#like I've actually got nothing to live for

[aceyalonso]

sera's tracks - 1k celebration

AHHHHHH 1K!!!! thank you so much, i honestly can't believe that I've reached a milestone like this because this blog started out as a joke (I wanted to see how long it would take my friends to find my blog), but here we are 🥹 I am so grateful for every single one of you 💗

similar to my 500 followers event (i swear i'll actually do this one!!), I'll give a list of songs and you guys can request.

These songs are some of my personal faves so there will be a good mix of genres for requests! there's a total of 10 songs + lyrics that you can use as a guide for what the fic/story will be (2 are songs I already have planned, the rest are up for grabs)

a/n: to my wonderful moots who i absolutely love and feel like i’ve known my entire life, @nepobbylver @iamred-iamyellow @cleopatrick-123 @emchante, i just want to say i love you guys!!!! mwah mwah mwah (I love my other moots too I swear, I just haven't had the opportunity to interact with them 😖)

how can i request?  send an ask, pairing a driver with the available songs!

↳ example: “hi! can i request [driver] + [song]? also can it be [choose from smut, angst, fluff, or a combination of any of the 2]?”

can i be added to the taglist? of course, just fill out the form below :)

↳ click me!

guide!

smut - [s] fluff - [f] angst -[a]

fics i have planned!

piano man - billy joel [f] - charles leclerc x fem!reader

butterflies - denise julia [f, s] - lando norris x fem!reader

open for requests!

guilty as sin? - taylor swift taken - oscar piastri x fem!reader - [a, s]

i keep recalling things we never did, messy top lip kiss, how i long for our trysts

these fatal fantasies giving way to labored breath, taking all of me, we’ve already done it in my head

without ever touching his skin, how can i be guilty as sin?

be with you - the ridleys taken - fernando alonso x fem!reader - [a, f, s]

someday i’ll make a home with you, it may be big, it may be small

but if the dreams don’t happen right away, that’s okay, i just wanna be with you every single day, for the rest of our lives

I'm gonna work on my temper, while you learn to speak your mind some more, i'll be more of a shelter and less of a storm

best friends brother - victorious cast, victoria justice taken - daniel ricciardo x fem!reader - [s]

i don’t know what i’m thinking, but is it wrong if i see him this weekend?

i kinda think that i might be his type, 'cause when you're not around, he's not acting too shy

i really hope i can get him alone, i just don’t want her to know

bags - clairo taken - ollie bearman x fem!reader - [f]

can you see me usin’ everythin’ to hold back?

i’m not the type to run, i know that we’re havin’ fun, but what’s the rush? kiss and then my cheeks are so flushed

can you see me? i’m waitin’ for the right time, i can’t read you, but if you want, the pleasure’s all mine

mad - ne-yo

so both of us are mad for nothing, fighting for nothing

but baby, can we make up now? cause i can’t sleep through the pain

we can fuss, we can fight, long as everything’s all right between us before we go to sleep, baby we’re gonna be happy

superman - taylor swift taken - max verstappen x fem!reader - [a, f]

he’s got his mother’s eyes, his father’s ambition. i wonder if he know how much that i miss him

i watch superman fly away, you got a busy day today, go save the world, i’ll be around

something in his deep brown eyes has me saying “he’s not all bad like his reputation”

if ever you’re in my arms again - peabo bryson taken - charles leclerc x fem!reader - [a, f]

now, i’m seeing clearly how i still need you near me, i still love you so

the best of romances, deserve second chances, i'll get to you some, 'cause i promise now, if ever you're in my arms again, this time i'll you much better

it all came so easy, the lovin' you gave me, the feelings we shared, and I can still remember how your touch was so tender

guy.exe - superfruit taken - lance stroll x fem!reader - [s]

where all the boys at with financial security? a doctor, a model, a man of possibilities

oh, he’d pick me up at eight, and not a minute late, ‘cause i don’t like to wait, no

i need a man who don’t get jealous ‘less i want him to, a gentleman to take care of me in the bedroom

[the-violet-galaxy]

I'm gonna be honest... And I've felt this way since New Moon started his corruption arc and become Nexus -- this is the feeling this whole arc gave me.

