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clawsoutspotsoff · 4 months ago

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"Meowdy, purr-dner." "I will shoot you."

we were talkin' 'bout wild west aus and of course I went into a trance and drew this instead of sleeping

#miraculous ladybug #miraculous #marinette dupain cheng #adrien agreste #miraculous art #ml art #art by mirrankei #western au #chat noir #ladybug #adrien is a rich kid who “borrowed” some clothes from his father's staff when he ran away #but a lot of it is still more fancy-looking and expensive than practical #marinette's stuff is more ragged from use and practical but she embroiders them herself as a hobby #I couldn't figure out how to realistically give the cowboy hat cat ears sadly #a failure on my part #ml au

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hinamie · 6 months ago

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gripping bathroom counter staring myself down in the mirror i have Got to learn not to place all my sense of inherent value into my art how can i get it through my skull that i am more than what i like and more than what i make

#hina.txt #talking to a wall basically :(#when ur hobby and ur skills are your favourite things abt yourself bc u genuinely cannot stand everything else #its not good its not healthy i cant take criticism bc all my self-worth is in my art and everything feels like a personal fucking attack #when im at all unsatisfied with what ive made it feels like im a complete failure #i feel this constant need to push myself n surpass myself bc if i stagnate i'll lose the main thing abt myself i find pride in #this is emo as fuck sorry im normal :)#bad bad mood today ghjdsghd Cold Fury into shame so fast itll give u whiplash

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loderlied · 2 months ago

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seeing everyone do their their yearly art recap thingy or whatever it’s called beautiful gorjus work but i want to float face down in a river until i’m indistinguishable from a raisin

#not because i don’t like the stuff to be clear. just because it reminds me of my own failures this year lmao #i really should just stop all together tbh. but then it’s like i spent so much time on this stupid fucking hobby already #sunk cost fallacy something something #but then again isn’t it even more embarrassing that my art still looks like that after so much time #like shouldn’t that be another motivator to just stop bothering lol #romeo’s wretched rambles

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featherymainffins · 8 months ago

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Kinda fucked up how all the people I know are like "Yeah I know what I want in my life. I want to work in X field and I want/don't want a long-term partner who I'm going to marry, I want kids and-"

and I'm there just like 🧍

#like wow ok #i have no idea what i want man I'm just doing what's required of me #or more like i think i know some of the things i want but I'm actively beating them up every day and instead choosing #what i consider to be my duty #like yeah I really want to work in design and you know the dream is character design and concept art but that's unrealistic #and any design would do. but that's selfish so like lol no. psychology it is. social work if i fail at that. it's an acceptable #compromise. it's not what I want but it is what i am ok with subjecting myself to.#whenever it looks like I might fail a class at university i get really anxious but also really excited #because on one hand I'm failing to take care of my duties and responsibilities. on the other if they kicked me out nobody could #say i didn't try. i could just say that I'm too stupid. i could say that i don't have what it takes. id be a failure but not out of my #volition. they could tell me that im stupid or inferior but they couldn't label me selfish.#and then id just fuck off to work as a florist or maybe id just work in a smokes shop or anything low stakes like that #while I'd be looking for a job in design. hell i don't even need a job in that field; id love to just work a simple job where after clocking #out i could just go home and partake in my hobbies. like i wouldn't even need to have it as my field of work id be perfectly #content with posting character designs online and sometimes getting a small buck by selling pins and dolls and etc #that's definitely what i want in life. but that's fucked up and selfish and would make me a failure and then i would never #be able to even dream of earning humanity. so. doing my duty it is

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traumagenica · 10 months ago

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#all caps #vent #vent post #venting #text post #failure #fear of failure #low self worth #mental illness #<< admin tags #IM A FAILURE IM A FAILURE IM A FAILURE #I NEVER AMOUNTED TO ANYTHING #I CRUSHED MY FAMILYS DREAMS OF FINANCIAL SECURITY WITH MY SELFISHNESS #I THREW AWAY RELATIONSHIPS I CHERISHED JUST BECAUSE I WAS FUCKING SAD #I WORRY EVERY DAY IS THE DAY MY HUSBAND LEAVES ME #I STILL DONT HAVE KIDS OR A HOUSE OR EVEN A FUCKING DOG #I NEVER WENT TO GRAD SCHOOL #IM TOO SICK TO HAVE HOBBIES OUTSIDE MY OWN HOME #I CAN'T EVEN MAINTAIN MY HOME #THE ONLY THING I WAS EVER GOOD FOR WAS MY BRAINS BUT I LOST THEM #I HAVENT CREATED ANYTHING BEAUTIFUL OR PROFOUND OR WORTHWHILE #I HAVENT MADE BANK #I HAVENT DONE ANYTHING TO MEDICALLY TRANSITION #IVE NEVER KISSED A GIRL #I STILL CANT AFFORD TO VISIT MY NEPHEW #I STILL BARELY KNOW MY SISTER #I HATE IT HERE I HATE IT HERE I HATE IT HERE #SOMEONE LET ME OUT OF MY OWN HEAD I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE

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queenychu · 1 month ago

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I hope one day I will be able to love writing again and it quits making me sick to my stomach.

