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we were sitting on the floor and i was cutting out tiny pictures to make a collage for a friend's birthday. you were on your phone and you laughed about something, and i was still in love with you then, so i asked what had you giggling.
"sorry. i was just..." you took a moment and went back to texting. "i was telling someone about how you're afraid of the dark."
i'm afraid of the dark because something bad happened. "oh." i felt a little slinky of shame crawl down my throat.
you glanced up, and maybe it showed on my face, because you rolled your eyes and held the phone to the side casually so i could see the group chat. "what? was it a secret?"
i looked down to the scissors in my hand. "i just..." no, it's not a secret. it just felt like something private, something serious. saying why would you tell someone that just feels like an accusation. it's unfair. i honestly am not even ashamed of it, it's just a fact about my person that i don't usually share.
what a strange experience. is this a human thing or a generational thing? for our grandparents: did they need to worry about how quickly someone can just... share your personal information? again, i didn't even really have a true objection. what could i say? i want any person in my life to feel they can be honest with their friends. it's not like i said don't tell anyone this.
i cut out another letter to complete the rainbow happy birthday, started hunting for the exclamation mark. i heard you sigh dramatically.
"don't make a big deal about this," you said.
this entire conversation was a pattern for us, and this was when we got to my least favorite part of the pattern. i would get my feelings hurt in some oblique not-technically-terrible way, and then it would be making a big deal about something. you'd get frustrated for me for being soft, but i was born soft. you knew i was soft when you pierced me. it's one of the things that made controlling me so easy.
"i'm not," i felt my voice crack. the question came without my wanting. "why are you guys talking about me?" and why are you saying that thing? why not like - i'm telling them how you're generous and kind and pretty.
you let out this low, tragic groan. "oh my god." you tossed the phone away from your body. "there, see? i just won't talk to them if you don't like it."
the rest of the hour went the way it always went, between us: i said i don't actually mind if you talk to your friends but -, you found a way to call my minor expression of discomfort "being dramatic." you got upset that i had been offended. i ended up apologizing, even though i hadn't actually done anything.
afterwards, you picked up the phone again. after texting for a little bit, you snorted. "okay," you said, "but it is kind of funny you're afraid of the dark. i mean, when you think about it."
#spilled ink#writeblr#i'm trying to write about this really specific and wierd new experience#that i think is specific to the internet generation#where people you trust can just... say whatever??? and while most people are trustworthy#sometimes they'll just like... put ur shit out there????#and the thing is that sometimes it's GOOD - i want you to tell ppl if ur partner is being cruel!!!!!#i want u to be like ''hey is it normal if xyz happens'' ... but stuff like ''she's afraid of the dark''#PARTICULARLY when it's CLEARLY making fun of me....#what is the point of that.#this is huge and complicated and happens outside of romantic relationships too btw#like someone u thought of as a friend will be like . oh did u know she's scared of heights and it's like.#girl why are u fuckin doing that tho?#it's not a SECRET i just ...???????????????????????#and i think that gross feeling of like -- ''i can't REALLY be upset bc there's not a TRUE RULE about this....''#it's just not something talked about. bc it's so specific and yet so complex#bc how could i say like '' this is a violation of trust'' when it... technically I GUESS isn't????????????#idk maybe im just like super sensitive but please tell me in the comments/tags/etc if this is#something u have experienced (a trusted person like spreading ur shit) and if u were cool with it
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ICJ Ruling
Okay, let's get into this.
First of all, I get the frustration at the court not ordering a ceasefire. I was disappointed and frustrated at first too, since a ceasefire was the biggest and most important preliminary measure South Africa was requesting - and of course we just all want this horror to finally end for the people in Gaza. So I get the frustration and disappointment, I really do.
However, I do think this ruling is still a major win for South Africa, Palestine, and international law as a whole and here's why:
The court acknowledged that it has jurisdiction over this case and completely dismissed Israel's request to throw out the case as a whole. It will now determine at the merits stage (that will probably take years) whether Israel is actually commiting genocide.
