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The sillies!! Might gonna change Demon Laios' design later and I still need a name for whatever this AU is
#dungeon meshi#delicous in dungeon#dungeon meshi AU#au#winged lion#art#fanart#doodles#digital art#what do I call this#Some people thought that it was manipulating Laios in the comic but no it legit wanted to be human#ive got a short comic in mind to explain out its reasoning why#But it sorta doesnt care what happens to Laios in the meantime so ermm#As you can see Demon Laios is in fact getting confused by his multiple heads#He also has trouble keeping a complicated form because his small human mind isnt built for keeping track of so much#When he was transformed into a monster by the winged lion in cannon his mind was warped too to accommodate#but he doesnt get that here....... so uhhh he might not be OK long term!!#I dont have anything particularly planned out rn#Mostly just vague ideas#dungeon meshi spoilers
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Hiiii not sure if anyone's asked this yet but any advice on how to improve on art & anatomy? I use to draw a lot wayyyy back in high school but then stopped because of life getting in the way but now I really wanted to get back into art but realized my art isn't as good as it use to be & I never really cared too much about studying anatomy so all my anatomy/proportions are really wack & I'd like to get better at it. Hope you're having a good day!!! 💞💞💞
HI!!! i dont have any formal training in anatomy nor have i really done any studies, so unfortunately i think i can only offer general advice, but hopefully you can still find it helpful! here's what i'd recommend based on my own experience...
focus on proportions BEFORE anatomy! nailing down the size/length of each body part in relation to each other will give you a good foundation before getting into the specifics of anatomy, since you can practice this with simple shapes (circles, boxes, tubes, etc.). then practice anatomy/build on top of that, rather than trying to figure them out in parallel
practice from real life observation/references (ex. figure drawing)! even if you want to draw stylized, it'll be much more helpful in the long run if you study from real life. you'll be a lot more informed in how body parts actually connect to each other or how they move. observe observe observe! take pics of yourself/watch how your body moves--you can be your own most accessible resource, and a mirror and camera can be your best friends
find a way to keep yourself motivated to practice anatomy! everyone says that you only get better with practice and time... and it's true! but i can understand that sometimes it's hard to motivate yourself. if you ask me, draw your favorite characters :) it's literally all i do HAHA. my mentality is that... if i'm drawing something that i like then the practice feels less of a chore lol
#sorry these are kind of vague T_T i dont have a ton of technical knowledge...#i draw mostly based on intuition formed by years and years of observation lol#which is why i would put the most emphasis on the second bullet point btw!#i think its the main reason why ive gotten to this point in drawing while being self taught#but also bc ive been drawing for a very long time too#also sorry this took me a couple of days to answer T_T it takes me a while to come up with a response to these types of questions#bc im not great at articulating my thoughts HAHA <- not a words person#but i'm really flattered to get an ask like this T_T i wish i could give better/more specific answers T_T#i think its awesome that you want to get back into drawing tho T_T it's inspiring me to keep practicing as well#i actually saw this ask right after i got back from watching look back over the weekend LMAOOO#I WAS SO DEEPLY MOVED...!!! HAVING ALREADY BEEN SO RAW WITH EMOTION#IM ROOTING FOR YOU ANON..........!!! DONT GIVE UP !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! KEEP DRAWING!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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OKAY f1 heathers au post starting NOW
heather chandler: fernando - cmon. look at fernando and tell me he doesnt have heather chandler energy. he is totally a mean girl and would be perf for this role
heather duke: carlos - he is supressed mean girl and im saying this as a carlos lover. he wants to put forth a perfect face until its publicly acceptable to be bitchy and charles is just the unfortunate bearer of that. i do think in this au he would be more passive aggressive mean then singing “kill yourself” mean but those are just little bits. i also think he has the capability to go mad with power
heather macnamara: charles - HONESTLY i think that he and carlos could be slightly interchangable based on your perception of them BUT i do think charles pulls off the innocent charmer look better so hes heather mac. but dont forget that heather mac is a heather for a REASON and she is also a shittalker so charles DOES have a mean bone in his body DONT BE FOOLED. charles here also plays into the macnamara/veronica angle bc he also has a bond with oscar
