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man-made-misery · 8 months ago

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TW for talk of funerals and grief down here 🖤

#my grandma's funeral was this week #and weirdly i feel so calm about it all now #for ages i couldn't process that she was gone #but now i feel less sad and so much more at peace with the fact that she's in a better place #i feel like i can finally move on from grieving now and start remembering the happy times rather than crying every time someone mentions her #anyway it feels like it'll never get better but it turns out it does a bit

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azaracyy · 3 months ago

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"true partner" click here for the uquiz created by @/niconicomuda on twitter

#morphomon #digimon #this was trending on twt a good few weeks ago #ofc me being me i wasn't there and only learned abt it bc a friend dm'd me about it lol #anyway i am very happy to get morphomon. though...#advanced apology for personal irl rambling that may be tmi ahead. and cw: death of family member #so like. i feel it turns out to be some life foreshadowing bc around a week later (which is last week btw) my maternal grandma passed #idk about u but if you know the symbolism of butterfly and morpho particularly. it's about change and rebirth and all that stuff #the funeral home we spent a few days in had the morpho butterfly as its logo. i couldn't stop thinking about it #so despite the sadness it's like idk. a tiny bit of hope i guess?#my grandma won't have to be in pain anymore #all the stuff is done by last saturday so everyone's back to their normal lives like it or not #still grieving a bit while at the same time being kinda ok. well it is how it is...#png #gif

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cadere-art · 5 months ago

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I've had such a shit week so far it's kind of hilarious. Deserves an attempt at greentext

> Go to Ikea sunday to buy a new mattress. > Open mattress. Plastic packaging has been sealed fused with the (synthetic) mattress cover > Call Ikea. They say i can return the cover alone. > Monday morning > Unzip cover. Take only top half bc that's easier to remove than the whole thing > Drive 35min to ikea. > Wait 40 min at customer service. > Exchange top half of cover. > Drive home. > Put cover on. Zippers of new top and old bottom are not aligned and the halves don't fit together. > Drive back to Ikea. > Exchange bottom half of cover for the one that matches the new top half (they hadn't gotten rid of the mattress yet. > Drive home. > Put cover on. Lift mattress by handles on the cover. > Cover rips. > Dejectedly walk into kitchen to get myself some yogurt. > (I was supposed to spend the morning cooking and now i have neither cooked nor eaten) > Open brand new yogurt jar. > It's got mold in it. > Husband calls ikea and arranges a pickup exchange so I don't have to drive there again. > Later that night. > Enter my car to go back home from a friend's. > Car makes a weird noise. > "oh, i need to refill the power steering liquid, I've driven a lot today and that makes the power steering leak leak faster" > Refill power steering > Drive home > Start parallel parking > Weirder noise, liquid starts gushing from under the car with smoke and shit > Well shit. I bet the leak's not just a leak now uh > Be today > Husband moving my car again while I'm at work (no choice, living the city life) > Car juices spilling everywhere > Manage to park > Handbrake gives up > FML > Get home from work > Grab myself milk to make chocolate milk for comfort > Milk's gone bad > *suspicious* > Check fridge temp > Fridge temp is 17C

#me yesterday: monday is the day i work on commissions i'm so eager to get some commissions work done #I'll finally have some time to work on that!#my day: HA! that's cute #anyways the fridge is not broken the sensor got obstructed HOWEVER this is the second malfunction this fridge has had in a month so....#it will need replacing sooner rather than later #the CAR however may be fucked beyond what's worth fixing #and also i'll probably have to tow it to the garage which is. YEEHAW great stuff #maybe i can rent a uhaul trailer and have my dad tow it. ugh #anyways that's how life's been going this week #life stuff #also going to my grandma's funeral on thursday and friday so hopes are not high for this week's potential for improvement #also tumblr is refusing to make the whole text green for some reason

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6ebe · 2 months ago

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Applying for 50 jobs within 12 months and not getting a single offer is almost an accomplishment woah I’m so talented x

