#i’m going to bed. i have had enough
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Saying that Louis deserved Armand’s torment because he tried to kill himself is….certainly a choice
#the anti blackness is really out of hand#like what the actual fuck#the way people just refuse to empathize with louis at all makes me sick#not to mention armand triggered that whole thing by telling him claudia didn’t love him#was louis out of hand? yea but he WAS HIGH whereas Armand was completely sober#OH! and that’s not even pointing out that ARMAND COULD HAVE STOPPED HIM#BUT HE CHOSE NOT TO SO WHAT DOES THAT TELL YOU#i’m going to bed. i have had enough#iwtv#fandom racism
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it’s amazing how men can just ruin everything
#literally just by existing#like at what point do i say that’s enough#like how many times do you have to repeat that what’s happening is nothing do with them and yet they’re still like#but what did i do#lol nothing i’m going through something i don’t have to share every detail with you#i don’t understand it#how do they make everything about themselves#please i just want one good one#please#one that will just go okay ur upset and i did nothing and you want your space cool#not try and start a fucking argument and follow you around like a lost puppy#fuck offfffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff#like i’ve lost all motivation now#he’s just taken it#and just as i was about to start and open up my laptop#he wants to come to bed#after spending the few hours i had downstairs with my laptop trying to cause an argument and distracting me#and if i go okay i’m gonna go back down then so i can do want i wanna do#it’ll be omg why do u never wanna spend time with me#WE LIVE TOGETHER#WE ARE TOGETHER 24/7#all the timeeeeeee#but it’s fine when he wants to waste all his days on fucking warcraft#fuck offffff
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Am I awake enough to watch the worlds’ Madison race
#I had a good night of sleep#and woke up like two hours ago#but I can’t get myself out of bed#and my brain is still a bit fuzzy#and Madisons require so much focus#I’m not sure I have enough of that right now#😂#(I know that what I actually need is to go eat something#that will unfuzzy the brain#but I don’t wanna moooove)#((can someone bring me a croissant in bed? pleaaase))#cycling#track cycling#but barely tbh 😅
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one thing abt being disabled/chronically ill that some people don’t get is that sometimes body maintenance that ensures you have the absolute minimum amount of function can also be something that takes away a lot of control and autonomy. you can argue till the cows come home that making those decisions to try and help yourself (or realistically to try to make sure things aren’t worse than they already are) is something that exhibits control and autonomy and stuff, but they can be so limiting in practice because they’re things that take up so much time but have to be done to do anything else
#i have to sleep a lot. i’m at the point where functioning requires 8 hours of sleep if not more#I should probably be getting 10+ but i’m a student and i work so 8 is the minimum. but then also getting ready for bed is a whole process s#the whole thing can take 10-12 hours depending how much im sleeping. just to make sure i can do anything#that is time in my day i cannot use for anything else. it’s not ‘oh but i can push through it’ because i can’t without spending the next da#lightheaded and nauseous and vaguely dizzy and with such intense brain fog I can’t think with my fatigue so bad i genuinely don’t know how#get myself to work a lot of days. my abled peers don’t have to deal with this at all. they have unlimited study time if they want to#and yeah it is a choice i’m making that’s true i could just not do. except i would lose my job and fail out of college because i would not#be able to get to classes or do my homework or think. but being told ‘but you are making choices about your life’ when i have lost so much#of what i used to be able to do because i am spiralling down and continuing to get worse is so.#literally last year i would wake up at 6:30 and then go to school till 3 and then go to my internship until 10 and get home at 11 and be in#bed anywhere from midnight to two in the morning and then wake up the next day and do it all again. i graduated with a 3.9 gpa and made it#into my top college while dealing with my cancer symptoms and then the two surgeries about it#but now i lose half my day to just making sure i can get out of bed. i can’t go anywhere because my body is physically too exhausted#any extra time goes into doing homework or occasionally time to myself#not decimating my health by doing minimum body care responsibilities isn’t freeing. occasionally i have a good day which is freeing but tha#usually goes into just. other things outside class or work or eating. I don’t go do something for myself or go do something fun on good day#because I still can’t. good days just mean i don’t want to lie down on the pavement when i’m going somewhere#I just. I don’t magically have control over my life because i try to get enough sleep. i lose half my day to doing that and ultimately it’s#just a bodily function that would have to happen anyway#this is a vent post im just having a really hard time right now because it feels like im in exponential decline. it was nowhere near this#bad last semester. my grades are tanking and i have no free time because anything outside of sleep is either work or school#vent tw#yall can rb this just ignore my tags completely#disability#chronically ill#i keep trying to explain to people how pots works because that’s all logical but there’s no way to explain what it’s doing to my body or ho#i feel all the time. the last time i felt this bad was when i had a bad flu or immediately after surgeries because i don’t react well to#anesthesia and always come out of them feeling like shit. and now i just feel like this all the time and it’s only getting worse#I can’t even stay up late anymore because my body feels like it isn’t counting the sleep even if I get 8 hours#I can deal if I have a free day the day after but that just leaves Friday and Saturday nights and I usually still have to do homework