The court acknowledged that Palestinians are a "distinct national or ethnic group and therefore deserving of protection under the genocide convention". Pull this out next time someone tells you "there's no such thing as Palestinians, they're all just Arabs".
The court acknowledged very unambiguously that "at least some" of Israel's actions being genocidal in nature is "plausible". South Africa has a case, officially. Israel is accused of genocide, in a way the ICJ deems "plausible", officially. This is huge. (And seriously, how freaking satisfying was it to hear all of those genocidal statements by Israeli politicians read out loud and used as justification for this rulling?)
The court might not have ordered a "ceasefire" in those words, but they did order Israel to "immediately end all genocidal acts" (which includes killing and injuring Palestinians) and submit proof that they actually did. How are they going to comply with this ruling without at least severly reducing or changing what they're doing in Gaza?
In fact, this wording might actually be more appropriate for a genocide (vs a war), as author and journalist Ali Abunimah notes on Twitter:
He's completely right. Israel lost today, by overwhelming majority (I mean, 15 to 2? I heard people predict the rulings would be very close, like 9 judges vs 8, but instead we got 15 to 2 (and even 16 to 1 on the humanitarian aid). Holy shit.) The court disimissed almost everything Israel's side of lawyers said, while acknowledging that South Africa's accusations are "plausible".
And this is important especially because of Mr Abunimah's second tweet there^. Because the question is, where do we go from here?
This ruling means that Israel is officially /possibly/ commiting genocide and that should have huge international consequences. The rest of the world now HAS to take these accusations seriously and stop arming and supporting Israel - and if they won't do it on their own, we, the people, have to make them. This is THE moment to rise up all around the world, especially in the countries most supportive of Israel (the US, the UK, Germany): Protest, call your representatives and demand a ceasefire and an end of arms deliveries to Israel.
We now have a legal case to back our demands: If Israel is, according to the ICJ, "plausibly" commiting genocide, then all of our governments are, according to the ICJ, "plausibly" guiltly of aiding in genocide. And we need to hold that over their heads and demand better. We need to do that right now and in huge numbers. Most politicians only care about themselves and saving their skin. We have to make them realize that they could be accused of aiding in genocide.
(As a German, I'm thinking of Germany here in particular: After South Africa's hearing, our government dismissed their case as having "no basis" - how are they going to keep saying that now that the ICJ officially thinks otherwise? Over the last months, people here have been arrested at protests for calling what's happening in Gaza a genocide. How are the police supposed to legally keep doing that now that the ICJ has officially deemed this accusation "plausible"? I used to be scared to use the word "genocide" at protests or write it on my protest signs - not anymore, have fun trying to arrest me for that when the ICJ literally has my back on this one 🖕🏻.)
So yeah - don't be defeatist about this, don't let Israel's narrative that they "won" (they didn't) take over. This might not be everything we wanted, but it's still a good result. Don't let what the court didn't say ("ceasefire"), distract you from the very important things that they did say. Let this be your motivation to get loud and active, especially if you live in any country that supports Israel. Put pressure on your governments to not be complicit in genocide, you now officially have the highest international court on your side.
#ICJ#ICJ ruling#ICJ hearing#South Africa vs Israel#Free Palestine#Palestine#Palestinian genocide#Gaza#Germany#I get why Palestinians are disappointed and I don't want to devalue those feelings#(but maybe this can give you hope)#But thinking about this as a German this is huge#Most politicians and people here still deny (or at least strongly doubt) that there's a genocide happening#Calling it a genocide is seen as an 'extremist' position#And some of our politicians have been borderline gaslighting us and calling anyone who calls it genocide 'crazy'#So I'm just feeling immense vindication and a newfound fearlessness and motivation to be louder and more active than ever#and I hope others here feel the same#I hope the quiet masses stop being scared to say something now
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But regarding the way Rio revealed herself to Lilia
She didn't choose just any old guise, she chose tarot imagery. She chose something specific to Lilia and Lilia's own language as a witch. She didn't appear as Death - Rio is always Death. She appeared as the Death card. Something so soul-deep for Lilia that the recognition would be instantaneous and unquestionable.
