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I swear to fucking god if I don't get out of this house soon I'm gonna end up killing myself I'm not kidding
#suicide mention#tw suicide mention#every time i get back home i immediately get anxious and my symptoms get worse#my parents are terrible people#they're never happy with what i do#and both have hit me several times#not counting the constant emotional and psychological abuse#i really really can't stand it here for much longer#I'm staying alive mostly because I'm scared of what comes after#otherwise I wouldn't have gotten past my 20th birthday
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-Okay but some of the fears that Color has are in fact the same fears that Nightmare has when it comes to Killer.
Like, Color is worried that Killer's so blindly loyal to Nightmare for whatever reason that he wouldn't even think of complaining if he hated it. And at the start that was something Nightmare probably expected. His henchmen should be loyal and obedient and not ask questions nor complain. But now, after years of learning and bonding and softening up significantly he wonders sometimes if that's still the case.
Nightmare knows Killer well, perhaps better than most, but he's not exactly an open book. Especially when it comes to his own wants or needs. More often than not when he makes a request it's intentionally silly or unreasonable for laughs, like asking if they can take Dust to the nearest pet store and try to trade him in. Very rarely does he want something strong enough to make it known, both to himself and others, like asking to keep the first cat he found.
So.
If he hated this. If he truly struggled and fought and agonised with himself about the position he's in and the work he's doing and the life he leads.
Would he say it? Would he realise that was how he felt? Would he even consider saying no was an option?
If Nightmare asked him to do something he really genuinely did not want to, would he just do it anyway because he doesn't believe he has a choice in the matter?
The only way of finding out (besides making a blatantly difficult request of him, which Nightmare is not willing to do) is to simply wait and trust that Killer will tell him if something is wrong. Which... is not exactly foolproof or easy.
But it's part of why Nightmare hates to be around Color too much, because deep down he's more than a little worried that Color could be right and he doesn't know how to fix it.
#UTDR#UTMV#Dadmare#This was a thought I had and drafted like months and months ago and forgot about#Little ideas about how to fit Color into a dadmare scenario I guess#Cool people who make Color posts don't look I'm probably doing a terrible job with your boy lol#He's not worried about the others in regards to this because Dust has never had a problem disobeying him#And Horror and Cross set out ground rules for themselves right from the start about what they would not do (murder)#He's never sure about Killer though. how do you begin to tell someone they don't have to listen to you if they don't want to#How do you tell if it worked?#Realistically Killer has and does disobey Nightmare he just hides it well#''I got caught out and ganged up on during that fight'' when really he peeled off to go talk to Color out of sight#''they must have heard we were coming. there was nothing we could do'' when one of them got distracted and they fucked up a job#''we've always had that cat. they're just shy so you don't see them very much'' when he brought home another stray in his jacket#<-That one happens a lot and Nightmare is beginning to suspect on it#But he never sees more than like 4 or 5 of them at a time so he can't prove anything#Whether it's sheer luck or Killer has trained his cats to do a Parent Trap bit on him nobody knows for sure#Anyway this has cooked for long enough time to release it into the wild#Go my post
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they had to time skip in episode six because then we would've seen rebecca and jeff kaplan be better parents than wanda ever was or pretended to be
#for those three years you just know they were the most loving parents a kid who doesn't know himself could have#like he didn't remember anything so for all he knew he was william even if that didn't feel right#and we were shown clear as crystal that rebecca and jeff love their son more than anything#like it broke my heart watching them love each other and them freaking out during the car wreck#???#whereas with wanda it felt more like an excuse to wreck more havoc and also i just think she's a terrible person#she ignored her kids and only used them to fight and as an excuse to kill people. i do not believe they were made with love#they were made because wanda was living a sitcom life and kids are a part of that#anyway we stan rebecca and jeff kaplan#agatha all along#anti wanda maximoff#william kaplan#billy kaplan
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Ok you know what makes me angry? Why is Allura so mature and humble? She's a daddy's girl only child princess who was set to inherit a flourishing kingdom. Sure, she's well educated and probably elegant and graceful and tactful because that's how she was raised to act for diplomatic reasons but she was also probably spoiled throughout her adolescence. She probably got whatever she wanted whenever she wanted because her family had the resources to give it to her. Who's to say she isn't a spoiled brat who can otherwise act kind and approachable? Even if she isn't a brat, she was still handed her life on a silver platter. She has to learn how to operate and be self sufficient.
