#mental health tw.

[pitgritted]

thinking more critically since I’m not serving anyone rn, but like—- getting suggestive here, but classic sett , I don’t think , is super driven by sexual desire ( at least in terms of generality !! ) — imagine being drunk , super sore & aching all over , constantly bad tempered & short with everybody because of irritation .,,, he’s also just simply afraid of getting intimate physically . hes scared of letting down his mental barriers — because he also has super fucking bad coping habits ( drinking , violence , clawing out fur from his ears / hair ) ,,,

sett doesn’t easily get “ into it “ because of these things . even if he is actively in it , he’s the type to be awake even after the events of it , sitting on the edge and trying to calm himself down ,,, super anxious and ears all pinned back . one night stands make him feel fucking irritable and terrible , & he’s usually the first to be gone after & just not speak with that individual again … many men & women he’s slept with ( on his volition if not inebriated usually ) are always blocked off by Smeek telling them off because Settrigh does not have the mental to deal with it or makes excuses that he has to be there for a match he’s not too interested in .

[drekkavac]

self confidence has taken a massive nosedive , so i'm gonna probably stay off tumblr so i don't unnecessarily remake everything. love all my mutuals so so much & just so happy with everyone doing well.

[drekkavac-moving]

anya has OCD (obsessive compulsive disorder) & given her life as a spy , they rely on repetition , & routines in just about every aspect of her life. from the way she makes her bed & folds her clothes ... to the way she makes her coffee , there's little details everywhere that if not done properly ... she won't eat , drink , or engage in.

she wakes up everyday at the same time.

it doesn't matter when they went to bed , they will always wake up at 4am in the morning. being raised in a militaristic fashion , waking up at a certain time was not a negotiation. she uses this time to work out. she'll box for a bit , & then go for a very long run. she likes running , it helps her clear her head. she likes going on runs with her dad , but otherwise she prefers to run alone.

her bed must be made a specific way.

during her time in project legacy , everything had to be done up to code. beds were made a specific way especially , corners being tucked with a specific technique that she will compulsively do , to the degree of unmaking and remaking the bed if her partner or someone else does it wrong. pictures must be set a very specific way , or she'll redo them.

her bathroom toiletries are all meticulously placed.

everything has home , & everything must live in it's home. anya gets flustered when things aren't where they should be , & will act out angrily at times. she'd good about making sure people know not to touch anything. so if they do after that than it's on her. (if you've been in her home , which is a big if ... the first words out of their mouth are 'don't touch anything.')

tea & coffee only get made by her ... no exceptions.

there's a couple reasons for this. one , is because this was one of the first things she did for herself on her own. she liked the taste of coffee , & given the constant being on the move with their family ... coffee & tea became a very needed thing for them. she's super picky about taste , so she won't drink anything made by anything else. (yes , this includes her dad.) if she's on a date with you , & you decide to take her to a coffee house or a tea house , she'll likely just have a water.

in conclusion ... for someone who enjoys anarchal movements & bringing down the established government ... she's got a few parts of her life that she can't help but obsess over being done a certain way. she doesn't see a need for it to stop either , so she hasn't sought out medication or treatment to help her with it.

[homiines]

my mh is not good today, overall im not good mentally or physically but I will finally be able to be productive tomorrow. and just wanted to say it on here.

[tofumarinado]

it's so funny to me when i see pearl-clutching articles about how "teenagers are diagnosing themselves with mental disorders via tiktok" because like. this is not happening in a vacuum. teenagers are severely and i mean severely medically neglected. i cannot stress this enough. teenagers do not have free access to medical care. those same news outlets would be clowning on women with housewife psychosis in the 1950's.

i sometimes go pale when listening to some of what my friends have gone through in their childhoods and teenagehoods. they talk about it so nonchalantly, things that would be considered straight up torture if done to an adult, can't fathom the effect this has on children. they are on multiple anti-psychotics and several antidepressants and anxiety meds now that they are adults. medical neglect has legally and effectively disabled them. a timely diagnosis and intervention could have saved them. of course teenagers are self-diagnosing using tiktok. if your knee-jerk reaction is to scoff at the idea and dismiss it as dumb teenager shit instead of being radicalized because the best shot young people have at attaining the mental health support they need is a fucking dancing videos app, you're categorically a political enemy of the youth.

[emotionaleating]

when someone doesn’t wanna tell me what i did wrong and suddenly i’m 8 years old wondering what i did to make my mom mad again

[schizopositivity]

Things I'd love for the Internet to leave in 2023:

• misusing the word "delusional" or saying "delulu"

• public freakout videos that are just someone displaying psychotic symptoms

• "I'm in your walls" and other paranoia triggering "jokes"

• schizoposting

• misusing the word "psychotic"

• baiting and triggering people online who are openly psychotic or displaying psychotic symptoms

• excluding schizo-spec and psychotic people from any neurodiversity/mental illness awareness

Let's just all try to be better to schizo-spec and psychotic people. And hold others accountable as well.

[disabledprincesses]

Non-autistics living with autistics:

They keep eating the same freaking food and it frustrates me so much! We can't have the "big scary light" on just lamps everywhere! Even when I try to find peace by doing stuff with them they just ignore me and do whatever they want. They can't even do the simplest of things like go with me to the grocery store every week! How do people expect them to survive in society??