I don't think this is Rio's usual garb. I think she has a lot of control over how she chooses to present, and I think most of the time she probably looks like Aubrey Plaza. She's just Rio. She's a woman. She's the oldest, original green witch. That just also happens to mean that she's Death.
#i have SO MANY FEELINGS about the way the show is presenting Death#Death is a witch! Death is a woman! Death is walking with us unnoticed bc we're distracted by how turned on we are by her (in a scared way)#Death is beautiful and everybody wants her phone number#Death is a human! Death was maybe even born!#Death is a witch! Death is a witch! Death is a witch!#are you all seeing what I'm seeing??#rio vidal#lilia calderu#agatha all along#agatha all along spoilers#my meta
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The heart of the universe 💫
A speedpaint video of this will be available at my Patreon on december 1st!
#doctor who#dr who#DW#tenth doctor#david tennant#my art#okay maybe on december 2nd at this rate because I just came back home from a trip a few hours ago and I have a ton of work to get done stil#I also went straight to the doctor (the actual one) because of the swollen face and turns out they don't know what it is and I need a MRI#great wonderful fantastic I'm not scared at all I'm so brave about it.. anyway here is my comfort little man
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i know it will never happen but i so desperately desire an origins-type playable backstory thing in all games but especially veilguard. i feel like it added so much depth to origins and made you feel instantly connected to your character in a way that gets lost in games like inquisition where you fill in the blanks as you go except for the bare basics. like, i do enjoy the freedom to willy nilly decide where a character was before the events of the story from a creative perspective, but the playable origins were just so good! especially when you go back to where your warden is from and can engage differently with the arcs there
#i'm so sorry to anyone who hates da that follows me lmao i will keep stuff tagged#i'm probably going to be so annoying about this new game even if i hate it aofijeoijw which is probably likely#maybe i'll actually get around to replaying the other games now. we'll see#i had started origins but just wasn't feeling it bc tbqh it's just a bit clunky and none of the romance options really speak to me anymore#morrigan is great but i feel like she doesn't fit the character i wanted to play afoweijaoi and leliana scares me in dao lmao#i get such ick from overly religious characters faowiejfao#like i like her and cass in theory but in reality i want to run away screaming#it's different if the fake religion isn't overwhelmingly christianity-based but the da one is#and it makes me feel like there are bees under my flesh#dragon age#*dykeposting
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Ouugghhgjg them... Leo deserves some closure after the events of the second chapter of and just like that, and because my brain isn't letting me think in words (I'd wanted to write a drabble for this) I'll just think in pictures instead
Leo's having a tough time and obviously Leonardo isn't just going to let him fester in those feelings 🥺 He's not leaving! Yuichi isn't taking him away from his family! It's A PROMISE
#i'm so ajkdgjkfadgjkgfsd because i want to write little leo and yuichi meeting and getting to know each other and and and#and then LEO CAN BE LESS SCARED. YUICHI IS NOT THERE TO TAKE A PART OF LEO'S FAMILY AWAY. HE'S ADDING TO IT.#but words aren't wording yet. augh#rottmnt#rottmnt fanart#rottmnt fanfiction#rise of the tmnt#nqk adjacent#future leonardo#peepaw leo#future leo#rise leo#rise leonardo#tervdraws#tcest dni#fic: and just like that#guess who's a goof and uploaded the wrong version. well here's the right one MAYBE lmfao