When she gets out of that pod, she should be scared. She should be angry. And she deserves to be so. Her father that she relied on for just about everything shoved her into a sleeping pod and suddenly she's awoken by someone who isn't him. Logically, that means he lost. She should be kicking and screaming. She should be having the worst panic attack ever. She should be mourning everyone and everything she's ever known. She should be mourning the status quo that will never again be maintained. She should be mourning the future that can never come to fruition.
She has to figure out life without any system or technology that she's ever relied on. Coran doesn't know how to fix and maintain everything. She's like one of those people that wake up from 10+ year comas and don't understand modern technology. She is my dad who has had the same flip phone since forever and now must figure out how to use a phone with a touch screen.
Every luxury she had as a princess is gone. The castle chef who knew exactly how she liked her food. Her mother's ladies in waiting who told her the castle gossip. Her own ladies in waiting who'd sneak out to festivals and other trivial things with her. The cleaners that arranged her room exactly as she liked it. HER MOM. I don't care if she was a daddy's girl, she still has got to miss her mom.
I feel like she should've had more outbursts. Seeing Keith in the red paladin armor should've made her cry. In fact, all of them should have. The new paladins in their armor is a symbol of a new era- an era without the people she loves. She deserves to scream at the top of her lungs and lock herself in her room and trash something. She should be yelling that life isn't fair. She should be angry. She should be so angry.
I don't care if she's trying to hold it together for the paladins in the show. She's holding together too well. She needs more moments of instability. She needs to grieve. She needs to be tired. She needs to be imperfect.
#I feel like if she had more clear flaws people wouldn't criticize her for her moments where she falters#I mean#there will always be people who criticize the teenage girl for acting like a teenage girl#but if she was more clearly affected by the terrible things around her I think people would understand her more#I made this post because I was randomly reminded of how my mom thought that Allura was supposed to end up with Shiro because they were both#like the parents of the castle and got angry because she shouldn't have been a parental figure at all#maybe an older sister to Pidge but she is nowhere near a parent#I'm sorry if this is incoherent#I'm tired#of this shit and also like sleepy tired#I've probably already posted a rant like this before but i don't care#Even if I say it a thousand times I will mean it every time#vld#voltron legendary disappointment#voltron#allura voltron#princess allura#allura#princess Allura vld#allura vld#vld allura
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I think the Knight of Dawn being "a coward who is unable to stand up for what is right and does as he's ordered to" and "someone who cares deeply about his family and did everything he could so that Silver could live a happy and normal life in the future" are two statements that can coexist.
