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got some valentines stuff on clearance and tried one of the queen anne milk chocolate cordial cherries
i swallowed it instead of spitting it back out because i paid for it and that is the only reason why
had to cut up and eat an apple to feel human again and there was literal relief after the first bite of apple washed away a large amount of the lingering sensation of the torture device that called itself a ‘confection’
#im sorry my beloved fruit i strayed from the light into darkness#me: yeah me and large quantities of sugar don’t get along well i don’t understand how people can drink soda and stuff all the time#also me: -voluntarily imbibes one of the sweetest confections known to mankind-#-hates it viscerally-#-surprised pikachu-#its not even that i dont like sugar#its a combination of sensitive ass stomach that gets queasy at the drop of a hat#and sugar very quickly becomes overstimulating for me#coming out to my Halloween routine as a kid being to happily sort through my spoils#eat a few things#then give the rest to my parents#im okay with reeses now but as a kid the kick in the teeth from the sugar of the peanut butter#was WAY too much for my tiny mouth#LOATHED them#it was way too much sweet all at once#sensory overload disguised as candy#which is my current opinion of what i just ate#that i can still taste in the back of my mouth a whole apple later
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originnssssss who remembers origins i Loved origins
#origins smp#i heard theres been like three failed origins revivals WHAT EVEN HAPPENED i was only there for the first one😅#beeduo#otubbo#oranboo#beeduo fanart#i rewatched some origins streams a little while ago oh my god theyre SO FUNNY#DUDE DOES ANUONE REMMEBER THAT ONE STREAM I COUDLNT FIND RHIS ONE STREAM#IR WAS LIKE THE ONE WHERE TUBBO WAS SINGING SUGAR BY MAROON FIVE and they were being really Funny thay shit h#ad me CRYING in 2021 Please i swear this happened imnot crazy but also they might have been separate streams actuallu i dont rememebr its#been wayyyyyyy too long#BUT IT HAPPENED I PROMISE Sorry i've been gone for a while ive been very busy lots of Things going on went to Six flags then jad a surprise#bday party then i had to buy shoes for prom then Go to prom and also i do figure skating and am out like every day idknt have Time im sorry☹#had a crepe yesterday it was sooooo goood im like learning to drive too that shit is boring as hell my dad kept gettign 😑 bc i couldn't stop#yawning DRIVING IS SO BORING its not my fault😭😭😭😭#ok what else ohhhh. y god i locked in SO HARD for this physics essay u guys dont even knowim getting ONE HUNDRED on that trust i just really#wanted to share ok i love you bge#WAIT ACTUALLT SORRU IM LIKE REMMEBERJNG THE ORIGINS STREAMS K WAYCHED#RANBOO WAS SO FUCKING FUNNT IN THOSE STREAMS TOO LIKE I REMEMBER NIKI WANTED TO SEE THEIR BASE and tubbo was like ooh maybe we can put like#water down here for you niki we need a water system and ranwas like Do we though?I WAD WAYCHING THAT .LIKE DAMMMNNNNNN OM LIKE GIGGLING WRIT#ING THIS RIGHT NOW I CAN HEARTHE CLIP HE DID NOTTT WANT HER IJNTHEIR BASE😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#I NEED TO FIDN THAT STREAM WHERE IRS LIKE TOMMY AND JACK A D FHEHRE LOKE TALKING ABOUT DUOS AND THEN JACK SAYS THE MOST OUT OF POCKET SHIT I#VE EVER HEARD LKKE I LITERALLU HAD TK PAUSE. H PHONE AND BURST OUR LAUHJIMG MY JAW WAS ON THE FLOORRRRR DO U GUYS R EME ER WTF IM TLAKING AB#OUT IDK HOW TO FIND THESE STREAMS Oh my god u really Had to be there early 2021 that was liye the funniest era of mt life i wlild be#Tearing up from lauhjimg every day I MISS WAYCHING STREAMS LIVE CHAT WAS SO FUNNY I wishe it was archivedI WISH MORE STREAMERS KEPT CHAT ON#SCREEN i defiently understand why most didn't like Wyd when chats annouing ad hell but also Me 3 years later is interested in what the pub#lic had to say.... ok Now bye
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lying here in bed and thinking abt how alienated out i feel in the cookie run fandom. and then theres a polish sitcom playing in the background from a different room.
