#notion my beloved

[muchadoaboutlearning]

revamping my notion and feeling like I AM GOD

I am finally in my final year of my undergraduate honours literature and arts joint major degree with a history minor. It's been quite a wild ride and today is the last day of my summer break and sadly, i was away the whole last trimester from the studyblr.

so this trimester with my capstone thesis underway I have decided to build a consistent routine, which is super super difficult for someone like me who shitposts about having a nonexistent sleep schedule on her main.

but I am here with my revamped notion that screams me and I just hope I live a healthy lifestyle the upcoming three months with a healthy emotional and mental headspace.

THERE'S STUDIO GHIBLI AND BTS REFERENCES IN IT!! the dashboard actually has those eating gifs, I made it like a cafe inspired from a YouTube vlogger called christine and look at my pretty uni page setup too, ugh pastels my love

i worked super hard on these pages, thematically. AND I AM SO PROUD. I am taking really cool courses in my next trimester:

1. literary canon (do you the ao3 tag as a header I love my brain aah)

2. long form journalism (really excited for this one because I wanna write freelance stuff on some stuff as a personal side project)

3. concepts in aesthetics ii (art history babyyy, and with less modules on dead white people this time hopefully)

4. maritime history (please tell me the stories of the ocean cause I am in love with the siren of history, ugh ew)

5. modern indian history (by fave prof, good class numbers like less people yayy more attention)

okkiee bii for now

[botanautical]

'We all yearn for the woods. That's why every fellow on this island wants to settle down near a tree - just one will do.'

[nachosncheezies]

In defense of late-canon x files (including the revivals)

I was thinking about this poll after I commented on it, and I kinda want to be brave and say more.

Short answer to the poll's question before I go any further: If you're a new fan and a sensitive sort who thinks you'll struggle with your blorbos Really Going Through It and you really need a happy ending, I suggest you stop at the end of season 8. Do not pass go, do not look at spoilers. Disregard this post entirely, close the internet, and go look at something that makes you happy. (Also fuck every part of society that characterizes sensitivity as inherently weak and bad and some kind of personal failing, you are valid.)

That said, "quality" as a concept is entirely subjective, and the question of whether or not there's a decline in quality for any story is wholly subjective, too. In the case of x files? I'm not convinced there is a decline. I am going to be upfront that I haven't yet watched past season 8, though I am almost completely spoiled on events after that - and the reason I haven't watched yet is not because of how I know events are going to unfold, but simply because I don't want it to end!!! Ohh, the tension between "I CAN'T WAIT!!!" and "Nooo don't be over D:"

When I first came to txf fandom on tumblr and gradually became spoiled about what happens in late canon though, I was often left uncomfortable and tbh kinda queasy about it. As I said in my comment on the poll, the hate for especially the revival and IWTB, or to a lesser extent even seasons 8 & 9, is very well documented. But! There are other takes to be found here on tumblr if you figure out where to look, and my feelings have changed!

The thing is, I have yet to find myself in any fandom where there isn't a vocal subset of fans who dislike the story after a certain point. I am not joking when I say that no one hates the things they love as passionately as sci-fi and fantasy fans. In my experience, it often hinges on the extent to which a viewer has strong notions on where they would like the characters to end up. In particular with series where shipping is a dominant component for the bulk of a fandom, I have almost universally found that there comes some turning point in the story where "let them be happy you cowards" is the dominant view, and things that compromise the attainment of a degree of romantic stability and/or domesticity are, to many fans, annoying at best and despicable at worst. But! As one tagset on the linked poll said:

and I think for any fandom, that last tag especially is so so so important. (I think that's harder for people watching a weekly series live, bc you have so much time to analyze and speculate and dream before the next breadcrumb drops, but I digress.)

So why am I saying this and how do I apply it to x files? Well, I eventually found that there are also a subset of fans who find redeeming things right up to the very end and actually quite like the whole thing! The things that I had seen people rage and ventpost so much about honestly never quite sounded to me as "out of character" or "untrue to the story" etc as those same ventposts made them sound. And I've discovered I'm not the only one who felt that way. Do I love that the spooky squad had to go through all of those things? No, those poor guys D: Life is hard and they have been through so much trauma. But do those events and their choices make sense to me in light of everything that came before? Yes! And I honestly can't wait to see them fight to overcome those things, breaking, healing, always learning, always growing, always getting better.

So if you're wondering "where does it go wrong"... well, I'm a completionist, as many people who've answered that post are, but also my personal opinion is that I don't think it does go wrong. If you're new and interested in exploring why I've gone from "vaguely queasy" to "excited" about the whole thing, or want to maybe balance out the impressions you're getting about the later seasons before deciding whether or not you want to see the whole thing, I'll put a few blog names in the comments.