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#vent#vent post#cw negative#Seven’s Public Diary#wish i wasn’t so fucking worthless and useless and stupid and selfish and mean#i am just so goddamn sick of my own bullshit. but i never change#i’m so tired of being weighed down by my 56492 mental illnesses. i don’t like being like this#my sleep schedule is so fucked up again and im tired of this constant cycle#this constant fight and endless effort to stay on a goddamn routine#all i want for christmas is a goddamn consistent sleep schedule#i hate sleeping through the day and being up all night but it’s like my body was fucking built for that or something#i don’t like it!! i want to be an early bird who goes to bed at 8pm and wakes up before the sun rises!!! but im the exact opposite!!!!!!!#i wish i just didn’t need to sleep at all. that would be the ideal. so many problems would be solved.#no i Really wish i just had the ability to fall asleep and wake up whenever i actually Want To instead of my body calling the shots#fell asleep at 9 this morning and im so mad that i didn’t get up when i was woken up at 11#a 2hr nap would’ve been fine and i would’ve made it through the rest of the day and been able to fucking sleep again tonight#but noOOooOoOo i had to give in to the allure of my warm cozy bed and fall back asleep for 9 more goddamn hours#now once again im too awake and rested to be able to go back to sleep. but once morning rolls around im gonna be exhausted again#and i’ll either give in and attempt to take a ‘nap’ and it’ll turn into a 12hr sleep again#or i’ll have to like. walk laps around the fucking house just to keep myself awake through the day#and i’ll be super irritable as a result and make everyone around me miserable too#but everyone is already beyond fed up with my issues and behavior. rightly so i guess. so i lose either way#god there was so much stuff i was gonna/supposed to do today#i don’t know how much longer they’re gonna put up with me being such a deadbeat#you think that’d like. motivate me to get my shit together or something but no. i’m addicted to being unconscious i guess#sleep feels so fucking good. until i wake up. which is funny bc it’s all nightmares and stress dreams anyway. why do i even enjoy sleeping#i guess bc for the first few hours after waking up i experience some modicum of relief from my other mental illnesses’ symptoms#like a soft reset.#and it’s the Only thing that gets rid of my migraines so god forbid i get one of those bc then i Have to sleep regardless of the time of day#anyways! :) that’s enough whining for one vent post. time to go do something productive
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me when I got the throwing up and dread autism instead of the math and science autism
#vent tags below#i had a meltdown earlier and it was bad#i got up out of bed and started hitting the mattress#but it wasn’t me#it was like I wasn’t in control#I scared myself#I’m trying to work on this in therapy but I don’t have appointments that often#that was like three or four hours ago#it���s now 2:30 am#i can’t sleep#I feel like I’m going to throw up#my mind flashes back to me losing control#what if next time it’s not my mattress#what if I break something or hurt someone#this is so melys coded of me#maybe the real autism was the badger we found along the way#also I have a driving lesson tomorrow (finally decided to lock in and get my license at my big age)#I’m worried I’ll crash because I didn’t get enough sleep#but i can’t sleep#but I can’t reschedule the class#I’m going to throw up
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Saw a glimpse of your post and thought it said “lactose time! how nice”
i see you’re just as exhaustion-illiterate as i am
#the amount of times today i’ve misread stuff in the silliest way…#actually it is 1am. i should go to bed probably#it’s been a very long day#had class for an hour starting at 9#a midterm exam that was mostly freehand writing for another hour right afterwards#a long walk somewhere and more work to be done there#taking me about 2 hours#then a hop over to the next room where i stayed for another 2 hours#then a zoom call that took me about another hour#plus the usual typical Eepiness i have bc i rarely get enough sleep i’m so busy#all that with no breaks. i was dead#this wasn’t supposed to have turned into me going off about myself lol#yeah i didn’t name the towns in this game idk man#asks#deityofhearts#goldie plays pokémon black