#And Lilia knows this too which is huge#I love the complexities brought up in this chapter#I love how it really weighs in on Lilia's desire for world peace because war turns normally compassionate people do to terrible things#and no one wins when babies are orphaned#I love how far an act of kindness can go too#The Knight warned Lilia about Henrick's plan to kidnap the egg and gave Lilia an opening to escape#and 400 years later Lilia rescued Silver from his blessing turned curse and raised him and loved him the way his parents would've wanted#I love this fairytale#and the Knight is in the wrong but its kind of sad to see him being reduced down to his worst action#He's a tragedy but there's more to a person than just who they are at their worst#I'm gonna lose my mind when part 5 comes over here im sorry for what I become#twst#twst chapter 7#twst spoilers#twisted wonderland#twst silver#twst knight of dawn
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juvie buddies
#alek art#td duncan#td mal#total drama#total drama all stars#(if i want to get technical)#2024#duncan is around 15 here... mal is around 16#ive thought really hard about them these past few days . in my brain they actually knew each other and canon is different#duncan and mike got along really well. in juvie mal refused to speak to anyone about anything and would fight as many people as he could .#he wanted to stay in there and far away from home . they get roomed together and duncan is the first person who mal can talk to . he isnt#scared of him . he relates to him a lot . like -> wow we both act out for attention and people think we are terrible because of it#duncan being a mentally ill teenager seeing mal an also very mentally ill teenager thought 'i can fix him' . mike and duncan speak too here#i cant really see anyone else fronting besides those two . their brain was on lockdown and mike wanted out so bad . i see manitoba as a#gatekeeper so hed handle some sessions with their psych. i want to say they (duncan and mike) get moved to a psyche ward just because#i have more knowledge on being in one and how it goes ... but yeah i like duncan mal a lot . this art isnt ship whatsoever though 🙏 i dont#see them as a couple their dynamic is just better as friends imo#but anyways in all stars they obviously recognize each other but have an unspoken agreement not to say anything abt it#duncan is a known criminal but mike isnt like that . mike hadnt even told zoey about that part of his life . so duncan wanted to respect his#privacy -> then mal starts hurting people and he has to step in . mal isnt a good person by any means but i dont think he was that bad in#juvie . so duncan had to come to terms that his friend wasnt the same person he was years ago (in all stars duncan is ~18 and i think mike#is almost 20... so it had been a while since they last talked)#them getting each other like no other and being in pain because they couldnt really speak . i see them having a conversation still in moon#madness abt their past and history . god i just think abt them and their wasted potential wdym mike and duncan were in juvie together#duncan was in for trespassing or destruction of private property or something really dumb . mal fought his parent(s) and got in for assault#mal was already in when duncan was placed . and duncan was let out early on good behavior + his parents (dad) mostly did it to teach him a#lesson . wrong of them or otherwise . so mal was just kinda stuck there until they realized he was actually not right in the head . think he#knew abt their DID but was only diagnosed in juvie and had to go from there . tbh he shouldve been tried as an adult but td logic . doesnt#matter dw guys . mike gets the 'was put on random meds that made him go braindead' treatment bc that was me . post mental hospital abilify#had me messed up
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you are pitting Jesus and Santa Claus against each other. I am acknowledging Santa as both a mythic symbol of Christ and a cultural legend based upon a real man whose faithfulness to Christ was used by God to grant common grace not just to the people of Myra but throughout the entire world. we are not the same.
#I know anti-Santa people who are not smug but the anti-Santa influencers are getting smugger and smugger each year#my generation was not raised to cope with loss of childhood#pro-tip: it comes back when you have your own children#I know because I get a taste of it whenever I visit my friends’ kids#mobile#x#Christmas#Christianity#history#mythology#let kids believe in magic again#you know what believing in magic did for me? trained my heart to recognize the wondrous when I see it#trained me to accept that I don’t and can’t know everything#trained me to live by the faith of adherence when i cannot enjoy the faith of assurance (Matthew Henry)#I was the only person in any of my friend groups who ever believed in Santa#and you know why I didn’t feel betrayed to find out I’d misplaced my belief? because Santa is real.#someone moves even terrible parents to give good gifts to their children on the same holy day every year#someone moves the imagination to ensure that the darkest week of the year will produce the most ethereal lights#someone moves the ancient and forgotten back into our conscious present minds#and if you’re wondering whether I’m talking about Jesus or Santa that’s a GOOD thing!#that’s the whole point!#the Santa mythos *impacts* people all over the world. and that is an act of Providence whether you believe in God or not
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Also while im thinking about it - if someone responds to people expressing joy and enthusiasm and earnestness just in general with resentment/bitterness/anger/frustration/envy: they seriously need to address that, or it's going to ruin their relationships and the mental health of people around them.
People will not like them. It will not be unreasonable to dislike them. If they use it as evidence that they're too broken/fucked up/shitty to change, they will be disliked even more and it will become incredibly reasonable. Especially if they directly talk about these feelings in front of the joyful person.
