#makes his ending monologue more meaningful. To me.

[qualityrain]

(joshua voice) have fun neku!!!!

[waiting-for-a-sunny-day]

“Why not just let Gojo take care of everything himself from now on?”

This reads a bit like a throwaway line from Nanami, but it’s actually a meaningful thing for Gege to insert here.

For context, Nanami asks Geto this question after coming back from the failed mission where Haibara was killed.

This scene is also immediately before Geto's village massacre / defection scenes.

This is the very next set of panels: (It’s the continuation of the thought Geto started above, then cuts to to the mission where he kills the 112 non-sorcerers)

So, what Nanami says to Geto is the last thing we see anyone at Jujutsu high saying to Geto before he makes that final decision to turn away from being a Jujutsu sorcerer.

Geto’s thought about the “mountain of corpses” is the last internal monologue / insight we get into his mental state before defecting.

In Geto’s mind, who is in the hypothetical ‘mountain of corpses' created by Jujutsu society?

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Let’s start by acknowledging that Nanami’s suggestion to make Gojo handle all the missions actually makes sense, from a strictly pragmatic perspective. (Why let weaker sorcerers die doing something that Gojo could easily handle?)

Even before Gojo learned Reverse Curse / Hollow Purple, he (and Geto) were given the Star Plasma Vessel mission on special request from Tengen. Presumably because they were the strongest sorcerers.

It’s reasonable to assume the higher ups in Jujutsu society have thought about optimizing the mission assignments this way. And, by this point, Gojo is getting sent on missions, alone, without Geto.

But even though he’s the strongest sorcerer, Gojo is not unbeatable. He’s not even as powerful as he’ll become by JJK0+

Here’s what Gojo told Geto just days before the mission where Haibara dies:

So Geto knows that Gojo can’t always run limitless, and he hasn’t perfected domain expansion. Gojo can’t protect himself against poisons.

Geto also already knows what happens when Gojo’s power is overestimated - when he is overworked and spread too thin. Last time that happened, he got stabbed through the chest by Toji.

“Impossible!” is Geto’s reaction, because he’d been lulled into a false sense of security, thinking that Gojo was untouchable.

Nanami suggesting that Gojo handle all the curses is sort of like Toji putting up a bounty for Riko. Each weak assassin wasn’t enough to take Gojo down on their own, but en masse they could distract and wear him down.

The same would be possible with a never ending onslaught of curses to exorcise. Then, all it takes is one mistake before Gojo's corpse is added to the mountain.

Don't get me wrong, Geto had many reasons for defecting, and Nanako, Mimiko, and Riko’s treatment by non-sorcerers were probably the main ones.

But Geto must have also believed that the world he was trying to build for Jujutsu sorcerers was a better, safer world for Gojo, too.

[waitmyturtles]

I am here to complain a bit about Jack & Joker (and apologies, because I'm going to make an inevitable comparison to Kidnap at the end of this post), so this post might be triggering for you (consider yourself warned, some of y'all don't read TWs!) But if you wanna hear some constructive criticism about director Tee Bundit's intriguing storytelling choices for this show, then come with me....

... because there's a lot about this show thematically that would usually sit right with me, namely its heavy focus on family.

Thanks to @veemark, we got a deep-dive into the wedding symbolism of last week's Lunar New Year celebration. I can feel that! Joke is clearly deeply touched to finally be a part of a family -- which is ever more meaningful, considering his brutal rejection by his own blood father in this week's episode.

And there are so, so many more family (and wedding) themes (in non-chronological order):

1) Tattoo's mom taking in both Tattoo and Hoy 2) Boss rejecting his own son, Arun, and adopting Jack (to then use Jack for his own financial gain) 3) The community that Ah Mah has built around her, from taking Joke in, to the little girls she hosts 4) Jack losing his parents and being raised by Ah Mah 5) Arun finding new family with Tattoo 6) Understanding how family ties runs the criminal underground of Bangkok 7) All of the ring symbolism, from Jack getting his parents' ring back, to rings being used as power symbols for the aforementioned criminal underground -- a theme I LOVE, actually, because strength in numbers in society always means more power for those individuals, including for couples that get married (INCLUDING FOR COUPLES THAT WILL BE ABLE TO LEGALLY WED IN JANUARY IN THAILAND AND WILL BE ELIGIBLE FOR SPOUSAL PRIVILEGES, EEEE!)

So many family themes going on in this show. I love it! I love the indication that when Jack and Joke first met years ago, that there could have been a frisson of potential family between them, two guys meeting at a bar and connecting.

AND, I ALSO love the themes of family fucking each other over. Because families aren't perfect! Not by a long shot. Families can truly suck towards each other. Boss to Arun. Save (FUCKING SAVE, YOU DICK) to Jack. Joke's dad to Joke, all of his life. If we're talking potential family from back in the past, then of course -- Joke fucking over Jack, the issue that started this series.

What's not working for me in this series, though, is that somewhere along this trajectory, director Tee Bundit got too caught up in liberally sprinkling these otherwise excellent themes throughout the show (really, much to my joy, because I otherwise love these themes) without offering emotional build or context to our two main characters. There are other connectivity issues to this show, but this is my main gripe.

Now, I've had an up-and-down relaysh with Tee Bundit's work. I hated TharnType, I HATED Step By Step, I ADORED Lovely Writer, I LOVED I Feel You Linger In The Air. We're teetering on Step By Step-territory here in Jack & Joker by the way that Tee seems to be gunshy about giving romance -- which needs to be the cornerstone of an ostensible romance BL -- time to breathe and develop.

We have jumped from an inferred wedding banquet last week, to tired spousey-spousey dinners this week, with hubs ripping off his tie and apologizing to his househubs about not finishing his plate.

Not to say I need to see the boing! I don't need boing to contextualize romance. What I need to contextualize romance is to see these two falling in love, before their marriage got tired and problematic!

Like. I was watching these dinner scenes, and I'm... trying to parse what's happening at the table. Jack is getting screwed time and time again by poverty. It's brutal. Is Tee saying here that love is an impossibility in the context of poverty?

(I don't know that Jack says that about love, per se, in his monologue to Rose while they're with the village children, but he does talk about the inability of impoverished people to truly dream, so maybe that's the correlation?)

And then, because Jack must make his choice to serve Boss and earn money for his grandmother's treatment -- he has to let go of Joke. But.... they were never together anyway! Right?! (See @lurkingshan here for the wise comment on noble idiocy.)

I'm not bought into the closeness that I'm supposed to assume from Jack and Joke -- because we haven't been taken there yet. I haven't seen that closeness develop. I've seen Joke make it up to Jack for Joke's previous transgressions. But I haven't seen Jack respond to that emotionally, bodily, with heart, as a narrative would otherwise convey romance successfully in a script.

