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everyone in my house is shit at communicating cause we're all autistic and both of my parents were raised in homes where no one talked to each other ever so that's fun.
#like i have a great family#my parents are like super supportive of me#my dad is the biggest ally ever and my mom is bi#and like cause we're all autistic (and probably adhd except for my mom) they're good with that stuff#but like they're shit at dealing with anything mental health related#a few weeks back when we were in the states we went to see a family friend#and my brother freaked out cause he was nervous#like he had a full on panic attack#and my parents were terrible at dealing with it#they legit made him feel worse#i'm the only one in this household who can actually deal with mental health stuff#and the only one who can ever admit i need help#except to my parents who are shit at talking about mental health cause they make it weird#my mom (and her entire side of the family) won't admit she needs therapy cause her childhood was fucked up#i've been trying to force her into therapy lol#atp i'd be a decent therapist for her
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one thing about season 2 that i loved was imogen’s unintentional ignorance abt queerness bc she wasn’t vilified for not fully being able to understand what her friends were going through. personally, in my life i’m surrounded by people who are super accepting of queerness but not all of them are queer themselves, and i felt like it was a simultaneously funny and heartwarming representation of those friends and family members. like, you don’t necessarily have to always say the right thing for people to feel supported by you, as long as they know you’re trying and wanting to relate.
i.e. the scene w nick, charlie, and imogen after she yells at ben, when she’s like “everything would be so much easier if i was just into girls!” and they’re like “umm… not exactly but i get what you mean!”, and when she just assumes sahar is straight when she’s actually bi!! very funny but i feel like it also clearly comes from a place of love and support for her queer friends and wanting to relate to them which i thought was sweet. also when she hugs nick after he comes out to her and she says “i don’t really know how i’m supposed to react”… i just loved that moment and her admitting that felt so sweet and honest and realistic.
idk i’m just rambling and i also know that they hinted at her having a crush on sahar at the end but for most of the season she did function as the token straight friend and i really loved how they wrote her character in that way!!
#like it reminded me most of my parents i think!! well meaning and super supportive but also they mess up sometimes#heartstopper season 2#heartstopper#imogen heaney#heartstopper spoilers#alice oseman#osemanverse
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the x files au where everything is exactly the same except mulder takes home the child neanderthal from the jersey devil episode and raises them as his own
#you could make this super fun and invoke a sense of deep Guilt on behalf of mulder because he feels he got the mom neanderthal killed#and then you can also make it fun in “c'mon sport let's go throw the ball around kind of way”#i imagine him at the library checking out books on early humanoid species and how to parent at the same time#the librarian silently checking the books out and wondering what on earth this man could possibly be needing such resources for#imagine scully's reaction to this. i can't quite place it beyond initial Disbelief and then subsequent trying to be as supportive as she ca#and she would probably be also very Nerdy about the whole thing. because she strikes me as someone well-read on the subject and fascinated#we also know she at least has some experience wrangling children which would be relevant#i imagine a bunch of anthropologists perpetually hovering over the child to study him but they have to be Chill and not disrupt his life#so the kid just grows up thinking they have a ton of really cool and supportive aunts and uncles over all the time#meanwhile they scientists are taking notes furiously as they see if he can adapt to playing a gameboy with the other kids#idk someone probably thought of this idea before but it's funny to me#why would the kid go to him and not someone far more qualified? idk i'm just playing pretend in my brain :)#this thought was prompted by me wondering if you time traveled and brought an early humanoid to the modern era do you think the kid#would still play minecraft? i say yes. probably.#i saw a post about something similar years ago and i wonder about it. i hope you would like cartoons and subway surfers neanderthals.#1x05#fox mulder#the x files#txf
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Sorry to OP, Jack, and Aaron, but it's my turn to hijack. Because as it turns out, I've also been thinking about this, and I have an additional solution: Cultivate a Casual Audience.
I spent most of the latter half of 2024 thinking about this issue, by way of thinking about a more pressing issue for me: how to make a living doing this. I'm a disabled artist who's largely unable to work otherwise, and I'd really like to have enough income of my own that I don't always have to rely on those very supportive people in my life. Eventually, I came up with a plan.* Walk with me.