(And, if Nexus is supposed to STAY dead and there's no twist that he survived somehow, or there's no planned revival/redemption at the end of this still-ongoing storyline................)

Honestly, to me.... It feels like the actors just got bored of playing New Moon and wanted to bring Old Moon back. But they couldn't have two "Moon"s running around, so they had to get rid of the other one. So they slapped this arc together as an excuse to throw New Moon in the trash to not have to deal with him anymore. And literally that's all it was.

(It'd explain why so much of the arc was slapdash, rushed, and sloppy. Why they set SO MUCH emotional stuff up for New Moon only to do nothing with it. Because it was all an excuse to just be rid of a character they didn't want to play anymore. They went scorched-earth with wrecking his characterization so the narrative would have an excuse to never have him come back. And, I ALMOST suspect this arc was added in at the last minute, a sudden change after deciding they wanted Old Moon back?? I don't have proof of that, but that's again just the feeling I get, especially if you look back at earlier episodes. If you look in earlier vids where New Moon spoke to Old Moon in the mindscape, many characters HEAVILY INSISTED AND REPEATED that Old Moon was still permanently dead, "just an instinctual copy", and could not come back. They said this repeatedly; Monty said it, New Moon said it to Sun, and Old Moon himself said it. Plus, in the mindscape, Old Moon HAD been absorbing information from New Moon's life -- he knew everything that had happened to the Celestial Family, and even had a big speech about how "I lived how I lived, now you need to live how YOU live," all stuff that was really cementing his "dead" status......... Then out of the blue there's ~miraculously~ a sudden way to revive him. And when he was revived, they retconned it so he didn't know anything about what had happened in the year he was dead. That's why I have this suspicion Old Moon's return wasn't planned from the beginning, and they quickly added the Nexus arc when they decided they wanted Old Moon back instead of New Moon.)

(It's also why they're... pretty inconsistent with their rules for things worked, and things like Nexus's weird sudden 180 character flip and flimsy motivations. Half the time Old Moon "wasn't processing anything while in stasis at all," other times he's like "I absorbed feelings and words every now and then;" one moment it's a funny haha when he's like "Who's Solar??? I don't know who that is?? I was in stasis I don't know ~anything~" the next it's "Solar I'm sorry, I KNOW what Nexus was thinking, I kept hearing him going SOLAR SOLAR SOLAR in his mind in agony, until he just stopped." Like his return was such a sudden change they didn't plan out these things before jumping into it.)

(And as they assassinated New Moon's goodness, they propped up Old Moon on an idealized pedestal going "LOOK HOW MUCH BETTER OLD MOON ALWAYS WAS, HE'S ACTUALLY ALWAYS BEEN BETTER AND NEW MOON WAS A BIG DUMB CHUMP THE WHOLE TIME, LOOK HOW COOL AND SMART AND BETTER OLD MOON IS." )

I'm still wondering if Nexus is not fully dead just yet, but IF HE IS, then this is just how I feel.

[mac-ann-cheese]

Happy Halloween! ₍⁠₍⁠ ⁠◝⁠(⁠　ﾟ⁠∀⁠ ﾟ⁠ ⁠)⁠◟⁠ ⁠⁾⁠⁾

Tbh, 2010s halloween outfits kinda slap. Newer ones are spectacular too, don't get me wrong!! However I prefer those, something in them is just nostalgic.

Behind the cut is crazy amount of words.

Sooo, I wouldn't put it as a big and detailed au, but some thoughts behind my drawing: I drew my ideas from fanfic/comic (don't actually remember), where Francis sort of died in Arthur's typical vampire castle and became a ghost, and I focused on more what had happened before that.

It's the 18th century, unindentified place. Francis, an heir to a generic grand fortune, spends his life (and money) on pointlessly expensive parties. Suddenly, out of nowhere, he discovers that he got chronically ill-ed by fate, cause she didn't like his way of living. Maybe the plague got him or tuberculosis, something, that can't be fully cured at that time. Of course, this unpleasant finding shakes up the whole world for Francis and... actually nothing changes. "I'm still going to die, why to waste time on lamenting?", - he probably thought, partially accepting his demise. But people drew away from him, as you know, sickness are easily spread. The only way for him having fun was closed. Nobody would invite or let him in social events even for loads of money. And that's the reason behind searching for someone who could genuinely stand to have him around.

