#mental trauma warning

[emotionaleating]

[oakydeer]

[hello-friends9500]

Mood drops

[dice-n-slice-bitvh]

Hah! Fuck you single bitch, imagine being single.

I'm dating someone, go fuck yourself.

-✂️

Damn, didn't know that toys counted as a sentient being now- Wait, nevermind, not even a preschool toy would want to date you. Stop with hallucinations before you're sent to the Asylum again.

[vent-art-af]

"…ᵷuᴉɥsᴉuɐʌ ǝɹoɟǝq spuoɔǝs ʎʇɹᴉɥʇ ɹoɟ sɯɐǝɹɔs puɐ ǝɔuǝɟ ɹǝʇǝɯᴉɹǝd ǝɥʇ ʎq spuɐʇs uoʇǝʅǝʞs pǝʅɔsnɯ ʎʅʅɐᴉʇɹɐd Ɐ :ɥʇ߈Ɩ ɹǝqɯǝʌoN"

[arradraws]

🫶

[mentalnote1]

Case Study #2 – The Clinic

I have visited all the pharmacies and medicine section at every store in Portland looking for diet pills

My name is Samantha and I know I'm overweight

My mom worries about me

I’m scheduled for a weigh in at the clinic today at 3pm

The clinic is just an easier softer way of saying the crazy house

My clothes fit so tight and I know I can lose a couple of pounds before 3pm

I look at the time

12:30pm

I walk to the bodega at the corner and purchase 2 family packs of Oreo’s and start eating them as I walk back home

I sit on my couch and browse Facebook and imagine how I can look and be happy like so many others

I look through my pictures and compare myself

I hate myself

I finish off the second bag of Oreo’s and head to my room

I take off all my clothes and analyze my body in the mirror

I pull at my fat bulges, spin around, gaze in my own eyes in the mirror

I loathe myself

I head to the bathroom, stick two finger down my throat and vomit the Oreo’s

I vomit the hate I have for myself

I drink some water with baking soda so it can come easy and I vomit some more until my throat hurts

I look up at myself as saliva melts down the side of my face and drops to the rug

I hear the front door, its my mom coming to take me to the clinic

I hurry and flush the toilet and turn the shower on as to quietly say do not disturb

I stay in the bathroom for about 5 minutes just sitting on the side of the tub, I wet my hair grab a towel and walk out

She’s standing there

I don’t look at her

I walk pass her without acknowledgement and slam my bedroom door because

I hate her too

I hear her ruffling through the bathroom looking for any sign that I have done something to harm myself

We head to the clinic

The nurse weighs me

Nurse speaks: Samantha you lost 7 pounds since your last weigh in last week, you are 85 pounds.

My mother has tears in her eyes as she tries to hug me

I push her away

The nurse and my mother look each other in the eyes speaking some unknown language

Since I’m only 16 years old my mother signs papers to have me 302’ed again to the clinic for a psych eval and observation

And I hate myself!

https://www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/get-help/

[finny-0w0]

Bedrotting and being on Tumblr and twt all the time iz my favorite hobby :3

[cabinyote]

[Why is my heart not enough??]

Loving like a Dog is out. Defending myself like one with teeth and claws is in.

[kyros-tha-soldier]

ODA IF I EVER CATCH YOU-

[gorentaya]

✞༒︎✞ (:̲̅:̲̅:̲̅[̲̅:♡:]̲̅:̲̅:̲̅:̲̅) ✞☓✞(:̲̅:̲̅:̲̅[̲̅:♡:]̲̅:̲̅:̲̅:̲̅) ✞༒︎✞ (:̲̅:̲̅:̲̅[̲̅:♡:]̲̅:̲̅:̲̅:̲̅) ✞☓✞

Patient Zero is a passion project and indie comic still in development that is yet to be released. The story representing the journey to recovery and healing of illness and trauma. Meant to disturb the comforted and comfort the disturbed. The story is based off the creators own life experiences and struggles with trauma, mental and physical health. Using metaphors and symbolism to tell the tale of their life.

⚠️STORY TRIGGER/CONTENT WARNINGS⚠️

Every chapter of the comic will have their own individual trigger/content warning for everything that will be included in said chapter. I want everyone who finds said material triggering to prepare themselves if they wish to proceed. If you do not care about triggering material and find the warnings to be a “spoiler” then you may skip it as you please. The warnings are for those who need them.