Unless this is an allegory meant to convey that poverty prevents people from falling in love. Is that the message? Because... dang, wtf. That's a hell of a message.

It's a brutal message, if that's the message, commenting on the assumed strength of the criminally powerful of Bangkok to squeeze out every last dream of those who are in lifelong debt to crime lords.

It's a very Tee Bundit message, honestly, as well. I can see him driving this show right towards this message that hopelessness is absolutely a reality for the thousands of impoverished Thais who will die in debt.

But this is a YinWar show -- and, unless we are going to be MASSIVELY SURPRISED, which I don't think we are, the car's gotta drive towards romance at some point. These guys aren't even together, and we're headed towards divorce court. We've missed some significant emotional beats along the way, and my eyebrows are furrowed as to how Tee Bundit will three-point-turn his way out of this traffic jam.

(What's my inevitable comparison to Kidnap? Kidnap is the other crime-y show of this autumn season, and its narrative has jumped all over the place. It's SO MESSY. AND, arguably, Min's and Q's romance has been driving at 90 mph since the start of the show. We've had MORE romance than plot, the opposite issue of J&J. But Min showed his true colors by 4/4 of episode 1. We knew the road we were driving on with our two mains! And there arguably hasn't been jumping of the romance narrative, although we got a pretty fast break-up in last week's episode. Kidnap is messy AF, but its intentions are clear. I'm not getting that clarity -- as cheesy as it's been in Kidnap -- in J&J.)

[jane-d-ankh-veos]

Some people aggressively tried to convince me that it's 100% canon that the Hexcore has its own malicious will and fully controls Viktor, and, well... usually I'm only glad when there is a wide variety of theories – I love exploring them and can peacefully ignore those I don't agree with – but I really can't stand this kind of arguing. Leave others some freedom to have their own interpretations, please...

So, why persuading me into adopting this one is a waste of time and effort: I don't like that it deprives him of responsibility and meaningfulness of personally taking it. The mage admitted that he had chosen a wrong way and attempted to set it right, and this is such an admirable rare strength. It's an important part of his character: staying true to his "in the pursuit of great, we failed to do good" and desires to lessen humanity's suffering, his intentions were always for the best, so he is able to consciously renounce evil when he sees that the consequences betray his ethics. This requires immence willpower and intelligence. His own. He isn't simply cleaning up some unruly magical orb's mess after being its puppet, he acts like a complex personality.

(Just imagine, for example, how boring BG3 would be if instead of its interesting vivid characters all the communication/flirting/teamwork was in fact happening only between their illithid tadpoles...)

Even the original Machine Herald, despite being devoted to the Glorious Evolution for a longer time and certainly not going to abandon it, is also capable of genuine self-introspection and honest abidance by what he thinks is right. (My precious ironclad cinnamon roll ❤️)

As for the argument that the Hexcore recoiled from him in S1 like a living creature, even our own world's nature has a lot of things that can react to a potential threat without necessarily having sentience. Some of them can even learn and distinguish:

What I could somewhat accept is the version that the Hexcore was given life by his blood. If its alleged independent mind is a direct creation and part of Viktor himself, then at least it's more logical than appearing from nowhere (or from the Void that is almost a whole continent away and would have already destroyed Piltover and Zaun long before these experiments if it was somehow involved), has actual on-screen basis and doesn't take away his responsibility so entirely.

Anyway, even after their fusion, there are so many scenes clearly showing that it's still this same Viktor who speaks, watches and makes decisions:

Or his monologue at the end of S2's sixth episode. The character himself explains his reasons, that's why I don't get those saying that there were none so the eldritch influence can be the only possible explanation.

Speaking of which, I do get his logic in some of my own personal ways. The heavy burden of empathy... The constant frustration... The feeling that only some near-impossible universal change would be able to make things better because life is so fundamentally injust and so tragically vulnerable to evil/violence/illness/death/pain... But this would require a whole another post, I'm afraid, and would be highly subjective.

What I see as actual villainizing influence is his own despair. First he had already been about to take his life, then he was horribly killed within an arm's reach of achieving a better future for Zaun, then his hopeful commune was destroyed, a close friend/lover shot him, etc... Anyone in his place would run out of patience to act rationally and nicely, so I understand and forgive him wholeheartedly.

[slothcapsule]

//kaeya hangout spoilers

im making so many posts abt his hangout but like its so deserved !! there is an insane amount of double meanings in his hangout and its sending me reeling!!

with the play ending the whole thing is basically to tell us kaeya is deciding to step away from the role he was designed to play in the story and he wants to live his life as a child of mondstat, until he dies there, and that he considers mondstat his home now. which is fun and all!! but then you think, if he said that he is to draw his last in a place far from home, but he considers mondstat his home, then that doesnt very much bode well for him does it?

one of my favorite things they decided to do is this little thing!!

and it seems so unassuming at first more like of a reminder that the improv was kaeya talking yeah obviously, but the choice of the wording being "not the prince's" instead of not qubad's or not the character's feels so telling to me.

like it feels like hyv is telling us "the entire monologue was nice and meaningful and all, but dont forget that it was kaeya speaking, outside of his role as a prince or a pawn or whatnot." and sort of implying that no matter what he says he can't really rid himself of the shackles of fate as he chooses to put it

[harrowharkwife]

for the character meme: dulcie or cam or pal or a character of ur choosing!!! hehe

!!!!! ty lem!! im gonna do my girl dulcie...

favorite thing about them: honestly just the way she's written- it never fails to make me emotional that she *is* explicitly written as being brave and strong, but tamsyn neatly sidesteps the "inspiration porn" ableist stereotype of writing a character as being brave/strong *because* they are sick. dulcie isn't brave or strong because of her illness. her strength and bravery are explicitly positioned, IMO, as being in response to surviving *ableism* and other people's condescension towards her and mistreatment of her, rather than surviving her illness itself, if that makes sense. her health is just a fact of her life, it's not moralized. which i really, really appreciate. it's a small shift, but it's very meaningful to me.

