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liverpool-enjoyer · 11 months ago

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#im so angry at myself for not journaling more #i started a couple years ago n was consistent for a few months but now i only ever remember to do it a couple times a year #n today #i was having such a lovely day #n all of a sudden i remembered #ive probly forgotten so many percious memories bc ive been to lazy to write them down #n i cant stop thinking abt it!!!#like literally im trying to study #n all thats going through my mind is #'imagine all the lovely memories of your family youve forgotten because you were too much of a lazy fuck to write them down'#like i cant stress enough #no matter how hard i try to focus on something else THIS IS ALL I CAN THINK ABOUT #ITS ALWAYS IN MY HEAD #I JUS WANT IT TO STOP #n i left my journal at school so i cant write in it again till monday #im just. so sad.#so sad to think theres so many amazing precious memories ive completely forgotten about #that i have no written recollection of my first twenty one years of life #im so sad

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collophora · 8 months ago

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Do yourself a favor and go read the entire fanfic work of @fanfoolishness

(In order: Under sun and shade, Blind Side, and Breathless (patching up is one of my fav too, I just had no cool sketch idea for it)

#star wars #star wars the bad batch #the bad batch fanart #tbb fanart #tbb fanfiction #dumping my “fanfic_doodles.clip” file here literally #sorry the style is messy #now I see them all Im like “ok it's all over the place zero/100 aesthetically pleasuring post”#hhhh its the thought that counts?#And tbh the point is just to convince you to read theses #because I'm like OBSSEEESSED with theses since you appeared in my notes #Every fic is gold #Me baiting my followers with pretty enough pictures to read fanfics #this being said I should really take the time to color properly my stuff #but I don't liiiiiiiiike it #there is tons of more talented artists if people want colored beautiful amazing art #me I can't really make my “”“spontaneous”“” “”“doodles”“” pretty without trying hard and at the end it's meh #They're so flat too #yesterday I was like “oh my scenes are becoming less flat I improved maybe”#Then I scrolled on my storyboard insta and was like #yeah sure no #I'm still faaaaaar away from the industry standards #I studied like at three arts school and I'm still bad at drawing TAT #why is my brain not working v_v #look brain I'm showing you nice pictures learn from them #brain: no Im gonna overfixate on this left hand here and only this #anyway

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rueclfer · 2 months ago

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well looks like im never leaving california! if any of u guys need reproductive healthcare i will house all of you im not even playing

#this is just the tip of the iceberg too like there is a literal genocide happening right now and the fact that its not a dealbreaker for #ANYONE pisses me the fuck off #my best friend is palestinian and its very jarring to see news outlets not even bother to MENTION the genocide rn #'foreign affairs' like ok kys #HOW DID WE LET THIS HAPPEEENN #harris pisses me the fuck off bc she went around parading right winged policies to appeal to republicans #instead of actually building a strong foundation #-> but yeah sure lets waste our fucking time trying ro pay celebs to endorse u!#'kamala is brat! KYS KYS KYS I FUCKING HATE YOU LOT LIKE PLEASE GET SO REAL #i hope they all feel like some fucking clowns rn #i feel siccckkkkkkkk #also im sorry nonamerican followers for americanizing your feeds but #ive been radicalized since i was like 9 #AND i studied social/political documentary and film in university #so boy do i have a fucking lot to say abt the state of the world rn!!!!!!!

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idontmindifuforgetme · 1 year ago

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There will not be a single moment next week in which I’m not running around doing something

#full time studying / volunteering at the refugee center / volunteering at two clinics #literally ab to have a meeting ab shadowing a doctor who’s researching ftd dementia in like 50 minutes #organic chemistry research 5 days a week bc ur bitch is trying to get published #hitting the gym 6 days a week. I’ll probably have to move it to mornings soon #meal prep #trying to snag a lowkey part time job #trying to read 30 minutes before bed #somehow have 2 fit a social life into this #I’m excited bc I finally feel like my time budgeting abilities are being put to the test BUT holy fuck .#studying will be my no 1 priority always. literally catch me doing anki cards in any pocket of free time I have #but I better live up to the challenge of juggling everything else too #ik I got this. and these are all things im choosing to do. not things I have to do #and I love being busy so it’ll be so fun #just had to be in awe for a second bc I used to admire girls who’re like this. and I am officially about to be one of them #p

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lemongogo · 2 months ago

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oo u want 2 draw soo bad..