veronica sawyer: oscar - tbh i dont have a clear reason except it just feels right LOL like the narratives all line up … the carcar beef and the veronica/duke beef … the mcnamara/sawyer connection … loscar and martha/veronica …. i fear it all fits too well. also i think it would be funny for fernando to be a bitchy ghost haunting oscar for half the musical
JD: lando - this is mostly because hes been a menace lately and i DO believe he would be dramatic enough to blow up a school + fake their suicide note because someone broke up with him for killing 3 other people
martha dunnstock: logan - tragic unpopular bestie of the loser -> popular main character that gets hurt and left behind because of it. need i say more
ram & kurt: max/daniel OR pierre/esteban - no super strong reason for either of them except they are the two duos left on the grid that can give fboy but also hidden homoerotic relationship LMAOOO
mrs flemmings: lewis - sorry have u seen his whole peace love and plants front … he is so totally the teacher. tries to be pro mental health and diversity that it feels almost fake AND hes kinda unhinged with it. a case could be argued for seb but unfortunately i need him and mark to be oscars parenes LMAOOO
okay thats all for now folks 🫡 and if anyone ever makes any art of this …. pspspsps please feed it to me (tag me)
edit: PLS DROP ME ASKS IF U WANNA DISCUSS I CANT REPLY 🙏🙏
theres also another take on this thats vaguely developing in my head where its lewis + teammates = heathers with lewis, nico, and george being heathers and lestappen being jd/veronica BUT that needs to cook some more compared to this one LOL
#ive actually had this cooking for AGES#can you tell im a musical theatre fan ….#anyways thought i should drop this bc my other teaser post (without any tags) got ??? notes ???#OKAY tag time#fernando alonso#carlos sainz#charles leclerc#oscar piastri#logan sargeant#lewis hamilton#landoscar#<- vaguely ??? but i thought i should tag anyways#anyways no pierresteban or maxiel tag bc they are not major. LOL#miffy mumbles#f1 au
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questioning sexuality is so exhausting
#(edit: sorry for the rant in the tags and i just. i want someone to talk to me)#i keep on doing it for no apparent reason#someone was talking about lust yesterday and i realised today that.#even tho id thought i don't experience it. i possibly do. but exclusively towards women.#i hate it here!#for a multitude of reasons i will never have a relationship with a woman but! i may be incapable of having a relationship with a man!#at some point in the last few months i have abruptly pivoted from definitely wanting marriage and kids to being ambivalent on marriage#and not wanting kids. that's such an outlier in my life that it might just be a mental health thing tho idk#but at the same time i. want to be loved.#i don't know what i want anymore and im tired of questioning myself#i definitely overthink it but idk how to stop it#and i hate hate hate how the moral obsessions have bee lately#this isn't entirely related but it kind of is#like Am i a terrible morally bankrupt person for having certain thoughts or is it just religious ocd go brrrr?? am i overthinking it?#i don't know. i don't know!#for a while labelling myself as arospec ace kinda calmed that down but. i don't know#i do't want to be attracted to women. i don't want to have to look away so often. i don't want any of that.#but i don't know how to stop it.#i don't even know if i'm attracted to men at all.#this is a cry for help and encouragement and prayers no matter what your views on these matters are#queer stuff tag#i nearly fessed up to my friend yesterday about same sex attraction and i might've except that it would have probably outed me as#the person who anonymously sent in a question several months ago about the side b movement to a church thing#ive only told one person at church about any of that sort of stuff and it was very vaguely worded#also see: this friend is the mother of the boy i?? i don't even know how i feel about him#i increasingly think it wasn't romantic at all. but i don't know#i would love any encouragement you got. anything at all.#i don't know how much this stuff is affected by the fact that i consider myself unloveable and think it highly unlikely any boy will ever#care for me#now im rambling. sorry
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Age 30, year 2046. Father of Isiah Hale aka SVLEM
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#cyberpunk 2077#male v monday#cp2077#cyberpunk 2077 oc#cp2077 oc#CP2077edit#cyberpunk2077edit#cyberpunk 2077 photomode#cyberpunk 2077 screenshots#cp2077 screenshots#reshade#virtual photography#male v cyberpunk#ᴏᴄ ⋆┊ᴄᴀꜱᴇʏ ʜᴀʟᴇ#ive had these in my drafts for a really long time#thought i'd share even if they're a bit old#casey started out as a very vague concept#but i got attached and he's been promoted to main character status--even though he's deceased in salem's canon#but he's very alive in pretty much any other timeline/au#i'm still looking to tweak a few things about him#such as finding his wardrobe style as well as any cyberware if he has any#as I've been slowly building up his story and life--salem's canon story has also been filling itself out#i might share some more of him in the future if im able to#i wanna say this is him about three years before salem was born