ALSO deeply special to me: her intentional and careful commitment to boundaries re: The Palamedes Of It All. a refreshing change of pace, as far as these books go vgjtjxdjt

least favorite thing about them: i mean. houser. :/

favorite line: three way tie between "truly, wonderful news for my haters," "i am sick of roses and horny for revenge," and "oops, there i go again, never doing what i'm told"

brOTP: gideon!!!!! i think it's a crying shame they've never met. i think they'd get along tremendously. the whole cytherea gideon thing was Horrid and Awful in so many ways, but it always Extra stings (in an adding-insult-to-injury sort of way) when i think about what it would have been like if gideon had REALLY met dulcinea, and not cyth. dulcie would've been a great friend for her, i think. they'd have been so good at making each other laugh

OTP: honestly these days it's cam? @ palamedes ily but get outta here gayboy it's yuri time now. plus i just love chewing on the concept of cam + comphet, and cam + subconscious internalized misogyny, and cam + gender, and cam + her relationships and interactions with other women. i think there's lots to explore there. camdulcie has a certain "when i was eight i didn't realize i had a crush on the new girl in my grade so i just wrote her a note that said 'get out of my school'" energy about it, To Me

nOTP: idk if i really have one for her, specifically? idk. ianthe or something, fuck it.

random headcanon: stoner. on all levels except physical she is taking fuckall huge bong rips. on the physical level though her lungs suck so i think she'd be a tincture girlie. she's got chronic pain she deserves it. am i projecting? you tell me

unpopular opinion: idk if this is an unpopular opinion exactly, but i always see people referring to thee rejected proposal as being something born primarily out of love/out of romantic intent? and i don't know if that's necessarily how i see it. it was CERTAINLY, and obviously, a factor. but at least from my interpretation of pal's monologue to cytherea at the end there, i get the sense that he had already accepted her boundaries in that regard, because he says he "understood that he was a child." and we also get camilla saying that his motivations in proposing were primarily a means-to-an-end way of getting her off the seventh and letting her die with dignity. iirc her exact words were like "so she could spend what time she had left with people who cared about her." like, don't get me wrong, i think pal is lying to himself if he says that being in love with dulcie wasn't PART of the motivation there. but i find it a lot more interesting in a worldbuilding and social commentary way to interpret the circumstances there as him offering, essentially, to be a hospice doctor at age 19, and marriage being the 'easiest' way to get her off the seventh/planet medical malpractice. there's an imperial misogyny ownership-through-marriage throughline there that's nauseating, as well as the implications re: disability and agency and autonomy, and i think that's all very interesting to explore. i think this view is supported in part by the paldulcie interaction in TUG, where she alludes to the idea that she was cognizant about the impact that bearing witness to death and loss up-close and personal like that changes a person, and that she didn't want to do that to pal and cam, especially given their age. i think it informa dulcie's character and grants her additional narrative agency to look at things from that angle, of her "no" being in reference to *both* the age gap AND her intentional choice to continue suffering on the seventh, rather than put two kids through being hospice caregivers and/or widowers at nineteen– no matter how many times and how sincerely they kept offering, no matter that she would've absolutely had a more peaceful and comfortable end-of-life HAD she accepted his proposal and gone to the sixth to die. i think it says a lot about her as a person, that choice. there's a quiet and meaningful responsibility to her as a person that i find fascinating. and her character is just sooooo firmly rooted in and informed by disability politics, on every level, and i feel like people don't engage with that aspect of her characterization enough!

song i associate with them: ooooh SO many, i have a whole playlist. but i think the biggest ones are

-the drama by kesha ("friday night, get too high, keep checking my pulse, am i dead yet?" / "in the next life i wanna come back, as a housecat as a housecat! i'd sleep and play in the sun, i'd be a fuckin' cute son of a gun!")

-avant gardener by courtney barnett (the whole song really, but especially the lines "the paramedic thinks i'm clever cause i play guitar, i think she's clever cause she stops people dyin'," and "i take a hit off an asthma puffer, i do it wrong, i was never good at smokin' bongs." i just think she'd love this song.)

-honorable mentions include stoned at the nail salon by lorde, life according to raechel by madison cunningham, rose-colored boy by paramore (@ palamedes, lmfao), picture me better by weyes blood, extraordinary machine by fiona apple, rubberband girl by kate bush, last words of a shooting star by mitski.

favorite picture of them: oh man well it obviously has to be my icon... art made for me by the lovely @franzias-cave !!!! based on the concept of "the woman is dying, please do her the decency of allowing her to look the part in fanart." my girl... she's a malign fairy, she's a hot-eyed wraith <3

ty lem this was so fun! i love my gworl :')

[smolstarthief]

I'm just brainstorming while waiting for the polls to finish but I can't help but when JayVik reaches the 3rd Semester arc, namely the 2/2 scene where Maruki gets the calling card and I'm gonna be real... I think Viktor would be the most pissed at the guy.

To rewind a bit, I personally feel like Jayce would be the least affected by the fake reality since he technically got what he desired most: To have Viktor back. Viktor on the other hand despite no doubt improving by that point would no doubt still have his own guilt and baggage weighing on him so he not only has his leg healed but he gets Sky back... Which would be a major strike against Maruki once he snaps out of it.

B/c to him, that showcases the biggest flaw of his reality and that's basically implying that Maruki himself knows what's best and that him being in a state where he's no longer "broken" is the better option for him to heal. Jayce point blank reassured him in canon that he was never broken and he doesn't need to pursue perfection (as flawed as the monologue admittedly is, it really struck a chord with me and I understood what he was trying to say). Not only that, there's also the issue of his ability to make decisions/autonomy once again being taken away as well.

Now Maruki did HAVE the best intentions and no doubt didn't intend any offense at all but the damage is already done as Viktor calmly but furiously confronts him during 2/2 when he tries to list what he did for him as a positive. Him putting down Sumi's own progress and improvement further aggravated him. He doesn't raise his voice but a tight grip on his cane and glare all but shows how he feels. Yes, he gets it and the pain sucks but the fact that he had Jayce and even Sky (later the PTs in this AU) made it all more bearable and meaningful since their care for him is real and they won't judge or treat him as a burden. He's viewed as a partner, friend, and equal and he's not giving that up again.

This actually further rattles Maruki but he doesn't argue or respond other than acceptance that they'll still have to fight and leaves.

Now Viktor DOES later admit in a private conversation that deep down, he knows Maruki had a point but at the same time he just can't stand for what he said and was implying. Like the others though, he did feel like he got a bit of closure for both his loss and what could have been. At the end of the day, he pities Maruki and can sort of relate to resorting to such extremes to help people.

Idk if this came out well or coherent enough but yeah. I just generally love Arcane's message regarding Viktor. It didn't come off as ableist or anything to me but rather gives acknowledgement that there's no such thing as perfection and that Jayce always viewed Viktor as an equal and cared deeply about him despite how he perceived himself. So someone else basically trying to do a quick band-aid solution for him without any say or protest from him would probably strike a huge nerve for him really.

[fanishjuli]

okay now that I've had a few hours to process and think about it I have to say something specific I love about the TPP Junoverse finale and it's the amount of Nureyev. he didn't need to be there and he wasn't! we didn't see them and that was good!!

