#my ocs are funni to me personally but not enough to be like. in a fan game. they are more fun to make my friends rp with ahskdsh
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without further delay... IM DOING ARTFIGHT THIS YEAR!! not all of my characters have updated refs but i put a couple more in the list for fun :3
#white person jumpscare 👀#i do appreciate how neutral i look in that self portrait there#maybe next year ill have refs for donnie and faj. maybe.#but for now. having garrett in the list is enough<3#garrett i love you... the oc that helped me realize i was nonbinary....#...its actually really funny how the only oc in the featured list that doesnt at least partialy use my pronouns is the self-insert#we have both grown since then <3#my art#art fight#art fight team stardust#team stardust#I LOVE YOU ORIOLE I LOVE YOU GARRETT I LOVE YOU CARNYL I LOVE YOU WICK I.. am neutral about you fonkie#i do like how i made you so i could draw jax getting punched
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So uh. Eventually I'll stop drawing these guys so obsessively but not today I guess.
(DND AU where it's just these two, Brent, and Paul on a life mission to annoy Chris the GM by having the pact of "we're only here for Karen's benefit")
Karen is a warlock, Right is a cleric, Paul is a paladin, and Brent is a bard (so he can use bardic inspiration on Karen).
#my characters#fun fact i was watching a trio of streamers do tier lists and i saw them do a tier list about their streamer friends#and they all voted on how the person would die in dnd and the funniest thing to come out of it imo#was the difference of SELF SACRIFICE and under it FORCIBLY SACRIFICED#like who would take one for the team willingly and who would be disposed of with majority vote#then they added an executed for their crimes spot under that so while they were debating some guy they settled on#he was the one that initiated most of the forcibly sacrificed ideas and that means he was eventually executed for his crimes#which ... was really funny to distinguish#the point is thats karen in this non existent campaign#she is here to mess people up and then use her allies as scape goats and they all just go well that sucks peace out im on the chopping bloc#and chris is getting more and more distressed over the fact YOU GUYS CAN LITERALLY TALK YOUR WAY OUT OF IT#but they really dont talk their way out of it like he wants#they instead are like ok cool so im gonna pretend like i didnt see karen kill that guy#and shes like i mean it was an accident i didnt MEAN to kill THAT guy#which is why they all vote to not see it and not bring it up RIP that guy#i saved this canvas as A WARLOCK AND HER CLERIC#which is honestly fitting#anyway i wanna draw fanart again at some point but my joy is stored in the ocs rn#i dont play dnd i just listen to one person talk to me about dnd and thats enough#oops i fell in love
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What do you think about gojo ships
I feel like I'm pretty indifferent to most of them. This is super cringe of me, but whenever I fall super in love with a character I don't often like shipping them romantically with anyone. 💀 (im delusional I know)
It doesn't help that for some reason the jjk fandom (especially twt) is weirdly aggressive about ships. I know it isn't all the shippers and it's mostly just the loud minority, but seeing so much of the discourse has kinda put me off and I don't really engage much with the ships in the fandom except for rarepairs and selfships bc alot of the time those communities are more wholesome and cozy (if that makes sense LOL)
#satofie best ship#andnajdjskdjksnfksndjdj im sorry im cringe 😔😔#anyways i honestly have no idea#its not even about not liking seeing him with others bc i enjoy seeing other ppls gojo × oc/selfships#i just for some reason dont really vibe with any of the existing gojo ships in the series#weirdly enough if i had to choose one i feel like sukugo is the most interesting one LOL they are so funny with eachother#i feel like in a different life they really couldve hit it off#i feel bad for gojohime shippers sometimes#like i personally dont like the ship but oh my god ppl on twitter are so mean about that ship i dont even know why ???#is it bc alot of them prefer him shipped with a guy ?? or they dont like seeing another woman that isnt them with him?? i dont know#but i see so much hate for it and it makes me sad bc like just move on or mute the account so u dont have to see it if you really hate it#the amount of times ive seen some big jjk account qrt a fanart dissing the ship while also getting more likes than the artists post is craz#why do ppl fight over fake people kissing.......#i remember this one account specifically that was obsessed with gojo but they were so snobby about it and like gatekeeping other fans#and they really hated gjhm and for some reason felt the need to make it into a problematic ship instead of just saying#i dont like this and moving on#but they made this whole thing abt how toxic they actually are bc utahime hates gojo#only to (in the same thread) gush over their fave ship which was nanago#and i felt crazy bc its......literally the same dynamic what#like am i missing something ?????#anyways this got a bit wild but pls be nice to eachother and respect eachothers ships#you dont have to justify why u dislike a ship you can just not like it#no need to turn it problematic
