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Have I ever talked about the concept I had of the squip being used to basically erase a person and create an entire new identity in that body?
#lohst.txt#from the void#sci fi horror i guess#i had an au where Jake goes missing and loke a month later this new celebrity is everywhere#the thing is. he looks exactly like jake#rhe only difference is his hair colour#and his eyes are now a bright electric blue#howevee the squip hasn't deleted the memories and everything#more like suppressed them#so jake is still theree. just veey deep down#however there are things that still seem oddly familiar#why? he hasn't figured it out#why is this town familiar#why does kt feel like he knows his way around#he keeps going to the same places like hes been there many times before#but thats impossible. this is the first time he's been here#what really trips him up is the boy he meets#the boy who looks at him like he's scene a ghost#the boy who's touch feels oh so familiar#like theyve done this before#then suddenly he remembers#but he's stuck in this loop of spending nights drinking to be himself#to fight against the thing locking him deep in his own mind#knowing that as soon as he's sober again he disappears#i dont know why i went with jake. ir coild probably work with rich#anyway i mist sleep
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“You’re not ticcing right now, so you must be faking it!”
What it feels like at that moment-
#I should really stop suppressing my tics#talking about my tics here because I refuse to do it anywhere else#but literally nothing makes me more insecure#especially because mine are like#impossible to play off#nothing it worse then when you have a particularly embarrassing tic#and someone starts staring at you#anyway#main point#stop accusing people of faking tics because they have one good day#because they could be suppressing them#or they could just not be having tics right now#none of your business#we fakeclaim ourselves enough in our head#you don’t need to do it too#tic#tic disorder#tourettes#provisional tic disorder#tics#tics and tourettes#motor tics#vocal tics#verbal tics#anxiety tics
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it was just going to be a few warmup doodles but then she infected the rest of the page like the ever eternal and spreading spores. hod!!! hod. hod :)
#lobotomy corporation#lobcorp#hod#hod lobcorp#lobotomy corp spoilers#I GUESS i almost forgot i drew her box form#lobcorp spoilers#and michelle actually. ..#both very tiny. itty bitty. microscopic#other sephirah there too as normal. i cant have her alone. and Angelina as well on the top patting her#i have a hard time fully capturing her for some reason. in my mind. maybe its because is the disconnected period!!! mentally#she genuinely wishes to care and be kind yet theres a dissonance with what she does..? or how it ends up being taken or what she does to en#up bringing those actions into reality. she can be forceful? wanting to have employees attend therapy sessions and meetings for suppression#tactics. which i think is also something the safety team is incharge of iirc. so that means shes doing way more that what she needs to on#her job as a sephirah. just for the sake of employees#she really does care as shes one of the only to Directly attempt to change their circumstances and quality of life and health#sure chesed doesnt punish employees when they dont do their work assigned or stress them out with work#but he doesnt actively push to attempt to make changes to aid employees besides the research perks which is to the manager#yesod IS right next to her and does also genuinely care but when it comes to employees hes distant at best when it comes to them and the#way he tries to protect them is by enforcing rules but he doesnt really create or attempt to help them like hod does#yesod is sort of a passive? way of doing it. yes he doesn make a push to enforce said rules but he doesnt make new ones. just follows what#is already there in place. hod tries to make new ways and not just for the safety of people like how yesod's has them physically fine and#not letting them over a certain threshold of mental corruption but she tries to have a program to Directly Address such a thing#its born out of care but the genuine worry of being a good person and her naivety ends up having it do more harm than good#sure there may be some employees that actually like and find it useful but so many are just accepting to their fate of Dying to where#her care seems pointless. shes a sephirah and to them a literal metal box why would they go ahead and feel bad for what an 'ai' is feeling#as she is interrupting their free time in the company#which is rude. and shit. iirc the counseling is compulsory but people go because shes a sephirah and their superior. the thought was there#but again it comes off wrong and ends up not working because shes their superior in the end#EEK!!! yeah... hod. the hod. there is WAY more but i can't fit it all here and i already typed enough
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well okay.