Like any unnamed cities do, there is always a guy who lives on the outskirts of the town for a mysterious reason... Nobody knew that Arthur is a vampire, however he acted little bit on the unusual side in the public, so no one liked to tolerate him enough to communicate with. Being already a pretty unlucky man overall and having NO friends makes Arthur to long for any mortal (or not) soul to talk to. Maybe he will try not eating them first before deciding to have a chit chat.

And by logic of any wonderful universe, the seekers found each other.

Getting turned away at another late party, Francis bumps in Arthur, who was lurking for unfortunate drunkard around the place. "Um, mister," , - Francis probably wondered out loud, - "why are you hiding behind that pillar? Wait, don't turn away, I've seen you", - as a response he gets only cat-like hisses. And then Francis makes another unpleasant discovery about himself - he is into whatever the fuck is going on with this guy in a goofy looking top hat and a coat. That fateful night Arthur got himself a literal follower.

With the fact of being known Arthur was annoyed for couple of days, but quickly overcome his aversion. It was nice to have someone around for the first time in centuries. Even though Francis's blood tasted repulsively sweet of his malady, it was way better than a beggar.

And Francis met a companion for endless conversation and hanging out. In the dark, sadly. On the other side, Arthur's got a castle... Francis doesn't have that much time left, but will get used to all that biting quirks and hate of the sun of his newfound friend (no, he won't get a slightest idea of connection to vampires. Poor him!).

[fiamat12]

I'm surprised that people in your poll would rather have Easter eggs than just Lukola doing nothing and going on their merry way. I mean unpopular opinion I guess: if they never acted so unhinged - like no other leads have done - and kept their Lukola in their pants we wouldn't have suspected they are dating and would have just enjoyed Polin (!!!)... just like we just enjoyed Saphne and Kanthony and even Georgette. Everyone accepts the real-life relationships of those celebs because they made it clear who they are with, even if they are private, and aren't running around giving endless Easter eggs.

I've seen the moral superiorty complex some people have about not being entitled. I actually agree with that!!! But it's also not kind to play with people's emotions if you want to be moral about it. People say Lukola isn't responsible for our emotions... well, sure, if only we could live in isolation and never let anything affect us. We are made for human and social interaction, so sorry, that's normal.

And they ASKED for the investment over 6 months. So while we don't have a right to their personal lives, that's really THE POINT - didn't ask to see it, didn't ask to know about it, and quite frankly I'd MUCH rather have known nothing and then been pleasantly surprised to see them married with a family next year than be pulled in all different directions and be made to feel like a fool and watch people argue over social media.

I still choose to believe there is a reason for no resolution, and I hope people will move on from hyper analyzation or focus on them because clearly, WE got a MIXED MESSAGE. And Lord knows if this was all played up for views they got what THEY wanted, so we should let it be and go support other projects where we will feel more satisfied giving our time & viewership.

I can understand this. And I understand the skepticism in saying they did it for views but I actually think the opposite happened - they attracted the masses by being so unassuming and authentic.

Regardless, I feel your frustration, Anon. Take a break when needed, and we'll be here cruising along, waiting for your return 🚢

[dumbasslesbi2]

My Heart (Agatha x Rio)

Summary:

Agatha had been with Rio for some time now. She finally decided, she wanted Rio officially as her wife, to bear her child.

Notes:

GOD I LOVE THESE TWO! I saw alot of the post interviews of Jac talking about agathario. I saw that the cabin was their home and just needed to write a fluff fic about it. I know this one is short but lowkey needa get back to my school work lol

Agatha and Rio have been living isolated now away from witches and society for centuries, only interacting to provide Agatha with power and Rio her bodies. They made a cabin, a home, a home that Agatha was hoping could be their forever home. When she first met Rio she never thought she would fall in love, let alone fall in love with Death. Rio had felt the same, she never thought she would fall for someone this badly. She truly was whipped for Agatha, if Agatha told her to do anything, she'd do it in a heartbeat. Agatha caused Rio to have a heart, a black heart that only beated for her.