I am SO fucking happy he and Juno talked about it and took some months apart (I think Juno says 8 months at one point?) for Nureyev to yknow, process everything! which he absolutely does need!! for him to finally allow himself to feel his emotions and get through his mental "for future consideration" broom closet-turned-industrial hangarS plural. I am SO fucking happy about that!!

and Juno! my god Juno!! he took a long fucking holiday with Rita! and then when they were ready they went back to Hyperion and started back up the PI business but differently now, in the way Juno felt he needed! and there's Puck and there's Mick and most importantly of all there's Rita!!

my god what a delight is Rita, I adore her, the relationship between her and Juno is SO fucking important to me!! they're everything!! my god!! Juno even says it himself!!!! it's Rita!! Rita who's been there for over twenty years! Rita who's here again now!! still with him! Rita who is happy and dancing around the office!!! when I tell you I started to tear up when Juno said that!!!!!!!!

and it is SO meaningful to me that the two of them are the last conversation we hear. Rita wishes him goodnight, which we've heard her say before, and this time he says it back and he does it so fondly too. you can hear it in his voice. the way I can picture him so vividly, leaning against the wall by the door, watching Rita dance around her desk, smiling so fondly at her. the way he talks to her is SO fondly. I literally started crying right then and there.

and yes, Juno's closing monologue is beautiful, of course. I'm certain other people have already analysed it and if I wanted to do the same I'd need to relisten to it and read the transcript a dozen times so I'm not going to do that now. but he just. he is so happy. so content. he is so at peace. with himself with his life with his job and his city. he understands himself and he is content with that and it makes me SO fucking happy for him.

and then we get the iconic "Hey there. It's been a while." and then, the theme, and roll the credits. and that is good, that is more than enough. honestly, if it wasn't even there I would've been just as happy. but the fact that it's there is more than enough! I don't need more, I didn't need more from the finale and to be honest I don't think I wanted anything more from the finale, not especially when it comes to Nureyev and his and Juno's relationship. I got what I wanted and it was perfect, it was satisfying, and I am happy with Nureyev not being there at all.

truly, what a ride. I know I will come back to relisten to this season, the last two seasons to be honest, a bunch more times. there were some truly fantastic episodes in season 4, and I enjoyed season 5 a lot as well. I am looking forward to enjoying them all over again in my next relisten, hopefully soon. thank you Penumbra, and thank you Kevin and Harley for such a good story with a satisfying ending.

[marvelmaniac715]

I’m rewatching ‘World Enough and Time’ so I thought I’d write another Doctor Who oneshot about Bill and the Master as Mr Razor during their years on the colony ship. The concept of my fic is too crack to put into sensible words, so for a New Years’ Eve gift from yours truly, here’s a snippet that gives you the general gist:

Hello internet people, I’m the Doctor, I’m a Time Lord from the planet of Gallifrey… I have a feeling that you probably already know that. If you don’t know who I am and how I ended up travelling the universe, perhaps you should go to a different webpage to read about people you’re more familiar with? I’ll cut right to the chase - despite being a time traveller, I often feel that time really is of the essence. 

Anyway, a long time ago, I was on a colony ship with Cybermen and two versions of my ex(-best friend), and during that time my friend Bill ended up stuck with one version of the Master for years. I’ve hacked into the camera footage from her time on the ship, and I’ve discovered some interesting stuff, like the one day where the Master launched into a lengthy unprompted monologue about his made up backstory which somehow involved not one, but two talking animals and a beat-for-beat retelling of the young adult novel ‘Holes’ by Louis Sachar. However, one of the most interesting things I discovered was the one afternoon where poor Bill made the mistake of asking ‘Mr Razor’ for advice on romance. 

I’ve written a transcript of that conversation on this webpage for my own amusement as well as yours, because I’ve got a few hours without any planets to save and sometimes reminiscing on the past cheers me up a lot. To make things easier, I’ve written the Master’s speech in plain text, since that regeneration had an awful habit of rambling so I’ll have to write more of it, whilst Bill - who, for this conversation, presumably felt that brevity was the soul of wit and therefore said less - will have her brief interjections written in bold text to give them more importance. Have fun, I know I did.

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Hey Razor, I’ve been wondering… have you ever been in love?

Ah, that is good question. Depends on how you look at it. Yes, I think, long time ago.

So… did you have a girlfriend, or…?

Boyfriend, boyfriend.

Cool, makes sense.

What do you mean?

Well… nevermind, I had another question actually.

Go ahead, we are in no hurry.

Okay, so, do you have any love advice?

Sit down, I have wonderful and very meaningful advice so you will want to pay attention.

[immediatebreakfast]

The tension building at Whitby now that the Demeter is near the shore is very delicate, it's the tracks of a train going at a very high speed towards a wall. It's inevitable, and it will have consequences that will impact the narrative. No matter what we want to do, the only thing left is watch.

So Mina, in her controlled melancholy over both Lucy and Jonathan, writes in her journal to document along with process all of her feelings towards all of the events that are happening. However, Mina's stress has been turning up so much that it affects her writing when she is not documenting stuff like the weather, or Mr. Swales' monologues.

We get one single line referring to Lucy:

"Lucy is more excitable than ever, but is otherwise well."

It feels like an assurance to herself rather than a simple mention. Instead of telling, or describing Lucy in a more lovely detail, Mina just tells that she is a little bit more anxious, but well you know? Lucy is well... There is no mention of Lucy's sleepwalking progress, nor if there are any meaningful changes so far. Which, if I can say, for Mina is enough for now.

Mina's dread also has invaded more her worries over Jonathan, more than other days since the weather in Whitby seems to be affecting everyone, and everything.

"If I only knew where to write to or where to go to."

One character trait which is a core trait for Mina is her "do-er" personality. It's a layer that is intricate to all of her actions. Mina is a very active character, she thinks and she acts. She needs to act because Mina searches for the answers to her questions so she can know what to do. This line implied that the only thing stopping Mina from going to Transylvania herself to search for Jonathan is the lack of concrete information about his fate.

Mina is an active character, but she needs information to know how to act, because above all Mina is a very grounded woman who knows what limits her in her actions.

"Here comes old Mr. Swales. He is making straight for me, and I can see, by the way he lifts his hat, that he wants to talk.... I have been quite touched by the change in the poor old man."

Something is affecting Mr. Swales. It seems that Mina expected another story, or a anectode, but the old sailor came with an apology. Mina's control over emotions may have slipped a little bit if he noticed. Then, an incredible speech about the comfort of death is said with the property of someone who knows it well.

All old people are like that, they speak of death in a more "careless" because they have lived well, and since all of their friends (the ones that are still there) are in the same road, they often forget how this may "upset" younger people, people who have still not lived enough like Mina. It is touching to hear Mr. Swales to tell Mina that she doesn’t need to worry about his death because he is not either, and she only needs to remember him as that cynical old sailor who told her so much about ghost stories.