#i hate that my ability to draw is so conditional #its soo frustrating but i dont know how to break it. this has been the one thing thats never changed.ill never be free #times like rn i just do studies but its soo fking BORINGGG euuhh...#but if i try 2 draw something for funsies i just stare at the blank canvas. literally immobile. & u know how people r like just draw #something anyways. a line. something. and its like no i cant do that oi cant even do that u underestimate my freak #i want 2attack myself from the pov of someone else #i think im having the realization tht i will never be able to do art stuff frls and its driving me crazy i think.#like im actually sick and unwell frm the thought of it.my friend commissioned me and im ab 2 send the money back #after two weeks bc i cant do it im literally frozen dude.i want 2 cry and die and explode into a million pieces #wait im back to add more.idk if anyone feels the same way but its like. i know its entirely a Me issue its a mental block issue #theres something thats not connecting in my head but its like.why is it so easy for everyone else ykwim...and thats a lie too right #like everyone else struggles w art and its not.it cant exist Without you struggling and practicing hard and trusting yourself #but in my brain im just convinced that like.i cant do this i cant do this like everyone else can do it like second nature and it freaks me #tf out #but also its the one thing i want to do more than anything else in my life and so like if i cant do it i dont know what to do.ughh.#not me freaking the fuck out rn lawl.lols.even #and on top of it i feel like i cant express myself well and i think my friend. < SOOO awesome and well meaning and NICE and legitimately #pushing me to try and believe that i can do this stuff but i feel like they wont understand the sort of like.mental block im struggling wit #like its less that i hate my art or something i dont its more like.i just feel soo physically restrained and incapable of doing it.suddenly #i cant think and i cant do anything.i have no creativity i have no ideas my mind is quite literally blank and empty

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barbieaiden · 5 months ago

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second? deadliest pirate sibling duo on the continent?

#this is jsut a lazy little render i did in the middle of the night the lighting doesnt make any sense and its very lazily edited #but i wanted to post anyway #holland running away from home at literally like 17 and noelia's like 13 #then he comes visits at least once a year and every time she's like holland!!!!!! im so fit to be a pirate pls bring me with you!!!!#holland's obviously like youre 15 go study #eventually it turns into noelia like literally grabbing him by the shoulders shaking him like #HOLLAND OUR PARENTS ARE TRYING TO GET ME TO MARRY!!!!!!!!!! TAKE ME WITH YOU!!!!!!!!!#its not even that holland doesnt think shed be an asset but he does not want to be responsible for her getting hurt or killed #so hes just like sorry i cant do anything about that invite me to the wedding though. byyyyyyye #eventually he lets her onto his crew but only because of. certain circumstances lmao

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hakusins · 7 days ago

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(vent in the tags) me thinking i've finally escaped financial problems: :DDDDD

life:

#idk why the image pasted like that but anyways haha im once again in a fucking pit #last month i was able to accumulate enough savings from collectively work and also other stuff #so i have a bit of extra in case of emergencies and additional expenses like taxes and stuff #but then guess who decided to not tell me he can't send me money by the end of the month - the time when i have to pay rent?#:DDD my beloved father #so i end up using the savings to pay for it #and i dont blame him or im not mad at him at all #especially because sending me money is already enough of a privilege that not a lot of people have #but at the very least if you don't think you can send me money can't you just tell me?#that way i can work for it???#because now im literally sitting with no money with food running out quickly in the fridge #i can't pick up a shift because whether its out of town or in my city it doesn't matter #i have no way to transport myself there other than on foot or on my bike #and i cant even cycle there without eating otherwise i'd basically sentence myself to death #so im trying to get by without eating for a couple of days right now but its just #sigh #i keep telling my father that i don't blame him and im not mad at him if he can't send me money when i need him to #but please tell me because i literally cannot take a shift this month because i need to study for the exams #and if i fail these exams i literally have one more chance to do them or else i have to repeat a year #which is going to cost us more in the long run #and just #yeah #maybe the hunger is getting to my head #im not going to open emergency comms this time because technically speaking i do have a job i can do #its just i need to just wait for the money that was supposed to be in my bank account to be sent #so i can eat and also i can have money for transportation #haku vents #venting #yeah no im just not in a good spot right now #apologies to mutuals and friends if i can't be on often

