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supporter-of-my-fav-ships · 2 months

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I can't get over this...

#the umbrella academy #spoilers #five x lila #fivela #no words needed #five/lila #my new trauma #fivelila #☂️🚆🍓

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biggest-gaudiest-patronuses · 1 year

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going through my old journals as part of therapy homework and i'm reading a section written in the emotional wreckage of a full-on breakdown when i get hit with this line:

There is never a satisfying answer to ‘Why didn’t they love me?’

like wow babe. good fucking point

#like you were on the ground biting the carpet and dry sobbing while you wrote that and still. good fucking point #not a shitpost #cptsd #and it's true. there's never a satisfying answer #the truth is i know why i wasn't loved #i analyzed my parent's traumas and abuse to death. i understand why i alienated and was alienated from my siblings #i know why my mom was too overwhelmed to be capable of nurturing #i know why my dad vanished into addiction and avoidance #the details of our cycles of trauma and cptsd and family history i have a phd in all of it #i understood perfectly. i spent years studying and now i knew the answer #and guess what? IT WAS NOT SATISFYING!!!#because they still didn't love me! and i still couldn't change that!#it was still a completely unsatisfying state of affairs!#so like. when the people who are supposed to love you...don't.#when the people who are supposed to take care of you...fail to #you can look for answers and reasons and explanations #but that's not actually going to FIX your situation.#and it's probably not within your ability TO fix the situation. (and definitely not your job)#because you don't need answers--you need a new situation #*inserts Just Walk Out. You Can Leave!!! (Running Skeleton) Meme*#and yes. walking out isn't always possible.#but for you i hope it will be one day soon. and i hope you build the courage to take that leap.#stepping away from the people who failed to love you...it feels like being untethered but also like being lighter than air #new and scary. immensely relieving. the future opens up. empty but empty like a canvas. blindingly bright until your eyes adjust #like climbing out of a pit you called home and for the first time realizing how bright the light of day can truly be #when you aren't just getting glimpses from the bottom of a hole

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allykatsart · 8 months

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The Fall of Joy

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An idea that I pray does not happen. I stg Emily better be safe and happy these next two episodes-

Hypothetical Fallen Angel Emily! Because this angst would not leave my brain. It hurts to leave heaven, but she won't be alone. If Emily was cast from heaven, I think the hotel would welcome her with open arms...

Commission me

#hazbin hotel #Hellaverse #charlie morningstar #vaggie #seraphim emily #emily seraphim #Hazbin hotel au #my art #comic #does this count as an AU?#artists on tumblr #fanart #art #the angst was too strong #also emily with that short haircut was v cute #something something religious trauma has done something to me man #i feel emily oof #new episodes today tho!!!!!#im excited and fucjing terrified

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magpiesketchins · 3 days

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It's midnight so I'm posting bi/pansexual men

I have a lot of feelings about Logan with an ownership kink please someone give me an excuse to talk about Logan with an ownership kink I'm dying

#Hi new followers it's a good time to let you know that self-indulgent stuff like this is what I created this blog for #in case you haven't scrolled far enough back in my art tag #i lost a duolingo streak freeze for this #worth it #processing of trauma through kink my beloved #anyway #suggestive #deadpool and wolverine #deadpool & wolverine #poolverine #deadclaws #peanutbub #deadpool x wolverine #deadpool #logan #wolverine #magpie.png

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bunnieswithknives · 1 month

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I love pain and agony

part (2/2): prev

#fop #fairly oddparents #fop a new wish #fairly oddparents a new wish #fop dev #fop peri #dev dimmadome #fop nature AU #art #digital art #fanart #comic #ableism tw #child abuse tw #medical trauma tw #I shoulda used actual comic formatting lol but it was too late now LOL #This is both for people who wanna see Dev comfort and also people who dont wanna read my whole fic #also because I think ive been explaining most of Devs feelings in tags and I wanted to actually show them off somewhere

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toughbunnyforever · 7 months

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boy and the heron haircut

#i was taking a break from drawing mha #but then the new chapter came out #and i was compelled #anyways hori watched boy and the heron and was like izuku should get a head trauma related haircut #confirmed #mha spoilers #mha 414 #mha ch 414 #bnha #mha #izuku midoriya #midoriya izuku #deku #my art #digital art #digital illustration

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anna-scribbles · 18 hours

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emma dupain cheng on the brain😽🎀

more:

