#meaningless rambles

[ritzy-dream-boy]

this is directly linked to my last reblog

this here

and it makes me so happy and so not-sad-but-yes-sad (i do not understand or recognise the majority of human emotions) when these connections are made through things that are largely considered silly by society

but the specific part that makes me feel that way is people in general referring to people and themselves by their tags. on discord i had my name in a server set as ‘nameless’ as a joke because i hoard names for gender purposes and that joke is still running, but the people in that server have called me that for so long that they genuinely don’t know me as anything else. calling people their gamer tags or their display names or usernames outsider of the places and purposes those things were created for just makes me feel a very specific way.

[blindinghope]

the budget for tracker is too noticeably high for the cringe writing and mediocre acting. only on ep 3 and there is already a pattern of colter flirting with a pretty lady in a helpful position who can read how traumatized he is. oh and a pretty ex who was upset with his lack of respect and communication but he apologized when he needed her help so all is well<3 also how many states are open carry/stand your ground?? always shocks me to see him run around with a gun like this cannot be real... the older lesbian couple are very cute but i need more gay ppl like colter should be bi idk make him meet a cute and shy teacher that's a part of the case

[evercelle]

2024 art summary! it sure has been a year

[foldingfittedsheets]

My folks took me and my beloved wife out to dinner last night for my birthday.

My mom offered to get my wife and I tickets to go see Wicked which I’m absolutely delighted by. I haven’t seen it since 2008 in London and we got great seats. We also invited my dad along because he actually likes musicals unlike my mom.

I tried to tell my folks I have a book that got printed and my mom talked over me to show the table her earring instead. I subsided in disappointment that my achievement was less important to her than showing off her earring.

Later she texted me apologizing and asking to hear more about it, and that was really nice but my feelings are still a bit hurt. On the whole though between Wicked tickets and the apology I’m calling it a net positive dinner.

[xxacidnekoxx]

if you get kicked out of a friend group of people that call themselves freak does that make you a double-freak or does someone take your freak card and now you're a boring normie

[gingermintpepper]

I think a lot about the depictions of Troilus' death that feature Achilles trying to prise him with a gift of doves instead of the immediate promise of death.

I've alluded to it before, but I tend to look at Achilles and Apollo as comparison cases - maybe not explicitly foils because I'm petty and that would imply that Achilles is narratively equal to Apollo and I don't want to give him that kind of honour even in a bit of casual analysis - but certainly as characters who gain a great deal of complexity when their actions are contextualised in context of each other's. The ambush of Troilus is just one of those funny little things that gets my mind a-whirring.

Because to me, Apollo's 'Troilus' so to speak is Kassandra. Kassandra, who Apollo coveted and wished to court. Kassandra, who was offered a great gift that would have undoubtedly forever marked her as one of Apollo's if she had accepted. Kassandra, who takes the gift but rejects the god and is cursed for her deception. Kassandra, whose curse makes her experience a thousand deaths over and over with no way of communicating such disaster to those around her.

The Achilles who falls in love with Troilus upon seeing his beauty and wishes to make a conquest of him is much the same to me. The biggest difference between Troilus and Kassandra though is that Troilus' rejection is much more physical. Those doves are nothing more than a symbol of the type of sacrifice Troilus would be; if he accepted them, he would die a docile death, sweet and quiet, a necessary casualty to turn the winds like Iphigenia. Except Achilles' love is nothing like Agamemnon's and it is nothing like Apollo's.

In the face of rejection, Achilles' instinct is to maim, it is to destroy. He was always going to kill Troilus - for the sake of the campaign, the boy had to die - but there was no dove's death, no quick and easy knife through the heart, no spit into an open mouth. Troilus' death is a brutal, drawn-out thing, a chase through the sand, a dragging that bruises his skin, a ripping of his hair, a violation of his flesh, a maiming of his corpse. As far as sacrifices go, it's an apalling one. None would dare to treat an animal set to be sacrificed before a god with that kind of brutality, sacrifices were meant to be blemishless and beautiful, something the gods would find appealing. Iphigenia was given away in her wedding finery, Kassandra was dressed as though to seduce a god. Troilus was a dove with his wings broken and his feathers pulled, whose death cries must've been like the terrible hollering of all birds when they try to alert their kind to a predator.

And as fucked as that is, I love it. It sets Achilles' love as this stormy, squallish thing that bleeds into his rage, it establishes that for him, love and wrath are but two sides of the same blade. Troilus was a necessary sacrifice, but he is in no way given even a modicum of the same dignity his contemporaries are and a part of me is just continually intrigued by this.

[marquisdeglad]

They should bring back the Beetlejuice cartoon, but instead of coyly implying the relationship between him and Lydia, just go all in. Make it an adult cartoon, and quadruple down on BJ's characterization as a disgusting sexual harasser

There is an audience for this

Trust me

[gorgynei]

so weird to me that seed plants have kind of just reduced their diplohaplontic life cycles into "diplontic with an unnecessarily complicated lead-up to the gametes" like if your sporophytes have sexes i think thats too far

[chialattea]

“go to hell” is basic. “I hope your favorite dragon age faction gets revealed as a bunch of fucking losers who fucked up so bad and for no reason whatsoever rendering their later attempts at surviving a skill issue” is smart. it’s possible. it’s terrifying

[ladyinsertnamehere]

This edit was requested by @gooey2

[murderenjoyer]

I hate it when people tell me ascending Astarion is bad because he "loses his soul."

Man what the fuck does that even mean?? What the hell even is a soul? Like tangibly what does that entail??? He doesn't massively change personality, he's basically the same dude as always, he just has his Bitch Boy gauge cranked up to max. He's not cowering in constant fear of Cazador's shadow anymore. He's a little bit cunty. He's a little bit more self-involved.

Those traits didn't appear from the ether, they were always there, he was always like that. Ascension just makes it a little more amplified. This man was always an evil little dickhead gremlin. Need I remind you that he thinks it is funny to interrupt that ogre/bugbear couple in the Blighted village and murder them despite them minding their own business? Need I remind you that if you're Dark Urge and you let the child in the grove die, if you tell Kagha it made you horny, he approves? Need I remind you he thinks gnome slave abuse is amusing? Even before he was a vampire at all he was racist toward the Gur so aggressively that they beat him to death in the street over it?

You can't explain those shit-ass dickhead opinions and actions away as a ~trauma response~, this dude is evil he is an asshole. He's been an asshole from the day you met.

"Souls" 🙄 man miss me with that woo-woo religious nonsense.

[archer-fb]

Just imagining katsuki and ejirou coming home from a stressful patrol and just taking it out on you in bed.

Saying stuff like "god, you were fucking made for us, made for us to destroy your slutty holes"

And constantly degrading you but ofc giving the best aftercare with a massage and a bubble bath

God these 2 have a some sort of hold over me, I have a problem

[astrolotte]

what if Timmy wasn't allowed to remember his fairies faces in any way so instead he associates his childhood with the colors of their clothes: yellow, white, and purple

[marshmellowtea]

i change my mind aleheather can be yaoi too cuz if alejandro is a gay man then heather is a trans guy/transmasc in the same way that if heather is a lesbian alejandro is a trans girl/transfem. Do Not Separate Them

[itz-pandora]

I don't think I'll be doing any more drawings tonight, but I'll try to get more done tomorrow!

[abdominal-void]

Why can I only say “I’m ok” when the answer is really anything but that? I can’t even begin to explain how I’m not ok, never been ok, and live with the reality I will never be ok until I die. Try living like that.