#sorry for the personal post

[colorfulstage-en]

Hello everyone, today I was informed of an emergency within my family. I do not know how long this will last, but between work, school, and now this please be patient. More posts may be late and I may miss a few days for the halloween fanart reblog.

This blog will continue running and I apologize for any inconvenience. Thank you for your submissions for the halloween fanart so far, they are all very awesome! Thank you for the support for this blog as well.

*Please note I will not be answering any asks about my personal life or this emergency, even well wishing ones.

[itz-pandora]

Huh. If my life was a quote, it'd be "one of those sad ones with a deceptively happy tune"

[jcbbby]

alright so

my mom was diagnosed with cancer yesterday.

we don’t know anything more about it yet, what stage, treatment plan, etc. but we do know step number one is a hysterectomy, as the cancer was found in her uterus.

I just don’t know what to do with myself. I feel helpless to her, but she so much needs help right now. she only works part time while living in a two bedroom apartment with my two siblings and my grandmother, as well as occasionally my grandmother’s partner. she sleeps on a couch. not the greatest situation to fight cancer in. and my grandmother is…not the easiest person to be around in a confined space as it is.

this is just so unfair. after everything she has been through and had to deal with in the last 4 years… I’m just so angry. she doesn’t deserve this. she just doesn’t.

[ralvezfanatic]

going into my senior year next week and god I'm so scared ????? idk what to do for college, where to apply to, how to apply, what to study, what to major in.. like idk what to do at ALL and im fucking scared shitless

my grades were shit last year and my gpa is not good .. im horrible in every subject except English and the only thing that interests me is art .. which sucks bc ive always been told i won't get anywhere with that and that i should try something better ..

its so discouraging bc arts genuinely the only thing i enjoy and wish to persue but im probably not going to get anywhere with it and sghrbwnwjakwk

[solinarimoon]

Waking up to a lovely thunderstorm when the kids spent the night at grandmas only to have it ruined by the agony of migraine and no coffee in the house because I forgot to get anymore yesterday because I was hyperfixations in trying to clean the house to make it ready to be able to decorate for the holidays to give my kids the magic of the season which caused me to be short tempered and yell which made me feel like a piece of shit and clench my jaw a lot to keep the mounting tension at bay which is likely why I have this migraine now and I’m lucky my husband is a kind man who is going to the store to get me coffee but man the migraine meds better kick in because I have to clean more today or I will continue to feel overwhelming chaos in my own home and maybe I am also avoiding missing my dad since this is the first December without him and I am sad.

Anyway my heart his my enemy right now babes.

[tryinginvaintobreathethefire]

no one really understands how stressful it is to have dietary restrictions unless they have them as well but today i found sprinkles IN THE GROCERY STORE that i can actually eat and i kind of feel like crying about it. i keep rechecking the ingredients because i'm so paranoid that i missed something that will make me sick.

[mistakenlyfoundnico]

Something that makes me sad is when I read fanfics of my favorite characters I can't help but want what they have. Like I am aroace and I don't think I feel any romantic attraction at all. But that doesn't stop me from wanting it. And it kind of hurts wanting to feel a feeling you know you can't feel. I mean I don't hate being aromantic or anything like that but sometimes I want to know how it feels to relate to those silly love songs and being able to feel romantic love. I want to hold hands with someone and flirt and just exist together. Like I have friends and have family but they are all going to leave eventually to pursue another relationship (whether that is a romantic one or platonic) and where does that leave me. Alone with my cat. And maybe I am think of a romantic relationship as a way to not be alone and always have someone. But it seems like the only relationship where you're their person you know. Their first pick. Not the bottom of the barrel, they will hang out with you because they have no one else to hang out with. And again this might be me projecting. I just don't want to be alone. But everyday it becomes more apparent that's my fate and I feel a romantic relationship is my only way escape this fate if you will. I don't know I don't want to make a lot of being aromantic is sad content because it's not but sometimes it feels that way. Sorry for the rant :[[

[ugly-and-angry]

Why is it so fucking hard for a fat guy to just find a pair of jeans in any store. Every store stocks up to 40. and MAYBE one or two pairs of 42. I went to 5 different stores looking for a single pair of black jeans and got nothing. I’m so mad.

(I recognize my privilege of being a man in this space but I’m still gonna be mad about it.)

[luci-in-trenchcoats]

Ever have one of those weeks where the apocalypse could happen and it’d still be a better alternative than going to work.

[jasonsthunderthighs]

Make a fool of yourself in front of store employees one bein REALLY cute? Check. (Goddammit.) 🤦

I went in the first time to find a jacket or warm shirt, didn't find anythin, so I went back out and saw this HUGE ASS cushion thing, so I RAN back into the store (one of the employees saw me 😂) looked at the price (100$) and hung my head in shame cause I couldn't get it even if I wanted to.

As I was leavin, the door wouldn't open, so like the idiot I am, I waved my arms a little bit to be discreet to open the door. It didn't open, and I did it again, not seein how two employees (one bein a manager) were watchin me in amusement and the manager goes to help open the door, but it was stuck shut and had to LITERALLY pry it open. The cute employee (also one of the managers) saw the whole thing too and was laughin at how the manager had to open it. 😭

I ran so damn fast out of there 😂

[the-elder-polls]

appalachia is devastated. towns i loved, towns i visited all the time, are gone. not damaged, GONE. they are leveled to the ground. there is nothing left but rubble and ruin. people are dead. appalachia is poor to begin with and relies on tourism for a lot of its income, and multiple of those tourist locations are just...gone.

my town is okay, but it's flooded and wrecked. trees are blocking all but one way out of our neighborhood. power lines are hanging limp in the roads. we've been without power for over 24 hours and will continue to be without power for likely another 24+. disabled people and poor people are GOING to die from this. gods save appalachia.

[deityofhearts]

consider sending me $10 before adding an unnecessary comment on my post

[hinamie]

to moving forward

[silverview]

psa

[forestscribe4]

Anyone else vibe off trees? This Norwegian Maple tree was one of the reasons I wanted to buy our house. We saved forever and when we finally started to look for a home, I'd assess the house and the trees. I knew this tree and I would immediately become friends. I have been having a lot of feelings lately, so despite it being near 100 degrees, I took a big glass of water outside and sat under my tree while my kids played in the mud. I feel like this tree is an old friend that I hope will long outlive me. I can feel its strength and steadiness. It lightens my load.

[cyberdevil3000]

She broke it off with me. She said that she needed some time to work on herself and heal. I would've stayed to help her with that however I could but she didn't want me to. Now I'm left wondering if this is the end or if we'll have a future again together someday and I don't even know which of those possibilities hurts me more to think about