Agatha had given it some thought for some time now that she was ready. She wanted to have a child, she wanted a family, she wanted Rio to be a father, to be her wife. They had been cuddling next to the fireplace on their reading nook. “Rio, my love” Agatha said above a whisper. “Hmm?” Rio hummed, nuzzling more into Agatha's shoulder. “I want to live here, I want to live here forever” Agatha told her, looking down at her. “We already are doing that my love” Rio said , smiling up at Agatha. “I know but I, I want to live here as a family Rio” she told, turning to see Rio better. “What do you mean by a family?” Rio said, leaning up to face Agatha. “I- I want a child” Agatha said, taking Rio's hand. “My love, I, I would love to give you a child!” Rio exclaimed, tears forming in her eyes. “Honey, I want to be your wife, I want to have your child, I want to be your family” Agatha told Rio, caressing her face. “And I would want nothing more but that my love, mi vida” Rio said, tears rolling down her face. Agatha closed the gap and kissed Rio, it was salty and wet from all their tears. It was the most tender and gentle kiss that they ever shared, filled with so many emotions that it made Agatha cry even more. Rio broke the kiss and started wiping away Agatha's years which only made Agatha cry more. “What's wrong sweetheart?” Rio question, holding Agatha's face. “I- I just love you so much. I don't know how I got so lucky to have you” Agatha said, holding Rio. “I wonder the same thing, my love. Everyday I wonder how I, out of all beings, was blessed with a person like you. I've never felt so seen, so loved by someone. I love you and I will love you till the end of the worlds” Rio said, bringing in Agatha for a hug. They stayed like that for hours, just holding each other. Saying words of affirmation and sharing kisses. All that mattered in the universe was them and in their cabin, they would start a family. 

They had a ceremony, just the two of them in the forest that encompassed them. Rio being Rio made the entire area around them surrounded by flowers. Everyday she would give Agatha a new flower and found it to be her love language towards her lover. Agatha loved them as much as she loved Rio, she cherished Rio’s flowers as much as she cherished her. Rio had made two rings for the both of them, she made them from wood but made sure they were perfect to not hurt her lover. “I can’t believe this is actually happening” Agatha said, releasing a breath she didn’t know she was holding when Rio put the ring on her finger. “I could say the same thing” Rio said with a laugh, looking down at Agatha. Once they both had their rings on Agatha looked at Rio and interlocked her finger with hers. “Rio Vidal, you are the love of my life. I don’t care what the future holds as long as it holds you. I want nothing more than to be your lover, your wife, the bearer of your child. I love you with every essence of my being and I wouldn’t have it any other way. I don’t care who or what you are because all I see when I see you is life, my life. I wish for nothing but eternity with you” Agatha said, tears streaming down her face as she kissed Rio’s cheek. “I, Rio Vidal would love nothing more in this world than to be your wife Agatha Harkness. I loved you from the moment I laid eyes on you and will continue to love you for however long this world exists. I’ve never loved anything more or as much as I love you. You are my life, my breath, my heart. I love you Agatha Harkness” Rio responded, closing the gap and kissing Agatha. They stayed there in the forest surrounded by their flowers, admiring each other and wanting nothing more than to start a family. To have a child, made from scratch. 

[thatdogmagic]

That whole thing in March (and July, and August, and), part 2

I'm glad most people aren't up to speed on this. I'm sorry for any confusion. I've tried to put in the basic context of a lot of this but if you're not deep-diving tumblr nonsense you're going to have missed a lot of it. If you did, just be grateful and go about your day; you have my blessing to tl;dr straight out of here.

For the people who know, and stayed: I'm addressing it now because it is demonstrably costing me, personally and professionally, to stay quiet. It hasn't risen to the point of monetary damages that require a lawyer's intervention, but if it does, I have lines out to a couple people to hire. I'm taking this seriously, which is part of why it took so much time to get around to posting.

The other reason I waited is because I had hoped interest in this would fade out/people would be able to read the posts and see them for what they are. But then the site went live, logs got involved, and Ependa (not me) received this in her discord DMs:

That is roughly when I noticed I'd been dropped by a handful mutuals, and I finally looked into what was being said about me, exactly.

