#jar jar sucks

[garthnadermemestash]

That’s why the prequels don’t exist in my dojo

[bittyfromquotev]

My stance on Autism Speaks

So yesterday, my mother sent me a photo of a page on the Autism Speaks website. It said that they have removed “finding a cure for autism” from their vocabulary. On the same page they stated that they did not support eugenics.

I went on their page to do more research on what they’re saying now. They have a page addressing their awful (and quite traumatizing) “I Am Autism” video. They apologized for it and apologized to anyone that “was offended”.

So what am I saying here?

I do not support Autism Speaks. I never will. Despite their apologies, they do not acknowledge all their wrongdoings. Even if they did, nothing will be able to make up for it. So, that being said, my stance remains the same:

If you support Autism Speaks, GET OFF MY FUCKING BLOG.

[arisveah]

hermitcraft is slowly removing my willingness to curse and possessing me to say things like HECK and DARN and GOSH GOLLY GEE like a comically angry butler from the 1800s or an old southern lady, neither of which are a good fit on a goth 15 year old

[zylphiacrowley]

And the Land Would Tremble...

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[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

hi!!!! kicks my feet id like to see ur wiwi first death thoughts pls

- @suckinitup

MY BELOVED MUTUAL SUCKINITUP HOW ARE YOU. HEAD IN HANDS. I LOVE WILLIAM WISP. FUCK. i think abt him constantly but i almost never write down my thoughts because if i think abt him for too long i make myself sick. like fr. i love him too much. ouuguhghhg going to just straight copy paste this under a cut because it is SO LONG sorry for any typos or sentences that sound weird out of context bc these were originally discord messages:

ohhhhhhh wiwi first death. god . i have so many fucking emotions about wiwi first death. before i get into this im going to say fork found in kitchen to myself because so much of how i view wiwi comes from a VERY SPECIFIC type of dp fanon that it would take me 12 years to actually explain in detail so im gonna say just trust me and understand that william wisp is literally just a fuckign. walmart rebrand of a type of danny characterization i really wish people would just oc-ify (thank you charlie slimecicle for doing this for me)

okayyyyyy okay okay okay. i love there being like. a STARK fucking difference between william before the fall and william after the fall. william before the fall was so much... brighter. in every sense of the word. he looks ALIVE because he is! hes just a . regular fuckign 16 yr old boy. that weird kid in your math class. and yeah he has . suuuuper undiagnosed untreated depression but like its a small rural town thats normal i think. hes got his little group of friends to spend hours with going on cool hikes and reading about the paranormal at the library and sitting in circles talking about conspiracy theories and things. i think UPP is. awesome. i hesitate to get too attached to them in headcanon world just because i dont want bizly to then introduce us to them in s3 and i have to reframe my whole mindset . whatever. i have vague ideas of who they are but the important bit is like. i just think theyre really good friends. and they spend a lot of time together. and william is kind of their defacto leader because... he is the only one of them who actually has truesight. they all believe in ghosts and monsters and stuff but william is the only one who can actually SEE THEM. like. constantly. and thats a lot. and even though they believe him they dont really like.... understand. which kind of makes william feel disconnected from basically everyone around him at all times. i dont think truesight is probably a well-known thing?? so when he was little and started crying to his parents about monsters they thought he just had bad night terrors and then he just................. hes 16 now and still talks about it (less so now, hes learned the horrors of middle- and hihg-school Shame and not to be Super Weird All The Time) so its more like. hmm theres something Wrong here but we dont know what and we dont know how to help. other people (you included ros) have said this better than me but goddddd you knowww the dynamic btwn william and his parents is rough. they love him! so much! and they want to support him! and william loves them too! but they dont GET IT they dont UNDERSTAND and its like. you know what i mean. when you get a mental health diagnosis and suddently everyone is treating you like youre made of glass and nobody really knows what to say around you anymore or whatever. you know what i mean. that.