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its so funny how for someone whos relatively new to lifesteal i know so much canon and fandom lore just by virtue of the fact ive been following some ls fans since way back when as well as having some toes dipped in the exploits and pvp scene
#mine.txt#i think the very first ls fan i followed was rinthehecker themself and got Some knowledge of s2 because of it#but ive vaguely heard of ls since s1 cause some exploit ppl talked about it#and i thought the gimmick was cool but could never be assed to check it out myself#s3 was when my dash and tl really blew up with ls shit#was so fun seeing ppl feel despair and paranoia when s4 rolled around lmao really wish that was enough to get me into it but alas
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#i am glad mag fandom is a lot less militant than it used to be back in 2020-2021#(probably before that but i wasnt born yet)#at least on tumblr and/or in my little circle#the vibe towards interpretation was real hostile for a while#and posting too many thoughts/disagreeing with the Approved Interpretations started to feel like#setting yourself up to get yelled at or vagued about#so now that the show is years over and all the discourse is 'over' it still feels scary to participate in fandom on that level#and im sure ive contributed to that in some way but i hope!! new people feel comfortable Discussing#drinks talk tag#jsims essay got me pondering and reflecting
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I was finally able to get past that pesky bug that wasn't allowing me to defeat Tatiana and I am now having so many emotions about her since I've seen the entire battle.
The fact that her entire argument this whole time isn't as simple as May trying to frame it as "rock is better than EDM," it's simply that EDM is the most reliable output she has personally seen and there is some grounding to what she claims that lies within the artists who produce both kinds of music themselves.
You know all those stories about young, passionate rockstars! They don't care what they do, they live in the moment and live life on the edge and do anything to chase a little bit more of that fire that keeps them going and keeps them playing. Tatiana knows this well enough because she was one herself with the Goolings and she is the remnant of one herself now.
From what I understand, the Goolings fell apart because of differences in priorities. The others were rockstars, they cared about what they felt and what mattered to them, personally, above all. Not the priorities of the people. And because of their love, their passion, their drive, they were able to output so much power for the city, but didn't know how to run it in a way that wasn't controlled by their feelings. Tatiana saw this and Tatiana knew what needed to be done and she did what she had to do to properly use the role they were given and the Goolings fell apart.
Tatiana knows rock is only so powerful because of the artists who make it but those artists are terribly unreliable and she knows this all too well. Why else would her guitar be powering that clock in her office, as Zuke puts it?
EDM is safer. It's rigid. It's far more flexible and allows a wider range of artists to help her city prosper. And, well. There may be more frequent blackouts now but at least she can rely on artists who know what's best.
On top of that, there's something about how she believes in this so strongly, so so fiercely that she'll allow herself to use bits and pieces of that same old passion that she tried long and hard to bury deep within her chest, if only to use it to snuff out the flames of another little star that's gotten a little too bright. That it starts with her using it intentionally in balls of fire to throw them off and grows more, and more, and more the angrier she grows.
And there's something about the fact that even though she has time on her side and assumingly warps the fabric of reality to be able to hold you still right where she wants you and make you crumble beneath her, that same ability is what you use to defeat her. Time is on her side, yes, but only when it's stopped. Only when she can use it to protect her and protect what she strives so hard to uphold. But once you start to take her back? Remind her of who she once was? She's the one who begins to crumble.
And there's something about the fact that all she wants is order so that she can do good by her city and bring the city what it needs, and yet.
And yet she cannot control everything.
And yet she cannot control herself, as the flames of a fire long spent lick their way along cracks in her hardened shell—she's quite literally hardened herself to step into a role she personally feels she must fulfill—and burst out in a brilliant show of light; screaming that it's still here deep within her, it's always been here the same way those memories always will be, and she uses it as it demands to be used.