Imagine that you're starting up a local movie theater, and you're pondering the topic of audience. What kind of audiences do you want to draw for the best balance of profit and taste? It seems to me that you have three options: 1. Pander to the MCUboys. This is a super reliable audience, obviously, and they've got money to spend. The problem with this approach is that you're just further slicing the pie - sure, they're a big audience, but you're only ever going to draw a proportional fraction of them, roughly evenly split with all the other theaters in town, including the AMC downtown. Plus, you'd be tying yourself to a property that won't last forever; it's not sustainable, even if it's profitable now. 2. Pander to the Indieboys. This also isn't a great plan - sure, the indie folks are by far your most dedicated crowd. They'll show up for anything, and they'll do it regularly. But as with all indie art circles, they've been passing the same $20 around for the last decade. It's just not profitable enough to keep your business afloat. 3. Cater to a Casual Audience. As a movie exhibitor, this is easy. Everybody goes to the movies! All you have to do is do stuff other than just movies! Maybe sell food in your lobby space and fill it with seating - now it's a dinner spot, too! Or maybe sell local art, too. That way you're getting the attention of people whose focus isn't on movies, and maybe they'll decide to book a ticket to something while they're here having a meal with their visiting parents.
In my city, the local indie theater does all of that and more; they hold monthly workshops where a local artist teaches a workshop on how to do their weird niche thing. In fact, I did one last year, and it was great! About seven people showed up, and one of them was my mom. But you know something? I made a tidy little profit from tickets, and sold a few games besides.
You may have spotted the problem: that being that tabletop RPGs don't have a casual audience. This artform is stuck between two extremes: the MCU and the gorehounds. As others have pointed out - 99% of people who've heard of this medium at all have exclusively heard of D&D, including a lot of pretty hardcore, invested D&D fans. On multiple occasions, I've tested the waters by asking someone if they play RPGs, with the response being "yeah! I've been playing D&D with my friends for like three years!" and then, when I ask if they've ever played anything else, they hit me with the "there are other games? I had no idea!" It's not just that D&D is the most popular thing; it's that to most people - even those who we would consider significantly invested in the medium - D&D is the only thing. The idea that other games can exist at all is alien to a lot of folks. Pretty scary, huh?
Well, here's the twist. It's actually a super solvable problem, and you might be able to do it where you live, for free.
Step 0: First Principles Before you begin, you'll need to iron out your goals and your approach. For me, this is pretty simple - one, I don't talk about D&D. Whenever I'm talking about RPGs, especially to newbies, I straight-up act as if D&D doesn't exist unless someone else brings it up. If I need a standard fantasy RPG that's still in print, I default to Pathfinder, or something more niche if I think I can afford it.† Two, I decide right now that selling my own product is going to be pretty low on my priority list. This is for two reasons, the most relevant one being optics - I want people to feel like I really care about this hobby (which I do, to be clear), and promoting my own work when I could be spotlighting other people's games is going to clock as kind of shady to some people. Because, frankly, it is.
Step 1: Avoid Your Local Game Store Which isn't to say don't shop there, obviously. I only mean that for this little project of yours, the local store won't work. Why? Survivorship bias. Your friendly local game store is, through no fault of their own, the MCU theater. They only pay rent because they sell D&D and Magic cards - and let's be real, Magic cards are the smaller market. Don't blame them for this; they're doing everything they can, and the fact that they can afford to buy stock of Monsterhearts, or Avatar: Legends is a mark of their success. But the fact is, they're the plane that made it back. Their audience is almost entirely D&D-heads. Those aren't the people you're trying to reach. Instead, you're looking for a local art spot. A popular coffee shop that doubles as a gallery; A used bookstore with weekly storytimes and programs for local authors. Somewhere that meets these two criteria: a) they cater to a wide, casual market who do not come here for tabletop RPGs, and b) hold any kind of regular event. Poetry readings, book clubs, anything like that.
Step 2: Talk To The Owners I'll be real - this is the step where I got the most lucky. See, I was about two days into formulating this plan when my local movie theater decided to start hosting weekly board game nights. As in, anyone can show up, bring-your-own-game, play with whoever you like. For free. The opportunity fell into my lap. Even if I hadn't already done business with this place, I wouldn't have needed to bring this plan up with them. They'd just given me a free opportunity. You may not be so fortunate. In your case, then, you'll want to bring your pitch around and see who bites. In many cases, this is going to be you starting up a new event at this location, and that means a lot of responsibility on your shoulders to maintain the schedule, the marketing, etc. The thing is, though – there’s always more going on in your city than you imagine. In my experience, a lot of these local art spaces are pretty bad at advertising themselves, and all it takes is a little searching and some in-person friendships to get you in touch with something you can take advantage of. Maybe your library has some kind of regular mingling event – old-school fantasy geek meetups, or a star-trek fan group who meets every other week at the mom & pop diner. See if there’s something you can ride the coattails of, before you take the leap of organizing your own event.
