#nothing special just rambling

[manchasama]

I don't like getting up as a rule, but I no longer can have those nice lazy morning lie-ins (chronic pain alas). Doesn't stop me from dragging my feet in terms of getting up if i don't have anything scheduled of course. So getting up before 9 or 10 on a Saturday is not my favorite activity.

But once I'm up, I always lament not getting up earlier. Lying in bed reading or scrolling tumblr is fine and all, but right now the days are really nice, and you could have done something, right? Idk, it's partially I know every moment doesn't have to be meaningful, but I keep feeling like it's probably depression rather than relaxation, and maybe if I'd gotten up it would have been a better day.

Anywho, I got up early for a saturday (about when i normally do weekdays) to go grocery shopping, bc I haven't been since, oh, February. It's amazing how far you can stretch things lol. Mostly just ran out of anything but a few frozen veggies and my go-to easy meals were un-makeable at this point. I'm still proud of myself for going ofc, but im still slebby. Should go garden maybe. Take a nap, idk lol. Just trying to have a good day.

[wardingshout]

Viridian besties my beloved

[laylakeating]

And isn’t it just so pretty to think all along there was some invisible string tying you to me?

[seaweedstarshine]

Late to the game as I’ve kinda been kinda non-here for a minute but I scrolled through the Dot and Bubble tag, and thought I wanted to write this post into existence.

There's this part in Doctor Who Unleashed where RTD says this:

“What we can’t tell is how many people will have worked that out before the ending. Because they’ve seen white person after white person after white person, and television these days is very diverse. I wonder, will you be ten minutes into it, will you be fifteen, will you be twenty, before you start to think, everyone in this community is white. And if you don’t think that — why didn’t you? So, that’s gonna be interesting. I hope it’s one of those pieces of television you see, and always remember.”

And I'm like. Yeah. But the reason this works even as well as it does is largely thanks to the work of the previous showrunner with the previous creative team, which was notably the first era to have any writers of color (amongst other firsts in terms of inclusivity in directors, composer, actors). While Chibnall fumbled whenever he tried to write about race himself, he did have the self-awareness to have Black and South Asian writers writing the episodes where race is the focus (and a female writer for the episode where sexism is a focus; my point is, he seemed to know his shortcomings).

I wonder what the current creative team looks like? (not really, but I wasn't 100% sure for all of them)

To quote RTD:

“...before you start to think, everyone in this community is white.”

This is pretty non-self-aware, right? It's pretty “It is said, and I understand this, there was a history of racism with the original Toymaker, the Celestial Toymaker, who had ‘celestial,’ and I did not know this, but ‘celestial’ can mean of Chinese origin, but in a derogatory way,” right? (from The Giggle Unleashed) It's pretty “and I had problems with that, and a lot of us on the production team had problems with that: associating disability with evil,” right? (from Destination Skaro Unleashed)

—none of which are issues that should be overlooked, but think how much exponentially better they might’ve been addressed if he’d consulted with Chinese writers and wheelchair-using writers before going straight to giving the Toymaker weird fake accents and making Davros walk?

How many Black or non-white people do we think saw the Dot and Bubble script before it landed in Ncuti’s hands?

And this just keeps happening.

And like, from some of the shocked responses I've seen from white viewers to the ending of Dot and Bubble, maybe the episode's unsubtlety was needed? From the way RTD talks about it in Unleashed, the episode was written with a white audience in mind, Baby's First Microaggressions (where of course the microaggressions come from people who are pretty self-admittedly white supremacists). Ricky September, a more seemingly normal depiction of someone in the racist bubble of Finetime, seemed like an interesting element, up until the way he died.

The ending worked for me, because I do think the Doctor's reaction is true to how the Doctor would react. I just keep thinking of how much better the core themes could've been handled by someone with actual lived experience on the subject matter.

[crizztelcb]

Ah yes the London special that had literally nothing to do with London other than adrien and kagami where there kept as little rats in a lab...

[dollopheadedmerlin]

Yall . . .

My roommate is super cool and all, but she REALLY wants me to be autistic, like so much so that she has just started referring to my autism (which doesn't exist) and it is really annoying

Like, I'm not offended when people ask me if I have autism because it's not a bad thing and whatnot, but what is griping me is that she just decided that she is gonna insist that I do?? And she isn't even the only person to have done this to me before.

Like I score pretty dang low on the raads test, and my friends who have either autism, adhd, or both (my partner included) agree that I just have very obvious unmedicated adhd, because I don't relate to stuff that is more solely the autistic experience.

And like?? I've even questioned it before. Like huh maybe I DO have autism, but each time I have, myself or others pretty easily rule it out.

And it's really agitating me because recently there does appear to be this trend where autistic people are trying to convince EVERYONE that they're autistic, especially people with adhd

And the nail in the coffin is that I do have a special interest. And for whatever reason, part of this surge of people who are trying to accuse people with adhd that they're really just experiencing internalized ablism when they say they're not autistic, is that they claim that special interests are ONLY things that people with autism can have???

And like, I don't know where this came from??? Because you can develop special interests due to trauma, and it is a potential symptom of adhd and whatnot. Like a simple google search can tell you that special interests are not and autistic exclusive thing! It's just a common autistic trait, versus an uncommon adhd trait.