ANYWAY ALL THIS IS FUCKING. PREAMBLE. GOD. the fall. man. i think there is a STRICT UPP rule of "dont go into the whispering woods alone" and thats the case for the ENTIRETY of their friendship. DONT go into the woods alone. william knows exactly what kind of shit lives in the woods and he knows hes the only one that can reliably see them and he doesnt want anyone to get hurt. MINIMUM of two members for whispering woods investigations. (this is not a town rule or anything. i think the adults of deadwood are aware that its a weird place but it all gets brushed off like . aha everywhere has quirks! and the UPP are like. the conspiracy kids that know the Real Stuff going on. very..... house of anubis is the closest Real Media vibe i can think of rn. UPP pre-fall is like the closest u will get to . scooby doo style monster of the week shenanigans that arent really super serious because theyre safe as they can be about it! bunch of kids doing a ouija board. you know how it is)

uhhhhhhh and then william starts acting weird! i think all of them are on a whispering woods investigation together and theyre all walking together and then william starts lagging behind, staring out at something none of them can see, kind of like. zoned out. tranfixed. and when theyre like "will what do you see?" he shakes his head and snaps out of it like. huh? what? nothing lets keep walking. (it was a wisp btw. obviously) and there are a couple more incidents of him doing this same thing on that one hike until eventually they decide to call it because theyre not finding anything else and tbh william youre kind of freaking us out here. will you be okay? and hes like yeah of course i will guys its nothing i swear. and then they all go home.

and thennnn without telling anyone a couple days later, william goes on a walk in the woods alone. he broke his OWN rule . on that hike he saw wisps and they were just too far away to see clearly off in the distance between the trees but he just Kept Seeing Them and the curiosity was just nagging and nagging away in his brain so much he had to know what they were (thats wisp magic babyyyy you know the mythology around them i dont need to explain that to you) . (and also there is a fair amount of. lack of self preservation because of the previously mentioned untreated unmanaged depression but if i start talking about that in detail i will overshare and also be soooooo emo forreal. know that that is an EXTREMELY important part of this decision but im also going with a little more of the teen mystery angle with this rn. bloody gory mental illness is for after he falls) so he packed his monster investigation backpack and he just. left. didnt even tell his parents he was going he just walked out of the house after school and went into the woods. and he saw the wisps again, but now that he was alone they were Closer and Brighter and they would move whenever he got close and then there was a trail of them ! like they were Leading him somewhere

and i think with some of the monsters he sees he can feel whetehr or not theyre out to hurt him . and the wisps dont feel like that. they feel... well. cold,becaue theyre ghosts, but also warm at the same time? inviting. they dont want to hurt him (they do) they just want to show him something and william "too curious for his own good" wisp wants to know what that thing is! i think he knows the woods really really well because he spends a lot of time out there. so somewhere far away in the back of his mind he kind of knows what theyre leading him toward. but he still jsut Has To Know, so he keeps jogging, keeps hopping over fallen logs and around low branches and theres always a little blue flame juuuuust out of reach so he keeps going . and then he gets to the cliff. its like a full on. burst out of the trees there is a wisp juuuust on the edge where the ground falls away. i think he trips on a root and falls flat on his stomach before he can completely just run off. it gives him a second to catch his breath, to look out and See where he is. for things to kind of come crashing down on him. if he hadnt tripped he wouldve run right off the edge and fallen and it was close enough of a near death experience for it to scare him. but the wisp is still there, and its the biggest brightest one hes seen yet and if he looks around he would see it looks like the entire forest behind him is glowing with tiny blue fires like theyre all watching him. i dont think hes really. thinking coherent thoughts at this point he just kind of. realizes now that hes out here he doesnt really want to go home. he doesnt want to go back to school, doesnt want to eat lunch in the bathroom and think about his brothers empty bedroom across the hall and have his parents look at him with such a weird mix of love and awkward pity and he knows his friends say they believe him but he can see it in their eyes sometimes that the things he says scares them and he really just has been a freak his whole life.... and he realizes as hes thinking all of this he's gotten to his feet and walked toward the wisp on the edge of the cliff. and hes just standing there feet on the very edge staring at it. its floated away now, hanging over the drop at eye level with him but its probably still close enough he could just... reach out.... and try to grab it...... and his feet slip on the rocks and JUST as he closes his hand around the wisp it almost feels like something pushes him (probably just the wind.. right?) and he falls.

