#lets not add to my stress

[mx-morbid]

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[pearleisuma]

In light of Iskall and Stress’s decisions to leave Hermitcraft, I ask all the fan-content creators to PLEASE NOT DELETE STUFF ASSOCIATED WITH THEM RIGHT AWAY. ESPECIALLY FICS. We don’t know the full context, and plus, it’s a part of Hermitblr History. At the very least, if you don’t want to be associated with their content, orphan the works or repost them anonymously. Heck, send them to me, just so we have an archive! Hermitblr has been so good about separating the ccs from the characters, so let’s not let interpersonal conflicts between the ccs majorly affect our enjoyment of the characters, especially with what little we know.

Edit 1: Everyone please take care.

Edit 2: Due to the way asks with Media work, if you send me fanart of Stress or Iskall, I will make it a separate post so as to not include or reveal your user. Alternatively, I can make a Google Form? Lmk.

Edit 3: WE OFFICIALLY HAVE A GOOGLE SHEETS MASTERDOC!! I’m working on formatting it so things are easier to find. Add images, links to both the original and your Wayback Machine Archives, credits, and more! I’ll get working on an anonymous google form.

[cb-writes-stuff]

“You can’t enjoy being neurodivergent/disabled/having X disorder if it makes you suffer so much! How dare you be making jokes about it!!!” Well you see, your bad days only suck a little bit so you don’t appreciate the good days very much. My bad days suck so much worse, so I only appreciate the good days that much more to compensate.

[catlover4536]

@carnivalcarrion Remember when I said I had something for you?

Yeah, me too.

[hyper-pixels]

Option 1: The MC was turned into a vampire as a child (can or can't be your fault for being caught). Set during modern times. You have a an old police dog and a car to be your friends. You're searching for your family (brother and father) and looking for answers as to why this happened to you. You can have different motivations for what you want (such as revenge, to get humans back in power/see them as weaker, feel you have no reason, etc)

Option 2: You're an AI with no memory of the past. You pass as human. You live after the war of Earth, Mars and Centauri B (where you're from) and live with another AI bot. Unfortunately, you have a sentient virus hellbent on taking your body for it's own. Claiming your body was built for it. You and a rag-tag team of bandits (an amnesiac human and their loyal body guard and a hacker you've never met in person). Very Cyberpunk/Solarpunk vibes. (Was briefly on Itch.io as You, The Cursed/Copper Bones if it sounds familiar. Yes, I was the author of it.)

Option 3: The MC is from a zombie apocalypse and details you dealing with grief/loneliness while looking for your mother. Oh yeah, you're being hunted by an intelligent green-eyed zombie and nobody believes you. I also wanna touch on the topic of "what would you give to survive" rather than "what will you take to survive." You have two friends who are doing their damnest to keep you up despite also feeling the toll of the apocalypse. (was briefly up on Choice Script under the title DOGMA, i was also the author of this)

[addcests]

HAPPY TEN YEARS TO THIS BLOG AND JACKET

if you've been here as long as this blog's existence then, know i'm finna yap:

sorry but warning for me and my mental health and my journey here...

smiles i am only human after all <:3 without further ado—

i've put off this post for... many reasons (hoildays, stress, perfectionism, anxiety) but maybe i'll keep this rendition and not chicken out or delete it because it's not perfect?

i really still can't believe i missed the anniversary for this! nov 29th huh? (yes i can actually !!! at the time i had just started a new job and that's where all my willpower has been.) but i fondly remember those ten years ago, that nov 29th is just as close to december anyway. so i always lead myself to think it's dec and not nov! details !!!

i don't think it'd make a difference but i do so want to get this in before the new year... (adding unnecessary stressors to myself smh)

it's been quite a ride through addhell. it's weird... to think how much has happened here. it's insane to think about how this one white hair anime boy changed my live in ways i could never fathom

picture it with me, a no one in a group of friends. with nothing but... the ambition of friendship, and the love of writing to fuel him, and a new username ready to take on the world: mymastermine.

that group of friends holds three: me, my would be DIE, and my would be LP. (does... does anyone remember those days of us three causing chaos laughs - tho mostly two, i suppose) we would make our way into the fandom, make tons of things, meet some people, make things with those people and make friends, lose some people, and grow, grow, grow...

there's just been... so much in ten years. ten years guys !!! that's a lot !!! i was a proud senpai and kouhai all at once! i'd found a really cool sensei. i ran into artists who drew things for me and i wrote for them!