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#a thing happened as I was finishing work#(no one was hurt/nothing dramatic dw)#and I have always said that my definition of adult is knowing when to be the responsible person in the room#and i think I’ll be processing tonight for a while#but something that just struck me like lightning was#i always drew this definition of adulthood from the fact that I had to be the responsible person in the room a lot when I was a kid#when I shouldn’t have had to have been#and the thing that happened tonight I think really reinforced this for me in a way I haven’t reckoned with properly before#because being the responsible person in the room#when it is in fact supposed to be you#feels WAY different from when you are forced to be the responsible person in the room because you’re a kid but there’s no adult who can#it’s been a long day and i just lost the thread of the next sentence#but I think what I’m trying to say is#amongst other things that I’m struggling to articulate#is that i guess im glad I was able to be the responsible person in the room for someone#when it was supposed to be#as harrowing as it was#there was a visceral difference between when i had to do that as a kid#and when i CAN do it as an adult#i might to delete this in the morning#maybe not#scrapbook etc#I don’t think I completely articulated what I’m trying to say either#but it’s enough for me to put the thought down and go to bed maybe#good night
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God damnit Janeway stalking out of the Delta Flyer quarters to glare down the Doctor because he woke her up with his opera singing just triggered my asthma
#fifteen minutes is *really* all I need#grabs a coffee instead of going back to bed like yep that’s our captain#then Kate goes on to give the most unhinged emh performance of all time#i barely had asthma like 5 years ago and now one unbalanced Janeway is enough to send me gasping for air#I like breathing but maybe I like Janeway more#if this keeps up I’ll have to bust out the nebulizar and there’s no coffee in that either#I’m normal about this show and these characters and Janeway specifically I swear#whispering to herself on the bridge#carry on commander#just gonna chuck Chakotay into the morgue real quick nbd#frozen chuckles his best role#renaissance man#we’re nearing the top of the hill again Sisyphus#ah boo they’re starting over at season 4
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Oh my god. You know it’s getting bad when you start doing things you don’t even want to do to procrastinate on something you really do want to do.
It would be one thing if it were something like a hobby; but the thing I want to do is also extremely necessary to my life.
#Hhhhhhngh#for three weeks I’ve been doing this#I’ve had all the time in the world#and I have a sneaking suspicion that I’m doing this out of a subconscious desire to prove to myself that I’m actually fucked up in the head#Which is already proof enough that I have that desire in the first place; but I keep going because it’s not enough#I only ever feel like I need care when I’m at my absolute worst#And suddenly after being so exhausted that I fell asleep at 7:00 some days; I’m staying up until 2:30 AM and waking up at 8:00???#and I feel fine and perfectly awake; but still can’t manage to get myself out of bed until 10:00 because Comfy#I sit and I read for an hour; then I go on my phone and emerge at 5:00 PM#If I go in the bathroom it takes forever to get back out because I end up talking to myself in the mirror about god knows what#I feel like I need some kind of… idk… very strong stimulant in me so I can actually care about things#not that stimulants work like that; but I need to have some kind of catastrophic life event… to get beaten up or something#something to put pure fear and concern in my veins#It is summer and there is almost no chance of me getting kicked or catching a football in the wrong place#and I don’t have to run right now either#I could do something#I know how#But even that is a damned if you do damned if you don’t situation; because that ALSO makes me not want to do things#At least then I’d have a palpable (literally) excuse but uh…. I’m still kind of getting over the last time#I am on my phone all day and I recognize that’s bad; but the thing I need to do is to send an email… which is on my phone; so there’s that#hypocritical#idk there’s something about using limited supplies to deal with a problem that needs more and hoping for the best#it excites me#Makes me feel like a big boy who can handle serious situations#But if I create the problem then it means nothing except that I cannot handle problems at all#I should not have all the responsibilities I do because I am not entirely in my right mind#I am thinking about it though#It’s tempting#get behind me satan
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attempting yet again to rejigger my yet again extremely fucked sleep cycle and. experiencing repercussions
#it truly is SO reliable that if i go to bed early enough my body thinks it’s a nap#i WILL wake up in the dark with my heart beating rapidfire feeling totally discombobulated and‚ like‚ emotionally hung over#having had some sort of disconcertingly vivid dream#anyway now i’m like. Up but in the way where i’m thinking abt how i’ve always felt like an invisible camera instead of a person#which are like. not ordinarily morning thoughts???#on the bright side i fell asleep in a lot of merino so at least when i woke up frazzled and gasping i wasn’t also sweaty???#magic wicking temperature-regulating fiber my beloved. some people use it for real things! i just use it to wick my anxiety away. 🤘#journaling#mundanities
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I'm not sure how weird of a question it would be to ask, or if it's one i should ask, but if you could choose to hallucinate one of them again without any kind of drawbacks just to talk with them, would you? And who would you talk to?