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gamers, I miss pollux
#sorry all the twc stuff going on has me feelings nuts about him and rebecca#and I’m also feeling nuts about pollux and maternal figures in general#eyrie has a complicated relationship with them too but pollux like always#is much more readily verbally antagonistic#he’s so verbally antagonistic and esp in twc it’s so great#he has the capacity for great acts of care and love but will also call u a mf pos#I didn’t play book 3 funny enough but I am. I am looking at book 4 demo w questioning eyes#m my beloved the person u are#sorry back to eyrie posting I just miss my nearly five year old OC#pollux the forever oc that you have become m#tbh it might be six years
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i always write really normal really relaxed guys that are really chill and always go with the flow
#my writing#am i cringe enough to put this in the main FL tag. am i really.#unfortunately yes#fallen london#The Doomed Scientist is still caeru's epithet#the scoundrel just doesn't know him so he's The Stranger#also hi im yin the insane guy who writes in second person for fun. i think it's infinitely easier and more relaxing than any other pov#yes there is also something wrong with me#i dont usually post snippets like this to tumblr i just thought this exchange was funny#and also vital character establishment for the like 4 tumblr girlies invested in the yin FL oc lore. the scientist is just like that.#scoundrelventures
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i was trying to make up side characters for @8um8le's space friends and thought "every show needs a grump"
i'm not gonna finish this though, so y'all can have it now o7
#2024#in which crown gets hogtied lmao#stellar city#sc space friends#sf hills#sf crown#sf roach#you might be thinking 'ezra there is already a bug character' to which i say: i like bugs there are never enough bugs#i wanted roach to have a hat that keeps his face in permanent shadow bc it makes him look angrier and more menacing if just a bit#it's also silly thinking like… he looks tall compared to the boys but he's probably only like 5'5'' at best haha#i think it'd be funny if roach was like jarringky kind to everyone other than the main boys#like he takes his hat off and holds it too his chest and does a lil bow with a sweet smile#and the boys are like wtf you only hate us??? and yes yes he does#man… i have never drawn more comics than when i started hyperfixating on sun and moon that's so wild#actually i think almost all the stuff i've drawn since that started in sept have made me so happy#feels like my love of art increased tenfold it's insane#and that love feels the most prominent when i'm just… doodling other people's au and oc on here lately yknow?#so much joy packed in that even if they never see it: this was just some normal person's little world that i get to visit for a little while#that's so special to me#anyway that's probably too much introspection for today so!#thanks for reading these tags if you did :) i hope you all have a lovely day xoxoxo
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realized recently all the wizard ocs i have made fall into 4 categories of motivation
autism
ocd
wanting to use magic to kill people, just to be mean
inanna
#my ocs#so. i guess i should look more into ocd in order to be respectful about it#i didnt intend to include it originally but then when thinking abt characters like yiming where its like yeah hes constantly tormented#by obsessive thoughts about how he could be doing better and is usually miserable as a result#i was like this sounds kind of familiar yk. i dont want to exaggerate it or use it for angst or anything like that bc it feels extremely#tasteless lol#also dont want to portray moral ocd as like a positive productive force for obvious reasons#anyway it is kind of funny to me like what the fuck is wrong with jaime. joanna is the other person in the evil category but she was like#a prodigy with insane skill and the rest of her character stems from there#whereas jaime's character is pretty much just abusive murderous asshole. did he just believe in his own superiority that much#cant stress enough how it is very very difficult to do magic. idk maybe he was like cursed#as a child and so had familiarity with magic from a young age. to an unusual extent yk#sure whatever ig that makes sense. zeolans shield backstory written here for you all live#ok also autism category is rocio and malachi#ocd category is shamash yiming and rocio again#evil category is jaime and joanna#inanna category is inanna#angelica should also be in the inanna category tbh. i have never drawn her she died many years before the story started. shes low on the#lore iceberg lol#should rename the category to girl who is cool and swag
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in a split second of me sketching out fanart for chai i draw this
(sorry for my bad hand writing LMAO)
BAHAAHAHAHAH THIS MADE ME LAUGH SO FREAKING HARD I LOVE IT SO MUCH THANK YOU!!!!