i watched the rise AND fall of void els (raise your hand if you're an oger), in real time watched vMM became a cultural phenomenon (you're lying to yourself if you dont think he was - ykb did something irreversible to the add fandom that day i fear 😂 he's still relevant to this day lmFAO thank ykb for ur service), i watched the top LP/bottom LP debates :/, i'd poked my head into the els tag to see yall fighting but then i'd see some cool things too! i've seen so many cool projects and zines -- hell, got to actually take part in one! (cringe as it was - our writing, not the zine but still proud of doing that !!!)

addcest/hellsword (tumblr) isn't what it use to be though. (hell tumblr itself isn't what it use to be, let's be real LMAO) but... i think that i love that hasn't stopped some of us for cherishing and/or still loving add to this day.

i think if you'd told past me i'd be doing this, writing for one (1) singular anime boy, i wouldn't be surprised - couldn't expect it to go any other way i think

i'm not sure how to feel that ten years later i am still writing for him - it's been quite obvious where i felt it wane (but that was more my life and mental health (was in quite few depressive episodes - still am lmao), and joy - or lack thereof at the times - of writing and placing my joy momentarily elsewhere) but... wow i'm still here? LMAO

but i've met so many amazing people because of him... i've made connections, some not quite lasting, but then... there's always someone else there isn't there?

(i met dez and rain-kouhai for the first time recently! i've met more people for add hell between now and maybe 2-3 years ago! can you imagine that??? people still interacting, still wanting to talk about add - i literally can't! i go on twitter kr/jp and go "wow new add fanart" and feel so lucky !!!)

it's just little joys like this that makes me appreciate such things

i guess what i'm trying to say... thank you add for all the connections i've had and made.

thank you to my original trio

thank you to addhell tumblr... ! (literally would have never known some of yall)

thank you to void els (for gay add marriage lmao but also some more cool friends and mutuals)

thanks discord for hosting gay add ramblings and ao3 for letting me put my gay shit there

thank you - to anyone and everyone who has ever read my work and supported me - friends, mutuals, strangers, anons - and to anyone who's drawn/wrote for or with me! (yes, i think about your comments, your kind words, your support! yes your comment, you!) 😭😭😭 it is the simple act of creating and sharing/encouraging that seriously drives me forward in every word i type... and this alone feels like it's not enough!

but mostly, thank you add, for everything, really

where da hell would this bnuuy be without you?

i was going to... add a more emotional spiel but i think this is good enough, don't nya'll think? :')

"i'm so glad you're still here even after all these past ten years"

you know what? i think i might just be too

thanks for the one whole decade everyone wahoo !!!

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"they shared a bed together." - jacket, nov 29th 2014

[thatone-churro]

chat i am NOT appreciating the stares i got from walking across campus to cvs in my hoodie and sweatpants as if we didn’t just sit through ANOTHER hurricane like chill man i didn’t sleep well let me get my monster to finish my logic homework in peace 😭

[cathalbravecog]

So I gave in and done it - Drew my Minecraft sona / skin, Larimar with Cathal since the two have some design similarities both being CRT TV inspired TV head robots... Let's just say yeah, there's perhaps a few reasons why I got so attached to Cathal like this, yeah?

[skitskatdacat63]

Notes:

I think I definitely like the original versions more than the edited ones. I'm more happy with the grumpy Fernando one, whereas the bratty Seb one made me want to cease painting forever. So hopefully he looks good?????? I'm sure I'll soften on it, but yeah, not TOO pleased with it right now. His facial expressions are so cute and dynamic and unique until you have to try and paint it and then you dont love him anymore(kidding ofc, how could I ever hate my beloved boy king 🥺)

Anyways, these are them:

[randomness-for-life]

Before leaving work last Monday, I overheard my coworker say today "I'm sooo excited to watch Eurovision today 💅💅" and I was so TORN and CONFLICTED

I did not confront him, a Swiftie, about how he should NOT watch Eurovision cause Israel's competing, and the ESC banned Palestinian flags from being shown (just as they did in 2019, quickly moving the cameras away from Iceland - btw Hatari my beloved!!). And I regret not confronting him about that, even tho it might've been rough

I was also very tempted to go up to him and tell him how I've been hyper fixated with Eurovision for the last five years and even wrote a full on 15 page essay on it for my previous history class

But I'm glad I didn't do that. As someone who's been obsessed with Eurovision, I will say for all the fans out there one more time:

DO NOT WATCH, SUPPORT, OR EVEN INTERACT WITH EUROVISION!!! ESPECIALLY FOR TONIGHT’S FINALE

The lives of Palestine and Gaza are far FAR more important than a European song competition and that should not be hard to comprehend.