Yet, after Mr. Swales' speech what Mina has left is unrest, no actions, and no answers. Lucy is still sleepwalking, and Jonathan is still on the limbo between life and death. If Whitby's weather warns of something coming, and Mr. Swales speaks of how death is the only thing that awaits all of US in the end...

... then what would become of her, and her Jonathan?

[sincerely-sofie]

I saw your tag about meeting your boyfriend because of posting on Tumblr and I'm very curious as to how that happened. Like, did you find each other's blogs, saw you had stuff in common and met up IRL? What happened? Please give us details (if you're willing to talk about it, no worries if not!)

Also, for a boyfriend tag, may I suggest... Calcium. Cuz you're a skeleton and calcium makes bones stronger... I'll see myself out

(Referencing the tags of this post)

Oh my gosh. Buddy you have just opened up Pandora’s box. Brace yourself for the most adorable couple origin story ever.

He followed me fairly early on into the process of me posting my work on Tumblr. I don’t remember exactly, but I think my TPiaG mini comic “Heart-to-Heartbreak” was the first post he ever reblogged from me. After that, he was super enthusiastic and involved with my blog and engaged with basically every post I ever made. This guy was one of THE followers of my work— if I posted something, he was always there to like it and share super thoughtful commentary or hilarious jokes.

I absolutely adored him even back then, and we had barely exchanged a handful of messages on Tumblr where he thanked me for inspiring him to get back into art and writing, and I blubbered about how meaningful that was to me. We eventually followed each other on Spotify and I think that’s about the point when I really should have realized I had it bad for him. I was CONSTANTLY rambling to my mom about how much I wanted to be this internet stranger’s best friend, but I was super hesitant because our family has been huge on online stranger danger and never really talking to anyone unless you know exactly who they are in real life. I’m an adult and all, yeah, but I was still super anxious about internet strangers at large— though he never once made me uncomfortable or wary :>

Eventually, he made a goofy post about it being his birthday, and I bolted to tell my mom about that and how I didn’t have enough time that day to polish up any content of his favorite characters I’ve written and post it as a gift for him. I was utterly distraught and pretty much full-on monologuing to my ever-so patient mother about how much I wanted to befriend this man and how amazing he was and how shy I felt about the matter, and she looked me dead in the eyes and told me to ask him if he wanted to message each other more and get to know each other better.

I sent him a message over Tumblr, we exchanged Discord usernames, and I’m pretty sure it was just over a week of messaging and getting to know each other more and more every day later when he told me he thought he was in love with me— to which I very eloquently rattled off a bunch of nonsense that ended in “I don’t know how to communicate this other than by saying ‘dude, same’.”

After that, we’ve only gotten more and more mutually obsessed. Thankfully he’s in the same country as me, and we’re even timezone neighbors, so he’s not on the opposite side of the world— and when I realized some of my household were going on a trip to the same state where he lived for a family wedding, I SCRAMBLED to insert myself into that trip last-minute. We had originally thought that we’d meet up when he could drive to my state (a process that would take a long time because of some complicating factors), but when I realized my family were flying down there, I was practically foaming at the mouth with the thought of seeing him so much sooner. We met up not that long ago and were even able to meet some of each other’s family members (my family absolutely adores him, and I think his likes me a fair bit too, hehe). But listen: when I tell you I adored him before, I was absolutely head-over-heels for him when we met in person. I got to hug him and I had this thought come to mind of “Oh. This is the person I want to marry.” And I’ve never once doubted it :>

During the times we met up we mostly sat around and basked in each other’s presence and stared at each other. I ended up breaking eye contact a lot because I kept getting flustered and also because this man is TALL and I had to periodically rest my neck 😂 I was able to give him some pins I had made of our PMD team that represents us, and my boyfriend. My boyfriend, you guys. He had the gall to send me a screenshot of an eBay listing of the world’s most adorable Snorlax plush weeks before while we were on a call together, bought it immediately after I had said I loved the plush’s face as we hung up, and then GAVE ME IT WHEN WE MET UP.

Look at him. That’s my son now. I was trying to think of what to name the little guy when my toddler niece dubbed him Tummy. My boyfriend approves of the monicker— as he should, because it’s the bestest name for the bestest boy.

TL;DR— He followed me on tumblr, I desperately wanted to be friends with him and sent him my Discord username on his birthday, we exchanged “I love you”s a week later, and I was almost sick on a plane because I was so excited to see him during a trip to his state for a family member’s wedding. We are absolutely obsessed with each other and kind of instantly Knew from the get-go that we’re going to be each other’s Person™️.

As for the tag, I'm not sure I’ll go with it but I’m starting to consider “The Boyfriend Bird Feeder”, because it works out to the acronym BFBF which I find funny, I mainly want to make the tag as a way for him to easily find posts where I’m talking about how amazing he is whenever he needs a pick-me-up (and so people can block the tag if they find me raving about my man so much annoying lol), and his persona that we spent all day yesterday cooking up looks like this:

[bellowbear]

My Random Analysis about Muteki Song Meaning (Part 2)

Part 1 Part 3

We're gonna have a roller coaster of emotions son...

Warning : MANGA SPOILERS, My grammar is bad, My Japanese is also bad, don't trust my analysis perfectly, typos

Before we continue... there are additions from the previous part.

“As long as you smile for me, I can overcome my shameful past”

“I don’t think everything is worth it”

“Alone, I crouched down”

“I’ll never forget you pulling out my heart”

At this lyrics, the ending shows us this :

I think my analysis is kinda right but wrong... idk... but from this we know that Sakura finally can go out from the 'shadows'. But anyway... let's get started guys...

“What's behind those eyes? ”

“The heartbeat that makes even my selfish fists cry”

“I don't want to lose, I don't want to hurt you”

“I'll protect you, I'm invincible. My heart hurts so much that it breaks”

This is clearly when Sakura tells his classmates about who he is (in chapter 60, send help pliss). At first, he’s not looking at his friend's eyes, scared, shut his eyes, and questioning what’s behind those eyes.

“The heartbeat that makes even my selfish fists cry”

Ah, yes… this lyrics means how scared Sakura is for jumping out at the tightrope for the first time.

“What if there’s a place… where I can stand freely? Then, I…” Sakura at chapter 60.

Sakura… is always fighting, all that fighting just for proving himself, he has a value that the others don’t or have. But, because of that,  he doesn't understand what friendship means, he even just knew about human body temperature when he shaked hands with Sugishita. 

