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sollucets · 3 months

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hi everyone :’) i havent been on tumblr much lately because i am 1) not watching anything and 2) still dealing with the effects of a bunch of fun medical stuff! i am doing ok but my body hates me so so so much lately. i have the energy and ability(?) to do only a few very specific things right now (play elden ring, let youtube forcefeed me kpop videos, languish) and that does not include watch show or make gif or even write no matter how much i might want to. so. this is how it is haha. miss u guys

#it feels silly to make a post like this when im still on here nearly every day but i Feel disconnected. yknow #like i rb something once a day. i hardly talk to my mutuals. idk #i post vaguely often about my Medical Situation but. i think it might be good if i clarify so #this year since april ive been dealing with a sudden and long-term resurgence of pain that ive had before #originally we thought it was ovarian cysts (which ive been troubled by before)#but that got ruled out mostly. so #my doctor ‘diagnosed’ it as endometriosis (note quotes; it’s apparently not possible to diagnose endo without a surgery which i havent had)#(and so this is just an educated guess on her part and on mine. but a decent one)#i went on hormone meds for that which dont seen to be working for the endo but do regulate other things #but that significantly worsened my depression #so im on ssris now #theres also some other issues with me i dont care to disclose here #and its really just been A Lot #right now the ssris are on a very low dose but they are making me brutally dizzy and nauseous also.#i keep trying to be optimistic and then i get dunked on. but i will keep hoping #it will pass but fuck could it pass faster #rowan chatter #i have actually managed to write some despite all this. but show watching has fallen to the wayside

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