#my fiancé needs this for their life
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01/06/2024
We're at $200/2600
We need $750 to be able to pay off the rest of the amount needed to secure the dog!!! Please keep this going!!!
Please help my partner, a black multiply disabled lesbian, get their autonomy back!
‼️URGENT ACTION NEEDED IN 48 HOURS ‼️
01/03/2024
my partner @800-dick-pics is a multiply disabled black lesbian in need of urgent funds for a service dog and the costs associated with travel!!
This is all so sudden and short notice, they happened upon this prospect while doing research and it fell into their lap, a puppy in a breed with the best temperament and size for their mobility needs. This is opportunity is huge for the independence of my fiancé.
For years now, my fiancé has been fighting with the medical system, I've seen them struggle to be believed by doctors due to medical racism, turned away and ignored at the ER, gaslight by ED clinics and multiple times I've physically caught them when they've passed out during a POTS episode. Their POTS EDS and CFS have rendered them housebound in this past year, unable to leave the house by themselves and it's gotten to the point where we both are afraid for their safety when they're alone in any capacity. I worry for them so greatly when I have to leave them for more than 20 minutes at a time because anything could happen.
This has been years in the making, even before we were together even. We've had to put this on hold for countless reasons throughout the years and at this point it can no longer be put off for the sake of my fiance' autonomy independence and quality of life. They're tired of not being able to hold a job or go out with friends or even just experience life outside of the walls of the house. This is incredibly important and this is our chance to change their life forever.
We need to meet this goal THIS WEEK, to be able to secure this opportunity including flight tickets, hotel room, training toys for the dog and food
We would not be asking if it wasn't so urgent, this can't be put on hold and all my fiance wants is to have a life again. Please help us if you're able, this opportunity means the world to my partner!
CA: $sleepyhen
VM: wildwotko
DM me for p@y pal
$0/2600 goal
#we're so close to being able to secure this dog#and that is the most important right now#we need this#my fiancé needs this for their life#pls help if u can
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#I really hope 2025 is the year that I can let go of and leave behind all the people that fucking ruined and took advantage of me#and that I don’t even think about them anymore. I just want this shit to stop haunting me.#she doesn’t give a fuck about me and never did. but it still fucking hurts.#and I just keep ripping old wounds open because I’m always thinking about her but I know I don’t even cross her mind#especially not with how easily she just fucking discarded me once I’d served my purpose to her.#fucking almost 10 goddamn years literally fucking thrown away and looking back I realize all the shit I should’ve left over before#and just let her ruin her own life instead of taking me along for the ride and fucking me and my life up more in the process#I hope she fucking rots. I hope BOTH of them fucking rot actually. I fucking hate them for what they did#lying to me so id move in with them and then pulling all the shit they did so I’d stay only long enough to be beneficial for them.#fucking entitled cunts. fuck.#at least I’ve found a new bestie that isn’t a fucking asshole to replace the one that was#I’m so thankful for her but still so angry and upset with how I was tossed aside by the old one because of her insecure ass fucking fiancée#ugh. anyways. I’m gonna shut up now.#I just needed to vent for a second. I’m hoping this helps me detach more and leave that shit behind.
