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I'm sitting outside in the sun in wet jeans - following advice on how to stretch denim to better fit you - making breathing room for myself and my thighs who are hated by jean sizing everywhere - and I'm getting sappy about Tumblr and fangirling and this community of lovely, unapologetically excited people I've met here.
This is something not many will probably read (long posts can be tough, I get it) - it just kind of all spilled I guess? Incoherently but with passion. So why not set it free when it's already here.
You see - I can't help but credit Tumblr as this huge part of my inner child healing journey. And particularly the girlhood part of it all.
Subconsciously & even consciously I've felt so so ashamed of these "girly" sides of me all my life. Especially in their "prime time" of my tween and teen years. I'd love things secretly - or at most - talk about them only after loudly labelling them as "guilty pleasures" (quite a terrible concept) or acting like it's all done with a tinge of self-aware irony.
But being a hopeless romantic; loving your favorite characters with your whole being; squealing over your favorite music and the musicians who make it; talking about your favorite songs and lyrics and photos; drawing, editing, making fanart of things that make your heart sore; sharing your fantasies and dreams; crying about quotes and big ideas; writing stories - those are all such beautiful things.
I've immersed myself back in the worlds of blogging and fanfiction and musical fangirling and... In many ways I haven't felt this good since I was a kid - still untouched by society and it's shaming of the endless supply of passion I had in me towards the things I loved.
And fangirls are a force. Fangirls are what made the music industry what it is. They're who discovered the Beatles and Leonard Cohen and Frank Sinatra and David Bowie - amongst so many others - and when they did the hard work - only then was it all taken over and appropriated by men who claimed only they can "truly and objectively" appreciate it.
It's girls - bright, unapologetically excited, passionate girls who care for pretty things and things with a soul and things with a story, with romantic connotations - girls who love to curate aesthetically pleasing landscapes and spaces around themselves - it's those girls who contributed hugely to an actual analogue photography and vinyl pressing revival & re-popularization.
I'm in my late twenties. I've only recently let myself pierce my ears and start wearing makeup sometimes. And care openly about my appearance and fashion choices. It's very much still all queer coded and slightly gender-mixed. Because that's me. But caring about these things has always been categorized as a "girl thing" = therefore = shameful, shallow, not something to be proud of.
I'm continuously curing my incredibly hurtful and internally misogynistic complex of "not being like other girls". There are still biases and automatic-judgements I'm fighting on the daily. But it's become so much clearer and easier to do so.
Im more ways than one I want to be exactly like other girls. I want to grab the hands of all the fangirls around this site and dance with them in a circle and tell them they look great whatever they choose to look like and I want to sit down in a meadow and make flower crowns together and squeal over our favorite things.
And to be clear I'm not saying be girly. I'm saying embrace you inner girlhood.
And that could be so many things. Just... Never be ashamed of the parts of it that society deems shallow and embarrassing or worthless.
And just... Thank you for being girlies with me 💗
(girlies & girls as usual used as more of a state of my mind and being; not a strictly gendered term. This applies in all, most or many ways to queer people & of course non-binary and trans experiences).
