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But he’s stressing you out so much! I was continuing to talk to someone who wasn’t good for me for a long time. They did something that basically changed our whole dynamic forever. She said sorry and wasn’t a bad version but what’s done couldn’t be undone. I lied to myself for years before I could move on from them. Some people just aren’t good for us. You can’t hope people into doing the right thing. I just hope you’re making decisions to put yourself and your mental health first. I worry about you.
see that’s the thing though i don’t want to believe that the person i thought i knew was a lie because until very recently i have had zero reason to think badly about them at all and it was literally one thing that just kind of made me question everything. and like we’ve always been great at communicating and being open or at least i thought we were but literally this one thing flipped everything on its head and i just can’t get a straight answer out of anyone and it’s frustrating because like im an understanding person. like i just want honesty and proof that im not as crazy as everyone is gaslighting me into believing i am. and everyone keeps saying they care about me but they do fuck all to prove it. that’s literally all i want is some sort of solid proof from everyone i am having issues with because they’re literally overlapping at this point to just be honest with me. i don’t care about the outcome anymore I’ve said all i can say and it’s literally up to them to talk to me now and put forth the effort that they were lacking and prove to me me that its all in my head and ive told them that. they know what they have to do and i have told them time and time again i want to work through this because i do believe we had a good relationship and i do believe them on a lot of things because they’ve given me zero reason not to other than this one thing it’s literally a matter of don’t do the thing because it makes you look bad and untrustworthy that’s literally what this all comes down to like it really is so simple i just don’t understand.
i really appreciate your concern like legit no one in my daily life who knows what’s going on in any of my situations has even asked if im okay or how im doing so every time one of yall on here say such sweet things to me like this i legitimately cry of happiness so just thank you for actually making me feel like i matter you really do mean the absolute fucking world to me
#so i got a response in between typing this#I FINALLY got him to understand#like people think im being vindictive and childish#im literally just trying to hold people accountable for their actions#and hopefully make them understand they can’t just fuck with people for their own selfish reasons#that’s literally it#like yes im hurt#and yes im angry#but like this is about more than just me at this point
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tango doodles
first you make up a guy and then you struggle to draw him correctly
#i need to stop drawing all the faces in 3/4 this is just silly.#gahh#anyways yes! im still on my quest to make tango look at least a little older#because every time i hear his voice the image in my head doesn't fit the sound at all.#dude has a raspy voice that doesn't exactly fit a little guy. if i could id draw him with more realistic proportions but i cant.#because um. reasons.#i can't just give up on my creachur cmon now...#ive noticed recently i tweaked a lot of my designs to be less cartoony. not sure if i like that actually. hm.#man i keep saying stuff like 'oh i gotta make weirder designs' but then i do the exact opposite??? huh?#i should stop trying to be normal. it's really hurting my image#GOD anyways. tags under the post yes.#tangotek#my art#sketch
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becoming a furry nonhuman otherkin objectum genderweird relationship anarchy freak has made me immune to weird conservative whatifs. "what if people want to identify as animals" let them "what if people want to marry furniture" let them "what if-" is it hurting YOU? personally? or are you just so joyless that you can't conceive a living thinking person that isn't as repressed and deprived of whimsy as you
EDIT: Incest and pedophilia (including simulated pedophilia) don’t count because they do hurt people. I can’t believe I have to say this but things that hurt people aren’t part of the list of things that are weird but don’t hurt people.
