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Girls: kiss Boys: wtf am I supposed to do with this cosmic horror now

"Вставай, уже 6 часов, мы там всё уронили, вообще всё" (с)

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And now on a serious note:

It matters a lot to me that, in the end, the most definite evil in Arcane is warmongers, politics and conscious backstabbers, whereas unintentional mistakes, human feelings and mental disorders are shown as sympathetic and tragic (I can't express how much I hate "insanity and destruction are fun and cool" stuff, so I applaud this) even while not sugarcoating consequences and responsibilities.

In real world, the 1000th day of war has just been on this same week, so it resonates with my thoughts too well. Yes, this is the greatest evil, indeed. It feels good to see it recognized as such and defeated at least on-screen.

And I'm very glad that the idealistic (trans)humanist hasn't been reduced to "the road to hell is paved with good intentions" cliché and to a usual villain, instead staying something more complex and ambiguous, even getting a "love/friendship wins" undertone in conclusion. Intellect, creativity, compassion, desire to make everything better – it's important to me to see it all as an opposite of evil, not as a part of it. Science and spirituality – and these virtues – can be dangerous, but only because we humans are dangerous, sometimes even to ourselves and our loved ones. There is good too.

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What I expect in tomorrow's finale:

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"Miracles and mirrors" (630 words) – Lest, Viktor, other mentions

Couldn't wait for the final episodes, I needed it now.

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How is it possible to be so stunning, girls... (sapphic squealing)

...and you, Viktor not-yet-Machine Herald, you heart-melting melancholic utter perfection 😭

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His future third arm, juxtaposed side by side like this, is just this meme

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Beautiful series, gorgeous women ♥_♥

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So, if I get Arcane and LoL / LoR right...

Dark powerful armoured cyborg with a death ray:

Tiny elderly professor:

Perfect, will watch with utmost interest.

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These stairs, dark streets and void gaps, too, look like someone took photos of my dreams. Amazing. And therapeutic: when I was a child, I had to face nightmares alone, nobody could relate to my retellings and drawings of them, saying that only madmen have such surreal and macabre dreams, reinforcing the (already huge due to so many other reasons) anxiety that something is deeply wrong with me; now I can hug that inner child and show solid proof that I am ok and not alone if someone else took inspiration from something strikingly similar. And most importantly, art allows to experience nightmares in a state of conscious control: "see, it's safe, it can't harm you, it's not as unknowable and terrifying as it feels when you're trapped inside your mind, and it's even beautiful".

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Within a month, two FL fandom group projects seem to exclude me intentionally for unknown reasons. I'm quite used to this as *wearily waves at my bingo list of socially rejected stuff, queer and otherwise, always something if not everything*, and I'm already fine with truly heart-warming feedback that I've received outside of them... but this fact still adds even more (a little, but that's how it rises drop by drop to drown you) unwelcome contribution to my anxiety and depression. Oh well, I'm off to seek emotional relief in SH2R then. Wonderfully distracts the brain from anything when played in headphones at night. (Yesterday electricity went out right at that moment, leaving me in complete darkness when I was halfway through the pitch-black streets after the Hospital, that was an awesome experience.)

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Kindness to fragile things around you reminds of importance of showing the same kindness to fragile things inside you, I think.

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Either the ping doesn't work or it was too early, I posted my costume at the very start of Hallowmas on 28th, I hope it still may count as a submission ^ω^

Oh and just fyi, i'm going to be away from the 12th to the 17th, so while Hallowmas technically ends on the 11th, i'll still be accepting submissions for a little while after as I wont be putting together the compilation right away 👍

-Prophet

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That's just my usual morning, excuse me, where is the horror...

(Actually, superb recreation of nightmares about big apartment complexes and being lost in something so familiar. Very recognizable if you ever had them. Even the "find A to open B to get C to open D to take E" tedious gameplay adds to this specific feeling.)

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Yes, yes, this is a perfect example how to write characters with a distinct cultural identity! Not just mentioning it as a token information or outward image; truly making it a part of their story, of their life, of what had influenced them in various ways. So much better than "simply say so and throw in some inaccurate stereotype" in most media...

MotR should get more attention as a narrative game. It isn't flawless, it isn't big, but it distills its makers' long experience into some very good concentrates.

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It's the season of masks, so guess what I'm replaying:

Virginia: nice human costume!

Griz: should perform the Highwayman's Song from Over The Garden Wall.

Harjit Singh and doctor Reid, I see what you're doing.

May: his merriness is his mask, no need for another 💔

Milton: 😛

(And I wonder if St Algernon from the recent ES in FL means that this little guy has been canonized, or simply the same Keyes reference)

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For Hallowmas: my Nocturnal Nostalgist, donning the Masque of the Red Death – perfect for attending without invitations, especially the Red-and-Gold Gala at the Royal Bethlehem Hotel with its unreality-within-reality fitting this reference-within-reference. (I have a whole fic about that, yes.)

The beautiful advertisment of @neathyfashioncoalition encouraged me to finally draw it.

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Ah, here's where I've left my résumé.

"Elizabeth Barrett Browning from Aurora Leigh, 1856" - x