#lyrics from teeth by 8 graves

[almightyshadowchan]

I can be fair, or a monster

Tell me now, which one do you need?

(This was for a twt prompt, “shackle”🫶)

[revelisms]

Silco, Sevika and Jinx Headcanons (music ver 🎵)

Since my playlists are running rampant (and they're largely how I get a sense for writing character voices/actions/etc.), I thought it'd be fun to share a few HC tidbits via some tunes :-)

Silco — aka the Bloodshark, the Eye, Mr. Crime Boss himself; the man, the myth, the slippery bastard. Also clocking in with nearly 8+ hours worth of songs for this sack of bones...I am...side-eyeing myself. Anyway.

Foundation — Sunlit Grave, Saint Mesa

This basically kickstarted the playlist earworm, for him. At a high-level, this is the song I think of anytime I write him: it's dark, eerie, regal, persevering. I always get an image of someone sinking beneath the depths at the beginning, and clawing out of a deathly cage/prowling to a bloody pinnacle by the end. The lyrics themselves also capture a flavor of his character, as a dead man speaking to someone (potentially his killer and/or lover) who knew him before; who must choose to let go of their knowledge of who that dead man used to be. He is gone, irreparably changed, and he's not coming back—and he'll drag a kingdom to its knees, by the end. (Maybe it's what landed him in that grave, in the first place.)

Inner Voice — The Wondersmith and His Sons, Astronautalis

This gives a sense of past and present: a glimpse into the hard-cracked persona he'd built in the mines (which I associate with folksongs, especially of an English or Gaelic nature), twisted up into the sly, scheming charisma he harnessed as co-founder of the Lanes. For me, the song paints a potential tale of childhood (the lyrics tell of a family of swindlers, from which the narrator is the cleverest son) and a foreboding hint into the future (too much grease can break down a machine; for all their success, a brutal end is eminent). It also just feels like him—it's growly, arrogant, and jovial; drawling in some moments, and spit-fired in others.

On The Record — Time & Place, Queens of the Stone Age

In terms of what he'd actually listen to (of which I think he'd have a extensive range, to the point of his tastes skewing past eclectic into downright bizarre), this would fit easily between a swath of blaring industrial rock, crooning big band classics, jazz, folk-tunes, experimental funk, r&b, etc. It's got that flavor of 80s post-punk vocals that would be a staple in his sets, with a snappy flare in the instrumentals (something he'd nod his head or tap his pen to)—and, funnily enough, has a slight echo to Snakes (Vi's and Jayce's fightsong), which...oddly fits, given I see him and Vi as actually very similar, at their cores.

Sevika — aka the Lioness, the Teeth, "step on me and I'll thank you for it" Miss King. She's badassery in a gilded package, baby—but there's a tender spot under it all, if you squint.

Foundation — Little Girl Gone, CHINCHILLA

Another song that kickstarted the playlist earworm. This is a baseball bat to the gut with prowess, swagger and Try That Again energy—and the transition of the whisper to the drop just hhh. Gets me every time. This song is the battle anthem from a woman who's earned her armor (fittingly, working under a gangster)—test her patience, and she'll be wearing red on her sleeve; dare to cross her in a fight, and she'll drink you down like liquor. I can visualize a snappy two-punch brawl every time I hear this.

Inner Voice — Milk, BONES UK

Dipping into that tenderness here, with a stark note of ceaseless ambition, we've got this song—a reflection, a demand, a love letter, a hunger. There's so many layers folded into this: the desires of a self-made life to be everything and more their host yearns for it to be, even if, underneath it all, what they truly yearn for is belonging. This feels like a young, angry, cropped-hair and bloody-fisted Sevika fighting down the world—and an older self looking fondly, if a touch melancholically, back on it all.

On The Record — Know Better, Janelle Monáe

Put her on the aux, and she'll have the dancefloor congealing into a neon haze of sweat and glitter. The mix of the sax and the bassline here just thrums with her energy, to me: self-assured, watchful, slow-smirking. It's often the kind of tracks she reaches for, especially for a crowd; she's got a bold streak in her, and it doesn't take much to stir it to full display (come here now, stranger; gimme that sense of danger).

Jinx — aka the Loose Cannon, the Bombshell, everyone's favorite lil' gremlin. I tend to interpret her character in distinct "phases"—i.e., Powder, Jinx, and Jinx post-shimmer. These also factor into what I musically associate with her; each piece of her character feels very distinct.

Foundation — BLOODMONEY, Poppy

This is like...the Jinx song, to me. It's about distrust, sacrifice, self-identity, denial, rage, all wrapped up in a spiteful bow of religious allegories—a flash-cycle of whose opinion she worships, at any given moment (when nobody is watching, what do you believe?). It's also just a sensory meal with the sound design, and could even match up with soundbites of her voice so easily.

Inner Voice — Crimson, Skott

Take a stroll into Powder building Jinx's persona from the ashes. This is a haunting, beautiful song, with an undercurrent of something fight-eager, spiteful, and hopeful brewing beneath the surface. In the wake of tragedy, there's still a thread of strength; someone picking up the pieces while trying to find a path back to their own mind. I almost hear this as an apology and declaration of war, in turns, from Jinx to Vi.

On The Record — BOOM, Cassyette.

You know this little metalhead is listening to any splitzy mechanical tracks she can get her hands on (fuels the inventor muse, y'know?)—and I think she'd love this. I mean, c'mon. It's a song about explosions, told through a narrator saying how slipping into different mental spaces feels like a bomb waiting to blow. I could see her jamming to this on loop in her workshop while tinkering with a new flare gun. (Also, as a close runner up, I associate anything Djerv with her, given they were the artist for Get Jinxed—she'd probably have things like (We Don't) Hang No More always on the gramophone, singing to it word for word.)

[narrativelysignificantturtleduck]

songs for the cycle-breaker

i also think i've taken a different approach to this playlist in that i've focused on just late s3 zuko breaking free from his family. this playlist has much less of an arc than he does.

the thing about putting together a zuko playlist for me is that i am not emo and i don't believe in putting showtunes on character playlists bc they are already About characters. so this playlist is not super reflective of what i think zuko would listen to and is also pretty different from most of the zuko playlists out there which ARE full of emo bands/popular tiktok music. nothing wrong with that but it's not me.

1. dynasty - rina sawayama

i'm a dynasty / the pain in my veins is hereditary / and if that's all i'm gonna be /would you break the chain with me?

perfect song for the cycle-breaker of a royal family. i've seen this song on azula playlists and like. what chain do you think she's breaking exactly. the whole tragedy of her character is that she doesn't get free.

2. walk this way - mø

there is a light for you, burning for you / oh my mama said "it is burning for you"

zuko is, of course, a mama's boy.

3. take the journey - molly tuttle

take the journey / someday you'll make it back home again

pretty straightforward tbh. i like to imagine the lines "take the hand of the one beside you / let the fire guide you" as being about him & aang meeting the dragons.

4. relay - fiona apple

evil is a relay sport when the one who's burned turns to pass the torch

if this lyric were shorter i'd have made it the title. if this song had a more conventional song structure i'd have made a full fanvid instead just a little snippet. there is no better summary of zuko than this line.

5. altar wine - david keenan

there was once a man who loved me / he was older, he left this scar / and a book about an angel / that made her way back home to god / i still think about him sometimes / running my finger up its spine / may he fall into a well / he left me old before my time

yeah this song is heavily christian, but the characters in this song - the sighing mother the narrator identifies with, the older man who left a scar, the girl who sets fire to the curtains - feel very fire nation royal family. the fact that the older man gives him a book about an angel who made her way back home to god also feels similar to how zuko was expected to redeem himself and find his way home.

also, the singer just sounds fucking anguished, and literally screams near the end, which is pretty zuko imo.

6. black sun - irma

hold back, hold back, can't you see / how harmful all this can be / this ain't no place to call a home

amazingly, a perfect song for zuko's speech to ozai on the day of black sun.

7. shivers - JOSEPH

i strike my own light / even if it's not quite as bright

zuko decides to leave and strike out on his own.

8. grave digger - matt maeson

goddammit, i cannot bend / i'm all shriveled inside

a recommendation from the write-in question on this uquiz i made, one that i got a LOT, and okay yeah sometimes the majority opinion is correct. it's about deciding to leave behind your toxic family, and it's also easy to read "bend" in this line to refer to firebending. you win this one, zuko fans.

9. fear and loathing - marina

don't wanna live in fear and loathing / i want to feel like i'm floating / instead of constantly exploding

about how he had to find a new drive for his bending after he left, find something besides anger and fear to fuel him.

10. white teeth teens - lorde

and everything works out so good / i wear the robe like no one could

zuko being crowned fire lord at the end despite never thinking he was one of the cool kids worthy of status and power.

12. heirloom - sleeping at last

you are so much more than your father's son / you are so much more than what i've become

iroh to zuko <3

13. a burning hill - mitski

the title track. like all our angsty firebenders, he's been a perpetrator of the fire nation's brutality, its victim, and a witness to it. zuko 🤝 azula 🤝 jeong jeong - this song.

[nomorethanhirtyonepotatoes]

Lyric Snippets Under the Cut

Second Child, Restless Child // The Oh Hellos

See, I was born a restless child And I could hear the world outside calling me And heaven knows how hard I tried But that devil whispered lies I believed ... You've got to go on, further than you've ever gone You've got to run far from all you've ever known

2. Icarus // Bastille

"Look who's digging their own grave" That is what they all say "You'll drink yourself to death" Look who makes their own bed Lies right down within it And what will you have left?