Step 3: Be Prepared I made a spreadsheet. I have the next six months planned. I don’t go to every game night – instead, I show up every other week. I’m there the full two hours, no matter what. Unless I have to, I never show up alone. I bring pre-made characters, a pre-written module, pencils, paper, dice, and two dice boxes. If I have one, I bring a physical copy of that week’s game. If nobody bites, no worries – I just carry over that game to the next week, ad nauseum, until it gets played. I select for smaller games that I already own. One-pagers, zines, that sort of thing. I also select for games I think are either accessible to newbies, or which I would consider required reading. Lasers & Feelings; Roll for Shoes; Crash Pandas. I also selected my timeframe very carefully. I’d burn out if I prepared a new game with characters and an adventure every week, and people would forget about me if I did it only once a month. So it’s every other week; enough time to not stress overmuch about prep, but not so long that people forget, or quietly assume I stopped coming.
Step 4: Persist Then, I mingle. I talk to people who show up alone; I make a show of being an open table. And I ask everyone I meet: “Do you know what you’re playing tonight?” This step takes patience. A fucking lot of patience. My first two weeks (which is to say, my first full month, real-time), nobody bit. That was due to a combination of factors; for one, it was still January, and the event was pretty dead. It’s gotten better since. For another, I went alone those weeks. It felt kind of pathetic, honestly – but I knew what I wanted, and I was willing to wait for it. And it’s working. My last showing, I came with two friends, and two other people showed up. One of them told me at the end of the night that he had someone in mind to invite along. Folks, this is a long game. A really long game. My plan is to do this every other week for the rest of the year, barring a few things, and my goal by the end of 2025 is to have four, maybe five, regulars. But I know what I’m here for, and I know it’s going to take a while.
I’m cultivating a casual RPG market in my town. Because that’s really what we need, isn’t it? This is a really niche hobby, but it doesn’t have to be. Wizards of the Coast have proven, in their own slimy way, that RPGs can appeal to a huge array of people, if they’re given an open door. If you care about de-monopolizing this hobby and opening it up for more artists to be able to make a living, then our goal needs to be generating a casual gaming audience that isn’t funneled through the filter of D&D to get to the other side of indie. They need the opportunity to try out the medium from other angles. And if you’ve got the time, energy, and inclination, I think you can give it to them.
*This plan won't work for everyone. In fact, I suspect it won't work for most of us, for one reason or another. I think I'm pretty lucky both in terms of the support network I have in my private life, as well as some of the material & geographic resources at my disposal, and this solution requires all three. But I hope that some of what I outline here is transferable to other people's circumstances as well.
†Hey. Hey, look at me. Look me in the eyes. Pathfinder is indie. No, stop. Look at Me. D&D is the only mainstream RPG. I'm not kidding, and I'm not exaggerating. Please, please understand that you and I are the kinds of movie fans who think Reanimator is mainstream, okay? We're the indie freaks who are passing that $20 around. We have a tendency to lose perspective on what the average normie has heard of, let alone played. I'm begging you not to discourse about this in the notes.
Art Communities and TTRPGs
I recently read an article by @toyourstations (which you can read here) about art revolutions, both online and in physical space. It makes the point that art communities online are generally fairly insular, rarely reaching out beyond a small circle of other artists. To combat this, the article argues that you as an artist should find a way to exist in physical space around people who are not in your small group and share your art there. It's a topic that I had been thinking about a lot lately as I've been making a conceited effort to connect more people in the indie ttrpg space and encourage more community amongst artists.
I've noticed a trend that relates to both of these topics. It seems to me that people in the indie ttrpg community online rarely interact with other's works. I see in other art mediums an outpouring of interaction on even the most sophomoric works. Yet amongst ttrpg writers, I see posts of well made projects with little to no interaction or feedback. This is purely subjective and my experience may be skewing my view on the topic but it seems to hold true.
I have a few theories.