#it’s killing me j wasted the last 3 months of my life working full time unpaid (internship)#and I was like. j need to suck up this bc it’ll get me a job #and I’ve applied to 25 jobs since starting this internship and I have not succeeded in getting a job #I just want to kms I’m ngl #my current org has offered me a full time job buy for a salary that’s literally minimum wage #so. that’s pretty fucking crap #I applied to 25 jobs in the last month while working full time . like I am so exhausted #I had an interview yesterday morning literally the morning of my grandmas funeral and just got emailed now that I haven’t gotten the job #yknow? I’m just heartbroken at this point #and I still have 1 week left working this internship and there’s literally no point #I was literally a middle level manager in this current job for no pay even worker across a weekend once #and it’s literally for nothing 🤣🤣🤣#I have a masters degree !! and 4 months of full time work experience and another several years worth of working part time #it’s not like I’m one of those grads who’s never worked a day in their life #and like i know no one can get a job these days. like barely any of my friends have anything #but money is beginning to become a little terrifying. so shelving the corporate applications and time to go back to being a barista again #not that I’m even guaranteed getting a job in that.#just spent a week living with a friend in Boston who IS employed straight out of undergrad for a rly cool nonprofit #literallt living my dream yknow what that rly challenged my ability to just be happy for my friends #I just don’t know how I keep on going like this tbh

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coldswarkids · 5 months ago

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my grandma passed late last night. she was 94 and ready to go. the family is in chaos and my mom is demanding that i drop everything and show up to "help" with everything, despite being across the country. i am stressed..

#i know this seems selfish #but i don't actually get any paid time off work at all #and also have stuff planned which mom says they will work around but 'only Jesus knows'#is the funeral in washington or ohio? 'only jesus knows'#but both of those places are a decently long flight for me #what am i supposed to be helping with????#i can't take weeks off to help clean an apartment.#nobody is communicating anything to me other than my mom demanding i return #when is the funeral?? 'only Jesus knows'#like... other than that im not sure what there is to help with #my dad vs. his siblings already had a messy legal battle over the inheritance like SIX YEARS AGO before my grandma even passed.

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randomingoftherandomness · 18 days ago

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#this is me just screaming into the void #but this week has been hard. like one of the hardest weeks I've had to get through in the longest time #tues was my great grandma's 12th anniversary of her passing #wed I got the news that a friend passed away suddenly #thurs was my late father's birthday #fri was that friend's funeral but I can't go #and there's a whole host of other things going on in my family now that I cannot put out into the internet just yet #personally I'm just so so tired #I am not spiralling. At least I don't feel like I am. but it's been so hard #I cannot turn to my family because of whatever's going on right now #I can't really turn to my friends just yet because my emotions are still percolating #my only consolation and also burden is that I will be away for a wedding soon and after that my last big trip for 2024 #I feel so spread thin right now #I actually sat in the car with my sausage McMuffin crying to Hao's Haicheng and Woozi's What Kind of Future this morning #it's the first time I cried like that in a long while because I rarely let myself get to that point #idek why I am writing this #I think I just wanted to scream into the void for a bit #gab irl #thing is with the friend that just passed; he was part of the party crowd I used to run with #we are all kinda spread all over now -- some moved back to their own countries; some married and moved; some with kids...#we haven't partied together since before the pandemic #we kept talking about wanting to link up soon and catch up #I had even been thinking about him lately #and now he is gone and I do not have the place to pour my grief and my regrets into

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eyeofthemoose · 9 months ago

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I'm fuckin terrified okay. I'm getting old af, but my parents are getting even more old af. As for my grandparents, I now have only one grandma left who's not in a good shape either... Time flies like fuckin crazy... and i'm so scared. So scared. Because I don't know how to live on my own. I know I sound like a little kid, but honestly with my social anxiety and my depression, most of the times I do feel like a little kid you know...

#soon they will probably need help as elder people do and... i'm useless #and like who's gonna help me?#i can't even take care of myself #i mean i can't even make a stupid phone call #sorry but this week has been too much... with my grandmas funeral and everything #you can't help but think about life and these things #and i'm overthinking now and panicking #but really the future is sooner than we think #and i do not have my life figured out at all and i know i won't have it figured out in 5 or 10 years either...#fuck... i just..#ignore this...#ugh #personal

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moneygoblin04 · 4 months ago

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This week kinda fucking sucks