I thought I'd had some idea of how bad it was, but I didn't. I was not prepared for what I actually read. I promise you: no one is. Seeing a tidal wave of outright lies about yourself and the person you love, especially when it gets that personal, and is so clearly meant to estrange and humiliate, like.

It's hard to even know where to begin. That last bit makes it particularly difficult to decide what I should actually address or talk about. As a result, this post has been written and re-written several times over the last few months, and it was only recently that I settled on anything.

What I've decided is I'll be doing my best to refrain from addressing the personal/intimate attacks, though some are unavoidable. Make no mistake: those attacks exist only to waste my time and to maximize harm. They're meant to make me engage (and probably, to some extent, drive a wedge between Ependa and I), and follow a long and sustained pattern of Jackal acting out every time she had to take 'no' for an answer.

So, fine. I'm doing this. But I'm doing it on my terms, for my sake, Ependa's sake, and for the sake of a site that I would've found a way to commission one way or another. Because I just want a place for me and my peers to post our queer werewolf art and stories, and I want to eventually help turn it into a fundraising vehicle for our various projects.

I don't care if my name is on it (it is in fact not; Werewolves Versus is not my brand, it's Angela's), I don't care if the only person to ever closely collab with me again on my own personal work is Ependa, and no one else. I don't even care if I get props for commissioning it. I just want the thing to exist, for me and for others, and I don't want the people who use it to catch stupid accusations of 'o so ur working with the psycho transphobe??' because it happens to be in some way tied to me.

So let's start with the factual statements that can be made about the project side of this:

Jackal claim to have started a studio with myself, TrashasaurusRex, and Ependa. The reality, however, is, 'I invited people to a discord server in June-July of 2023, where a studio got talked about on voicechat but no paperwork was ever filed.

There was no studio. There was a *theoretical* studio, but nothing concrete. It didn't have a name. The *site* had a working name (the Mercantile, based on something from one of *my* stories), but that's the extent of it. The steps that would have made us an official studio had not been taken. I know, because I had to keep asking about it.

There was no attached LLC. It's referred to as 'an LLC' in posts because it does not have an actual name. I never put my signature on anything that looked even remotely like an official document. So, if an LLC does exist, and my name/signature appears on any official paperwork that's 'on record' in the state of Georgia, I mean. I don't need to be a lawyer to know there's a problem there.

Jackal claims to have liquidated the studio. That's more creative writing: there was nothing to liquidate. It's just a big word meant to make 'we deleted a discord server and some comic pages scraped together over a few months' sound official. And the server still exists in part, clearly, because it's currently being used to farm Content.

I was the one who commissioned Angela for the site and made all the arrangements. Starting out, I was the sole investor, and would have still been the primary investor once the bill was paid in full. I had also talked about buyout clauses in case we ever got around to *actual* official paperwork. Me leaving with the site was always understood to be an option on the table, in case things went sour.

I left the original idea for the studio/site ('sapphic-specific monsterfuckers') to the others. Nothing is stopping them from commissioning their own site, or building up an actual studio with an actual name under an actual LLC.

It would've been very welcome if all the vague admin work they claim to have done had actually *been* done. Unfortunately, that 'work' amounted primarily to things like being asked to find legal rep, and months later getting only so far as an answer that amounted to 'well my mom knows a lawyer who works for Disney.' That's not a part of the log that will ever get posted, though.

I am the only person in the group with a substantial 'proof of admin work' paper trail on this project. I have my own bank statements, I have the agreement with Angela, I have multiple written documents for meeting plans - many with their original save dates - and I have the paperwork I had started with a payment vendor. The most Jackal has is, allegedly, the paper trail their dad generated to withdraw/transfer the money they were going to use for their part of the investment. If there was anything else, it never got mentioned.

There was no 'gatekeeping the sitebuilder.' Angela asked that the actual, contractual business agreement be made with me exclusively to keep things simpler for her. I informed everyone of this early on. Further, no one was barred from attending my meetings with her, or reaching out to her. At any time, any one of them could have reached her using multiple methods. They knew who she was and she was not hard to find. Further, Angela was kept in the loop every step of the way, even as things started to break apart. She knew I'd be suspending payments when arguments over missed deadlines started to heat up, and I was no longer certain about the group's future. This is something she'll corroborate.