#thoughts thrown into the tumblr void#kind of like an actual blog post#sorry if it's incoherent or maybe relies too heavily on stereotypes in some ways? I've tried to find better words#when we do inevitably function in such a categorized society - and I hope the divide weakens and ceases to exist entirely one day#in the meantime we still exist here - with these linguistic and actual imposed divides and sometimes we need to heal within them too#I'm making less and less sense aren't I#anyway - maybe this resonates with someone - maybe it doesn't. Maybe you read it - maybe you don't. I think I just needed to say it#this is maybe the best way I could. Eh - words can be such a trap fkr thoughts and inner workings -#but we still love them with their limited waya of helpings is express; don't we. It's the best we've got#/#my posts#thoughts#blog stuff#fangirls#&#girlhood
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class swap design masterpost for convenience (from top to bottom: bard!riz, cleric!gorgug, sorcerer!kristen, barbarian!fig, artificer!adaine, and rogue!fabian)
#dimension 20#fantasy high#fhfy#fhsy#fhjy#riz gukgak#gorgug thistlespring#kristen applebees#figueroth faeth#adaine abernant#fabian seacaster#my class swap stuff! oh yeah I think I got a tag for that I'll call that#fh class quangle#gna slowly go back and get that tag on relevant posts too. for organization's sake#even tho I didnt really intend this blog to be that kinda blog lmao. we were all just gonna be out here dealin with that at our own pace#anyways uh! they! u know all the lore for the designs already I put em in tags. but otherwise this also collects like the#color keys kind of for these. mostly the things that change between designs#doing this did make me realise half of these are a Lot more consistent in color keys than the other half lol#like kristen's palette stays pretty much the same. and fabian's. the hit's mostly in the construction#a lot of this is overall like an exercise in remembering what high schoolers would actually wear and how to work in Costume pieces#on this point at least I straight up have No relevant recollection lmao all the basic education establishments I went to have uniforms#and outside of school I was. well kind of a shorts and tee guy. so#on that topic I feel like fabian's is the furthest stretch lmao. like if a guy in high school wears the same bright yellow raincoat#to school every day that's like. people would Not like that guy. fabian really is saved by being cute and a rogue#he will still have stans when he's deep in his fishing arc in junior year he's the manic pixie dream bf#anyways uh. things to do! stuff to get done. sleep first tho. have a good night lads#I have not caught new nsbu yet! seems I mostly catch them like two to three days late nowadays.#so please uhh. don't reply on my posts with nsbu spoilers? we are all excited and having fun but that's rude#ok thank u. signing off for the day have a good night#!!
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saw someone argue that the central defining feature of fanfiction is its attention to proper characterisation. man I don’t think you’ve read very much fanfiction
#I think you end up with these idealistic arguments when you don’t define fanfiction#in relationship to intellectual property law. like that actually is its central defining characteristic & this definition doesn’t make any#claims about quality or content or style (or characterisation) because all of those are variable#so I’m being kind of mean here because I think the op was just trying to describe a relationship between fanfiction and the source material#without grounding it in history or law. so you end up with these silly normative claims about what goes on in fanfiction#anyway not going to link the post I’m referencing because the person was just being mildly annoying on a post of mine#and I was being nosy on their blog. I was just caught way off guard by that argument because like. lol#fandom discussion
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✨MASTERLIST✨
(fanart, longfics, oneshots)
Welcome to my blog!!! Here is my masterlist of ALL of my little sketches, artwork, writing, and general brainrot related to Hogwarts Legacy💘
🌿 - Madeleine / Maddy / myokk
🌱 - AO3
🌿 - likes and follows come from my main blog, @oerflink, because this is a sideblog (🥲)
🌱 - Eloise Babbit, my MC and basically the whole reason for this blog🫶 I don’t necessarily view her as the game’s MC, as my fic is quite canon-divergent and she is sweeter than the evil gremlin I played in-game😆💓 [link to her character sheet]
🌿 - my art tag🫶🫶🫶 here you can see basically every drawing I've done since joining the fandom!
Writing:
Before It Felt Like A Sin (AO3 / tumblr - ongoing)
Sebastian Sallow x F!MC, canon divergent, longfic, wip, dual pov Eloise/Sebastian
Summary: Eloise never wanted to be different.
And yet, her differences are what have defined her life up until this point: growing up as a squib in one of the most prominent wizarding families, being exiled to muggle society, and then attending Hogwarts at the age of sixteen.
She finds herself thrust into the life she should have been prepared for from birth but was denied. As she navigates this new life and her new precarious position in her family, she must come to terms with the fact that maybe what she dreamed of her whole life isn't turning out how she ever expected it would.