#idk #maybe it won't feel as bad once im out of it #maybe im just stuck in my head #my great grandma passed away at the beginning of the week #her funeral is over the next two days #ive overall been upset over various things all week #im sore #im tired #my head is fucking killing me #im pissed #im sad #im alone #one of my favorite coworkers had his last day today #good for him i guess #my cousins birthday was this week #by the time i could get there it was so late it was like i missed it #ended up driving home at 2 am #i haven't really given myself a proper break this week either #only just realizing it #any free time has been immediately filled either by myself or someone else #my game night with my friends is most likely not happening this week #and to top it off #three for three on plans with my favorite person being destroyed by fun surprises #having a great time #can't wait for next week #here's hoping it's not worse #im done ranting for now #sorry to those who have to see me like this

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softplumbs · 1 year ago

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I am going back into my game and possibly giving Ayla a small makeover but I thought I'd leave you into the hands of my VERY STRONG AND INDEPENDENT FFXIV character since I have nothing else to post for now. Mwah.

#non sims #other games #ffxiv #ive been getting anxiety headaches for a week now and getting flooded by not so slay thoughts #but alas another day another slay bestie #i can live my life depressed OR. LISTEN TO ME. be like that tiktok grandma who makes 'GRWM to go to my ex' funeral' vids #and I SO want to b her

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theodore-lasso · 11 months ago

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So like certified bad day. My grandma died this morning and now I'm sick???? Bro come on

#bonus points for. the only photos of me w my Grandma are from me under 8 years old #so like. i wasnt close to her at all but death is v triggering for me w how badly my parents fumbled the bag w grief when i was growing up #brief context. mum got mad at me that my v close friend died like a week after her dad died bc she couldn't do two things at once #so everyone rallied around her in her grief and i went to two funerals and like ??? rotted i guess.#dad was in his painkiller era lol #anyway so im probably not gonna go to the funeral bc im just gonna be triggered the whole time #im less grieving her as a person and more grieving the fact that i never really. had grandparents.#like i barely ever saw her #even though i lived in the same city as her #i googled her name earlier and found out she wrote a chapter in a book about domestic abuse #and thats really the most ill ever know about her #i wanna read the chapter but idk #if it turns out that my grandpa was abusive and then my grandma left my mum and aunt with him by themselves to move to bali #im probably not gonna be thrilled #anyway even thats basically just closer to learning stories about people i dont know #wouldnt it have been nice to have. a family

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aquadracoa · 11 months ago

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There are so many people who have held you

Marveled at you

Just your existence was a point of wonder

And you will never know them in the slightest

#you are so loved just for being alive #thinking about my cousin’s 6 week old daughter #baby is so small you can’t even see her when she’s being held #but I’m going to a funeral and she is about to be held by everyone who loves her grandmother #and is celebrating that even though grandma is gone she is alive #and so little and real

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the-kipsabian · 10 months ago

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#death //#really tho just. losing two family members within a week from one another is. really rough #even if it is from natural causes and old age it still feels very sudden #and even if we werent that close it still hurts #little things remind me of the grandparents i dont have anymore. like making dinner and realizing im not eating their cooking again #or my grandmas favorite songs. its just. rough #im just thinking a lot. and not looking forward to two funerals within the next few weeks #just.. yeah. i feel kinda fucked up on the inside. more so than usually but for once not cause of myself #its. odd to me. grief hasnt really been constant in my life in years. apart from losing my brothers cat few years ago #before that i lost my other grandma like eleven years ago. since then immediate family has been okay #its just weird. i dont really know how to grief. it comes in waves and odd memories and it feels really.. idk. off to me #ive had few crying fits over some random things but i just feel. numb. maybe its cause of the sudden frequency of these #or cause i dont know how to deal. its strange to me. feels out of place to mourn something other than what i made myself lost #maybe its cause while there was a connection there was a larger disconnection. i havent seen either of them since covid started #idk. regrets and shit and whatnot. i just feel all but nothing at the same time #just. just saying. idk. just wanna clean my brain a little. its been a difficult day. sorry #night is an absolute mess on main

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sinfulforrest · 2 years ago

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gonna be watching the mario movie today as a before-my-birthday treat >:)

bowser my beloved..........

#forrest speaks #tomorrow is gonna be a difficult day cause the 14th (my birthday) is exactly a week before my grandmas funeral #so im gonna have a nice time today and then just see how tomorrow goes

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quick-drawn-a · 2 years ago

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i know y’all are gonna say i don’t owe you anything, but i would like to apologize for my absence at least one last time.

i’m falling behind here.

and not only here, but on discord and IM’s as well. i do intend to catch up on all of these things, so bear with me while i dust off my keyboard a little bit.