Not a weird question at all, and it's one I've actually asked myself a lot over the years! If I were able to hallucinate one of my old Brain Roommates™️ again, but without the intense anxiety that is required for me to hallucinate in the first place or the actual damage to my brain that hallucinations do, I'd be very, very interested in it. However, my answer for who I would speak to in this hypothetical scenario has changed throughout the years.
Originally, I wanted to talk to the Black Clock. He was the most consistently distressing hallucination, and was a sort of manifestation of my intense perfectionism and high standards for myself. I wanted to ask him if I was enough. It was a question that haunted me for years, and either answer scared me. If I was enough, then that meant I wasn't living up to my potential and that I was "sinful, irredeemable filth" according to the script I told myself back then. If I wasn't enough, then I didn't deserve anything good and I was an active blight on all that I loved, somehow. Nowadays I don't have anything to say to him. I'm enough for myself and I'm enough for God. The opinion of some misfiring synapses doesn't matter.
After that, I wanted to speak to the Red Woman. She expressed remorse after I found my first set of medications that partially stopped me from hallucinating, and she apologized for what she put me through and told me goodbye. I held her the night I took those medications while she cried and said she was scared to die. I never saw or heard from her again, at least as a hallucination. I wanted to tell her I forgave her and that I hoped she was okay, wherever she was. I don't have that same anxiety over the speculative mortality of the voices in my head anymore, so I wouldn't say I would want to talk to her again. There's not much point to it in my eyes. She hurt me and said she was sorry. That's a full sentence. I don't need to open it up for anything else.
Later on, I wanted to talk to the Lime Hands because, in a very bizarre exchange, he expressed to me he was depressed and didn't want to exist. I wanted to see if he was feeling any better, as strange as it was to ask that of a hallucination. Now, though, I hate that freak and make no apologies for what the dang thing put me through, and the only way I'd want to reunite with him is in some wonderland scenario where I could tangibly interact with him. And that's only because I'm punching that sucker's teeth in and breaking his pinky fingers.
As for the present day answer: If I were to choose any of my hallucinations to speak to without consequence, I think I'd like to speak to Doc Brown, or the Marigold Girl.
Doc Brown was the most cordial of the hallucinations and actually stepped in to advocate for me on occasion when the pain was really bad. I liked him a lot. He was a friend to me when I had very few people to talk to. We joked together and he gave me advice and words of comfort during some of the worst nights of my life. I think it'd be fun, in a very surreal way, to catch up with him— ask him how he's doing, how he's been, if he and the Marigold Girl are still buddies and if the Red Woman and him ever got over the hump of their flirtatious hatred for each other and actually became an item. It'd be a nice little send off to the guy. He was one of the first hallucinations I stopped experiencing, and his disappearance was very abrupt. I'd like to be able to say goodbye properly, thank him for his help, and smile and kindly say I hope I never see him again.
(also, the guy's whole shtick was anxiety over disease / contamination and the possibility of me infecting others with whatever bug I caught at the time. I stopped hallucinating him WAY before 2020 and I think he would lose his mind if I told him about COVID-19. That was his time to shine and he missed it. Poor thing.)