#it’s rarely talked ab since jackie was overall an incredible mother but.#john himself said that before she married onassis … there was this emotional distance . a block her children couldn’t get through due to#the trauma of losing jack and then bobby#so it’s like… here jack and john are about the same age here and they both kind of had to find an independent sort of footing themselves#like i think there are parallels there between both of them as really young children that aren’t typically recognized#since jackie was more of an involved and affectionate mother than rose but i do think that there was a sense of loneliness there#in jack and john’s childhoods respectively#and i think a lot of suppressed anger and confusion that john had which jack had as well#anyway… just some thoughts . 💭 i used to talk ab the overarching family before instead of a few select figures#so this was a little bit of that lol!#like john jr is so much his father’s son and we gotta talk about it more! he wasn’t just this idk.. Hunk. although he was!#but the former just comes though so much in these pictures#kennedy for your thoughts#jfk jr.#john jr.#jfk#john kennedy jr#jack kennedy#john f kennedy#john fitzgerald kennedy#kennedy#kennedy family#kennedyposting#jfkposting
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Ş̸̻͕̺́̚Ṕ̵̛̪̃Ȩ̷̳̫̿̾Ã̶̞̺̇͐͘K̷͈̿̎̇.
This damn comic is fucking A N C I E N T but as far as like, the content of it- not necessarily the art because I always hate my older art, but the presentation, what is objectively here- still feels right to me, so I'm sharing it. again
#I do not have it in me to even begin explaining the layers of this horseshit lmao#one of these days I can try to actually like. talk about this thing#this beast of teeth and turmoil and shimmer and shadow#something so wonderfully beautiful and sickly foul#genuinely irritates me that i struggle to talk about them at all because I have drawn them. So. Much.#More than any other fusion. even the ones canon to the show lol#yes that includes garnet#Like in-universe sure i can explain. Karma is a manifestation of the one thread druid and sven share- control#Druid has had none. His corruption- the withering- took away most of his agency. and Sven needs control like he needs air#and both of them whether they admit it to themselves or not are more afraid of themselves than of any external force#Sven fears his emotions. fears feeling them. Druid fears his illness and what it does to his body and mind#And so Karma is fragmented into the parts that they want the world to see and the parts they're afraid of#Keeper is that fear. that need to contain. to control. to suppress. to hide. to mask.#Unbound is all inhibitions removed. it's the release. the freedom. the desire. the exposed. the raw.#Unbound is everything that Sven and Druid would never tell anyone. Desires buried so far down that they themselves don't recognize it#But that's all in-universe. That's not quite the scope of what they mean in a grander meta sense#that is too intrinsically tied to me in a way that I can't explain#because if I could explain... then I wouldn't need them#fucking. what the fuck do I tag this i cant keep shoving Karma under the SU tag lmao#nugget rambles#my art#au/niverse
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Photos of a bronze armillary sphere with three layers of rotating rings on an equatorial set up. The sphere is supported by three legs in a row, all decorated with detailed ornamentation and dragon figures. The text on the granite base is in Slovene and Mandarin Chinese (translation and originals under read more↓).
The astronomical instrument (an equatorial armillary sphere) that was unveiled on 6 February 2024 in front of the Archives of the Republic of Slovenia in Ljubljana – facing the location of the old Jesuit college, where its conceptor first received his education – is a full-scale replica of the original, finished in 1754, still in place at the Beijing Ancient Observatory in China.
Ferdinand Avguštin Haller von Hallerstein, known also by his Chinese name Liú Sōnglíng (劉松齡; simplified: 刘松龄) was born in 1703, received Jesuit education in Ljubljana, Vienna and Graz and arrived in Beijing in 1739 as a missionary, set to work at the Imperial Astronomical Bureau (which had been run by the Jesuits since 1669). In 1746 he succeeded the office of the head of the bureau and ran it until his death in 1774 – longer than any of his predecessors. He died soon after a stroke he reportedly suffered upon hearing the news that the Pope had disbanded the Jesuit order (in 1773; that suppression was later lifted in 1814).