#Fanart#Submission#i guess?#Funny enough this is only me to like one person#*cough* lunar *cough cough*#I’m too nervous to gush about my ocs and story to anyone else JDSSHSSDASD#IM STILL DYING OVER THIS#EVERY TIME I SCROLL BACK UP TO LOOK AT IT I START LAUGHING#Blogsona#Cddwtd chai
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I am forever moderately amused by the fact that I have a biology degree but somehow wound up with a biologist OC whose specialty is not at all what mine is.
like, don't get me wrong, I love amphibians and reptiles. I used to volunteer for a summer camp where I got to show off amphibians and reptiles to kids and tell them all about the creepy crawly critters.
but my specialty is microorganisms. the macroorganisms I've done the most schooling in are invertebrates, in particular molluscs. which are not the purview of a herpetologist.
but character development just sort of happened and now I have a herpetologist OC.
#tbf I know enough that I don't often need to google things when I have Angie talk about what she does#(other than scientific names bc I sometimes forget those)#like I know more about reptiles and amphibians than the average person#you have to get a good base for all the kinds of biology before you can specialize#but I still think it's funny I made Angie a biologist Like Me and she accidentally wound up doing the stuff I Do Not#that's what happens with OCs tho#a lot of times they just sort of...develop a life of their own#as you write them they end up different than you originally planned#which I think is a sign of a good writer#you have to be able to adjust to changing situations#don't dedicate yourself to one ending bc when you get there it might not wind up the proper one#see: the ending of HIMYM vs the ending of LoK#anyways I'll stop rambling in the tags I have to get ready for my MRI#speecher speaks
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i was bored to death at work on friday and wrote out some oc thoughts on marnin and selp and their personalities and i want to reiterate/summarize them here too
marnin is, first and foremost, careful, nervous, and guilty—he is quick to blame himself in any situation and is as careful as he possibly can be, especially around selp (when he is of his own mind). however, marnin is also curious and obsessive, and these things can build up and like consume his thoughts and cause him to act impulsively and without thinking. as careful as marnin tries to be in toeing the lines of their weird relationship, he is DEEPLY curious about everything about selp and of such an obsessive personality (and the two of them being isolated together doesnt really help keep his mind straight either) that he ends up crossing lines he normally wouldnt and then wallowing in guilt about it later. his guilty conscience also keeps him from picking up consciously on the signals selp puts out that beg him over the hazy, unclear lines between them; he picks up those hints only unconsciously, as they feed into his obsession, curiosity, and want.
selp, however, is putting out those signals at almost all times. for all that marnin is careful and reserved, selp is possessive and analytical and jealous. these might not be the first words you would use to describe him upon meeting him (or upon reading the story he features in), but they are his deepest and some of his strongest personality traits, especially in regards to the relationship he and marnin share. don't get me wrong, he tries to be careful with marnin. he knows marnin well and becomes very quickly acquainted with marnin's anxiety and conscience. this is why he doesnt push or act himself, usually. he doesnt want to frighten or distress marnin. but selp is obsessive to a whole other degree. marnin wants to know things; selp NEEDS to know every last thing about marnin in his efforts to "have" and "keep" him. it is why, especially in the beginning, selp takes so many more liberties asking questions, touching and investigating marnin physically, and making decisions for him. once they are on the ship alone among the stars and the boundaries between them begin to blur and selp sees how much this confuses and distresses marnin, that is when he takes more of a backseat role and encourages, flirts, asks leading, dangerous questions, and utilizes this new body language he has never tapped into before but that marnin reacts to. as little as selp understands the physical draw he feels, due to it not being a thing at all in olss culture, he thoroughly enjoys each heightening moment of intimacy between them and truly it is a feat of his restraint that he manages to maintain his more passive role as his need and obsession and desire to "have" increase as their encounters cross further and further into the realm of the sexual. i would say, especially in some of these ways, selp is manipulative, though i would try to argue he never goes too far with his manipulation, and marnin's guilt is entirely his own creation, as selp is always quick to assure him that 1) theyve done nothing wrong, marnin has done nothing wrong and 2) they BOTH acted, mutually
marnin is walking repression and restraint carrying simmering want that is forced to build and bubble over in outbursts that cause him, after the fact, to panic and apologize and beat himself up. selp is a vibrating, horny 600 year old who doesn't even know what sex is but wants it so so bad but restrains himself tremuously, waiting until marnin is on his wavelength and then sending out a steady stream of sub-atomic invitations to partake of his flesh. and they were made for each other.