3. Ghost Towns // Radical Face

I seen more places than I can name And over time they all start to look the same But it ain't that truth we chase No, it's the promise of a better place But all this time, I been chasin' down a lie And I know it for what it is But it beats the alternatives So I'll take the lie

4. Jackrabbit // San Fermin

Everything you see is double Any way you go you lose When you're lost in the woods and Alone in the world too Another day older And another day we go, oh no Alone again with all these people

5. I Earn My Life // Lemon Demon

I earn my life, I earn my life I learned it from my father and I tell it to my wife Jesus Christ, don't tell me not to hurry I wouldn't be so worried if I wasn't always right Cause I earn my life, I earn my life I learned it from my father and my father never lied Jesus Christ, we better learn how to forage Utilities and mortgage are all that will survive

6. Conquest of Spaces // Woodkid

I'm ready to start the conquest of spaces Expanding between you and me Come with the night the science of fighting The forces of gravity

7. I Have Seen the Future // The Bravery

Raise a glass in salutation We drink to our annihilation Was and will just make me ill It is a brave new world And we are faster than pain We are dogs without a name We are marching soldiers off to claim The brave, brave, brave new world

8. Bartholomew // The Silent Comedy

Oh my God, please help me Waist deep in the river, can you hear my plea? He says "Son, you come like a beggar in the streets" "You might make it, boy, but by the skin of your teeth" "Might make it, boy, but by the skin of your teeth"

9. Dimitri Mendelev // Astronautalis

I dreamed up the maps Give me charcoal and the paper now We invent paths they cannot see And they're too scared t' walk Between my hands rests fifty-two plain old playing cards And I trapped God somewhere between The trump and the kind of hearts

10. I Followed Fires // Matthew and the Atlas

Now the low lakes have frozen Away from home I'll go When the first snow has fallen Away I'll go Give me to the ground I followed fires toward the sound Cold upon the mountain To which I'm bound, to which I'm bound

11. Exile Vilify // The National

You've got sucker's luck Have you given up? Does it feel like a trial? Does it trouble your mind the way you trouble mine? Does it feel like a trial? Did you fall for the same empty answers again?

12. Somebody to Die For // Hurts

I could drag you from the ocean I could pull you from the fire When you're standing in the shadows I could open up the sky I could give you my devotion Until the end of time And you will never be forgotten

13. My Silver Lining // First Aid Kit

I don't know if I'm scared of dying But I'm scared of living too fast, too slow Regret, remorse, hold on, oh no I've got to go There’s no starting over No new beginnings time races on And you've just gotta keep on keeping on

14. Seven Nights, Seven Days // The Fratellis

Oh my darlin' I'll go down and commune And tell one hundred souls There's a fire on the moon I'll be over the line, I'll be under the spell I'll be the comeback kid On his way home from hell

15. Dirty // Grandson

Do you have enough love in your heart To go and get your hands dirty? It isn't that much, but it's a good start So go and get your hands dirty Do you love your neighbor? Is it in your nature? Do you love a sunset? Aren't you fed up yet?

16. Last Man Standing // People in Planes

I am the last man stand survivor I'll be the last man home Yeah I'm the last man stand survivor I'll be the last man home

17. Lost, Scared and Tired // Jared & The Mill

But they say, "Boy, you're looking skinny Should you really go this hard? You're doing it for nothin' These risky milles you're truckin' Are crazy as they are far" ... But I'm strung out and foregone, I feel all alone And the winding of the river makes me wanna Find my way back home, my way back home

18. Black Eyes // Radical Face

And I said: "This life ain’t no love song" While I marched on blindly And my knuckles dragged across the walls And the birds up there mock me and the scenery’s turned wicked And your name is trapped beneath my tongue All of the roads are one now, each choice is the same All the roads, they are one now, each choice is the same I won’t show my hands now, I know this ain’t a game All the roads, they are one now, each choice is…

19. The Balancer's Eye // Lord Huron

Heaven never ever heard a word I said I’ve cried enough to raise the dead “Everything comes and goes,” they say Here tomorrow, gone today Heaven won’t let me in, I don’t know why No one ever loved half as much as I Everyone’s a sinner in the balancer’s eye I’ve prayed enough, I rolled the dice Anyone’s luck can turn, I’ve heard Not soon enough, I gave my word

20. That's Okay // The Hush Sound

You want to go back to where you felt safe To hear your brother's laughter, see your mother's face Your childhood home is just powder-white bones And you'll never find your way back And when you're gone, will they say your name? And when you're gone, will they love you the same? If not, that's okay

21. Comes and Goes in Waves // Greg Laswell

This is for the ones who stand For the ones who try again For the ones who need a hand For the ones that think they can

22. In the Heat of the Moment // Noel Gallagher's High Flying Birds

They tell me you've touched the face of God At the sound of the rope cracking on your neck They tell me you'd never give it up Like the song that was soul singing in your head So, honey, please, don't let go Or you'll fall into the dead of night So, honey, please, don't let go You better learn to fly 'Cause they're gonna point you up at the sky

[thesinglesjukebox]

OLIVIA RODRIGO - "VAMPIRE"

The Jukebox has risen from the grave...

[7.08]

Wayne Weizhen Zhang: Sophomore albums--and especially their lead singles--are so tricky because expectations are lofty and unreasonable. Artists need to appeal to their original fanbases without pigeonholing themselves; experiment with new sounds without alienating their original fanbases; create new aesthetics without sacrificing visual continuity; attain virality without being a flash in the pan. "Vampire" achieved all of this and more. On one hand, it's a melancholy ballad à la "Drivers License"; on the other hand, it's a ever-evolving three-minute distillation of her full pop-rock singer-songwriter range from SOUR. The songwriting's emotional intimacy feels instantly familiar, but more mature and lived-in. Rodrigo sounds Disney enough, but the chorus climaxing with "fame fucker" is an electrifying reminder that she's moved on, and invites just enough speculation as to who the song is about while avoiding Sabrina Carpenter and Joshua Bassett levels of specificity. The balladry of "Vampire" will sound good during karaoke, on car rides with parents, and on future seasons of The Voice; but its Hannah Montana, Elton John, and Queen-esque bridge is also snippy and clever enough to become a TikTok trend. It's extraordinary how Olivia was able to get this balance right without sounding over-calculated. We're witnessing the birth of a generational talent, and if there's any justice in the pop world, one day we'll look back on "Vampire" as the moment we knew Olivia Rodrigo wasn't going anywhere. [8]

Alex Ostroff: The most interesting thing about "Vampire" is the gap between what it convinces you it's doing and what it's actually doing. The introductory piano chords and initial aesthetics send a message to the audience that this is "Drivers License, Part 2" -- an earnest ballad that tells a real, personal, relatable story of heartbreak. Except it isn't that at all. Olivia's debut single was a particular narrative whose songwriting hinged on Swiftian levels of detail, but "Vampire" is much vaguer and relies on broad strokes and tropes about predatory older men and the Hollywood machine to fill in the gaps. This evolution is probably a good thing, though, because instead of writing a song that incentivizes fans to engage in close readings and lore about her personal life, Rodrigo leans all the way into her theatre-kid dorkiness in a way that not even Ariana has let herself do on record. By the time "Vampire" builds to the hammering piano chords and the over-the-top backing vocals, it become very obviously a cheesy rock opera 11-o'clock number. That makes it hamfisted and embarrassing, but also the first sign that GUTS would be less "diaristic" and more Olivia chewing scenery and acting her way through songs, selling every line reading for the seats at the back of the theatre. That's secretly her real strength. [7]

Will Adams: Olivia Rodrigo has never clicked with me, despite all evidence suggesting that she should. A few listens of GUTS earlier this year helped me pinpoint the main reason: her musical theater pedigree often manifests as overly edited, everything-in-its-place songwriting that clashes with the messiness of the stories she's telling. "Vampire" operates exactly like her debut single: a studied ballad that goes from tinkling piano to an urgent pulse, to the big climax before curtain call. The neat packaging only makes the clumsy moments stick out more, like the mixed metaphor of "sold me for parts as you sunk your teeth into me" arriving at exactly the worst time. [5]

Alfred Soto: I prefer my undead tropes campier and faster. [4]

Leah Isobel: The lyric on the page is two words: "Bloodsucker/Famefucker." Olivia sings it as four: "Blood, sucker/Fame, fucker." During her breakout year, she spun a relatively low-profile relationship into tabloid fodder via sheer force of will and became a star in the process. For its first minute, "Vampire" seems to repeat the same set of ideas: lugubrious swells of piano, a throatily emotive lead vocal that leaps up into the chorus. But unlike "Drivers License," this song is characterized by a new sense of paranoid shadow-play, an omnidirectional viciousness that drives its accelerating energy. By briefly inhabiting the form of her breakout hit, "Vampire" literally reanimates her past. By supercharging it into a rock opera, the song reveals that her past work was always, on some level, a performance, an exaggeration: a lie. She surveils the wreckage that her pen has wrought; she wonders, to others and to herself, "how do you lie?" The chorus is the answer. Fame demands blood. [7]

Rose Stuart: I think I get Olivia Rodrigo now. "Vampire" feels like musical theatre, a perhaps unintentional Queen pastiche that uses its increasing momentum to move from depression to rage. In a year with so many big songs about breakups, "Vampire" is the only one that is honest enough to scream out its pain instead of hiding behind bravado. Its only flaw is that Rodrigo stops one foot too soon, ending the song when it is amping up rather than riding the crescendo to its full conclusion. If you're going to do an anguished "Bohemian Rhapsody," you need to leave space for some headbanging. [8]

Brad Shoup: From her frequent dips into rippity-rap delivery to her tendency to make even her best asides feel workshopped, there's more than a little Broadway about Rodrigo. "Vampire" feels like the deflating power ballad at the back end of an Act I: a sour realization that has to be swished around for a while. When she's really spitting bile, it feels self-directed, and it's all the more poignant for it. The ending (fists pounding on loop) is maybe the only way to end a pop version of a rock-opera track; the real deal would have had an instrumental solo to spell Rodrigo off. [6]

Katherine St Asaph: It is very personally funny to me how Olivia Rodrigo recorded a song called "Vampire" that sounds, at least in the beginning, like Christina Perri's Twilight ballad "A Thousand Years." But, of course, "Vampire" is not meant to be funny at all. The song is a product of Rodrigo's musical theater background -- maybe Chicago's "Nowadays" in chords and A Chorus Line's "What I Did For Love" in emotional arc. Musical theater shares more with pop music than detractors of either admit, and "Vampire" is Rodrigo's version of Broadway's version of opera's tragic heroine arias. (So is "Praying," with which "Vampire" also shares a lot.) You've heard many of these songs; they mark their characters' final acts. They derive their power from an unspoken assumption: that one's story isn't truly real unless one sings it into existence, preferably over a recognizable ballad arrangement, with nodule-causing volume and superhuman virtuosity. The more you perform your pain, the more the audience will believe it. This triumph is always compromised, especially for a woman whose story is how she was hurt (c.f. Opera, or the Undoing of Women). But "Vampire" has another triumph, a meta-triumph: this isn't Rodrigo's final act. She may not even be done with Act 1. [7]