In spite of all this, Jackal and Trish were both still invited to make use of the site when it launched. That offer's obviously rescinded at this point, but I made it in good faith when I said it. It was one of the last things sent to the server and one of the few things I kept in a text file.

For anyone who made it this far into reading this (thank you for that btw), I want you to look at this list and really take it in.

If there are already this many holes in what was posted, please imagine how many holes can be punched in all the other claims being made. Especially where it comes to intimacy. I won't repeat much of it, save this: there was a whole 'Dogblud was into me and was flirting with me' thread to this, in which Jackal took great pains to mock Ependa for just standing around like a dumbass (their words) as I flirted with Jackal in front of her.

Which I shouldn't have to demonstrate is false, to anyone. I shouldn't have to say that throughout the time I was allegedly "flirting" with "my boss" (news to me that I had a 'boss,' btw, suggests I had to pay $5k for the privilege of being an employee?), I was spending the vast majority of my time with Ependa. And we talked, constantly, about everything that was happening. She always had final say on how I did/didn't behave in VC and in that server, and was in fact very much present when I had to tell Jackal I would not engage in on-site ERP, silly or serious, without Ependa's approval or say-so. It is not my fault Jackal chose not to hear that.

They *did*, however, hear me talk about how Ependa and I expressed ourselves with each other. Heard me say that we use Phoebe and Lacey as proxies sometimes, understanding that they're not literally projections of ourselves, just characters with some significance to how we became a couple. In the posts they made about my conduct, by their own admission, they chose to remove that from its proper context, and superimpose it on to the professional arrangement we made with each other to write/draw sapphic comics with our respective characters.

Like, that was the whole premise of the site, sapphic monsterfucking; we had long discussed using the 'star power' of our characters to sell it, since our audiences had an investment. The note about Phoebe and Lacey was quite literally the backbone of the rule we had for porn scenarios depicting them, re: 'never one without the other,' so it's weird to see that turned around to prove there was rampant flirting on my end.

Aside, but, that Jackal has to paint herself as the boss in the situation is interesting. Because-- and I'm not rearranging what she's saying here, or remixing it, I'm taking at face value what's being implied.

Her being the boss implies that Ependa and I agreed to an 'employer/employee' relationship with terms that were never discussed with us. Primarily, that any discussion of 'we will be talking about our characters fucking/fucking around one another/(the usual porn comic nonsense goes here)' would be interpreted as flirtation, when that was literally part of the job we were signing up for. That we were, in fact, being weirdly entrapped?? in more of an intimate relationship with this person than a working 'we are collaborating on a project' relationship.

I'm not pointing this out to be dramatic, or raise additional allegations. The vibe was meant to be loose because of the type of business we were talking about. I'm pointing this out to say that Jackal's lies are pervasive enough to self-contradict, often, about *a lot* of things, even to the point of painting themselves in an even more unflattering light than I ever could.

So, no, if she chooses to keep this going, I'm not going to waste my time swatting down every little thing she has said, or will say; I won't go out of my way to give proof of each and every lie being false, or give my side of the story each and every time some piece of the log has been stitched together to prove with 1000% certainty that I kill babies with slingshots or whatever else it is that's being said about me on any given day.

...

All this, because they took it really personally that I tried to move on with the investment I made, with money I earned over ten years of working full time on a 12a-8a shift, holidays included.

I shouldn't have to say this, but I don't owe that investment to anyone, least of all someone with whom I was fundamentally incompatible, on a working level, and with whom no formal agreement was ever signed.

I don't owe Jackal the keys to that site because she invited me to a discord server one day. I don't owe it to Jackal to drop the site entirely, and wave goodbye to $5k of a meager life savings, simply because we followed in the footsteps of so many other artists: ruining our entire friendship by trying and failing to work together on a professional level, without necessary guard rails, because we were arrogant enough to think 'with us, it'll be different!'

It's the same story with HaliteaTiger, at the end of the day.