Beside the astronomical work (published as Observationes astronomicæ), he also worked as a cartographer (creating a map of Macao and its environs, of Manchuria and contributing to the Jesuit Atlas of China) and is noted for making the first exact estimate of the Chinese population (calculated to have been 196,837,977 in 1760 and 198,214,624 in 1761).


Astronomical instruments at the Beijing Ancient Observatory. Hallerstein's armillary sphere is in the foreground. {x} • {x}
The armillary sphere is one of a kind, combining Chinese and European astronomical knowledge as requested by the Qiánlóng Emperor (乾隆帝), who wanted to both honor the tradition of his ancestors and make the instrument as accurate as possible by the standards of the time. The instrument is 3.7 m long, 2.1 m wide and 3.3 m high. It is made of bronze and weighs more than 5 tons. Its replica is made of the same material and is of the same size, built in China using 3D-scanning technology and later transported to Slovenia, and is also fully functional. The design of the original instrument started in 1744 and when it was finished 10 years later, it was considered the pinnacle of Chinese astronomical science as well as artistic craftsmanship.
The Astronomical Instrument was conceived by Augustin Ferdinand Hallerstein (*1703 Ljubljana, †1774 Beijing), a Slovene Jesuit, astronomer, mathematician, cartographer and diplomat, during the time he lived in Qing China. The original stands at the Beijing Ancient Obsevatory. The replica of the instrument is a gift of the Embassy of the People's Republic of China as an incentive for the continuation of cultural exchange between Slovenia and China. Urban Municipality of Ljubljana, 2022
Zvezdni opazovalnik je v času dinastije Qing med svojim življenjem na Kitajskem zasnoval Auguštin Ferdinand Hallerstein (Ljubljana 1703–1774 Peking), slovenski jezuit, astronom, matematik, kartograf in diplomat. Izvirnik stoji na Starem pekinškem astronomskem observatoriju. Repliko opazovalnika je podarilo Veleposlaništvo LR Kitajske kot spodbudo za nadaljevanje kulturnih stikov med Slovenijo in Kitajsko. Mestna občina Ljubljana, 2022
玑衡抚辰仪 值此中华人民共和国同斯洛文尼亚共和国建交30周年,中国驻斯洛文尼亚大使馆和北京天文馆特赠天文��测仪器玑衡抚辰仪同比例复制品,以兹纪念。玑衡抚辰仪由斯洛文尼亚人刘松龄 (1703–1774) 在华担任清朝钦天监监正期间主持制造,原件陈列于北京古观象台。 二〇二二年
(for the latter, thanks go to this anon!!)
#j#slovenia#china#hallerstein#ferdinand augustin von hallerstein#liu songling#ljubljana#beijing ancient observatory#history of astronomy#etc etc#hist#astro#my photos#(except for the last two)#i didn't know about him dying bc of hearing about jesuits being suppressed before writing this post and that's so funny tbh#common christian L#also i heard the instrument described as being built using the european heliocentric principles combined with chinese geocentric ones#but i didn't use that because 1) it's misleading wrt the chinese who were not opposed to the heliocentric model because they were not reall#using a geocentric model either#they were more confused by europeans first arguing for one and later the other#so a description saying that it was built using the european heliocentric principles with a traditional chinese equatorial base is better i#but then comes 2) the pope only allowed copernican thought to be taught in 1757 – which is 3 years after the instrument was finished and#13 years after its design started#so idk if jesuits just ignored that (which is possible! even likely ig) and that was one of the factors in them getting disbanded ?#or if people are just describing it wrong#because those two facts (the timing of the instrument and the pope's heliocentrism) are never discussed together from what i've read#in any case... i just thing it's cool Ꜣ)
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i saw a post saying this and i know it's comforting to say as much right now. however, i really don't think left-leaning people that didn't vote for harris's platform are the principal issue in the present political landscape.