Frank Falisi: "Theater kid," as a moniker, exists in opposition to both its parts: not arty enough to be theater, not free enough to be kid. Posturing is expected, cliqueyness pervades, but between those obvious limitations is the opportunity provided by the grand gesture, which is to say: ascension. What makes a good dressing-room anthem? A certain sense of dramatic flamboyance, all the better for our impersonatory urges to inhabit. This accounts for "Bohemian Rhapsody," obviously, but also fare both Hot Topicier ("Welcome to the Black Parade'' dropped the year our spring musical was Sweet Charity) and more food-court block party. Do you remember the peculiar joy of hearing "Irreplaceable" drifting through the canned cleaner smells and chirpy family drama of a vast public space? The sublime is out there in the air! Reach through the fried food smells and teenage ennui! Maybe that's the key: all good dressing-room songs could get equal play at the mall. Pop has always thrived on hemi-anonymity. Making these fantasies front and center in our vast pageant of overdriven hormonal imaginings was a first step toward personal curation; I knew a kid who repped Jethro Tull's "Locomotive Breath" so hard that it elicited the same pre-show squeals as "Drops of Jupiter." We just wanted to know you loved it--that energy was what these hidden and unstable moments of outburst were about. "Vampire" has all the cellophane grand guignol of a theater kid unbothered by the designation, an Evanescence and Mika-biting kiss-off with a delirious chorus that keeps reaching up, pushing Rodrigo's formidable voice into the territory any songwriters hope to get an instrument; when a voice is that far and comfortably in the realm of its limit, emotion sheds right off. I don't think we should remember our puerile joys as any less honest than the ones we look for in our maturity. I wouldn't want to go back to the dressing room--I can listen to "Vampire" whenever I want--but it's nice to imagine someone from Pippin or (yuch) The Addams Family, vibrating, too much makeup: "can I show you this song?" [10]

Taylor Alatorre: A Three Minutes Hate session that's structured like a Disney villain song from the perspective of the hero -- which, as with most Disney villain songs, ends up making the designated bad guy seem more glamorous and enticing than he probably is. Fears of an aimless piano dirge are dispelled after the first third, but the steady pile-up of dramatic signifiers isn't much of an improvement. Loudness and an indistinct busyness are used as crude synonyms for emotional tumult, and the quiet-loud dynamics feel unearned in a song that begins in the same lyrical register that it ends. It's not that Rodrigo is too young or inexperienced to play the Lana-esque ingénue songwriter; it's just that, for whatever reason, she's more herself when she's doing straight-ahead power pop songs that carry the risk of an IP lawsuit. [3]

Andrew Karpan: "Vampire" is pure Olivia-core, her big tent pop-punk sound, which can be heard almost coalescing here. It also evokes her own school of soundalikes, like say Chappell Roan. [7]

Aaron Bergstrom: It's a song full of big theatrical moments (the "How do you lie?" Greek chorus, the the little glissando into the off-to-the-races bridge), but the understated epiphany comes at the end of the second verse, when the instrumentation drops out for Olivia to deliver an almost perfectly monotone "'cause girls your age know better." She has more to say, but it's already over. That's the stake to the heart right there. [8]

Joshua Minsoo Kim: In high school, I learned how much I loved to love. Blame it on my father: after seeing him tell my mom in the most mundane of circumstances--during car rides, at the dinner table--that she was "the most beautiful woman in the world," I recognized that I, too, could be the same sort of unabashedly affectionate person to those around me. None of the other Asian men I knew were like this, and none were as visibly happy, and so it only made sense that when I had my first girlfriend I'd be first to say "I love you." Two days later, a friend one year our senior convinced her to dump me. I shouldn't say stuff like this, I was told, and it was in our best interest to cut ties as to prevent my further heartbreak. My immediate reaction was confusion: All the songs we sang together felt just as emotionally severe, just as intimate. What made it worse when the words were my own? My remaining teenage years would be defined by a reticence for emotional expression. But I still had these models in my life--my 1st-generation Korean American parents, the music I spent every waking moment devouring--that convinced me to live otherwise. It's a testament to "Vampire" and its go-for-broke maximalism that I recalled all this. More than any other pop song this year, it makes a point to direct attention to its vocal delivery: every casual lilt and swerving cadence is a window into a complex web of emotions. Rodrigo's other singles hint at this through clever wordplay, but "Vampire" and its deathly serious musical theater make it actually feel consequential. Even with the devastation she feels, my main takeaway is the same I had 15 years ago: the only life worth living is one of overflowing, unwieldy passion. [10]

Stephen Eisermann: Olivia oversings this in the best way possible and wrings every possible emotion out of each note. [8]

Jonathan Bradley: Bloodletting over a bloodsucker, for which Rodrigo recreates the venom and hurt that made "Drivers License" so gripping a listen, though round two shifts the balance towards the former. It's not that rage is less compelling a mode for Rodrigo, but her logorrheic barbs speak to resentments specific to her and her target; without the granular detail that characterised "Drivers License," there's also little for we onlookers to grab a hold of. When the kick starts thumping, the song attains some get-up-and-go that's not entirely thwarted by the mushy and muffled production. The pounded piano chords can't quite crescendo with the high end filtered out. "Fame-fucker, bleeding me dry like a goddamn vampire" is a fun thing to shout, though. [6]

John S. Quinn-Puerta: Rodrigo says "fuck" the way a six-year-old wields a hammer: aimlessly and with delusions of competence. [4]

Edward Okulicz: "Make us Drivers License: The Musical Theatre Experience," asked nobody in particular. But Olivia Rodrigo obviously knew the demand was there and has given us the curtain raising (d-d-d-d-d), climax reprise (dundundundundundun) and denouement (DUN! DUN! DUN! DUN!) all in one. It's catchy, her lyrics again hit that sweet spot of authentic teen tantrum but relatable to an adult, and her performance is both angry and a little bit scared. What, you expect to see a vampire and be angry, not scared? [10]

Jacob Sujin Kuppermann: Love the bit where it goes "DUNDUNDUNDUNDUNDUNDUNDUNDUNDUNDUNDUNDUNDUN." More songs should do that! It's great every time! [8]

Crystal Leww: Earlier this year, I had to get an MRI done ahead of a surgery. At 6:45 in the morning while I was lying there, covered in nothing but a sheet and some paper shorts, freezing cold, the MRI tech found a vein in my right arm after poking around for five minutes in my left arm. The tech asked me if I wanted to listen to music while getting my MRI. I said no, I'm good, then immediately reconsidered after thinking about being kinda freaked out while lying very still in a giant magnet for like 30 minutes. The tech asked me what I wanted to listen to: Jazz? Classical? Top 40? Yeah, the last one, I told them. They put headphones over my ears, then loaded me into the machine. Turns out they can't give you real headphones because it's a giant magnet, and "Top 40" really just meant The Entire Olivia Rodrigo Album. So I just laid there listening to loud-ass MRI banging noises for 30 minutes and listening to Olivia Rodrigo through speakers that sounded like they were from the '60s, blown out, and shoved underwater, and constantly interrupted every five or six minutes with a robo-voice lady going "hold your breath for five...four...three..." I think this is one of the most boring songs on the album -- a [2] -- but I don't think that a single other American pop star in 2023 could make an album I could recognize so clearly under these conditions. [4]

Michael Hong: "vampire" is SOUR's palette made darker and sexier, the ballad rendered theatrical. Every movement is felt. The sighed "look at you, cool guy, you got it" brings the image of a sly smile, the collapsing scream of "fame fucker" carries every bit of vitriol, and the builds and drops of the piano are a nauseating rollercoaster. At the center is Rodrigo leaning both into and away from her youth. She fixates on the simple, almost juvenile metaphor but demonstrates newfound maturity: desperately attempting to ensure that self-deprecating doesn't mean self-loathing, and conceding her own faults without redirecting blame. [7]

Ian Mathers: While "Vampire" is good, it feels an awful lot like the kind of song that benefits from and/or relies on the listener being able to slot it into place in the narrative of Olivia Rodrigo, Narrator/Protagonist. Not a complaint! But while I can appreciate what's going on (the "sold me for parts" is really good, including how she performs it), I am struck by a nagging sense that I don't Get It yet, the way I suspect I will at some point. [7]

Scott Mildenhall: Is it about Chip Hunkley? Jaeden Jaxons? Esio Quaywurtz? It could even be the industry forces that would leech from them if they existed. Perish the thought and enjoy the ride, though: this wooden rollercoaster of a song thrills with its craft, character and momentum. Yes, they probably have ones with jetpacks now, but who wants to feel weightless when you have juddery? [8]

Jackie Powell: The crew at Switched on Pop introduced me to the thought that the track paints the image of the protagonist trying to escape from her antagonist (the vampire) in an old gothic castle. Imagine Rodrigo, in one of those white medieval dresses that's too long, running for her life up a tower. Not all songs have this capability -- actually, most of them do not. Rodrigo and her writing partner Dan Nigro succeed because of the way they play with the track's dynamics and how intentional they are when they introduce different sounds. Their entrances are grand but pristine. The switches from piano (literally and in the dynamic sense) in the first verse, to the slight stringy synths in the first chorus, then to the percussive bass drum in verse two, are dramatic but not overstated. By the time Rodrigo hits that second chorus, the drum kit is fully present, and the listener can imagine her jogging faster through the castle. By the bridge she's full-on running and making her damndest great escape, and by the final crash of the cymbals, she's done it. The most potent phrase in "Vampire" is obviously "fame fucker," a mature statement way beyond Rodrigo's years. If only Britney Spears had known it, she might have avoided Kevin Federline. Yes, I've been listening to The Woman in Me on audiobook. The Federline chapters were so vampiric. [8]

Nortey Dowuona: Vampires aren't real. There are plenty of greedy, selfish, and pale people in the world who are quite happy to take your days, your hours, your minutes. They quite happily crowd into your life, settle so deep, and nestle so close that even honestly engaging with them will drive you crazy. Forget trying to get them to stop hurting you, stop lying to you, stop betraying you. They just want more and more of you until you can no longer feel them drain you -- just collapse and sit, staring off into space. And once the last chorus kick-thuds painfully 16 more times, it finally collapses into silence because Olivia has shaken the man loose, but she is so depleted and uneasy she now has to keep watching around for him in the night. Vampires aren't real. Men are. [10]

[Read, comment and vote on The Singles Jukebox ]

[undiscovered-horizon]

"Boobytraps" - Yandere!Billy Russo x Reader

[TW: obsessive behavior/yandere trope + blood and injuries + sexual implications + explicit language]

SUMMARY: When he's devising the next step of his complex plan to make you love him, Billy relies on small acts to keep you dependent on him. As chefs often say: you will know a good kitchen by sharp knives. And Billy's kitchen might just be exceptional.