#doc talks#proshippers don’t interact!!!!!!!! you’re gross#I always tell myself im above pro/anti shit and then YOU come in all like ‘yes! incest doesn’t hurt anyone!’ fucking what#top ten sentences said by a person that thinks real life incest is glamorous like the incest on tv
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” Am I not right to weep? O my children, cursed children of a hateful mother - ”
#medea#my art#cw blood#cw mild nudity#euripides medea#greek tragedy#greek theatre#this play is Female Rage by excellence#hmm yes the blood of her sons on her face hands breasts and belly the parts of her body that her children knew the most yes indeed#im really proud of this#:)#lots of symbolism here#the red shawl is her hate while the black one is a mourning blanket#it's dwarfed by her heartbreak which enveloped her whole and bears no blood bc it's already red#her eyes are golden like Circe's who's her kinswoman#the handle of the dagger is Jason who isn't explicitly wounded by her but drove her hand (the blame of the murders actually befalling him)#<that's why it's not bloodied unlike the blade which was used to hurt#her tear washed down the blood on her cheek representing her being absorbed of her crime by both the gods and her grief#on the mural behind her is Medea enchanting the dragon while Jason steals the Golden Fleece#and above (right) is Hera and Iris and (left) Helios in his chariot#with female chorus masks lamenting Medea's crime like the chorus in the play#the pose and expression are inspired by the poster for Médée by Mucha for the Théâtre de la Renaissance starring Sarah Bernhardt#overall proud of this#i think women deserve to go a little mad and violent when they're angry. as a treat#anyway thanks Euripides for the 500bc feminism
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they want to talk about mental illness and acceptance and how everyone is a little ocd it's cute and quirky and their "intrusive thoughts" are about cutting their hair off and you say yours are about taking a razorblade to your eye and they say ew can you not and everyone is a little adhd sometimes! except if you're late it's a personality flaw and it's because you are careless and cruel (and someone else with adhd mentions they can be on time, so why can't you?) and it's not an eating disorder if it's girl dinner! it's not mania if it's girl math! what do you mean you blew all of your savings on nonrefundable plane tickets for a plane you didn't even end up taking. what do you mean that you are afraid of eating. get over it. they roll their little lips up into a sneer. can you not, like, trauma dump?
they love it on them they like to wear pieces of your suffering like jewels so that it hangs off their tongue in rapiers. they are allowed to arm-chair diagnose and cherrypick their poisons but you can't ever miss too many showers because that's, like, "fuckken gross?" so anyone mean is a narcissist. so anyone with visual tics is clearly faking it and is so cringe. but they get to scream and hit customer service employees because well, i got overwhelmed.
you keep seeing these posts about how people pleasers are "inherently manipulative" and how it's totally unfair behavior. but you are a people pleaser, you have an ingrained fawn response. in the comments, you have typed and deleted the words just because it is technically true does not make it an empathetic or kind reading of the reaction about one million times. it is technically accurate, after all. you think of catholic guilt, how sometimes you feel bad when doing a good deed because the sense of pride you get from acting kind - that pride is a sin. the word "manipulation" is not without bias or stigma attached to it. many people with the fawn response are direct victims of someone who was malignantly manipulative. calling the victims manipulative too is an unfair and unkind reading of the situation. it would be better and more empathetic to say it is safety-seeking or connection-seeking behavior. yes, it can be toxic. no, in general it is not intended to be toxic. there is no reason to make mentally ill people feel worse for what we undergo.
you type why is everyone so quick to turn on someone showing clear signs of trauma but you already know the fucking answer, so what's the point of bothering. you kind of hate those this is what anxiety looks like! infographics because at this point you're so good at white-knuckling through a severe panic attack that people just think you're stoic. even people who know the situation sometimes comment you just don't seem depressed. and you're not a 9 year old white kid so there's no way you're on the spectrum, you're not obsessed with trains and you were never a good mathematician. okay then.
mental illness is trending. in 2012 tumblr said don't romanticize our symptoms but to be fair tiktok didn't exist yet. there's these series of videos where someone pretends to be "the most boring person on earth" and is just being a normal fucking person, which makes your skin crawl, because that probably means you are boring. your friend reads aloud a profile from tinder - no depressed bitches i fucking hate that mental illness crap. your father says that medication never actually works.
you still haven't told your grandmother that you're in therapy. despite everything (and the fact it's helping): you just don't want her to see you differently.