#yes. i understand that a blue white house would be preferable. i agree.#if i'd been able to vote I probably would have voted for her#saying that#i don't think calling arab voters 'stupid' for not wanting to vote for their own genocide is appropriate#or trans people who can't vote for their own disenfranchisement#and when voter suppression has been a consistent problem over the past few years#i don't think it's fair to take that tack with nonvoters at large#i think there's far more at play than people 'buying into right wing propaganda'#and smugly telling them that now they 'get to burn with us' in this context is myopic at best#how are you any different than patton oswalt going 'you threw the election because of gaza but gaza is going to burn no matter what'#THAT. IS LITERALLY THE POINT#it feels like you're asking vulnerable people to vote for your comfort above all else. not theirs.#like you want permission to look away. to not care as much about those issues#anyway#remy yells
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tory nichols x lady macbeth monologue
#cobra kai#tory nichols#samtory#peyton list#pinkgrapefloyd#pinkgrapefloydedit#web weaving#doesnt fit a hundred percent but i couldnt get it out of my head so here you go! AAAAAAAAHHHHHHH#that first picture with her and silver makes me so happy... her gaze! the duncan name drop! omens of doom! she's gonna kill you! teehee!#also i really love how it moves more inward! at the beginning it's her and cobra kai and by the end it's just her and sam. her and herself#that sequence of 'fill me top full of direst cruelty' to 'remorse' makes me SO SAD.#she's like 'i'm worse than them. i'm unbreakable. i'm a psycho. i'll destroy myself as long as it destroys them too'#also the 'visitings of nature' over the pic of her with sam. like yeah it's about suppressing guilt and morals. but maybe also sth else?#what other natural urges are you suppressing tory nichols#also the 'blanket of the dark' over sam's dream???? aaaaaaaaahhh#also the fact that the edit ends with the IDEA of tory instead of actually her irl. has she finally become an actual girl#instead of a ghost story told about a girl? maybe. up to you
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Minewt is so very very important to me
Minho, who is strong and confident, but not emotionally, someone who shies away from more delicate moments, squirms when it gets emotional, will do something nice for someone else but will not make eye contact as he does so
Newt, who is strong and confident, especially emotionally, someone who will grin as they accept help, someone who will willingly die to help someone else, someone who will hug someone in public and not show a hint of shame after, someone who will cry and not care if they're seen
Minho falling head over heels for that sense of safety, for that confidence, for that unabashed vulnerability. Meanwhile Newt is utterly clueless
while Minho is doing things that are the pinnacle of romance to his "affection is awkward" mind, Newt is just like "hey Minho left me a snack! he's been really nice lately :D"
#remember that Kung Fu Panda 2 scene? where Tigress hugs Po and says ''I can't watch my best friend die''#and she's like. the strongest character out there. super aloof and stoic and powerful and brash#she's strong physically. and it's in that scene where you realize she's strong emotionally too#she's vulnerable and open in front of 7 people. and she just casually walks away afterwards. no shame or embarrassment#the whole movie is Po suppressing his trauma and refusing to acknowledge or feel it#and then there is Tigress. someone who he's kinda jealous of (remember their Fists Of Steel moment on the boat?)#someone who is powerful and strong and everything Po wants to be. AND someone who is willing to feel.#to be afraid. to care. to love.#anyway I was thinking about that while I wrote this#I probably don't have to spell it out but Newt is Tigress and Minho is Po#they are both very strong characters but only one of them is strong emotionally#and while I do like Tigress and Po's dynamic#the fact that Minho and Newt are BOTH confident (albeit Minho a little arrogant) makes the dynamic SO MUCH more fun#there is Po who is insecure and afraid and then there is Minho who is confident and afraid#someone who will kill without blinking but will flinch at a hug#just. AHHHHHHH#anyway#tmr Minho#tmr Newt#Minewt#I don't take constructive criticism because I'm not wrong
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Honkai Star Rail x Arknights crossover (not ship art; just drawing two of my comfort characters ever)
Oh god they’re both orphans and traumatized
Shalem (Arknights) child fan design by Cyanord_K (twitter)
#hsr#hsr fanart#hsr aventurine#aventurine#hsr leaks#< kinda#that leaked baby aventurine profile really did it for me🫠🫠#arknights#arknights fanart#shalem arknights#shalem#THIS IS SO SELF INDULGENT#I ONLY DRAWN THEM TOGETHER BECAUSE I REALIZED THEY HAVE A LOT OF SIMILARITIES#like both of them are orphans and traumatized#said trauma being currently suppressed by acting like everything is fine#also they both lost the shine in their eyes after seeing some shit#ALSO ALSO they both have fuschia (Shalem’s eyes are more lilac leaning though) + another color that forms a ring around their pupils#it’s just that Shalem and Aventurine are like at the opposite ends of some kind of spectrum (personality wise I think?)#< I say that because Shalem is more polite and humble than Aventurine; he also prefers to keep to himself while Aventurine is just.#flamboyant in a way LOL#ANYWAYS my conclusion is that I have a type#as you can see#AND I MISS MY WIFE; MY MUSE (Shalem)…#Artciel
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Gotta love how in Archie anti Jules and the biggest shit eating grin while poor baby scourge looked so lonely , puny and neglected.