#✯ — нorѕeѕ ιn тнe вacĸ × [ ooc ]#death mention #throughout the tags but #the tl;dr of the sob story is my grandma died last night.#no worries — i'm fine.#but she's sorta been on the decline for the past month or so.#which is why i've been so sparse here and on discord.#just been trying to do my part in taking care of her and grandpa — making sure my parents are good. etc.#on top of working the usual 50+ hours at work.#there won't be a funeral or anything but i do have the week off so that's nice.#i'll still be over there a few days throughout the week for support — but otherwise we'll see what i can get done around here !#and for real catching up on discord messages.#just — forgive me. my headspace has been...in space for a while now.#been trying to gather the spoons.#so i still make no promises but !!#tbd #ask to tag

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july-19th-club · 2 years ago

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the last book grandma ever read was agatha christie's "murder on the orient express," which was also the first book my mother remembers getting from her as a gift and not a hand-me-down from her siblings.

one of her favorite 'isms' was 'all things in moderation,' but she also had a plaque in the kitchen when my aunts were growing up that read "you have to kiss a lot of horny toads before you find a prince" and another tchotchke that featured a cherub swinging on a length of twine that said "when you reach the end of your rope, tie a knot and HANG ON." like every nonna on earth before her, she ushered us to dinner with a "mangia" - which was also what it said on her favorite apron.

the last picture taken of her was her first picture with her great-granddaughter ellie, who's two months old and named after her. it was the first and only time they met.

#talked to mom for the first time since #i guess she was going to get the mail (she was ALWAYS going to get the mail even when there was no mail. bc dementia)#and everyone always figured that was her best way to get a little exercise #but she fell on the sidewalk. broke an arm and had a lot of injuries to her face . and probably chest? i dont know #but she just. it happened on tuesday and forty-eight hours later she was dead #and this is the first time i realized how bad pappy's dementia is because apparently. he keeps forgetting it happened #and assumes she's coming back to the house. calling hours and wake are monday funeral's tuesday #and my aunt still wants to celebrate pappy's birthday (wednesday) and a couple other birthdays on saturday #because she figures we'll all need a celebration #but i have no idea how we're gonna do ALL that and not lose our minds/get sick/something #still. we Always celebrate pappy and colleen and emmett's birthdays that week #just like we celebrate the december birthdays the day after christmas. which was grandma's #and we celebrate the july birthdays the week of mine because there's like six birthdays then #so . here we fuckin go i guess

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orcelito · 1 year ago

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Painted my nails. Shit camera is shit so u can't see the sparkles well, but it's my magnetic green nail polish. Something a bit on the subtle side for a funeral :p I wanted to go black but. Not pure black.

It's a "celebration of life", as they're calling it. We're not going there to be depressed. We're going there to remember the man we all lost. And he would've Loved for me to have a little fun with it.

#speculation nation #nails shit #im not exactly enthusiastic about tomorrow. not the least of it being the fact that i cant run from my grief if im surrounded by it #but theres... a lot family drama around. some i hadnt even heard about b4 today haha #so we are just hoping that there wont be any Incidents.#never am i more grateful for my reputation of being a wallflower than i am now #me simply being there is a testament to my care. and they see that.#if necessary i may or may not just... fade into the background. i dont know. i can never predict this shit.#with my grandma's funeral i was downright peppy. in a way that threw a few people off.#especially since i was one of the handful of ppl speaking that day #dont know what possessed me to volunteer for public speaking. i was always pretty close with her tho #wanted to do it for her. not exactly jumping at the chance to be Emotionally Vulnerable in front of a crowd again #but i dont regret it.#ive been oscillating wildly between manic and depressive for Weeks now. so i have no idea what im gonna land on tomorrow.#either im happy being around family and end up peppy and social. or im depressed by the situation and end up quiet.#maybe both. who knows. i sure fuckin dont.#im gonna wear a dress for the first time in years and im Not fucking shaving my legs. i think im gonna wear tights or smth. might as well.#sigh. i dont like being so familiar with funerals.#i dont like being so familiar with death.#i hope i get at least a few years between this and the next death i experience. pleeaaaase haha #5 deaths in 5 years. i dont like it one bit.#negative/#i guess.

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