And yet, at the end of it all, she still realizes she was wrong.
And maybe as she sees those embers in the eyes of a stupid, stupid child much like herself at one point in time, that that passion can be used for something more... beneficial this time around.
If the fire is cultivated just right.
#anyways i have feelings about this game all over again.#now that i've actually seen the ending and can appreciate it how it was meant to be experienced.#but for now. tatiana rambles.#ive got vague thoughts about kliff too but tati for now.#nsr#no straight roads#nsr tatiana#tatiana#ও musings
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do you write fic on ao3?
unfortunately for everyone involved i do!
#ask#and if youre wondering about my handle i write on anon so its doesnt particularly matter (shrugs)#and also i think its pretty easy to figure out which fics ive written because i want to makeout mad sloppy style with an em dash#anyways (waves offhandely) it doesnt really matter much because i have like posted an ss on here before so you know#its not like im trying to hide it like eh#but also because of my disposition that would put a tranced rabbit to shame i dont exactly yell it from the hilltops either#the moral of the story is if you ask me what im working on ill yap about it maybe like post an excerpt#and months later youll find something posted on anon and youll be like oh! so they finally posted it!#so to spare you all (lies on my tummy like we're at a sleepover and giggles) you wanna hear what im working on#haha of course you do youre a prisoner in my yap box#and i want an excuse to talk about it hidden in the tags so people skim over it and not read it <3#SO the earliest wip is from like early october about a magical realism au because i rewatched lwa as i usually do and well theres this one#ep about a magical animal if you will... and you can kinda guess what it is from that lol its sashaforsyekky#because the dreaded @/tungpin infected me with the brainworms about this trio specifically#and it really is ekky going 🥺 at whatever sashaforsy have (persumably) got going on woe is him its at 5k rn but uh ive stalled progress#because puppyekky has consumed my every thought which leads me to my second wip that ive been labouring over since the start of october#that also just broke 5k and not even remotely done lol whoops but its puppy ekky in a team environment with a heavy emphasis on the euros#rn there are scenes scrabbled out with sasha (multiple) mikksy luosty lundy and forsy. i know i have an idea for bobby.#and really lets see where the muse takes us i have vague ideas that are mmmhmm but we'll see when we get there!#the third one isnt the most likely to get finished but uh it is sashamaffhew global series stuff because it stemmed from#“it really is funny that sasha is treating the finland trip like he knocked up a girl#and is trying to make her meet his parents so it doesnt feel like a shotgun wedding when he you know marries her to take responsibility“#and i just think a maffhew pov with that thought in mind because of the whole touchy at e11even thing is funny to me like think mundane#slice of life oh i feel like im being wined and dined i hope i dont fuck it up jfc i think im fucking it up oh god this feels romantic#anyways it feels remotely ooc to me and it really was more of like a writing break from the wips stated above so (shrugs)#might not see the light of day but its 2k as of now so i do feel its a shame if i dont /try/ to finish it you know? its just low priority#anyways thats my writing check in and i am a prisoner to my own mind i will go insane haha these wont be published anytime soon#because i am slow and get distracted soooo easily so you know <3
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'"Alice was perceived to be a destructive influence on every aspect of Edward III’s kingship, but specifically on his abilities as a military leader resulting in the subsequent collapse of the war in France." [In the Bridlington Prophecies, Erghome] speaks of a woman through whose love and counsel the king was impeded from waging many fair wars at that time. She has made the king effeminate. He no longer has a taste for war but remains at home indulging in luxury.'
(Laura Tompkins)
nothing but respect for MY fourteenth-century antiwar activist <3
#Alice: 'Why spend money on war when you can spend it on ME?#And she was absolutely right#alice perrers#14th century#my post#edward iii#hundred years war#queue#To be clear these accusations were obviously exaggerations - we don't know what Alice thought of the war (it's possible she did#genuinely think it was pointless and going nowhere) but either way I think we can all agree there was a variety of other circumstances#that resulted in the collapse of the war in France which Alice obviously had nothing to do with#such as ACTUAL MILITARY DEFEATS; the economic conditions of the country; and Edward III's own declining health; etc#there's no need to blame her for everything#ALSO extremely funny that if we flash-forward 100 years we find (vaguely) similar energy in another historical figure with a sun motif#Edward IV: indulge in luxury charm people into giving you their money and scandalize the kingdom throughout it all. got it 👍🏻☀️#(he was channelling the Alice Perrers Philosophy. To me)#(or maybe I just have a type)
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Today has not been a good day, tbh.