Yeah poor little guy🥲

#sonic the hedgehog#scourge the hedgehog#anti sonic#anti jules#archie sonic comics#archie sonic issue 192#anon interview#i just be ramblin#Thank you for the ask!!😊#Ngl I do still wish they got to cook with Scourge longer ('they' being largely Ian Flynn)#because this scene alone implied to me (among other things) that Mr. Flynn was or may have been interested in developing Scourge and the#suppression squad past their original idea#In other words‚ shifting from 'they're simply evil and born to be evil because the prime universe cast was born good' to the idea that the#previous statement is a bit more of an assumption on the character's part#and that the truth is closer to 'these characters seem to be evil solely because their prime universe counterparts are good‚ but their#differing environments growing up and the resulting choices from that shaped them in their formative years'#Scourge and Sonic's separate speeches about how with different choices made they could have become/could become each other actually changed#my brain chemistry#permanently altering how I view Sonic as a character#anyways wouldda killed to get more scourge and suppression squad back story#another shout out for 'implies so much despite not showing or saying all that much' like this scene in 192 are those scenes where we see#Miles being so so very afraid of Scourge AND the scene where we learn Miles was basically puppeting Anti-Sally/Alicia and secretly ruling#the kingdom before Scourge got back to take over
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On paper I would love Tunuva and Esbar, but I have trouble fully loving the ship because I kinda hate how Esbar treats Siyu, and it’s personally kind of hard for me to invest in a ship where one of the members is borderline emotionally abusive/neglectful to their daughter. Maybe it’s just a personal issue, idk
#Because I really do love them as a couple but I don’t really like Esbar as a person#a day of fallen night#siyu uq nara#esbar uq nara#tunuva melim#adofn#tunuva x esbar#roots of chaos#Like how is it against the priory’s rules for Esbar to show affection to Siyu but it’s perfectly ok for her to be lovey dovey to Tuva?#They care way more about suppressing parental love than romantic love within the priory for some reason
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Sometimes I grab my characters and can't resist just making them be naked and add drapey fabric around them. Anyway here's Leon, who's a character I don't remember talking about on this blog. He's a mind reader and kind of a loser, unless you're in the AU where he's slightly more shameless, then he's just kind of an asshole.
Full picture (18+) on bluesky.
#oc#art#my art#oc art#his regular setting is him accidentally being a vigilante through using his mind readings to just. give info to superheroes#he's a loser bc he spent a lot of time suppressing his powers and not knowing how to use them. which ive taken to jokingly calling#his elsa from frozen arc#so yeah. thats regular leon.#his vigilante/superhero name is whiskers btw. like a cat. bc catboy#ummmm the AU i've been poking at with Mike lately tho#he's 'evil' ? in the sense that like#he went 'if you expect me to steal all your secrets with my mind reading then i will do so bc fuck you'#instead of shriveling up about it#so he's a lot more dickish. despite somehow being just as generally chill as the regular one#he can actually control the mind reading ! and uses it for evil !#literally he is a villain in that setting. he chose that path tho#leon whiskers smith
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More sketchy employee profile images. Mostly made to be able to replace the picrew I had in the template I made since I can draw. I did end up just putting it as back and white though but the color is just nice to have. I'm STILL trying to tweak the template since it is very finicky and there is an example of what it looks down below if you're interested. It is a lot. It will happen. I am just not the quickest
There are typos and inconsistencies I missed but in general it should be fine...
