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captain-maws · 1 month ago

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kinda realizing that i don't really know how to cope with loss

#delete later #my grandma's dying #and i'm still trying to cope with a breakup and losing my grandpa #idk. my mum told me that it's not common to have known all 4 of your grandparents #i don't get to see grandma much cuz she's in cambridge #my mum flew out to be with her #but we visited her a few weeks ago and threw a big party for her 90th birthday #and she seemed really happy #and i think she's ready... she has MS and she can barely do anything on her own #and at least she won't be in pain and she'll be with grandpa #grief is hard #you don't realize how many things you take for granted until you don't have em anymore

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marialouisa11 · 1 month ago

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I finished my second quilt! It's for my grandma :)

Like the first quilt I made, I just used charm packs - bundles of pre-cut fabric squares with patterns that go well together.

I used two charm packs (5" squares, not 10") from Fat Quarter Shop. Would recommend! Not expensive, lots of pretty packs, and fast shipping. The light blue and light maroon border and back are just whatever Joann printed cottons, and the binding is plain black cotton.

Using charm packs definitely made this project pretty easy. Just arrange the squares in a pretty pattern and sew them together (well, there are smart ways of doing that, and owning an iron is highly recommended, but whatever). I hand-sewed the binding this time. It was actually way easier and faster than I thought it would be.

#quilting #sewing #crafting #speaks into the void #i need to get pictures of my first quilt #my mom has it stored away somewhere because she doesn't want to use it because it'll get dirty >:(#she should use the nice thing i made!#but maybe she doesn't use it because it reminds her of dad... i made it for him when he was dying in the hospital earlier this year #he did love that thing for the last few weeks of his life at least #and now my grandma is probably dying 🙃#i need to stop making quilts for dying people #my next one is planned for my mom and i don't think she's actively dying yet so hopefully that'll break the trend

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vampirehayfever · 8 months ago

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i love that the bad kids always run with fig's lies and shenanigans without even flinching. she's dead and she killed your grandma??? beautiful.

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bxriles · 4 months ago

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I’m sure that this is not a hot take and that a lot of people feel the same way but like…

The question “does it have spice?!🌶️🔥” makes me want to jump off a cliff. I’m out here looking for gothic book recommendations on Reddit, tumblr, and goodreads and WHY is this the first question so many people ask 😭

Look, I love erotica as much as the next person but come on. There have got to be other things that matter when recommending books or choosing to pick one up, my GOD.

#am I just old?#like am I being unreasonable?#I don’t want to blame booktok for this but I’m dying over here #and romance and spice are two different things #a lot of these spicy books are just straight up trash but people tout them as amazing romances #like excuse me?#if they’re having nasty sex within 50 pages it’s not romance #it’s not love at first sight either #it’s lust #Christ I just wanted a gothic book for fall and after I’ve been in a reading slump after finishing the shepherd king duology #don’t fucking recommend me haunting Adeline good GOD #anyway #if someone has a solid gothic recommendation pls send it my way #otherwise I’ll be forced to read Jane Eyre or Wuthering Heights and I am more of an Austen girlie than a Brontë girlie #sorry grandma pls don’t haunt me from the afterlife for that #booktok cringe #anti booktok #I don’t even know how to tag this bc I’m not even anti booktok #book recommendations #book recs #someone help me #personal #rant #half the time the spice isn’t even good #I get better smut from fanfiction #I need to clarify that I don’t care if you like spicy books #go off girly pop #but I am BEGGING for a modicum of self reflection #spice should not be the only reason you’re reading a book 100% of the time holy fuck

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perfectmanisperfect · 4 months ago

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turns out supernatural was THAT serious for me. like changed my brain in ways i am still discovering. stupid show about stupid brothers. and if you play season 8 episode 23 sacrifice in front of me i will quote every line of the ending scene and i will probably shed a tear.

#supernatural #spn #sam winchester #dean winchester #the winchester brothers #like i had my grandma thinking i was dying cause i had such a reaction to that episode #i was literally 13 my world was ending #yes i will continue to call spn stupid after season 5 but can’t deny the impact on me #it was stupid occasionally before season 6 but like iykyk #i sometimes wonder who i would be if i hasn’t watched it cause like it was my intro into online fandoms

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andorerso · 12 days ago

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2025 is off to a great start 🙃

#gonna get a little personal in the tags but i need to get this off my chest #i feel like in the past two months so many people around me have been dying #other than my grandma it was no one particularly close to me - distant coworkers or a friend / family member of a friend #but they all hit hard for one reason or another #and now i found out my 6-month pregnant best friend of nearly 20 years is in a coma in critical condition #i feel guilty because we haven't been talking so much lately #she chose to settle down and have a family and i have no interest in that so we don't have a lot in common anymore #and i feel like we've been drifting apart for years now #but i wish i messaged her more #she's one of the most selfless people i know and she doesn't deserve this #as soon as i saw her husband was calling me i knew something was really wrong #i don't know how to process this #personal

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abby-howard · 2 years ago

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Part 2 of my 2023 hourlies; Part 1 here!