#mostly like. i feel so alienated out for like. having such different views of chars.#dark choco is a char i find myself to relate to a lot. i see so much of myself in him.#and yet. i cant get fully interested and that makes me feel. am i even a true fan of his character#if my interpretation is so vastly different from the fandoms#and how his kingdom is probably my least favourite out of all the ancients' kingdoms#for how i feel like ppl and the narrative tend to forget how dark cacaos kingdom is so flawed.#like the whole “no sweet meals” thing. i am not talking abt irl influences and how it impacts the presentation of the kingdom but more like#i feel like ppl tend to perfectionize dark cacao kingdom while ignoring a ton of systematic issues in it.#then theres my opinion on hollyberry. i love her. shes my favourite ancient. but i wish we got a more serious storyline with her#im not all catched up on the lore but i just wish rlly wish we got more of the hollyberry kingdom. and see holly display a wider range of-#-emotions.#i hope the eternal sugar update will get us some hollyberry kingdom angst because i need some more serious characterization for her that r-#-not just snippets#then theres. white lily. i feel like im the only person who liked the fact white lily got her own kingdom and was split into two versions.#it DID come out of nowhere but like. i feel like its sort of more interesting than just white lily being fully DE?#her update was a fiasco with how shadow milk stole the show that was meant to be hers.#but like. so many of my opinions are different than the fandoms that i just cant help but feel like an intruder sometimes#i dont want to sound like a pick me or someone who thinks they r special for being different. because im not.#i do not like this feeling. but i needed to be open abt it ig#cookie chat#theres also like. the lack of proper characterization for carrow besides “good loyal soldier”.#that annoys me as hell too#fyi i DO NOT hate dark cacao kingdom to be clear. i love it a ton. the cultural influences are so interesting and i love the setting.#i just wish ppl didnt brush off a lot of systematic flaws abt it.
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"You saved me so I can kill you", "my wretch of a wife", and "30 seconds" all happened in this series, yet y'all cry divorce on the ranchers.
#and i dont mean this in a 'theyre secretly cuddling between sessions uwu' way#i mean all their interactions have been at most silly at least completely neutral#yall act like theyre bitterly trying to murder each other in every scene theyve been in together#like the one time they ever dealt damage to the other wasnt immediately followed by an apology#the fh people are still out here even after the entirety of dl and 24l so far and yall are here acting like ranchers is made of sugar glass#team rancher#if you like angst thats fine but theres so many post crying that its all over#or acting like its a struggle#you dont need copium when they havent even done anything#sorry but every other duo gets a dramatic devastating moment to point to for why theyre divorced#and the worst ranchers get is 'if we ever 1v1 i could totally beat you anyways running away now' for people to act just as devastated#sorry im super salty this week#and just tired of rancher tags being walls of 'the world is ending and theres no recovery'
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r u the grew up poor never being able to buy the little things in life u always wanted as a kid so now u buy whatever little thing u want as an adult and struggle with saving for the big mandatory thing,
or the grew up poor never being able to buy the little things in life u always wanted as a kid so now u just never buy anything small bcs u had to learn to live without it and constantly try to save for the next big thing in 500 yrs
#everyones been asking what i wanted for my bday and i always say nothing#like i hate the feeling of getting somebody smthing just to get them smthing like personally#it needs to come from the heart for me. if it's for smthing big like a bday#now like getting someone a coffee judt to get them one on a random day is dif bcs it's just smthin random on a random day i can understand#but idk like as a kid into adulthood the only bday my relatives / guardians have ever celebrated was my adopted brother's n my dad's#the dad bcs hes a hyperconservative dictator lol n the older adopted bro is cus hes got higher needs#so everybody gets more money taking care of him n stuff so u gotta act like u care abt him according to the guardians#but like i never even knew bdays were that big to people. like i mean i know OTHER PEOPLES bdays are big to them#i find ppl who rlly love their bdays to be rlly cute. like i dont think theyre selfish or make fun of em cus theyre judt having fun#n like u only get one x yr bday so have fun with it!!