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So what if he didn't have the self-discipline? I just thought how cute it is, he simping for MC so hard. Amount of self-control Clavis has is admirable. I think this was from Beast in Heat event? Or maybe it was the AU event where Clavis was a phantom thief? Don't remember anymore xd IkePri Tag Team:
@scummy-writes @goustmilk @solacedeer @m-mmiy @mxrmaid-poet
@pawnkyyy @ludivineikewolf @violettduchess @floydsteeth @wistfulwanderingone
@sh0jun @lorei-writes
#digital art#fanart#ikepri#ikemen prince#clavis lelouch#ikepri clavis#ikepri clavis lelouch#I just wanted to draw something funny#And I might replay clavis's route again after Keith#for research#since I got an idea for a story#I'm not much of a writer#but I do have story ideas#But maybe I could try to write a fic#but I'm scared ngl
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These are some of my best attempts at learning how to draw him (plus a tiny little Sour Bill as a bonus). Some of them are redraws. Some of them started as redraws but got altered a bit for fun. Some of them are made from scratch. And some of them are just cursed. But he's still a lot of fun to draw 🍬
#wreck it ralph#wir#king candy#turbo#wir turbo#turbo wreck it ralph#also i'm still working on the au#in the meantime#this is all i can offer now#silly little old man#with his silly little expressions#btw never thought that turbo would be the most difficult out of the two#i don't even wanna think about king candybug#maybe i'll try in the future#but he scares me
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forget the "entities are desires in tmagp" theory, i raise you "the entities are still fears, but all of the entries we've received so far are from the avatars themselves and not the victims"
#needles one is pretty obvious#but i think all of the others were avatars too#it reminded me of jane prentiss and the other avatars who were so in love with their entity#rather than being scared of it#the magnus protocol#tmagp#tmagp spoilers#tmagp theory#the magnus protocol theory#maybe someone has already theorized this and i'm just slow lol#theory
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#been a really long time since I drew milo#the other day someone called him my 'beefcakesona' and I-#AND WHAT ABOUT IT#anyways I love him and I love this text post#but also I'm scared to reply to text posts now cause the one time that one got fuckin BLASTED TO SMITHEREENS LMFAO#ok. anyways#drawing#milo#millennium#uhmmmm#my art#digital art#digital drawing#my ocs#ocs#art#ok thats enough I feel like I use way too many tags I SERIOUSLY have to organize them better its just like. overwhelming HAHAHA#I look at my archive and I'm like uhhhh maybe later actually
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Frolicking among the flowers I think.
I feel like I already drew this before so hoping I didn't!
#Maybe I've seen a different fanart with this pose? I think I do remember a connverse fanart with Connie lying in a way that her face is#upside down to us. I can't remember the artstyle if that's the case however.#Anyway#My laptop gave me a big scare. Long story short. I'm not shutting or restarting my laptop ever and I'm going to take as much#commissions as I can because my savings is still not enough for a new one. 😬😬😬#Yo it got so messed up it doesn't support gif png jpeg and jpg anymore. 😵#connverse#steven quartz universe#connie maheswaran#su#my shiz#steven universe#skedoobles#Connverse to comfort from the spooks 😭. But like. I can't be drawing any more personal stuff on my laptop after this.#We can't live with love alone guys. I need the moolah 😤
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Random hcs that have been on my mind for the past couple days: now in doodle format!
Text for each drawing written out under the cut in case it's not clear or anyone wants to translate it!