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offorestsongs · 12 days ago

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sorry for not posting much these past few days, i am currently like a christmas dish that's been put in the freezer for later

#💌 personal #kind of literally #my house is like a century old and has the heating appropriate for that lmao #which means that im fucking COLD most of the time #and its kind of hard to be productive when your fingers are freezing off #i miss being in the dorm at least its warm there </3 #also ive been taking some time to just. recharge creatively #reading and working on some of my original projects n stuff #and also trying to study because my finals are in like. a month #but we'll be back to regularly scheduled content soon i prommy <3

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diamondsunbursts-and-marblehalls · 1 year ago

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There are so many similarities between Gale and Coriolanus.

There are a lot of things that you could draw connections with.

They're both really pretty young, around 18.

Both of them are the primary provider for their families.

Both have a pretty frightening outlook on human life, barring people they have previously formed a connection with i.e., all of snow's choices; made to protect himself, lucy grey, tigress and his grandmam, with no regard to any other lives, and gale's "how different can it be, really?" and the way he was fine with dropping bombs on kids, he's just sorry one of them was Prim.

they were both manipulated by older women in power who needed something they had, (ambition, charisma, ideas, strategy, sway) to get what they wanted.

Both loved a girl and lost her because she wasn't willing to bend her morals the way that they did, and she wasn't ready to forgive crimes they put little thought into justifying.

in the end, they're both willing to sacrifice even the people they care about to get the future they've been fighting towards.

It's interesting to think about how things would have been different had Gale been born in the capitol, or if Coriolanus had been born in 12. Would Gale have turned out the way President Snow did? Still, using his talents to fight, but this time setting traps for the rebels? Would Coriolanus have poisoned his way to freeing the districts?

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GUYS WAIT NO

i'm not bashing on Gale i swear. i live with a Gale stan, i would never.

Okay, really quickly, I actually really really love these comments, and I'm kind of thriving off how quickly people jumped in to defend Gale as someone who gave up so much to free the districts because I really do think he was just a kid and he wasn't a bad guy. I still think the similarities between them are really interesting. I just wanted to put in some of the things I was drawing from to make the connections on the first post.

In Mockingjay Gale and Beetee are making plans to target human compassion, (the passage is pretty long so I won't quote it) katniss finds out about them, her POV includes that they came up with the specific trap that killed Prim, that was their plan. Katniss questions it, "that seems to be crossing some kind of line," she says "so anything goes? I guess there is't a rule book for what might be acceptable to do to another human being." and Gale responds "Sure there is. Beetee and I have been following the same rulebook President Snow used when he hijacked Peeta,"

He quite literally compares his work to the work that Snow did and uses that as justification to hurt innocent people. He also rationalizes his strategies and actions in the war with the words "Sometimes killing isn't personal."

Gale paralleling Snow definitely doesn't mean Gale's a bad guy, or that he's the same as Snow, because Snow is arguably a sociopath, and Gale feels love and remorse, they have so many differences I just think the similarities are really interesting.

#not sure what this means #this being said im not a huge gale hater #im not trying to bash on him #i just like connections #there is definitely a character study to be done on the way war impacts LITERAL TEENS in these books #so many thoughts to be had honestly #gale hawthorne #coriolanus snow #president snow #the hunger games #hunger games #the ballad of songbirds and snakes #ballad of songbirds and snakes #tbosbas #catching fire #mockingjay

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riiviir · 2 months ago

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hey guys so I just started reading Flatland by Edwin A. Abbott and OMG AHSBNSBSBSNSNBSHZHSHDBFHGGHFHGRJ2KSHSBSNSK AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA I LOVE THINKING ABOUT THE RELATIVITY BETWEEN DIMENSIONS!!!!!!