This is obviously a fairly small community, but there are at least other artists here that would have opinions about the projects they see. Are people scared to interact; to give criticism, both good or bad? You would think in such a small community of creator/artists that people would be sharing ideas and writing critique.
The most cynical theory is that creators don't want to boost up other projects as they see them as competition. There is a feeling that there is only enough oxygen in the room for one or two projects to exist and you don't want to lift up other projects when it may result in the starvation of your own.
There is also the time investment. It takes time to read and interact with ttrpgs. Playing/testing them is a whole other level of commitment. But there must be some people who at least read or skim projects. Why do they not leave comments. Does it really come down to the size of the community? Are there just not enough people interested in projects outside of their own?
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I do feel that I need to state that this opinion is not a reflection of my personal project's engagement. I am fairly happy with how they have performed considering my size and reach. This frustration is mostly a product of seeing other projects and artist gain zero traction when I think their projects are worthwhile. This also goes beyond Tumblr as a platform. Obviously there are a million factors that play into this, but I think a community initiative to engage more with smaller works could change the landscape of the ttrpg community online.
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the 14 year old edgelord in me keeps trying to compose deep poetry about coming to after dissociating. calm down babes. we’re all good here.
#blue chatter#just. the experience of blinking into existence becoming associated with ice in my mouth#and how it’s becoming a pattern that the first visual thing I process is a hand in front of my face#At least that I remember. I’m sure other stuff happens but my memory is unsurprisingly v blurry after#I feel bad for making my roommate take care of me so often#but I super cannot control when I dissociate#and I do genuinely need the help#bc today I was home alone and it took a loooooot longer to break out of the blurry stage#I somehow didn’t think to get ice about it until I was in the middle of the grocery store an hour after the episode had ended#I want to be more independent about this so people don’t have to take care of me all the time#it is relieving to know that I can live with friends after grad school#so *someone* can be around usually if something goes wrong and I’m not cognizant enough to help myself#but I don’t wanna make them feel like they have to help me or put that on them#or like. freak out their kids. their kids are not raised remotely like I was and they’re rly young so they don’t rly understand this.#how do you explain trauma to a three year old whose parents are incredibly good at gentle parenting#idk. I’ll figure it out. hopefully with time and therapy I’ll be able to process my trauma enough that I won’t be like this forever.#I don’t wanna be like this forever.#I want to go to grad school and start practicing in clinical psychology and help people#and be independent and be able to support my friends instead of the other way around
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My issues are on full swing tonight I am going thru the motions so can I just say how much this scene BREAKS MY HEARTTTT. I am going to put my head through a wall.
LIKE. Literally all he wants is for his stupid fucking dad to hear him out to have his back to take him seriously. All he wants is his approval. You can even see him like. Hesitate a bit before asking
Like he had to THINK about it. I am so. So certain he knew what the answer was going to be and he still went for it because he NEEDED IT. Like you don’t understand.
AND WATCHING HIS EXPRESSION FALL.
Like. You can literally SEE YOU CAN *SEE* how HARD “you’re bringing your brother down with you” HIT HIM YOU CAN SEE IT. YOU CAN FUCKING SEE IT. He internalized that shit I can TELL. And that quiet little ‘thanks for your support’ before he goes to his room CRYING SCREAMING THROWING UP CLAWING AT MY SKIN I AM SICKKKKKK I am sick. Poor baby :(
#I’m like. the ceo of parental issues so like. you know how it is#genuinely ugly crying over this don’t even look at me#I feel for him so hard you have no fucking idea#do you guys wish your parents loved you be honest what who said that#anyway I’m over it (I’m not)#I would support him I’d be in his corner.#anyway I’ll shut up now#Mario#luigi#super mario bros movie#smb#⭐️🍄you’re my superstar#♡.love letters
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anxiety problem: too anxious to go to thing on my own
solution: get someone to go with me to thing
anxiety problem: too anxious to ask someone to go with to thing
solution: ??????