The Marigold Girl was a very difficult figure for me to handle when I was hallucinating. On the one hand, she was a lovely, if somewhat unsettling, little girl. She liked it when I read books and explained the plots to her. She always wanted to be held. She was scared of the dark. She adored my stuffed animals and would whisper to them while I was trying to sleep. I enjoyed being around her for the most part, but she was a very weepy hallucination, and the Black Clock would deal out punishment without fail whenever she cried— it was always my fault somehow, and so I suffered the consequences of her being a bit of a crybaby.
Looking back, I feel bad for her. She was a good kid, or at least as good of a kid as an unhealthy cocktail of neurochemicals in a weary brain can be. She once said she didn't want to cry all the time and wished she knew how to stop because I got in trouble because of it. I think it would be nice to comfort her and tell her it wasn't her fault that I'd be hurt. She couldn't control things anymore than I could back then.
I'd really like to show her the new stuffed animals I've collected over the years and read her one of the short stories I've written. I think she'd like Winter Came and Went if she didn't have to worry about the consequences of crying during the sad parts. She'd definitely enjoy Bibbidy Bee Goes to the Library. If possible, I'd like to ask what her favorite color is. I think she'd have a lot of fun answering, and I'd like being able to get to know this part of my psyche that was scared to let herself show any sadness for fear of hurting others with it.
#this was a very lovely ask#thank you for sending it in!#i really enjoyed reading it and writing out an answer for it#it was nice to reflect on the experiences I've had#ultimately if i were to be given this opportunity i would want to use it for closure#certain hallucinations already had a sort of “concluding” interaction with me#and those endings were satisfying enough for me to feel like i don't have anything left to say to or hear from them#but with those last two hallucinations i mentioned— they were there one day#and they were gone the next.#add onto that the fact that I'd actually LIKE to hear their voices again and i think it'd be a valuable experience if it ever happened#unlike the Black Clock and Lime Hands. stay gone ya dumb jerks.#thanks again for the ask!#alright I said I was going to bed before#now I’m REALLY going to bed.#promise.#(nobody cross-examine my Pokémon Sleep data.)#schizophrenia#schizophrenic#psychosis#sofie answers asks#sofie says stuff
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#i do not want to work tomorrow i want to lay in bed and be sad#i’m really realizing how miserable of a person i am i am always fucking Sad and when i do feel happy i cry when it’s over#and i can’t even resemble a human being without medication and i know that’s fine but i’m still always sad. it doesn’t go away#i feel like nobody deserves to have me weighing them down like i’ve cried in front of people three times this week and i know it’s fine#but i feel so fucking guilty about it and i feel guilty about everything i feel like i’m doing nothing right and i’m not dealing with thing#right and i’m not living right and i feel like it must be so fucking difficult to love me and i don’t know how people do it#i don’t even feel capable of asking for. any sort of love ever#i feel like i don’t deserve like anything. i feel like nobody actually wants to do things for me lol#every single dsy i’m like wow i want to be held and every single dsy i feel bad even asking for a hug from someone#when i need reassurance i’m afraid to ask because what if i’m just being annoying and overbearing and too much Bad#i never feel like too much good. only bad.#i know a lot of these shitty thoughts are just because i’ve been unmedicated (meds will be ready tomorrow lol) but it just like#it sucks to know medication just kinda hides these thoughts better and that deep down i feel like this because i don’t want to#i feel like everyone in my life doesn’t deserve someone who doubts everything all the time#i think my mother deserved a stronger daughter and i think my friends deserve someone that’s not always breaking and i just don’t feel Good#i don’t know why anyone keeps me around#sometimes i feel selfish for sticking around and that sounds so awful and i’m not gonna act on it but i just feel like a waste of a person#the last week has been so good and now i’m just a fucking mess and i feel so fucking guilty about that :)#i feel like no matter what i always just default to miserable#i don’t feel like i’m doing enough at all#i’m struggling in school i don’t work enough i can barely take care of myself#like i wouldn’t even properly take care of myself if taylor wasn’t helping me i feel so guilty about that all the time#i feel so guilty for even thinking any of this right now and i’m trying to remind myself that i’m unmedicated and i’ve had a long day#and my best fucking friend just went back home and i’m allowed to be sad about that but i just. feel like i’m making excuses i guess#it’s not immoral to be sad but maybe when i’m wanting to die all the time i’m the problem. idk#anyway i’m gonna go to sleep and i’m gonna try to convince myself tomorrow will be better#sndnsksjkakejdkalwosjhdkwosjdjsk. i will be fine