It's a shitty thing to do. It's lashing out, because someone might feel like they have no control or agency in their own life, so they pick at people who are seemingly free of the problems they lack.
Doing this destroys confidence. It destroys self esteem. It's a very vicious thing to do to another person. It is not inevitable behavior.
Everyone can change. Even if the change is incredibly tiny. Even if personality disorders or complex trauma histories are at play. Even if there's ongoing disasters. We have agency in our own lives and make choices in how we treat other people. I understand feeling powerless and like we're set in stone and there's nothing that can be done but I promise it can start so small.
Even if it feels like lying to themselves, it is my hope that people who feel like this can try actively thinking about being happy for the person they see being joyful. Consider what conversations they could have with the happy person if instead of being hateful, they instead asked questions about whatever is making that person happy. They might learn something, and be able to pass it across to other people. It might cheer them up.
It will be a much better way to handle a situation then covering others in tar in an attempt to make themselves feel better by dragging others down to their level of misery.
#this has hit me so many times this year and caused me catastrophic damage im only just starting to recover from#and i feel very bad for people who behave this way#but it is not an acceptable way to behave to other people and my tolerance for it runs out very quickly#and the older someone gets while behaving this way the worse it is#it's the kind of thing that produces terrible controlling behaviours from partners and parents#it can be overcome but people have to want to change and value others
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I love Jiang Cheng and I hope you agree. The most tragic thing about yunmeng siblings is that JC and WWX really love each other the whole time… I like to think they can fix it someday
Someday perhaps....in the meantime, I bet he's loving having dogs run around lotus pier. As a WWX deterrent of course. No therapeutic reasons at all.
#Poorly Drawn MDZS#MDZS#Jiang Cheng#As much as I put him on blast#I do like JC quite a bit.#Man....I'm sad you're on anon cause I'd love to talk more about the yunmeng sibiling tragedy#Part of me so badly wishes that they do reconcile after some time#though a good tragedy comes from the pain of what could have been#JC is definitely in my top 5 mdzs characters and its absolutely due to how messy he is#ngl I can kinda relate to where his hurt comes from and it makes it very interesting to analyze.#Favourism and antagonism of parents messes up sibling dynamics so much#The grief and trauma ended up causing a rift not a shared moment of solidarity#JC is a counter-representation and a foil to how LWJ deals with his grief#as heartbroken as LWJ is he...keeps his life going. The grief settles and he doesn't forget but he *moves forwards*#JC doesn't! He can't! He has so much guilt and regret and the grief stagnates him! Love and grief can become so terribly consuming!#He's so human for it! This is a story where no-one is morally black or white! *People* aren't black and white!
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Okay, but do people not understand that some people love to spend time with the children of the people they care about?? That people can love kids who are not their own?? This whole weird fucking narrative that keeps getting spouted in this fandom about how Eddie is supposedly a bad friend because he "uses Buck as a babysitter" is so fucking obnoxious. First of all, Buck "babysitting" is not actually something we see all that often in canon at all.
But also, spending time with a kid you love while helping out a friend you love is not a fucking burden, and it is kind of infuriating that people treat it that way.
#my best friend is not 'using' me because she needs asks me to watch my nieces#i love those kids with everything i am it is not a fucking burden to spend time with them it is an absolute joy#so i am probably biased#but i would argue that is very much how buck sees spending time with christopher#and also this attitude that parents should do everything completely on their own and never ask for help in general is so damaging#we should care about the people we love and we should be happy to help them#acting like people are selfish for needing support is such a terrible way to view existence#and i know i'm technically talking about fictional characters here but this is how so many people seem to view actual people now too#and it is so very sad to see#anyway#that's my controversial opinion for today i guess#911 discourse
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once again thinking about Barovia as a means of understanding abusive relationships and the various ways people in situations they can’t escape try coping with it all.
barovia village is full of people who have just accepted how terrible this is and have lost all hope. they’re miserable but with ravenloft literally looming above them, living in ignorance is just as impossible as escaping.