(1) <- Somehow soft?? <-Sometimes makes a comforting hum/rumble <-Holding for support
(2) <-Walks so quietly everywhere he goes <-Is about to meet god
(3) <-Can't see well in the dark (no eyelights) <-Can't help himself
(4) <-Thinks Color will turn Killer against him and convince him to run away
(5) <-Thinks Nightmare is using them all for the negativity and has brainwashed Killer into liking it
(6) <-Thinks if he runs and jumps at Cross as fast as he can Cross will lift him and it'll look so cool
#UTDR#UTMV#My Art#Horror Sans#Nightmare Sans#Color Sans#Killer Sans#These are all kinda random but at least I got something drawn today!!#I do really love the hc of Horror having that slasher movement about him#Because I have it too and I wanna share it with him#I can't stop scaring the people around me by entering rooms or walking up to them and I think he should have that too#It's almost always unintentional and scares him too when they suddenly yell#But sometimes... sometimes it's for funsies#Killer refuses to use a light of any kind even when he can't see so he's kind of asking for it#Also this is the short version of how I think Color and Nightmare are in a dadmare situation#They still have beef but it's like. they're both paranoid#They both think the other is gonna convince Killer to never see them again but it never happens#Maybe it gets resolved in some way but that's for another post#Also HorrorDust cuddles#Because that's the kind of nap I wanted to have earlier so I'm living vicariously through Dust#Also my first time trying to draw XChara! I hope I did okay!!#Trying to incorporate them into things slowly for Wick#Anyway I need to consider sleep goodnight gang!! :D
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they beat the shit out of each other, nothing more nothing less yk haha they're just exhausted after a fight and ready to go take a shower with their silly soap and dirty water huhu.
#artists on tumblr#art#illustration#digital art#fight club#fight club 1999#the narrator fight club#tyler durden#soapshipping#tyler durden x narrator#doodle#slightly suggestive#I am so scared of posting this#trembling#wtf was I on yesterday like before I draw the man anguished on the floor now this#going insane#full version will come in like never cause I'm already staining my digital footprint enough#but like#uhm#I like how it turned out#so yeah#don't stone me 🎀#also the quality is really shit by its own cause it's a screenshot from a program I forgot I had on my tablet#there are also faith doodles in that file I may post them at some point#WELP#walks away with shame#oh also hope tumblr won't take it down#or maybe it would be better 🤨#IDK BYE NOW#martyryo
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I absolutely adore the HC that these two are family...
#kirby#meta knight#galacta knight#and not really but#galactadad#they are brothers here BUT i figured it was vague enough#that we could all enjoy it#first post post art fight#i'm pretty scared still but eeeh maybe it'll be okay!!#i thought the biter and the bited would be the perfect thing to post#since i draw them All the time#so it sets some expectations. i think. i really don't know#my art#galactabro
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i think probably the reason i like the idea of like a girl secretly being a dragon but still trying to just have a life in society and be normal is because it's kinda a transfem narrative of the whole like everyone thinks you're a terrifying monster but you just want to be a girl. and the other reason is due to i'm otherkin
#worded poorly i'm too tired to write it out good#i know that this will be very hard for most people on this site but i would like you to please give me the benefit of the doubt when readin#and not focus on all of the minute details with my wording to pick it apart like you're dissecting a frog#though maybe i am also just scared to post it because i am social anxiety girl so i'm getting defensive before anyone even takes issue#i don't know. fuck just don't worry too much about the post or these tags or anything#just read it in good faith okie? smiles so sweetly
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Riz Gukgak and his bloody hands
SUCH a metal visual and motif. Kalina, Baron, they tease him for it, they twist it into one of his worst qualities, just as they belittle that he his heart, leverage his fear that he cannot love anyone enough.
Riz Gukgak loves. He will claw himself to shreds on love. He will dig through reality, lacerating himself on crystal, just to help his childhood friend. He will hiss at the devil, he will bite out eyes, he will do anything to help his friends feel safe. He will attempt to eat an entire dragon. Out of love for a father he barely knew.
"That’s you saying “I love you” to the people who matter to you the most."
#sorry lads I'm still thinking about him#something about speaking an entirely different language of love from everyone else but trying to hold a conversation anyway#Baron and Kalina preying on his fears that he can't possibly love enough to be important#when this is a kid who will tear open his own skin on the harsh surface of love#yeah he should maybe calm the hell down about it#but his friends and his family are never scared of him. they never look down on how he shows he cares.#something about being ace and not being soft or gentle#am I making sense#he needs healthier ways to love but he's just a kid. he's figuring it out.#fantasy high#dimension 20#d20#riz gukgak
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