So, when the people in town, Furin, and his classmates are accepting who he is, it makes his “selfish fists cry”. Sakura's motivation for going to the top is just to prove himself is just like Choji. Reach the top of the mountain, and then find nothing but emptiness, and Sakura realizes that. 

But, when his classmates are trusting him for becoming the grade captain, his “selfish fists” are “crying”. This is what makes the third and fourth lyrics become more meaningful. 

“My body feels light. It’s easy to breathe. I never knew… a place like this existed… this is it. I want to be here.” Sakura at chapter 60.

“It’s because of them… that I started wanting… to be here. It’s warm, it smells so nice. … I’ve never been to a place… where I could stand so easily before. That’s why… I wanted to protect it.” Sakura at chapter 145.

These two monologues have a very deeper connection with the third and fourth lyrics. He wants to protect it, he don't want to lose it, he wants to protect it. (Fuck Endo men…)

And, because of that, “I'm invincible. My heart hurts so much that it breaks” have another new meaning. 

Literally, this also has a connection about Endo itself, we know that Endo saw Sakura have the “same colour” as Takiishi. Endo plans to “destroy” Sakura, and Sakura is almost given up, because he doesn’t want to destroy the place who accepts him. He doesn’t want to drag them down, even though he wants to hold on with his two hands, and it hurts his hearts to pieces.

“My tattered heart was distorted and crushed”

“It’s a little bit embarrassing that I can’t understand unless I try to know”

“I was trying to be bossy, and I was talking about a strength I didn't know” 

“My tattered heart was distorted and crushed”

Distorted in this lyrics can be seen as “A distorted thought or cognitive distortion — and there are many — is an exaggerated pattern of thought that's not based on facts. It consequently leads you to view things more negatively than they really are.”

This is when Endo fractures Sakura in chapter 144, and makes Sakura give up. Endo makes Sakura think that he is a walking bad luck charm that will harm the others. 

“After you’ve lost yourself to pure rage… I’ll inject fear and self-blame into your mind.” Endo at chapter 145.

OR, it’s when society rejects him, society views Sakura as someone who’s negative. ‘an exaggerated pattern of thought that's not based on facts.’Even though we know that Sakura is a very nice guy (his heart is so pure), the society still rejects him. The society just views him based on his looks (once again why?).

We can know this from eps 1, yeah not from the manga, but from the anime. (Good job Cloverwork! From adding this good detail) There's some guy who told Sakura to dye his hair all black. From this, we knew that because of his looks, because of his uniqueness, the society rejected him, and his heart was crushed because of that.

In the end, Sakura's heart is still getting distorted and crushed. (Son, nooo)

“It’s a little bit embarrassing that I can’t understand unless I try to know”

Kotoha and Umemiya realize that Sakura is not given up yet, given up to understand other people, given up to accept people, see them on the face. Sakura… is trying to know, and trying to learn. And Sakura did it, he wanted to understand more about Togame, and he was mad when Choji hit Togame, also he almost went to attack him.

“It’s because you don't give up on others, and you don't have to. But, the least I can do is look at you. That's why… if you look toward us. If you do that surely… you’ll find what you’ve always wanted.” Kotoha to Sakura at chapter 1.2.

“In order to accept someone… you have to lay everything open and face each other. You’re able to do that… and it looks to me that you want to accept others. Once you can do that… you could become whatever you want.” Umemiya to Sakura at chapter 30.  

“I was trying to be bossy, and I was talking about a strength I didn't know” 

Sakura thinks he can go to the top alone. Thinking that going to the top alone will solve his problem about accepting who he is, but that’s not the answer. Sakura realized this after talking with Ume.

The ‘strength’ this song talks about is the strength to accept others, Sakura doesn't understand this, and this explains from what Ume says to Sakura before. Thinking that he couldn’t reach the top because he never allowed anyone into his life before.

Sakura didn't realize these two important things, accept who he is, and accept the others. Willingly to face them.

“You should talk to them… really look at them… and understand them. Or else, you’ll never really know what a person is like.” Kotoha to Sakura at chapter 2.

“Let me stay here, I want to be here”

“No matter what I do, no matter if I lose”

Sakura never wanted to be alone in the first place. Humans always want to be accepted by others, it’s something that is very important.

“Feeling accepted is a basic psychological need that can have a profound impact on our emotional well-being and mental health. When we feel accepted, we feel valued, supported, and validated, and these positive feelings can have a ripple effect throughout our lives. This is a deep-seated instinct we all have; to be accepted and to belong somewhere.” 

This is what Sakura is not able to have, I don’t know if Sakura has good parents or not (but from my theory, no). Sakura wanted to be accepted by the others, but because of his looks, he was not accepted by society, he was left alone. He’s not belong anywhere, until he found Furin, Makochi, and his friends. He feels accepted, he feels valued, supported, and validated by others.

So, when Endo insults his friends, and Furin. Sakura defended his friend and Furin, he was mad, and because of this Endo had a chance to make Sakura give up.

“Don’t you… dare… talk about them!!!” Sakura to Endo at chapter 144.

And this is why these two lyrics have a very deep connection to Sakura, Furin, and the people at the town.

Sakura finds comfort in Furin and Makochi, he finds peace, he finds a place where he belonged to, where he needed, where he was being supported, valued, and the most important thing is Sakura feeled validated or being accepted by others.

“What’s more… they’re such good people… I don’t even know how to handle it. It’s because of them… that I started wanting… to be here. It’s warm, it smells so nice. … I’ve never been to a place… where I could stand so easily before. That’s why… I wanted to protect it.” Sakura at chapter 145.

(I’m not crying… you guys are crying…)

Can we're just agree that Young Kee did a very good job for expressing Sakura's feeling through a song. Like... broh I want to cry now... Next, is the last part of the analysis... preapre more tissue now... .

And... Kotoha and Umemiya sure is a good siblings for Sakura (and Tsubaki, don't forget that too).

[council-of-beetroot]

9, 15, 19 for feliks

9. Do they give tough love or gentle love most often? Which do they prefer to receive?

Despite that he can often be selfish and obnoxious, Feliks is affectionate and he is for the most part gentle. He's definitely the type to have so much planned or have incredibly thoughtful gifts that make one go "damn you are more perceptive than what meets the eye if you figured out that I wanted that." C

Feliks definitely needs tough love though. Boundaries are a must in a relationship with him because when they are unclear then there's issues. Nonetheless there has to be a good mix of gentle love there or it's just not feasible.

That's where I think Tolys struggles with Feliks is that the boundaries are often extremely unclear which isnt the greatest when you're dealing with poland. (I mean it fits given that even with established boundaries Poland still managed to accidentally invade the Czech Republic in 2020) and Tolys has a tendency to send mixed messages or not say much until he's absolutely lost it or is pissed and not willing to listen.