---CW family death (not sad)---

#hourly comics day #cw family death #family death (not sad)#hourly comic day 2023 #autobio comics #webcomics #between this and fingerquest it was an eventful day #i almost made comics about grandma flowers' particular brand of cruelty but they weren't conveying it just right #but as an example #she would adopt a cat/dog and feed it ice cream and whole chickens #then when it was too large to get up the stairs she would say "he's just not himself anymore U_U #and suddenly the animal would be gone (put to sleep)#she was skinny as a rail and had such weird ways of fatshaming every woman in my family #buying us clothes three sizes too big and saying i'm not sure it'll fit :/ it might be too small for you #and of course she was hideously racist #but had no real convictions beyond making everyone in the room with her uncomfortable #she was a very particular brand of evil southern woman that's a bit of a dying species #oh well #i will not miss her evil cackling while telling us stories of neighbors' cats she had shot

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bitchapalooza · 1 year ago

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I just realized; WHO TOOK CARE OF BRANCH WHEN HE WAS SICK IN THE BUNKER 😭 who stayed up checking on him, who monitored his temp, who made him soup, who held him through the night and sang soft lullabies, who encouraged him to take his disgusting tasting medicine, who was there for him when he needed them most

#imagining a little branch curled up with the flu #all alone in the early stages of his bunker #crying because he’s scared he’s actually dying he isn’t sure he’ll make it through the night #he’s crying for grandma his crying for his brothers #but no one comes because he’s all alone #man fuck peppy and all the other adult trolls why didn’t they place my boy with a new family:(#I’ll be his dad come here branchie papas here I’m your dad now #trolls #trolls dreamworks #trolls headcanons #trolls branch

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9thbutterfly · 2 months ago

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#and now my grandma is dying #can we just be fucking done with everything?

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toxooz · 7 months ago

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SURGERY WENT WELL apparently my appendix did rupture overnight so its hella good I got it checked out when I did😬 I just feel a lil bloated and like I got shanked but that's better than before🤘

#i thank my grandma for getting me off my ass to do this bc i was just gunna try to pass it off as shitty immune system and BOI #i gotta stay here overnight Again bc i gotta take antibiotics for the rupture but at leaat im in my own room with a ~new bed~#instead if the ER dear god the amounts of screams and wails of agony while my ass was dying of thirst i thot i was gunna lOSE MY DAMN MINDD #ngl i almost got emotional when i was finally given water to drink afterwards plus a Gatorade shewwww started feeling like sam and frodo on #that volcano LMFAOOO #but yeah recoverys going to be Annoying but oh well ill get back on my bullshit soon enough

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salvadorbonaparte · 2 months ago

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Maybe some of you don't know but I already had a really difficult last 12 months that really wrecked my mental health to the worst it's been in a decade so Yeah obviously I'm super scared and depressed right now. I spent most of the year already feeling like that and now it's Worse.

#there's been multiple health scares and problems in my family including both of my grandparents nearly dying #my Grandma probably has Alzheimers but refuses to see a doctor #I was unemployed #lonely as hell #had huge problems getting the visa to move to the US #which was my last choice after being rejected by all other graduate schools #had to pay so much money #and now we're getting fascism #and I'm stuck here until next summer at least #when I will drop out of graduate school and be unemployed again #and without health insurance #macks musings

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schrijverr · 21 days ago

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I know everyone can have their own opinion and it was in part the intent to upset people with how the 118+Maddie reacts (especially Maddie), but I somehow didn't see that coming lol

#rrposts #like i also take issue with Maddie as an older sister sometimes #and what she did in the last chapter was Wrong #im not saying it wasnt #but it doesnt come out of nowhere #like she isnt saying all this about Buck or Eddie because she is a mean person who sucks and hates them for no reason #she wanted to amputate bc she is scared and has that history of Daniel being stuck in a hospital and dying leaving her in a broken home #and she is this upset with Eddie about it bc she literally had to kill doug like a few weeks ago #that was pretty recent people #like i cant believe im making a post defending Maddie #bc I actually dont always like her very much #i think she is an interesting character. but the way the show positions her sometimes makes me jikes especially in her relation with Buck #she is overbearing and thinks she knows best and that can be annoying #but she is like his mom bc she was forced into that as a kid #and sometimes she forgets that Buck has grown up #like my grandma still sometimes forgets im 22 not 8 and she has been there the whole time

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magnetothemagnificent · 1 year ago

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If I'm being honest my mental health is probably at the lowest it's ever been since high school, maybe even lower.

