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hello mark winters suffering brother in ARMS. i bring you more mark winters suffering because i keep thinking about the heat lamp. trickster giving him a heat lamp js SO fucked up but imagine how furious he’d be about it. Sometimes the trickster is gone for hours and fucking hours and everything is peaceful in despair and he’s so warm. he’s *relaxed* against his will. a lil puddle. the trickster is careful about the type of heat lamp and glass and air flow so he doesnt even get to have his paranoia about melting to death he just kinda. sits there and and the heat melts into him and soothes all his sore and angry muscles. and then suddenly everything is fucking COLD and now hes slow. The trickster comes back and taps the glass. laughs at him. The glass goes soft like taffy abd mark *could* push his way out he *could* escape. but his limbs are too slow to respond and the glass is hardened again before he can reach it. the MOMENT the trickster learns hes actually sensitive to temperature i think his life gets a lot worse

- @suckinitup

GOD DUDE I COULD NOT HAVE PICKED A WORSE NIGHT TO GO TO BED EARLY. I MISSED SO MUCH MARK WINTERS TORTURE ‼️‼️‼️ doing the predator handshake w you forever

I looooove making him sensitive to temperature changes. why else would he wear Basically Winter Gear as his villain outfit!! that big coat with the fur collar is not just for looks it is for WARMTH.

anyway yeagh heat lamp...... I have been thinking about bug jar mark winters for hours now. GOING 2 pick up that jar and shake him around. man isn't that Just Like the trickster to give him something good just so it can be warped into something horrible !!! yeah ashe I'll give you the power to protect your friends but also I'm not gonna leave and your meat puppet body is mine permanently now <3 ANYWAY. GOD. he's probably spent so long adapting to being cold out of sheer stubborn force of will to ignore the fact that he might not be fully human anymore. it's just something so constant to him now that it doesn't affect him as bad as it could. but you give him that comfort for an extended period of time... it's like. sitting in a hot tub for a long time and then immediately jumping into a swimming pool! the pool might be a reasonable comfortable temperature but in comparison that shit feels fucking FREEZING. uagughg. and tempting him with escape too... evil! I think he should get to the glass before it fully solidifies and push a hand into it (he's not strong or fast enough to break through) so when the glass completely freezes again there's a warped handprint that he has to stare at and think about how close he was to almost getting out!

[suckinitup]

actually hey what if the trickster put mark in a jar and then Did Not actually remember the human need to breathe. smile emoji. puts him into a glass jar with his fucking twig and a few bugs. water bowls. all the great things a lizard needs to keep healthy!! and he does great and fun things like give mark horrible nightmares and ignore him while pulling out ashe’s hair strand by strand and generally just giving him a really bad time while being focused on other things. and mark is smart, right. Hes really fucking smart. he wouldve been in distress for a while and more focused on breaking OUT and actually rescuing his son but i dont think it would occur to him immediately thaf there is no Fucking ventilation until the trickster is gone for hours snd hours snd he doesnt know ehen itll be bsck. he’s able to calculate how much time he has left until the co2 does him in (17 hours, if he breathes slow) and every angry and fast breathing and fighting part of him he has to shove down because he cant save ashe if he’s dead. and it felt like paranoia, at first. That first hour, breathing slow, because the trickster will be coming back soon and mark is pretty sure it doesnt want to kill him (has a weird affection for him, even, which makes him want to tear out its throat) and maybe this will give him a chance to escape. and then another hour passes, and another. and it still feels like paranoia, taking precautions just because he’s mark winters and thats what he does. but then ten hours have passed and the trickster still isnt back and now he feels like he’s just sitting there and waiting to die. he needs to get up and try to break out and scream and fight but he’s smart, and he’s stubborn. It’s been too long. He already knows that the glass is too hard to break and trying to climb or knock it over (things he’s already tried, things he’s already failed) wont work. hes thrown his eggs into the waiting basket and do he has to sit there, counting down the minutes, fighting back his own instinct to fight.

he’s on the ground, dizzy, when ashe’s silhouette appears above him. panicked, checking his pulse with claws that nick bleeding marks onto his neck. “Are you okay, dad?” with a voice that isn’t ashe’s and, laughing, in a voice that is, “i guess i forgot to add in some air holes!”