#writeblr#warm up#to be clear let me state again: i think you should id however you fucking want if it helps you seek peace#but there is a HUGE difference between being like '.... im undiagnosed but i think i might be X'#and a person who is like ''omg my intrusive thoughts made me buy a birkin!!!''#babe mine made me throw up bc they disgusted me so much <3#mine made me hurt myself evenly. even when i wanted to stop. i have had to put my hand on the stove MULTIPLE TIMES#and again i'd rather have 10000 people get help for something they don't need help for#than have 1 kid NOT get help#but there has GOTTTTT to be a middle ground here#bc at this point it isn't ''raising awareness''#it's . fucking misinformation. and ''what this picture says about you!!!!!''#& yes! im mostly talkin about ppl who are actually disgusted and offended by signs of mental illness#but use it to defend THEIR actions#like babe you hate when kids start yelling in the walmart? but you YOuRSELF can yell?#you are depressed so it's fine you were cruel to your spouse?#but if your spouse spends too much time in bed she's a lazy fuck?#your partner needs to do everything for you bc of your history in trauma? but when SHE has needs she's being clingy and gross?#HUGE difference here between whom i think most of my followers are btw. like#all it takes is fucking anyyyy empathy or kindness . like.#anyway it's hard to explain im hoping we all know the person im talking about lol
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I'm alive, but I'm dead Hear my voice up in your head Watch it fill you full of dread 'til you go (ah, pow)
-Villain by KDA
#ninjago#digital art#lego ninjago#digital drawing#ninjago lloyd#ninjago fanart#ninjago harumi#ninjago lloyd montgomery garmadon#ninjago lloyd fanart#ninjago lloyd garmadon#lloyd garmadon#harumi jade#ninjago harumi jade#ninjago the quiet one#the quiet one#the quiet one fanart#ninjago princess harumi#princess harumi jade#lego ninjago fanart#llorumi#ninjago llorumi#yknow the butterfly and spider thingy#my back hurts so much after this#but im surprised i came up with this concept yesterday and finished it#like i actually finished it#unlinke my ns90s au diner drawing i started in april and haven't touche it in weeks#artists on tumblr#art on tumblr#and yes i came up with it after listening to villain by kda#robin's art
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(spoiler warning for the morph s2 tas plotline in caption and tags)
pov: your shapeshfter bf gets an evil brainworm imlanted in their head by their abusive manipulative adoptive dad so you gotta find em, and you go all the way to south america to find em disguised as a bartender, but when you tell em to come back to you, they start a fight n fuck with your head by insulting you while shifted into your gf, and then run off still disguised as said gf
#dude this episode was so much to fuckin watch#spoiler warning#DUDE THEY DIDNT EVEN PROPERLY GET MORPH BACK TIL THE END OF THE 2ND SEASON AND EVEN THEN MORPH WAS UNCONCIOUS AT THAT POINT#also yes im calling mr sinister their abusive manipulative adoptive dad#CAUSE THATS WHAT HE FUCKIN ACTS LIKE#NO IM NOT JOKING IT WAS LITERALLY A BRAINWORM THAT MADE SYD EVIL#logan went through so much tryin to get morph back#OH AND MORPH USED HIS ANIMAL EMPATHY AGAINST HIM#ALSO DEADPOOL CAMEO IN THAT EPISODE BTW#okay im done now its 3am#x men#x men the animated series#kevin sydney#morph x men#xmen wolverine#logan howlett#morpherine#ALSO DUDE THIS POSING MADE MY BRAIN HURT IT TOOK D A Y S TO FIGURE OUT THE POSING WITHOUT IT LOOKING SUPER DUMB
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What if I made FOP ocs what then. Meet Wolf, the most well meaning Anti-Fairy you will ever meet and Flowers, its violently playful fairy counterpart who had to be banished from Fairyworld for repeatedly almost killing people :3
#fop#fairly oddparents#fop a new wish#fairly oddparents a new wish#fop oc#fop ocs#art#digital art#fanart#I saw a drawing of Anti-Wanda with tusks and Im in love with that idea so scary teeth be upon ye!#Irep made a comment about how anti-fairies aren't Usually allowed to have godkids which means there are times where they ARE allowed#(I know he was just talking about that one loophole but Im taking it and running with it)#I don have a child design but Wolf is one of the few anti-fairies who is allowed to be a godparent and run around outside anti-fairyworld#Flowers likes playing dangerous games and doesnt feel bad when people get hurt#He gets bored extremely easily and hates following rules#His coat is meant to look like an explosion and the patern on its pants are meant to look like a dust cloud#Its also very uncareful about showing off its bug features in front of kids
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y'all ever think abt how it was julie having the affair and it is even said multiple times that she was the one who left him, yet wilson was still the one who left their home and moved in with house. like. he couldn't bear to stay in their home alone. he immediately ran to house and stayed on his couch for weeks. suffered through his pranks and his laziness and his manipulation. telling him he wants him gone while sabotaging his attempts to leave. and he only left once he got a girlfriend again.
