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Every time I tag my writing with "Platonic romance", I have a feeling like it implies the existence of Neoplatonic relationships as well 😁

...But this is not so silly, actually, because all my favourite complicated asexual romances usually include a lot of meddling with transcendent mysteries, indeed. "We should fuck reality instead".

...Wait a minute, I've just realized I must add jayvik to them.

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Indeed, I'd love to see more of it...

Recommendations off the top of my head:

Books: – The Gray House by Mariam Petrosyan;

Games: – SH2 remake really nailed it;

– Disco Elysium also struck a chord in me, even if it's just one location and simply melancholy rather than horror (although the Working Class Woman's quest is dark enough; I'd call it mundane horror, one that doesn't need to aim to scare or to be paranormal);

– The Medium's haunted abandoned resort building is a different kind of this, but a bit close.

😁 Same!

look, i love the the concept of house horror as much as everyone else on tumblr. but i can’t help but to think that it’s so… western-centric. what about all the post-soviet people who grew up and lived and died in apartment blocks. these places are haunted as fuck. the amount of trauma is immeasurable and so much can be done with this

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Just a few days ago I thought that a group of investigators of December's identity and plans (and maybe someone wants to find out whether they exist at all) would be a nice idea for a detective-oriented Concern. Now it's giving me an even better idea what if December is secretly their organizer.

(...Or, alternatively, it can be May, just like the HAD attempted here. And each of the detectives succeeds in digging into only one of his 4+ aliases, thinking that the rest are misled. Win by cooperating, accepting that there can be more than a single truth, and resisting numerous mind traps including the temptation of viewing your esteemed colleagues as bloody idiots. Lose by going insane.)

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Here it comes! Beauty ❤️

I'm far outside available shipping destinations, sadly, but I'm delighted nonetheless just by feasting my eyes on it.

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Winter is so much like a weird dream. Chilling in every sense.

Single-coloured cloudless starless sky, as if reality's background textures failed to load.

Complete silence, devoid of sounds of nature that used to infiltrate even the urban areas in summer.

Night, sometimes like a black void, sometimes unusually bright like some other world where there is neither sun nor darkness.

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Some people aggressively tried to convince me that it's 100% canon that the Hexcore has its own malicious will and fully controls Viktor, and, well... usually I'm only glad when there is a wide variety of theories – I love exploring them and can peacefully ignore those I don't agree with – but I really can't stand this kind of arguing (especially when it resorts to calling any alternatives stupid and illiterate just like the Archie-September fanonists were called). Leave others some freedom to have their own interpretations, please...

So, why persuading me into adopting this one is a waste of time and effort: I don't like that it deprives him of responsibility and meaningfulness of personally taking it. The mage admitted that he had chosen a wrong way and attempted to set it right, and this is such an admirable rare strength. It's an important part of his character: staying true to his "in the pursuit of great, we failed to do good" and desires to lessen humanity's suffering, his intentions were always for the best, so he is able to consciously renounce evil when he sees that the consequences betray his ethics. This requires immence willpower and intelligence. His own. He isn't simply cleaning up some unruly magical orb's mess after being its possessed puppet, he acts like a complex personality.

(Just imagine, for example, how boring BG3 would be if instead of its interesting vivid characters all the communication/flirting/teamwork was in fact happening only between their illithid tadpoles...)

Even the original Machine Herald, despite being devoted to the Glorious Evolution for a longer time and certainly not going to abandon it, is also capable of genuine self-introspection and honest abidance by what he thinks is right. (My precious ironclad cinnamon roll ❤️)

And then there is also fans' claim that the Arcane and magic itself is malevolent and corrupting, which is baffling me because there are so many magic users who aren't corrupted or evil – Mel (if you need an example from the series first), yordles, other hextech wielders, Lux, Ryze, Nami, Karma and other Ionians, Zilean, Lillia, Targonians, Ezreal... It's just a tool that can be used for good or ill.

As for the argument that the Hexcore recoiled from Vitor in S1 like a living creature, even our own world's nature has a lot of things that can react to a potential threat without necessarily having sentience. Some of them can even learn and distinguish:

What I could somewhat accept is the version that the Hexcore was given life by his blood. If its alleged independent mind is a direct creation and part of Viktor himself, then at least it's more logical than appearing from nowhere (or from the Void that is almost a whole continent away and would have already destroyed Piltover and Zaun long before these experiments if it was somehow involved), has actual on-screen basis and doesn't take away his responsibility so entirely.

Anyway, even after their fusion, there are so many scenes clearly showing that it's still this same Viktor who speaks, watches and makes decisions:

Or his monologue at the end of S2's sixth episode. The character himself explains his reasons, that's why I don't get those saying that there were none so the eldritch influence can be the only possible explanation.

Speaking of which, I do get his logic in some of my own personal ways. The heavy burden of empathy... The constant frustration... The feeling that only some near-impossible universal change would be able to make things better because life is so fundamentally injust and so tragically vulnerable to evil/violence/illness/death/pain... But this would require a whole another post, I'm afraid, and would be highly subjective.

What I see as actual villainizing influence is his own despair. First he had already been about to take his life, then he was horribly killed within an arm's reach of achieving a better future for Zaun, then his hopeful commune was destroyed, a close friend/lover shot him, etc... Anyone in his place would run out of patience to act rationally and nicely, so I understand and forgive him wholeheartedly.

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Seeing "I can't enjoy a game/movie if the characters aren't physically attractive enough for me" for the 100th time, I wonder what people think about me when I swoon over a cosmic giant eye 😅

(Yes, I'll return to my unfinished SSkies fics eventually, I promise...)

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And another post-Arcane pre-LoL fic (1100 words – Orianna, Viktor, Warwick!Vander, Singed).

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Bursol / lake Burlinskoye (Altai, Siberia)

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Thinking about these hands way too much.

Everyone: "Remember that creepy eldritch thing? I wonder where he is now... probably plotting some new villainous plans..."

Viktor: 💅 magic-amplifying art therapy 💅

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The Phantom of the Opera: Masque of the Red Death - IrenHorrors

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May this New Year bring love and peace 🫂

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"To be realistic, I feel something beautiful needs something ugly — something that's depraved or tragic to heighten and embolden that beauty. I think that's a much more realistic depiction of beauty, to have something small and beautiful inside something tragic and decaying. Something that's just plainly, outwardly always beautiful doesn't have a sense of reality to me." — (Hidetaka Miyazaki)

"I remember when I was drawing the Undead Dragon, I submitted a design draft that depicted a dragon swarming with maggots and other gross things. Miyazaki handed it back to me saying, 'This isn't dignified. Don't rely on the gross factor to portray an undead dragon. Can't you instead try to convey the deep sorrow of a magnificent beast doomed to a slow and possibly endless descent into ruin?'" — (Masanori Waragai)

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My cat is very busy.

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Regarding the "since your tongue sticks to frozen metal, would it happen if you lick Viktor in winter? and only the Machine Herald, or Arcane's metal-fused-with-flesh version too?" deep philosophical discussion: I'm sure that while Warwick-Vander and Jinx were in his camp, most likely he might have already been not only licked, but also nipped at, poked with a tree branch, doodled upon... adorably tugged at his cloak by Isha... touched by Vi mumbling "cooool, you have knuckledusters growing straight from your hands"... and his saint-era-self was meditating among them all like Michelangelo's monk:

(This painting is alternatively titled "work emails" in my head.)

Anyway, you shouldn't attempt to lick Viktor... unless you're Jayce or it's "an independent study" 😏

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How to make villainous proposals, according to:

wintersberg – sit him on a chair

jayvik – sit on him