[anachronistic-falsehood]

giggling kicking my feet watching someone get to a very specific part in a pd episode and waiting for them to lose their fuckng mind

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hi. one quastion. muse. and ashe. and the transition from ashe to muse. idk if yall talked about it before but ik the trickster was pretending to be ashe’s friend for a while (CRAZY. DID NORMAL THINGS TO MY BRAIN) and then Yoinked him afrer overlord and ashe reappeared again a few weeks later as muse fancy evil puppet strings and spooky letter and all. i wondered last night what happened in those weeks and im just. Haunted. What Happened. how does the trickster take control over people and does he need to be in close proximity to them is that why he had to wait so long to get ashe and when did ashe realize it was going wrong. how long did the trickster keep pretending to be his friend. did ashe ever cry into the trickster’s shoulder about the overlord bullshit. did he ever realize that shit was going down and he needed to leave but never could. was it like his breaker state where he never fully had a Realization he just kept fading away and then theres nothing to realize its just his life to be that freak’s doll. <- many questions but pretend its the one. ashe pov of ashe to muse pipeline. would he even remember it and does it also feature in nightmares

- @suckinitup

AHAHA. AWESOME QUESTION. I AM GOING TO DIRECT MOST OF THIS TO @stuck-in-the-ghost-zone because this specific time frame is their beautiful little evil fucking bowl of seeds. they will be able to answer this so awesomely for you. sniles sneetly.

the part that i will answer is saying Yes ashe remembers.... not all of it. he remembers the beginning, and he knows when the memories started getting too smeared and blurry and vague before eventually stopping entirely. oh you know it features in nightmares babey!!!!! you know he knows he got stalked for upwards of Months probably by the trickster who knew where he was almost every second of that time!! it takes. a very long time before the constant absolutely paralyzing terror that the trickster is Still Watching Him eases up in the safety of his own home & the wards house. it takes even longer than that for the paranoia at being outside and around people any of whom could be!!! Him!!!!! is manageable enough for him to u know. go out for longer than like 10 minutes without panicking messily. also i think the sensory memory of that first possession (u will see what i mean. 🧍) is seared into him & he has nightmares about it often & wakes up still feeling it and unable to shake the feeling even after he wakes up. ^__^

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#dissappointed Went in for a Cheese Danish... Nope... they don't sell those at This Walgreens..so I had to "Settle" for this... #SuckinItUp

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hiii so what do you think mark winters did immediately after finding his wife murdered and little baby responsible. i think he ran, personally. grabbed ashe and got a hotel room and never managed to actually go back. that sorta thing. but i wanna know what your thoughts on the widowed blond boy are 🎤

- @suckinitup

you're gonna call me so fucked up for this but unpopular opinion I don't think they moved <3 i think the house they're in in season 1 is the same house she died in <3 I think they did go to the cabin for a while afterward but then. i mean. they had to go home eventually. had 2 fuckign. rip up the carpet in ashes bedroom bc he couldn't get the bloodstains out. couldn't hire anyone else to do it bc who the fuck would clean something like that up without question? 1 billion more layers of hurt on top of the fact that ashe had to stay there in that house for as long as he did. uhhhhh I wrote this out somewhere once before but I don't feel like finding it now but . he reported her death as a rogue villain attack. to the police/heroes it was "I didnt see who did it, just heard the window smash and came in and Ashe was alive and she wasnt" they Never Found The Guy because he doesn't exist. Mark quit his job bc he couldn't stand leaving ashe alone. ironic bc when he got his next job (being a villain) that's exactly what he did !! but. yeagh. same house :) that place is so haunted with tragedy it's unbelievable

[suckinitup]

felt legally obligated to tell u it has been tumblr user suckinitup appreciation day All Day among the hornfreakers btw !!!!!! u are voted new honorary fourth nhw guy for ur mark winters torment nexus &also muse & virion posting. <33

omg yippeee yippee yay yay yay !!! honourary fourth nhw guy i will wear this crown with honour and tears streaking down my face as i think about those fuckifng Guys and the horrors yall put them thru. ignore the mark horrors im shoving into the closet behind me he’s literally fine and normal