Previously on Yandere!Billy Russo: [Headcanons] [There's something in the shadows] [Moving houses] [The art of deception] [Sick leave]

Author's note: I'm sorry but this boils down to unhinged Billy having a knife kink bye. The song referenced is "Teeth" by 8 Graves.

Although Billy had told you numerous times that you don't have to cook and that he doesn't even expect you to, there was still some uncomfortable obligation to pay him back for the selfless kindness he's been showing you ever since the two of you met.

It was a Saturday and you happily remained in your sweats and a short top. The spring sun lit up the entire apartment, making the inside hot enough for you to open a window. Your playlist was set to shuffle, currently playing some alternative indie song you have nearly forgotten about. The marinated tofu was sizzling deliciously on the pan.

"I can feel teeth, tear into me, rip me to pieces, rock me to sleep," you sang under your nose but stopped abruptly when you heard the familiar jingle of keys opening the lock of the front door. Billy had a habit of waking up at the crack of dawn to go to the gym even on weekends.

"Hey Superman, I'm making breakfast. Can you pass me the knife?"

"What's the chef's recommendation?" he asked while giving you the knife and reaching for a mug with his other hand. At that moment he wondered whether you have noticed that he always places your favorite mugs on the highest shelf so you have to ask him for help. Whatever the answer was, the facts were that his little "trap" was working perfectly fine. Except for the disappointing moments when you decided to rely on a chair - why would you ever think you need anything or anyone outside of him? Nonsense.

Billy was making coffee while sparing sneaky glances at your hands, dexterously cutting vegetables, clearly showing you have experience in the kitchen - something he didn't consider while plotting his little utensil scheme. He felt his body get gradually hotter as he thought about the curious pair: you and knives. You holding knives. Knives against your skin, pushing just enough to not yet break the skin but create tension. You squirming under the sharp tip of a knife grazing your skin, making you gasp both in fear and excitement. The sight of your bare abdomen made the thought even more welcome. Billy had to mentally slap himself awake, realizing that the water has already boiled and you were no longer cutting anything but mixing the food in the pan while mouthing the lyrics to the song playing from your phone.

"Can you set the table?" you asked absentmindedly, too focused on seasoning breakfast.

He was setting down the plates, consciously blocking the less than chaste thoughts that occupied his mind, when he heard the clink of metal followed by your gasp of surprise. It worked.

"Shit," you whispered and Billy was immediately next to you - your pain was his too. His skin felt rough against yours as he held your palms in a curiously gentle and yet firm hold.

"Damn girl, you gonna cut off your finger one day." His tone sounded insincere as he was more focused on pulling your hand under the tap.

"I'm not that clumsy," you whined. Billy gently blew air on your cut before putting a bandaid over it. "Well, aren't you adorable."

The remark made a half-smile appear on his face. Adorable, what a fantastic word! "Able to be adored"... And "adored" isn't too far from "loved". Billy knew no holier words than you telling him you could love him.

There was a sick satisfaction inside him, seeing your pout and the bandaid. The cut was going to leave a scar on your finger and Billy felt himself getting excited at the thought that, in a way, his existence has left a permanent mark on you. No matter how much time passes or what happens to the two of you, the scar will still be there, reminding both you and the entire world that he, Billy Russo, was a part of your life. In some way, when you cut your finger with his knife, he had become an inseparable part of you, forever staining your story.

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@tnrthings @restingbitchsblog @intothesoul

[renegaedz]

Happy birthday Kakashi, thanks for the brainrot 💕

Lyrics are from Home by Cavetown 

Image id under the cut:

[id: a 15 page fan comic centering Kakashi Hatake from Naruto. The text on each page is lyrics from the song Home by Cavetown. The comic is drawn in black-and-white line art. 

Page 1: Text reads: “Often, I am upset, that I can not fall in love but I guess, this avoids the stress of fallling out of it.” The page shows Kakashi sitting in a tree, looking down at Rin, both of them looking upset in opposing panels. 

Page 2: Text reads: “Are you tired of me yet? I’m a little sick right now but I swear, when I’m ready I will fly us out of here.” The first two panels show Kakashi standing alone, in the background and separate from Obito and Rin, who are side-by-side in the foreground. The second two panels show Kakashi on one side filled with shock, and Obito on the other, covered in blood, half of his face cut off by the panel. 

Page 3: Text reads: “I’ll cut my hair, to make you stare, I’ll hide my chest and I’ll figure out a way to get us out of here.” The first panel shows Kakashi with longer hair, and the second panel shows his hair being cut by his father’s hands. The final panel shows Kakashi with his mask off, his face is obscured by his hair, and he’s leaning over, with his arms wrapped around himself, and his fingers digging into his shoulders. His teeth are clenched, and he is crying. 

Page 4: Text reads: “Turn off your porcelain face. I can’t really think right now and this place, has too many colors, enough to drive all of us insane.” There are four panels, all collectively showing one picture, Kakashi standing in his ANBU uniform, and holding a sword, with blood dripping off the blade and into a puddle on the floor. 

Page 5: Text reads: “Are you dead? Sometimes I think I’m dead, ‘cause I can feel ghosts and ghouls wrapping my head” The first panel shows a silhouette of Kakashi stabbing his arm through Rin’s chest. The second panel is a closeup on his face, his eyes are clenched shut, and tears are spilling down his face. The final panel is the same as a panel from page 2, showing Kakashi alone in the background. The panel is altered so Obito and Rin are now obscured and darkened, and Kakashi stands out alone. 

Page 6: Text reads: “But I don’t wanna fall asleep just yet.” The page has only one panel, a drawing of a grave with Kakashi’s name on it, and a single Iris flower in front of it.   

Page 7: Text reads: “My eyes went dark. I don’t know where my pupils are, but I’ll-” The first panel is a closeup on Kakashi’s sharingan. The second panel is him reaching out into darkness, around him are bright eyes, staring in his direction. The final panel shows him from a side-view, reaching out, but his father’s hands are resting on his shoulders. 

Page 8: Text reads: “-Figure out a way to get us out of here.” This page has only one panel, a drawing of Kakashi with his face held in his hands. His father is behind him, fading into transparency. His hands are resting on Kakashi’s shoulders.

Page 9: Text reads: “Get a load of this monster, he doesn’t know how to communicate, his mind is in a different place can everybody please give him a little bit of space.” The first panel mimics the panel from page 2 of Kakashi standing with Obito and Rin, but Obito and Rin are fully erased, and Kakashi’s silhouette is alone. The second panel is Kakashi standing at a river and fishing. The third is of his father, smiling and holding up a fishing line with a bass at the end of it. The final panel mirrors the third, but instead Kakashi is the one holding the fishing line up, alone. 

Page 10: Text reads: “Get a load of this trainwreck. His hair’s a mess and he doesn’t know who he is yet, but little do we know the stars welcome him with open…” The first panel is of Kakashi in his ANBU uniform, his mask is pushed to the side, revealing his face. He’s falling, sword in hand and preparing to strike. The final panel is from behind Kakashi, we can see his sandals as he stands in front of Minato’s grave. 

Page 11: Text reads: “Get a load of this monster, he doesn’t know how to communicate, his mind is in a different place can everybody please give him a little bit of space.” The first panel mirrors the first panel on page 9, except the silhouette is of adult Kakashi. The second panel is a closeup of him reading makeout paradise. The fourth panel is him standing beside the third hokage, looking at papers on his desk. The final panel is split in two, one half is young Kakashi’s face, and the other half is adult Kakashi’s face. 

Page 12: Text reads: “Get a load of this trainwreck. His hair’s a mess and he doesn’t know who he is yet, but little do we know the stars-” The first panel is a redraw of Kakashi with a bucket of water on his head when he first meets team 7. The second and third panels mirror page 3, showing Kakashi with long hair but as an adult, and adult Kakashi cutting his own hair. The final 3 panels are closeups of the eyes of Sasuke, Naruto, and Sakura. 

Page 13 Text reads: “-Welcome him with open arms.” There is only one panel on this page, it is a drawing of young Sasuke, Sakura, and Naruto, all running towards Kakashi, who’s down on one knee, and has his arms open. 

Page 14: Text reads: “Time is slowly tracing his face” There are three panels on this page, each one shows a tear as it runs down Kakashi’s face. The first panel is of young Kakashi’s face crying out of shock, the second panel is of a slightly older Kakashi’s face, the scar over his sharingan is visible, and his mask is off, revealing his teeth are clenched, the final panel is of adult Kakashi, his mask is still off, but he’s smiling, there’s very light stubble on his jaw and upper lip. 