#alpaca.txt#i keep forgetting i have anxiety and then like. oh no i need to do A Thing#im so sos so scared of the gender appointment even tho apparantly if i can manage to get the appoinment its prettymuch certain i get the hrt#idk. i cant ask parents to go with to gender appointment bc they are. kinda trying to discourage me tbh#i feel too weird about asking my sister(s??) about it and i cant articulate why even tho shes. a. only other people i can ask#b most transition knowing person i know#i can like. get there on my own fine i think im just. super aware that if things are too important i physically cant say them#and its the GET GENDER CARE APPOINTMENT so its. all. Super Important things#fuck.#idk what to do#also like i want to go to pride bc ive never been and ive actually remembered this year in pride month#but also. too scared on my own. only irl queer ppl i know is sister+partners. and theyre either busy or got their own plans#like w their friends bc they have a lot of queer friends. and that would be weird and lame of me to just. go w them then#i think this is what my support workers supposed to help me with but actually fuck i forgot to ever come out to her and idk her Trans Opinon#unfortunately gender appointment is something i both never want anyone to know what i said and a thing i need help with
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someone walked into me having what i thought was a private but very loud breakdown at work about the family cruise my parents are requiring me to go on for my dads retirement next may bc i have never ever wanted to go on a cruise in my life and the cheapest solo room for the one they picked is fucking $1600 for a 100sq ft closet and that's not even including airfare to get to miami OR wifi YOU HAVE TO BUY A WIFI PACKAGE to have reliable internet access what if i just fucking kill myself instead <3
#like this is such a fucking stupid problem to have but my mom won't even let me complain about it bc like#my parents have done so much for me for SO much longer than they needed to and they ask very little of me#and i have like 18 months to save the money to do this but like#thinking about what i could be spending that money on instead things i actually WANT to do???#i have no fucking desire to go ANYWHERE this boat is stopping like at all !!!#thousands of dollars for something i ACTIVELY DONT WANT TO DO#and my mom keeps pestering me to try to find someone to rope into going with me#so i can have a friend bc ill be honest im not super close with my family !!#but i also don't have any friends im close enough with to ask them if they wanna like#spend sooooooo much money to accompany me on a cruise with MY family as essentially an emotional support animal
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Part 2 in my series of rewatching my favorite 90s/early 00’s shows. (click here to see Daria’s sketch)
Home Movies is such a delight. The dialogue is fantastic, and the vibe of making your own little cinematic masterpieces out of cardboard and dreams as a kid is spot on.
It’s made by Loren Bouchard and Brendon Small. Loren Bouchard then did Bob’s Burgers, which shares the voice actor of H. Jon Benjamin as Coach McGuirk here and Bob Belcher in Bob’s Burgers. Brendon Small (who is also the main character in this show, also named Brendon Small) went on to make Metaloclypse.
#home movies#90s cartoons#as with everything in the late 90s / early 00s#take the jokes with a grain of salt#it’s not as egregious as other shows during this time#and as an American child to immigrant Mexican parents#and my spouse being from Mexico#we both thought hearing a character say Mexicans prefer to be called ‘Me-ji-cans’ was the funniest shit on the planet#also for context that character was supposed to be made fun of for that remark#but my experience is not universal#and I’m super supportive of people calling out racism/fatphobia/queerphobia/etc in media#especially when they have receipts#like yes show me those critical thinking skills in action I love that shit
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wip where im just fuckin around with a new brush lol. won’t finish because I low-key hate it. anyway this is technically oc posting
her name is callie meteno and she’s a pokemon oc!
#here’s some tidbits because I like just rambling and will do so given the opportunity#she goes by she/they/he/it#she’s a nonbinary lesbian#she works an office job at a gym leader thing#she loves anything space so sometimes she volunteers at her local astronomy museum#she has a strained relationship with her parents. she’s got schizophrenia#her parents were like never supportive with it never believed her never gave her the time#so yeah.#she reinvents herself ever other month#I have her pokemon team but it’s like. yeah i can share that if anyone wants lmao#she’s like my most normal oc. like as in she has a routine and she gets the train to work and blah blah blah#a girl so flat you can use her as a bookmark#she’s got a few tattoos and scars down her body but she doesn’t care to hide them#she’s not got many good habits. as in she smokes and will probably try anything once#she’s like. super chill but fragile like a bomb#would offer a kid weed if they asked nice enough#lillie scribbles#anyway i lowk hate this so. fuck it we ball#its this whole oc group me and my friend have made. galarian minor league who all kind of suck and it’s like the office