Tags: slow burn, angst, magical theory, mythology references, pureblood culture, occlumency, legilimency, hurt/comfort, family dynamics, eventual romance, eventual smut, sacrificial magic, blood magic, dark magic rituals, implied/referenced child abuse
[coming soon] - an excerpt from the Ominis longfic I’m working on💘
Oneshots:
clumsy (AO3 / tumblr)
pairing: Sebastian Sallow x f!MC
word count: 9,1k
rating: E
summary: sebastian is clumsy.
or: two stubborn brats make things more difficult than they have to be.
cw: fluff, mutual pining, idiots in love, two really stubborn idiots in love to be exact, sir cadogan guest appearance, anne and imelda are the gremlin best friends every girl needs, smut (18+ ONLY), oral (f. recieving), no y/n
legilimency (AO3 / tumblr)
pairing: Ominis Gaunt x F!MC
word count: 1,7k
rating: m (language)
summary: (His parents and Marvolo insist it’s a gift handed down from Slytherin himself, just like the Parseltongue Ominis despises. It is not. It is a curse.)
or: The Gryffindor student has caught on that Ominis can read her thoughts and decides to get her revenge.
tags: ominis is a natural legilimens, he is entirely too introspective, fluff, no y/n
remembering the snow (AO3 / tumblr)
pairing: Imelda Reyes x Poppy Sweeting
word count: 3,3k
rating: G
summary: Imelda remembers the first time she saw snow.
Her parents always started the story telling her that she cried and cried and cried.
or: a character study on Imelda and how she grew up because I love her & she doesn't get enough appreciation :)
tags: character study, fluff, romance, first kiss, emotional hurt/comfort, I just wanted to write a sweet story & explore Imelda as a character
Illustrated scenes:
(aka where I illustrate little scenes from my longfic and oneshots💓)
🌿 - the summer before Sebastian and Anne’s first year at Hogwarts🥺💓
🌱 - Sebastian hates Eloise’s guts😳
🌿 - Eloise is really, really bad at chess😔 (this scene always makes me laugh SO MUCH)
🌱 - right after the pensieve scene🫶🫶🫶
🌿 - Eloise and Sebastian’s first kiss😇😇😇
🌱 - some angst after their first kiss😇😇😇
🌿 - sebastian overthinks things a lot😔
🌱 - an excerpt from my oneshot, clumsy💘
🌿 - another scene from my clumsy 🫶 I really love writing Sebastian’s pov & this was just so much fun to paint and write😫💓
🌱 - Eloise and her mother😔
🌿 - Eloise is NOT flustered by Sebastian😤
#hmmmmm I had a lot of fun making this & obviously I need to actually sort through my disaster blog and add more links/organuzation/etc#this is what 6 months of procrastination gets you🥲🥲#when I started posting in April I didn’t care but now it kind of stresses me out#also I chose this picture bc a) it’s horizontal; but b) choccy said it was one of her favorites#and it IS cute#and drooling Sebastian deserves to be my header for a bit😤😤#ok im going to organize my art later😵💫😵💫😵💫#also maybe there is a better way to do this??? idk I’m just making things up😭😭😭#I literally have gone quite crazy no chill since I started posting and there is SIX MONTHS WORTH OF BRAIN ROT TO SORT THROUGH!!!!!!!!!!!!#i just focused on the writing for now bc it’s a) what I like the best and b) easiest to sort through#but I really want to put links to all of my art & organize it#& ALSO put links to all of the amazing art I’ve been gifted🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶 even if it’s just for me to go back and look through😌🙏#hogwarts legacy#hogwarts legacy fanart#hphl#hogwarts legacy mc#hogwarts legacy oc#eloise babbit#sebastian sallow#sebastian sallow fanart#sebastian sallow x mc#ominis gaunt#ominis gaunt fanfiction#hogwarts legacy fanfic#sebastian sallow fic
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i deserve a spider-woman nepal..... miles doesn't have to be the only teen spider with a terrible bisexual mentor (enter my own sketches of the world's most annoying spiderperson, who i fling towards pavitr, complete with a design that's subject to change)
#geeta methodically puts on all her jewelery before going out as spiderwoman <3 u cant fight crime if u are not cute#spidersona#of sorts? i think but everyone should have expected this from me. there was no way sony was going to give me spiderman india#and not receive spiderwoman nepal (THE KATHMANHATTAN JOKE IS TOO EASY) in response#im tackling south asian unity one spidersona at a time!#pavitr prabhakar#spiderman#my art#also ofc one specific mention to demigod-of-the-agni who inadvertently triggered my actual posting of geeta#who was just supposed to stay in my psd files forever.....#mythic mumbattan au my beloved. hindu mythology my beloved. genuinely so so cool to see and it enabled me being self indulgent on this blog#for some extra context: im very much still workshopping her and me and my nepali friend were drawing her tgt#as in she would say something and i would hurriedly scribble/sketch it down#and then i kept kinda building on it. ofc i could not resist being inspired by the comics noirverse#so here she's also gifted her powers by a goddess (durga!!!!!) and almost works w her like a much less deranged moon knight. yeah...#don't look too closely at these pls . the design/sketching/etc is kind of everywhere#edit: forgot to adjust colors so theyre up again and a little more vibrant nyeow....