On that note, here's also some ways to support the Palestinian people:

Donate to: CARE For Gaza

Donate to: GoFundMe for displaced families in Gaza

Click for free to provide funds for Gaza: Arab.org

[im-still-watching-anime]

i have to read every new chapter of bsd twice because without fail i spend the first read through too distracted hoping for akutagawa to process any of it

[ohumokay]

Firstly, this is a long post about romanticizing and misinterpreting OCD. If you "ain't gonna read allat", MOVE ON. This is a topic I am very passionate about and willing to debate. Secondly, if you are an individual struggling with OCD or OCPD, I commend you and open my messages to you if you ever want to talk <3.

OCD - "Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder is characterized by unreasonable thoughts and fears (obsessions) that lead to compulsive behaviors... excessive thoughts (obsessions) that lead to repetitive behaviors (compulsions)." [Google]

OCPD - "Obsessive-Compulsive Personality Disorder is a mental health condition that causes an extensive preoccupation with perfectionism, organization and control." [Google]

Now that we have the definitions that anyone can look up on the internet so I'm not denounced, let's talk about the fact that romanticized OCD is just water downed OCPD.

Good afternoon.

We all have seen some person on tiktok or any social media saying "Oh my gosh, I'm so OCD lol" and they simply reordered their desk or something. And, depending on which side of the internet it falls on, the response will either be "OMG SAMEEE", or a long paragraph arguing how OCD is a real disorder and shouldn't be the butt on a joke.

Both are entitled to their opinions, it makes me no difference. And, from a 10 second video, I can neither confirm nor deny that the person has OCD, but I can firmly say that rearranging a desk is not a definitive sign someone has OCD. Too many people claim OCD or use OCD to degrade and invalid another, and not only are they mocking the very real and very destructive disorder, but the symptoms that they claim correspond with OCD are more commonly diagnosable in OCPD.

I'll admit, I was a part of the problem for longer than I'd have liked, but I corrected myself after researching OCD, OCPD and the contrast. Again, Google is free, and the definitions above come from there, so no one has to take my word.

Romanticized OCD is typically associated with perfectionism, over controlling tendencies, and habitual cleaning. There are cases of people without OCD claiming they want partners with OCD specifically for the reasons listed above. On the other hand, there are people who are separated from their partners for the reasons above and claim they couldn't handle their ex-partner's "OCD". While both parties are well within their right to these opinions, classifying these behaviors solely as OCD is where they are wrong.

True OCD is the act of appeasing reoccurring compulsions in order to soothe irrational fears or obsessions. Individuals with OCD often perform repetitive behaviors to ease intrusive thoughts (which are also romanticized in the media and mistaken for impulsive thoughts). True OCD is an anxiety disorder and is commonly aligned with GAD (General Anxiety Disorder). True OCD can and has included perfectionism, over controlling tendencies, and habitual cleaning, but it's because of irrational fears blown out of proportion that need the ritualistic acts to calm them.

True OCD is commonly labeled as crazy (which is universal for most neurological disorders), while Romanticized OCD is labeled as relatable. OCPD is never mentioned nor given its credit for being the true foundation of Romanticized OCD, and consequently, both True OCD and OCPD are backgrounded to Romanticized OCD.

Similarly to many other disorders, an individual can be obsessive and compulsive without having a disorder, and can have a controlling personality without having a personality disorder. Relating common behaviors to the severity of a damming disorder not only negates the intensity of said disorder, but can also lead to self-misdiagnoses.

I am, in absolutely no way, shaming self-diagnosed OCD, nor am I invalidating it in any way. I'm just a girl with Google and a scattered brain. This is me trying to present what I believe is true with evidence that is accessible by the masses. If you have any disagreement with what I've said, feel free to debate me publicly or privately. I am not prideful nor immobile to opposing opinions and factual information. And if I'm spreading false information, please check me.

[cappurrccino]

been doing so. decently. on the tummy hurty turbo nausea anxiety issues. but here we go agaaaaaiiiiinnnnn

[scalpelsister]

got two mvps in marvel rivals this morning 😊

[stagefoureddiediaz]

Ok I finally made it to internet - I have the episode downloaded - I am stressed about not having watched it live but I have successfully avoided spoilers 🙌🏻

Let’s do this!

I’ll be using my #kym watches live even though I’m not actually watching live if any one wants to mute me out!😂

[graham--folger]

*through gritted teeth* what the fuck do people want from a resume