he does Not remember hitting the bottom thank god. he remembers falling, and falling, and in the fall he realized he was still holding the wisp he grabbed in his hand and so he pulled it close to his chest as he fell and it almost felt like it was burning him but it was *cold* and .. then he woke up! he woke up in a misty foggy field in what looked to be the middle of the night but if he looks at the sky too long it looks *weird* its just black and empty and there are weird bluish swirls in it that could be clouds but look different, and there are trees in the distance but whenever he tries to walk toward them it feels like theyre moving the same distance away so it never really feels like hes getting anywhere.. and he trips over what he thinks is a rock and lands in the foggy grass and looks behind him and realizes *oh my god thats a gravestone-* and then he wakes up again, for real this time !!! (<< that scene is like. thats His Island. thats his lair or whatever. remember when mal first took him to the spirit world and they were in the graveyard and mal told him that was his. im going with dp style spirit world lairs and this one is williams. hear me out)

aaand. when he wakes up for real. he is at. the bottom of the cliff. EVERYTHING hurts. everything hurts so fucking badly but also everything is like... weirdly numb? and he doesnt really remember that weird dream with the fog and the trees and the grave its all kind of fading as he wakes up more and more and ... his hands are empty hes not holding the wisp anymore. he doesnt know how much time has passed. was any of that even real or did he just have some kind of nervous breakdown and jump off a fuckign cliff? i think he fucking sits there and cries about it for a loooooong time. and everythihng hurts but its gonna start getting dark soon he NEEDS to go home before it gets dark, his parents will start to worry about him and he doesnt want to do that to them. also he might need to get to a hospital or something but hey! he can move! he can stand up and walk! so he must not have any broken bones or anything he just. is bruised and sore probably. and so he. sooooo slowly. so slowly. makes his way back up the cliff (theres. a path. he doesnt have to climb i promise) and back home. alone. no wisps or anything, just william alone with his thoughts. which is . goddd its bad. thats why it takes him so long. ohhh my god what am i even gonna fucking say when i get there. hi mom and dad sorry i needed to clear my head and follow some weird ghosts and in the process i tried to kill myself and it didnt work? fuck?

so by the time he gets home... huh. the door is locked thats weird. its not fully dark yet and his parents know he stays out late with his friends a lot of the time so they usually leave the door unlocked for him. so he knocks. and his mom answers the door and takes one look at him and just fucking breaks down into tears. and so his dad comes in from around the corner to see whats going on and he starts crying too. and william is so. freaked out by this. guys whats wrong what happened. turns out he has been missing for. two weeks. nobody knew where he was or what happened and the woods are alive and weird and anyone who went out in a search part just ended up getting lost themselves and came back like an hour later with nothing. they thought he was dead. (which. i mean. he was. but like. not in the way they thought). so theres this big huge emotional family group hug or whatever with william all dirty with leaves and twigs in his hair and torn clothes and mud on his hands and feet and his mom and dad are just like oh thank god youre alive thank god youre home what happened to you and... man. euguhhhhahghhhh. emo. sorry. god. head in hands .