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ME WHEN MY FRIEND SUCKINITUP WATCHING GREYSCALE ARC

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@suckinitup cannot get over mark jar!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

hi ! please consider. mark winters doing surgery on himself to get those tubes in place and reinforced (so they cant just be torn out by enemies looking for handholds). he probably would have made a fucking gadget for it. also consider: maybe he DID have a tail. but it fucked with his balance and he chopped it off. also consider: someone smashing him with big rock

this has been: gore of comfort character

- @suckinitup

I CANT BELIEVE I FUCKING MISSED THIS IN MY INBOX. HI. THIS IS AWESOME. you know whats really funny is i have a . horribly dusty wip where i wanted 2 explore specific lizard headcanons and one of those was in fact him cutting off his tail. except because i love torture and lizards can do this irl. it grew back. inescapable torment. same brain moments

god dude i always somehow forget the fact that he has. tubes in him. he is like a living battery and that makes me insane to think about . he has to fucking stab his gadgets into his back to get them to work. THEYRE IN HIS BACK. LIKE. you KNOW he did that surgery to himself because who else would but also like thats the most inconvenient place to do surgery on yourself. hello??? he makes me insane.

IM going to smash him with a big rock. in my mind. indiana jones style.

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

literally going to start crying for real over that tidalwave post. tumblr user suckinitup rippping out my heart tricksterstyle

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

@anachronistic-falsehood @suckinitup i love the vibes on my dash tonight :)

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Hi here to ask nhw quastion again :3 ik ashe and the wards have Problems once ashe gets detrickstered because theyre all triggering each other and dying horribly and messily and its miserable but ! microphone emoji. do you have thoughts about how that would work specifically between virion and ashe

- @suckinitup

(also ik i havent rbed the other thing yet so yee the suck tag works for now akdhskdh i am Between Internet Names atm. and ofc i chose a url thats hard to nickname 😔)

HI!! GOD. YEAH MAN. YEAH I FUCKING DO. literally their dynamic post trickster is something i think about so much. awesome question to ask me. augh. okay. bullet pointing this for now bcos i'm on my phone....

>post-muse ashe & virion have a shared understanding of both.... enacting & witnessing close violence? in a way that nobody else really does. dakota and wibby have been through some fucked up shit!!! they have seen and been victim of and done some incredibly awful things. of course they have. they still don't understand it on as personal a level as virion does-- virion, hiding and watching his family die one by one, virion, killing capes with their own powers. (whenever i think abt virion's stint as a vigilante i think abt taylor saying it's more personal to kill a cape with her power than with a gun. perhaps it's even more personal to kill a cape with their own powers.) the intimacy of violence & the feeling of being nothing except a vessel for it & not being really sure who or what you even are anymore is something that. ashe struggles so much with, & virion Gets. he isn't, like... sympathetic? they're not wailing and crying and virion isn't pitying him. he's just... easier to talk to, sometimes. he isn't.... loudly emotional. he gets it.

>virion also is very quiet and always moves deliberately and with intention. he is like..... as opposite the trickster as possible, in terms of physicality. this-- ashe is triggered easily. wibby's eternal taut vibrating anxious energy, dakota's quick movements n loudness & such... the body language there is. similar, sometimes. it's bad when he catches it out of the corner of his eye, or feels it behind him. virion is absolutely nothing like the trickster. it's calming just being around him. (well. when you're someone he likes.) & being able to relax that constant tension that ashe still has. leading into:

>ashe doesn't touch his hair for weeks, months, maybe, after he gets back. because of. obvious reasons. (i don't remember if an actual post got made abt it but we came to the conclusion that while the trickster loves styling ashe's hair & playing with it like doll hair he does Not have the commitment or attention span for taking care of long hair. frequently he makes him do that part himself. drops his control every so often & throws him a brush & is like. clean it. ashe getting jerked back to awareness sitting very very very scared and alone and small and brushing dried blood and meat out of his hair & braiding it with shaking fingers knowing that he's only lucid as long as it takes to do this. every time it happens he's in a different place and wearing something different.) so like.... when he gets back. he has a really hard time taking care of his own hair. and also obviously a very hard time letting anyone else touch it. it gets tangled and matted and greasy & he's ashamed of it & can't do anything about it & can't bring himself to cut it off and lose one more thing that brought him joy to the trickster. it's virion who eventually helps him with it. it takes so long-- both of them sitting fully dressed in the shower for hours, ashe trying so hard not to shake apart virion going through most of a bottle of conditioner to carefully tease the knots out. virion who doesn't like talking a lot and is always quiet trying to keep up a soft running one-sided conversation the whole time so ashe knows who's behind him. (they tried mirrors and mirrors didn't go well. the trickster had a lot of mirrors.) u know. it doesn't get done in a day or even a couple weeks & sometimes virion accidentally brushes the shell of an ear or the base of his neck in a way that sets off bad sensory memory & they have to take a panicking badly break.