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#food and weight talk ig. just in case. but#i would love to know wtf happened to make me like this rn..#had a lot of food for dinner last night and now I’m laying here awake like. okay so I can’t eat anything today#like. i know why this is happening. it’s because I’ve been getting my weight taken a lot recently bc of all my dr appts#so it’s just. made me Super aware of it as a number which has always been bad for me#but it’s also. gender dysphoria. and just general feelings of self consciousness about my body that I’ve always had#but just feel so Heightened lately. like the last month or so it’s been so so so bad#and I’m just so stressed about other things that everything is just exacerbated so like. idk my brain has latched onto this#and it’s… really hard to shake. i keep restricting what I eat bc if I then eat too much I feel guilty about it#thoughts like this have been beating at my skull for the last like 2 years bc of dr appts and stuff. and I guess it’s just finally reached#a head that makes me wanna disappear into nothing#last night I think was the first day in 2 weeks or so I didn’t go to bed hungry bc I actually ate enough. and that makes me feel Bad#i say things
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always fun to remind myself of the side effects of my thyroid meds
#the first time i treated my thyroid my endo was like ‘i havent had a patient who had this happen for a while so im due for one’ THANKS MAN#personal#im just waiting for it to hurry up and work. my health has PLUMMETED in the last week or so#im so sick and i can’t DO ANYTHING. including SLEEP. even if i was getting enough good sleep i was be exhausted but i’m not so.#the energy’s doing Great#and i’m so hungry all the time but also nauseous so all food is unappealing#genuinely have no idea how i made it through years 7-10 undiagnosed. no wonder i ended up with such a severe phobia of going to bed????????#i don’t have to worry about routine right now so it’s not as stressful (just horrible because i’m so tired) but i COULDNT SLEEP back then#im just relieved that this time it was found through a routine check rather than me getting a test because of symptoms#usually i test when my anxiety gets really bad in a specific way#but my anxiety isn’t bad this time. no panic attacks and also no migraines. those are all usually the worst to deal with#so comparatively this isn’t even a particularly bad episode?/relapse?/flare?#still more sick than i’ve been in……..years?#im not sure if covid was better or worse. but it was only really bad for a week#this’ll be worse overall because it’ll last a lot longer#hopefully only a month or two but that’s still a few months of my life that just vanish. cool!!!!!!!!!!!#and there wasn’t even a notable event to trigger it this time. first time was whooping cough and subsequent times have been things like—#starting uni and then the last 2 years of uni where i took 10 units in one year then overworked myself doing my thesis#im SLIGHTLY worried that maybe i’ve developed rheumatoid arthritis and that set it off because it’s also autoimmune#i should see my gp soon to get a general antibody test. my joint have been so bad it’s been hard to walk for quite a few months#idk man it all sucks. but for now at least i have my white blood cells (even if they’re literally the problem lmao)
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the hinata kinning is strong tonight
#marzi speaks#once again. shoutout to izuru for calling me out on that enough times for me to realize it’s the truth#crazy thing is i keep finding out how correct it is in different ways#like i realized recently. i have no idea who i am or who i’m supposed to be#i think i know who i wanna be? but i might already be that person and not even know it#and the other night i was sitting there. and i thought ‘who the hell am i.’ and then i realized that’s such a fucking hajime ass thought#identity issues moment. teehee !!#i didn’t… think i had identity issues??? but shit i might !!!#it might be genderfluidity having a moment. it might be stress. it could be anything#anything could be responsible for the way i am. if i would be likely to do anything given the right circumstances#how can i know that any choice i make is truly my own#…i need to go to bed. it might be bedtime#do you see what i MEAN though??? goddamn. i should work on getting a therapy appt set up or smth#on a more lighthearted note the whole hajime kinnie thing is SO funny in hindsight#when i asked izuru why he thought i was a hajime kinnie he just went ‘oblivious and gay. among other things.’#and i said ‘what other things?????’ and he went ‘i’m not gonna bore myself with the details. if anyone would know it’d be me trust me’#and well. shit! a bitch was right and that still irritates me a little. how the fuck did that fucker know that much about me#it is a super funny interaction though. izuru kamukura came to my blog called me a faggot and left. slay
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