#dont get me wrong selp is also genuine and sweet and loving#he wants to know EVERYTHING about marnin not just inspect his body sexually. and he is genuinely interested#he is a scientist after all. so he has a genuine scholastic interest in marnin's culture and language and biology#that goes along with his possessive wanting interest in those things#i feel like when im just describing their relationship i do selp no justice. he is funny + understanding + caring + protective + smart#and these are all a part of their relationship too!! but i have somehow struggled to figure out how marnins timid personality would ever be#brave enough to lay his hands on selp and do what both of them want so badly to do. and it does HAVE to be him i have tried.#when selp initiates physically instead of just sending out supersonic waves marnin panics and doesnt know how to react#when marnin takes the initiative and therefore CAN blame himself for a second he is easier to assure him and he gets a little less guilty#every time. after a certain point. he feels more guilty every time until he reaches a breaking poiny and they have an intervention#(marnin had shied away from verbally recognizing the fact that they wanna fuck each other bc he didnt understand it. also taboo.)#and then after the intervention he feels a little better and more confident each time they touch each other (half the time not even sexually#btw) until he is totally comfortable and confident in it#<- shoves all that to the side* ANYWAY HAHA THIS SAYS NOTHING ABOUT ME IN COLLEGE. HAHA THIS HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH ME PERSONALLY.#MY OCS ARENT A REFLECTION OF ME WHEN I MADE THEM THEY ARENT. THEY ARENT.#t
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It's like a soap opera in here........
VERY messy and minimal cause I honestly didn't want to focus too much on this LMAO but. As a fanartist who is jumpscared by canon sometimes I always have to ask myself, "Okay what is the funniest thing I can do with this information"
I mean come on. The sitcom potential is off the charts (this hypothetical kid is gonna have the most bullshit life ever)
(my Summoner goes by they/it!)
#fire emblem#feh#i'm imagining moe pulling a professor sada#sada SPECIFICALLY bc (even though the topic makes me v squeamish personally)#the concept alone is SO outrageously funny to me.#though the god child won't be of flesh. key difference there i guess LMAO#also the idea of alfonse appointing himself step father is SO fucking funny to me#almost like a phoenix wright situation where this random baby is suddenly in the picture and he's like. okay. bet.#i am now going to dedicate the rest of my life to this.#ANYWAYS I'M. ON SOME ADVANCED SHIT. it's not enough for me to say 'i have a thing for alfonse sorry'#i have to make it into the stupidest most unhinged ordeal imaginable.#fe alfonse#fe seidr#sharena#moe tag#my art#not tagging the whole tree. btw. too many of them.#summoner oc
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modern melliwyk would be so funny because she looks like a plucky undergrad but she'd talk like a deeply out of touch grandma
#to be fair this is theoretically true of canon melliwyk but I don't know what old person slang is like in her dnd setting#AND... this didn't occur to me early enough in playing her to just have her talk like a real life grandma and now it's too late to start lo#she's 20. she is also 63. gnomes are funny#the thing is also it's not even that this would happen with all gnomes/ long lived races per se#melliwyk's speech patterns would be Weird and Outdated specifically because she hasn't had a social life in three decades#my OCs#melliwyk
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tbh a large chunk of my affection for vin & my characterization for him comes from the overdone idea that a character who is morally grey/does not have a moral compass/has little empathy for humans and thinks of them as pretty much toys MUST be dark, troubled, threatening, or otherwise made scary- like. i see lots of "this immortal has lost touch with their humanity & it's made them distant, ethereal, stricken with ennui and dissatisfied" but like
dude there is SO much shit to do in the world. losing touch with your humanity blah blah, having no morals seeing humans as playthings whatever- can't someone be doing that and having a Fucking Blast? i just love an immortal, dream-eating demon who acts like he is at fucking disneyland every day, he's thrilled in equal part to experience the gruesome reality of a nightmare and also to pick up a new hobby- all stimuli is good stimuli, all experiences are good experiences, he loves feeling things! he loves feeling terror or sorrow or grief or loneliness by getting to join in on a nightmare or a dream of someone lost or a dream of isolation. It's so COOL and FUN, humans have such rich little lives, aww!