Overall, I'd categorize him as someone who needs a balance of both.

15. What’s the most obvious difference between their behavior at home, at work, at school, with friends, and when they’re alone?

He's a lot more toned down, he is engaged in deeper more meaningful thought, and he's constantly reflecting on interactions and the like. In a way it's nicer for him as it allows him to be his natural self but in ending his performance self it allows the insecurities and anxieties to worm their way back into in his brain and distraction is urgently pursued in order to mute the voice of the asshole part of one's internal monologue.

19. What would they do if stuck in a room with the person they’ve been avoiding?

It's a process to say the least. First, he debates whether to initiate conversation because it's hella awkward and this is a flashing red light to do something for him. Then he attempts small talk but it doesn't go well because usually he's avoiding someone because he is avoiding confrontation. So then he internally panics a bit and says the literal worst thing to say in whatever situation. Then he quickly goes and tries to find literally everything to distract him from his social faux pas. This works for like a minute or two until he begins to think "wait stuck in a room with this person clearly they are at least looking at me" and the best case there is they take pity on him really or knocking the person out with his handbag that might work.

Feliks is so wonderful with social situations. I want to see what happens if he's stuck in an elevator with Sweden.

[todayisafridaynight]

Do you mind dumping all of your thoughts on ebina for us?

i dont even know where to begin on ebina he just sucks major horse cock and i cant be swayed on this but ill put it under the cut for everyones sake. this is rambly as hell too idc i refuse to spend any more time thinking about ebina more than i already do

like what is his purpose. like i KNOW his purpose but it sucks- him being a Plot Twist baby is the dumbest shit in the world and they dont even ATTEMPT to do anything meaningful with it i do not care what anyone says

why even HAVE HIM be related to ichiban if he never even interacts with ichi in a meaningful way, esp when ichi's whole theme is family-- WHEN THE GAME IS LITERALLY ABOUT ICHI MEETING HIS MOM (or it was until they decided they didnt care about akane in the plot anymore)

like we mentioned it before here but if you have to have ebina related to a yakuza from the past for his ol Bring Down The Yakuza gig then why not make him an orphan from kazama's orphanage ???? literally nothing wouldve changed except it would've made more sense with how much kiryu deals with him instead of ichi. it wouldve been a great way to round things off with kiryu's saga too, what with having to confront the consequences of kazama's actions directly and finally and officially burst that fanatic bubble of his (i dont wanna HEAR nothing about gaiden that's not enough for me im GREEDY). theres something in here too about kiryu and daigo but i cant articulate it... i just know that wouldve been better too .... something something kiryu brought daigo into this life and now that he sees kazama 'bring' ebina into this life hes projecting ... idk ..

the game def didnt seem to give a fuck that ebina was arakawa's son considering they fucking revealed it in a bland-ass in-game cutscene FROM DAIGO OF ALL PEOPLE daigo respectfully why the fuck do you know this

i dont know how many people watch my streams but i was so obnoxious about ebina's villain monologue before his fight because its just ...... it just SCREAMS Hey You Guys Remember Aoki Right. fucking Masumi Arakawa Had Two Sons: One Who Loved Him And One Who Hated Him LITERALLY SHUT UP AND DIE I HATE YOU MASATO ARAKAWA WAS RIGHT THERE AND HE DID IT BETTER THAN YOU fucking stealing his bleach japan shit too. you might be able to steal bleach japan and piss me off about it the entire time because fucking everyone and their grandmother besides zhao seems to have forgotten fucking bleach japan but you can NOT steal Number One Hater Son from masato arakawa GET AWAY FROM HER 🗣️🗣️🗣️ 'why did masumi arakawa have to get himself killed' BECAUSE HIS NUMBER ONE HATER SON HAD HIM KILLED BECAUSE HE WAS A BETTER HATER THAN YOU SHUT UP

another thing that pissed me off to no end was the sawashiro shit fuckin Oh He Kept Him Alive Because He Wanted Him To Stop Him SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP I HATE YOU . i really wouldve preferred if they just killed sawashiro like old man why are you here- WE DIDNT EVEN GET TO SEE YOUR EYE GET GOUGED but im getting off topic. NOTHING bout what we've seen from ebina could convince me he Wanted To Be Stopped like absolutely nothing i dont want to hear this bullshit excuse. it is MERELY just reminding me of ichi being like 'i wish i couldve been there to stop you' @ aoki and its making me pissed

like im the only person who cares this intensely because im the only person who likes aoki enough like this and im trying NOT to mention him so much and just focus on ebina but its just so annoying... like its impossible NOT to see the parallels, especially when the game is practically bashing it into my brain every three seconds. like if we're talking aoki/masato-adjacent antags then i like eiji so its not the fact that HE IS aoki adjacent that pisses me off its just that he has no agency OUTSIDE of being a ghost of him. like there's nothing interesting about him in the slightest and he's barely even on screen why are you forcing me to give a fuck about this twat. if anything the one aoki thing i wish they did mirror onto him was dying at the end i do not care about this man

[yinyuedijun]

Hi! I am so sorry to bother you but just know that your "translation" Aventurine x reader truly moved me. I accidently came across this fanfic and the writing was so beautiful that I immediately cast everything aside and gobbled the entire thing up, it was just so captivating and mesmerizing! The monologue was beautiful, references from the beginning of the text being effortlessly placed in the end tied this masterpiece together in the most wonderful way. The dilemma was executed magnificently, it all felt so natural and not superficial - it was beautifully gradual and made so much sense. The flashbacks were perfect, both quality and quantity. The perspectives from both the reader and Aventurine/Kakavasha were wonderful. The reader was also so well written like their replies and inner monologue felt natural! I love that they were smart, usually in fanfics Y/N tends to be dumbed down which is a shame and it's not the case here at all. And most importantly Aventurine/Kakavasha were written perfectly, completely in character. A masterpiece regarding his demeanor. I appreciate you sticking to his canon, even though the circumstances he's put in in this fanfic are unfamiliar to canon you managed to portray him perfectly making the dilemma all the more meaningful! So yeah your writing is absolutely marvelous and I enjoyed every bit of this work of art ♡♡♡

Kindest regards!

WASKLEFJSKFKLD thank you so so much for leaving such a kind and in-depth comment!!! it truly sent me over the moon reading this like i'm in public and i have the goofiest face on right now LOL. i'm so happy to hear that you liked the execution (truly put my whole writerussy into it), especially that things felt like a natural and organic progression rather than a artificial problem. i really set out to put genuine human pain in the narrative and it sounds like i accomplished it from your feedback, so thank you for sharing your thoughts w me ;v;

also! i'm SO HAPPY you like the way i characterized aventurine!!!! i was honestly SO WORRIED abt how i wrote him LMAO he's such a complex character. so thank you so letting me know that, it means so much to me. also, i won't lie - i was kinda worried about the reader being unrelatable and/or a turnoff for people so i'm very glad to hear that you appreciated their character!