All of the subjects and themes included will be treated with nothing but love and care. The story explores the cause of trauma, the effects it has on a person and the work that goes into healing. The characters help each other understand their situation and find ways to cope together. My intent is to give comfort and validation to those who have gone through these hardships. To make characters that can help people understand themselves better and make them feel less alone in their struggles. But that’s why I’m so specific with including trigger warnings. The last thing I want is to harm anyone. So please, take care of yourself♡

You are not alone. You deserve to heal. You deserve to live. You are enough. And you are worthy feeling happy and fulfilled in life

Onto the general trigger warnings… Patient Zero includes triggering themes and depictions of-

Mental illnesses. Trauma. Disabilities. Eating disorders. Fat shaming. Self harm. Nudity. Sex. Sex/Porn/Drug/Alcohol addiction. Masochism. Grooming (sexual and non-sexual) Mental/Physical/Sexual abuse. Discussions and implications of sexual assault/r@p3. Religious trauma and imaginary. Blood. Gore. Body horror. Death. Murder. Trypophobia. Scopophobia. Homophobia. Transphobia. Strong/explicit language.

IMPORTANT NOTES-

Not all nudity is used in a sexual context. Masc and femme nipples will be shown. There will be a few sex scenes. Sex will be explicit, however sex organs and penetration will NOT be illustrated.

Self harm will be discussed and scars will be shown, the ACT of self harm (blade against skin) will NOT be illuminated.

Sexual assault/r@p3pe will be discussed and implied but the ACT will NOT be illustrated

Slurs will be used a FEW times and are ONLY those I- the author- is allowed to use. The T-slur for trans people. The F-slur for queer people. The R-slur for the mentally handicapped.

Toyhouse link for more information https://toyhou.se/Gorentaya/characters/folder:4499676

✞༒︎✞ (:̲̅:̲̅:̲̅[̲̅:♡:]̲̅:̲̅:̲̅:̲̅) ✞☓✞(:̲̅:̲̅:̲̅[̲̅:♡:]̲̅:̲̅:̲̅:̲̅) ✞༒︎✞ (:̲̅:̲̅:̲̅[̲̅:♡:]̲̅:̲̅:̲̅:̲̅) ✞☓✞

~ Main Cast ~

Yamimiki Mimi - Protagonist

Gorentaya - Deuteragonist

Morrigan - Tritagonist

Bugs - Tritagonist

Angel - Antagonist

[pinkiepromesa]

[vvictuss]

so im totally pro therapy but we should really talk about therapist abuse outside of inappropriate relationships/direct SA because the other stuff will supremely fuck you up too man. like this guy came into my life when i was a severely psychotic and vulnerable teen with a genuinely impaired grasp on reality and 4-5 years later he’s handing me a loaded handgun at a park. if i had known what to look out for, maybe it wouldn’t have gone so far and led to the more common types of therapist malpractice. maybe i could’ve spent those years actually healing instead of getting pulled into codependent insanity with him

fuck u allen you fuckibg creep weirdo. go to mormon hell. i wish the heart attack had booked you

[blubefishy]

Starting to talk to people after trauma therapy is fucking wild, because I've just learned that you can be silly, you don't have to worry about every little thing you say, and it's like woah!

I can talk to people? I can be a silly goofy little nerd and everything is fine? If somebody gets annoyed, it's on them to tell me and not on me for not knowing automatically? This is how people do it? I'm actually considered a nice person?!

[cryxbabyzx]

"ur not hypersexual its just hormones and internet" yeah cuz a 7yo would be addicted to masturbating because of hormones ^_^ i was doing it a few times a day

and yes, i used a few girls' bodies just because of hormones 🙂

[lycankeyy]

hi!! i'm interested in reading your FNF + pico's school fanfic because i love your other work (i think about amanita the paras every day and i am a huge semicolon enjoyer), but i don't know very much about either piece of media. is there a baseline level of knowledge about the sources that i need to read your fics? if so, do you have any recommendations on learning more about the games and/or your characters and universe?

Hi Hayes what if I cried what then /silly

So as you probably know considering you read Semicolon is that my approach to sandbox-style media is "take everything we know, try to find unique ways to interpret it, and have fun with all the leftover space". In a funny way, PS and FNF are about as good for this as creepypastas (probably why the fanbases have such insane overlap).

Additional good thing - being browser games, these games are short. You can breeze through the entire Pico's School catalogue in, like, an hour and a half, provided you're decent at old flash "point to shoot gun" style games. If not it's easy to find playthroughs of each on YouTube. FNF is a rhythm game and presently a demo, so it's equally quick to go through.

In true sandbox fashion, though, these games don't have a lot of lore themselves. Most of That is revealed through word of god. Thankfully those are meticulously documented on their respective wikis. Honestly I think half of what got me into these games is how fun it is to read the character trivia LMAO

As for Funkycule specifically, I don't think there's a lot you need to know outside the baseline knowledge about both source materials (basic plot and characters of Pico, characters and original plot of FNF). I have admittedly gone Off The Rails at this point with stuff I have added we are approaching critical mass of "these are basically my ocs but I'm too autistic and hyperfixated to make them my ocs" JDKQJDK. I do my best to put important posts in the funkycule tag

Hopefully that covers anything you might want to know?? Tbh I've been high-key considering making a commentary video playing through the Pico series for people who don't want to play it (for understandable reasons) while also giving explanations for word of god lore. If enough people are interested I might make that NDKQJSKS