#i think he occupies the same moral space as the lamb from COTL to me#like#he's not good. he's DEFINITELY not good. but he's also just literally not operating on human moral standards. he is literally just here to-#have fun#people who choose immoral or cruel options in video games aren't doing it to be broody or dark or melancholy most of the time#it's usually because it's Funny and you know you Can do bad things in this controlled environment without feeling bad about it#that's vin#it just so happens that humans are about as meaningful to him as video game characters#(sometimes possible to get very attached to and feel sincerely affectionate of but ultimately not like... a REAL person since they'll -#disappear when you turn the game off (or in the case of humans#when their tiny little lifespans run out))#ok enough oc hot takes#my ocs#my oc#vin#vinegyaru#headcanons#character thoughts#i just love making a character whose primary motivation is 'have fun' but is Not constrained by morals#he just wants to have fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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[Image ID: a lineup of 4 non-player characters from my D&D campaign. from left to right. first is a tiefling with orange-red skin, short brown hair, and grey eyes. their left horn is broken. they wear a black cloak, brown leather armour, striped pants and are holding a hunting knife. next is a half-elf man with dark brown skin. his dark brown hair has a grey streak and he is holding a cane. He has two designs. the first wears a black coat, grey pants, white gloves, and little round glasses. the second is a ringmaster-style costume: green tailcoat with silver embroidery, white pants, and he's also wearing some pale blue eyeshadow. In both his shoes are splattered with blood. Next is a white human man with white hair and red eyes. He wears a black suit with red lapels and a grey waistcoat. He is holding a wooden stake. Lastly, a human woman with brown skin and hair. Her eyes are red and she wears a white collared shirt with poofy sleeves and a long grey skirt. She has a chatelaine. They are all standing in a row against a grey background. End ID]
lineup for a dnd campaign heavily based off of curse of strahd. left to right: ezra d'avenir, dr. rudolph van richten, rictavio, lon godfrey, moira godfrey
#ezra is a revamp van richten is the Same and lon+moira are original but inspired by dracula.#dnd#dungeons and dragons#art#artists on tumblr#dnd npcs#ocs#<-sure? whatever#curse of strahd#not a fan of the guy (strahd) myself. he's dead in my version and its a whole thing#Anyways really happy with rictavio/van richtens designs esp his face and hair. not so happy with ezra but I'm satisfied enough.#kind of obsessed with their dynamic. very fun to write because van richtens fucked up but means well really but has a weird definition of#meaning well. and ezra is like the kid whos unpacked a lot of the baggage they got from her parent and no longer sees the parent as remotel#good. which fucks with van richten because he very much wants to be a good parent after losing his family. so its interesting#also im such a sucker for reveals so obviously van richtens disguise thing piqued my interest. his commitment to the bit is so funny to me.#if the players dont figure it out im going to cry /j#but fr his design is fun because he has to be believably a silly storytelling ringmaster guy but also a Renowned Monster Hunter so I have t#capture that duality and hidden side. hes constantly keeping secrets and acts manipulative a lot so he's a mysterious person which was fun#to work on. details like the blood splatter and him only wearing silver and the makeup are just awesome to me. god I love character design.#minor blood tw#knife tw#ALSO did similar things with the godfreys who are secretly vampires. details like their hands being triangle shape language wise than the#rest of them or them only having gold jewelery/metals are meant to clue people into that nature. i think the red eyes were a little to far#maybe. might change that one detail or simply omit it from their verbal descriptions until its the correct dramatic time to.#ravania tag
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the funniest thing about being bi and having a self-shipper partner + qpp who are both mainly/exclusively attracted to men is that when they see a neat woman they immediately look at me and go ‘bee you should selfship with her’ I love it