the vistani are people who maybe aren’t in the abusive relationship themselves, who have the freedom to leave (mostly, they just have to ask for permission first). their general mindset is “well, i’m sorry Strahd is so mean to you guys, but he’s generally been pretty nice to us, so i don’t really feel like I can/need to stand up to him.”
vallaki is a whole city full of people who just want to act like… you know. All Is Well. vargas in particular is so deep in denial that it opens him up to being manipulated by Strahd. it’s hard to know to shut the gates for a monster you don’t believe exists.
lady wachter, although she believes Strahd is real and acknowledges how bad he is, thinks she can solve the abuse and make everything okay again without ever dealing with the actual problem (you know. Strahd.) my version of her was obsessed with bringing the sun back to Vallaki, which she wanted to do by sacrificing one of the PCs. even had this plan worked, it’s not like Strahd would have let it work for long. the sun can’t come back until Strahd is dead.
the abbott, meanwhile, has no intentions of just killing strahd. they know that wouldn’t work. so instead, why not just give the man what he wants? strahd wants a red-headed girlfriend, so let’s make him a red-headed girlfriend. nevermind the fact that what strahd actually wants is one specific red-headed girl. but the abbott has convinced themself that there must be a way to do this without anyone getting hurt. dead bodies don’t need their arms and legs, so that isn’t really hurting anybody. if this works, nobody has to get their feelings hurt. if we can compromise enough and just give Strahd what he wants, then he’ll leave us alone. surely.
#curse of strahd#dungeons and dragons#there are obviously a lot more ways people can deal with absuve relationships#this is just a few that stand out at the moment to me#i also haven’t been in this sort of relationship myself#but all of my players/best friends have really terrible and abusive parents#so we’re all using the cos game as a way of processing and exploring what’s happened to them and trying to learn what we can#this is also why it’s so important to me that they will eventually kill strahd. but more on that in a later post.
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Listen- I never played Nicktoons Unite nor do I know much about it aside from a couple cutscenes I looked up, but also. Why do I feel like Danny’s energy out of the four would be the most “This might as well happen”
#danny phantom#nicktoons unite#‘Talking sea sponge? Yeah sure ok’#‘Faries are real? I mean- we already have ghost dragons and ghost yetis-‘#‘The robot dog’s cool- I know we can’t get a dog bc of the lab and Cujo’s… Cujo but I wonder if my parents would allow a robo-dog…#Wait no scratch that- Technus. Also knowing my luck my parents’d try to fix/upgrade it and it'd backfire#and if not Vlad would probably try to pull some- *sigh* nevermind’#pff- him defaulting to Cool Hero ‘Hello Citizens’ mode in part bc. two of these people are 10/11- two of these people are 10/11?!#He can’t be the responsible older kid here!! he’s terrible at being the responsible older kid!!#(granted there’s also spongebob- but also. Spongebob is also kind of a goob so-)
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Non existent MDZS Fanfic's summary 2
Lan Qiren & Lan Sizhui, + Junior Quartet + Parental Wangxian
Hurt/Comfort, Found family
Lan Sizhui was a Wen.
He knew there was nothing to be ashamed of. There was also no need to worry; he was unconditionally loved by his family and his friends.
Lan Sizhui knew- yet he was scared to reveal himself.
In his darkest nightmares, Lan Jingyi would start avoiding him, Jin Ling would stare at him in horror, and Ouyang Zizhen would say nothing as his father hurled accusations at him.
In the moments he felt lonely, he would look around and wonder if his grand-uncle was truly busy with sect matters, or if maybe, he didn't want to see him anymore. Lan Sizhui had essentially confirmed his heritage when he'd gone travelling with uncle Ning, after all.
Wen Sizhui wished to keep his friends, so, so desperately.
Wen Yuan yearned for a glimpse of his grand-uncle.
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Or :
Lan Sizhui was behaving strangely. He seemed upset.
His loved ones couldn't do nothing.