Page 15: Text reads: “But strangely he feels at home in this place.” There is one panel on this page, it’s a redraw of the photo team 7 took together, but it’s with team 7′s adult designs shown at the end of Naruto Shippuden.

end id]

[andromerot]

MABEL / THE CRANE WIVES

ids after the cut

episode eight: the freeze / easier

episode sixteen: underworld / canary in a coal mine

episode nineteen: la peregrinación / how to rest

episode twenty: acting out / hollow moon

episode twenty-two: eternal return / tongues and teeth

episode twenty-two: eternal return / take me to war

episode twenty-five: chimera / safe ship, harbored

episode thirty: the consort / shallow river

infinity mirror part one: tressa / the garden

episode fourty one: a superfluity / curses

First image: An excerpt of Mabel, Episode 8, reading: “I feel strange. Not completely real. Disconnected from my body, disconnected from my thoughts. A spinal column trailing over a bed of nerves. This isn’t my house, I shouldn’t be here alone, but I am, I’m drifting through the hallway, I’m running my hand along the wall. If the house is a heart, I’m its blood. Do you know what I mean? Am I making sense? Once upon a time we were strangers. We’d never even heard one another’s names. Now, we’re – something else. Strange, maybe, not strangers. Not now.” Next to it, lyrics from the Crane Wives song Easier, reading: “If you woke and I was gone / From the house that we made our home / Would it bend you, break you, overtake your heart /Like it did my own?”

Second image: An excerpt of Mabel, Episode 16, reading: “Do you know that I love you? Can you hear me? I feel you, I can feel your heartbeat if I press my hand up against my own chest. What do you think happened to the thread, after Theseus had found his way out of the labyrinth? I think he left it there, like a memento. Like an offering. There is something – something in me that has curved around you. If I let you stay down here, if I let you die down here, that part of me will die. So maybe I’m selfish, really. I don’t know. It doesn’t matter. I love you, I love you.” Next to it, lyrics from the Crane Wives song Canary in a Coal Mine, reading: “Let the dirt hang heavy in your chest/Drag me deeper down the long, dark ground/Know that all my love will be your breath/I will save you when your lights go out”

Third image: An excerpt of Mabel, Episode 19, reading: “The sun is out. Of all things I missed, I think the sun is the most significant. Light and warmth. Is it just a poor substitute for you, I wonder? I don’t have your real world skills, Anna. I had to walk here. I never learned to drive, did you know that? The thought’s still a little distasteful to me. All that screeching metal. I’d rather know my feet stretch into the roots of the earth.” Next to it, lyrics from the Crane Wives song How To Rest, reading: “'Cause you'll miss the sun/The warmth of another's embrace/You'll need room to run/And something to chase/And that thing you fear will coax you out of that unholy place/As all you've ever wanted is an escape”

Fourth image: An excerpt of Mabel, Episode 20, reading: “Enough phantoms and masks. I think I understand the lesson, at the very least, I think there is to be no resolution for me, no ending to which I can cling and say, my journey is over. Now I can rest. There is enough rest in the Martin family for me already; all of us in the dirt, one way or another.” Next to it, lyrics from the Crane Wives song Hollow Moon, reading: “I won't be sleeping/There's too many monsters in the backyard/And I feel them creeping/Closer, closer, closer/I'm afraid/Is this a bunker or a shallow grave?/Either way I'm left/Holding onto the shovel and rope/Digging in the dirt/Finding bones, finding ghosts”

Fifth image: An excerpt of Mabel, Episode 22, reading: “You cannot love me, Anna. I am thorns and mist. Do you know that? Do you know what I really am? Or do you only want to matter? You told me that I made you matter. I could have been anyone then, couldn’t I? I could have been any girl made of your moonlit reflection. You had your little adventure, then, Anna. You had your flirtation with danger, your flirtation with the abnormal, with anything that exists outside of yourself. I will only eat you from the inside out. I am death, silver and black, come to ruin you. Do you still want me now? Do you still want the biting thorns of me?I’m sorry. I’m sorry. You don’t deserve this. I just - push and push you, until you dissolve. I am a sharp and vitriolic thing, Anna; you must be unyielding. Or else all we will do is hurt each other. I have no real desire for that. Despite my outbursts, despite my cruelty, I have no real desire to ever bring you anything but feral joy. If I can’t, then I will let you be.” Next to it, lyrics from the Crane Wives song Tongues and Teeth, reading: “I've grown a mouth so sharp and cruel/It's all that I can give to you, my dear/And when you come in quick to steal a kiss/My teeth will only cut your lips, my dear/And I know that you mean so well/But I am not a vessel for your good intent/I will only break your pretty things/I will only wring you dry of everything/But if you're fine with that/You can be mine like that”

Sixth image: An excerpt of Mabel, Episode 22, reading: “ANNA’S DOPPLEGANGER: You’ve cornered yourself up there. There’s nowhere for you to run. I’ll circle you like a shark and wait until you’re asleep, and then I’ll tie up your hair again, and you’ll be mine, and mine, and mine./MABEL: All earth fears the purity of fire./ANNA’S DOPPLEGANGER: Excuse me?/MABEL: I brought my matches with me, you stupid, useless branch! [MATCH LIGHTS; FIRE CRACKLING]/ANNA’S DOPPLEGANGER: [SCREAMS]” Next to it, lyrics from the Crane Wives song Take Me To War, reading: “I watched a weed usurp the garden/And it poisoned the rest of the crops/It would take days of fighting stubborn roots/To tear the whole damn thing out/So I will leave it where it's standing/And instead I will find me a match/I'll turn it all to kindling/I'll burn it all down to ash”

Seventh image: An excerpt of Mabel, Episode 25, reading: “There is no world in which you did not create yourself. And in every way that is true – I know nothing of your mother, your father, your sister, your cousins, your homeland, your habits. I only know what carefully curated self you have shown me, gift-wrapped. A spread of all your bright, best qualities. Is that truth? Is that prayer? Do I have to take the rest of you on faith, Saint Anna? I have a natural inclination towards doubt, towards...questioning. Always a fist to raise against something. Not you. I don’t think. Unless this bower is another cage. Then. Well, then.” Next to it, lyrics from the Crane Wives song Safe Ship Harbored, reading: “Where does your faith fall?/Where does your faith fall in me?/Don't break the bottle/Don't waste your blessings on me”

Eight image: An excerpt of Mabel, Episode 30, reading: “ANNA: I don't remember what I saw, just that it was - someone, a connection, time unravelling, me and - I couldn't bear it. No, that's not. That's not fair, I was just too - weak, I was too weak to bear it./MABEL: To bear what? What was it? What did you do?/ANNA: I - tore it up. I snapped the connection, like a thread. I said I'll never see her, I'll never know her, not in this world.” Next to it, lyrics from the Crane Wives song Shallow River, reading: “Let her leave my sight/Make her leave my mind/Bring it down on my head/If these sins are mine”

Nine image: An excerpt of Mabel, Infinity Mirror Part 1, reading: “The bird – I swear, it laughed at me. It flew away – you know how ravens fly, they’re heavy, you can hear their wings almost whining through the air. And I was alone, and I knew, I knew, I knew that I was going to die. That I’d been tricked. That bird had looked inside me and seen how useless and foolish and disposable and, and impermanent I was, and it offered me a poisoned apple like Snow White’s stepmother and just flew away and left me alone to die.” Next to it, lyrics from the Crane Wives song The Garden, reading: “Tear it down, tear it down around my head/I need you to bury this beneath my bed/The crows in the garden are laughing at my expense/Drowning out all the lies that I might have told instead”

Tenth image: An excerpt of Mabel, Episode 41, reading: “MABEL: They grew too great for their cages. Both the mice and the rats. The experiments were repeated but it was always the same result: the implosion of their known universe, due to endless growth. If a world has boundaries, the seedlings are a menace. What are we supposed to do when the vines outgrow the walls of the house?/ANNA: Burn the house down.” Next to it, lyrics from the Crane Wives song Curses, reading: “Every word I say is kindling/But the smoke clears when you're around/Won't you stay with me, my darling/When my walls start burning down, down, down?”

[dreamrealmreality]

New Video up on my channel for Mermay!

Featuring Hoody from Marble Hornets as a Naga/Siren hybrid from my Cryptid Hornets au

Final version:

Lyrics in the 2nd image are from "Teeth" by 8 Graves

[fruitpilled]

dream smp things as 8 Graves songs because i said so

- wilbur soot: bury me low this is for obvious reasons lmao, the title of the song name, lyrics like “if i die today it won’t be so bad, i can escape all the nightmares i’ve had” literally SCREAM wilbur’s vibe, especially the insainty arc - honorable mention: better off dead

- technoblade: beast this is more for him and his voices than just techno by himself tbh. lyrics like “you were whispering my name, now i’m finally taking aim” really set the mood for him and chat, and the pressure he feels to give into us - honorable mention: eye for an eye

- tommyinnit: hang i really only chose this one for the lyrics “my body’s still bleeding from back stabs and beatings but that happens now and again” because MAN,,, that screams exile arc,,, - honorable mention: silly of me

- tubbo: sos “if i could tell the truth, i’d tell you how the end is near. but i could lie to you, it’s probably for the best, i fear” pain. so much pain. all of the pain

- quackity: teeth this is literally what i want from the possession arc. “stare in the darkness, are you scared? are you free? i can be fair, or a monster, tell me now, which one do you need?” im on the floor,,,,,

- dream: numb “all i want is to feel a bit, we could fall in love, you could slit my wrist” i am a dream apologist,,,

- georgenotfound: begging to bleed “let me wear the mask that you hide behing, never mind, i won’t even ask if you’re bleeding, i’ll be color blind, i’ll ignore the red” the dnf shipper in me is sobbing,,, 

- jschlatt: evil i just,,, think it fits :) “they fall apart when they’re lonely in the dark, but i’m not like other people”

- pogtopia arc: the underground “we’re the underground, we’re the lost and found, never see the day, while we hide away” mmmmmmmm yes

- exile arc: wasted “i wouldn’t say i’m careful, i wouldn’t say i’m bright, i question what im here for, and try to find the light. i’m floating like a feather, and sinking like a stone, and i’m drinking again with the tide coming in, thinking that i’ll drown alone. cause i’ve been down here in my hole, forever being told, everything will be ok.”