I managed to get one art made but then irl decided to just make me feel miserable. So I haven't been feeling the greatest.
I do appreciate my partner being here in voice chat to keep comfort.
#nymphrasis#ramble#Idk maybe it would be best to move back to grandmas#Since loving over here just makes me feel demotivated and unhappy#The issue is just figuring out how to move my stuff#And if grandma is still ok with me living with her again#Just...#Sigh#Today really made me feel miserable#Made a mistake that Ive thought was one thing but it was actually much worse#Ended up being belittle yelled at and talked down to that just made me felt like complete crap#My partner heard it all through my mic too#I didn't knew that it wasn't this I really did thought it was something else because of how things usually are#Sorry if being vague about it#I got at least one art made but not fully done#Because the event happened in the middle of me drawing#And just stopped#Idk if I can resume tomorrow#Still don't feel as great#My apologies things just feels rough atm
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hi everyone :’) i havent been on tumblr much lately because i am 1) not watching anything and 2) still dealing with the effects of a bunch of fun medical stuff! i am doing ok but my body hates me so so so much lately. i have the energy and ability(?) to do only a few very specific things right now (play elden ring, let youtube forcefeed me kpop videos, languish) and that does not include watch show or make gif or even write no matter how much i might want to. so. this is how it is haha. miss u guys
#it feels silly to make a post like this when im still on here nearly every day but i Feel disconnected. yknow#like i rb something once a day. i hardly talk to my mutuals. idk#i post vaguely often about my Medical Situation but. i think it might be good if i clarify so#this year since april ive been dealing with a sudden and long-term resurgence of pain that ive had before#originally we thought it was ovarian cysts (which ive been troubled by before)#but that got ruled out mostly. so#my doctor ‘diagnosed’ it as endometriosis (note quotes; it’s apparently not possible to diagnose endo without a surgery which i havent had)#(and so this is just an educated guess on her part and on mine. but a decent one)#i went on hormone meds for that which dont seen to be working for the endo but do regulate other things#but that significantly worsened my depression#so im on ssris now#theres also some other issues with me i dont care to disclose here#and its really just been A Lot#right now the ssris are on a very low dose but they are making me brutally dizzy and nauseous also.#i keep trying to be optimistic and then i get dunked on. but i will keep hoping#it will pass but fuck could it pass faster#rowan chatter#i have actually managed to write some despite all this. but show watching has fallen to the wayside
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im gonna be real for a second. if fantasy can only be enjoyable to you when removed from any and all real world implications then is it even good
#mileposting#sorry if this seems like its targeting anything i literally just started thinking abt it for no reason#like this is not a vague LMAO but i think its smth ive thought about for a long time and i finally have the words for it#because like. okay for one all stories are based on the human experience whether its About the Human Experience or not#so i think when approaching a work of fiction and seeing something that has implications in real life#a lot of people have the kneejerk reaction of ‘its fantasy/its made up/its not real’#but where did it come from? who was it written by? what are the writer’s personal feelings on the matter and does their bias affect the work#this is just a me thing i guess but i dont find it any fun to see those connections and immediately disregard them#its because of those structures and systems that we can find a fantasy work so compelling#i understand the want to just turn off ur brain sometimes and be like fuckkkk cool dragon#like i fucking love a good dragon or whatever dont get me wrong#i have a world of my own thats literally just Ooh cool shit#but i would not call that compelling. fun maybe. but a lot of the appeal is lost for me#fantasy worlds are mostly just. our history but with fantastical elements to it#they typically are not fantastical worlds with our elements Removed from it#so the way specifically societal structures are treated differently in that aspect is interesting!#idk this is kind of a nothing post also you can tell i got distracted like five times in the middle of writing the tags. smile
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intaglio prints i did of my oc Dave for a class assignment like a year ago! a bit about Dave's feelings being a friendly but eternal, undying, and interdimensional sort of guy. being a little outside of the rest of the world's phase of reality, wanting to connect but knowing it can never last etc etc. was very fun!