#ml #miraculous #miraculous ladybug #my art #emma dupain cheng #emma agreste #(i think that may the more popular tag for her lol. she is a dupain cheng in my heart though)#plagg #she is thirteen almost fourteen here btw. because i love circularity #emma dupain cheng to me is like. what if emilie or adrien grew up in a stable home with no trauma. that’s emma #and she is theater kid✨#and adrien and marinette are soooo so so supportive and love going to her shows and are so proud of her #/marinette has to be held back from trying to manipulate the school play casting process to secure emma the lead every year #but then emma sets her sights on bigger things(broadway west end)#and adrien pumps the breaks big time #and he’s so torn between supporting her interests and wanting so badly to keep her from like. being a child actor. having a job. b #being pulled from school #and emma gets upset bc he is standing in the way of her dreams #and they fight about it:(#and then emma discovers plagg and convinces him to help her sneak out and go to her callback that she secretly auditioned for #(and forged all the parent signatures for lol)#and. well. plagg CAN be bribed #and also she just reminds him so much of baby adrien🤧 he is a softie #and she runs away to her callback. and adrien and marinette wake up the next morning and see on the news that there is a new chat noir.#anyway. not that i’ve thought about it or anything

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volaenii · 9 months

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𝘞𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘠𝘰𝘶 𝘒𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘔𝘦, 𝘑𝘦𝘳𝘶𝘴𝘢𝘭𝘦𝘮?

Thank you all for your support and happy new year!

#trigun #trigun maximum #vash the stampede #volaeart #this will be the last art I post in 2023!#tysm for the support on here even if I don’t post much #fun fact abt this drawing is it was actually my art final for my college class and I had to +#go up in front of my classmates and teacher and explain my drawing process ((embarrassing))#I had a hard time with this drawing and there was many times where I almost gave up #shoutout to the couch trauma server for keeping me sane #my favorite part of this drawing is the hair and the black parts of it #very vague volume 10 reference haha #anyways! happy new year everyone 🤍

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hustlebonezzz · 13 days

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My disease, my infection I am so impure

Reptile - Nine Inch Nails

#elden ring #messmer the impaler #shadow of the erdtree #oc x canon #tarnished #original character #artists on tumblr #oc #in front of my salad?#something something snake man has extreme self hatred and religious trauma #Stoli being the wonderful god hating mailman gf is here to help #RIP Messmer you would have LOVED the Downward Spiral by NIN #in other news #i think their official ship name is mailwives #also sorry if ur seeing this again i uploaded the wrong version 😭🙏#mailwives

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disgracefulthings · 21 days

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At a Peak Lord Meeting

Yue Qingyuan: Shidi, why do you have a child with you?

Shang Qinghua: This is Wei Ying, he is my new son. Also if the Jiang clan asks about me, pretend you don't know me

Shen Qingqiu: Should I even ask?

Shang Qinghua: They were abusing him! If they are going to mistreat him then they don't deserve him!

Yue Qingyuan, sighing: Fine then

Shang Qinghua: When we get home I will introduce you to A-Yao, your new big brother

Wei Ying, tearing up: What about shijie and chengcheng?

Shang Qinghua: Fine, I'll kidnap them too

Yue Qingyuan: Shidi, please!

#sqh: its not kidnapping - it's forced adoption #new au: sqh adopts all the abused mdsz characters #sqh: should i confront my own family trauma?#sqh: nah - i'll just give a bunch a kids a loving home and never think about it #some demon noble: you really should get a heir #mbj looking at all kids sqh has 'adopted': i have enough #shang qinghua #airplane shooting towards the sky #wei ying #wei wuxian #yue qingyuan #shen qingqiu #mxtx #svsss #mdzs #scum villian self saving system #mo dao zu shi #the grandmaster of demonic cultivation #the untamed

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crabsnpersimmons · 2 months

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New 'Do, Same You now on Ao3!!

it's here! my silly hairdresser AU that sparked from my silly page of doodles is now a fic!! i hope you'll give it a read!

In the mood for something new? Come on in for a new hairdo! Day or night, dusk or dawn, Find what you're looking for at the Shooting Star Salon!

EDIT: they're handing out coupons for the salon! 20% off all services! Not valid with other offers. Valid until end of January 2025. (some of them are drawn in crayon by Clip himself 🖍️)

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viperra1 · 5 months

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tw: blood, suicidal ideation (? probably ? it's Boone we're talking about so. yeah)

so make it one for my baby and one more for the road.