#chyanne speaks#house md#hilson#hate crimes md#gregory house#james wilson#i think his inability to be alone is such an interesting quality of his that isnt touched on enough#like yes we all haha at his long string of unsuccessful relationships but we dont talk abt it all stemming from his inability to be alone#his first wife leaves him and then he remarried quickly#he cheats on the second wife and remarries quickly#the third wife cheats on him and leaves him and he immediately moves in with house#and then starts dating a patient and immediately moves in with her#but!!! then he moves into the hotel and is alone for like almost a year! and honestly he NEEDED IT#bc GROWTH happened in that year and he meets someone who doesn't fit his M.O. who breaks away from the mold#although he does immediately move in with her too but still. amber was different. she was the step in the right direction#and then she dies.#and then wilson throws himself into the left field. everything needs to change. he's spent so long fearing being alone.#so he tries to leave so he is completely and totally alone without house to fall back on#but house needs him. he needs him too much. they need each other too much.#and he falls back to house again. and he's content that way. he's always the most content when he's with house. always feels the least alone#and then sam comes back into his life and ruins e v e r y t h i n g#he falls right back onto those old patterns. kicks house out and moves her in. and then what happens??? of course??? she leaves him. again.#and then he's alone again and it hurts. he gets a cat that we only hear about twice and then never gets brought up again#but wilson has his kitty. he has house. he's not alone. he can be content.#and then house fucks everything up. he goes to prison. wilson is alone again.#im honestly SHOCKED that wilson didnt remarry in that year they were apart but he was rly trying to change!#he was working on himself and trying to make changed he thought would be good for him#and then house comes back. and house won't LET wilson be alone. he wont leave him alone.#and it's exactly what wilson has been yearning for since the day he drove that car into cuddys house#and in the end. as long as he had house that was all that mattered. as long as he had house he wasn't alone.
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Mr. Sandman...
Hey Chat me again this time with Moon's Ref sheet for Chasing Stars! You can read a little bit more on the fic on Sun's reference sheet ~here~
Y/N's Sheet here!
(Click for more quality!!)
Wow what a silly guy! He's a little mischievous, but he doesn't mean anyone harm. His form of rebellion against the company that owns him is continuously vandalizing the posters around the plex. Though, he recently got a promotion. Management want's him to be a security bot! How cool! It comes with a bit update to his software, oddly enough.
A bit of an.. alternate version under the cut :)
(CW: Light Blood)
Oh.
(Y/N's sheet up next!)
#Yes I know the second version is a little lazy lol Im tired#BUT PLEASE APPRECIATE THE FIRST RENDER OH MY GOD#I worked on it for like 4 hours straight man my ass hurts#What a normal guy#No odd tendencies#“Where's the daycare assistant?”#Um? Who?#chasing stars#moon fnaf#fnaf moon#moondrop fnaf#daycare attendant x y/n#daycare attendant x reader#moon x reader#fnaf moon x reader#fnaf moon x y/n#fnaf sun x reader#dca x reader#dca x y/n#sun x reader#sun and moon x reader#kapri's collection
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some of the extremely supportive but slightly[?] unhinged things wyll can say to the dark urge as they fight the wyll [haha] to peel off his face.
