#my grandma

[idksjdhshdhd]

THIS CONVERSATION WITH MY GRANDMA??

[hotteststar]

GUYS MY GRANDMA JUST ASKED ME "WHY DON'T YOU TELL ME ABOUT THAT HARRY POTTER YOU'RE ALWAYS YELLING ABOUT?" AND I ACTUALLY SAID "IT'S ALL ABOUT LITTLE GAY DUDES FROM THE '70S THAT ACT DUMB ALL THE TIME" AND SHE SAID "OH SO LIKE MY FIRST HUSBAND?" AND I WAS DEAD LAUGHING ON THE GROUND LMAOOOO IG SHE WAS MARRIED TO A COOL MAN AT LEAST

[iloveplayrehersal]

Watching Hannibal with my grandma meet the new cast of characters:

Hannibal Lecter: Hector Lannibal

Will Graham:Will Grant

Alana Bloom: Dr. Blunt

Beverly Katz: cat lady

Jack Crawford: Dave

Bedelia Du Maurier: agent scully

Freddie Lounds: red haired lady

Frederick Chilton: Clinton

Jimmy :that guy

Brian: that other guy

Gideon:I thought he was dead

Abigail: the child

Garrett Jacob Hobbs: Jacob Garrett

We are on season 2 eposide 7 and these are all the names I can think of

[themasterpupil]

when ya grandma can’t wait to wear the dress you bought her from Africa to a Kwanzaa event 🤣 she so cute

[purpletrashcans]

I am so fucking annoyed and here is why

I recently made the discovery that i'm probably aromantic and i would like to do what i did when i discoverd that i'm trans which is go and watch/read everything that even has the tiniest bit of trans representation in it, but i can't because there is no aromantic representation

now obviously that's nothing new, i was aware of this problem before and it pissed me right off then as much as it does now

it’s honestly just such bullshit that whenever there is an asexual character in media, basically the first thing they say after coming out as ace is that "they still want to fall in love" like not wanting, not being able to feel romantic love, would make them less human or something like that and of course there are ace people who are not aro, i'm not saying that and i'm not trying to shit on anybodys identity, if you are ace and not aro you are just as valid as anybody else and this lack of aro rep is obviously not your fault, we also need more ace rep while we're on it, that's not the point i'm trying to make, what i mean is that media always tells us that romance makes us human and if you don’t experience that you are either immature, unstable or not human and that's just bullshit

also it is no wonder that when i told my grandma about Loveless by Alice Oseman and how much i love this book, she was worried that i was like Georgia because i never like anyone romantically, she has never heard of aromanticism before, when she thinks of adult people that have never been in a relationship and don't have children she thinks of lonely, sad people and she doesn't want that for me

it is no wonder that when i see my greataunt and -uncle once a year they ask if i have a partner and when i say that no, i don't have a partner, they tell me that i have time and i'll meet someone eventually

and it is no wonder that so, so many people think that they're broken, that they enter relationships and situations that they don't want to be in, that fucking therapist try to cure people, that it took me 21 years, almost losing my friends, actually losing 8 kg in two months do to disordered eating and reading Loveless two times to figure out that i might just be aro, when there is barely any representation whatsoever, when most people haven't even heard of aromanticism

we need more representation and we need it desperately, that way not only will aro people discover their identity sooner and safe themselves a whole lot of trouble, but allo people can also learn how to react to someone being aro and we can all learn that being aro isn't sad or inhumane or weird or lonely

and because i'm a fancy-schmancy college student (who wrote "collage" instead of "college" first because i can not spell)(and have watched too much criminal minds) i would like to end this with a quote by Mariah Wright Edelman (tho the quotes are the worst part of criminal minds, they are so cringe istg):

“You can’t be what you can’t see”

[zebratoys]

Meet my Grandma .

[rainebasillovesbyler]

My grandma is being an anti byler 🙄 She asked why I had a picture of Mike on my camera roll and I said “oh I was saying I need to get a boyfriend who looks at me the way Mike looks at Will” and then she kept saying he loves Will as a friend and Mike loves El

[dinosaurwithablog]

This is my grandma. She raised me for the most part. She taught me unconditional love ❤️ She taught me that cooking and food are love. She taught me to share. She taught me to give with my whole heart. She taught me acceptance. She taught me courage. She taught me forgiveness. She taught me kindness. She taught me compassion. She taught me everything that I ever needed to be a good person. I love her unconditionally. Always. ❤️ I miss her every day. She made me a better person. She was the greatest person that I ever knew. I am so thankful that I was blessed with this phenomenal, beautiful woman in my life. She taught me that, too... to be thankful. She gave me everything that she had, and I, in turn, gave everything that I had back to her. She is one of the most precious gifts that I've ever held in my heart and soul. When I cook, she is there with me, just like when I was a kid. I think that's why I love to cook so much. It feeds my soul. It brings her back to me. Thank you, Grandma. Thank you so much. I love you 😍 ALWAYS!!