#but for ME? my bday was never anything special n i dont think it is now#everybody feels bad or smthing for me or for not getting me nothing today but it's like?? this is the norm??? im cool with it#ive been thinking abt other stuff like i just dont have time to think abt the pleasures rn. i have to double on the pain or smthing#like my friends always laugh abt how i dont drink coffee/tea or alcohol bcs u cant be in the medical field without a lil smn smn#& it's like idk ! i like ppl that do do that kinda stuff but like! i never grew up with that & it just feels odd to do it now kinda thing#idk im very cheap but also i will use the fact that im cheap on the small stuff to justify wanting to make a big purchase#i have a weird relationship with buying things for myself vs for others like 4 others i will buy watever u want bro#sugar papi ted#hey heres this idk insert raccoon bracelet bcs u like raccoons n love wearing bracelets so i thot of u n bought it#but if i buy smthing for me it has to have a dual purpose or smthing#i got to have a free dessert today n chose the churros over the tres leches cake slicr cus u can judt make the cake#but i dont own a deep fryer so i cant make churros n storebought churros just arent the same#like im just always idk comparing or needing to know the use of things yanno#if i do smthing. i have to see it thru. & it has to have multi purpose#i mean just look at my username jrue ships or jrue's hips like#im unwell when it comes to that#idk is anyone else like this#anyways yea this whole new thing of getting stuff on one day is hard for me like it just never matches up with my time#of course ill see stuff id like to have but like. ill just make myself forget it n by the time stuff like this rolls up it's like idk#i COULD get a new laptop but i got one that works just fine. i got an ipad on its last legs but can i still turn it on? alright
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#absolutely obsessed with morgan buying a coffee and throwing it out without drinking it#just so he has an excuse to get into a queue with a Pretty Woman.#and to reiterate its not a situation where he like. chugs it real quick and then tosses it. no.#i dont think theres even coffee IN the cup yet when he tosses it. he's putting sugar(?) in it when he spots jordan#its made so much funnier to me by the fact that he doesnt drink it#its not “so either you love bad coffee or...” but “so either you love PAYING FOR bad coffee or...”#sorry this is probably only funny to me. ill shut up now#i dont blame him though. women...#jordan todd#derek morgan#not fic#criminal minds#criminal minds rewatch#criminal minds s04e05#catching out#criminal minds 4x5#my gifs#sorry not great ones#for some reason it's harder when the scene is already well-lit lol
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*cardi b's voice* what was the reason!?!
#no seriously what does this scene mean why does it exist i cant stop thinking about it#the bear#the bear fx#the bear s2#the only thing i can think of is that each of the characters have a moment of connection one-on-one with another person#syd and her dad#tina and ebra#richie and chef terry (although richie has like ten thousand one-on-one tender moments dont even get me started)#carmy and claire ofc#but also carmy and mikey#or mikey and sugar#I CAN KEEP GOING#anyway#the thing is marcus by this point has already had his one-on-one moment with Eyebrow Chef#and there's obv some nice parallels between that scene and the richie-terry scene#but this scene is SO different from all the others#and when i mean all the others i mean ALL the other scenes. not just the one-on-ones#i cant think of another moment like this in the show not even s1#its so interesting and important to me idk#the only other thing that comes to mind#is in relation to that comment Eyebrow Chef makes about being Out There. that THAT'S what it's all about#and then boom marcus is faced with this random serious situation#christopher storer drop your location i just wanna talk real quick#my posts
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No one likes disgustingly sweet treats like they used too, it feels lonely in the kitchen.
#i used to bake some STUFF#now i just know most people think most cakes and cookies are too sweet and im already being careful about that#bc the recipes really add too much sugar its sickening. but even a normal amount ppl dont like it anymore idk#nana is posting#cupbreak
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I will never understand how some people hate all tea, which there are like a billion flavors of, but love coffee, which all has the same terrible taste no matter what
#i hate when people try to get me to drink coffee by being like try this one its mostly sugar you can't even taste the coffee#i literally can taste the coffee in things that are stored next to coffee beans for a prolonged period of time#several people have tested me by tricking me into drinking something with trace amounts of coffee and i can always taste it#and its fucking disgusting#i hate the smell also. when i worked at starbucks i had a terrible time. i couldnt even drink our smoothies bc the mix was stored w coffee#and i could taste it in the smoothie. everyone thought i was insane but once they gave me 2 samples of smoothie#one from a brand new mix and one that had been sitting with the coffee beans for a long time. and i knew which was which#without being told. and they finally believed me lmao#i will never forget this one time i accidentally switched mine and my friend's and drink (soda and iced coffee)#and took a huge sip of iced white chocolate mocha with caramel (i also dont like white chocolate and caramel!)#and almost threw up. i had to seriously fight to swallow it bc i knew if i spit it out in my friends car he'd fucking kill me#i was like well in case you were wondering i still hate coffee
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It always seems a bit unbalanced on The Great Food Truck Race when there will be multiple teams who are cooking a wide variety of complex dishes with 10 different components and a bunch of prep work, and then there's that one team who like... exclusively serves plain crepes with some premade nutella on them, or plain waffles with just some whipped cream and cut up strawberries lol...