#mdzs#mo dao zu shi#lan sizhui#lan qiren#lan jingyi#jin ling#ouyang zizhen#lan wangji#wei wuxian#wangxian#identity reveal#found family trope#lan qiren *finally done with work and sees LSZ* : Who hurt my grand-nephew I want names#JL : WHO allowed people to be happy when Sizhui is sad ?!#LJY : Sizhui is sad my whole life is ruined#OYZZ : I'm... gonna look for Senior Wei and Hanguang-Jun#Wangxian *coming from behing LQR* : We want names#LSZ deserves love#The junior quartet deserve love#Wangxian are doting protective parents#LQR is soft for his grand-nephew#post canon#nefs#nefs mdzs 2#non-existent fanfic's summary#There is a terrible lack of Lan Qiren & Lan Sizhui fanfics imo
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??? why are you scared to write for leon ???
Uh... Idk if scared was the right word to use, more so I think the popular interpretation of Leon, at least in the current fandom, is not one I'd write him as. And like people get mobbish about it as though only the one particular viewing they've subscribed to MUST be the only one written, and any other writings of his character outside of it are invalid.
And my viewing and understanding of his character, and by extension how I'd write for him, would get me crucified by "fans" because it doesn't really align with the popularised interpretations of him.
#NO OFFENCE IF THE POPULAR INTERPRETATIONS IS HOW YOU VIEW HIS CHARACTER or if you're a new fan!#you're allowed to interpret fiction however you like too! not attacking anyone btw!#Also I think he'd be a kinda terrible father and ik people read my dad shit for fluffier stuff but with Leon I can't bring myself to write#fluffy dad shit with him. Like I imagine he'd be a really terrible parent tbh I'M SORRY#asks!
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Title: "flash-frozen in the driver's seat" Fandom: Midst (Podcast) Categories: G, Gen, No Archive Warnings Apply, Complete Word Count: 3613 Characters: Phineas Thatch, Tzila Guthrie
“Why do you have that?” Tzila asks. Phineas opens his eyes. She’s pointing at his abacus with the back of her pen. He looks down at it and frowns. “It’s my abacus.” “I know what an abacus is,” says Tzila, rolling her eyes. “Why do you have Caenum? Didn’t being a soldier and solving mysteries or whatever get you a ton of Valor?” Phineas and Tzila have a conversation in the quiet halls of the Lazaretto.
(hi everyone it's ME again! back with another midst missing scene i couldn't stop thinking about.)
#midst#midst podcast#my writing#i like phineas so much and i think his season 2 pre-moth headspace is. well. it's terrible in a way that i find compelling#and i think tzila's 'you were pretending to be my friend!' in 2.15 implies that they'd hung out more than we see in canon#AND i think tzila's relationship with the trust is potentially SUPER interesting#in that way that when you're twelve you're very sure you know what's right but it's often so influenced by what your parents/#people you look up to tell you about what's right. but on the other hand! she misses the highest light! she grew up there!#also i do love miscommunication plots. i think all the things tzila and phineas and lark are not#saying to each other and not understanding about each other in season two are super fun to write dialogue around#so anyway here's this hope you like it <3#also i really included SO many Proper Nouns in this summary without even noticing it asljsldkjflksj#yeah yeah we all know what valor and caenum and abacus and lazaretto mean
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I am trying really, REALLY hard not to fall into the trap of catastrophizing everything, to look on the bright side and attempt to plan ahead, but today is one of those days where it's just so fucking hard to do that. All I want is to be able to have some cash in the bank to fall back on, but I can't even keep it long enough to have the ability to fall back on it in the future.
#bonezrattling#america is a place that is built specifically to keep you from saving any money in every way humanly possible#I have $700 in car repairs that I need done immediately and I don't even have half of that available in savings#but i need my car to work#but i need to work to fix my car#i have no family who can help me except my grandmother and she prides herself in using favors as blackmail to guilt trip people for favors#my only option is to get my boyfriend and his parents to help me pay for it and i feel terrible for even considering that#i'm so tired
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