Autistics living together:

So as long as we get my 10 packets of this really specific food, and some snacks, I'll be okay. Also is it cool if you go to the grocery store? I can clean the bathroom since thats bad sensory for you and the store is bad sensory for me. Can you turn on the lamp instead of the big light? It gives me a headache. Thanks man. Yea I'll unplug the TV for you since you can hear the high pitched noise. Do you want to do two separate things in the same room as bonding again this evening? Thats my favorite part of the day too.

[hermthejewishwyrm]

Just a safety reminder to NEVER try shrooms or LSD if your family has any history of schizoaffective disorders.

[dandelionsresilience]

Just in case Trump wins:

right after Trump was elected in 2016, suicidality skyrocketed. If you’re considering suicide in the wake of the election this year, at least wait until after it’s absolutely certain that he’s won - after every vote has been counted, every state certified, and maybe even after he’s been sworn in (IF he wins), just to make sure he doesn’t go to prison instead. Watch the results come in live here, but don’t obsess or let them sway your vote. (To be clear, I don’t want a single person to commit suicide over the election results, no matter what. But I know from experience that “don’t do it” is thoroughly unhelpful, so instead I’m saying at least wait.)

if you’re considering suicide because you fear worsening material conditions, you might think a hotline can’t help with that. and it’s true that they can’t change legislation or promise you’ll be safe. but it’s worth double checking whether what you’re actually hurting from is in fact unfixable. right now, just getting through the emotions can help you regain a more objective view of the situation, and then you can work on surviving it. plus, when something bad happens, we tend to vastly overestimate how bad it will seem in the future, no matter how bad it actually is.

In my experience, it might take a few tries before you find a hotline that picks up, either because they’re so busy, or they’re closed at that time, or they simply don’t serve your location or demographic, so under the thingy I’ve listed more than just the same handful that tend to show up on other websites. Even if you’re not actively suicidal, you can talk to them about your hard feelings, ask for material resources, or just vent to a compassionate listener.

FIND HELP

HopeLine - call/text: 877-235-4525

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline - call/text: 988 | chat

Crisis Text Line - text HOME to 741741 | chat

help getting out of the military

for underrepresented adults:

Thrive Lifeline - text THRIVE to 313-662-8209

for pre-teens, teens, and young adults:

Your Life Your Voice - call: 800-488-3000 | text VOICE to 20121 | email

for teens (limited hours):

Teen Line - call: 800-852-8336 | text TEEN to 839863 | email

for trans and questioning people:

Trans Lifeline - call: 1-877-565-8860

for people with substance dependency:

Never Use Alone Overdose Prevention Hotline - call: 877-696-1996

for BIPOC (“with an LGBTQ+ Black Femme Lens”):

BlackLine - call: 1-800-604-5841

for college students of colour:

The Steve Fund Crisis Text Line - text STEVE to 741741

for LGBTQ+ young people:

The Trevor Project - call: 1-866-488-7386 | text START to 678678 | chat

for homeless or runaway youth:

National Runaway Safeline - call/text: 1-800-786-2929 | (has chat and email, but I think the link includes tracking)

for Muslim youth (limited hours):

Naseeha Youth Hotline - call: 1-866-627-3342

Amala Hopeline - call: 1-855-952-6252

for Jewish queer youth (warmline, may take up to 24 hours to reply):

JQY Warmline - call/text: 551-579-4673

for veterans:

Veterans Crisis Line - call: 988, option 1 | text: 838255 | chat

for veterans and their families:

Lifeline for Vets - call: 888-777-4443

for pregnant people:

Crisis Pregnancy Hotline - call: 888-628-3353 | text: 714-448-8323

for parents unsure of their ability to care for a newborn:

National Safe Haven Alliance - call: 888-510-2229 | text SAFEHAVEN to 313131

International Council for Helplines Member Organisations

Warmlines - for emotional support, if you just need to talk; a lower level of support than crisis hotlines

NAMI Helpline directory

Key warmline directory (unclear if 317-550-0060 might also be a warmline, I haven’t tried it)

Wildflower Alliance Peer Support Line (limited hours) - call: 888-407-4515

[drekkavac-moving]

PLOTTING IS IMPORTANT TO ME.

i've been doing a lot of thinking when it comes my anxiety around writing without plotting going on , & wanna talk about some stuff that is the reason why to me , plotting is soooo important.

i've had anxiety for a very long time. i'm not currently on medication , i have general depression , seasonal depression , adhd & am also autistic. put all that together in my brain ... & suddenly the idea of writing a thread where there isn't any plotting between the muns for the plot makes it so i have a panic attack a lot of the time just trying to reply to those unplotted threads.

i don't wanna keep feeling that way.

writing should be fun , & at this point in my life ... is the only hobby i have due to my health. i used to be very active , engaging in stage combat shows, circus shows , & so much more than that , but with my health declining the way that it is ... i'm lucky between the pain & anxiety i even make to outside to go to the store. my way of connection with people is writing , & i don't want that to go away.

i'm going to be heavily prioritizing plotted threads. i will still be doing unplotted stuff , but i need to be able to work at my own pace on things that aren't plotted , & not feel the pressure to do threads that don't have any plotting. it's starting to make me too tired to write all the time , & i hate that. unplotted threads will not be my priority going forward , but making a thread a plotted thread is just a short convo away.

[veryluckyclovers]

[iwillnotseeheaven]

[emotionaleating]

pls don’t flirt with me i want to be nonchalant so bad but i unfortunately crave connection so intensely that i will give you my entire soul and forgive you over and over until i’ve lost myself completely and feel like i’m drowning

[animentality]

[endlessmidnights]

I hate when people say suicide is the easy way out, they have no idea the pain you must be in to want to end your own life