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scheduled post because Don’t Ask What Time I’m Writing This ( from my phone, even ). but i got on my “i could write a better fn.af movie myself” shit and accidentally came up with ideas that i legally need to write. somebody remind me to talk abt this in detail—

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good news: my stye is healing and it doesn't hurt anymore so now staring at a screen doesn't feel unbearable lmao. aka: gonna try to write a little now. will probably start over on rory's blog ( @kissedknxckles ) since i need to actually do some writing over there lmao

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reblog if you are firmly against the use of AI in roleplay spaces. this is not the place for AI-written drivel or generated images.

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i need toxic wlw so bad. what do you mean the music vi.deo for confidential is abt sexy toxic wlw and features a tar.ot reading. shakes my women muses at yours. please.

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sorry i've been on my bi-monthly ( as in once every two months ) "disappear without a trace for like a week straight and show no signs of existence to anyone" shit and that's literally the extent of excuse that i have lmao

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okay so it's been a busy two days and i promise tomorrow i'll try to be at least on dis.cord + check my notifs—

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okay so it's been a busy two days and i promise tomorrow i'll try to be at least on dis.cord + check my notifs—

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i have a mighty need for jeremy and michael valentine's day shenanigans except it's jeremy being very romantic and good at it and michael stumbling stupidly through the whole thing because he doesn't know what The Fuck he's supposed to be doing

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michael writers how are we feeling abt "if you don't believe i'm worth saving, i'll play a part in it" and i promise i'm not bringing it up just to plug the song

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@florietiae

henry: do you remember when i told william that we should retire spri.ng bon.nie and fre.dbear? jules: oh he came home and complained for hours henry: he would barely look at me for a week, it's like i had asked him to give up coffee for the rest of his life william in the other room listening to them make fun of him:

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PROMO. yes i'm seriously not making a fancy promo post ( yet ), i literally can't look at photoshop anymore. anyway, uh. do you like FNAF? teenage bullies who are filled to the brim with rage, internalized homophobia, and a hyperfixation on comic books? guys who can't hold down traditional jobs? then you'll love my depiction of the Freddy-masked bully from fnaf4, RORY HUNTER. 18+ only, read my carrd before interacting—you know the drill.

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Michael nearly flinched when she said it—him. There was no question that she knew what Mike was getting at, then. But, well, he at least wasn't being lectured. It wasn't that he thought his mom was the type to lecture. It was more that. . . well, he had never really heard of the alternative happening. Even on television, this was supposedly the worst thing that could happen to a mother: her son being—

"I don't know," was all he mumbled out. And, well, that was a lie. Yes, to all of the above. . . and more. He sat beside his mother, elbows on knees and still determined not to look her in the eye. Scared she might see right through him. "Thinking about someone a lot doesn't mean— I just like hanging out with him." A lot. "None of that means I'm. . . We're friends."

On one hand, Michael had never had a best friend before Rory; he'd barely had friends at all. Him not being able to identity how that should feel seemed reasonable to him. On the other, he knew he was getting awfully defensive for someone who had asked for this advice in the first place.

He let her take his hand, the sort of touch he would usually pull away from while complaining about being babied. Even if he wasn't getting the answer he wanted. He wanted to be told that he was overreacting, that his feelings would pass, that he was absolutely, without-a-doubt straight. But, well, they both knew that wasn't true now. And his mother's subtle confession didn't go unnoticed, the movement drawing Michael's gaze before his eyes flicked up to hers. "Wait. . . Mom?" At least his owlish blink in her direction had swept away some of his dread. Well, for a moment at least.

"That's not— You don't get it." Classic angsty teen response, but it wasn't like he had a good answer. His little confession hadn't even been planned, and Rory's response hadn't exactly given him any answers in the long run. "If he—" he paused, took a sharp breath before continuing, "—thinks I'm into guys, he might. . . If anyone at school finds out—" He trusted Rory implicitly in every other way, but not with this. Not anyone, really, except apparently his mom.