#chu talks #Wish life didn't get so busy that I didn't hsve time to work on my stuff for now literal years plural #and hate everything now. all my jokes are supremely unfunny #any readers i had are onto the next thing. anyone who started gym access isnt gonna give a fuck about the ending now #feeling like a failure about a hobby ough

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dollelujah · 1 month ago

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This is gonna be my last tiktok on the platform (unless I think of something REALLY funny). It's been such a weird, fun 10 years of collecting and 5 years of posting goofy ass videos. Like a babe with a spectacular ass, I'm sad to see this period in my life go, but I love watching it leave

#I had a revelation the other day that I got into collecting because I thought I was never going to draw again #But I still wanted to have a creative outlet #But now I'm starting pencils on my comic after 20 years since I dropped out of art school #It's not a failure to end a hobby in my opinion #I met wonderful talented people in this community with beautiful souls #But I just don't think I'm going to be happy if I continue collecting dolls #Keep following me tho cause I'll likely have a huge sale post/giveaway later in the year #I want to hold off on giving everything away in case this is just some deep depression talking

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luv-again · 2 months ago

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sobbing bc i gotta reread my own goddamn fic to remember whatever diabolical theming, motifs and plot points i cooked up in development so i can continue carrying it throughout the piece and NOT derailing the entire story by forgetting and going off on a nonsense tangent that has no depth

#bee blabs #GOD i hate writing #but i love it still #it's just so hard to think and remember shit #esp now that my attention is divided #nevertheless i am pushing through #i refuse to succumb to failure #i have to get this part of the fic done #then i can just drop it until i finish working or sumn #when i can return to it with a clearer head and without the crippling time crunch #bc this fic is my magnum opus in ideation #and i want it to be so literally as well #i've wanted to write out cryptic castle like this for so long #i just wanna do it right (by the audience and myself)#there's so much i want to explore within this context #and if it doesn't come through #i'll be genuinely devastated #i'm never joking when i say i tear pieces of my soul and inject them into my work #this is why they take so long or dribble on the way they do #i love what i do but i'm also a chronic perfectionist #i will AGONISE over everything until it's at a standard where i don't hate it #writing isn't just a hobby for me guys #it's a craft - an art #and i will die a thousand times in my endeavour to hone it and find my style

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arsenicflame · 6 months ago

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i will beat the depression slump... i will beat it.... i will........ (sobs)

#doing anything just feels like it takes more energy than i can imagine right now #which feels stupidddddd because all i want to do is engage in my hobby #it should not be that hard to start a task i know ill like #but it feels insurmountable #and i know what it is! im not ignorant to that! and i know i should give myself the grace about it #but i feel like i get so little done even on a good day that doing even less feels like a failure i cannot stand #and theres nothing i can do to change that feeling #nyxtalks #and i guess i keep thinking about all the other things on my list. gifs. replies. charms. write up my infinite ideas. something. anything #i have too much on my plate and i served myself #and those are just the fun things. chores. i gotta learn to drive. basic self care #and instead. i lie here not even having a fun waste of time time

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bambino1294 · 6 months ago

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not posting anything of what I’m into rn for fear the interest will leave me

#rambles #when I tell you I’ve had no hobbies for WEEKS #like okay I religiously played one game for like a week but I mean writing lmao #haven’t written anything in fucking forever and I just wanna post smth but I CANT #refuse to say I’ll do anything because I’ll manifest my failure fr #esp since the next 8 weeks at work are going to be hell on Earth because it’s the start of the academic year #and my department is going to go mental #anyway I’m trying to write… trying #I have ideas and I’m trying to keep them alive by reading a ton of fics #but I refuse to say what it is #though alas it is not something currently posted #because god forbid I finish an already published work. apparently #anyway that’s all #😗✌🏻#mayhaps I’ll brainstorm while I room 500 classes this week

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the-bot-marg0t · 6 months ago

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touchlikethesun · 1 year ago

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#perfect jan 1st plans #sobbing in the fetal position under the bed like a child #god today sucks #this is why i use escapism so much #i try not to for one single goddamn day and look where that got me #seriously considering disappearing #it’s been years of this #years of one crisis after another and nothing ever gets better #everyone says it gets better eventually but i’ve felt like this since i was 12 #over a decade of my life #struggling and wishing i was dead #and for what? i have nothing to show for it #no accomplishments barely any meaningful relationships no hobbies #just pain and pain and failure and embarrassment and pain #fucking hell #i’m so stupid i’m so worthless i’m so pathetic i can’t keep living with myself #vent