[abrilquince]

Last time I saw you, your eyes were not bright.

My heart was bleeding and my soul was blue.

You looked at me, and you knew I took fright.

I never thought that one day I'd lose you.

Your goodbye brought me a shadowy sky.

When your heart gave up, the city got dark.

A storm of sadness made me wish to die.

Shadows became my home, my world was black.

An impulsive ocean rolls down my cheeks.

I still looking for you in every breath.

At dusk, I always listen to moon's screaks,

Because she knows how much I hate your death.

You and I, we're so many miles away.

But our souls are following the light way.

[idksjdhshdhd]

My grandma has watched Stranger Things and plans on watching season 5 when it is out. Here is how I am certain that she will be okay with byler happening:

1. She does not know I am a lesbian, however, she once told me, and I quote “You don’t have to marry a man, you can marry a woman for all I care.”

2. I was at her house once and her and my grandpa were watching In & Out (a movie in which a gay man with internalized homophobia accepts himself and comes out as gay at his own wedding)

3. She once let me rant on about gay and trans rights for an HOUR and she did not once scoff or roll her eyes (which is something my homophobic and transphobic parents have done)

4. I once asked her what she thought about Will Byers and she said she liked his character (although her favorite character is El) and just out of curiosity I asked “Did you know that Will Byers is gay and in love with Mike?” And she said she still liked his character

5. Overall, my grandma is not homophobic or transphobic at all and is actually very supportive, there’s also many more times in which she has completely supported someone for being gay, which is exactly why I genuinely believe she’ll be okay with byler happening.

[zrii-the-orc]

A game with whips

Aewlir has noticed the boredom that will soon kill me off and introduced me to "rope skipping". Apperantly it's a game that helps you learn how to evade whips. Very usefull. Very fun.

Gologkokan likes to spin the whip really fast, when you least expect it. Little shitling! He hit my ankles really good a few times. Aewlir is really good at the game. She can do flips, cartweels and shit while jumping. Little bragger.

Smakulkodar refuses to play, but she loves to watch her brothers jump. Nah, she loves to watch her brothers get hit.

But:

Lurauga still hasn't returned with Duru, but gran says she is close to braking the magic vail surrounding him. There you have it: Orc magic is just better then that menish bullshit! Ghehehe, take that you stinky vomit ball of a human, stealing Duru!

[sanguivorousmuse]

Guess who got yelled at for trying to tell someone NICELY to stop smoking in the house because it travels through the vents and hurts my throat and nose.

“Can you try to be agreeable?”

Can you stop being a fucking addict? You’re a grown ass woman. Why can’t you be agreeable. Why can’t you care about other people? WHY CANT YOU FUCKING SMOKE OUTSIDE??

[themasterpupil]

I saw it in a dream with my grandfather before but to see it in person, to stand in that slave river. I still feel the energy in my legs.

[alicornpig]

CW death of a family member but otherwise funny anecdote

My grandma passed away a few days ago and I just wanted to share some things about her.

In my 32 years on this earth, I never saw her eat a vegetable. She had a wicked sweet tooth and taught me how to put extra sugar on my cereal (much to my parents chagrin). She had this loud laugh that carried far, she always spoke her mind and she had a tendency to say “that’s a kick!” whenever she liked something. She made the best jello and it was something I always looked forward to at family get togethers.

Almost twelve years ago she was diagnosed with stage four lung cancer. She proceeded to be pretty much fine up until a few weeks ago. To the extent that doctors were continuously surprised that not only was she in good health but she was still alive.

