#just a psa update

[prodigum]

+ added mr. darcy, duncan from dragon age, fiona gallagher, and baela as test muses, added some muses pages to make some test muses permanent.

[theirmadness]

for ALL mutuals: please like / comment this if you’ve read my rules and are okay with the content on this blog! this doesn’t mean participation but merely that you are okay with the fact i write what i write! going forward i will require all my mutuals and current rp partners like this post for my own sanity and to avoid any kind of unnecessary issues. thank you.

[queerslurheritageposts]

while I'm online, I want to ask that yall be mindful in what you tag us in. tagging us on potential heritage posts is fine, and so is recommending the blog! but do keep in mind that we see everything we're tagged in, and that discussions involving other types of slurs, especially uncensored racial slurs, can be pretty upsetting for us. this blog is run by a person of color, and getting notifs with the hard r n word uncensored can be very unsettling. we appreciate that you want to mention us in these discussions, but getting tagged on posts including things like uncensored lists of racial slurs is not fun! if all else fails, ask first.

[fluffghostrp]

medical stuff under the cut.

I'm out of surgery, gallbladder has been removed! i'll be on strict 'no pushing/pulling' instructions for the next two weeks, while i recover, but i'll Probably Be Around so long as pain doesn't dictate otherwise.

[midnight-mourning]

I need y'all to know I chose violence with this next chapter, and by violence I mean I had a rare spark of brilliance while writing the secondary outline today and it's SO GOOD I am SO excited for this next chapter fr fr

[nikkoliferous]

This is the bully list after what happened to @abby118 . It comes from a famous Loki GIFS creator on tumblr who is also getting harassed & showed in the toxic behavior of this person behind these many alts accounts. Share it with everyone !!

lokilaufeysondiaries strangegodsloki queenofstarsign85 dreamingofimpalas hereitgoesagain067 buckybarnes-winters0ldier themoonsmaven nerdconpp crackships-r-us69 lokisimp89 lowkey-lokid souls-for-fandoms cassius-blackwood fandemoniumfantasies ladylovelyfan2014 lokismilkshake goddessofvictoryy

PSA for people being targeted by any or all of the above blogs.

personally, I am agnostic on the topic of preemptively blocking people (and sharing block lists, for that matter). I don't usually block people myself unless I'm getting directly harassed and they're becoming a distraction/it's the only way to get them out of my notes. with that being said, that's a personal choice of mine, and I fully support the rights of any blogger to block any other blogger for any (or even no) reason. nobody is entitled to read or interact with anybody else's blog.

this should also go without saying in this day and age, but I do not condone nor encourage anyone going to any of the above blogs to counter-bully them. do not spam their posts' notes, do not send them anon hate, so on and so forth. just block (or don't, if you prefer) and move on. not only for your own sake, but because from my limited direct interactions with/knowledge of a couple of them, it's clear that they crave the attention and it only feeds into their self-pitying view of themselves as the perpetual victim (despite them being the aggressors in each instance I've borne witness to). don't feed the trolls, etc etc.

stay safe out there and do what you need to do to take care of yourselves, loki fandom. 💚💛🖤

[oneknightstand-if]

Public Service Announcement

I'm just REEing over here (no, it's not my computer catching fire this time) because both of the sites kerploded that I was using to easily fact check my Arthurian stuff.

Zen Donaldon is just gone and the Nightbringer.se "upgraded" to Wordpress and now it looks like this.

Yes, very helpful.

It took me over half an hour to find the Pesme Aventure entry since I couldn't remember the spelling and the search bar (currently hidden on certain pages only) now only brings up 6 huge placards at a time.

I do still have a physical (+ PDF copy) of Christopher Bruce's The Arthurian Name Dictionary which is where a majority of both sites' info originated from, but flipping through a book (used to) take so much longer than performing a site search.

The Internet Archive still has the old versions of both sites, but unfortunately the search function doesn't work for them. And I've got a whole bunch of links that are going to need to be updated in the game too.