#wyll x durge#my favorite not included is that he just says: 'shit'#when durge tries to bite him#wyll ravengard#he's so funny and so fucked up#it's just so like 'welp. this is bad bad. huh?'#yes wyllyam. tis.#kaeliana x wyll#bg3#whew#cracked up so much from his reactions#like on a level it says so much about him. but on the other im dying bc ffs wyll.#the last is what he says when durge GROWLS at him????#wyllyam. we need to speak.#baby#like i know -- you spent your seven years in the wild just fiends and monsters as your company. but --#the first makes me sad and givesme so many feelings about wyll. 17. having to rise up and meet the gazes of what meant to hurt his city.#gaze of the devil who entrapped him. the gaze of the father who scorned him
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so, would you?
nothing important under the cut, you don't need to look haha
#inspired by the random youtube short i saw about how these types of questions are not really about logic but about emotion and reassurance#doesn't matter if the question doesn't make sense. you say 'yes' because you love them no matter what. not because its a worm or a bug or#or anything. its a way of saying 'i will love you when you've changed and when you're different. because it's still *you*.'#idk something about it just felt so gentle and genuine. like a pure display of affection through a silly question...#and of course fnc was the first thing i thought about because i got brainworms#jrwi fish and chips#jrwi riptide#jrwi chip#gillion tidestrider#my art#sketch#also im back from a vacation! and i feel so awful i got sick the first day home and im sitting here at 6am drawing fishes and chips#the dialog feels a little ooc but i cant figure out if it really is or if its because my head hurts and i cant think#tbh it doesn't really matter.......... but it matters to me augh#ALSO yes the under the cut bit is about episode 109. i dont know if its clear or not
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i’ve always wondered what worst logan thinks of main logan. is he jealous at all of how revered he was? i mean what do you even think of the guy that’s considered the “best version” of you when you’re seen as the worst.
#no one could possibly be okay after hearing that they’re the worst in all of the multiverse#i mean that fc kn hurts#theres a part of me thats like god im so proud of my og baby main foxverse logan being so loved#literally the TVA watch LOGAN 2017 in tears#they respect that man so much#but but also my number one boy WORSTIE LOGAN#aka best logan (in my heart and wades)#i just im so attached to him specifically#because hes just so sad and lonely and god#he doesnt think he deserves love#but but he very much does because HES A GOOD MAN#despite everything he fought sooooo hard to prove to himself and everyone else that he could be the man that charles always thought he was#dude literally cares so much. he was willing to die just to help this guy he met about three days ago#idk im just saying stuff#anyway hes sweet and he loves hard#and hes made mistakes yes bad mistakes but hes trying his hardest to make up for those#logan howlett#james logan howlett#worst wolverine#james howlett#wolverine#deadpool and wolverine#deadpool & wolverine#deadpool 3#hugh jackman#poolverine
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at the end of the day it's a relationship that inspired me to create again, to making edits and icons and even writing
it's the relationship that helped me get through some really hard times in my life
its the relationship I met really amazing people through who I now have the joy of calling my friends
#tbd#im crying yes I know but ive been so depressed#my life has been shit the last two months and this was my escape#like I know eventually this wont hurt as much and its just this week#and that ive made friendships that outlast a fandom#but Im still going to be sad#not to mention its like????#people have been harassed and sent death threats and was accused of faking cancer and we went through it together#idk this is rambling im just very very sad#ill find something new again I know but its just a lot right now#anyways I might take a break if you want to share discords if we are friends message me#911 spoilers
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he says i hate everyone except you and that is addictive and that is kind of romantic and beautiful because you're young and you're kind of a sarcastic asshole too and you don't like bad boys, per say, but you don't really like good ones either. and you like that you were the exception, it felt like winning.
except life is not a romance book, and he was kind of being honest. he doesn't learn to be nice to your friends. he only tolerates your family. you have to beg him to come with you to birthday parties, he complains the whole time. you want to go on a date but - people are often there, wherever you're going. he's just so angry. about everything, is the thing. in the romance book, doesn't he eventually soften? can't you teach him, through your own sense of whimsy and comfort?