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i think the way sans wholeheartedly supports papyrus through everything is really sweet but also very interesting for both of the characters, because i don't think sans is trying to humor him or is 'afraid to hurt his feelings' like many might think, i think sans fully trusts papyrus's own decisions and if he's ever wrong he can figure it out himself and grow from it, if anything sans really respects papyrus's choices, he doesn't think papyrus is making a bad decision by trying to be a royal guard, his brother knows himself best. papyrus also... doesn't have that much support from anyone else, sans is his only family and he barely has friends at all, i think for sans it's more important that papyrus feels supported than anything else, like i said, if papyrus is wrong about something? that's alright, he'll be okay, he'll learn from the experience, and his brother will be there for him. but for this situation, it's more important for papyrus that his brother believes in him when nobody else does than being told he's being 'naive'
#deltaruneundertale#cw vent#-> the tags#this is coming from personal experience. i went through the completely opposite of this#my parents being super 'sincere' with me. but really that sincerity was more of an attack. it wasn't help.#'don't let your kid make their own choices. never allow them to make mistakes. criticize everything about them' that kind of thing#it's not me saying 'never tell your family member they are wrong about something' obviously no. sans wouldn't do that either#but there is a time and a place#and sometimes the best choice is to let your brother know that he's supported over making him feel like his own choices are naive#he's an adult. he can make his own choices#you can give him advice but not shut him down because you think 'you know best'#anyway. i love them dearly
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i feel like we, as a fandom, don’t utilize A Link Between Worlds (outside of the existence of Ravio) enough. we should talk about Gulley and the blacksmiths and irene and the fact that Legend would likely say stuff like “blew his stack” and “thataway.” albw is a great game and offers lots of interesting avenues to go w Legend’s characterization.
#this is me pushing my ‘Legend is Gulley’s older sibling figure’ and ‘Legend and Irene are besties’ propaganda#and also. ik it’s not supported in canon but#i rlly love thinking that the blacksmith and his wife r sort of like parent figures to legend#not like actual parent figures but. y’know how sometimes a teacher or a coach or a neighbor are just super nice and they believe in u#that sort of dynamic#i’m pulling at straws trying to get legend a support system lmao#also. i mention the vocab bc i think the albw NPCs talk funny and i love it#who tf says thataway. it’s like in ss when yerbal says persnickety. i love it.#do i tag this. sure why not.#legend lu#lu legend#legend linked universe#linked universe legend
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I'm gonna start saying no to things that physically hurt to do because "pushing through the pain" does not give me pride or mark my place in society
#disability#Disabled#Actually disabled#invisible disability#Chronic pain#Chronic illness#Chronically ill#I'm kind of scared to do it actually#Like doing the litter boxes hurts my back and my legs#Everything is so heavy and I have to bend over a lot#My parent tried to be supportive and find workarounds for me#It didn't work that well#They can't do it and neither can my sister as we're ALL disabled#But we can't give up our cats#So#I'm the only one willing to push through for our animal's comfort#But I'll apply this logic to other things#Like musical practice!#The dances always hurt#But I know they're super inclusive and can make it so I just sing and don't have to dance in the ones that are too much for me#I mean they've already done a great job at making sure I'm comfortable by always asking for permission to touch me!!#I don't like being touched and they respect it#Anyways enough rambling#I BELIEVE IN YOU ALL#START SAYING NO#If it hurts it hurts#You're allowed to say no#You're not a bother#The only thing bothering anyone is the pain bothering you
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if awakening ever gets a remake in the next twenty years or so my number one want is same sex marriage + still having kids but my number TWO want is a scene after lucina’s judgement where whoever is robin’s kid confronts lucina. bc like from a player’s stand point, or really even just from robin as a character, its really easy to understand lucina’s thought process, sympathize with her, and forgive her. but if you’re one of the future kids, you came back in time to save your parents (and the world i GUESS), and your friend decides that your parent, yours specifically, is expendable, thats kinda fucked up!! her thinking is valid and potentially correct from a logical standpoint, but looking at it from like morgan’s perspective, it might feel selfish or unwarranted.