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daily life arc miura haru. does anyone know who i'm talking about. do you guys remember her. i still can't believe what happened to her 😔
#katekyo hitman reborn#khr#khr text post#miura haru#the fandom confessions blog reblogged a confession about the girls and how it's kind of a shame they're always given more depths through#the badass/girlboss who now knows how to use weapons route#and it made think of haru because like. of all the khr girls imo she's the one that route actually makes sense#both narratively and character wise#like if her characterization stayed the same post daily life arc and she was given decent focus and room within the story#post future arc or somewhere along i could have totally seen that happen and would have bought it no questions asked#like look me in the eye and tell me she wouldn't have gone 'so you're telling me you're dealing with the honest to god mafia?#okay so when do /i/ get a gun too so i can handle myself and give you guys a hand??'#i mean. she literally slapped then punched tsuna upon their first meeting because how dare he corrupt innocent children#and then challenged him through a duel wearing armor because how dare he not see the wrong of his ways#then tsuna saved her and she was /immediately/ like 'oh you're KIND and care about the people around you? okay nevermind i'll just become#the future vongola decimo's wife'#also she was literally right there when they attacked the tomaso's headquarters#and was also there to witness tsuna's 'first kill' and was like 'it's okay tsuna. i'll wait for you to come out of prison' lmao#she's so unhinged#she's so funny#she's ready to throw hands at all times no questions asked#amano free my girl she can do everything the boys are allowed to do too 😔
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pro tip if you want a positive fandom experience: do not follow confession blogs. you’re just asking for a bad time if you do that just don’t
#‘why is this fandom so toxic’ genuine suggestion stay away from the Bad Takes Factory#I hope whoever runs that blog doesn’t take this as a personal attack it’s just. man im sorry i just think confession blogs are a horrible#idea.#im tempted to block it just because I do actually use the For You tab in order to explore new blogs and posts I wouldn’t otherwise see#and confession blog posts just keep coming up and I have to zoom past them or else they’ll make me mad or exhausted half the time#I saw someone saying we don’t deserve a s2 because of how toxic we’ve become and im just like dude. you’re kind of doing that to yourself#most of the conflict being talked about is so ridiculously minuscule and taken out of proportion. like. most of us don’t actually argue#about that. most of us aren’t going around yelling about what’s problematic or not. or whatever. that’s a minority and you gotta learn to#either not engage or block and move on. then the world is magically a better place#sorry hope this isn’t a hot take. that’d be ironic#rambling
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i did something crazy (actually played the sims)
#like no i didn’t go in to work on story or post stuff I PLAYED…#i made a sim to try the new pack out with finally because i had a craving for some gameplay#and on this blog we honor those cravings rare as they are#honestly.. it was kind of nice.. i feel burnt out creatively so doing something mindless injected me with serotonin#did i have to restrain myself from making over every sim mine interacted with.. yes of course#ahhh how do people play and not want to remake everything#that’s why i only actually play like a couple times a year 😭#anyway it was nice. i’ll probs hop on again later
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wtf i would ask for a mutual bbut im shy and you are so popular i thought you didnt follow more than 5 people
if it helps i'm also shy and the fact that i'm popular is like half an accident and half just me not having a fucking life... if you don't wanna be put on blast just dm me and i'll still follow you 😔 i know it looks like i just follow five people but i actually follow quite a few it's just MOST of them aren't too active and those who are are reblogging the same things the five most active people i follow are, so statistically i end up reblogging the same people all the time bsdfhsdbf. i swear on my life though i am not being elitist in the slightest when it comes to who i follow and/or reblog and if anything i want to follow as many phannies as possible it's just, y'know, i'm scawed
#also i don't follow that many multifandom blogs#i mean if you ask me to follow you and you're multifandom i will!#but i don't follow a lot of multifandom blogs just out of nowhere#my point being i have a lot of people i see in my notifs all the time who i really really like and i kind of consider them my mutuals#but i don't actually follow them cause a lot of what they post/reblog idk anything about#answered
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You can be the princess, and I can be the dragon that keeps you safe and locked away in my castle !
