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ixoren · 5 months ago

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the blood orange string of fate

#oh lmao #s3 was ... but i continue to feel normal about this show #sydcarmy #sydney adamu #carmy berzatto #fanart #illustration #the bear fx #the bear #it's good to have an anguished mindset when drawing them U-U

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inkskinned · 3 months ago

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we were sitting on the floor and i was cutting out tiny pictures to make a collage for a friend's birthday. you were on your phone and you laughed about something, and i was still in love with you then, so i asked what had you giggling.

"sorry. i was just..." you took a moment and went back to texting. "i was telling someone about how you're afraid of the dark."

i'm afraid of the dark because something bad happened. "oh." i felt a little slinky of shame crawl down my throat.

you glanced up, and maybe it showed on my face, because you rolled your eyes and held the phone to the side casually so i could see the group chat. "what? was it a secret?"

i looked down to the scissors in my hand. "i just..." no, it's not a secret. it just felt like something private, something serious. saying why would you tell someone that just feels like an accusation. it's unfair. i honestly am not even ashamed of it, it's just a fact about my person that i don't usually share.

what a strange experience. is this a human thing or a generational thing? for our grandparents: did they need to worry about how quickly someone can just... share your personal information? again, i didn't even really have a true objection. what could i say? i want any person in my life to feel they can be honest with their friends. it's not like i said don't tell anyone this.

i cut out another letter to complete the rainbow happy birthday, started hunting for the exclamation mark. i heard you sigh dramatically.

"don't make a big deal about this," you said.

this entire conversation was a pattern for us, and this was when we got to my least favorite part of the pattern. i would get my feelings hurt in some oblique not-technically-terrible way, and then it would be making a big deal about something. you'd get frustrated for me for being soft, but i was born soft. you knew i was soft when you pierced me. it's one of the things that made controlling me so easy.

"i'm not," i felt my voice crack. the question came without my wanting. "why are you guys talking about me?" and why are you saying that thing? why not like - i'm telling them how you're generous and kind and pretty.

you let out this low, tragic groan. "oh my god." you tossed the phone away from your body. "there, see? i just won't talk to them if you don't like it."

the rest of the hour went the way it always went, between us: i said i don't actually mind if you talk to your friends but -, you found a way to call my minor expression of discomfort "being dramatic." you got upset that i had been offended. i ended up apologizing, even though i hadn't actually done anything.

afterwards, you picked up the phone again. after texting for a little bit, you snorted. "okay," you said, "but it is kind of funny you're afraid of the dark. i mean, when you think about it."

#spilled ink #writeblr #i'm trying to write about this really specific and wierd new experience #that i think is specific to the internet generation #where people you trust can just... say whatever??? and while most people are trustworthy #sometimes they'll just like... put ur shit out there????#and the thing is that sometimes it's GOOD - i want you to tell ppl if ur partner is being cruel!!!!!#i want u to be like ''hey is it normal if xyz happens'' ... but stuff like ''she's afraid of the dark''#PARTICULARLY when it's CLEARLY making fun of me....#what is the point of that.#this is huge and complicated and happens outside of romantic relationships too btw #like someone u thought of as a friend will be like . oh did u know she's scared of heights and it's like.#girl why are u fuckin doing that tho?#it's not a SECRET i just ...???????????????????????#and i think that gross feeling of like -- ''i can't REALLY be upset bc there's not a TRUE RULE about this....''#it's just not something talked about. bc it's so specific and yet so complex #bc how could i say like '' this is a violation of trust'' when it... technically I GUESS isn't????????????#idk maybe im just like super sensitive but please tell me in the comments/tags/etc if this is #something u have experienced (a trusted person like spreading ur shit) and if u were cool with it

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nctrlips · 4 months ago

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mark fixing his mask and then THE GRIN WHEN HE PULLS IT DOWN????