at first - you know introverts often need smaller friend groups, and honestly, you're fine staying at home too. you like the small, tidy life you occupy. you're not going to punish him for his personality type.
except: he really does hate everyone but you. which means he doesn't get along with his therapist. which means he has no one to talk to except for you. which means you take care of him constantly, since he otherwise has no one. which means you sometimes have to apologize for him. which means he keeps you home from seeing your friends because he hates them. you're the single exception.
about a decade from this experience, you'll type into google: how to know if a relationship is codependent.
he wraps an arm around you. i hate everyone except you. these days, you're learning what he's actually confessing is i have very little practice being kind.
#i used to think it was romantic too and then i was like. now i see it as a HUGE red flag#writeblr#it is also almost EXCLUSIVELY said by immature ppl who think this is normal#fyi even if u think it's funny and ur like 'im an introvert it's just TRUE' like. you need therapy (ily tho)#healed introversion is just ''i would prefer to be by myself'' not ''i hate every person'' ... hate is not normal. that is not healthy#im sorry. i know it feels accurate. but if you're walking around with that kind of rage....#1. you're making a LOT of assumptions about every single person u have ever met. which is often unfair and unkind#and also usually involves judging people based on their worst moments or little mistakes#2. you are being unfair to the person who is ur ''exception''#3. there is a VAST difference between ''ur my favorite person'' and ''the ONLY person i like.''#idk i think this is just a personal bias thing tbh#im sure there are people who have this experience normally#but i have YET to find a man who thinks like this and ISNT absolute DOGSHIT. although tbh.... like. im sure he exists#when u hit like 30 some of the things that were once kind of hot now just sound fucking exhausting. like ''im in a band''#edit in the tags: i used to kind of be like this too. but the thing is that like. my life became so much more peaceful#once i started believing that people are generally good. like yes i am mad at the world at large#but it's just.... a very hard way to live. you're not a bad person or wrong for the ways other people hurt you and taught you to be angry.#but that anger will continue to hurt YOU. it will punish YOU. it will prevent YOU from making new deep connections. it will protect you yes#but it will also cause MASSIVE blowback. bc if you lose the One Person... your life will fall apart. i know this personally.#i really recommend just trying to be... cautiously optimistic instead. like. yes#people can be horrible and cruel and there are some communities (incels for example) that aren't worth that optimism#but i think like... most people will hold a door for you . most people want to help you find your wallet .#i hope one day you are able to find peace. i hope that rage eventually smooths over. i know how hard it is PERSONALLY#and i know what must have happened to you. and im deeply deeply sorry we share the same wound.#but i promise - sometimes we all need someone else to help us carry the weight. eventually the rage has to die so that we can let help in#i had to spend years biting at outstretched hands. i still often do. im still very wary . and my heart breaks that you flinch too.#here's the thing: i don't blame you. but we were both acting out of fear and pain. .... not out of healthy behavior. and ... change#was needed. i needed change too. rage was useful for a while. then it just left me isolated and bitter. i had to (with effort)#choose to let that rage go. and let people in . VERY SLOWLY THO LOL
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Alone at the edge of a universe humming a tune
For merely dreaming we were snow
A siren sounds like the goddess who Promises endless apologies of paradise And only she can make it right So things are different tonight
- Sweet Dream In Sea Major
#i tried giving a dreamy aesthetic buuuuut i failed#i mean i guess i did#because sometimes it looks nice and than i look again and im like#this is baad#but i worked all day on this#my back and knees hurt#so pls enjoy#jaya#ninjago jaya#ninjago jay x nya#ninjago jay walker#ninjago nya smith#ninjago nya jiang#ninjago jay#ninjago nya#ninjago seawalker#digitalart#digital artist#digital drawing#digital painting#digital art#digital illustration#ninjago fanart#ninjago jaya fanart#jaya fanart#and yes this is inspired by a panel in bersek#i think its bersek#someone told me it was bersek#artists on tumblr
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