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alchemiclee · 8 months ago

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sometimes I think about how everyone is so obsessed with how they look and think other peoples' opinions are what determine if they are attractive or not. by that logic, i'm one of the ugliest people to ever exist because i've never, to my memory, had a random person tell me i'm attractive in any way just by looking at me. I've only had people give me pity compliments after I say something like the last sentence lmao. but I don't accept those. I don't want your pity

#lee text #random thoughts with lee #i'm doing fine without being told i'm attractive. be like me. stop complaining about looks ans calling yourself ugly fbbfnjdsnns #i only think people with good personalities are attractive and pretty si if you care so much what others think:#get a better personality LOL #(what i mean by that is work on yourself and stop trying to use physical appearance to get what you want. its weird and wrong)#((wrong in many ways like looks dont last. thats superficial and doesnt matter. beauty is subjective #YOU WILL NEVER BE ATTRACTIVE TO EVERYONE so give up and find a new hobby))#i feel like this will sound super mean to certain people who have what i call Ugly Syndrome (they think theyre ugly and blame failure on it)#but these people never seem to listen to listen to logic and feel bad about themsleves no matter what you say #even if you call them beautiful multiple times a day. so who cares at that point fhdhhdjjsj i cant help them and they annoy me #i guess thats the unempathetic side of my autism coming out. i live on an empathy sliding scale ive come to realize #lee rambles #if this does offend you maybe think about it. really think about how to fix that issue within yourself. i genuinely hope you get better #also people who use “i do it for myself” but its obvious they actually care more about how others see them. you also suck. get well soon.#I dont want anyone replying to this getting offended or well actuallying me or something. either take the tough love or go love yourself #one of the gremlins in this brain doesnt empathy. its me. the unempathetic gremlin. but i still hope you recover quickly.

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websitesdotcom · 10 months ago

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I love having hobbies this shit is so awesome . I think this is why i’m feeling unsure abt my career path

#i love every day thinking what do i want to do?#draw? write? play guitar? write music? tune utau? animate? play games? design character?#i cant imagine locking myself into One Thing Forever yk… every day i want to do different things #and ik i can have a job and also have hobbies but when i was doing my internship i was always So tired when i got home #i didnt have any creative energy #i think thats why i want to work on indie games… more likely for me to have more than 1 job to do on it #though the issue is i dont really care about the programming part of working on games… whoops !#anyways. i think with all the stuff i would love to do on a game the ideal job for me is not something that can actually sustain me #financially . so thats good 👍#what evarrrrr i dont care (lying). i started failure girl cover yesterday and its going well first verse done #speaking

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figurativepieceoftrash · 1 year ago

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So tempted to write but then I remember how terrible I feel when the inevitable poor engagement/bad stats hit and I just

Before deciding it's definitely better for my mental health not to 😭

#keep thinking my relationship w/ writing is getting better and then it nosedives again #ik it's a bad look on me but it's seriously so difficult to write when ik everything is gonna bomb 🙃#everyone tells me not to care about stats and I definitely shouldn't but my brain berates me for poor engagement regardless #I try not to compare myself to others but when fandom is so actively communal and opportunities for interaction are inherently linked to #fandom cred/displayed engagement metrics it's really tough 🙃#and then I hate myself for venting ab things bc it probably comes across as so pathetic and self pitying #and yeah it deffo is #but it's very difficult for me to be complacent with mediocrity/failure in my hobbies 🙃🙃🙃#trash talking #personal #vent #ahaha don't look pls I'm experiencing feelings

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raplinesmoon · 2 years ago

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i think the thing that no one tells you about being forced into being a high achieving child/teen is how much it comes to fuck you over later in life when you can’t do anything without holding yourself to an insane level of perfectionism and then you realize it’s basically leeched all the fun out of any hobbies you created for yourself and left you with a shell of a personality

#like I was having this convo with my mom about how I used to do so much in high school and college #and granted a lot of it was to look smart or well rounded for college and dental school apps which is I guess it’s own thing #but now that I don’t have another goal to work towards my life feels more stagnant and I guess I feel like more of a failure?#even though that’s absolutely not true I just see other people always on the grind and feel guilty for not wanting to do as much anymore #bc I’m tired and burnt out from everything #and the worst part is that it extended into my hobbies too #like I used to love baking and painting and being creative until I just set such insane standards for myself #like if something wasn’t perfect or aesthetic or worthy of being displayed as like a trophy #my effort and the process and time invested into it counts for nothing #not to be controversial but sometimes writing feels that way too #i think it’s a mental battle I have with myself but it makes me sad how many hobbies I used to have and enjoyed #that were then destroyed by burn out and perfectionism and imposter syndrome #this turned into a rant #will probably delete later #but I just had to say it somewhere #isi rambles

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