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time sensitive mutual aid post but i have a very strict medically necessary diet and im out of my dried gluten-free pasta and almost all of my canned goods. im trying to resist eating something that i know is very harmful to me just so i can eat something tonight. it's been a very rough week if you can throw me a few dollars so i can try and get something to eat tonight, my p//y/p//l is @/scrump444 thanks and please share
#this is coming right after my fiancé's mother died and him being hospitalized and then my birthday#and today also happens to be the 4th year anniversary of my fathers passing but we didnt have the gas money to go to the cemetery today#everything in my current life is very very stressful#im more worried for my fiancé than for myself but after not eating more than 3 meals in the past 5 days i need some money to eat#i'm trying not to eat something glutenous because it makes me so sick that im bedridden the next day but im very very hungry#sorry for not being active or for posting this sort of stuff im at a critical point and i hate bothering my friends directly for help
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Even the thought of trying to make friends as an adult is so embarrassing wtf
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guess who got engaged today? :3
#petal.cries#im on cloud nine you guys#cant believe being a fan fic writer on this hellsite#brought me to the love of my life#literally just <3333#swooning#if u need me i’ll be kissing my fiancé hehe
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#vent post#tw vent#my mom: it’s okay you’re homeless u can come here and have a gentle landing and we can work together to get u and ur fiancé back on ur feet#me: okay great now I can work off my huge overdue queue that I was having panic attacks about daily-#mom: actually fuck u ur a disgrace I need you to clean my whole house every single day and I’m going to knock on ur door every 20 minutes#and disturb ur focus (ik u have adhd it’s stupid just get over it) also ur whole family knows how much of a failure u are and are going to#scream at you on the phone about how you’re not doing anything despite the fact you’ve helped out every time I’ve asked and THEN SOME to#the point of eye exhaustion and shivers and mental breakdowns and then I’m going to forget it ever happened and make you do MORE chores and#yell at u if you say u need to focus again#me: …….. so this is the gentle landing huh?#I’m so fucking exhausted#they keep saying my art doesn’t make money and isn’t a career LITERALLY IT IS HOW DO U THINK I PAID FOR FOOD AND RENT FOR THE LAST 4 YEARS#they keep calling it my ‘little art thing’ and insisting I get a real job WHEN I HAVE ACTUAL PAID COMMISSIONS I HAVE TO WORK ON#I can’t just ignore these and fuck off to answer phones or stock shelves at your friends friends aunts car dealers place fuck OFFFFFF#like being homeless with 4 cats and 6 boxes of belongings isn’t hard enough I have to be fucking berated by people who haven’t tried talking#to me IN MY LIFE EVERRRRRR#fuck off
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Theodore Barclay is the love of my dreams
#the last magician#the devil’s thief#the serpent’s curse#the shattered city#lisa maxwell#books#hyperfixation#i love him so much#he is life#he’s the love of my dreams but not in a romantic way#me and my *platonic* fiancé’s dynamic is they’re ruby and i’m theo#the alternative is that i’m viola#i love theo so much 😭#we all need a theo in our lives#straight ally#protector of the lesbians#him <3
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Wish my friend could just send a message like "Hope things have been going okay" or whatever instead of "Where have you been? Where did you go? Why aren't you talking to me? WHAT HAPPENED???" etc.
#I just don't like feeling like my space is being invaded if that makes sense#my 'conversations' with her are like... mostly her asking questions#like the last message she sent was four questions and only one sentence that was like 'I noticed you haven't messaged me in a month'#you can't just say 'let me know if you want to talk' or something less forceful than what literally feels like an interrogation?#like there's a difference between regular 'hi it's been a while. everything still fine?' etc.#and... that#I feel uncomfortable opening up to her because she is always telling me to do shit that isn't helpful#like 'just quit your job and call the police and run away from home!'#yeah because that totallyyyyyyy wouldn't just add more problems to my life (sarcasm)#she's just so fucking intrusive?#and she lives in her own bubble lol#and now that she has a bf/fiancé/whatever she wants to call him she's doubly annoying now#like okay girlie go spend time with him then!#why do you need to be up my ass all the time 😭#ughhhh
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#I do this thing where I keep comparing myself and my life to other people my age who live like ‘normal lives’ where they live with just#their partner and work decent-ish paying jobs#and don’t live near family/have large family obligations#like I make slightly more than minimum wage#my health stuff had been getting worse#my fiancé is disabled/chronically ill and working her ass off so she doesn’t have excess energy#which leaves a lot of house work on me#which is fine and I don’t mind#and our household is me my fiancé my 23 yo sister and we’ve all lived together for like 3 years now and my sister makes a lot more money &#helps with house stuff#/maintenance#but my younger sister and her 9 month old moved in at the beginning of summer because her baby daddy is a scum bag#and she’s 20 and really mentally unwell#so a lot of baby care falls on me & my fiancé#along with trying to help my sister with her mental health#which is like not normal levels of unwell it’s like serious shit and she’s completely unmedicated and going through a real hard time and not#adjusting to motherhood well cause she was 19 and shouldn’t have had a baby#and like she knows that but what’s done is done#she can’t move back in with my parents because her relationship with them is too fucked#and like there’s also complicated stuff safety and bad ppl in her life so that’s a stress inducing factor#she’s unemployed and I’m not sure will ever be able to work and can’t drive#not her fault just the reality we live in#also we’re the ppl who live closest to my grandmother who’s health has been rapidly declining so a lot of that has fallen on my other sister#and me to manage#I also have to pet sit a lot because I need the money#and when I come home I have to spend all my time getting the house back in order#also I’m about to be losing a days worth of pay starting September cause the kids I nanny are doing two half days a week of prek#which means less money & with these grocery bills and two more mouths to feed is gonna fuck me in the ass#so like yeah I don’t have the time or energy for hobbies I spend all my damn free time trying to keep the house clean or taking care of#The baby & like it’s just the way it is but it’s not comprable to how all the ppl I knew in highschool r living rn
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It’s been almost four years since my fiancé and I have been together~ and in those past few years so much has changed yet haven’t at the same time.