#oscar piastri #op81 #chat im on the floor and i cant get up im feeling all sorts of things #mainly cute agression but yes #OH MY GOD I WISH I WAS NORMAL ABOUT HIM

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starsonablackboard · 12 days ago

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are you sure?

#my art #cotl #cult of the lamb #with death comes peace au #cotl lamb #cotl narinder #cotl narilamb #i think a lot about codependecy when i think of wdcp #and i wandered what whould the ending be if lamb agreed to sacrifice themself #and narinder would not just sacrifice them and that's it #he won't lose his trusted most devoted follower oh no #so he kept them #their soul essence spirit whatever #always with him #always within him #a part of him now #his literal other half #binded to him forever #a sickly perfect ending for a painfully in love even more painfully devoted lamb to be one with their god #and a sickly perfect ending for a god forgotten for a thousand years to have the source of purest devotion and faith within himself #for a man who haven't had a single soul to talk to for a thousand years #who haven't had anyone look at him with adoration and understanding for even longer #to never ever let go of the person who made death feel alive again #im so normal #ada ramblings

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abessive-art · 6 months ago

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*Archives your Magnus*

#the magnus archives #tma #jonathan sims #martin blackwood #melanie king #basira hussain #daisy tonner #fanart #alice tma #tarantula #PLEASEEEEE PLease please please I love them so much this relisten is wrecking me #messing with my brain so bad i start thinking about tma and my heart n brain get scrambled #(i am very normal about media)#This podcast means sm to me :´) im so glad I came back to it <3 #I have nothing new to say about the podcast i.e. literary analysis but oh man i am enjoying the hell out of it #makes me feel happy #myart

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arsenicflame · 7 months ago

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Bonus round! Do you use a queue tag?

#ive been super curious about this because people seem to have really strong opinions on the queue! so many people seem to HATE it #but i love using the queue! i dont really know exactly why i like it so much- i started using in like... 2016 and its a fundamental part of #my tumblr experience now. i think i started off just using it for offline hours so id hit most my american mutuals (/ for aes posts)#but these days basically everything goes in my queue (cept time sensitive things & like. current hype and original posts-#anything 'normal' posting is in the queue)#idk it feels. nice to me! i like to spread out my posting and not rb 30 things in half an hour and then disappear for the rest of the day #esp since my spaces are so circular- the same post runs on my dash a dozen times minimum. and i get to put it on ur dash a week late!!!#and its so nice to have small interactions with mutuals in incompatible timezones; to open up my notifications in the morning #and go: oh! my friends were here <3 #its such a Part of the tumblr experience for me i dont think i could ever truly change now. maybe switch to timed queueing #but my availability changes so much i prefer to just. know i guess #but (i am so sorry for all that) im curious about how other people feel!!!!!! itd be so interesting to hear abt why people do/do not like i #i know some people like the experience of spamming and going. some people think it makes this seem to much like influencing or whatever #everyone has their reasons and i want to know!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#nyxtalks #poll #queue #no see answers option because you must fall into one of these

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archiepelago · 2 months ago

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alternate surface au inspired by a few ive seen around on tumblr :3

#my art #pressure roblox #roblox pressure #sebastian solace #painter pressure #thought more abt my headcanons for seb’s anatomy and like. lol that tail is not pure muscle hes got guts in there.#that + the fact that there’s spinal cord in there means itd be a bad idea to try and amputate it #the wagon/eventual wheelchair is mostly for outdoor use i imagine.#<- specificallt]y for outdoor surface textures/debris that’d be bad for him to slither on #also. chronic pain have i dont think suddenly shrinking his whole body did much good for that #i imagine he and painter have like. a pool. to help with that and other needs he has now.#but he wouldnt wanna use it for a long while #there was a sort of. disconnect between his idea of freedom from urbanshade vs the reality of it i think.#like. thinking things could. on some level. go back to normal #and not considering that some of his mutations would be irreversible #and having to confront/cope with/accomodate himself about that #seb wants to be normal again but we cant all get what we want can we!#sometimes healing involves working with or around irreversible change buddy!#btw if feligayzed sees this. hiii hii your au was one of the big things that kicked my brain off on this and i wanna make fanart sometime #oh yeah this is . also.#sebpainter #pressure pathways #pathways #wow i dont think ive written a wall of tags that big in a long time. can you tell im having normal feelings about them