[reallyrandomtj]

RULES Have been updated! MUSE List has been updated!

Muses being removed:

Genshin - Shenhe & Dainsleif Honkai Star Rail - Black Swan Others - Sorano Aguria, Yukino Aguria and Crowley Eusford.

Muses that will likely be added SOON:

Genshin - Natlan Characters ( TBA. Perhaps another Harbinger? :3c ) Honkai Star Rail - Gepard, Moze and/or Jiaoqiu ... IDRILA? Others - TBA

Will be putting this in a queue ( a few reblogs ) to take time differences into consideration.

[cjoat-boost]

March 4, 2024 Edit of this still relevant post from February 27, 2024

For those that view any of my online presences (including my blogs)…Um, this is something for you to know.

Please save this post so it doesn’t get buried by queue.

My& Current Health Situation

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I wish to communicate this to y’all now so that…I don’t end up worrying anyone when this happens. It may have been noticeable by some folks that I’m dragging, heavily. I’m not having a good time right now with my body. With this comes with an onion of issues detailing certain aspects of what I’m going through.

I know I have a lot of obligations. Not only as a creative and content creator; but as a friend, a mentor, Guardian or even older peer, and myself. I’ve neglected myself for too long. I have been noticing my vitality decrease; and my CFS and POTS flaring up further.

Social Justice is something I’m always perceiving and sensitive to; and as such, the strain I’ve noticed too late has been worsening. Includes many emotional meltdowns and outbursts from me that I can no longer control or hold back.

Trying to figure out how to exactly sort through the mass tangles of my traumatized emotional and mental state isn’t as simple as I hoped for me. While I’m creatively burned out, I am suffering Autistic burnout. A double whammy of all things.

I’m finding myself getting “stuck,” unable to physically move for hours at a time. I’d move upstairs to eat something but end up being there for what’s normally an half hour task…for nearly 2+ hours. Even so, trying to force movement to do tasks that is considered “everyone can do these” is mentally painful and physically locking. Even if I have to desperately use the bathroom when I’m about to fall asleep, my headmates (AKA alters) have to switch to co-front or “snatch me back” in order to get my body moving. That’s with the sudden rocket spike in heart rate and blood pressure, and loss of balance (at the very least).

I’m already struggling to cope with many things due to the fact that I haven’t been able to draw much at all; or create anything and write anything. Especially trying desperately to fulfill my word on things I had the energy to do, but no longer do. So much of my struggles I can’t properly transmute. It’s so upsetting.

Thus, there’s going to be a sudden and abrupt shift in posting or messaging. I don’t know when. But it is coming.

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(Especially since I’ve been feeling mania over the weekend. All weekend, Saturday and Sunday, I manic cleaned large portions of certain areas I occupy as well as my housemate. Today I’m feeling the aching in my joints badly, with my calves swearing hell at me. I’m wearing my wrist brace too, I just…I’m rambling.)

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I wish for you to know what’s happening if you don’t see or hear from me, my headmates, or any of my online presences (as depicted here: https://cjoatbysamwise.com/cjoats-links ) No one is being forgotten. I’m not abandoning anyone. I’m not ghosting anyone. What I do know (still coming to terms with it ngl) is I need to stop, fully stop, and recover. It’s looking like my body is going to do that for me by force. It’s going to be abrupt and sudden to the inconvenience of many, including my housemate, unfortunately.

I don’t know how long this will last. But I don’t know how long I’ll be able to keep “hustling” like this. Does this sound repetitive? I wanted to communicate before suddenly I’m unable.

Does this sound repetitive? I’ll end it here. I wanted to communicate before suddenly I’m unable.

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I’ll end it here with how you can support me while I’m down, only able to and wish to (I’m aware financial situations are a big struggle at the moment, there is no pressure to.)

Provide support by these links:

Thank you for reading until the end; have an awesome week ahead. Please remember to hydrate and eat. 🫶🏽❤️‍🩹

[crowcryptid]

Update 7-zip if you use it. To update, go to https://www.7-zip.org/download.html and download the most recent version for your pc and run the file.