#lobotomy corporation#lobcorp#lobotomy corp agent#lobotomy corp oc#I ALMOST POSTED THIS WITH NO TAGS dude. dude. that or they got eaten which is also a high possibility#a bit lengthy with a lot of text qs well if it is decided to be looked upon. as said before it full of maybe inconsistencies and typos#the reason i keep stalling making it public is because its in GOOGLE DOCS. GOOGLE DOCS!!! and unoptimized for phone viewing so ahh... eh...#there was going to be a later part for notes but it would be around the later days so... cant reallt happen#mostly after cheseds core suppression due to ryn and him having contradictory views up to that point. ryn putting way too much effort into#their job while at that point chesed kind of gave up in a way. not going to ramble too muhc abt that its oc things but the dynamic of that#was something i wanted to talk about a bit.. that and the death of angelina but that happens LATE and near the final days#and communication is down with the rest#i wanted to make more boxes and categories but also for the ease of use i limited it. that and attempting to fit them into pages seemed lik#hell. honestly. eekk!! not up for that. included both for the sake of showcasing. i didnt finish the last ones which was going to be a#showing of an employee with not as many permissions due to ryn and angelina actually both being captains. will do that when i do showcase#and give out the actual template along with other things like images for 'transfer' like another branch#'dismissed' 'resigned' 'deceased' 'mia' which would be for things like backwards clock and wellcheers#there was so much math needed.... it was just adding and checking numbers for a timeline but still..... ew..... that and employee team shit#tried to have it somewhat believable a bit. kind of semi believable to go yeah this could be smthn that is in the corp#employee numbers were based off red shoes entry!! it had been different before but i read it in game since i got it and was like. OHH wait#.... i feel rather embarrassed to post this actually. excited but also embarrassed. likely the idea of showing something i ended up#putting hours into . its probably that. plus the fact its for original creations.... i hope itll be of use some day
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I don’t talk about it enough but Addam/Ben is such a good dynamic. Because while Addam would have been under a lot of stress, considering his present predicament (as a wanted criminal technically), he can still have a brief moment of happiness with someone who doesn’t judge him unnecessarily. And Ben, who is depicted as a person very concerned with honor, still chose to trust Addam and follow him. He’s the one who commanded the centre in Addam’s army. It’s mentioned in Fire & Blood that Ben has experienced more of the horror of war in his short life than many other people his age or older. It made him kind of ruthless and violence prone but I think he would be able to relax and let his guard down a little around Addam who is repeatedly shown to be protective of others. Their characterizations work really nicely together.
Regardless of whether it’s just a platonic friendship or something more like romance, Ben must have cared a lot for Addam. After Tumbleton, when the Riverlords retreated from the battlefield, they left their dead behind. Except for Ben, who took Addam’s body with him rather than leaving it to the carrion crows. Even laying his remains to rest at Raventree Hall, despite Addam not being a Blackwood (unless they got married at the Isle of Faces, in which case…).
#valyrianscrolls#fire and blood#asoiaf#addam velaryon#benjicot blackwood#addam x ben#the dance of the dragons#text#I’m personally more partial to their relationship as a one sided romance with ben being the one more outwardly interested in addam#addam doesn’t seem like the type to engage in a romance considering all that’s happened to him so far#and certainly not while he’s busy focused on the war efforts#if he had any feelings for ben he would suppress them#but I do enjoy their relationship in all its iterations though#homoerotic besties >>>>>>>>>>>>
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okay. how is no one talking abt this?
#HE LOOKS SO GENUINELY HAPPY? THAT SMILE? HES SUPPRESSING SO MUCH LAUGHTER? YGS?#my heart is full. hes happy and thats all that matters#WHO DREW HIM LIKE THAT. I AM INDEBTED TO THEM FOREVER.#hes pretty when he smiles he should do it more#yohei kanbayashi#paradox live
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