- techno & tommy team up: two wrongs just look up the fucking lyrics. it’s literally just a fanfic at this point. it’s so perfect holy SHIT (might write a fanfic out of this at this point tbh)

lmk if you want me to assign a song to something/someone!!!

[trashcreatyre]

I'm gonna explain one of my TMA playlists bc I've been wanting to do that for several months, and how else am I supposed to procrastinate my animatic project at one in the morning?

(here's the link to the playlist bc I think its pretty slappin')

General:

Body Terror Song By AJJ-

I know that it could technically be a flesh song, but I feel like its a bit more vague than that? if that makes sense?

The Afternoon By Lemon Demon-

there's gonna be a lot of Lemon Demon songs in this lol- This one is also pretty vague, but for some reason it kinda reminds me of Michael specifically? I don't 100% know how to describe it.

thrifted youth By dalynn-

Most of the descriptions/reasonings in the general section are pretty simplistic and vague huh? I guess it just kinda fits the vibe? I might be saying that for a lot of the general ones-

Aurora Borealis By Lemon Demon-

this one reminds me of the season five, kinda feels like a jmart song. (also you'll probably notice that there's not much in the ship theme in this playlist. I like to keep my ship playlists separate from my more general ones, don't know why.)

Under My Skin By Jukebox The Ghost-

just kinda fits the vibe y'know? other than that I don't really know.

Turn the Lights Off By Tally Hall-

i can't actually remember why I put this one specifically- that's a bit unfortunate-

When He Died By Lemon Demon-

This one mostly just fits the vibe, makes me think about the really old Victorian era statements.

Ancient Aliens By Lemon Demon-

again, fits the vibe.

She Doesn't Sleep By Anthony Amorim-

Feels like a random statement tbh. also reminds me of Not!Sasha too.

Nightmare Fuel By Lemon Demon-

funky song- fits the vibe- I don't know what more I can say-

Everybody Loves Me by OneRepublic-

I don't remember actually???? I think It was an Elias one??? but thinking about it now that doesn't really make much sense???? I'm gonna keep it tho, fits the vibe, at least it does to me.

Bloody Nose By Jack Conte-

fits the vibe :)

Christmas Kids By Roar-

I think I saw an animatic to this one time? now I can only think of the season one archival staff,,,, my beloveds,,,,

La nuit en matin By OH MU-

imma be honest, I have no idea what this one's actually about, but It lowkey reminds me of the intro music during end of season three- y'know, the clown vibes :D

9 to 5 By Dolly Parton-

Archival staff moment

American Healthcare By Penelope Scott-

I guess it could technically be seen as an End themed one? but I put it on bc I felt like it fit the vibes (are you getting sick of reading vibes? i'm getting sick of typing it)

Butch 4 Butch By Rio Romeo-

mostly just the rat filled piano line,,,,,, and also it fits the vibes to me.

Oblivion By Grimes-

Kinda feels like a statement?? In a way?

Murders By Miracle Musical-

the vibes. hopefully thats the last time i type that for this-

oh yeah woo yeah, we're onto the specific Entities now B) lets start with the one that probably has the most, if not, it sure feels like it-

The Spiral:

Spiral Eyes By Rewenge-

yeahhhh,,,, I know it doesn't really fit the vibes all that well, But the title fits and I like it so-

The Distortionist By Ghost and Pals-

this one is SUPER obvious, but it fits REALLY well in my mind.

Out of Her Head (Outerlude) [From The Film Possibly in Michigan] By Korban Baxter-

I can literally picture this one- I lowkey wanna do an animatic of this one one day.

A Crow's Trial By Vane Lily-

OKAY- so this last one is because it's the song from an absolutely GORGEOUS animation/animatic by Akidachi on YouTube, I ADORE this animation. please watch it omg-

again, I'm like, 90% sure that The Spiral has the most songs on this playlist, definitely not a bias or anything. next up is the mf uhhhh-

The Corruption:

Spiral of Ants By Lemon Demon-

no explanation needed.

Maggot By Slutever-

Mostly just the name, but it's a good song too so-

Sick On Seventh Street By Sarah and the Safe Word-

fits the vibe title and actual song wise.

in retrospect under my skin probably could be here-

The Web:

Redesign Your Logo (Bonus Track) By Lemon Demon-

Feels like a very web song,,,

Boris The Spider By The Who-

Spider,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

Spider Dance By Toby Fox-

Yes,,, like from undertale,,,,,,,

i think thats it for the web (i swore there were more,,,,)

The Lonely:

Nobody By Mitski-

C'mon, you didn't think I WOULDN'T put this one on, did you?

This December By Ricky Montgomery-

idk what it is exactly about this one, just,,,, feels correct?

Blue Jay Way By The Beatles-

MANNNNNNN- i love this song, my mom hates it- that's unrelated- but I always just feel like there's fog or like, an eerie sea, or something- while listening to it. it feels very lonely-

I'm a Member of the Midnight Crew (1909) By Eddie Morton-

I have no idea why spotify suggested this song to me, but I will never not find it funny. Anyway- reminds me of the crew on Peter's ship :)

The Stranger:

Rattlesnake By Kabaret Sybarit-

Idk, feels like smth Nikola would sing at jon- idk how else to explain it-

A Mask of My Own Face By Lemon Demon-

pretty self explanatory lolll

The Slaughter:

War Pigs By Black Sabbath-

war.

The Hunt:

The Hunter By Slaves-

maybe this one is because it's because it's litterally called the hunter, and that they say hunter a bunch, but it is fun to listen to-

Teeth By 8 Graves-

I cannot remember my reasoning at this current moment-

The Flesh:

Body By Mother Mother-

the lyrics do be fittin doe

The Dark:

Everything Goes Dark By The Hoosiers-

i mean- everything goes dark- what more do you want me to say-

Dr.Sunshine Is Dead By Will Wood and the Tapeworms-

i think its mostly the song's vibe and the title.

The End:

The Trick to life By The Hoosiers-

the trick to life is not to get too attached to it.

Memento Mori: the most important thing in the world By Will Wood-

remember death.

YOOO OKAY NOW WE'RE ON THE ONES THAT I HAVE ACTUAL THINGS TO SAY ABOUT NOW- at least for the most part-

Characters:

i think i'm gonna go from least to most for this- (spoilers, Jon has the most ones because I care him)

Cryptid Hunt- Demo By Averno, Sushi Soucy-

this one makes me think of the WTGFs,,,,,

You're at the Party (Bonus Track) By Lemon Demon-

makes me think about Micheal Shelley,,,,,,,

Saint Bernard By Lincoln-

Alice "daisy" Toner moment-

Mary By The Happy Fits-

mary keay,,,,,,

there used to be a gerry one too, but the more I heard it in the context of the playlist and him, It just didn't fit,,,,,

Ew it's Elias/jonah time-

The Fine Print By The Stupendium-

capitalism- jk- kinda- Idk, just feels like it fits because he really just kinda,,, doesn't care about his employees-

How Bad Can I Be? from the lorax-

I had to-

Boss 3 from the terraria soundtrack-

Listen- I don't know why- but- it has elias/jonah vibes- the vibes are fowl, but the song is good.

Ruler of Everything By Tally Hill-

Panopticon/eyepocolypes time-

Ayooo it's jon time- I really hope I can write out my thoughts in a way that makes any kind of sense- /foreshadowing

A Sadness Runs Through Him By The Hoosiers-

Goddddd,,,,, he's just kinda filled with sadness and survivors guilt, just like, all the time huh?

Home By Cavetown-

the lyrics are just- very him- like- I just gjbdjgsflkjns-

Broken Crown By Mumford & Sons-

frick- the foreshadowing was accurate- the best I can describe it is that the lyrics just???? y'know??? hhh why am I like this sometimes-

Sweet HIbiscus Tea By Penelope Scott-

i'm willing to bet that he never wanted to be the main character-

Honey I'm Home By Ghost and Pals-

I saw a Jon centric animatic to this one time- I can't for the life of me remember who by, But everytime I hear the moth lines, my brain goes ":0" Because I remember there was a time when people kept drawing moth jon- I don't know where that came from but I thought it was very cool.

Who Are You, Really? By Mikky Ekko-

I'm like- actually starting to get frustrated with how poorly im articulating my thoughts right now- this just isn't funny anymore-

Sleep By My Chemical Romance-

I'm not actually sure why for this one- I just remeber putting on my black parade CD, hearing this, and being like, "damn, that do kinda be jon tho-"

I hope you enjoyed my ramblings- tbh, all this sounded and read out better in my head. My words might not make sense, but I do like how the playlist is. also im very tired, maybe this would've been written better if I wasn't struggling to keep my eyes open lol. I'm gonna fall asleep now- or maybe i'll post a spiral themed doodle dump again, who knows. I don't know.

[guicas04]

10 Interesting Brazilian Fiction Novels

1.) “I Didn’t Talk” By: Beatriz Bracher

A professor prepares to retire—Gustavo is set to move from Sao Paulo to the countryside, but it isn’t the urban violence he’s fleeing: what he fears most is the violence of his memory. But as he sorts out his papers, the ghosts arrive in full force. He was arrested in 1970 with his brother-in-law Armando: both were vicariously tortured. He was eventually released; Armando was killed. No one is certain that he didn’t turn traitor: I didn’t talk, he tells himself, yet guilt is his lifelong harvest. I Didn’t Talk pits everyone against the protagonist—especially his own brother. The torture never ends, despite his bones having healed and his teeth having been replaced. And to make matters worse, certain details from his shattered memory don’t quite add up... Beatriz Bracher depicts a life where the temperature is lower, there is no music, and much is out of view. I Didn't Talk's pariah’s-eye-view of the forgotten “small” victims powerfully bears witness to their “internal exile.” I didn’t talk, Gustavo tells himself; and as Bracher honors his endless pain, what burns this tour de force so indelibly in the reader’s mind is her intensely controlled voice. 

2.) “The Brothers” By: Milton Hatoum

Set among a Lebanese immigrant community in the Brazilian port of Manaus, The Brothers is the story of identical twins, Yaqub and Omar, whose mutual jealousy is offset only by their love for their mother. But it is Omar who is the object of Zana's Jocasta-like passion, while her husband, Halim, feels her slipping away from him, as their beautiful daughter, RGnia, makes a tragic claim on her brothers' affection.