#AND then they'll be the winning team or whatever and its like... wow... imagine that... I wonder how its possible that they can get#more dishes out faster than the other teams... hrrmm.... lol#Not that they aren't still doing work like. obviously it's still hard and there's still a sales component and other stuff to be done#but It's just kind of unbalanced seeming when one group is serving like grilled shrimp sandwich with 3 homemade sauces and a#slaw and two sides and the other people are like... slicing fruit and drizzling a bottle of hersheys chocolate syrup on top of some thing#they just threw in a waffle maker for a few minutes#You see the footage of the teams cooking and everyone is like prepping a ton of different things and meat and vegetables and they have#boiling pots and pans and fryers going and tossing stuff in bowls and compiling these multi component dishes#and then That One Team is always just casually slicing bananas or doing some whipped cream in a bowl gbjhbhj#They usually dont even make their own caramel or chocolate sauces or anything. Nutella out of a jar babey!#So all you're really Making is like... whipped cream. and some sort of batter (waffle. crepe. etc)#If I got placed in a competition like that and I found out one of my opponents just sold waffles or pancake sticks or etc#like that I would just be like... okay.. I'm out then. bye. OR I would pivot and be like.. right I shall remove all complexity from my menu#whatsoever and just start selling plain balls of fried dough with powdered sugar or plain fries with nothing on them or something lol#update: OH my god.. one of these teams on a newer season is selling a 'bonus add on' where you can add#cinnamon sugar and caramel syrup (possibly not even home made by them???? just from a bottle) for $5 extra on your order#If I bought a $12 waffle from a food truck and they were like 'hey do you want to upgrade? for only $5 we'll drizzle a teaspoon#of caramel and sprinkle a little sugar and cinnamon on there!' I feel like I would cancel my order and walk away.#that is a $1 add on at MOST.. for a freaking DRIZZLE of caramel sauce LOL#and of course this team is in the top 3... squirrel.... come ON...#Which I know all these shows are fake and bad and whatever. I dont watch them seriously. I think I liked the first few seasons#but then anything past like season 4 (or whenever they started having established people who already ran food trucks on there#instead of taking a bunch of peope who had never run a food truck before and giving them one - which is a much more equal footing#premise to me) I have just been increasingly annoyed at and I really just have the show on for background noise#whilst doing chores or something and am not genuinely paying that much attention but... my god.. At least try to pretend its fair lol#WHICH I KNOWW... you can say 'well the other teams could do similar if they wanted.' or blah blah. tehcnically it's THEIR choice to#make stuff from scratch and not sell a bunch of packaged frozen chicken wings dropped into a fryer over a shitty 6min waffle or etc.#but... I will never respect a $5 for 1tbsp of caramel sauce type of situation.. even if they win.. you will always be losers in my heart#So many teams with real cooking skill & good concepts go home to the 'slap nutella on fried dough' people... how...
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i was just sitting in the kitchen eating breakfast, having greek yogurt with grape nuts - which i thought was perfectly normal - and my mom cam in and with complete sincerity told me that i needed to have some fruit with it because otherwise i was basically eating plain sugar. am i going insane here
#boink#i went grocery shopping for her the other day and apparently i got the wrong yogurt bc it has too much sugar and fat in it#idk#anyway she got mad at me for eating yogurt the other day too#i had had one spoon of it after stirring it up out of the fridge#and she got all prickly and asked if i ever check the serving size on food#and that i should pay attention to how much i was eating and put it in a bowl instead of eating it out of the container#which i was notable not doing#anyway#she also got upset when she noticed it was the wrong kind and said that i needed to be careful eating it because it's basically candy#and THEN when i got upset abt this she said not to get mad at her for caring#which#ok#but i just#god#i dont know#im the fattest person in my family#when i was a kid one of the traits that i sort of adopted bc people said it abt me was that i was 'always hungry'#even though that wasnt true#that im not picky and ill eat anything which /again/ is not true#and now that im older i can just tell. that people look at me and think i'm gluttonous. like it's a sin right#and i know especially with my family that that's what theyre thinking about me#i already have so much guilt about wanting things and enjoying things#like this year at school i feel like i was doing so well with that kind of thing#and i gained weight of course i did of course#and thats shitty and whatever the fuck but also i didnt hate myself for it a lot of the time?#and now im back in my house and its just like. i dont know#i need to work through things one step at a time#and i just cant#i mean not with everyone watching
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oatmeal rlly is the best breakfast like they optimized breakfast w that one
#have some time in the morning? make yummy yummy oatmeal#dont have any time in the morning?#just soak oatmeal over night#want smth high protein? goes perfect w oatmeal#want low cal? oatmeal is relatively low cal while being so so filling#also it literally just has the taste and texture of whatever u put in it#stop putting in like. a sprinkle of cinamon and saying u dont like oatmeal put in a huge heaping spoon of nutella#also its superrrrrrrrr low allergen there is literally zero allergens in there everyone can eat oatmeal it will not affect ur stomach at al#ultimate safe food when u have an awful digestive system#the texture is also like fine once u get used to it#also if u add some chia seeds that can change the texture a lot to be more uniform (also its pudding like which is a pretty good text)#also u can add varying ratios of water which also affects the texture#as well as depending on how long u cook and/or soak the oatmeal#literally best breakfast ever#and thats not even mentioning like baked oats/oat flour and other such applicationsg#also sososososooso cheap#9$ for a literal whole month of breakfast#not including additives but like if ur going for cheap a container of cinnamon and pb is another 5$#OATMEALLLL#i love oatmeal#maple n brown sugar instant oatmeal by quaker is rlly good imo#the protein version is like. a steep decline tho sadly
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ASDFHJKLG PUTTING HER CHRISTMAS STUFF UP??? IS SO???? EVIL????