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wyvernity · 9 months ago

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been thinking about the sinnohtrio lately......plus misc other stuff

also, casual ko-fi drop!! get something in this sketchy style starting at $10 woop woop

#finally decided to do a commission test run u_u #pokemon #trainer lyra #trainer kris #trainer dawn #trainer lucas #rival barry #rival silver #ayalumi #hisuian zorua #luxio #timeskip tag #rkgk #anyway it's sinnoh time !!!#still figuring out their designs and lore but this works for now #god's specialest little guys & their very normal bestfriend who they would kill/die for. up to interpretation who is killing/dying #dawn is the platinum protag who meets giratina and becomes champion #distortion world affected her way more than compared to cynthia and cyrus since she's still a developing kid. but hey cool ghost hair!#4-5 yrs later lucas gets blasted to hisui..lost his memory for the three years he's there and when arceus sends him back he's just like Man #the entire time barry is CHILLING PLAYING HAVING FUN #and forever worried abt his friends ): dawn & lucas are soo nonchalant about what happened to them it's a bit concerning to everyone else #design comments umm the only thing that matters is that they still have their og scarves 👍#and i guesss these are spring/summer outfits. winter dawn gets leggings and big coat ok. she already has too much yin energy #btw i use the cleanse tag as the direct opposition to the spell tag even tho that's probably not a real thing LOL)#oh yea barry wears the tower master ribbon 24/7. tower tycoon in training and won't shut up about it (i love him)#character dynamics i will talk abt that in another post if i feel like it... these days i just want to go replay pla aughh

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friszil · 11 months ago

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episode 2: making adjustments.

#oh hell i just can't be normal about her #EVERYTHING in her story is just so exciting #and. well. i feel you #in love with a potentially one-episode character #my art #the magnus protocol #magpod #the magnus protocol fanart #the magnus protocol spoiler #tmp spoilers #the magnus pod #tmagp #tmagp fanart #tmagp spoilers #flower language #!!!!!!!!#the magnus protocol daria #tmgp daria

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scruncheduppaper · 8 months ago

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hey guys ive been getting into signalis recently and uhhhhh im normal abt this game

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okay back to my hole now

#signalis #elster #ariane yeong #signalis ariane #signalis elster #arielster #signalis fanart #my art #tragic yuri #i. im normal about this game oh my godddd #elster is peak character design #might draw falke next if i have motivation #also the reason for the finger gun is because i didnt feel like drawing another gun again #woes of being a fan of shooting game media is that you have to draw guns :/#theyre pretty tho i like them

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redfishdeadfish · 2 months ago

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does anyone ever feel that they’re like. too neurodivergent to fit into normal society but not neurodivergent enough to relate to other neurodivergent people or is that just me

#neurodivergent #adhd #autism #this post is actually ab adhd #i just saw a post that was like “ive tried everything #and i went. oh wait #do i even rlly have adhd??#i have attention problems #i have trouble reading social cues #but i dont hyperfixtate so heavily anymore and i dont struggle academically besides remembering to study and do homework #but you wouldn’t think i have adhd -ppl assume im just slow or weird because i dont visibly struggle and im not hyperactive at all #i feel so normal yet so strange compared to everyone else #im formally diagnosed with adhd but i feel like im not adhd enough for my struggles to matter #i hate talking about this because it feels like such a pity party #ohhhh woe is meeee my neurodivergence is manageable so i feel left out ohhhh the agonyyy ohhh #just some thoughts

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itsallaboutbl · 9 months ago

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Remember... Tonight, If you make me jealous again, I will make you pay in double.