#੭﹕ ̊ ̟ ꒷꒦ growling .ᐟ#'princess' I say gender-neutrally !#this post is mostly kind of silly#irl yan#irl yandere#irl darling#obsessive yandere#yanblr#yancore#obsessive#yandere male#yandere bf#yan boy#yandere#actual yandere#bpd yandere#yandere tendencies#yan blog#actually obsessive#obsessive boy#obsessive love#obslove#actually yandere#yandere irl#and we can just . kill anyone that tries to steal you >_<#or something#if anyone remembers when I mentioned loving like a dragon . yeah .#I am a monster . but like !!! love me !!!
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don't know how to format this post so welcome to waterfall is craving things and she doesn't know if it's more h-rny or lonely so enjoy a little snippet of what is playing on loop in my mind~
Person A: tshhieew!
Person B: Bless you, poor little thing~
Person A: I'm- eshh'iew! tschh- kngt'shhew! I'm not little!
Person B: Even if you aren't, your sneezes sure are~
Person A, blushing: No they're- eh'tnshiew! aeshh'iee!
Person B, with a smirk: What a poor, sneezy little thing~
#waterfallsnzarios#waterfalltalks#i guess??? idk man waterfallcraves is more accurate#just B taunting them and A being such a little blushy mess by the end#knowing that they ARE little but even if they arent! the sneezes are! they cant fight that!#not like they can fight being little either buutttt~ ;3#yes im picturing c/huuya but gotta be honest not seeing d/azai as the other#perhaps in a private little bedroom... away from prying eyes and ears...#or perhaps this is just something I crave okay i just- lil with lil snz auhegughguh#im a sucker for a kitten snz and i am! feeling things so welcome to this randomness that does NOT have a point~#(and yes okay maybe id like to be on either side of this BUT! shut up! i do not!)#(using this as a blog again- starting to get more and more used the idea that like... maybe i DO want attention???)#(always knew i craved attention but like.... always used to it being the kind of attention that i GIVE to others and maybe i get something)#(but not used to like... actual genuine attention thats just for me and that isnt kinda... idk- you give me things? so i give bak?)#(gonna be so honest!! i do not feel cute! most of the time! and usually thats okay! i like being a lil chaos gremlin :3)#(buuuuuut recently been having more friends call me cute and idk!!! maybe its not the worst thing to get to be a lil soft sometimes~)#(ANYWAYS blog post over im so sorry to anyone who read these tagssssss but here is a lil snzario that hopefully makes up for it!!)