>re: their Problems specifically. another reason why they click like this post-muse is because. virion isn't worried about him hurting him. he and ashe are on a level playing field, when it comes to powers. like, obviously he doesn't. think. anything would happen. & ashe absolutely refuses to use his power anyway. but there's an equality there that lets ashe breathe a little easier too. and muse never hurt imprint the way that he did will or dakota. so virion's hangups when it comes to ashe are 1. he fucking Looks Like Muse. even though his body language is different and he looks like a different person with his hair back down in loose black layers & he doesn't have those orange threads around him. virion sol most paranoid guy alive. he tenses seeing him out of the corner of his eye sometimes & wakes up to see the silver mess of his hair spilling out from under the covers (u know ashe sleeps 100% under the blankets. how is he breathing under there.) & has to breath slowly for a couple minutes and watch the rise and fall of the ashe blanket lump's breath and run through every scenario in which this is muse under the comforter and not ashe and why and how it's incredibly unlikely that this would be muse etc. 2. he is afraid that. ashe/muse will hurt william and dakota. it's irrational. he's spent the past year afraid that muse will hurt william and dakota. he's paralyzed sometimes because he thinks if i leave the room and i leave will and ashe alone in there i'll come back and he'll be dead. & then also especially in the first couple months back there were. a handful of instances when virion was startled and caught off guard and ashe is up against the wall with an arm across his throat or caught in a lock before either of them realize. & it is bad for Both of them because holy shit ashe is panicking and frozen and not breathing at being manhandled like that and he's going to blame himself for this so badly in an hour because obviously it's his fault and he should have known better and of course he's a threat to them. & of course virion has to drop the grip and run away and lock himself in the bathroom out of horror because holy shit he almost just hurt ashe he almost just killed him. he would have killed him. (he wouldn't have.) he hurt him.etc etc. etc.

>ashe knows how v thinks abt him sometimes & understands it & it doesn't make him feel Very miserable because he does get it.but it makes him a little miserable sometimes. but virion's still the one who bumps their hands together so he can copy his power and float the remote over. before the trickster, ashe used to play games on his switch on the couch & virion would sit on the couch back and watch him (v hasn't really played games since his trigger event. all the ones he used to like are covered in the Ooze now.) & it would be their weird quiet bonding thing. and now virion's the one who sits near ashe on the couch and starts up animal crossing & ashe watches him play. (it takes a while for him to get his fine motor control back. he's shaky.)

>givingthis one its own bullet point because it's important post-muse ashe has a really fucking big mental block w/ using his power. he's terrified to he refuses to he Will Not. he doesn't want to hurt anyone again. virion keeps stealing his power & using it for the same shit he always uses (mundane daily little tasks) in a very pointed look. see? it's not inherently evil. it's okay. i'm not feeling threatened by what u can do right now. see? way.

[suckinitup]

tumblr user suckinitup I need u to know tje irreparable damage you've done to the hornfreakers discord I am seriously considering going to the garden store after work and buying moss and gravel for a terrarium jar irl -_-

AWESOME AWEZOME AWESOME AWESOME. oh my god ive been thinking i need more decor for my desk i literally completely forgot that you can just. MAKE lil terrariums. i may also have to do this now

but fuckinf AWESOME also so glad to torment you witht he brainworms. The brain lizard. the fucked up little guy. hey btw hey the mouse thing fucks so severely thays awesome. hey hey what if trickster just yells “FEEDING TIME” and dumps like a hundred living mice onto that blond man and then fuckin leaves. irresponsible pet ownership but hey at least mark has some enrichment for a little while !!

[suckinitup]

TUMLBR USER SUCKITUP MY BELOVED MUTUAL OUT FOR BLOOD WITH MARK WINTERS TORMENT NEXUS 2DAY. WAGHHHGH. HORRIBLE AWFUL TERRIBLE MUTUAL!!! JAIL FOR SUCKINITUP!!!! JAIL FOR SUCKINITUP FOR ONE THOUSAND YEARS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

JAIL??? JAIL??? WHERE MARK WINTERS IS ???? :D :D :D he will not survive until morning