i thiiink. he kind of ends up telling them what happened. he leaves out the wisps though. his watered down version is.. i just needed to clear my head, i went out into the woods, i got lost, i tripped and fell. (remember how william downplays it for dakota when he asks. i tripped and fell) he doesnt tell them about the wisps but like. that almost makes it worse becuase they KNOW about his bad mental health even if they dont fully understand it and.... this version makes it sound suspiciously way more like it was just a direct suicide attempt. which. william IMMEDIATELY regrets as soon as it leaves his mouth. but thats his story now. so everything kind of... goes back to normal? normal ish??? as nrmal as they can i fucking guess?? for a couple days and he has to go back to school and. god it fucking sucks. gossip . you know how it is. hey that kid tried to kill himself and got lost in the woods for two weeks what a weirdo he freaks everyone out . that kind of stuff. so hes more isolated than EVER and even his friends wont really talk to him although theyre more... sad. than anything else. they just dont really know what to say. theyre teenagers. idk. uhhhhhh then one day he reallyreallly REALLY doesnt want to be somewhere so he hides in the bathroom and.. doesnt realize it at first but he goes invisible. and its not until a couple other kids come in and leave and dont acknowledge him at all that he notices something is weird (he feels bone chillignly cold but like. its a shitty old school building in the very beginnings of winter of course its gonna be cold) and he looks in the mirror and realizes he cant see himself. and after that more and more of his powers kind of. slowly manifest? and he is VERY bad at controlling them and he plans not to tell anyone at first (hes already enough of a freak) until one day his dad finds him like. halfway through the floor in his bedroom and its this . kind of funny ridicuous but also really scary moment. and william has a realization at some point like. oh. i think i *died*. and auughhghg. i think thats all i ahve for now. but . man. when i tell you i think about this soo fucking much man.

[arabriddler]

I have a heart that never beats, I have a home but never sleep. I take one man’s house and build another’s. I play games with my many brothers. I am a king among fools. Who am I?

Point D’Amour by @dragonssecretarthoard

[nanaminokanojo]

Your Friend: omg, my boyfriend gave me cruise tickets to the bahamas for our anniversary...

You: oh my god, Sylus is so sweet. he gave me like...a jar of bullets ehe *tucks your hair behind your ear*

[jnpje]

dishes are forever

[daydreamerdrew]

Batman: The Long Halloween - The Last Halloween (2024) #1

[garthnadermemestash]

Moar ahsoka memes

[women-in-writing]

Really wasn't expecting a transmisogyny jumpscare in Gokaiger.

Also wasn't expecting the wiki page for that episode just, straight up dropping the t slur (it's in the Plot section, starting with "Doc and Joe deal with -).

[suckinitup]

bug jar thought again. i think that the trickster liked to fuck around with mark and the lizardry and the temperature thing, right. make it super cozy warm and then super freezing cold and see how he handles that shit. silly fucker bullshit whatever i dont wanna get too in-depth with that rn but what i DO wanna think about is mark. the clever fucker. with electricity powers and a great understanding of insulators.

i think it takes a while, right, for the trickster to decide to both a) leave mark alone for a while and b) keep him cold as fuck. it’s not on purpose but its just how things end up. mark, though? He’s been waitinf for this. He has to wait even fucking longer to make sure the trickster js gone. he waits what feels like an hour, sluggish, the cold bleeding even through his winter coat, and then huddles down. Covers himself with whatever he can. Presses his hands to the glass, and electrocutes the shit outve it.

fun fact about glass!! it acts as an insulator when its cold. Insulators generate heat. cold glass is full of tension, and introducing heat to that tension is… explosive.

the jar shatters around mark. The jar is broken. hes free. he spent so long thinking about that shit and waiting for an opportunity and now he can GO. i dont know where all of this is taking place but i feel like its some abandoned fuckoff building in the middle of some woods or something. he’s still slow because its still so fucking COLD but he leaves the building and starts trudging into the woods as fast as he can. he just has to reach civilization, or some shitty little gas station, or something with anything that can get him a phone or tools or gadgets. he knows the trickster will be after him again. he knows he only has a limited amount of time. He keeps going as the sun gets lower and lower in the sky and he spends his time planning contingencies. if he builds a bomb, will that slow the trickster or hurt ashe? better gauntlets—will that hurt the trickster or bring mark within stabbing range? if he brings the trickster towards a neighbourhood is he going to get stuck with heroes who will team up with him or against him? wavelength isnt well known. what level of pathetic does he need to act to get them automatically on his side?

and then, when the sun is almost entirely hidden behind the trees, ashe’s voice calls out behind him. he sounds scared. “Mark?”