Yes, I will be addressing the logs, and yes, I do own what I said. I'm not going to pretend that wasn't me or that what I said was appropriate or excusable. But I will say that the story presented is very conveniently slanted, ignoring nearly 3000 pages of ongoing context. Which did happen to include many, many discussions about where I was at in terms of aggressive meltdowns, with everyone involved, long before we ever worked together. I never lied to anyone about that, or hold it against them if it turns out to be too much.

End of the day, they were just as keen as I was to willfully ignore all the warning signs, spoken and unspoken. That the fit wasn't right, that this thing or that thing was *off*, that this was already showing signs of faltering because (xyz thing).

Which is really the thesis of this story. It's going to keep being the thesis by the time I'm done writing all of it out. Everyone involved, myself included, was so caught up in the opportunity we all saw in each other that we all mutually ignored multiple red flags, and got burned by that. As is often the case.

The finer points of all that are for another post. This one, I'd prefer to keep more or less contained.

[eggmeralda]

I may have lost all hope

[halorvic]

[paperbackfable]

Erend: they don't Id me at the liquor store anymore because they see the light has left my eyes

-

Erend: We're playing Scrabble. It's a nightmare.

Alva: Scrabble? Scrabble's great.

Erend: Not when you're playing with Zo, it's not. They put words like "ephemeral" and I put "dog".

-

Varl: You're ignoring all your problems.

Aloy: I know.

Varl: You also know it's an unhealthy coping mechanism?

Aloy: I'm ignoring that fact as well.

Varl:

-

Zo: In your opinion, what's the height of stupidity?

Aloy: turning to Sylens How tall are you?

-

Aloy: You lying, cheating, piece of shit!

Sylens: Oh yeah? You're the idiot who thinks you can get away with everything you do. WELCOME TO THE REAL WORLD.

Aloy: I'm leaving you, and I'm TAKING BETA WITH ME!

Varl, picking up the strike board: I think we're gonna stop playing now.

-

Aloy: Want do you want to be for "Halloween"?

Beta: Loved.

Aloy: Don't do this.

-

Sylens: I will not stand to be disrespected like this!

Aloy: Then sit.

-

Alva: Imagine if someone handed you a box full of all the things you lost throughout your life...

Zo: It would be nice to have my sense of purpose back.

Aloy: Oh wow, my childhood innocence! Thank you for finding this.

Beta: My will to live! I haven't seen this in years.

Erend: I knew I lost that potential somewhere.

Varl: Mental stability, my old friend!

Alva: Ancestors, could you guys lighten up a little?

-

Varl: What do you think Kotallo will do for a distraction?

Aloy: Probably, like, whistle or throw a rock. That's what I would do.

Building explodes and several car alarms go off

Aloy: ...or they could do that.

-

OK THAT'S ENOUGH I SHOULD PROABLY STOP NOW BYE

[skeletalheartattack]

...am I just losing my mind or did yer icon become evil? I don't remember that BeAst behind Boe

yuuuump always been behind me

[howlsmovinglibrary]

It is truly so funny to work myself out of depression in a 2.5 year upwards crawl, reach a point where I actually like and value myself and think I may, in fact, be a treasure-

only for the academic job market to turn to me, lovingly take my face in its hands, and say "...then perish."

[quaranmine]

i hate being an adult i hate money i hate bills i hate healthcare and health insurance

[varjopeura]

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[seaofreverie]

Anyway how is everyone doing

[lonely--seeker]

I think I'm going insane. Lately my dreams have been so mundane, it wouldn't be weird if I wasn't just a person that has nightmares 80% of the time, so I now my dreams are so hard to distinguish from reality.

I wouldn't be able tell what was real from what not if it wasn't because last night I went to my doctor's appointment and I was handed new glasses by Harvey just to go back home and find out Laois was cooking something in my backyard.

[rogerdeakinsdp]

oh no i spent an hour watching instagram reels and now i feel horrible again 😭 and like even worse than i would normally feel after an hour on instagram. people don't actually live like that, they don't all have perfect skin and perfect hair and perfect bodies and perfect houses, right???? i'm not completely doomed and hopeless, right?????? right?????? RIGHT????