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emergingghost · 3 months ago

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boygenius members' albums as moths! because! <3

#i am!! normal!!#stranger in the alps was SO hard but got there in the end #had the perfect one for historian but it was actually a butterfly and i struggled so hard to find an accurate moth so its kinda meh oh well #+ feel insane about the totl one #boygenius #julien baker #phoebe bridgers #lucy dacus #moth

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archivebottles · 1 year ago

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finally free from not being able to draw the past two months omg..to celebrate here are some elsters from last week...i like her

#im gonna start putting ids in alt because they made alt text better here. if someone would like me to put them in the posts please lmk #signalis #elster #i like her a normal amount i think...#there is someone out there who is the funniest person ever whos like oh my god ash finally played signalis. yeah.#the biggest crime is that i had to wait TWO MONTHS AFTER FINISHING IT TO CONVINCE MY FRIENDS TO PLAY A GOD DAMN SURVIVAL HORROR GAME #I FEEL LIKE THE JOKER. worth it tho i will continue to do this #myart #blood #do NOT give the lineart guy ad fuycking robot character to redesign. ive been thinking about how her stupid ass body works for months.

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 1 year ago

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There is a platonic explanation for all this. Right?

[First] Prev <–-> Next

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan wangji #[accidental kiss] is a purposeful misspelling to reference an old meme. I will blast anyone who tries to correct me with the crunchiest png #The kiss looks like wwx is biting lwj's cheek....It *does* have the consistency of a soft marshmallow so he's not in the wrong.#Once again: wwx was never *ever* oblivious to the implications of the situation. On the contrary: this entire scene + the prior shows-#that he very much understands that this looks gay to the viewers.#He just doesn't think its possible to be loved like that. *Especially not by Lan Zhan.*#Do people forget that LWJ had 13 years to process his feelings VS WWX's (give or take) week?#This is the moment he realizes wwx has feelings and he HATES HIMSELF FOR IT. He feels like he's betraying lwj's trust!#The demi feeling of having spent so long in a comfortable platonic relationship and then getting struck by the 'oh shit' moment.#Its not a soft 'Oh' - Its a 'Oh god they are going to hate me and I can't bear that. I need to be so normal about this or else'.#Pour one out for all of us who've had to go through the trials of trying to conceal the painful realization of deeper affections.#Anyway. *both* lwj and wwx fall in love kicking and screaming and miserable and clawing at the walls about it.#Continuity acknowledgement: wwx's hands are unbound at this point but I had a hellish time with blocking and this was a bit easier.

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blue-mood-blue · 1 year ago

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I can pinpoint the moment that destroyed my life today:

It’s been a handful of weeks since Murderbot came within inches of having a new, organic governor module implanted in its head via infection - do you think, maybe, that’s also been hiding behind the redacted? Not the way everything else is, just as a deep-seated reminder of what it can’t afford to lose?

What a way to be told “I love you” - to be told “I will not lose you, I will not let go, I will do the hard part of holding on even if you don’t want me to”

#the murderbot diaries #murderbot #murderbot spoilers #perihelion #I am not normal about this and I will continue to be not normal about this #I have feelings about how important they are to each other #how their relationship doesn’t fit into neat boxes and is still undeniable #I don’t think art loves quite like humans love but it DOES love and will all of that power behind it #that love is an overwhelming thing I think #not romantic but INTENSE the way it just… IS intense by nature #and like… I got to the part where mb was thinking about just walking away in the other direction like #’oh this is BAD bad’#and this moment just…….#something about ‘you can’t go because I won’t let you’#’I will make the hard choice for you even if you don’t like what I choose’#not even in a possessive way just. just that mb is not ALLOWED to not exist #and I’ve got a lot of goddamn feelings about it #mb is a little bit in pieces and art is gonna forcibly hold those pieces together until it starts to heal #(but also. goddamn don’t even get me started on art having to hear that because. HHHHHH)

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