#iv drug recovery

[theaddictspoetry]

Since you left,

i feel lost, out of place,

as if no where is truly home.

Since you left,

the memories replay, over and over.

i think of whats been left unsaid,

what i should've did, couldve did.

When you left,

part of our hearts were taken,

you hold the pieces that held us together,

one day we'll be whole again, together.

(Till we meet again.)

@theaddictspoetry

[james-p-sullivan]

[galaxywarp]

chat why do we think my stomach squirms like eels whenever someone acknowledges that I survived some serious shit

[weirdstrangeandawful]

TW: addiction, substance abuse, IV drug use

'I don't need help,' Whumpee flinches away from Caretaker as if they're going to steal with syringe of precious relief right from their fingers.

'Can I at least do your dishes?' Caretaker glances at the small but existent collection of used dishes in the sink.

'If you insist,' Whumpee mumbles, already focused on finding a vein.

Quietly, Caretaker steps over and turns on the faucet. As Whumpee leans back quietly on the couch, their withdrawal symptoms fading, Caretaker ventures a comment, 'Hey Whumpee?'

'Mhm?'

'You know if you ask for help, it can just mean dishes, right?'

[famousfor15]

Kurt Cobain and William S. Burroughs. The Burroughs quote below still rings true for me even though I havent used heroin since 2015. I still have that "Spidey-sense" that tells me someone near is holding.

[danielleelizabethhh]

How fucked up it was that you kept me on drugs because you didn’t want to lose me. That was your control, and I was your puppet.

[xenostalgic]

man I feel great. extremely not sleepy or delirious. I didn't know surgery recovery could be like this

[queentorri]

1000 days off the needle, fuck the drugs. I love my reality.

[the-worst-fe-player]

The sex drugs and alcohol addictions to tea plants and cooking pipeline is real

[injected-heroin]

Almost 2 years clean after so many years of using and abusing everything I could get my hands on. Crazy shit, still.

[theaddictspoetry]

you're always there for me

even when i wish you weren't

i've given you everything,

every last thing i own ,

every last piece of myself-

just to regret it and drown in self hatred

i despise you

yet i keep coming back for more

it makes no sense does it?

they wish they knew what goes on in my head,

i say i wish i understood it myself....

@theaddictspoetry

[rottingrancidangel]

At this point, I couldn't tell you if I'm a true borderline babe or if it was just the drugs..

[tinylittlebab]

oh how i missed this

[danielleelizabethhh]

12.27.23

10:33pm

It’s been a little over 5 years since I’ve done IV drugs, every now and then I’ll notice my track marks randomly and it quickly brings me back to those times where I’d waste hours and hours trying to get my shot. Sometimes it feels so real and unbelievable that I was even that way, I hate to say it but giving up drug use has been so challenging because that’s the only way I knew how to cope with whatever life decided to throw at me, better yet it helped me forget how real feelings are and that being in this 3 dimensional world is so challenging for sensitive people like myself. Grieving drugs is unlike anything else, until you have first hand experienced what that feels like there’s nothing else to relate it too. It’s like a part of myself died when I made the decision to change my life around, and I’m grateful I did. I’m just saying that sometimes I struggle with day to day things, like loving myself or wanting to escape reality because I feel so misunderstood and different from a lot of people. I don’t work a program, meetings were never my thing and to be honest it’s way too depressing for my liking anyways. I guess I just have a lot on my mind tonight and needed to write some shit down, so here ya gooooooo :)

[chinesu5]

Well.. I relapsed. Couldn’t make it barely 24 hours before the withdrawal symptoms got so bad, it felt like I had only one choice. I am very disappointed in myself & I’m also scared.. I only have a few more days to get on suboxone and then I have to go back to work. I was hoping I could use the time I took off work to completely detox and taper off suboxone.. but idk if I can now so I think I fucked up majorly again. Fuck. Idk what to do.

I am scared.

[injected-heroin]

i finally met my best friend after 10 years, we’ve dated off & on the whole time we’ve known each other. she had my god daughter almost 2 years ago & since we’ve “talked” some but haven’t dated since baby was born. we met one week ago and in one week i’ve decided to move across the country to be with her & help her raise baby girl. is this the smartest thing ever? probably not but it feels so right in my heart. i’ve never felt so safe and at home in my entire life, i don’t ever want these feelings to end. so in a couple days i’m leaving everything i know and have built for myself and driving 1.9k miles to start a family with my best friend??? feels surreal