3.) “Crow Blue” By: Adriana Lisboa

I was thirteen. Being thirteen is like being in the middle of nowhere. Which was accentuated by the fact that I was in the middle of nowhere. In a house that wasn't mine. in a city that wasn't mine, in a country that wasn't mine, with a one-man family that, in spite of the intersections and intentions (all very good), wasn't mine.When her mother dies, thirteen-year-old Vanja is left with no family and no sense of who she is, where she belongs, and what she should do. Determined to find her biological father to fill the void that has so suddenly appeared in her life, Vanja decides to leave Rio de Janeiro to live in Colorado with her stepfather, a former guerrilla notorious for his violent past. From there she goes in search of her biological father, tracing her mother's footsteps and gradually discovering the truth about herself. Rendered in lyrical and passionate prose, Crow Blue is a literary road trip through Brazil and America, and through dark decades of family and political history.

4.) “Child of The Dark” By: The Diary of Carolina Maria de Jesus

A first-hand account of life in the streets of Sao Paulo from 1955 to 1960, details the plight of an artist, writer and single mother of three children who, while living in a hovel, supported her family by digging through the garbage for paper and scraps to sell.

5.) “The Sad End of Policarpo Quaresma” By: Lima Barreto

Policarpo Quaresma - fastidious civil servant, dedicated patriot, self-styled visionary - is a defender of all things Brazilian, full of schemes to improve his beloved homeland. Yet somehow each of his ventures, whether it is petitioning for Brazil's national language to be changed, buying a farm to prove the richness and fertility of the land, or offering support to government forces as they suppress a military revolt - results in ridicule and disaster. Quixotic and hapless, Quaresma's dreams will eventually be his undoing.

6.) “Adultery” By: Paulo Coelho

A woman in her thirties begins to question her seemingly perfect life: she is married to a rich and loving husband, has well-behaved children and a successful newspaper career. Her apathy changes when she interviews a former boyfriend, now a successful politician.

7.) “The Posthumous Memoirs of Bras Cubas” By: Joaquim Maria Machado de Assis

The Posthumous Memoirs of Brás Cubas builds on a macabre conceit—Brás Cubas, already dead, is recounting his adventures from beyond the grave. This vantage point allows Brás Cubas to talk about his life with the kind of blithe irony and callousness only accessible to those who have nothing to lose or gain.Jun 17, 2020

8.) “Lord” By: João Gilberto Noll

As Lord begins, a Brazilian author is arriving at London's Heathrow airport for reasons he doesn't fully understand. Only aware that he has been invited to take part in a mysterious mission, the Brazilian starts to churn with anxiety. Torn between returning home and continuing boldly forward, he becomes absorbed by fears: What if the Englishman who invited him here proves malign? Maybe he won't show up? Or maybe he'll leave the Brazilian lost and adrift in London, with no money or place to stay? Ever more confused and enmeshed in a reality of his own making, the Brazilian wanders more and more through London's immigrant Hackney neighborhood, losing his memory, adopting strange behaviors, experiencing surreal sexual encounters, and developing a powerful fear of ever seeing himself reflected in a mirror.

9.) “Perfect Days’ By: Ralphael Montes

Teo Avelar is a loner. He lives with his paraplegic mother and her dog in Rio de Janeiro, he doesn't have many friends, and the only time he feels honest human emotion is in the presence of his medical school cadaver--that is, until he meets Clarice. She's almost his exact opposite: exotic, spontaneous, unafraid to speak her mind. She's working on a screenplay called Perfect Days about three friends who go on a road trip across Brazil in search of romance. Teo begins to stalk her, first following to her university, then to her home, and when she ultimately rejects him, Teo kidnaps her, and they embark upon their very own twisted odyssey across Brazil, tracing the same route outlined in her screenplay. Through it all, Teo is certain that time is all he needs to prove to Clarice that they are made for each other, that time is all he needs to make her fall in love with him. But as the journey progresses, he keeps digging himself deeper, stopping at nothing to ensure that no one gets in the way of their life together.

10.) “A Cup of Rage” By: Raduan Nassar

A pair of lovers—a young female journalist and an older man who owns an isolated farm in Brazil—spend the night together. The next day they proceed to destroy each other. Amid vitriolic insults and scorching cruelty, their sexual adventure turns into a savage power game between two warring egos. This intense, erotic masterpiece—written by one of Brazil’s most highly regarded modernists—explores alienation, arrogance, machismo meltdown, the desire to dominate, and the wish to be dominated.

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MUSIC

fave genre? I’m a folk, alt rock, indie rock and classic rock gal. There’s a few modern/pop folks I’m hugely fond of as well. I’m not anti-any type of music tbh.

fave artist? Fleet Foxes, Of Monsters and Men, Lord Huron, Florence + the Machine, Hozier, Lorde, Simon & Garfunkel, Bob Dylan, Hozier, Janelle Monáe, Creedence Clearwater Revival, Billie Eilish, Old Crow Medicine Show, Lil Nas X, Phoebe Bridgers, Mitski, David Bowie

fave song? Oh man of all time? Fugg. I am very partial to “Shake It Off” by F+TM but this answer could change daily lol.

most listened song recently? Long Lost - Lord Huron

5 fave lyrics? I am not sure if this means “songs with the best lyrics” or “favorite lines” …. I’m gonna go with the latter

“And it echoes when I breathe/Until all you'll see is my ghost/Empty vessel, crooked teeth/Wish you could see” I of the Storm, OMAM

“Words hung above, but never would form/Like a cry at the final breath that is drawn/Remember me, love, when I'm reborn/As a shrike to your sharp and glorious thorn” - Shrike, Hozier

“Oh, you fool, there are rules I am coming for you/Darkness brings evil things, oh, the reckoning begins/I tried to warn you when you were a child/I told you not to get lost in the wild” - The Yawning Grave, Lord Huron

“The fabric of your flesh, pure as a wedding dress/Until I wrap myself inside your arms, I cannot rest/The saints can't help me now, the ropes have been unbound/I hunt for you with bloodied feet across the hallowed ground” - Howl, F+TM

“Though I liked summer light on you/If we ride a winter-long wind/Well time's not what I belong to/And you're not the season you're in” - I’m Not My Season, Fleet Foxes

radio or your own playlist | solo artists or bands | pop or indie | loud or silent volume I slow or fast songs | music video or lyrics video | speakers or headset | riding a bus in silence or while listening to music | driving in silence or with radio on

BOOKS

fav book genre? Sci-fi, fantasy, horror

fav writer? VE Schwab, Neil Gaiman, Ursula K Le Guin, Haruki Murakami, Patrick Rothfuss, Samantha Shannon, JRR Tolkien

fav book? “American Gods” by Neil Gaiman. I have a lot of favorites but that one wins every time.

fav book series? I really love The Lord of the Rings. It’s a classic but it’s so special to me.

comfort book? “Little Fires Everywhere” by Celeste Ng. It’s set very close to where I grew up!

perfect book to read on a rainy day? “The Slow Regard of Silent Things” by Patrick Rothfuss

fave characters? Sandor Clegane, Addie LaRue, Lila Bard, Gimli, Remus Lupin, Sirius Black, Thorin Oakenshield

5 quotes from your fave book that you know by heart?

“Every hour wounds. The last one kills.”

“There’s none so blind as those who will not listen.”

“Gods die. And when they truly die they are unmourned and unremembered. Ideas are more difficult to kill than people, but they can be killed, in the end.”

“I believe that life is a game, that life is a cruel joke, and that life is what happens when you're alive and that you might as well lie back and enjoy it.”

“‘Hey,’ said Shadow. ‘Huginn or Muninn, or whoever you are.’

The bird turned, head tipped, suspiciously, on one side, and it stared at him with bright eyes.

‘Say 'Nevermore,'’ said Shadow.

‘Fuck you,’ said the raven.”

hardcover or paperback | buy or rent | standalone novels or book series | ebook or physical copy | reading at night or during the day | reading at home or in nature | listening to music while reading or reading in silence | reading in order or reading the ending first | reliable or unreliable narrator | realism or fantasy | one or multiple POVS | judging by the covers or by the summary | rereading or reading just once

TV AND MOVIES

fave tv/movie genre? Similar to books, I love sci-fi, fantasy and horror - I also love documentaries.

fave movie? Spirited Away. Hands down.

comfort movie? Pirates of the Caribbean: The Curse of the Black Pearl. First hyperfixation 🥴

movie you watch every year? I traditionally watch “A Christmas Story” at least five times every holiday season lol. Fuck yeah Cleveland!

fave tv show? Black Sails

comfort tv show? Mystery Science Theater 3000

most rewatched tv show? Oh geeze. Either MST3K, Cowboy Bebop, Game of Thrones, Parks & Rec, Frasier, King of the Hill or X-Files

5 fave characters? Fox Mulder, Crow T. Robot, Captain James Flint, Dale Gribble and Catra

tv shows or movie | short seasons (8-13 episodes) or full seasons (22 episodes or more) | one episode a week or binging | one season or multiple seasons | one part or saga | half hour or one hour long episodes | subtitles on or off | rewatching or watching just once | downloads or watches online

[explorerspack]

cerise dubois, divine soul sorcerer ~ track list & lyrics under cut

1. “Rose”, the Oh Hellos

but love will get you slaughtered like a lamb at the altar, what is safe ain’t the same as what is good

2. “Turn the Lights Off”, Tally Hall

everybody likes to get taken for turns, to see how bright the fire inside of us burns, and everybody likes to get evil tonight, but all good devils masquereade under the light

3. “Sicilian Crest”, the Mountain Goats

drench a kitchen rag in heretic’s blood, wash your windows and prepare for the flood

4. “Daniel in the Den”, Bastille

and felled in the night by the ones you think you love, they will come for you

5. “Poor Isaac”, Airborne Toxic Event

and if you want to see the irony, and the savage price of piety, there’s a lot of us who are going to be burning