#I'm just.....unable to imagine a better future right now #i feel like the world is specifically targeting me #my friend dying #my grandfather likely having cancer #my great uncle actually having cancer #my cousin having a mental breakdown #my grandma having cancer even though i know it's the mild kind #my brother being an ocean away and me having no way of keeping him safe #my people being maimed and slaughtered and raped #people everywhere #my neighbours classmates professors colleagues wishing for my and my people's deaths #it's too much #i was so happy just a few months ago #it was so easy to envision a better future #i can't even take care of myself now because i want to save energy for future me because i know in my bones the future will be worse #personal

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thesmokinpossum · 1 month ago

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Didn't felt like mentioning it immediately but shoutout to my sick and twisted brain for getting so triggered by an unexpected Christmas parade that I ended up havin the absolute worst panic attack of my entire life (potentially the only real one? I've had a couple other episodes I thought of as panic attacks but they were not even close to that so who knows) to the point where I spent the very last day of my 30th year on this earth in the ER, good times, good times 😊

#that was 10 days ago and i honestly was fine immediately after it ended so don't worry for me <3 #but yeah this shit was crazy holy hell #like i knew intellectually that 'feeling like you're dying' is a symptom of a panic attack but *actually* feeling it is another thing...#and even at the worst i was like 'ok i'm clearly having a panic attack it's not nice but it's gonna be ok'#but there was a piece of my brain that was like 'ok but what if your mom or grandma had told themselves that...'#'when they were having heart attack? They would have died and so will you 😊'#and i was like shit can't argue with that better get my ass to the hospital before i die #spoiler alert: i didn't died #ironically enough the revolting state of our healthcare system is lowkey what helped me calmed the fuck down #because i was tiny but i do remember when my mom had her heart attack and they sure as hell didn't let her wait for 7h+#so when i realized that this is what was gonna happen after i spent a brief moment with a nurse i was just like...oh i'm fine actually lol #and then i had to go take the bus in my fake crocs that i usually never wear outside of the house smh #interestingly enough my phobia of hospital seems to have competely disappear! which makes me believe that it was more a trauma response #than an actual phobia #not that the name changes that much but still interesting development #also no i'm not wearing a mask because nobody gave me one #that's actually one of the thing that made me leave lmao #oh and btw the christmas parade is true but also a bit more complex than that #basically i had a full sleepless night and i was mad so i decided to go buy myself some weed #turned out that there was a huge christmas parade 5 minutes away from the weed store so i hade to find another way #and then i got lost on the way back #and saw no less than 3 big fights between different homeless people #including one man randomly kicking another man's dog (which kinda really messed with me tbh)#and then i smoked a big joint (first one in like 10 days) with 0 sleep and zero food in my body #and then i took the bus #and then the bus driver yelled at an elderly man for not waiting at the right place #and then i took a sip of water and for some truly strange reason my brain decided that the water had gone in my lungs #and that i was actively drowning #and the rational part of me was like...girl that's not what drowning feels like what are you even talking about??#and then my brain went 'well if we're not drowning than we're having a heart attack'

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irradiatedpiratebooty · 3 months ago

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So my life has been effectively flipped upside down lately, but I do have one small, cruel, but extremely funny bit that's happened

I havent changed my ringtone in months, right?

just today, sitting wth my mom, at the vet's office, waiting for the vet to show up after we signed the consent form to put down my grandmother's 20yo Chihuahua. When my phone starts ringing.

Not a normal ringtone, no. Its specifically Jerma beatboxing small enemy spider.

Getting the news that my grandma was dying and I needed to say my goodbyes, and my ringtone is Jerma beatboxing small enemy spider

#the world is unpredictable and cruel #the only kind constant in life is comedic timing #i cant believe this is real life #im forever going to associate jerma beatboxing with my grandma dying and that is insanely funny despite how sad i am rn

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moonfurthetemmie · 2 months ago

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It. It just. Fell off???? It wasn’t bumped, the wall wasn’t hit so it didn’t rattle it

What the hell??????

#on the bright side #As of a few months ago I still see this exact model of clock being sold in The Big Walmarts #but what the fuck???#I heard a noise that I thought was a bug on one of the plastic bags in my room #jumped like hell #found nothing #turned around and saw a black and ‘yellow’ Thing on the ground #and from my angle i honestly thought it was a butterfly. except I don’t think any butterflies come out at night #(At least not around here)#so it must be a moth #called grandma to rescue me from the scary moth because my bug phobia is worse than it’s ever been even as I’m trying to do fix that #hid under my blanket because i AM a coward #grandma came in. looked around.#‘the four fell off your clock’#‘what???’#‘the four fell off your clock.’#hey guess what that wasn’t a moth #I assume the noise I heard was it falling. if there was no Bug #but in which case there absolutely 100% was NO force applied to the clock from any angle that would’ve fucked with it #I???#JSJDHCHD ‘guys my clock is dying and shedding its numbers what do i do’#…well. gravity. but gravity did not change so what the hell

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