Versions prior to 24.07 have an exploit that allow code to be run on your pc if you extract a malicious file.

To check your version, open the program, click help, then click about 7-zip.

[hriobzagelthewanderer]

[Until Further Notice, This blog will be on a Hiatus. I still plan on being active on Discord, and following my friends and mutuals on here with likes, promotions, boosting, and maybe the occasional ask or two, but I genuinely haven't been able to maintain my focus and feel comfortable on this platform for some time now. I hope that changes, and do not plan on making any more overt actions than this, but all the same I cannot say when this will change either.]

[themsource]

Life Update 7/13/2024

I'm alive.

There's a lot that's gone on and is going on but I'm here. There's of course a lot going on in my life and has been going on that has once again kept me away. I will not divulge or explain, because I don't wish to. It was a lot, still is a lot, and is extremely personal.

I'm not leaving the undertale fandom as a creative, however, I will be leaving the fandom as a social participant. There's too much corruption and bitterness, too much drama and judgement in the social side of the fandom that I choose not to tolerate anymore.

There are too many people that would rather lie about who they are and what they believe as well as abuse or cut off people that have done them no harm in order to be liked and to gain approval. Acting as if life is one long extended episode of black mirror where your social ranking matters more than empathy to a fellow human, where the echo chamber is god and what's logically right and wrong doesn't matter in the face of personal opinion and paranoia.

I'm too old, and too tired.

Fandom is supposed to be fun, not a nightmare of walking on broken glass and eggshells. I have my small handful of friends that have proven that they are genuine people that legitimately don't care about the nonsense that goes around and imaginary pitchforks that can make them more popular or gain them more friends if they were to follow abusive hate trends and ignorant accusation posts lacking concrete evidence. I feel safe with them and will keep to them, always.

I no longer have time to deal with the "misunderstandings" or "confusion" that happens so often in large groups playing telephone or with those that try to fit words to their own narrative and understanding without attempting to think outside their own preverbal box of preconceived notions and bias, and don't care to do so.

I will no longer attempt to clear up anything or try to be understood by those that honestly don't know me and don't wish to, and who clearly only seek a thrill in causing pain and taking their own projected hurts and frustrations out on someone.

There will be no conversations. Every single online stranger reading this now is free to think what they want about me, even the untruths if they're so inclined.

I'm done trying.

The internet is where the hateful and cruel strive behind an anonymous mask—one often disguised in kindness and supposed acceptance—and of which is the whole of their life and meaning. But it is not mine.

Them, and the internet at large, is not worth my time, health, or life.

When I joined this fandom after my mother's death a few years ago I signed up for an experience that could bring a smile to my face while I gave one in turn to others while I dealt with my grief. Not to be shoved into situations where uneducated youths and adults in their 30s-40 with the maturity of previously said youths go rampart with the need to harm others, either to get ahead or for their own benefit in manipulation to get something out of others.

I have steadily been pulling away more and more over the years because of this. Struggling with the overflow of depression and stress that it has caused me, in turn making me push away and withdraw from people who didn't deserve it in many instances because my own value and self-worth tanked due to the self-deprecating thoughts it caused me.

I am not a saint.

I've done my fair share of wrongs, some of which I will never personally feel I have accounted for properly. I stood silent out of fear of being attacked when I should have said something to help someone wrongly accused by supposed friends and mutuals, I hid in the shadows and didn't think to lend a hand to people I saw were clearly in need because I didn't feel worthy of doing so, and probably many other things that I am unfortunately not aware of because they were never brought to my attention.

Because most people online don't believe in actual conversation but rather in blocking and spreading misinformed assumptions, and in dreaded call out posts so as to earn brownie points for "exposing" (or the nicer form of saying it, but is still just as cruel because the posters know that it WILL lead to harassment regardless of evidence or truth no matter if spread in public or private, but wish to play ignorant anyways — "spreading awareness") of someone. Granted these wrongs were for the most part carried out in my early fandom days that doesn't excuse the fact that they happened.