We still have to hug at least 3-5 times, and he has to kiss my lips then my forehead in that order. And be it over the phone or in person, no matter how angry we get we always say I love you goodbye. Though if we are angry at each other we don’t blow kisses.
He calls me from his way home from work to tell me about his day. Meanwhile he already knows mine because he has already asked about it several times through text.
He sends me random messages telling me what he appreciates about me. And even though he hates writing he know how much I love it and how much writing means to me.
So he will write pages about how much he loves me, how he wants to grow old together. He even does written apologizes explaining what he did wrong and how he plans to fix it.
He always is spoons me every night and morning. Before he goes to turn on my person heater for me to stand in front of while I get ready for the day.
When he is stressed and upset about his work all he wants to do is cuddle me while watching movies. He says it’s because I ground him, keep him steady and help him forget the day.
He always interrupts my writing by stealing kisses. Telling me that my face of concentration is to cute.
He holds his finger out expecting me to boop my nose. Sometimes he pats my head since he knows that if he ruffles my hair and messes it up imma pout. My curls will just fizz ;-;
Over the years these little things I was told would fade away after the puppet stage. But if anything he has become more attentive and in-tune with my habits and moods.
He taught himself how to cook. And will happily make me my favorite comfort food of shredded chicken, rice and vegetables.
He knows my love of cows and found a huge squishy cow that is over half my size for me to sink into like a bean bag.
I’m so glad the girl before me fucked her chance up with this man. Because I’m so grateful to be his future wife and the love of his life :3
I have never felt so safe, comfortable, loved and beautiful.
#I needed to fangirl about my fiancé#if I can fangirl about satoru and toji on here then I will fan girl about the number one love of my life
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fuck it’s 3am and I can’t get my wheezing under control and I’m tempted to use my nebulizer but it’s loud af 🙃 I’m tempted to wait until my mom leaves for work but that’s in like 3 and a half hours
#We’ve also got so many dishes and I gotta do at least some of it 😭#I’ve literally been wearing a mask to sleep hoping to reduce how much dust and hair I’m breathing in#But I didn’t hydrate well enough today and my nebulizer session today felt like it was wearing off quicker than usual#I really need to see someone…#We’re working on getting me disability so I can be on my mom’s insurance#Covid has genuinely ruined my life even before I caught it earlier this year#And now it’s seemingly destroyed my lungs#I had agoraphobia like 2 years before Covid and I started getting it under control in early 2020#Now I have agoraphobia because im terrified of unnecessarily risking illness#That was before my lungs got so fucked up now I’m scared a second infection will actually kill me#I keep thinking of how much I let my guard down at that small NYE party/wedding party at my cousin’s house why did I not keep my mask on?#The pressure of social a situation that I felt wrong footed in might literally kill me great 🙃#What’s so fucked up is the fiancée literally was going to have heart surgery soon and I have no clue if he got Covid#I’m convinced I got it from the bride’s relative who I literally had never met before#But who I felt socially pressured to hug for NY I just hate it I feel so stupid
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Sometime last year I saw a video of a park program that let people rent all terrain wheelchairs so they could go on hikes and trails that regular wheelchairs can’t tackle. I said to my fiancée, “Wow, this is so cool! People with accessibility issues will get to go on trails.”
They looked at me and after a moment they quietly said, “Like you.”
It surprised me. Yes; I’ve had a chronic infection that has limited my mobility for several years but- oh. It is me. I have mobility issues.
After that the topic of wheelchairs has come up a few times. It’s hard. I can walk. I just can’t walk very much before I’m exhausted. But getting a wheelchair felt like giving in and admitting my disability is long term. But it’s been about three years of not doing activities because I just wouldn’t have the energy to walk around or do things.