#sea thoughts#I’m some form of Demiro I think so crushes are hard to come by and especially ones that stick#so it makes me kinda sad in a way bc I wanna have fun and kiss fictional guys too!#I mean I already kind of do. Moxxi Borderlands is… c.cool#and also Holly and Butler :o) it’s polyamory btw. So cool#also I kind of wanna make an oc to kiss Mama amnesty?? That would be fun. I like her#why do I have like. A specific thing for women with thick southern accents who have butch swag.#I could also kiss Aubrey n Hollis too methinks.#also weirdly enough I have the instinct to ship my adventure time oc Princess wizard with raggedy princes??#she deserves someone who will listen to her poetry#I think it’s pretty neat :o)#also the Mad Moxxi kissing would be ESPECIALLY FUNNY considering my boys selfship with HANDSOME JACK LMAO#The image of two couples walking side by side and the one person from each looks over at each other in absolute disgust with the#bisexual flag overlayed on top of them and an arrow pointing to them that reads ‘exes’. It’s that#the oc concept I have is a . I don’t remember the name for mushroom specific biologist rn but they’re that#That almost fucking died and fused with a sentient mushroom colony. Normal Pandora moment#they met Moxxi (before almost dying) because they went to her bar for (and guess what)#A PLACE TO WORK WHERE THEY WOULDNT BE BOTHERED LMAO#THEY JUST LIKED THE BG NOISE AND WERE LIKE “ok well I mean. It’s moxxi’s. People are here for… reasons. If I just sit all the way in the#back here where it’s dim people will leave me alone.”#And I think they end up staying til closing and moxxi almost misses the fact they’re there before she’s like “???who tf is this lanky littl#nerd doing WORK back here?? AT MAD ME’S?? HELLO?”#ohbmu god they’re rhack but yuri and less toxic. That was on accident. Oh my god#anyways something something a line from a fic I read once#”the only people allowed in the back room at Moxxi’s were either very generous donators or people who were as cute as a button”#Um. Yea#If you know what fic it is don’t look at me#I’m 18 now I do what I want. Bitch#Anywaysss back 2 work
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ive already said this before about how ive felt so disconnected from art. its all just lines and poses and specific distances away from the camera, layers of color... something triggered a switch in my brain that is making things just not feel real anymore.
and its like. ok. whatever. its still fun to draw and i get very happy when i manage to draw something good. but i lack the motivation! so.. lemme think.. ah! my characters! perhaps i should try to actually flesh them out as real people, with a past and personalities and relationships..
and the more i read about it the more disconnected i feel. is that all life is about? traits and backstories and being bound to everything that happened to you.. the ways you think and act being somewhat easily traceable to your history..character arcs. stories just being a means to an end(?)
and i also want a world for my ocs to live in that is a bit believable and justifies them, but every bit of advice and apparently common worldbuilding things have all just been done before.
is there any chance of making something that matters when its all been done before or if everything else feels unreal and abstract. is there a point to anything
#the more i try to understand how things work the more things fall apart. and when it becomes unbearable all i can do is distract myself#is this what the dissociation all the cool kids(/s) keep talking about feels like..?#its like losing the ability to see a tower as a tower and just knowing its all just bricks and cement. you cant see meaning anymore#the worst part ive felt while coming up with ideas for my ocs is the conflicts and past part. their characterization#ill think like lol wouldnt it be funny if he kept being fucked over many times and over and over again. wouldnt that be fun to make and rea#and then it hits me. thats just my life. its all conflict after conflict and things going wrong exactly at the worst (but funniest!) time#its like everything is a joke really. or when its not you still dont know why some pieces of art are 'better' than others#i know deep down it doesnt matter if its been done before. i argue for that. the spin every individual puts on an idea is what makes it >#>worth it of course. but i feel like snapping my own neck when i see something that is similar or just like something i made or >#>was literally just thinking of doing it. i never do anything! and when i finally get to it someone already did it! fucking shoot me alread#or i will look at some drawing and be like ah yes. this is the distance between the eyes. the way they drew the muzzle is like a box. mhm#i can do that. i see how the artist constructed it. its doable! and then i go try and fail miserably despite seemingly knowing how its made#everything i ever think is wrong. ive never been right about anything. or if i have..someone already said it before anyways#genuinely hopeless. i wonder if being mentally ill is the cause of this or if i was ill enough it would all spiral back into making sense#i feel like a baby just coming to the realization that a stick figure isnt really a person but some lines and circles and dots#im deteriorating mentally so fast. i think one day ill just collapse on the floor and black rot is going to pour out of my scalp#long post#dextxt
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