And the bottom line is that I am kinda irked by autistic people acting like adhd isn't as neurodovergent as autism. As though it doesn't affect me or my relationships and that the only reason I would insist I'm not autistic is that I don't want to be autistic. I don't care!! I would not care if I was autistic!! I do care when random laymen try to diagnose me for no reason!!! Or look at me like I'm lying when I say I don't have autism!! Or pretend that adhd is just excited neurotypical!! Stoppppp

[sideblogdotjpeg]

i am not immune to launchpad sol and albin thoughts

[three-bunnies-in-a-trenchcoat]

Fucking tragic I can't draw

[localgardenweed]

Finland, Spain and Portugal have dropped via discord request. If you guys have any suggestions here send em to my inbox! Or you just wanna hear about some headcanons I have for them you can ask that too

[aashiqui-aashiqui]

im here to talk about my situationship (maybe? idk lmao) again. do guys drop lore about their own previous experiences to a girl that they have known for like a week. idk maybe its because he lives on residence and im a commuter but we have been texting a lot these past few days

[theultimatekamehamehavoc]

Bathrooms/Restrooms in THH (specifically THH)

The fact that no one ever needed to use the restroom ONCE during the trials is insane when you think about it. Those trials are for several hours, no sitting area, no break, just standing there to figure out who done it. So, the fact that none of these idiots accidently drank too much water at any point before the trial is a damn miracle. Hell, I think these punks weren't drinking as much water as they should honestly!! I bet they're all dehydrated and honestly haven't been taking good care of their bodies. For one, it's a killing game. Lotta stress, lotta murder, prime setting to have physical health to not be the biggest priority aside from ensuring one's heart was still beating. So, at the very least, the bare minimum was at least somewhat met to some extent for the cast. At the same time though, even the bare minimum can have it's holes. Which leads me to this whole ramble to begin with! Moreover, still on topic but a bit different, the more I think about it, I wonder if, after Chapter 1, Makoto would be using the restrooms outside of his dorm. Or, at the very least, for the majority of the killing game. Of course he's still attempting to use the shower's and all in the dorm room (gotta get clean somehow) but also, there IS a bath house that gets opened up. So, the more I think about it, kinda a missed opportunity in a way? Though that might just be me. Though, that restroom, that dorm restroom, that must have haunted his mind at least for a good while anyway! Not that Makoto isn't allowed to concur that. Of course he can! I do think it'd be an interesting angle though of Makoto's mini journey of going from the full on dismay of going back into that restroom to slowly taking it all head on. Who knows. Maybe him taking a shower before he and the rest confront the mastermind has it's own power to it. However, for both of these ideas of mine, I feel the realistic topic of these people in this killing game and their bodily needs isn't really something that's ever really brought up (which makes sense. not like there needed to be a pissing mechanic in the dang murder game). But, damn it! I just like thinking of the logistics of this stuff. At the end of the day, the cast still have those teen mentalities. They're all still people and vulnerable and prone to getting diarrhea like the rest of us! I refuse to believe that all of them were 100% treating their bodies right and eating enough fiber and in the right headspace to even be taking care of themselves right in the first place! Hell! Not all of them can even cook (talking to YOU specifically, Byakuya!!) Whether some were coping by using all their energy to work on finding the mastermind (cough cough Kyoko) or just getting by with the basics or even stress eating to gain some sort of comfort during the grueling times of the killing game, it had to have been effecting them all in some sort of a deeper level. Perhaps more than just a feeling of dread but one of the many side effects of despair.

[bizlybebo]

you ever stop n just think like. wow

[hiemaldesirae]

What if...the persons who killed Vox is someone Alastor trusted, but Vox didn't? But Al swore they were safe to be around and wouldn't harm a fly? Delicious, delicious betrayal.

Vox: *badly beaten, barely conscious.* "W-why?"

Neil (idk it's a name): "You're taking Al from me, and I can't have that. Besides this way, darling, you'll always be famous." *bashes her head in with a TV.*

WHAT . what what what whF

fhe scream i just let out to see this in my inbox nonny KEEP COOKING. oh mygod. while i generally think al is a good judge of personality this is actually such a good twist on thigns. im flabbergasted oh wow

i imagine once al finds out (bc there is no way she doesn't) she'd probably commit like the crime of the century. im talking ripper style violence. thered be so much self loathing and regret in hindsight for not trusting vox, for insisting shed be safe around them and for dismissing her concerns for no reason i feel like after all the life in voxs murderer has gone out al would probably kill herself as well, as a final attempt at repenting for what she let happen to her beloved muse

also.. angst in the afterlife esp if vox hadnt landed in hell to begin with.... als just all alone on her own there without her wife and out of rage and self hatred she ends up slaughtering anyone who approaches her those first few days in hell, until eventually she becomes one of the youngest and strongest overlords at the time.

(ofc, when vox finds her way down to hell to reunite with al, she'll spend the rest of their afterlives making it up to her even if she doesnt really need to. after all, vox never held any ill feelings toward al, only to the douche who killed her to try and stake a claim on her wife)

and as a final bit. i cant believe lemon demon neil cicierega killed my wife :/

[uhbasicallyjustmilex]

fire and the thud came on my spotify shuffle while me and my sister were listening to music this afternoon, and at the end of it she turns to me and goes “who was that? the lyrics sound like the kind of thing you’d write” and honestly i think it’s one of my favourite unintentional compliments i’ve ever received

[irritablepoe]

fucking hate them, fucking putting them in a jar and shaking, fucking tearing their limbs off one by one. how are they allowed to do that hm????

[doodlboy]

Insane abt these outfits tbh