Around eight years ago she took a drive to the grocery store, misjudged a turn and rolled her car down a cliff. She walked away with minor scrapes and bruises. Here is a pic of the aftermath:

I used to joke (sort of joke, sort of seriously) all the time that she must have fey blood and secretly be immortal. She was a real gem of a person and I miss her a lot. And I hope yall enjoy this ridiculous picture as much as I do

[zebratoys]

שמיני לאוקטובר 2023 בלי לחשוב פעמיים, נוטלת את הפמוטים של סבתא שלי ומניחה במזוודה. המזוודה מלאה וכבדה, האריזה חפוזה בלי דעת. פועלת בלי לחשוב על אוטומט, אבל ברור לי שפמוטי השבת באים איתי. עברה שנה, אני עדיין על מזוודות, נעה ונדה ממקום למקום. כשהגעתי לארצות הברית, באחת הפעמים כשישבתי עם סבתא שלי בסעודת ערב שבת, סיפרתי לה שלקחתי איתי את הפמוטים, את פמוטי השבת שלה. והיא ענתה לי: This is what Jewish do.

באופן מיידי המוח היהודי שלי חשב על תקופת השואה. הבריחה, הפחד, תחושת הנרדפות והאיום הקיומי היומיומי שהיה נוכח בכל מקום וקצב פעימות ליבי המריא. הבנתי שיש לפמוטים משמעות עמוקה וייחודית, והם סמל לזהות שלנו - להיותנ�� יהודים ולקדושת השבת. סבתא שלי הקשיבה לי והנהנה, היא העירה את תשומת ליבי לכך שהם היו עשויים כסף, נחושת או זהב ושהיה להם שווי כספי בימים של דחק, עוני, רעב וחוסר וודאות. אבל המחשבות שלי והנשמה שבי שוב נדדה לעולם הרוח, לסמליות, לתכלית ולמהות הסימבולית שטמונה בחפץ היקר שכולו אור אמונה וקדושה, לב ליבה של היהדות - השבת.

[unstablemotions]

i don't know much about what happened. it didn't happen to me

tw // incest, csa, alcoholism, grooming

my grandma and grandpa would abuse their own daughters. emotionally, physically and sexually. i know my grandpa beat my mom so bad she would faint. i know he molested my aunt

my grandma had a daycare when my mom and her sister were still kids. the kids were abused by my grandma. i don't know in what ways, but i have my guesses

my grandma later worked with elderly people at a retirement home. most of these people she took care of had dementia. she might have abused them too, but i don't know

my grandma used to take care of me as a kid pretty often. i used to love her. i loved the attention she gave me and how special she made me feel, but it also felt gross. i remember her telling me she loved me more than my sister and that it was our secret. i got upset she'd say that about my little sister. i started to notice the red flags. she was so controlling and manipulative, but i was 5 or even younger. i don't remember

she'd always want me to perform for her like a circus monkey. i needed to be a perfect little pretty girl who was smart and charming. she wanted me to dance for her. she wanted me to show off. she would slap my ass and talk about how petite it was. when i hit puberty, she'd start talking about my breasts with my mom and how big they were. it made me feel gross. they wanted me to be an alluring little lolita who they could live through

i also remember masturbating every night from when i was maybe 4? i would imagine myself getting killed by a monster while doing it and then play dead and try to see how dead i could seem. i'd hold my breath and keep my eyes open a little. my genitals would be sore from it. i don't know why i did this, but i knew it was "wrong" and i was ashamed. i remember my mom putting a cream on my genitals, i think because they had a rash. don't remember if it was from me masturbating, poor hygiene or something else. i don't remember the name of the cream, but i remember the smell and the tube. it was something from the pharmacy

i don't think my grandma is a pedophile. like i don't think she's attracted to children. i think she's a sadist who likes hurting people and she just picks the easiest target. i never got to know my grandpa since my grandma divorced him long before i was born because of his alcoholism. i don't know if he had any other sexual victims than his two daughters. maybe he has more kids than them now

i know my grandma has also experienced severe abuse, including sexual, as a young child. i know why she turned out like this. my mom is more tragic, because i see my mom wanting to be better than her mom, but then she repeats what her mom did. my mom is definitely not as evil, but she's still abusive

just a trauma dump to get some things off my chest. idk what to do with this information. i fall kinda in between all the help for csa survivors in my country since i don't think i was sexually abused "enough" to really fit their help programs. it was mostly me growing up knowing my grandpa molested my aunt and then more nccsa. like more emotional incest than physical things. this is all very confusing and i don't want to talk with my siblings about it. i don't want to trigger their potential traumas and destabilise them. i don't want to worry them before they're ready to talk. i feel lonely and like im going insane