"I mean I sorta said. . . something, but it wasn't, uh, direct?" He didn't sound certain at all but, well, he was too embarrassed to lay out specifics. "I thought he got it." He rubbed at his arm, eyes downcast once again. "But I guess not. But I can't just. . ." say it. "If I'm wrong, he'll never talk to me again." ( Well, at least Michael wasn't denying it right now. )

 she pauses in her reading, hand raised from the page with which she was partially engrossed ( jules hadn't entirely expected her son to come home looking quite so dejected, and it throws her off for a minute. ) it's been exceedingly difficult to talk to michael lately. not that she could blame him. childhood was, in a lot of ways, difficult. and sometimes even more so by the time teenage years came into play. still, concern knits between her brows. he won't look at her, and he's suddenly much quieter than normal. yeah, something is definitely up here.

so her book is moved to one side, jules' eyes focused wholly on her boy as he speaks. voice raw, low. what's the difference between how you think about a best friend and — more ? there's a cluster of blinks on her end, and she straightens up some. was he trying to — oh. — oh. ❛ ah, the age old question, ❜ she leaned in a little now, small smile on her lips as she gestured for michael to come sit with her. ❛ one that can be ... tough to figure out at any age, but especially yours. ❜ and that was putting it rather mildly.

❛ it's not easy. romance and friendship can be pretty closely related. but they can also have significant differences too. do you — do you get nervous around him ? butterflies in your stomach ? think about him a lot ? warmth in your chest ? ❜

i think i was supposed to be into girls by now, he adds, barely audible. and juliet would swear that she just felt her heart break a little. ❛ michael, sweetheart — ❜ and here she reaches for his hand. ( i know things have been rough, but i love you, and i am here. ) ❛ attraction isn't — that's not — exactly how it works. it's not something that you just — decide. it just — is. some people are only attracted to girls. for others it's only boys. sometimes ... it's both. ❜ and here she took a breath, subtly gesturing to herself. ❛ and for some it's a little more fluid, or harder to define. can i — have you told him how you feel ? ❜

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PROMO. yes i'm seriously not making a fancy promo post ( yet ), i literally can't look at photoshop anymore. anyway, uh. do you like FNAF? teenage bullies who are filled to the brim with rage, internalized homophobia, and a hyperfixation on comic books? guys who can't hold down traditional jobs? then you'll love my depiction of the Freddy-masked bully from fnaf4, RORY HUNTER. 18+ only, read my carrd before interacting—you know the drill.

[ladyseidr]

PROMO. yes i'm seriously not making a fancy promo post ( yet ), i literally can't look at photoshop anymore. anyway, uh. do you like FNAF? teenage bullies who are filled to the brim with rage, internalized homophobia, and a hyperfixation on comic books? guys who can't hold down traditional jobs? then you'll love my depiction of the Freddy-masked bully from fnaf4, RORY HUNTER. 18+ only, read my carrd before interacting—you know the drill.

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@florietiae ( for jules, based on this )

Mike didn't talk to his parents. That was just how it was now. At age eleven he had started getting adversarial and by the present, age fourteen, it was largely impossible to get him to open up. For anyone, not just his parents. But, well, up until now he had never had to deal with. . . this.

He'd gone so far as to make the confession to Rory, something along the lines of, "like you more than I should," one late night. And Rory, for what it was worth, hadn't ran. Had even half-confessed the same, face hidden against Mike's shoulder.

And then. . . nothing. Nothing changed, no more discussion was had. It had been a week of the usual—attached at the hip, far too affectionate when alone, but still just totally straight friends. In fact, Michael wasn't even certain he had made his point and that it hadn't flown over Rory's head. He wasn't even certain what his point had been, what he really wanted. Still, that smile, and how red Rory had turned. . .

"How do you. . ." Michael cut himself off, picking at a thread in his opposite glove. He was looking down, not meeting his mother's eyes. This was humiliating. His usual rough facade was weakened, soft around the edges. His voice was unnaturally quiet: "What's the difference between how you think about a best friend and, like. . ." He paused, really focusing on the floor in front of him. ( He only had one best friend; they both knew that. ) "I don't know. More?"

He couldn't say it too directly, scared to admit it and scared for the reaction. Instead, he just offered up, "I need to know if I'm making it weird. I'm. . ." His voice cracked, just barely, when he tacked on, "I think I was supposed to be into girls by now."

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william and jules catching michael and rory kiss or something and rory's freaking the fuck out like

rory: this is so bad your dad's never going to let me back in this house again— michael: i don't think he cares, he's queer anyway rory: rory: yeah well your mom— michael: bisexual rory: rory: ?????????????????

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