Final admission: even once I started feeling a little more confident in the possibility that "actually ok maybe I'm not crazy, maybe this all kind of is in character and does make sense", there was one big plot point that I was NOT looking forward to and I thought I would never be comfortable about. In hindsight, I think my discomfort came from the negative responses being SO seemingly universal that I hadn't stopped to let myself truly consider other possible interpretations on that point. (I mean my initial instinct when I first read about it was, why are we mad about this?? CSM is literally the most unreliable narrator in history???? it's obviously fake news?????? this must be either a fever dream someone's having or it's a misdirection ploy against whatever shadowy forces might still be lurking?????????????? but for whatever reason I guess I had halfway written that off.) Happily, just last month there's a new post-s11 novel out, and although reviews for the book as a whole are mixed, it seems to have laid the groundwork for resolving that plot issue in a way I think most fans would be broadly happy with. If you're interested in being spoiled about that and seeing how, I recommend searching #perihelion on @agent-troi who liveblogged reading it with receipts, scroll back chronological-style to the first post on the subject and see how it unfolded. (And never forget that Dana Katherine Scully is the queen of denial as a coping mechanism lol)

Everyone's mileage will vary. Each person can feel however they want! But for anyone new, I wanted you to know that the very many ventposts you might be seeing are not all there is to this show or its fandom. Some of us love it despite - or even because of - all the things that went "wrong". I think we just don't talk about it as much.

[rehide]

just barely started my reread but. i think one of simultaneously both the most interesting and devastating aspects of rize, whose entire character is about her stolen autonomy, is that we never really get to know her outside of other characters perceptions of her. we know her through kaneki's brief meeting with her and his once hallucinated version of her, through furuta's idealized memories of her in the garden and the twisted perception he has of her now, through tsukiyamas run-ins with her, briefly through shachi's ideas he got of her as she was growing up, but we still rarely get to hear from her. and despite this, she's still overwhelmingly present in the narrative, though more as a concept than anything. we do briefly get that scene in re where she talks to kaneki about the garden, but it still cycles back around to what he has to accomplish going forward. a lot of the information we know about her comes from the people fighting so hard to control her and take the autonomy her entire arc is about in the first place. just something i've been thinking about. how we know rize is so overwhelmingly present in the narrative but the people who she's tried to escape from her entire life are primarily who we've learnt about her from.

[lamentofspring]

my precious mimi, my sweet sacrificial lamb ♡ / ophelia, friedrich heyser / tell me when it hurts, flower face / call me by your name (2017) / paper doll, flower face / the carnivorous lamb, agustín gómez-arcos / there sleeps titania, john simmons / viviane, renée vivien / mythological beauty, big thief / greek anthology; epigrams, antipater of sidon / in a week, hozier & karen cowly / my love mine all mine, mitski / venus verticordia, rossetti / nathan, flower face / cornflower blue, flower face / @tendermimi ♡

[michyeosseo]

This pain will help you remember.

Zeng Li as SHEN MUYUE

THE LEGEND OF SHEN LI (2024)

[vogelmeister]

when maisie peters said "hear my lyrics/taste my venom/you are still my great obsession" and olivia rodrigo said "you'll see my face in every place but you can't catch me now" and taylor swift said "when you realised im harder to forget than i was to leave/and i bet you think about me" and when froukje said "ik hoop dat je kijkt, ik hoop dat het je spijt/ook nu ik niet meer over je schrijf" and when and when and when -

[draagu]

ascension

[ellebells]

I will never fucking get bored of writing these two LMFAO

[chuuyanakaahara]

fic idea i had a couple nights ago based on "take it out on me" by thousand foot krutch.

"Kyouka, I need you to go."

"I've seen injuries, it can't be that bad," Kouyka says calmly, peering over Atsushi's shoulder. Her actions betray her, though; her calm composure tightens and tenses at the sight of the bloodied mafioso currently bleeding out on Atsushi's floor. Or, well, their shared floor. Her grip tightens on her plush bunny and part of her will always be afraid of hellhounds.

"Kyouka." Maybe it's the stern tone. Maybe it's the easy out. Maybe it's a hundred other things - but Kyouka takes the offer, and her knuckles are white as she holds the bunny. "I'll be with Kunikida-san. Please... please check in with me."

"I'll do my best," Atsushi smiles, strained, and forgets to even wave her good-bye as he slams the door closed, intent on getting her vision away from the red that is currently spilling all over the floor and the snappy, irritable Rashoumon making it difficult for Atsushi to get close, the last line of defense before its master falls unconscious. Of course this had to happen tonight. Of course, because Atsushi hasn't been busy enough.

He supposes he'll patch the hellhound back together. There is already blood on Atsushi's hands; he need not add to it with senseless refusal of help. He's sure Yosano doesn't like half of her patients either - and he'd call her, except he thinks that Akutagawa and Yosano would tear each other to shreds. Yosano would win, and Atsushi would not have any accomplishments to his name anymore.

[rabbits-of-negative-euphoria]

beginning to think I like fictional relationships to start off wildly contentious because then the characters know each other’s flaws right off the bat and don’t have to undergo the painful process of learning your beloved (platonic or otherwise) is sometimes quite unpleasant, and that the process goes both ways.

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nah. it’s the catharsis of a temporary fight.

[luvxiem]

also. winter theme? yes? no?

[ourlovelines]

meet my ocs - 8/? — quinn kwan (cityscape) ah yes, my train of thought, or as i like to call it: The Anxiety Express™.

[nerice]

the only worthwhile content is stories about fucking nasty and killing everyone you love including yourself, actually

[sharkdays]

i love pokemon

[averagelonelypotato]

Notion >>>>