THANK YOU!!!! <3 i appreciate you so much!!!!

[craziestfangirl98]

My thoughts on The Trainee Ep 10.

(I watched it last week but then my mom was here so wasn't able to update the thoughts. Gonna do this now, please forgive me if there are overlaps to the new episode or any of the old once. It's not as fresh in my head.)

Jane picking up and dropping Ryan off, not overstepping to 'announce' necessarily his courtship. Realising it is just the two of theirs until they decide to address is something very personal to me. The whole moment was very precious and I loved it. The uncertainty on both their ends. It was so palpable and beautiful and soft.

Tae being heartbroken and barely being able to function, after such a long relationship, probably the only real and meaningful relationship is so profound because how is he to do anything when his heart is shattered and he is barely holding on. I like that. I also love that, after the previous (?) week and getting reassurance from P' Jo, that he matters in the workplace, Pah has become the glue and in a way the one who knows everyone and brings departments together, especially if it is to help is heartbroken Bestie. That being said, I unfortunately do not particularly like the rest of the art department pushing Tae to fight for her. I would have liked it if he came to that decision by himself.

Bamhee and P' Judy seem to be navigating the delicate balance of being intern-mentor and being interested in each other doesn't look much different from the beginning weeks (case in point the massage, it's a lot of casual leaning and touching and I don't know what to think of it.)

Pai continuing to get Ryan's crush wrong with so much of conviction is hilarious to me and makes me curious to see how it comes out in the open, so to speak.

BOYS! You want to flirt, I get it, but maybe don't leave the evidence right there? Are you insane?!!!!?!?!!? Do you have no regard for my mental peace? That being said you are so cute and I would happily turn a blind eye to those papers. Also, Ryan as someone who works in a printer shop I thought you of all people would be against it but sure.

NOOOOO PAI DON'T USE THOSE PAPERS! DON'T SEE BEHIND THEM! I DIDN'T MEAN TO JINX IT. Is this how you are going to find out about them?!

I like that Bamhee is slowly becoming more and more keen towards her work. It's nice to see her focus on work instead of a person, specifically someone she is romantically involved with.

Ohhh shit. Judy is making the decisions. That's not all good. She is paying attention but in the wrong way. Bamhee has to tell her, she had plans from earlier, if she wants to be heard.

I liked Bamhee and Pai's conversation. One, because it's good to see their friendship continue and blossom. It's very wholesome and heartwarming.

Second, because I like that they are addressing Bamhee's feelings towards Tae as well as Judy. She is uncertain of where she stands and for someone who is just starting out in their queer(bi/pan?) journey it is nice to see that acknowledgement. Also, not being mean but I like that she realises that sometimes that much attention from one single person can be overwhelming to deal with.

Nice call back to Ryan and Jane blocking the scene in the van in one of the earlier episodes. I love how they end up blocking, was it again Jane's choice to ask for Ryan?

Same question I have Jane, How has Ryan survived so far?

How am I just realising that Acts of Service is a big part of Jane's show of love and affection? Jane just casually roasting his peers (validly) to show Ryan that sometimes there is nothing special about the adults is at the same time so important and hilarious to me.

Pai falling shouldn't be so hilarious. Why am I laughing! The timing of it coinciding with Jane's monologue, the fact that the papers have incriminating evidence of a secret 'to-be-relationship', the fact that all the interns are just so clumsy and chaotic, the fact that she couldn't open the water bottle and just gave up on drinking water (honestly full relate Pai) everything is pure comedic genius. Even more than the P' Baimon as crush + Windows error tone.

Also... Jane, I love you. But who are you calling losers, when your secret is laying out in the open for anyone to see and with only you and Ryan to save yourself. 😭😭😭 Good to know at least you can laugh at it. Hopefully you've disposed off the evidence.

Ohhh it's the grand romantic gesture. I get that your heart is in the right places Tae. I hope it works out for you.

Ooooh you are never to touch personal pillows! I think Judy can be a great mentor to Bamhee, don't know about the romantic interest (which is I think what the narrative is going for as well. In my opinion at least.)

The entire team conspiring to get Bamhee to Tae would've freaked me out if it was me. (What is interesting is, even the mean colleagues from earlier episodes are happily a part of Pah's team, make of it what you will.)

Say what you will, it is quite pretty and both of them look super cute.

I am glad Tae told her about the anniversary, instead of choosing to suffer in silence. Especially considering how much effort went into it, how much he overworked himself. Because if she didn't get to know about it, there's a possibility of resentment later on which is not good.

(ohhhh it's from The Terminal! I love the movie. Catherine Zeta Jones was sooo beautiful in that. I love her.)

Go Bamhee! She knows now what she wants and what she needs. She knows how she needs it rectified. She doesn't need these big gestures (exclusively) she more so wants love on a more everyday basis and I think it's so good to see her acknowledge it and speak about it instead of keeping all the times she was hurt by his silence because it felt like a dismissal. I'm proud of them both. I needed this conversation with them if it was to go in this direction.

I also liked that Bamhee had a conversation with P'Judy as well instead of just ghosting or just becoming non-committal about it. Shows she has matured. Also will not come at the cost of her internship. I like Bamhee's realisations, they feel honest to the trajectory and narrative arc. For the first time I feel like I'm seeing an emotion in P' Judy's eyes which as mean as it sounds, finally shows it meant enough to her as well.

Awwww... Everyone is so happy for them and honestly, me too. They've understood where each of them went wrong, I would've liked Bamhee to honestly address the kiss as well but except for that I have no complains honestly.

I love him Jane is constantly aware of Ryan and the things surrounding him. Case in point the print shop = production house comment. I'm sure it made him feel seen. I also like that this show keeps reiterating that you don't need to have lofty dreams and careers to be a successful functioning human being, just as long as you are authentic and kind. As someone who is really struggling with the whole career bit, I would've liked if someone could tell me this irl.

I hope the whole story about Jane's directorial route comes out before the series ends. I want to know him more, especially considering his (slimy) ex could be the trashy intern.

Oh hey! Ryan the namesake search is back! I missed it. I like that Ryan is slowly becoming more sure about himself. I also like that Jane is fully smitten and can't seem to take his eyes off of him.

You're right Ryan. He is very cool.

I think we all know what or who he was thinking about when getting the photo taken.

I like the message tidbits everytime. I especially like to see the hesitation in the messaging.

See you back for the next episode thoughts. Would love to hear more from you all as well so feel free to pop in!