#art#traditional art#printmaking#intaglio#done with like a vaguely photogravue-esque method: putting transparent film with drawings on a plate that has a photosensitive film over to#transferring the image via a uv light partial cure - removing the less cured parts (where the drawings lines were)#and then fully curing the film so its hard and can be used as a very low profile intaglio!#its very fun and fast - and thats why the drawings look so drawing-ly LOL they were pen drawings photocopied onto transparent paper#these were supposed to be like a sequential storytelling thing for the assignment where each plate was supposed to stand alone well#but i lost the plot half way through and made mine too intended to be layered so i understandably got docked a few marks for that LOL#BUT thats okay i learned a lot (1. remember the assignment instructions) and i still like these!#i should do more intaglio. i thought i hated it but then i realized the method for inking i was taught first was overkill#(i was taught to put way more ink than is needed and it took FOREVER to polish) but now that ive figured out easier methods#its really fun! and works well for someone like me who loves their sketchy lines
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Imagine Peter getting a call in the middle of the night
him thinking it's probably Ray getting excited about a definitely haunted hairbrush, and letting it ring
eventually picking it up as it continues to ring for a few minutes, only to find out it's Egon's wife
She's stressed, and worried, and Peter isn't sure why she's ringing him
But Winston isn't picking up the phone, and she knows that Egon and Ray have been arguing a lot recently so...
But she's worried
Because Egon's not doing well. He hasn't been sleeping much, or taking care of himself much (which Peter had noticed every time they went on call together), he's been muttering weird stuff, and obsessed with his notes and books, and usually she can help stop him spiralling but he's been pulling away recently, and spending less time and home and-
"He hasn't come home yet"
Egon always comes home, they made an agreement years ago. He's never broken the agreement before
So she's worried
And Peter is too
He knew Egon wasn't doing well, but they were men in their 40s, Egon wasn't a child, he could look after himself, and it was not Peter's job to monitor him. If Egon was struggling, he could speak up. He knew he could come to his friends for help
Then his mind casts back to the time in uni when Egon tried to drill a hole in his own head, how it all started just like this: the sleepless nights and obsessive studies, and pulling away from everyone, even skipping his lectures.. Peter and Ray just about got there on time.. Though Peter joked about the incident now, he's still rattled by it
He's still pretty rattled by many of Egon's vaguely suicidal experiments
He says he'll go look for Egon (after all, she's got a toddler to keep an eye on)
Reassures her that he's fine, that it'll all be fine, he probably just hyperfocused on the proton packs or something, you know how he is
It doesn't reassure her much - he doesn't even believe his own words either, but what else can he say
After the call, he heads to the Firehouse, knowing that if Egon was anywhere, it would likely be in the lab. It was practically the scientist's second home
He storms up to the lab (the place felt eerily quiet. Janine doesn't work at night anymore, Winston has his own home, and Ray has his flat above his shop)
the light is on
that's something
He opens the door, expecting to see Egon in a chaotic state (or god forbid...), and to be fair, the room is an utter mess, with books open, numbers and scripture written on the whiteboard, a pile of empty Twinkies packets around the bin stuffed full of crumpled papers
and in the middle of this mess, is Egon, head in hands, book open in front of him. It's subtle, but he can see the rise and fall of his shoulders
at least he isn't dead (he ignores how worrying that thought is)
He goes over to Egon and whacks him over the top of his head - usually an affectionate gesture from Peter (the affection is slightly lost)
"Come on Spengs, you really leaving your wife at home?"
Egon looks up at him, brows furrowed, and a practised guarded expression, though his eyes gave away the deep exhaustion and paranoia the scientist must be feeling
If it were Winston, he'd know the exact thing to say to Egon, a talk on how his actions are making his (Egon's) wife feel, and to get his act together, with the reminder that everyone was here for him
If it were Ray, despite all the arguments the two had recently, Ray would comfort him, know the exact words to calm the man and ground him back in some sense of reality - those two understood each other on a level like no other
But it was Peter here, right now
And he's not good at emotional conversations or situations. A serious conversation makes him feel like he's going to break out in hives. It's easier to joke than deal with emotions. (that's why he and Egon got on well. Neither liked talking about how they feel)
So when Egon replies with ramblings about Gozer, clearly lost and not in his right mind, Peter makes a couple jokes, he deflects from Egon's worries and brings the man down to the kitchen to make a hot chocolate to calm Egon's mind (that's what they used to do, right?)
