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manchasama · 7 months ago

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I don't like getting up as a rule, but I no longer can have those nice lazy morning lie-ins (chronic pain alas). Doesn't stop me from dragging my feet in terms of getting up if i don't have anything scheduled of course. So getting up before 9 or 10 on a Saturday is not my favorite activity.

But once I'm up, I always lament not getting up earlier. Lying in bed reading or scrolling tumblr is fine and all, but right now the days are really nice, and you could have done something, right? Idk, it's partially I know every moment doesn't have to be meaningful, but I keep feeling like it's probably depression rather than relaxation, and maybe if I'd gotten up it would have been a better day.

Anywho, I got up early for a saturday (about when i normally do weekdays) to go grocery shopping, bc I haven't been since, oh, February. It's amazing how far you can stretch things lol. Mostly just ran out of anything but a few frozen veggies and my go-to easy meals were un-makeable at this point. I'm still proud of myself for going ofc, but im still slebby. Should go garden maybe. Take a nap, idk lol. Just trying to have a good day.

#personal opinions ahead #nothing special just rambling #i think on of my biggest challenges right now is my own brain #there are very few things it can focus on #and i can't do other things without the brain latched on to something #audiobooks: cant focus #youtube: only a few things can make me focus and i'm all out #music: need new music cant focus on what i have #vidoes: cant do other things like garden and also cant focus on anything but the vid at that point #help my brain is against me doing thinggggsss #i want to do things let me do things #distractable works but i am once again all out #something new but something familiar

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