6. “Heretic Pride”, The Mountain Goats

rocks on the pathway break my skin, and there’s honeysuckle on the faint breeze today with every breath i’m drawing in

7. “I Will”, Mitski

and while you sleep, i’ll be scared, so by the time you wake, i’ll be brave

8. “Hebrews 11:40″, the Mountain Goats

take to the hills, run away, i’m gonna get my perfect body back someday, if not by faith, then by the sword, i’m going to be restored

9. “Cry for Judas”, the Mountain Goats

mistreat your altar boys long enough, and this is what you get

10. “Dear Wormwood”, the Oh Hellos

i know who i am now, and all that you made of me, i know who you are now, i name you my enemy

11. “Starchild”, Ghost Quartet

i will become the next big thing, i will light myself on fire

12. “Show Yourself”, Frozen 2

you are the one you’ve been waiting for, all of your life

13. “Lost in the Wilderness”, Children of Eden

you follow all the rules, you swallow all the stories, and every night you wish on a star, dreaming a day will come, trusting in allegories, and every morning, boy, look where you are

14. “Golden”, Fall Out Boy

and I knew that the lights of the city were too heavy for me, and though I carry karats for everyone to see, i saw God cry in the reflection of my enemies

15. “Fetch the Bolt Cutters”, Fiona Apple

i grew up in those shoes they told me i could fill, shoes that were not made for running up that hill

16. “The Wolf”, PHILDEL

and you once said “I wish you dead, you sinner”, I’ll never be more than a wolf at your door

17. “Yellow Flicker Beat”, Lorde

and the scars that mark my body, they’re silver and gold, my blood is a flood of rubies, precious stones, it keeps my veins hot, the fire’s found a home in me

18. “Sugar We’re Going Down”, Fall Out Boy

a loaded God-complex, cock it and pull it

19. “Famous Last Words”, My Chemical Romance

i am not afraid to keep on living, i am not afraid to walk this world alone

20. “This Is Our Life”, Des Roces

you kick me in the teeth, i’ll get right back up, but you keep this shit up, kid, ‘cause i’ve seen what’s worse

21. “Blind Leading The Blind”, Mumford & Sons

so put your hands in mine tonight, i will be here, and when you’re crying out tonight, i will be here

22. “Theseus”, the Oh Hellos

ain’t nothing comes easy, no nothing comes quick, it’s gonna hurt like hell to become well

23. “Thus Always To Tyrants”, the Oh Hellos

every tomb, every sea, spit the bones from your teeth, let the ransomed be free as the revel meets the day

24. “Graves”, Whiskey Shivers

somebody help me dig these graves, i can’t do it on my own

25. “A Complete List Of Fears Ages 5-28 (Aprox)”, The Yellow Dress

here’s a picture of the house i’d like to build for us someday, this may seem unrealistic, i’m not very good with my hands

26. “Up the Wolves”, the Mountain Goats

i’m gonna get myself in fighting trim, scope out every angle of unfair advantage, i’m gonna bribe the officials, i’m gonna kill all the judges

27. “Fireworks”, Mitski

and when i find a knife’s sticking out of my side, i’ll pull it out without questioning why

28. “Today Will Be Better, I Swear!”, Stars

you never knew just how to put out the fire, and the closet’s been shaken with bones, little reminders that you’re out on your own

29. “Four”, Sleeping At Last

in certain light i can plainly see, a reflection of magnificence, hidden in you, maybe even in me

30. “A Better Place”, clipping.

flesh is weaker than the metal, it is true, but the metal’s being moved into a thing it doesn’t do, circuitry is only serviceable as much as it is you, so why don’t you use it ‘til you use it up, abuse it, it is strong, it can take it if you can’t, your sinews are more intuitively designed for dance, set up a random course safely away from suns four-hundred and twenty-three, by a hundred and twelve by fifty-one–there must be a better place to be somebody, be somebody else

[lolsureha]

8 Graves songs written #/10 1 being not great to 10 being the best. Also my favorite lyric from the song.

(8 Graves is known for dark alternative music, with dark themes so I wrote the tws of the songs by the song name)

Fade To Black 6/10 -I've got restless legs and a wild heart at my best when I fall apart.

Go 4/10 -When I'm in my head I think I may drown I'm tired of being helpless.

Lie 3/10 -I've been killing you slow and I try to save you.

Low 7/10 -I would gladly take on all your pain till every drop of blood spilled from my veins.

The End 8/10 -The rain is not your friend.

Wolves 7/10 -If I gotta stay in hell I want the throne.

Two Wrongs 7/10 -Face of heaven, heart of gold and I promised you "You're not alone".

You Love Me 3/10 -It'll pain you to remember but I won't soon forget.

Home 10/10 -I hate my brain cause it's making every joy and pain feel much realer than the things I felt before.

I Won't Get In. 2/10 -(tw death) I would kill to see you smile.

Bury Me Low 10/10 -(tw suicide ideation) Is everything crazy, or just in my brain.

Hang 1/10 -(tw suicide ideation) Even if they walk me to the gallows at least I know I'll never walk alone.

OK 9/10 -No one's rewinding the time here I'm left alone trying nothing seems to make me feel OK.

Numb 1/10 -(tw self-harm) I've been wide awake, I've been blacking out.

Burning Alive 2/10 -(tw suicide ideation) Is it real or fantasy outrun the monsters after me.

Cold World 5/10 -(tw death mention) Watch the beauty drown cold-blooded in the wave then smile while you apologize.

Bones 5/10 -(tw death mention and self-harm mention) I don't sleep even though I'm always tired.

RIP 10/10 -(tw suicide ideation, death mention) I can barely tell what's real, how am I supposed to feel?

Beast 4/10 -Can't kill the creature that you made.

Begging To Bleed 3/10-(tw self-harm) Do we blame the venom or the fang?

Better Off Dead 1/10 -(tw suicide ideation, self-harm)

Eye For An Eye 8/10 -Sipping on some poison just because I like the taste.

Evil 1000000/10 -The poison you know let it spill and I swear that I'll go. ((I am getting that as a tattoo))

Teeth 6/10 -I can be fair or a monster tell me now which one do you need.

Guillotine 2/10 -(tw suicide ideation) You think you're something special you just let out the devil.

See You Again 6/10 -Say to myself they'll be no beginning or end 'til I see you again.

Silly Of Me 2/10 -No more repeating those mistakes that I know got me here.

Smile 9/10 -Drink the poison nice and slow till I feel it take control.

SOS 10/10 -Smile and try to play the role struggle with my self-control.

The Underground 10/10 -I'm sick of it, we're infinite.

Wasted 6/10 -I question what I'm here for and try to find the light I'm floating like a feather and sinking like a stone.

[catilinas]

a squalloscope song for every episode of the terror (2018)

(inspired by @dedraconesilet's post which was in turn inspired by this post!) 

or: @endofvanity and i spent way too long making ourselves sad in order to make what is Definitely Not just an attempt to get more people to listen to squalloscope, ideally while thinking about the terror

1. go for broke - nocturnal “is it too much to ask to stop all the clocks / for the wicker basket or the pine box? / any room of the house can be your cenotaph. / i'll send you departure through a polygraph”

2. gore - big houses “we follow our own steps while our shadows keep watching us. / the wrong steps would be not to start this exodus”

3. the ladder - A.A.A. “i’d like to multiply horizons from battlefields to the stage. / who will we be the next time we meet? / with our cracked cuticles and our sharp teeth? / all things hidden in the mouth of the wolverine”

4. punished, as a boy - rifle scissor stone “hate to say i told you so said the scissor to the stone / when you’re finished with me i’ll be sharper than i’ve ever been before”

5. first shot a winner, lads - relaxation contest “this love is a jar of medicine / sometimes it ain't good for anything. / got friends my age who live in graves / got brains that often misbehave / got milk in all my fever dreams / and i’m bursting, bursting at the seams”

6. a mercy - open water reckless fishes “and i watch you as you want your god to watch over you / but you’d like to choose what he’s allowed to see / you remove your sign of religion / he may see you drink but he shouldn’t see me”

7. horrible from supper - hate cake “i can give you a problem if you need one / and a solution, it's easy. / you need to sacrifice something, baby. come on, eat your hate cake, / gobble up the whole plate, happy birthday”

8. terror camp clear - mistakeism “I got here wearing a coat made from other people's fingers / I'll exit wearing nothing but my own soft shell”

9. the c, the c, the open c - all caps “i never saw so many stars at night when i still lived on earth / nobody down there tells you being lost out here's got its perks / sat by the side of the road to take a breath / told you sometimes i dream that your ribcage caves in on your heart”

10. we are gone - desert pacific octopi “and my lips are sewn shut and my hips are boulders / for ships that won’t come to crash on my bones / i run to where the stray dogs won’t find me / where the broadcast breaks off / where the darkness and the ocean align”

(And Then Some Notes:)

go for broke was almost dust: “bring me a soft invasion / i’ll provide the sea and the ships [...] bring me my packed suitcase and all our favorite words / bring me my library, our books of fishes and birds”

wrt lyrics choice for gore: “the cairn scene...when goodsir calls out to him...that’s EXACTLY this line”

“FOUR IS THE MOST DIFFICULT CAUSE ITS THE MOST SACRIFICIAL”

when you listen to relaxation contest you are legally required to think abt blanky and crozier

“episode 7 is full of HERE HAVE SOME MEN WHO DIED AS A SACRIFICE (farlhorne, morfin...)”

the lyric from mistakeism is fun bcs it’s simultaneously fitzjames and hickey...... dare i say mimetic! at this point we decided that if jfj was a squalloscope song he would be knot two

mistakeism also contains the lyric “i’m thinking next year in the presidential election / maybe i can vote for the mighty rat king”

the c, the c, the open c was almost crying swimmers: “and I hold on, i curl up where i belong / i belong wherever you are, i'm hungry, i'm wrong / we sleep with interwoven limbs, limbs and knots in hankerchiefs / i’m sorry i cannot leave”

ultimately though it was all caps bcs of the line “come on, abyss, take this wedding ring”

when you listen to desert pacific octopi you are legally required to be sad about crozier and james clark ross