but my other thing is, unless robin’s second kid is lucina (or they dont have one), i think using their other kid over morgan would be more impactful if only because morgan lost their memories of the past and doesnt have as strong of a connection with lucina as say, someone like gerome or cynthia does. if its chrom!morgan then yeah, theres the connection, but otherwise wouldnt it be fucking wild to see the perspective of someone who went back in time with their friend who promised to go back and save the world, only to find them pointing a sword at your fucking dad? literally insane where is this confrontation. number three want is fix chapter two’s map design
#fe13#ann writing paragraphs#realistically this might break up the flow of the story so i can fully understand why it might not be able to ever be a thing#but its an idea thats been bouncing around in my head for years#personally im a robin!owain kinda girl and ive tried putting how the scene plays out in my head to paper but alas#ive never gotten it quite right#but i dont even think owain would be the most interesting scene#gerome severa laurent and cynthia i think would be the absolute craziest to see react to this#and chrom!morgan tbh. like i’d do a chrobin file just to see that#i just think the potential variability could be so fun. its like the chrom post gangrel fight marriage scene except angst#i rly do just love when media gives you a template that changes depending on who you use for it#love seeing how different character reactions can change the exact same scene#anyways ive spent a lot of time going through pc supports and seeing the small miniscule changes that happens depending on the parent#best example i have is how ignatius’s moms in fates change a small part of the B support. super fun btw#im getting off topic#BASICALLY throw some second gen tension in there!#maybe i’ll revist that idea for owain. idk. we’ll see#my problem is that im so deep in my own headcanons i’d find a way to shove chrom!inigo in there too when it’s absolutely unnecessary#its a problem. ik some of u have stumbled across my ao3 account and ive only got one awakening fic up there#and it wasnt even good that was a vent fic in the form of inigo from fire emblem#but let it be known my drafts are full of delusional little stories tailored to me and my very specific interpretations of awakening#i think my tags might be longer than the post. see this is why i have to shove my rambles in here#sorry!
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and what if i finally decided on a fc for anna / mrs. em.ily. what then. ( do you love her )
#☽—— ⸢ my edit ⸥#˖ ♡ 𝒻𝒸. » heart aching ( anna emily )#f n a f /#me: hasn't written her because i hadn't decided on an fc#also me: i should add her as a full muse now ( i won't yet i promise lmaooo )#i've literally written out her muse bio and everything tho in notion lmao#she's a manager in a bookstore and she's from a town in arizona right near the border of utah#her parents are chinese immigrants and she has two sisters she adores#she wants to own her own business one day and is super supportive of henry's work while they're together#like she's so down to brainstorm with him ( & william if he's willing lmao ) and is def smart when it comes to business stuff#( and not in a cutting corners way either. glances at both my henry and william. )#and she's a very good mom to charlie as well as a good aunt-like figure to the af.ton kids#love love love the idea of her and mrs. af.ton as best friends even once they've both divorced the Disasters#but i think she gets bad vibes from william like. . . not immediately but earlier than most. she's friendly but it's minimal y'know lmao#but obv she doesn't guess what he's /actually/ up to. just thinks he's a dick ( valid )
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#im still procrastinating so bear with me#ive just been thinking abt something. like the idea of a support system#bc as a 1st year grad student ppl around me r like: it must be hard being away from ur support system or ive left my support system when i#moved halfway across the country. and like i dont really feel that way bc idk the idea of a support system is sorta odd to me#like for me i guess it would just b my parents who i kno love me but im just so weirdly asocial that i never really talk to them#like i hardly ever text them. we talk maybe every couple months. so like i guess i theoretically have support but its a bit abstract#and like i have friends i guess but again im a bit weird and dont really feel connected to ppl so i dont feel that close to anyone#surface level friendships i guess. i dunno. i just feel weird not not having a support system but also having it b hollow#i guess i cant feel it more now. like i feel like getting diagnosed as bip0lar made my problems seem more realized to my parents#like i dunno i just assumed they knew i was doing awful most of the time but maybe that wasn't the case#its such a weird thing to b diagnosed with. like the conotations feel a lot heavier and i feel like im not supposed to talk abt it to ppl#bc theyll think im unreliable or something. like it wouldnt b that big a deal if i was just depressed but the sometimes buring out of my#skin makes me somehow scarier. and i still feel conflicted bc i do have a bip0lar mood profile but i have very very high impulse control#and even when im going high my mind is still super rational about it. which seems weird bc low impulse control is common with#the diagnosis. its also y i dont fit an 4dhd profile. not that it really matters. i fit the criteria enough to be on the bip0lar spectrum#its not like someone's gonna come yell at me for not being bip0lar enough. i just feel odd about it is all#still feels fake i guess. hard to imagine feeling any different to how i feel now. which is weirdly stable. so i guess the meds r working#sigh... ok enough i need to go to sleep at 7pm so i can get up at like 2 to finish reading a paper. for some reason my god forsaken brain#works better in the early morning rip#unrelated
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