extremely close to me, quite literally being one of my favorite characters in media ever and someone who revolves in my head like a rotisserie chicken 24/7!!!
I truly believe that if you don’t see the content you desire in the world, you should go out and make it, so when I didn’t see mountains of the most bitter vitriol towards the Witness, I knew I had a job to do!
I’ve been left to pick up the pieces of the Witness’ long legacy of reducing my people and culture to what is “palatable and profitable”, my family has a prophecy (a destiny if you will) that I will form my own Witness in this life to enact an ideology and force that idea on me, I was once a precursor who raged against a silent god by abandoning my self, I’ve met many disciples of the Witness in my life and many more victims of it. This character has been so firmly tied to my life that I just had to share my perspective with the world in an attempt to make people understand just how important the lessons we can learn from it are!! I could talk about the Witness for eons!!!
There has been a lot of Witness works ( fanfiction, memes, art work, etc.) produced and a lot of it has been absolutely phenomenal work!! They are all clearly created by people who have a deep affection for the character that clearly shows in their fantastic pieces and I truly love that, but a lot of what I saw left me feeling restless because none of it (from what I’ve seen) truly tapped into the absolute nightmarish nature of what this entity has brought down on civilizations. I really wanted to bring in another voice on this character because I couldn’t be moved so deeply by its defeat and sit still on it!!
Again, if no one is making the content you would like to see, make it! That’s actually the biggest reason why I started making posts for this blog, I wanted to help others see that there is much more to talk about when it comes to the Witness than its philosophical views on reality and it’s big eyes (as well as not keeping my trillions of thoughts in my head).
To me, characters as awful as it should always have their victims struggles voiced first and foremost and the Witness is much bigger than itself for it has forced its necrotizing fingers into the lives of everyone in the Destiny universe.
The story and focus will never be on the Witness for me, it will always be on its victims and their recovery.
I think about how I struggle to find traditional names for my heritage because everyone has a name from the beliefs of our imperialists instead of the victims they forced to be remembered as necessary casualties on a path to “civilization and salvation” and I am putting the Witness through a million glass tables.
I think about how all I know of my relatives who were born not that long ago was that they were only allowed to be “field workers and strong believers “ and here comes a massive anvil over its head.
Speaking on this matter, I am still working on a small thought dump on how Rhulk is a prime example of someone who sheds their cultural and personal ties to go from victim to perpetrator and it’s been hard!!
In all honesty, it has really taken an emotional and mental toll on me for how deep it cuts and how much of it reminds me of all that could of have been in the lives of so many if they weren’t groomed into believing that the only way to get justice for their lives (lives affected by the conditions the ideological groomers use to be opportunistic) is to take on a position where they are a subjugator, not the subjugated.
It’s very painful to write about and Rhulk as a character makes the very core of my being ache as every time I read Shattered Suns, I have to sit back and clench my fists at the invasive, predatory behavior the Witness displays towards Lubraens. Those same words it coerces Rhulk with are the same ones that resulted in hollow people in my life who were prideful in turning their backs on their cultural ways and community if it meant gaining the security and sense of righteousness the oppressors offered. The Witness preyed on Rhulk and turned him into something truly awful, something I see so often that I cannot stand by and not say anything on it.
I wish to see Rhulk content that does not focus on him just being a devoted disciple of the Witness or some super strong villain who’s cool, I really want to see more content touching on what happened to make him fall so far into the Witness’ clutches and views him as the victim he is! I want to make content that shows how REPUGNANT their relationship is and how Rhulk is an example of the need to provide preventative community and understanding to those vulnerable to ideological grooming, especially in our modern era where harmful beliefs are ever present and looking to find people to sustain them!
This is getting very long, but in essence, thank you! Thank you so much anon for your words!!
I truly believe in the importance of POC voices, especially black voices, in fandom spaces as we have been left out of a lot of discussions that have heavy implicit (and explicit) ties to race and culture when it comes to sci-fi and fantasy settings! We get strength from community and understanding, it is how we can better make fandom spaces comfortable for all!! By giving my views on the Witness and its ills, I wish to help the Destiny fandom understand some of the ties it has to real life issues and hope that it helps people be more conscious of the teachings in media they invest in!
It was so nice to see people contribute to my Witness post with their own connections or point out connections other people have made like with evangelicalism and Polish fascism. I’m very glad many people can unite on the fact that the Witness is abominable and that we can face irl Witnesses by defeating ignorance hand in hand!! My understanding and beliefs are always evolving with new information and I’m always happy to grow alongside others!
Just remember guys, make the content you want to see in life and if you are a POC, voicing your discomfort or offering your perspective on matters discussed in sci-fi and fantasy settings is essential to getting proper representation in media that is done with nuance and respect as well as help both audiences and writers craft better narratives!!!
And trust me, the Witness (especially the behaviors it displays towards Rhulk and it’s other victims) makes me deeply, deeply,
deeply
deeply
Uncomfortable.
I will never forgive the Witness for all it has done and I never want to see it pleased with its work EVER. The only redeeming I want to hear about the Witness is how it can redeem this coupon for my fist in its face, free of charge, guaranteed by me, filled with the force of all my relatives who did not live long enough to see that they could have always mattered in this world.