It is her fault for being baby-cousin. If she didn't want this to be her life, she shouldn't have been born last.
I'm the middle child of the cousins and no one dares prank me.
Because it's too hard and also I always get my revenge.
#ask#plus i have a password protected folder on my computer and 3 harddrives that is titled 'blackmail'#and everyone in my family believes I have horrible photos of them that I am fully prepared to post#nothing dirty but like embarrasing mid-sneeze photos and screen shots of embarrasing texts#so they give me a wide birth and only play the small pranks like hiding my knife at dinner#or putting sugar packets in my purse at a restaurant if I use the bathroom.#but in reality the folders are all empty#its just the existence of the folder and their own imaginations as to what is inside keeps them in line#at first when my uncle asked as a joke yes there was a funny screen shot of my grandma sneezing on a skype call when i was overseas#but the way he asked; i was trying to think of a funny retort and too much time passed so i just kept quiet with a neutral expression#and theyve been scared ever since#a lot of people think im more scheme-ie than i am simply because if i feel i havent come up with a reply in the right time frame#i just dont say anything#or cock an eyebrow and let them imagine what it means#see in HS my friends would tease me for accidentally saying something that sounded naughty and i could never get them#because i didnt have a pervy mind back then#so i started just giving them the same look theyd give me and they would freak out like i caught them#even though nothing they said sounded pervy to me#i applied the same practice to family interrogations#and if people think you know something theyll fill in everything for you
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got roped into a month-long sugar detox
can't even put honey in my tea
sobs miserably
#help#sugar detox#its my birthday month#i can't even have a cake?#i just want cake#please#im turning 21 i cant even have a margarita#i KNOW this will be good for me#but oh my gosh#im still gonna do it#I DONT HAVE TO LIKE IT
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im still thinking about the idea that microwaved boiling water is somehow worse than stove water. what is there even to be snobby about there, it's not like the water is gonna be heated unevenly or have the fat separated out and scalded, there's only one thing in water and its water. there's nothing for the microwaves to fuck up.
#like afaik microwaves are generally less good at cooking things well because they dont account for different Stuff#unlike a convection oven that heats the air (which heats the food)#a microwave heats the water/sugar/fat in food. leaving weird pockets if that stuff is uneven#(thats probably a wild oversimplification but i think its basically right)#and again. water does NOT have an uneven distribution of water. because its water.#and even if it did it diffuses heat so fast youre not gonna get like. a weird lukewarm bit
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I need a little pick me up *stares at the food app* but everything is so expensive....
#i took a shower i watched some videos and checked up and... now i feel so exhausted...#i guess it finally caught up with me... i havent really even interacted much... wish i... nono its okay. i did a lot#i want something cold and sweet... i want chocolate but tapioca is too expensive and i dont have something to make the drink with....#and we dont have enough sugar to make the pearls anyways....#i am scared of friday... im scared of Thursday night.... im scared of the future... *gets notification*#... hey at least people are happy... thats nice... people are happy and living in the present. im so proud of them#if you read till here i have a small plastic brain do you wanna see it?#im emotionally okay im just really tired a tapioca or something like a smoothie could help but everythings too expensive...#seari talks
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