There's more talk, mostly from Peter, about some studies he's working on (that are mostly accurate), and how Dana and Oscar are doing, and the show because oh boy does he have a story about that one man who believed he could communicate with fish-
Egon is barely engaging, Peter could see, his mind is elsewhere, running at a million miles an hour, doing complex calculations and making connections. Peter didn't envy the man really - it must be difficult having a mind so clever and loud.
So when he can tell the talking isn't working, he asks "We defeated Gozer, remember? when my girlfriend was turned into a dog, and Stay Puft got the biggest commercial for free, and we crossed the streams. He's gone forever, right?"
Egon seems to come back to reality for a moment, and they stare at each other, before Egon nods slightly and finally takes a sip of his hot chocolate.
Peter eventually drives Egon home, selfishly because he wants to keep an eye on his friend for a little longer, but Egon doesn't utter a word. That's fine. The silence makes Peter's skin itch but it seems to be doing Egon some good.
They arrive at the house (the living room lights are still on), and Egon goes to leave the car, but Peter reaches over last minute, his mouth moving faster than his brain, "All you gotta do is ask, if you need help. We're still your mates, yeah? I don't know what goes on in that brain of yours but you aren't alone."
Egon seems to be mulling something over in his head, then pulls away from Peter's grip - "Goodnight Peter." - and heads inside.
Over the next few weeks, Peter keeps an eye on Egon
He seems to slowly get better
There are no more phone calls from Egon's wife (except one to talk about what happened that night), his eyebags seem to fade away, he talks less about Gozer, the notes disappear and the books are put neatly away or are packed up, and most importantly he seems to be arguing less with the group and making an effort to spend time with them
Then he's gone
and all the equipment and Echo 1 are gone too.
#rambles#silly goofy thoughts#ghostbusters#the ghostbusters#peter venkman#egon spengler#suicide mention#tw sui attempt#(to be safe? it's the drilling a hole in his head incident and the general idea of mad scientists experimenting on themselves)#this got away from me lmao#shitty writing and somehow longer than several fanfics ive written???#i vaguely remember hearing Ray's call with Pheobe in Afterlife#and Peter's mention of 'that one time you tried to drill a hole in your head' to Egon#and thought that even if the others didn't believe Egon about Gozer - would none be slightly concerned about his mental health?#(it was a stressful time - theyre in their 40s or 50s - theyre men.. emotional intelligence is not their forte... but shhh)#and it felt like Peter out of everyone could detach himself slightly from his frustrations towards Egon and notice the signs#idk if that makes sense
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sorry for reblogging fugly trends from 2012 it's for my enrichment
#have i ever told u guys about my early 2010s fashion and pop culture fixation#i got a gen you ine aeropostle skirt recently ive never been happier#also gonna try and get my hands on some freshtops tanks#eventually#also their shorts though ive only found one secondhand listing in my size#i need the naked1 pallet or i'll die#its funny to me because like#yes within fashionblogging and lifestyle teen youtube girls from that era#consummerism was a massive thing (it still is but its so obvious when you look at blog archives and videos from that era)#youtubers with non disclosed sponsorships#bethany mota and amanda steele vaguely saying “this brand sent me this product to give to you guys!”#it was really just watching the birth of what we know as influencers today and its really interesting to me#theres a lack of cuts theres a lack of scripting theres long tangents#people were only just then realizing you can make money via haul videos and makeup tutorials#bethany mota had a fashion line at aeropostle purely because of her status as a youtuber#there was a big rise at the time of people being against flaunting overpriced designer during that time because of the recession#but there was still a hugggeee hold with consumerism and classism#hauls with brandy and f21 and ae like i cant afford that im sure you cant afford $600 at american eagle on a weekly basis#i have lots of thoughts idk#anyways backtracked#i think its funny because here i am talking about how horribly i need b&bw and vs pink#but like its all secondhand shit for $15 online now#nobody wants this stuff!!!!!! cycles!!! capitalism!!!! i dont know you get what i mean!!!!!!!!!!!#skyler posting
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