#destiny 2#destiny#destiny the game#the witness#d2#destiny witness#destiny the final shape#rhulk#rhulk destiny#the final shape#destiny community#the witness destiny#the witness is so so so SO sickening and it’s actions weigh on me like a supermassive black hole everyday#I’ve talked to other poc destiny fans in length about the witness’ crusade that was wiped out planet after planet#it doesn’t even take land it just straight up takes planets to use as tools for its goals oh I’m going to be sick#Rhulk being both perpetrator and victim is so important to me and has helped me understand those who have hurt me so deeply#guys I’m going to be honest with you all WitRhulk makes my stomach churn as a poc and I can’t ever see them as mutually romantic#WitRhulk really makes me want to wail at the top of my lungs because I’ve seen people fall for their so called savior and it’s NASTY#Rhulk views the witness so fondly and I view him through walls of tears when he does that#enough about the witness being cute who wants to talk about eugenics slavery imperialism religious fanaticism colonialism etc#not talking about the precursors when I speak of the Witness btw#yeah that Rhulk essay is taking a million years because I keep crying whoops#daily reminder to drop the witness in an active volcano
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I would love to understand why my brain and body are desperate to not shower in the safety of my own home but perked up at the offer to go shower at the gym that’s full of people I don’t know and men who could pin me and locker rooms with open doorways and less control over cleanliness than I can get in my own apartment. Something something the years of swim practice and swim meet locker room showers being safe I guess?
#I’ll allow it#I’ll even encourage it if it can help me get over 6 miles walked per day again#but can I please fucking shower? I feel so gross#I have never in my life had as hard a time showering or bathing as I have this year and it’s been killing my self esteem#I feel like everyone knows I’m gross and I KNOW I need to shower#it’s important#and I don’t want my hair greasy or anything#but I go out of my way to avoid it except for an occasional hair wash or body shower when I need to go to an event#and it’s driving me CRAZY#cleanliness is really really next to godliness in my family and also I know everyone in the world views hygiene as a moral issue#and I CAN SHOWER I did it for YEARS I even did it daily for years I used to be SO good at always always doing at least the minimum#even if sleep deprived or sick#but now it’s like I’m stuck SCREAMING and slamming my palms bloody in a containment cell somewhere in the center of my concept of a body#BEGGING to just stop being so gross and to do a daily face routine and use lotion and keep my teeth healthy and keep my hair clean#and it doesn’t even matter#I’m so ashamed all the time#but my brain doesn’t give a shit about it anymore#it views the endless shame as a lesser evil and god I hope I figure out how to get that stopped#I don’t even get triggered in the shower!!! I don’t know what’s wrong! my brain just does everything it can#to keep me from undressing and showering#no matter how much I hate it#and this is so tmi sorry oh god#I’ll probably delete this later#but#shh katie#add to journal#is it the dissociation? is it the adhd? is it the ptsd?#FINALLY my POTS symptoms chill out for the winter and now THIS?
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Saying that Louis deserved Armand’s torment because he tried to kill himself is….certainly a choice
#the anti blackness is really out of hand#like what the actual fuck#the way people just refuse to empathize with louis at all makes me sick#not to mention armand triggered that whole thing by telling him claudia didn’t love him#was louis out of hand? yea but he WAS HIGH whereas Armand was completely sober#OH! and that’s not even pointing out that ARMAND COULD HAVE STOPPED HIM#BUT HE CHOSE NOT TO SO WHAT DOES THAT TELL YOU#i’m going to bed. i have had enough#iwtv#fandom racism
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My solice as I explode over grad applications is that people are starting to enjoy my robot art
#love tumblr sometimes#post that flopped on posting randomly get picked up#and I’m kissing the hands of those who do#anyway#guess who was like#oh yah I need to remake my website portfolio to keep going#and then didn’t#and now#I have …. very little time#CUZ I DONT WANNA DO THUS BUT I ALSO REALLY WANT TO GET INTO GRAD SCHOOLS#I HATW TALKING ABOUT MYSELF IS THE THING#so I work on my symbolic understanding and use of the demon essay isnt of my statement of purpose#ooOos#normally I’m too ancnious and get things done so early#but it finally hit me#also I’m still sick#I couldn’t sleep because my nose clogged#and then I had very weird half awake dreams
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every good thing that has ever happened in the world is because of ryan nugent-hopkins everyone say thank you
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tonight i’m resting and keeping to myself bc i just need a minute, but tomorrow i think i’ll tinker with my rules and tidy up this blog overall. i’ve been thinking about a few things that have likely contributed to me feeling overwhelmed here, and i need to sit down and drop old drafts/asks, clean up my followers list, and set a lil boundary. hopefully after i do, i can get back to writing and bugging y’all at a normal pace 💜
#or a normal pace for me asdfg#i just kinda? felt sick at the idea of coming online tonight#and that feeling passed but it made me go “oh i need to really do something about this huh”#and it’s not anything serious i think it’s more so understanding the way i am and what makes me anxious or overwhelmed and accepting that#rather than forcing myself to try and work past those feelings bc i want to make things easier for others#or bc i feel bad for letting go of things i don’t have muse for anymore#anyway anyway! i’m gonna finish my silly lil scary movie and hopefully have an early night#tbh the lack of sleep probably didn’t help my feelings today either :’ )#please take care of yourselves and remember to take breaks 💜💜💜 mwah mwah!!#get ready to ramble | ooc
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I’m reading Most Ardently by Gabe Cole Novoa right now, which is a retelling of Pride and Prejudice where ‘Elizabeth’ is a closeted trans boy called Oliver, and it’s really interesting as a (recently outed, formerly closeted) trans guy to read his internal monologue in third person. There’s a lot of affirmation in it, because in real life you don’t have to gender yourself in your head so much which is why I think a lot of trans people accidentally misgender themselves sometimes. Because of the way it’s written, you have a lot of him being treated and referred to as a girl, but it’s always undercut by that narrative voice gendering him correctly.
#anyway weird trans comforts#gender stuff#classical literature#remixed classics#not a tag smh#trans books#trans#trans masc#queer books#it’s really good btw side note#I’m only halfway through chapter 8 though#think Darcy might be autistic#most ardently#oh that is a tag sick#gabe cole novoa
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