I still did the exact same thing that was done to me. I unknowingly perpetuated a never ending cycle of hurt, both out of fear and ignorance and out of a naïve want to be loved and accepted.

But I refuse to let myself be a victim or to think of myself as one out of guilt for those wrongs and loneliness anymore, and I refuse to witness others be abused and forced to feel the same way I did over the most menial and redundant bullshit that goes around and is somehow supposed to define your character to the dumbed digital masses.

I'm done.

Plain and simple.

I will be permanently turning off asks and no longer responding to any form of DM unless it is from someone I have initiated a conversation with, have engaged with before, or shares a mutual friend with me that can assure me that they're a decent person, and that I feel comfortable with. I will still on occasion post about updates or share something for the few that may want to keep following, but my personal accounts will largely be silent.

Just because I'm silent won't mean that I'm gone though.

It just means I'm not willing to be poisoned any longer, and am content at looking in from afar, if even that.

There's a lot of good people in this space, I know that, and it saddens me the possibilities I will miss out on in getting to meet or know any of them beyond the ones I know already, but I only get one life to live before I go six feet under, and I choose to put me first.

[dangaer]

jupiters got a new carrd! i've summed up some of the bigger changes once again below:

removed the arc.ana muses for now :(

also removed the following muses: kazuki hosh.ino, yasuhiro isshi.ki, er.iko mukai, ryu.ki f keisaii.n, owen herr.iot, marco calder.oni and robert.o de feo.

added ell.iott, hay.ley, sa.m and seb.astian from sdv. (officially)

also added ai.s and mhi.n from touchstarved (officially)

my carr.d also shows im 24 ... finally!

[moonwoodhollow]

shhh send me a non-anonymous ask if you want this build (for personal use only), because sharing is caring right?

[cozybearz]

Update: Hurricane Milton seems to have reached Category 5 status

[sunday-arch]

i reread my rules every now and then to make sure that i’ve worded things well enough to be understood and straightforward, and i realize that maybe i’ve worded something in a way that could be misconstrued.

listed under things to tag for me , i have ‘usfw, jumpscares, and infidelity’. i didn’t want to have to line break all that and i have it directly following how i tag triggers. i never want to minimize what being triggered means and i also don’t want to exaggerate how these things makes ME personally feel and in order to interact more fluidly, here’s some clarification.

- while everyone here is excellent with tagging usfw, to be clear, what i ask to be tagged primarily is explicit sexual imagery (gifsets, photosets, etc.). i have it blacklisted so it doesn’t pop out all over my screen when i’m browsing in public or around family/friends.

- i will note that when it comes to discussing sexual themes within headcanons / our ships / muses, etc. — i will say that i am open to it and if it ever veers into territory i’m uncomfortable with, i’ll say so. but generally if i’ve started to ship with you, i have reached a comfort level where i’m cool discussing those genre of headcanons and ship material.

- i just really don’t like jumpscares, lmao. it doesn’t happen often at all but just in case.

- now, i’ve been going back and forth in my mind over whether infidelity is a trigger at this point. some personal traumatic events in life that have been the result of infidelity have really made me intolerant to it. i’ve been outspoken about my opinions on it in media/used as plot points in the past, and it really puts a damper on my enjoyment of a relationship (esp when that relationship is like the main thing of a series). i understand it can be a nuanced situation in certain settings, but i prefer to keep myself at a distance from it. as such, this is the one that veers closest to triggering. it can be highly upsetting to me and uncomfortable. i have it blacklisted but i’m going to be so real— and this is NOT an attack on anyone’s preferences or what they personally don’t mind writing but because of how i feel about it, if you tend to write infidelity plots or enjoy it enough to be a constant on the dash, i will softblock.

- however, having it as a backstory to a character or in some part of the background is not something that bothers me too much. ex, your muse was cheated on in their last relationship, or their parents have a history of infidelity.