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the urge to hc all my favorite characters as having NPD but also most of my fav characters being villains so not wanting to hc them being narcs cause I don’t want to villainize NPD even though I have traits of it/questioning full on NPD and I feel like its gonna be demonized anyways but like?? arghhhhh
#npd safe blog#npd positivity#the tellers blog#actually npd#npd safe#npd#cluster b#actually cluster b#npd traits#neurodivergent#narcissistic personality disorder#actually narcissistic#narcissistic#narcissism#also this kind of applies in general to a lot of my disorders#especially cluster b ones#like i love villains#the villains are so girliepop#but like#i don’t want to further villainize this stuff :[#rahhhhh why can’t people just be normal about mentall ill people??#tellers disorder posting
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grrriaanwwnananannn i tried to make a cool effect but its not really that cool
sorry fo the casual negativity but im going through the craziest art crisis ever and like im completely overhauling as much as i can from my old art style so all i have rn are doodles ahhhh its so frustrating but i feel like i should post somethin anyway just to make me feel better
#dsmp dni#as much as that will help anything#hermitcraft#hermitcraft whatever season honestly#hermitcraft is very long i realized#in the early episodes of grians season 6 pov rn#ive watched it out of order so i mean i finished season 8#if youve seen that one time i talked abt hermitcraft in my tags#u know how scared i am to post any hermitcraft fanart#not because im not proud but because im just scared#minecraft smp fandoms are…. not always the kind of people i want to attract#no shade i just dont have a lot of faith#grian#does this count as a specific grian#i dont know any of the grian lore#or any lore#i really dont care about the lore#theyre just funny guys building cool shit on a big server#grian fanart#hermitcraft grian#i dooonnnt know really#i usually use tumblr tags as like a personal diary but rn im just feeling bitter#I HATE MY ART!!!! I HATE DRAWING!!!#the art crisis is less an art crisis and more an identity crisis#i think im getting on the right foot with my art wnd then i feel like i mess it up?#digital art especially i just hate everything i do digitally#really negative what a debby downer am i right#but nobody actually reads tumblr tags#also its my blog i can be a debby downer on my blog#for archivial purposes obviously
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kiddos!
(used this old render as a ref)
#myart#marky#bow#kelly#dhestyn#gaston#sue#stella#i had a lil bit of fun w this one#this might be the first time i’ve ever fully finished a piece. like. in my life.#color & background & all#i like how it turned out!!#in total it took me ~18 hours but i admit that at least some of that time was literally just me trying to learn how procreate works#i figured it out. mostly. kind of.#idk what i’m gonna do now#maybe i’ll finish the mbz character lineup i started#i might just like… redo that whole thing though actually#mm. don’t know. n e way.#going left is the title of the canon story btw. i know that’s on my blog in few places but. yea#post-canon which is what i post abt most often (when the kids are… no longer kids. adults.) is called going right#i… thought it was funny#going left was supposed to be a placeholder but it has been 10 years atp so. doubt it’s gonna change#rainyrambles
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La natura sta sguarendo and I'm channeling the frantic pacing into drawing
#[.art]#listen. I don't dabble in fandom all that much aside from posting art and discussions with the same three people#so I don't know the state of the les mis fandom. I don't know you freaks (neutral) I don't know what you get up to. I've been told it's mad#but I do want to organise my blog so this is getting maintagged#les misérables#javert#second disclaimer is I also don't know what the... standard interpretation for this guy is. I just searched how he's described in the book#as that seemed like the most reasonable source? I do know one (1) person in the actual fandom. kind of. but I am not asking#my point is I like javert
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Hey y'all :') things are still pretty up in the air but I don't wanna get too personal on here. It's just been a lot between my own health & family shit. For now, I'm safe with my sis & bro in law, who have been so incredibly loving, patient, and generous 💚 gonna refill the queue these next couple days. Here's my favorite niece for good fortune on your journeys.
#💬 beskar.txt#much loooove#too tired to interact I'm so sorry#idk it just feels wrong to be on here when I'm actually too exhausted to make any kind of art or send asks#bursting with ideas/AUs but so tired fuuucckk [rattling the bars of my enclosure]#I'm writing a little but it's a far cry from the hours long 2k< word sessions I usually do#like I know it's my blog I could just speech to text post my rants and leave but it feels selfish haha
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