“Yeah?” marks response is automatic and unthinking, already turning to see what’s wrong with his kid before his brain catches up and he starts to run. he’s not fast enough. The trickster keeps calling “mark?” with ashe’s voice, getting closer and closer and louder and louder. It takes a lot to make mark panic but this has been a lot and he’s running too fast to stop when the space between two trees is suddenly a doorway. he slams into a glass wall so hard that his nose starts bleeding and when he turns the door behind him is gone. he’s in another fucking jar.

and there’s the trickster, not in the woods. standing just outside the glass, staring at mark. Not smiling. Then, he says, “You ran away.” Then, earnestly, ashe’s voice again, “Were you bored? Is that why you ran?” It smiles, and mark is thankful that it’s not one of ashe’s smiles when it says, “I can help.”

and that, i think, is the turning point. this is when mark starts to break. not quite yet. I think that comes later with the time loop thing. but— listen. he’s a stubborn motherfucker, and he doesnt give up. not when the generic reality bending nightmares start. not when the trickster keeps pretending to be his son. not when he has to endure constant tap tap tapping on the glass, or watching the prime defenders (who he Knows can’t be the real prime defenders) walk past his prison over and over and over again just to be torn to pieces or hugged or laughed with (this one, he thinks, isnt for him. it fucking sucks go watch kids get hurt. it sucks worse when its his kid. and it is the worst what the trickster has already done. he doesnt know id the trickster is working through weird feelings or just fucking around and he doesnt ask. he doesnt think about the fact that, with him in here, the prime defenders are the only ones who are equipped to rescue ashe. he doesnt count how many times he sees them killed).

like this fucking SUCKS okay he has a bad time and the more time he spends in here the worse he gets. but he’s stubborn as fuck mark winters and he’s got his pride and his hope and he has all these plans he keeps going over for what he’s going to do when he gets out of this fucking jar again. he’ll shove a sock in his mouth or something just so he doesnt dad-response give himself away again. he’ll do better when he gets out next time. he just has to be patient. he’s rewarded when the trickster makes it cold again and leaves again.

mark waits an hour because he has to, has to not fuck this up. But that hour passes and he’s shaking when he presses his hands to the glass. shaking as he builds up an electrical charge. and shaking when nothing happens.

the glass gets warm and doesnt break. it’s tempered. he cant escape. and its the combination, right, the plans destroyed and the hopes squashed and the stupid fucking obvious fact that the trickster would have figured out how he’d escaped and fixed it—the fact that mark didn’t even consider the trickster (couldnt even consider) shutting down this escape route—the glass, solid under his hands after constant yearning—thats when he knows that he cant fix this. thats when he knows that this is out of his hands. whatever happens to the trickster—whatever happens to ashe… the prime defenders are the only ones who can save mark’s son, and mark has seen them torn to shreds already.

[spokelseskladden]

wait, y'all thought the suitors just rolled up the second odysseus went to war? I mean it's a fair assumption I guess but they did wait until it was fair to assume odysseus was dead, they're major assholes but they didn't do this shit for 20 years

[why-the-heck-not]

ugh gonna have to start a new sourdough starter; this one has a bit of mold in the sides of the jar (not on the starter itself) and ik some ppl on the internet say u could just take some of it out to a new jar and keep going, I think the safest bet is to just start over. It's only a month old, and better to go back a month than to always wonder if I'm lowkey poisoning myself every time I make bread (and wouldn't feel comfortable abt sharing that bread/starter with other ppl bc one thing to poison urself, but others?? that's a big no).

[rottedsoulx]

So when are we gonna start putting our blorbos in jars and drowning them in

✨vanilla extract✨,

huh?

[the-casbah-way]

i HATE you kamala harris i HATE you donald trump i HATE you liberals i HATE you republicans i HATE you america. god bless