#i love him. he's my blorbo #granted that man has seen so much trauma and did participate in genocidic mission but he's a blorbo still #i think about his responce abt bitter springs where he goes like. no. i would've only needed one bullet to make things right that day #and. well. i'm. uhhhhh. i think about this response a totally normal amount #also little bitter springs easter egg: his hands here are covered in blood. thanks y'all just know that i suffer from this agony as well!#fallout new vegas #craig boone #boone #fnv boone #fallout nv #fonv #my art #fanart #fallout

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dismas-n-dismay · 4 months

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I'm not fucking joking when I tell you I saw this panel and literally started sobbing and crying over seeing my babygirl buying chocolate with just fucking quarters. This is the people's jason todd for real, thank you Juni Ba

#actually was just squeaking and squaking over this like oh my god real jason rep #gotta make him a loser boy flag or pfp #love when my bbg is a boyfailure whos just trying to do right #bro has no equipment and risks his life everyday because hes emo and has trauma /hj #if he doesnt get a hug from bruce by the end of this and a new pair of clothes ill cry #pls give me a fic w this version of jay getting hugs and love from his bros #bro looks like he has one pair of clothes he can actually stand to wear with his autism #and he never takes that mask off even if it kills him #i know his hair is matted #boy wonder dc #boy wonder #dc comics #jason todd #red hood #dc black label #barking and woofing and waughing #jason todd kinnie #red hood kinnie #batfam #batfamily #batman #batman comics #batman jason todd #damian wayne #damian al ghul #damian wayne al ghul #jason todd wayne #boy wonder preview #scruffy jason todd #loser boy jason todd

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demaparbat-hp · 1 year

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I believe July is trying to tell you something, Nico.

#NEW HYPERFIXATION EVERYONE #trigun #trigun stampede #vash the stampede #vashwood #nicholas d wolfwood #wolfwood #I'm new here I don't know the tags help #tristamp #vash x wolfwood #trigun meme #trimax #vashwood week #Funny how these things work #I had no idea of what trigun was about #Then I see like ONE picture of Wolfwood and I'm like #This is it. You're the one. My favourite character ever. I love you.#And then I look up what the series is about.#Crazy that Nico actually fits my type of character to a t #Dark gloomy type who hides behind irony and sarcasm and dark humor? Check. Childhood trauma? Check.#Unknown intentions at first but eventually falls in love with the one they should/must betray? Check.#He was made for me. I know it.#So uh.#I should really really look up the tags for this.#trigun 98 #I guess.#Time to do field research #Btw is there a discord for Trigun/Vashwood stuff? There must be. I want in.#tristamp vash #I did this in like 30 min and TOMBI was playing in my head the entire time. I need help. The series's great but the song is killing me.

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eyeofthenewt1 · 2 years

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chronic pain

#ashton greymoore #critical role fanart #bells hells #gesture drawing #Ashton having real visible cracks coming from his head and chronic pain can actually be something so dear to me #-a person with chronic headaches and migraines who also feels like their skull is a brittle stone being picked at with hammer and chisel #Is Ash gonna become my my new projection blorbo like Caleb was a couple years back? Tune in next time to see..#Would make sense honestly tho cause trauma was my biggest issue back then and chronic pain is now so....#annathenewt art #my art #critrole

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illogicalvulcans · 1 month

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[Fic Book Covers 11+12/?] Integrative Approaches by Nnm / @mouseonamoose

Demonology and the Tri-Phasic Model of Trauma

As soon as Aubrey Thyme, psychotherapist, had opened her office door and seen her new client, Anthony J. Crowley, sitting in her waiting area, she was observing and assessing him. At first glance, she paid attention to the following: --His clothing was expensive and stylish; --He wore very strange but noticeable cologne; --His relationship to the seat he occupied could only, very loosely, be described as “sitting;” --He looked angry; --He was wearing sunglasses. What Aubrey Thyme, a professional, thought, upon first seeing her new client was: you’re going to be a fun one, aren’t you?

Angel-Centered Therapy Through A Multicultural Lens

“I’d love to meet with you,” Davey said, apologetically, when he had been called up by a fellow looking to initiate therapy, “but I’m all booked up for months.” “Are you sure?” The fellow said, through a poor connection that crackled. Davey had been sure. And yet. Right there in his calendar was a blank spot, just a few days away, which he had somehow completely overlooked before. “How about that…I’ve got Wednesday at eleven, if you can make that work.” “What a miracle,” the fellow said, “that would be just the perfect time.”

#fic book cover #fanfic cover #fic rec #good omens #demonology and the tri-phasic model of trauma #angel-centered therapy through a multicultural lens #Nnm #illogical makes #these have been sitting in my drafts for...a long while bc they didn't feel quite right #until i was struck with: they look so brand-new-textbook-right-off-the-shelf. they look too neat and pristine #they need some wear and tear. they need to look like the paperbacks i read 100000 times in middle/high school #and once that was added it really came together imo #anyway. these fics are so lovely & gentle & supportive and i read them at a time when i really needed a story that said w/ its whole self #'things can and will get better. it may be difficult. it may be painful. it may not be the same as it was before. but it will get better.'#so thank you for that <3

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