I just recently got a new diagnosis. On top of my viral infection, I have an autoimmune disorder which- surprise! Is generating fatigue.
It’s been a hard couple days. But even knowing that I could get back to a functional level I have to admit that right now I’m disabled. So today I picked up my wheelchair.
#my life#ramblies#disability#the place we went is volunteer run and they sell refurbished medical equipment for very cheap#it surprised me that one if the ladies asked why I was getting a chair#but they were very supportive and nice about it#they walked my fiancée and I through how to use it which was good because realistically I can’t use it alone I’ll need to be pushed#wheelchair#my fiancée asked about getting stickers and at first I said no cause I’ll give it back when I’m on my feet again but I’m rethinking that#my feelings toward it are still… complicated. but overall positive
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Gotta admit, that scene of Marcela confidently parading her near total lack of self worth by giving a free lecture on how Betty's sudden presence of a spine indicates absence of love for Armando hits a bit different now that I'm a fellow I Got It All Figured Out who's currently getting feasted on by a therapist.
#ysblf#yo soy betty la fea#my lady!#every single word and action of yours are just further proof that you absolutely need to be bolted onto that couch#her brand of entitlement combined with opulent self-sacrificiality is so heavy i need to shove it down my gullet to digest it properly#she's so sure her absent sense of self worth is actually a moral choice on her part and everyone should be like her#she takes the cope and presents it as a normal fact of life and 'that's why I'm better than you actually because I've cracked the secret yo#'my asshole fiancé keeps hurting me and I keep taking it and that's proof I'm a good person actually'#my girl is textbook
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Do you ever think you’re not meant for this world and would fit so much more easily into the depraved sex horror mutilation novels you’re so fond of
#I’ve been through so much fucked up shit and now I’m just supposed to go to work?#sometimes I feel like I’m on a different plane of reality that only people who have been exposed to horrific things can access#and that’s why it’s so hard to get along with people. like they don’t know what it’s like to suffer#there’s a degree of pain where you turn into an animal . and someone needs to have known that#it’s like we’re entirely different organism like Neanderthals and Homosapiens. same ecological niche but fundamentally not the same#that metaphor will break down if you squint too hard at it#this is very stream of consciousness#but genuinely a lot of my closest relationships throughout my life have been with cult survivors and people who’s parents are murderers#or have survived similar shit that I have. I dated a guy in high school who’s dad shot his grandma while he was asleep in the house#(for those who keep track he’s the one who left his literal nazi fiancé for me . he was a nice enough guy just in a complicated situation)#it’s like we can all speak the same language without sounding like gibberish#I love not phasing people it’s so humiliating when my life is the most horrific thing someone has ever heard of#anyway the novel I finished today was very comforting . to me <3 it felt like a world I’d like to sink into and live in#give it up for auto-amputation
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I need this shirt asap. Even though I was told I have too much merch I don’t care I need this
#fall out boy#patrick stump#pete wentz#joe trohman#andy hurley#tttyg era#take this to your grave era#take this to your grave#my fiancé said honey you don’t need anymore#I need this in my life#fob merch#queue all the love to leave my heart
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#there's just something about ppl who come to me telling me about their recent troubles in life#“oh you won't believe what happened to me today” *proceeds to describe a fight w a friend*#“i'm going through the worst time of my life” *she's getting a divorce*#“i'm just so unhappy here” *she didn't get the position she wanted*#not that i'm in a going-through-a-rough-time competition but sometimes it's interesting#lost my dad and now i'm going into debt so that i can pay for the house that he left me#even though he left his $$ to his fiancée who's now refusing to do probate bc she's too worried that she'll have to spend dad's $#instead of keeping it for herself bc the $ for the estate account is abysmally little#obviously she's refusing to help me pay off the house and now is pushing probate onto me so i have to bear the financial responsibility for#that too bc my dad apparently lowered his standards after my parent's divorce#she's so trashy and rude and uncouth too#literally she had sm trouble hiring a lawyer bc of her attitude and she didn't think she should have to do what all they were telling her#she'd need to do as pr#🤦🏼♀️#like i get my friends are going through it too esp the one with the divorce bc her husband is a fucking narcissist but like... christ#personal
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